Chapter 29 Chapter 29 I owe you a confession

After receiving Zhou Lisha's call, Yu Mucheng was not very active, but Zhou Lisha said directly: "I'm going on a business trip tomorrow, see if I have time to have a meal together, and call your girlfriend, I really want to know her." Yu Mucheng smiled bitterly: "Let's talk about it when we come. She is also busy recently. I will ask the driver to pick you up when the plane arrives." "No, I came here with my colleagues. There is someone to pick it up here. We will contact you tomorrow." After Zhou Lisha arrived, she called him again. Obviously, she didn't take his troubles to heart at all. He was a little embarrassed, so he made an appointment to pick her up for dinner at seven o'clock the next day.When he mentioned the place, he realized that it was the office building where Xie Nan worked, so he couldn't help but think of it.If she ran into Xie Nan under such circumstances, I don't know what associations she would have, I'm afraid I can't explain it clearly, but it would really kill him.He hastily excused that it was not easy to park, and waited for her on the other side of the street.

This time Zhou Lisha behaved very generously and naturally, she didn't mention anything related to their past relationship or reunion, she was always cheerful and talkative, with a lot of topics, the two chatted while eating, Yu Mucheng felt quite happy after the meal.After eating, the two went to Blue Sky to meet Zhou Lisha's colleague Sam from Hong Kong. Blue Sky is a bar opened by the French. It has always been famous in the city for gathering foreigners and playing music. Sam had a great time there, and Yu Mucheng was a little too noisy, but thinking that when he went back to the villa, he was just sitting on the terrace drinking wine alone, staring at the dotted lights of the community across the lake in a daze, so he stayed there .

A sentence Zhou Lisa and Sam said floated into his ears and caught his attention: "Lisa, are you here to do PR for this beer company?" "Yeah, what a coincidence, I ran into your neighbor yesterday. It turns out that she works in finance for the company we came to provide public relations services to." Yu Mucheng was quite taken aback by this, and could only say nonchalantly, "What a coincidence." "I apologized to her. I was too childish last time. Miss Xie is a nice person and very generous." Yu Mucheng smiled wryly, he could imagine how generous Xie Nan could be if he wanted to.

"Lisa, Miss Xie is my girlfriend now." Zhou Lisha was taken aback: "Hey, I casually told her yesterday that I want to have dinner with you today, but she didn't say anything, so there is no misunderstanding. It's your fault, Kevin, first tell me that we are just neighbors .” "It was like that at the time." Yu Mucheng couldn't sit still, "I'm sorry, Lisa, Sam, I have to go first." Zhou Lisha also said that she wanted to go back to rest when she was tired, but Sam was far from having fun and stayed alone. The two went out and got into the car, and Yu Mucheng took Zhou Lisha back to the hotel first.

"Kevin, it's different if you have love or not." Zhou Lisha said suddenly after getting in the car and fastening her seat belt. Yu Mucheng was startled, backed the car out of the parking space and drove onto the road: "How do you say that?" "Before you were with me, you didn't put so much effort into it. You just accepted my existence with ease. I'm afraid you just shrugged your shoulders when you received the breakup email from me." "I thought we didn't need to talk about old things anymore." Yu Mucheng smiled slightly. "Don't worry, I'm not so bored to go to your girlfriend to talk about these old things, I'm just a little emotional. Do you know why I sent you an email to talk about breaking up after returning to China? In fact, I really want to continue with you."

"Maybe you're disappointed in me." Yu Mucheng held the steering wheel firmly and looked ahead. "I tried to wait for your pursuit, but I found that even if I waited endlessly, I might not be able to wait for that day. Well, I tried to take the initiative, and you didn't hesitate to accept it. I still thought, after all, you still She has feelings for me." Zhou Lisha recalled the past with a gentle expression. "I said, we did have a good time." "Yes, but those are precious memories for me, and they are just happy for you. After all, I haven't been able to put my mark on your life."

