Chapter 8 Chapter 7 Off-campus work: we are happy, we cry

In October 1996, Zhengzhou University ushered in a special freshman named Sun Tianshuai. Sun Tianshuai is indeed unusual, because he has jumped directly from an ordinary "wage earner" to a college student in a prestigious university, and what made him realize this leap was an incident that happened during a part-time job more than a year ago. That day, Jin Zhenxian, the foreign female boss of Zhuhai Ruijin Electronics Co., Ltd., the unit where Sun Tianshuai worked, suddenly asked all the Chinese employees in the factory who were working hard on the production line to stand in line and asked every Chinese person to raise their hands in a gesture of surrender. , and then knelt down on the spot.Jin Zhenxian did this because in the past two years, the female boss has often asked the employees to work overtime, and even the Spring Festival holiday was not allowed. On the morning of March 7, 1995, a female worker who worked overtime for several days was overworked and fell asleep on the workbench during her break.In order to punish this "violating" female worker, the foreign female boss has a "collective education" that requires all employees to kneel, and claims that if one person refuses to obey, the rest will be punished to "kneel to work forever."Forced to helplessness, many workers knelt down with tears in their hesitation... Sun Tianshuai was one of the humiliated Chinese employees, but when the workers knelt down one after another, he stood there motionless like a green pine.

"Kneel down!" the female boss growled at him. "Excuse me, why should I kneel down?" Sun Tianshuai suppressed the anger in his heart and asked. "If you don't kneel, get out!" "I can leave, but as a Chinese, I want to sue you for what you have done on our Chinese soil!" Sun Tianshuai held his head high, left his monthly job of 1,300 yuan, and strode away from the female boss. passed, and left that place of shame forever. "I am Chinese, and I will never kneel in front of foreign bosses!" Sun Tianshuai, the "Chinese who does not kneel", has since become a hero extolled by thousands of migrant workers and praised by hundreds of millions of Chinese compatriots. On July 16, 1996, after CCTV "Oriental Time and Space" broadcast relevant reports again, Sun Tianshuai became a hot topic again for a while.

There is a saying: A man has gold under his knees.In China's thousands of years of traditional culture, kneeling is a kind of rational and moral degeneration in the face of personality and national dignity; in the face of true love and family affection, kneeling is the most important reward and the highest respect for filial piety; however There is another kind of kneeling in life that is also very noble and precious, that is kneeling for long-term struggle or temporary survival. In the eyes of us Chinese, the word "kneeling" contains too much content and connotation. In the eyes of college students, the word "kneeling" is a kind of dignity of personality and equivalence of knowledge, so it is more particular.In the new historical period, college students who have always been "the proud sons of heaven", many of them have to lower their proud heads and engage in things they should not have done in order to survive and live.In front of such a word "kneeling", some people correct their mentality and face the reality bravely, thus getting rid of the original difficulties and ensuring their studies. Such "kneeling" is also noble and valuable; If you can't straighten your mind, you will either shrink back before the word "kneeling" or surrender to the word "kneeling".

"Kneeling" is undoubtedly a painful process for thousands of college students living in poverty. It is a kind of bitter helplessness and a high price. Gold forged alone in the kiln of the soul! Some people may not experience the process of "kneeling" once in their life, but for those college students who earn a living for their basic survival, they experience the tempering and torture of "kneeling" almost every time... A college student told me that he was first arranged by the school’s Work-Study Guidance Center to work as a water and electricity collector for the school’s family building. This is not a complicated job. There are always a few families in those three buildings who say nasty things and do things that make things difficult for you every time he goes to charge.He said that once when a household was charged, the owner refused to pay the electricity bill in full because he suspected that the meter was not accurate.The classmate said that the ban on the electric meter has nothing to do with my charging according to the regulations, and I only care about my duties.The host threw a big ticket of 100 yuan on the classmate's face angrily, saying that you will accept it!Are you so poor and crazy that you want to get your tuition out of other people's utility bills!This classmate said that he was really angry and cried at that time, and he threw away the fee book and never worked in the school again.Later, he went to work in the society, but the experience of working made him suffer more humiliation and pain.He said that after a long time he understood, because any kind of low-level labor that serves others will inevitably encounter unpleasant things of one kind or another. Perhaps it is this special ordeal that makes college students The work-study program is even more valuable.

There is some truth to what this student said.In the work of helping college students get rid of the difficulties in life, in recent years, schools and Communist Youth League organizations at all levels have created a large number of work-study opportunities for poor students through their respective possibilities.However, the school is not a labor market after all. Even if the teachers make use of many places where there is no need to set up posts, and let the students do some symbolic work-study programs, it will not be able to satisfy the large number of poor students in the school.Those who can work on campus are as enviable to poor students as those "planned graduates" who can get a job without worrying about it. And these people, whether they are "blue collar workers" or "white collar workers", In fact, it only accounts for about one-tenth of the total number of impoverished students in colleges. The vast majority of impoverished students want to survive and strive for self-reliance, to a large extent, they have to go out of school to work in the society.

"The outside world is really wonderful, and the outside world is really dark and cruel." Almost every college student who works in the society has such a profound experience. Indeed, the first thing college students have to face when they work part-time is how to accept being devalued as an intellectual. It is not particularly good luck. Almost no boss treats the college students who come to work as knowledgeable people and hires them reasonably. Cheap labor to hire you.Don't you just want to get a meal money?Then you can honestly put down your college student airs. I can provide you with an errand in exchange for a share of money. If you want to do it, you can stay. You want to get a job equivalent to your status and knowledge. I’m sorry, please find another high school At once.That's what some educated bosses say to you.If you meet a rich man with no culture, then I'm afraid it will be a different tone: Niang, what kind of bastard do you think you are?In this city of ours, there is a queue for those with a master’s degree or a doctor’s degree who want to get their hands on the disk. If a “stupid (undergraduate) student” like you just rubs my feet and pees, I’d better look in the mirror first to see if I’m worthy!

Are you angry?Then take it on your own.You proudly waved your hands and got up to go back to school, but this city does not distribute relief food to the "poor people", and even if it did, it would not be your turn, the noble "Heavenly Proud Son".You are helpless, so you have to "face the reality" and lower the value of a college student to work as a laborer who doesn't need education at all, as long as you can work hard. This phenomenon is more prominent in today's Chinese society.A large number of laid-off workers, a large number of state agencies downsizing cadres, coupled with a large number of business depression, and the surplus of labor in the whole society, have made human resources almost lose the most basic advantage in job selection. University workers are facing the same challenges without exception. .

