Chapter 72 second quarter

My painting failed in the N exhibition. When Tajima Kohei’s painting won the special prize, I had to admit that I had completely failed. Well, some people have denied my future behind my back, saying that Jingguan's paintings are not paintings but photos. This is a very serious criticism for painters. After Kohei Tajima became famous, his attitude towards me has not changed, but I know that people around me see me in a different light. In the eyes of these people, I have become Tajima's admirer, Tajima's follower, I am so vain that I really can't stand this kind of criticism.

I repeatedly told myself not to talk to him, but I couldn't do it, because the more famous he was, the more pressure he put on me. I started to want to avoid him. In fact, I wanted to escape failure before returning to Sendai. You said that I took advantage of Kohei Tajima and Mariko's marriage to cover up my failure, and returned to my hometown on the grounds of being broken in love.What you said is not wrong at all. I pretended to be broken in love and returned to my hometown out of face. However, I am not completely devoid of love for Mariko, she is a very ideal object, if I get my wish and become a famous painter, maybe I will marry her.

Therefore, I used her to marry Tajima, which made me taste the failure of the second level. When I returned to Sendai, I felt a sense of humiliation. However, I didn’t have the idea of ​​killing Kohei Tajima, but tried to forget him. That’s why I gave up painting and concentrated on running the hotel. This is true, not me lying.However, for those who are used to holding paintbrushes, it is not so easy to give up the paintbrush. Therefore, whenever I pass in front of the painting materials store, there will be ripples in my heart, wondering why I have to give up the paintbrush. In this way, while tasting failure, I am convinced that I have the talent for painting, and as long as I give it time, I will definitely be able to emerge.

So I secretly rented a house in Taizhiyuan and took time to paint there. The reason why I changed my name to Tsuneo Goto was because I didn’t want others to know that I was painting, and because I changed my name so that I could face the canvas with a new mood. Maybe. However, it is useless for me to do this, because whenever I face the canvas, I think of Yukihei Tajima. The results are the same, but I still don't think I have the talent for painting. I think that without Tajima Kohei, I would be able to draw free and lively paintings, and because of this kind of thinking, I will hate Tajima Kohei, not only hate him, but also hate him. exist.

It's a psychology that's almost damning compared to purely competitive psychology.I began to want to kill him, because killing was more to my liking than killing. I considered various ways to eliminate Kohei Tajima. At first, I read mystery novels like anyone else, learned from other people's crimes, and learned that no alibi is 100% safe. Debunking, therefore, I want to ignore the alibi and make the motive superficial, but the real motive must be hidden. I also consider using the law of "only suspect, not punish" 100%. About my method of committing crimes, almost everything you said is correct, and I use everything I can, such as Tajima Mariko writing a diary!Both of them are easy to trust others, and I know from the newspaper that the owner of Kokubo Pharmacy has a criminal record, etc. I use these people to draw up a murder plan.

Needless to say, I also took advantage of her habit of arriving earlier than the appointed time.Because I was afraid of being seen through the real motive, because that was my fatal injury, when a matchmaker came to be a matchmaker, I refused on the grounds that I could not forget the women in Tokyo. The rumor spread as I planned, and I can see that my plan can be a complete success, because everyone knows that I still miss Mariko Tajima, a woman in Tokyo, and I have successfully created a 'male-female relationship' After the incident, both newspapers and weekly magazines said it was 'a tragedy derived from a triangle relationship'.I think my plan succeeded, because the incident was derived from the relationship between men and women, so I had no motive, and I was not guilty. As I expected, I was released without guilt and returned to Sendai. However, Fuutarou Egami suddenly appeared , He has nothing to be afraid of, although he has read Mariko's diary and knows that I brought the wine mixed with potassium cyanate, but he can't prove it.If this is the case, there is no need to kill Fuutarou Egami. However, he knows that I continue to paint under the pseudonym Goto Tsuneo, and he is also a painter. You should know that painters have a strong sense of competition and jealousy, which can be easily inferred. Why do I continue to paint under a pseudonym? In this way, my real motive must be known. Therefore, I will kill Egami Fuutarou. As you can imagine, I let the illusory Goto Tsuneo commit suicide in order to deal with Egami Fuutarou. It is also true that when Egami was killed, the corpse had Mariko Tajima's diary on him.

You might think that I went to Odaigahara just after I was released, but I was discovered by Fuutarou Egami, maybe it was too stupid. I also know that after the incident, it is very dangerous to go to Taizhiyuan to rent a house in the name of Tsuneo Goto, but I must go. Because I want to know whether Tajima Kohei can stand in front of the canvas with peace of mind. I can say that killing people for paintings is also digging my own grave for paintings.