Yu Mucheng was speechless. "As long as I stay by your side, I think I try to be the knowledgeable, considerate and sensible girlfriend you need, and we can get along well. You are tolerant, respectful, and a good lover. Sometimes I even secretly I think it is not impossible to get along like this until we get married. But once we separate, I have no confidence in you at all. I can't bear the feeling of being suspended in mid-air, which makes me unsure of myself. " Yu Mucheng laughed at himself: "It seems that I am really a very bad and selfish man." "You're fine, but I don't think I'm the one who can really impress you. After sending that email, I regretted it and tried hard to redeem it, but it was useless. Now it seems that I really did not make a mistake in my original decision. .” Zhou Lisha leaned back in her chair, “So I envy Miss Xie.”

When the car arrived at the hotel where Zhou Lisa was staying, Yu Mucheng turned to look at Zhou Lisha: "Good night, Lisa. You are such a capable and generous girl who knows how to control her feelings. You don't need to envy anyone. I still wish you good luck and meet your own sooner." MR. Right." Zhou Lisha smiled: "Oh, it's so old-fashioned, but thank you, Kevin, good night." Yu Mucheng drove out of the hotel and checked the time. It was almost ten o'clock. He parked the car on the side of the road and dialed Xie Nan's number. Xie Nan answered quickly, with a sleepy voice.

"Nan Nan, are you home?" Xie Nan didn't want to let herself sit in the hotel room facing the TV, but couldn't help but imagine Yu Mucheng and Zhou Lisha's date.She took sleeping pills, her head was groggy, and she was about to turn off the phone and go to sleep. She didn't feel distressed when she received this call. Could it be that she was going to be on the show again and didn't report the plot that made him angry?But I had no choice but to bite the bullet and say: "I'm on a business trip again, Mu Cheng, it's the end of the month now, it's a routine, I'll be back tomorrow."

Only then did Yu Mucheng remember that it was already the end of the month, and Xie Nan's obviously defensive tone made him a little helpless: "Well, you go to rest early, and we will talk about it when we come back." "Well, goodbye." Xie Nan turned off the phone, trying to understand the meaning of the call, but the medicine hit her, and she had no time to think about it, and soon fell asleep. She can also find out the dangers of using drugs from the Internet, so she has to try her best not to accept it.But when you are on a business trip, you really need such a thorough and pure sleep. Otherwise, if you toss and turn in a deserted and unfamiliar environment, you will not be able to work the next day. Long-distance driving will really kill you.