Before the summer vacation in July 1998, I walked into the work-study offices of several universities in the capital. Several teachers in charge of this work sighed and shook their heads when faced with the problem of part-time jobs for students staying in schools during the holidays, which was several times the number in previous years.In a school with 5,000 to 6,000 students, there are 1,000 to 2,000 students who don’t go home during the holidays. Are you in charge or not?No matter, you have to arrange jobs for them, but now there are dozens of times more laid-off people in society than students who want to work!You don't care, they won't pay the school fees when the school starts in September, the bad luck is still the school.Alas, I really don't know what to do... Through these heavy sighs, it is not difficult for us to feel the severity of reality.

Let's go, let's find a job for ourselves!The students said so.In fact, they have already made preparations, because the long summer vacation is the best time to work and earn money. They don’t have to go home unless they have to. This can save a lot of travel expenses, and more importantly, the tuition and living expenses for the new school year will all depend on this The result of part-time work during the holidays.In China Agricultural University, I conducted a "Survey on Summer Vacation Work Practice of College Students". Among the 30 students surveyed, 28 clearly stated that the purpose of staying in Beijing for the holiday is to earn tuition and fees for the next school year. living expenses.

What are you going to do on vacation? It is best to be a business of a certain company, and secondly expect a regular tutor. How much money are you going to make on vacation? The more the better, but at least it must be around 2,000 yuan.Because the tuition and living expenses for the next school year are indispensable. What if you can't find a good job? Then it can only be done according to the situation. In the end, anyone who has money to earn will have to fight for any job. ——The above is a conversation between me and a student staying in school during the holidays. At the beginning of July, just after the school's promotion exam was over, he joined the "wage workers" pouring out of the university. A few days later, he called and told me——

Fortunately, an economic tabloid hired me as a special editor. What treatment? piecework wage system.A monthly target of 20,000 yuan will be given a 30% commission, isn't it low?If I can organize one or two paid forums, the tuition fee for the new school year will be covered! After answering the phone, I sincerely hoped that this classmate would succeed, but I had to secretly think that the job he was doing was actually a trick for others to squeeze him out.There are thousands of large and small newspapers and magazines in the capital, and it is not a new thing for them to play this kind of tricks.To put it bluntly, I hired you as a "special contributor", to put it bluntly, I hired you as an amateur advertising errand runner to pull money.I have worked in newspapers and magazines for ten or twenty years, and I have seen this kind of thing a lot. I wanted to remind this classmate, but I couldn't bear to shatter his "dream of getting rich". Sure enough, approaching mid-August, just when the writing of this book was entering the late stage, suddenly one day that classmate called again, and his voice made me very worried—— Teacher, I fell for them... Don't worry, tell me what's going on first? He, they made me travel for a whole month without giving me a penny, but I spent more than 200 yuan in transportation expenses.Do you think they are black or not? Is it because you didn't get a manuscript, or didn't get a sponsor? pulled.I pulled up two whole layouts! Then why doesn't the newspaper pay you? The newspaper said that my two pages should be pulled back to 40,000 yuan, but only 30,000 yuan was in place. The reason is that one of the companies' economy is not doing well. I don't want to give the latter 10,000 yuan. They are bosses, but they either ignore me or avoid me.I knew I couldn't get back the 10,000 yuan, and the 30,000 yuan I worked so hard to get was worthless, so I went to stop the car of the company boss every day, but he just didn't give me the money.Teacher, what do you think I can do?I waited in that company for a whole day, and they didn’t give me a seat, and they didn’t even give me a drink... I couldn’t help it. Finally, I grabbed the manager, knelt down in front of him, and begged him to pay the money he owed. Newspaper... You, are you really kneeling? real.I really have no choice. If he insists on it, won't he ruin my whole month of hard work?Then I will be miserable going to school next school year. Oh, you!Did he agree to pay later? Teacher, listen to me first.When that guy saw me kneeling in front of him, he had no choice but to say yes at that time. Seeing that a college student of yours knelt down for me, he asked me to take a day to collect the check.When I heard this at the time, I kowtowed to him three times as if I saw a lifesaver.Teacher, don't you believe it?I really gave him a knock!I thought at the time, what a few kowtows, it would be a big deal if I didn’t get the thousands of yuan in labor remuneration, so what would I get to pay the tuition when the next semester starts?What do you live on?A day later, I arrived