Xie Nan returned to the company the next day and reported to Manager Mo. Manager Mo had already been notified that he would go to the Shanghai head office for a meeting during the holiday.He briefly mentioned possible work adjustments in the meeting, and colleagues in the finance department had their own discussions, but no one dared to challenge the company's arrangement on this topic. Xie Nan had just gone on two business trips in a row, and his physical strength was severely overdrawn, and he felt exhausted. Although he used sleeping pills in exchange for sleep, his energy was still low during the day, and he could imagine his pale face without looking in the mirror. .She didn't have the energy to participate in the private discussions of her colleagues, she just listened in silence. Fortunately, everything has to be confirmed after Manager Mo returns from Shanghai, so it's useless to guess.Today is the last day of April, and the May Day holiday is about to begin. It is said that the Golden Week has brought a lot of negative effects, and it is very likely to be cancelled. Office workers still cherish this kind of holiday, which may be gone in the future. Everyone is getting off work. What is often talked about is the holiday travel plan. Someone asked about Xie Nan, and Xie Nan shook his head. Yu Mucheng told her that he would arrange a surprise trip for her on May Day, but during this period when the two sides took turns to calm down, there was no need to think about this question anymore, she had her own arrangements .After packing up her things, taking her notebook and bag, she drove home. After Yu Mucheng arranged the vacation and overtime plans for the employees, he also rushed home as quickly as possible.When he drove into the parking space of the community, the sun had just set and the sky was still bright.Xie Nan's white Fukang had already parked in the parking space. He got out of the car and was about to walk over, but saw Xiao Wang, the real estate agent of the property, coming out of the small courtyard, closed the courtyard door, and greeted him. "Mr. Yu, hello." "Hello, Xiao Wang." "Mr. Yu is happy to live here." "Not bad." Yu Mucheng looked at Xie Nan's house suspiciously, and Xiao Wang smiled. "By the way, Mr. Yu asked about this house before, and now the owner has contacted me, saying that he may go to work in other places, and plans to put this suite up for sale. I just came to see the house and estimated the price by the way. Mr. Yu himself or If any friends are interested in this house, they must remember to come to me." Yu Mucheng nodded. After Xiao Wang left, he stood there and forced himself to suppress his anger and keep calm, but he only felt tightness in his chest, and the blood vessels in his temples felt pulsating.He turned around and went back to his home, sat on the sofa for a while, then went upstairs to his bedroom, took out his travel bag and began to pack his luggage, randomly pulled a few shirts, T-shirts and trousers from the closet and threw them in. Turning around, she found Xie Nan standing by the bedroom door. She had been walking without making a sound, and she didn't know when she came up.At this time, her face was pale, and she was carrying a gray suit in her hand. "Mu Cheng, this is the suit you forgot downstairs last time." Yu Mucheng took the suit and threw it on the bed: "Thank you, I made a special trip to deliver it." Xie Nan called Xiao Wang at the company in the afternoon and asked him to come over to look at the house. After sending him away, he started to boil water and prepared to cook some noodles for himself. When he came out to answer a phone call, he accidentally saw Yu Mucheng The car returned to the community at some point and parked in the opposite parking space.Her heart beat faster suddenly, she turned off the gas stove, wringed her fingers and thought for a while before deciding to bring his suit up, which was considered a reason.But Yu Mucheng behaved politely and indifferently, apparently ignoring her words, and the courage she was trying to muster was frightened to dissipate. She looked at the travel bag at his feet, hesitated, or Asked: "Are you... wanting to go out?" "right." Xie Nan was silent for a while: "If you're not in a hurry, can we talk about it before you leave?" "It's a good idea. We can also formally say goodbye. I'm really not used to leaving without saying goodbye." "What did you leave without saying goodbye? Did you mean that I was on a business trip? You won't be angry about this, okay, I admit it's my fault, and I will pay attention to it in the future." Yu Mucheng's anger was once again successfully provoked by her: "You actually said that you don't have the courage to cut through the mess quickly, and you can't even say anything about things like going to work in other places or selling the house and leaving immediately." Do it quietly, I really underestimated your ruthlessness. Then