at the door of this company early, but after waiting for a long time, the company didn't open the door.After asking, I found out that the company had moved out the day before.At this time, I realized that I had been fooled, but, but I never thought why these bastards are so bad... Take it easy.There is a way to deal with him: go to the Industrial and Commercial Bureau to check their old background. I went, and people said that the boss is from Haikou, where are you chasing him?Teacher, tell me, I, am I not a dumb man who eats coptis! no.But in front of this kind of person who doesn't even have basic morals, you shouldn't kneel down to him. What can I do?If he wanted to give me money, he would just let me kneel for a day. ... Regarding this classmate, every time I think of him, I feel an indescribable feeling in my heart.But later he called me again, saying that the newspaper that hired him was so pitiful and gave him 1,000 yuan as remuneration.He said that there is still a period of time before leaving school, and he is trying to find a tutor, so that it is possible to cover the basic expenses for the next school year. May God open his eyes. As I write this, I can't help but think of my classmate Xiao Fu from a certain medical university.A youth magazine once published a short article about him being a "foot-washing worker", which was very interesting.So one Sunday, I asked him to come to the office to talk about his work experience. "That's the most despicable job, don't give me 'fame'!" Xiao Fu's first sentence when we met was to ask me to promise not to reveal his real name.It's easy, I agreed. "Actually, we college students go out to work to make money. What we do is essentially the same thing. Whether we can make money is the key. I work as a foot cleaner because it can make more money than tutoring or delivering small advertisements. On the other hand, I am a medical student, so it is more suitable to be a foot cleaner than others." Xiao Fu is actually very talkative. "I heard that there are also foot washing shops in Beijing, have you been there?" "No, absolutely not." "Why? You can work as a foot cleaner when you return to Zhengzhou on vacation, but why don't you do it in Beijing?" "There are still some differences. After all, I go to school here, so it's not good for my classmates to know." Xiao Fu smiled, it seems that he still has some concerns, "Besides, I use two vacations a year to dry feet in Zhengzhou The money I earn is enough for my annual tuition and living expenses, so I don’t need to be busy anymore.” "Is that enough?" "The difference is not much worse. To tell you the truth, I earned about 2,000 yuan in one winter vacation this year." "I heard that there are 'hair washing rooms' and 'foot washing rooms' in some places. In fact, many of them are pornographic places, don't you know?" "There are indeed. But I'm a boy, so I'm not too afraid." Xiao Fu began to introduce to me his strange and intriguing experience as a "Mr. Washing Feet": ... My family is not actually in Zhengzhou, it is more than 200 miles away from Zhengzhou.The situation of my family has not been good in the past few years, either because the harvest in the field is not good, or because my parents are injured and my mother is always suffering from illness. In this situation, it is conceivable that I can only rely on myself to go to university in Beijing.The first semester of my freshman year was the hardest, and I had less than 200 yuan left in my pocket after paying the tuition fees. I was rescued by a few kind-hearted fellow villagers in Henan to get through those six months.Back in the first winter vacation, I got off from Zhengzhou Railway Station, walked out of the station and took a look, oh my god, when did Zhengzhou suddenly become a "foot-washing city"?You haven't been to Zhengzhou in recent years, have you?That has changed a lot, and the most popular ones are all kinds of "foot-washing rooms" and "foot-washing cities" popping up everywhere.Someone joked: People in Guangzhou love to wash their hair, and people in Zhengzhou love to wash their feet. One south and one north, one head and one foot. It is really a scenic line. It is said that there are hundreds of "foot-washing cities" in the city.The "Asian Commercial War" that year has now become a "Footwashing War".To be honest, I don't understand what's going on, and I don't want to understand it. What I care about is how I can earn money to maintain my studies.I have a relative in Zhengzhou who missed the long-distance bus back to his hometown after getting off the train, so he stayed at his relative's house that night.It was that night that made me embark on the road of "foot washing".When I was having dinner at a relative’s house that day, the news that a company used a “foot-washing room” to engage in underground pornography was being confiscated by the police was showing on TV. Seeing this, my uncle’s relative said that some people in society are simply outrageous , He will always make it up for you in a different way, making you hard to guard against.No, what kind of "foot-washing trend" is emerging now, it's still the same old way to put it bluntly, engaging in pornography!The uncle's son didn't like to hear it. He said that it can't be generalized. Washing feet is good for the body, so it attracts so many customers. This is also a product of the market economy!The uncle was not happy when he heard his son say this, saying that your kid said so many benefits of washing feet, why don't you usually wash your stinky feet at home?The son said that the washing at home is different from the washing outside.I got angry when I heard it: Don't do this to me, you bastard!If you dare to go to those ghostly places to wash your dog's feet, I will break your dog's legs!I almost couldn't bear my breath while listening to it, and hurriedly said to my uncle: There is nothing wrong with washing your feet, but you don't have to go to the "city" outside to wash. In fact, according to the theory of Chinese medicine, it is enough to wash your feet. Bottom massage is backed by science.No, my cousin is a medical student, so his words are authoritative.My cousin seemed to have found a theoretical basis and yelled at me.Uncle, why did you listen to this, what theory is not theoretical, the "foot washing" they do outside is different from the foot washing at home?I watched the father and son arguing endlessly, so I brought my uncle a basin of hot water and asked him to wash his feet to calm down.In order to express my gratitude to his family, I massaged and kneaded my uncle a few times with a little hospitality. "Don't stop, pinch again!" The uncle looked at me in surprise, and suddenly applauded: "Hey, you really have two strokes, it's quite comfortable to rub and pinch a few times like this! Tell me, isn't it a big school?" Did you learn it?" He opened his mouth, widened his eyes, and asked.I laughed and said, how can I learn such a simple job in college?Then why do you pinch my foot socket so comfortably?It seems that my uncle insisted on asking about it today, so I had no choice but to tell him that this is foot massage. There are 74 acupuncture points on human feet and calves. Foot points are not only the gathering points of nerves, but also a collection of various nerve endings in the human body. .Because the reflex areas of both feet are directly connected with the nerves of the whole body, frequent massage can relieve fatigue, and it is more beneficial to the elderly, such as urinary diseases, endocrine disorders, etc., can be relieved and cured through foot massage.When the uncle heard this, he said that you should not run home during the winter vacation today, stay in Zhengzhou and give me the press twice a day, and my uncle will pay you.I laughed, and said that uncle only needs your old words, and I am afraid that I will not be blessed if I want to serve you.The cousin on the side has something to say this time, said Dad, did you reply this time?The popular "foot washing" in the city is the foot massage you just enjoyed.The uncle asked me suspiciously if I was, so I had to say that it was almost the same.Don't want me to say this, the old man came to his senses: nephew, I know your family is poor, and it is not easy for you to go to university in the capital.But you are a medical student. As the saying goes, you are only afraid of dying from illness, not getting rich from medical treatment.I think with your skills, any "foot-washing city" in Zhengzhou City will have to open their doors to invite you.My cousin got even more emotional, and said, cousin, you just need to say a word, and I will find you a job tomorrow. You are a college student studying medicine, and you must earn two to three thousand yuan a month.Can you earn so much?It sounded like a fantasy to me.But the next day my cousin talked with him, and the boss of "Foot Washing City" agreed, and said that he would pay 100 yuan for a full shift, and the tip could be his own.Where can I find such a good thing?So I agreed to stay.In the afternoon of that day, I went to report to the "Foot Washing City" led by my cousin. Before leaving, my cousin also specially ordered me to bring my student ID card.When I reported for work, I saw that the owner of the "Foot Washing City" was very enthusiastic about me, saying that his shop lacked "expert" masseurs with a high degree of education like me.This cousin, he doesn't know what to say to me.When my cousin saw me staring at him, he immediately winked.I thought to myself that foot massage is not a difficult job anyway. After applying for a job, if I can earn thousands or eight hundred a month, then I don’t have to worry about it for the next school year.I was thinking about my own calculations. go to work.Only then did I realize that I was assigned to the "female guest department". I had never seen so many dainty women dangling in front of my eyes in bathrobes and towels!To be honest, when I walked into the boss’s office and said that I’d better go to the “men’s department”, I didn’t express my true “living thoughts” in my heart—I was really afraid of whether I had the ability to resist in this special environment. Stay away from "seduction".The boss didn't agree with my change of guard at all, and said that you were hired because there was a shortage of "expert" massage therapists in the "female guest department". "Young man, don't be afraid, they are not man-eating tigresses." The boss winked at me.But I still feel that most of the women who come to "Xianjiao City" are "Tigresses", and those virtuous women from good families definitely don't come to this kind of place.what to do?Since she's here, let's settle down, whether she's a tiger or a sheep, as long as she pays a lot of money.I made up my mind to take a winter