I want to ask you, are you going to just disappear from my life like this, or wave your hand and say goodbye to save face. " It was only then that Xie Nan knew what he was talking about. She couldn't figure it out, but just sent the agent away, how did he know that he was going to sell the house, and he got so angry.Seeing his tense and stern face, she felt dizzy for a while, and she could only try her best to say: "Give me a chance to explain, let's talk in the living room." She struggled to go downstairs, walked into the kitchen first, opened the cupboard and took out the sugar bowl, mixed herself a cup of thick white sugar water, and drank it in one gulp, the excessive sweetness made her throat sore.She closed her eyes and stood leaning on the conditioning table, waiting for the dizziness caused by hypoglycemia to pass. A pair of strong hands supported her from behind, and Yu Mucheng carried her to the living room and sat on the sofa.Knowing her problem, he hugged her and let her lie in his arms. Seeing her bloodless face, Yu Mucheng's anger disappeared all of a sudden, thinking that the cold war these days had taken away any good look she had when she was healthy.Xie Nan snuggled up to him without moving, with her face pressed against the shirt on his chest. After a long time, she opened her eyes and tried to sit up. "Lie down and don't move." Xie Nan smiled wryly, his voice became hoarse because of the burning of the sugar: "I'm fine. We can't have a good talk like this. I'm afraid I'll hug you and please don't go. How embarrassing you will be then , how much I should hate myself." "But when did you ever give me such an embarrassing opportunity? You have always acted like you can do whatever you want, like to stay, like to go." "Because I don't have confidence in myself. I was in love once, and I tried my best to not keep that person. I doubt my ability to keep others." Xie Nan stared at the ceiling and said slowly, "If you must If I were to confuse the past with reality, that would be it. I try to look like I don’t mind, and tell myself that no hope can’t be called a disappointment.” "It seems that I still have to blame me for not giving you enough sense of security." "No, Mu Cheng, you are fine. It's just that I'm too selfish. All I think about is how to avoid getting hurt. Even today, I've prepared for the worst. But after much deliberation, I still Decided to come to you, I want to give it a try, let you know that this love is very important to me. I owe you a confession: If at first, I only regarded you as a suitable marriage partner, then I definitely I see you as my lover." Yu Mucheng's eyes were bright, and he needed to force himself to calm down in order to stabilize his mind.But Xie Nan didn't look at him, she had to finish speaking before her courage dissipated. "I don't want to pretend to be pitiful and keep you. If you have already made a decision, please don't change it. If you really want to leave, I guess I can't keep you. Don't worry, I am going to accept the company's dispatch to work in other places For a period of time, the treatment and so on are good. You can come back and live, don't worry about seeing me and feel embarrassed." Yu Mucheng was really taken aback: "What stupid idea are you having? Is that why you are going out of town?" "That's an opportunity for promotion, not to hide from anyone. Mu Cheng, you always know exactly what you want, unlike me who is entangled and hesitant. I just want you to know that this love is not paid by you alone. You gave me a great time that I will cherish forever." "Why do you say goodbye like this? Do you think I can still leave after you say this?" Yu Mucheng hugged her tightly, "Or, will I let you go?" Xie Nan looked at him hesitantly, and then looked at the ceiling in a daze.The sky had already darkened, and the room was dimly lit. Her small face was leaning against his arms, her eyes wandered a little, and she didn't know what thoughts she was thinking.Yu Mucheng didn't speak. After so many days of cold war, he enjoyed the feeling of this soft body in his arms.He bent down and kissed her lips lightly, it turned out to be sweet, and then he remembered that she had just drank sugar water, he sucked and tasted, Xie Nan soon gasped a little, she suddenly held Yu Mu with both hands Cheng's face, separating him from himself a little. "Let's clarify everything we need to say so that we don't have any shadows. I did find an intermediary for this house and plan to sell it." "Is it because of the drunken things I said that day?" "No." Xie Nan hesitated for a moment, bit his lip, and suddenly didn't know where to start. Yu Mucheng sighed and grabbed her hand: "If you don't want to say it, you don't need to say it. I guess I forced you so hard that you wanted to escape." "Escape?" Xie Nan was a little dazed, "Are you talking about selling the house? No, Mu Cheng, the decision to sell the house has nothing