vacation, anyway, it was a part-time job. The procedure of "Foot Washing City" is not complicated. After the guest comes in, you lead her (him) to the sofa. "Let's go to battle: the first one is to bring people a pot of medicine infused with traditional Chinese medicine. This medicine is usually prepared with safflower, snake skin, clove and other herbs. Although it has no special effect, it can at least prevent and eliminate beriberi. A class of health effects.Customers have to soak in this potion for about 20 minutes.In the meantime, I will start to introduce some common sense of foot massage to the guests. At this time, the general guests will ask you this or that question, and you must answer to the satisfaction of the other party, because this "spiritual trust" in foot health care , can play a multiplier role.The customer believes in the "scientific nature" of foot massage. Next, you can let her feel the "benefits" of foot health care you mentioned in terms of massage technology. This means that you have attracted a long-term customer.If it is an old customer, this item will be exempted, but you often have to spend more time listening to her (him) tell you about her (his) own problems about feet or something, of course you try to avoid That kind of endless homely chatting, but sometimes it can't be avoided, because this kind of emotional chatting is also an important aspect of strengthening the customer base.The bosses especially ask us to pay attention to doing a good job in this area, but it may cause trouble for us who work.One day a 50-year-old female guest came, and as soon as she entered the door, she lay on the sofa and began to chatter about how the poor families in her neighborhood went to the vegetable market to pick up the cheapest vegetables every day, and how and what As long as she is at home, he will find ways to get benefits from her.Because of this, she came to "Foot Washing City" to avoid others as much as possible.I was also from a poor family, and when I heard this, I hated these people from the bottom of my heart, so I just kept working and ignored her at all.Hey, suddenly this lady put a foot under my nose unreasonably, and asked me strangely whether her feet smell good or smelly, I suppressed my anger and didn't answer.She touched the tip of my nose again with her foot, and asked in a sharper voice whether it was fragrant or stinky.I'm angry and say it stinks.I don't think that just as I said it, the witch kicked me... and then she started swearing.At that time, I never thought that this girl would be so powerful, and I stayed on the sidelines at a loss.Later the boss came, and the woman even more brazenly told the boss that you are not "opening" today, and this kid will let your "foot-washing city" close tomorrow.Another thing I didn't expect was that the boss said a lot of "yes" in front of this woman.I found out later that that woman was the "wife of the director" of the Industrial and Commercial Administration Bureau in that urban area. No wonder the boss was so afraid of her.No need to ask, I was kicked out the first time I was a "foot cleaner". My cousin is very capable, and within two days he found me a job in another "Foot Washing City".This time I also grew my mind. When I met the kind of guests above, I just chatted with them intentionally or unintentionally. Anyway, it didn't affect the money-making errand at hand.Being a masseuse in the "Foot Washing City" is actually not an easy job, and it takes more than ten hours to get in.In order to earn more money and spend less, the boss uses as little manpower as possible, so I often deal with another before I finish one job.The female guests have more affairs than the male guests, and the women who enter the footwashing room are either powerful, rich or temperamental, and if they are a little neglected, they will cause some troubles.Since the bosses were willing to reveal my identity as a well-known medical student in the capital, there were fewer and fewer people who intentionally bullied me, but it was another type of guests that put you in a dilemma again.Among the female guests, there are many rich "ladies", and sometimes they will make you difficult to deal with.For example, there is a female guest who is the general manager of a certain company, a divorced single woman.She goes to the "Foot Washing City" almost every day to enjoy it. I received it a few times, and the service was probably not in place, so she gave me a tip of 200 yuan.After that, every time she came, she had to ask me to serve her specially, which was normal.But then something new happened: one day she called me suddenly, saying that she couldn't come to "Foot Washing City" because of her busy work at work, and asked if I could come to her home to serve.I said the boss has a rule, so I can't go.She said that she could have come, but because of a sprained ankle, she was unable to move around, and she hoped that I would go for a massage, and she would go out to discuss business the day after tomorrow.Since this is the case, I thought it would be hard to accumulate virtue for saving people, so I agreed.I didn't go by myself, she sent a car to pick me up.After all, a rich man is not ordinary. Her small villa is big enough to live in our class, and the furnishings inside are something I have only seen in movies and TV shows.The hostess' foot was indeed sprained and swollen, but not too serious.I naturally took out my housekeeping skills to massage her, and the hostess reclined on the sofa, looking extremely comfortable.When I was massaging her, she kept her eyes closed almost all the time, and just told me "a little left" and "a little right".She said again: "...a little higher. Yes, a little higher." I did as I did. "Okay, it's very comfortable, Xiaofu, go up a little more..." She was still giving orders, and kept making that kind of "humming" sound that I had never heard before.My hands stopped and trembled violently involuntarily.I knew I couldn't stay any longer, so I straightened up.Now I can say without any concealment that I was indeed a little bit involuntary at the time, but reason finally prevailed, so I said very resolutely to the hostess: "I'm sorry, I, I have to go!" At this time, I saw A scene that is still somewhat scary when I think about it: the hostess was uncharacteristically gentle, like an angry lioness, she picked up the pillow on the sofa and threw it at me, and then the coffee cup on the small table also threw it at me. I flew here..."You little donkey, get out! Get out—!" The scene after that was my embarrassment, and now I can't remember how I ran out of her villa and how I got back to my part-time job That "Foot Washing City", in short, I had nightmares for several nights... "What happened next?" This time I asked the "Foot Washer" Xiaofu on the opposite side.It can be seen that the college student who had the special experience of "Foot Washing City" is still wandering in his haunted nightmare. After a long time, he returned to normal, showing me the immaturity of that student, "Later... I still worked in 'Foot Washing City', honestly." He smiled at me with a reddish face, and explained, "Actually, it's normal to be a 'foot cleaner', especially in the 'female guest department'. But with the one above, I only dare to squat or kneel for the guests every time I work Work hard, but dare not look up more..." interesting.This is a special "wage earner" who is willing to kneel down. "I gained a lot of knowledge in the 'Foot Washing City' during that holiday, but the most important thing is that I earned enough money for me to go to school in the next school year." Xiao Fu's heart was full of sunshine.He whispered to me, "Now there are still some of my regular customers in Zhengzhou. They (they) often talk to me on the phone and hope that I will serve them (them) again when I go back during the holidays. Of course I will not give up on these people easily, because That is my 'financial source'. I even thought that if it is difficult to allocate after graduation, I might as well open a 'Foot Washing City'. There are too many foot diseases in China, and foot massage can really protect people's health." What a brilliant "kneeling", I am sincerely gratified for Xiaofu. Cheng Peng, a student at Wuhan University of Metallurgical Science and Technology, experienced the bitterness and hardships of a "wandering worker" within a few days of leaving school.For this reason, he wrote a "Modern Wandering Notes"—— I have always believed that there is nothing impossible to do in the world as long as one has a strong will.So, the summer vacation is here, and I start planning: Location - Beijing.When the economy is developed and the city is prosperous, it is impossible to practice bird hunting and fishing on an isolated island like Robinson Robinson.The so-called survival ability in modern times refers to the ability to survive in a society between people.The thousand-year-old city of the capital has long been longing for, and the distance between Beijing and Wuhan is suitable, which is an ideal place. Time - July 15, 1996 - Of course, I really wanted to write "summer vacation is over", but hesitated for a while, leaving a way for myself, and recorded it as "the day I can persist". Preparation - a pack of change of clothes, 100 RMB.Since it is a test of survivability, 100 yuan is suspected of cheating.But when you first go to a strange city, you have no relatives, no friends, and no money. It must be difficult to get a job right away. July 30, 1996 At 6:00 pm yesterday, I took the 38th air-conditioned express to leave Wuchang and go north to Beijing.A bag, 100 yuan, a trace of confusion, a trace of excitement, my strong man embarked on the road of wandering without looking back. After 20 hours of running, the train arrived at Beijing West Railway Station at two o'clock in the afternoon.Walking out of the West Railway Station, the sun was shining and the crowds were bustling, and I felt weak all over.A young girl approached me and persuaded me to take a rest at the "Xishuangbanna" hotel. "Clean bed, hot shower, big color TV, only 15 yuan per night, you are satisfied. You can watch it first, come back if you don't want to stay, we will give you a free ride..." Unable to withstand the girl's attention, It's not a bad idea to have a look, I got on the minibus to solicit customers.The girl gave me a card with her name on it and asked me to give it to the innkeeper.It turned out that her salary was based on the amount of soliciting customers, one card per person, and the boss calculated salary according to the card. The CMB makes 70% off, and the so-called "Xishuangbanna" is not a tropical jungle, but an underground forest, which is humid and cold - the basement is also!The twists and turns, bottomless, are the reconstruction