to do with you. I wanted to sell the house before, and I planned to tell you, but I don't know how to say it. Make it clear. Xu Yan probably told you that this house was bought for me by my ex-boyfriend. To be precise, he paid the down payment and wrote my and his names. After paying the mortgage for eight months, We... broke up. But he went to find someone to change the name of the house purchase contract to my own name." "I told you, I don't mind about it." "But I don't mind. I have cared about it for seven years. I repay the loan and pay the property fee every month, but I have never come to see the house. Bingbing persuaded me many times, and I just dragged it along until she It counts only when I get married and no one shares the rent with me and no one to accompany me, what you said really didn't wrong me at all." "I drank too much that day, and I was so jealous that I talked a lot of nonsense." Yu Mucheng smiled wryly. "It is said that most of what I said after drinking was the truth. Mu Cheng, Bingbing called me a pig. She was right. I am indeed selfish and stupid. I have never thought about it from your standpoint. I always think that your tolerance is Boundless as a matter of course." This kind of self-examination made Yu Mucheng feel very blocked: "Isn't that why you are disillusioned with me? I have always wanted to indulge you to be willful and self-willed, so that you can be happy and enjoy life. But looking at it now , I seem to have messed up things. All along, you have been accommodating me and conniving at my desire to control. " "Do you want to control? Forget it, Mu Cheng, I'll just say it casually. If it weren't for you, I probably wouldn't be able to get out of it." Xie Nan raised his head and looked at him: "I'm actually a very cowardly person. I would rather treat it as if it didn’t exist. Before you were tolerant to me, I was happy to be an ostrich and kept avoiding talking about myself. I should also think about you, and I can’t abuse your tolerance. This house is indeed a knot in my heart , I want to sell it as a complete farewell to the past.” "The past is always a part of a person's life, and I never asked you to show your determination in this way." "It's not just to show you, Mu Cheng. That house is indeed too involved with the past for me, and it is also for my ex-boyfriend. He probably saw that I lived there alone, and he had the illusion that I was still in trouble. I didn’t come out of the past, thinking that he delayed my youth and must compensate me. I want to deal with it, it’s good for everyone.” Yu Mucheng stared at her and stroked her hair: "As long as it's not to avoid me, I have no problem." "Avoid you?" Xie Nan smiled wryly: "The one you want to avoid is you, right?" Yu Mucheng was a little embarrassed, and touched his chin: "I haven't been home these few days, but I actually live in my sister's villa across the lake. I'm afraid that I will insist on arguing with you when I come back, and then you will fight with me again." Give me a break." "Actually, you have been calm. I am the one who is not calm. Originally, I didn't want to disturb you. You can make the decision. But I finally came. I have finished what I want to say." Xie Nan closed her eyes and walked towards Mu Mu. Cheng snuggled a little deeper in his arms, and sighed softly: "I'm sorry, let me lean on you for a while." "Why for a while, why borrow? I am willing to let you keep leaning on." "Aren't you going out?" Yu Mucheng was stopped by the question.After a long time, he touched his chin again, leaned over and took out his wallet, took out two air tickets and handed them to Xie Nan, both of which were flying to Hangzhou tomorrow morning, one with his own name written on it, and one with Xie Nan's name on it . Xie Nan was holding the air ticket, but her eyes were on the wallet he opened. There was a photo in it. She couldn't believe her eyes, but when she took a closer look, the photo was indeed a profile of her face. She couldn't remember when she took it. Pass this photo to Yu Mucheng. This photo was downloaded and developed by Yu Mucheng from the car accident report on the Internet of the Evening News. He kept it in his wallet, but he didn't intend to explain the origin of the photo. He just smiled slightly: "Moved Is it? I often take it out to read." Xie Nan blushed, looked at the ticket in a concealed manner, and did not speak. "I'm talking to myself again. I asked my secretary to book the plane ticket this morning. I planned to come back today to ask you for peace. Then, whether you want it or not, I will drag you to Hangzhou to meet my parents." Xie Nan was a little confused by the words "meet my parents", looked at Yu Mucheng suspiciously, and Yu Mucheng smiled and said: "You said it yourself, our relationship is based on marriage, Now you are not allowed to be irresponsible to me and abandon me forever." "Liar, you are obviously going to leave now." Yu