of air-raid shelters, and the scope and depth of military conversion to civilians can be seen from this.I was secretly shocked, how can I live here!But I heard the noise in the hall. It turned out that some people didn't want to stay in the hotel and wanted to go back by car.The boss doesn't force him to stay, but he charges 20 yuan for the round trip.The old man hurriedly said that he had agreed with the station broker for a free ride, and even if there was a fee, the journey was only a few minutes away, so there was no reason why it was so expensive.The boss sneered, stop talking nonsense, either stay in the hotel or pay.A few big men were gearing up, adding to the deterrence.Helpless, the man swallowed his anger and asked to stay in the hotel.In this way, those of us who want to leave will also stay obediently, and local snakes can't afford it.But it has risen to 25 yuan per person, and no one dares to express objection.Of course, the broker's promise did not come true.There are hot baths, but it is hard to wait until there is an empty seat, and there is a risk of suddenly stopping the water after the whole body is covered with soap.The color TV is also placed in the hall, but it is said that it just broke down yesterday.Of course I dare not use the dirty and damp quilt, and sleep with clothes on. July 31, 1996 Looking for a job naturally requires a clean appearance.Get up early in the morning, wash up, and put on clean clothes.Buy a piece of "Beijing Evening News" and look for recruitment information while eating fried dough sticks.At a glance, they are all recruiting white-collar workers, and even managers and directors are recruiting talents. I am a "vagrant", and obviously I can only sell my labor.Forget about it for now, it's rare to go to Beijing, let's talk about it after shopping. Get off at the front door and see Tiananmen Square from a distance.Standing in the grand square, I feel like a drop in the ocean.Around the square, there are many contemporary Xiangzi wearing white sweaters and straw hats.There is a pergola on the back seat of the tricycle, and passengers can sit on it to enjoy the scenery of the square.Of course, the price is not cheap.Many foreigners have riders, and it is said that some of them have to switch places to get rid of the addiction of bicycle drivers. Not far from Tiananmen Square, Wangfujing is said to be the busiest place in the business world. There may be work to be done, so go and see first.Come on, it's just a shopping street, not as developed as imagined.Where to go?I was at a loss, when I suddenly saw the word "Recruitment" on the window of a restaurant. I touched my thinning pockets, mustered up the courage, pushed the door in, and said, I applied.The boss was a middle-aged woman with heavy makeup, and asked me what I would do, cooking?I answered no, thinking that scrambled eggs would be good at it.Well, we need a solicitor, have you ever done it?I said no.It doesn't matter, as long as you can handle foreigners.I know I'm incapable of pulling foreigners to be slaughtered—it's not that I feel sorry for foreigners' wallets, but that I don't have the ability.I secretly regret my sloppy English learning.老板又递过菜单，要我以英文读之，瞠目结舌，于是道声打扰，保持姿态出门。后来又试过一家牛肉面馆，结局更惨，只得冷冷四字——不招男工。 晚上在一家小旅店住下，钞票将竭，躺在床上，寻思着明日到哪儿去试试运气。 1996年8月1日 奔波一天，到处碰壁。劳务市场都要求持有北京市劳工证件，我乃盲流，无人敢用。吃毕晚餐，全身八个口袋仅余两毛钱。终于成了名副其实、一贫如洗的流浪汉（为此还喝了瓶啤酒纪念——更是壮胆，置之死地而后生之意）。 天色早暮，得找个地方睡觉。走到了北京车站，广场上黑压压一片，躺倒不少人。顾不了许多，最后两毛钱买张小贩专售露宿者的旧报纸，往地上一铺，头枕包袱倒下。一天跋涉的疲倦袭来，眼皮渐沉。恍惚间忽觉口袋内异动，豁然惊醒，刚好见只黑黑瘦瘦的爪子缩了回去。却是一干瘦青年，平头黑衫，左瞧右瞅，回避我的逼视。不再理他，坦然再睡，活该偷儿倒霉，遇上我这个穷光蛋。 1996年8月2日 早晨在冷风中醒来，但觉腹中空空，不知早餐如何着落，记起在“西双版纳”时，同屋一打工仔说崇文门有个黑劳工市场，黑者，非法也。没法，只有当一回黑劳工了。 果然是非法场所。十字路口这儿一堆，那儿一群，一望而知全是打工仔，神色间躲躲闪闪。偶有雇主来招工也不宜张扬，而是混在人群中，看到合意的就悄悄招走。此地所以禁而不绝，是因为来此打工者都无劳工证件，工资远低于合法劳工，所以虽然人色混杂，常有事故，但雇主图省钱，还是有不少人来招工。站在路旁，我做贼般心虚。路人那冷冷的眼光实在难以消受，已坚持不住，有一人凑近我，悄声问我可愿做杂工。我可谓绝处逢生，也不谈判，跟了就走。心想侥幸，也许是我看起来没有别人那种俗气憨气，所以有此运气。老板乃矮胖汉子，油光光的肥脸上长着两颗闪亮的小眼。一起被雇用的还有个张家港青年，与我年岁相仿，攀谈之下，颇为投机。他姓阮，资格比我老多了，在北京已混几年，以前在小饭馆炒菜。厨师打杂，实在是屈才。他说只因不久前被炒鱿鱼，一直找不到活，为生计只好自降身价，是干不长的。我亦称自己是打短工，并告诉他我的计划。他看着我，瞪大眼，像看一个疯子。“大学生出来流浪打工？可笑。你是还没尝到苦头……”他武断我的结局肯定是悲惨的。回想几天经历，火车站那许许多多打工仔疲惫的身影，落寞的眼神是如此清晰。我叹口气，世界的确并不轻松。一路上，知道老板经营小饭馆并兼做夜市小吃，老板又说，第一个星期试用，没有工钱。 穿过若干胡同，来到老板家。又窄又挤的小院放满大盆小盆，几无插足之处，盆内装满红红白白的东西，一股腥臭扑鼻而来。老板说红的是猪肺，白的是猪肠，都是夜市小吃“卤煮火烧”的原料。 马上开工，首先洗涤内脏。我忍住恶心，开始冲洗。老板娘看了一眼，马上喊停，嫌我太过精细，“后面活还多着呢。”于是给我示范。拿起那内脏在池中荡一下，再在水龙头下一冲，“这就成了，照样来。”联想到在学校时常光顾的小吃摊，多半也是这种货色。一边干活，一边发誓以后再不去吃。然后串羊肉串，老板娘又演示如何串法才能使肉看起来多其实并不实在。我刚一试，两只手给调料咬得麻痒难当。中午1时，开出饭来，清汤寡水，得，对付着吃吧，早就饿得很了。吃过饭，只小歇一会儿，老板带上我和小阮奔赴小饭馆，一下午洗碗、扫地、擦桌、端菜，动作稍慢便挨两句训斥。想我堂堂大学生，竟受如此窝囊气，几次想发作，但终于忍住，并以“天将降大任于斯人也，必先苦其心志，劳其筋骨”来自慰。 人来人往，天色渐黑，终于空无一人。 “好了，关门。”老板一声令下，我们如释重负，舒口长气。 “晚饭不忙吃，抓紧时间去夜市。”老板又传指令。于是便马不停蹄，回小杂院把各种家当搬上三轮车。小阮在前面蹬，我在后面推，老板骑摩托在一旁押车。到崇文门夜市，立刻卸车、装棚、抬桌、拎桶、支锅，惶惶然，茫茫然。别的摊贩亦相继到来，我们两名新手，手脚明显比别家熟练伙计慢上一拍，又招来老板脸色，被呼来喝去。夜市食客多，吆喝拉客、擦桌洗碗，比之小饭馆更辛苦几分，真如绷紧的发条，不得一刻松懈，又累又饿。 11点，食客渐稀。老板招呼我们：“自己装碗火烧，吃了收工。”这就是晚餐！望着那食客们津津乐道的杂碎，想着这是如何洗出来、煮出来的，我早已无一丝食欲。Can't stand it!辞工之意立坚，小阮也有此意，他悄悄嘱咐我：“明天再辞，否则今晚不会让我们过夜，那太冤。来吃吧，别想那么多，其实味儿倒还不错。”硬逼着自己吃下半碗，装车收市。宽阔的大道人车稀少，雪白的路灯把我疲惫的身影拉得老长，耳边只听见沉重的踩车声，我想，是该回头了。 回去又支撑着卸车、洗碗。老板让我和小阮挤一张床，“将就将就，以后再安排。”以后个屁！躺在床上，我们暗骂老板心黑，这样玩命干法，铁人也扛不住。小阮说他初中毕业就拜师傅学炒菜，来北京已三年，当过厨师，干过配菜，打过杂，还在夜总会调过酒。要是能回头，他说会继续念书。他很羡慕我，说大学生是天之骄子，前程似锦。像他这样漂泊打工，只看到现在，看不到未来，很无奈。他惟一的愿望是拥有一家餐馆，自己来掌勺……我们聊着聊着，抵不住一天辛苦，沉沉坠入梦乡。 后记：第二天，我们辞工。老板似乎早有预料，不动声色。小阮说老板占了便宜，他又会去招黑劳工，再辞再招，他可省了不少工钱。 小阮继续去等待更好的雇主，我则想方设法混上火车，靠帮乘务员打扫车厢，得以搭车返校。几天经历，恍如一梦。 大学生们的“打工日记”是我整个采访中，为自己的“日记”而记得最多的内容。这些材料用不着任何文字修饰，都是些听后叫人夜不能眠的动人故事。下面我抽出几篇，向读者奉上—— May 13.Beijing.林业大学。 今天与任忠诚、芦建表、崔建国、彭作文和另一位不愿透露姓名的贫困生，聊他们在北京打工的经历，听后既为这些同学刻苦学习的精神所感动，也为他们在社会上打工中的遭遇而同情。他们的不屈行为与忍耐精神叫人敬佩。 瘦小的彭作文，来自贵州山区，是位苗族后代。如果不是出自他亲口之言，你很难相信这个瘦小的大学生竟从初一开始便当起了“学生打工仔”。边远贫困的山区没有像城里那样有那么多的工作可做，小彭说他“因地制宜”在当地收破烂。中学的岁月里，他除了上课时间，就背起竹箩子，顺着崎岖山路，边吆喝边背着书本到小镇和乡下挨家挨户去收破旧东西，从小到一块狗骨头、一支牙膏壳，大到几吨重的大铁墩，凡是别人不用了的又可以换钱的东西，他都收过，甚至连死人的“金牙”，活人的头发。他说他最倒霉的一次是走了几十里路收了满满一大箩的旧货，在过江时被洪水冲跑了；他说他最高兴的是一次有个倒闭的工厂让他收走了全部的旧铁器，一天挣得了500元。小彭说，到北京上了大学，他再不能像在家乡那样背着竹箩去走大街串小巷吆喝了，但他必须比上中学时更卖命地去挣钱，因为现在的一年学费要比过去高出好几倍。他刚到北京时对外面的世界一无所知，听别人说倒车能赚钱，于是他从同学那儿借了70元钱，在一个星期日的清晨早早起来，从清华园出发赶到石景山那个京城最大的自行车倒卖黑市场。那儿的人真多，也真杂。黑车车主见小彭过来，便向他推荐了一辆半新不旧的车子。70元一辆，要就赶紧拿走。车主对小彭说。小彭说你让我看看再说么。车主说你这么慢吞吞的，说不定转眼警察过来我们俩人谁也跑不掉。小彭一听这就赶忙掏钱。回到学校，他便在校园内把车往旁边一搁，靠着树边贴出一张“广告”，那上面写出一行字：“本车转让。100元。”这招是高年级的老同学教给他的。小彭说他第一次卖这黑车时特紧张，怕有人发现他是新生，而新生刚到校哪儿有车“转让”？车，后来真的卖掉了，100元出手，净赚了30元。小彭好高兴，30元对一些人来说，还不够吃一顿快餐，抽两包烟的，然而它对小彭却是实实在在的好几天饭钱哪！小彭说他一共倒了三辆黑车，后来因为学校有规定不让倒这样的车，他的此项“业务”就此停止。小彭后来就干起大学生最普遍的家教来，他说他是新生，不懂行情，只对钱的数字清楚。一次他见几位家长围着几名外校的学生在讨价还价，那些家长雇主说每小时给15元，学生们则坚持要20元。小彭一听急了，便上前将一位雇主拉到一边，说我只要每小时10元。那人将他上下打量了一番，然后朝他瞪了瞪眼，说你捣什么乱，像你这样的冒牌大学生就是白教我孩子也得反收你“时间浪费赔偿费”。小彭把学生证掏给人家看，人家说，讲你“冒牌”也没多少冤枉，一个刚进大学门的新生跟中学生有什么区别？小彭气得心里直骂那人，可骂归骂，“生意”还是落空了。后来他回到学校天天注意起那块专贴各类“招聘启事”的牌牌。这回是有家影视公司要找几个群众演员，小彭心想这活不成问题，“招聘”上说的一天给60元，蛮不错。小彭很有些组织能力，很快找到几位同是经济拮据的同学，在与那个影视公司讨价还价谈定后，第一个星期天一到，他们不到清晨5点便从学校出发，赶到指定的拍摄现场。那是冬天，很冷，可小彭他们还是意气风发地骑着自行车准时到达。但一到那儿，影视公司管事的人改口说只能每人每天给40元劳务费，而且原来说的下午允许回校上课也不行了。几个同学非常生气，拒绝参与拍摄。那公司的人鼻子往上一扬，说你们不就是一群想吃饭又口袋里缺钱的大学生！想走就走，有的是像你们一样想赚几个学费的穷学生么。与小彭同去的几位学生见对方成心欺负人，便昂起头走了，只有小彭和另一个同学留下了。几天干下来，到该拿钱的时候，那个公司的老板却只给小彭他们一天24元的劳务费。走，我们不给这些黑心肠的王八蛋干了。同学拉起小彭的手就走。可小彭好不情愿地一路跟同学念叨：24元就24元么，干几天就能几个月不愁么。小彭的同学一听这话，气得好长时间没理他。 我对小彭说，你的同学大概认为你穷也得有个穷志气。小彭说这理我也知道，但光有志气没有钱有什么用？我们这些贫困大学生什么都不缺，就是缺钱，缺钱就有可能失去学业，失去了学业何谈志气、志向？ 我说那也不能任人欺负宰割。小彭说，人家欺负宰割我们就是认为我们大学生在所有打工族中是最廉价的劳力。真正的打工仔、打工妹是不会去干这样一类临时性的劳务，只有我们既要上课又想抽空赚一把的穷大学生愿意去做，那些老板们比我们要精几倍，他们不从我们身上刮油水还上哪儿去刮？ 小彭的话有一定道理。 现在当林业大学学生会副主席的崔建国是我碰到的所有“大学生打工族”中命运最好的一个——因为今年本科已毕业的他被学校学生处看中留校工作。对一位来自边远地区的农家孩子来说，能上大学就是件不易的事，而上完大学能留在学校且是在北京的大学，可就实在太少了。仅凭这一点，崔建国的脸上该很灿烂了。再过一两个月他真的可以摘掉那顶戴了足足十几年的“贫困生”帽子，而成为中国林业大学的一名正式职员。 也许正是这原因，崔建国显得比其他同学更超凡地看待昨天的自己。“其实我们大学生打工在多数的时候是在出卖自己，不管你承认还是不承认，这是一个很难掩饰的事实：你既然想从打工中获得金钱，那么掌握金钱的雇主就从商业与生意的经济角度来使唤你，这期间很少有你独立的人格与尊严，除非你付出了雇主认为等价的劳动，否则你就老老实实低下头，听任别人的调遣与指挥，干你必须干的事。” 没钱有时就得低头，这是今天这个社会的一面镜子，不管你想不想照它，它都存在。崔建国并不为昨天的自己而悲哀，他认为既然是打工仔，吃苦是情理中的事。打工是为了赚钱，而吃苦的经历常比赚钱更可贵。 家在黑龙江海林林业局的崔建国，在小学三年级时便没了父亲。1985年，效益不好的林场又让他的母亲下岗。崔建国下有一弟一妹，沉重的担子落在母亲肩上。15岁那年，崔建国觉得自己不能再让母亲一人扛起全家的负担，便擅自辍学，瞒着家人，跟着一帮成年人们到了牡丹江的一个建筑队打工。当瘦小的崔建国出现在工地时，那些叔叔伯伯们不忍心让他动手千活，他却急出了眼泪：我是出来赚钱的，你们为什么不让我干？没法，崔建国说，大人们最后让他搬搬砖，洗洗菜什么的，总之他留在了工地。月底，该发工资了，小建国跟在别人后面来到会计那儿，领了150元工钱。他高兴极了，因为这证明他可以帮妈挣钱，为家里出力了。他觉得自己像个男子汉了，于是拿了钱就直奔邮局……焦急万分之中的母亲见到突如其来的汇款，没敢歇脚，便赶到了牡丹江。母亲在工地上见到儿子后的那一幕，崔建国终身不忘。因为收到钱的母亲不仅没说儿子一句好话，而是边哭边举着砖头追着要打他。“家里就是穷得只剩下一口粥也要供你上学”——崔建国把母亲当时的这句话嚼了不知多少遍，从此他再不敢违背母亲让他读书的誓言。重新返校的崔建国学习特别刻苦，成绩直线上升。考大学了，该报什么志愿呢？那么多熟悉的大学名字可以任其选择，但崔建国说他没有选，原因是报考那些熟悉的大学，可能断送他母亲和全家人对他的全部希望。必须绝对的成功，崔建国知道多少年来母亲和全家人为了支持他上学所付出的一切，就在此举。他甚至不敢设想一下他的不成功对一个贫困的家庭将是怎样的一种毁灭！填志愿的手在发抖……最后他选择了一个不很熟悉的大学——中国林业大学。理由很简单：收费低，录取分数线也低些（几乎占一半的贫困生在选择大学时都将此作为首要考虑）。 崔建国如愿以偿，他的高考分数高出林业大学录取线80分，老师和同学们都为他没报更好的大学而惋惜，然而崔建国想的是只要考上，其他的根本不重要——对一个经济困难的苦孩子来说。 大学的路，从一开始就曲曲折折。入学后的崔建国比谁都心态平静地接受了打工求学的现实。但由于对学习不敢有丝毫的怠慢，所以他把能养活自己的挣钱机会放在假期的打工上。崔建国说他不像别的同学那样见什么活来钱就去干什么，结果常常鸡飞蛋打。他善于挑选那些在有些人看来是来钱不快的工打。这种工，通常是苦力。崔建国坦然对待苦力活，用他自己的话说：那是最稳当的赚钱机会，因而也是大学生们最适合的假期勤工俭学的机会。他这话肯定受到不少人包括同宿舍同学的异议，可崔建国有自己的观点：大学生更多的时间是学习，不可能用很多精力去研究、挑选那些既能多赚钱又少出力气的工打。苦力工是永存的活，随时随地都可找到，具有大学生招牌的人去谋一份苦力，就更加容易得到。与其为虚幻的目标浪费宝贵时间，还不如一箩一筐地去沙里淘金。 崔建国用自己的独特视角去看待问题，去面对打工。寒假，节日连节日，中国人一轮又一轮的“吃战”再开烽火，崔建国又一次来到他曾经去过的和没有去过的餐馆刷盘洗碗。从晚上7点到10点，工作非常简单，把前厅服务小姐端来的一叠叠盘碗一只只洗刷干净。看起来是谁都会干、能干的活，但最后留在后厨的并没有几人。崔建国总是其中的一个，然而操作计算机运用自如的他，却并不是刷洗盘碗的常胜将军。从在后厨站稳第一刻开始，你就是一台机器，腰永远是弓着的，双手像正旋动的飞轮……有一次，崔建国直起身时却瘫在了地上；有一次，他需要解手却不能，下班后肚子连疼了几天；有一次，中途老板让他搬过一叠洗好的碗碟，结果发麻的手没托好，老板让他用三天的工钱赔了那些打碎的碗碟。就当这么一个“机器式的工具”，崔建国一直没有放弃。因为他要挣满500～600元的寒假收入——为这目标，他说可以忍受一切。 暑假，那是贫困生最企盼的打工好时光。北京这几年夏日格外炎热，城里人又流行喝矿泉水和纯净水。于是乐煞了那些生产矿泉水和纯净水的厂家，于是定点定时送水成了京城又一种销售行当。大街上，到处可见各种小面的、三轮板车的送水大军正汗流浃背地穿街走巷。崔建国加入了蹬三轮板车的送水队伍，这是只有小公司才会采用的推销手段，也只有小公司才更需要寻求打工的假期大学生。一旦上班，那是全天候的，吃住都在公司——其实通常是在一间又闷又潮又无电视与像样床铺的大库房内。客户既有宾馆，又有普通百姓，24小时值班，必须随叫随送，耽误一个客户将罚你十天工钱，除非是神经有病你才敢那么干。崔建国说他在午夜两点给人送过货，当他进那个客户的大院时，守夜的门卫非让他拿出身份证明。“大爷我求您放我进去吧，要是回公司我还得来回骑两小时呀！”早已累得上气不接下气的崔建国带着哭腔求人家，可人家就是不让你进：“现在啥事没发生过？我放你进去，哪家丢了东西我找谁？”崔建国真想蹲在地上哭一场，可你敢半夜放声哭？那巡警会随时出现在面前，之后的麻烦事就更多。把眼泪咽下肚子，该干啥还是去干啥，谁叫你找的这份工！一桶矿泉水送出，洒下半桶汗水在大街……临近开学还有五天，该同老板算算总账。“给，1500元。怎么样，没吃亏吧？一个来月，就拿司局级的工资待遇了！”老板手拿几张钞票在半空摇晃。换了一个人样似的崔建国已经对那工钱早失去兴趣，末后他对老板认认真真地说了一句：“你太黑了！”谁知那位与他年龄相仿的小老板咧着大嘴，乐道：“我知道你是傻大学生才聘的！欢迎明年再来。” 崔建国说，他听那位只有初一文化的小老板一说，自己都苦笑了起来：可不我们是傻大学生嘛！ 这天，同学们谈得无拘无束，像是诉说那些遥远的奇遇。只有一个同学始终没有开口，我总觉蹊跷，在离开林业大学时仍不得要领…… May 19.北京西郊。中国农业大学（东区）校园。 今晚是中国农大的一次有关特困大学生问题的工作会议。学校领导白天打电话约我参加，晚饭过后我正要出发时，电话里传来了林业大学××同学的声音，他说他希望有时间与我单独谈谈他本人的一些情况。“行啊，今晚我正好到你们学校旁边的农大……”这几天我正为那天的蹊跷不得要领而思忖呢。好机会来了，我当然求之不得。这一晚，我得到了一个意外收获。 我见到这位同学的第一句话就问他为什么那天不愿讲，他说他作为特困生的情况在林大知道的人太多了，他不想再以“耻”为荣了。“开始我把自己在外打工的不幸遭遇讲给同学和老师听后，他们都流下了同情的泪，后来学校或学生会每开贫困生会议或向新闻单位来人介绍情况时，一次又一次地让我讲，起初我还行，但时间一长我就有种像个'展览痛苦专业户'似的感觉，这种感觉非常不好，所以后来我一般不太愿意再向外人讲自己的事了。再说，我已经习惯和理解社会对我们在打工过程中的某些并不公平但却是客观存在的事实。 “我们是外地人嘛，在上大学之前我连小城市都没去过，我老家在陕西汉中的大山里，啥都土，说话方言又重，言行举止更是一副土相。虽然上了大学，但这些骨子里的土气改不掉嘛，你出去在北京这样现代化的大都市里谋生求职难免出些洋相，难免冒土冒傻，人家说你几句损你几下你感觉好像很委屈，其实有些人家并没有说错，只是你自尊心强，要脸皮，显然感觉自己是大学生，不该受这种待遇和耻辱。但是换一种角色去理解别人的做法可能就不会那么伤心了，不会那么感觉是受到了难以抚慰的屈辱。”他的开场白令我有些吃惊，说这样话的只能是那些饱受了辛酸、误解和屈辱然后又在这种苦水中不屈不挠的人才能做到。顿悟，是某种意志和人格力量的升华之后方才拥有的精神境界。无疑，这位同学一定有非同寻常的大悲大彻。 “没错。正是有比别人更多