Mucheng was helpless: "Okay, I confess, I was a little mad just now, thinking that you were going to sell the house and leave, and then ignore me." Xie Nan buried her head in his arms and said nothing, Yu Mucheng stroked her hair, and decided to make it clear: "I think I'd better confess, I have a ghost in my heart. Yesterday, my ex-girlfriend Zhou Lisha and I We had dinner together, listen carefully, it was just dinner. Only after eating did I realize that she is on a business trip to your company, and she met you, not to mention, and told you that I invited her to dinner. I called you yesterday , you didn’t mention a single word. I thought you misunderstood me because of this, and you didn’t even listen to the explanation, and you would sell the house and leave when you got angry. " He explained in such detail that Xie Nan felt a little embarrassed, and muttered, "I said earlier that anger is the privilege of little girls, and I'm not that jealous." "It's my villainous heart. I was wrong. Don't bother with me." Yu Mucheng admitted his mistake very generously. He is in a good mood now and is ready to give in unconditionally. See how Xie Nan is unforgiving look. But Xie Nan didn't mean to settle the matter, he just seemed a little unable to speak, bit his lip and thought for a while before saying: "I took the initiative to come to you, don't you think that I simply regard you as a good marriage partner, Hold on to you." "Haven't you confirmed until now that I am indeed a good marriage partner. Motivated and responsible..." Xie Nan sat up and was about to stand up, Yu Muzhi hurriedly dragged her back on his lap: "Okay, I promise I won't be joking." "I'm going to drink water. The sugar water was too sweet just now, and my throat hurts." "Sit down for me, don't frighten me by putting on a posture of wanting to leave, you will give me a heart attack sooner or later." Yu Mucheng moved her to the sofa, turned on the floor lamp, and went to the kitchen to pour Pass her a glass of water, watch her drink the water slowly, then take the glass and put it on the coffee table, and hug her again. "It's the same if you don't look for me. I guess when I'm done getting angry, I'll definitely go over to look for you in despair. I'm done. I'm going to be eaten to death by you." Yu Mucheng smiled and Mimi looked at her, "And I don't like to be entangled, I have figured it out a long time ago, you can treat me as a good marriage partner, and you are responsible to me." Xie Nan's eyes were still a little erratic, but she didn't intend to dwell on this question: "I'm hungry, I'm going down to cook." Yu Mucheng didn't let go: "It's so late, don't do it, I'll take you out to eat." Neither of them wanted to go far, so Yu Mucheng took Xie Nan to a farm restaurant in the suburbs.Recently, all kinds of farm dishes have become popular in this city, and the decorations are all pretending to be back to basics. Red lanterns are hung at the door, waiters wear calico aprons, and strings of old corn and red peppers are hung on the walls of restaurants as decorations. A replica of an old Eight Immortals table with back chairs in various sizes. Xie Nan was a little downcast, the accumulated fatigue over the past few days was overwhelming, and everything he ate was tasteless.But what Yu Mucheng said made her eyes widen. "I think you are too tired. If you don't have an appetite, don't force yourself. Go back and pack your clothes after eating. I will go to Hangzhou with me tomorrow." "No, I told the agent Xiao Wang that I'll be at home these few days and wait for him to bring someone to see the house. He said that there is still someone who wants to buy the house in Tulip Garden, and he will contact that person immediately." "Do you really want to sell it? Why don't you sell it to me." Xie Nan bit her lip and lowered her head in silence. "Hey, are you still picking a buyer?" Yu Mucheng said helplessly, "I don't mean anything, I just want to save you some trouble. And in my opinion, your heart has been opened, and whether the house is sold or not is not a problem at all. .” Xie Nan put down her chopsticks and smiled wryly: "Mu Cheng, let's not have anything to do with this house anymore, shall we?" She said as if she had made up her mind, "I think I'll confess the last point too, in fact, I want to sell After buying the house, return the down payment proportionally to Xiang Xinyang, who is my ex-boyfriend." "Your confession made me look like forced confession." Yu Mucheng was a little surprised: "Your house is at your disposal, and I have no objection at all. But you insist on paying back the money to your ex-boyfriend, which is very insulting to a man." , if he really loves you." "He is getting divorced, I don't want to give him any more illusions." Xie Nan hesitated, reached out to hold Yu Mucheng's hand, "If he hates me from now on, maybe it will be better for him. Mu Cheng, please Never mind, I promise, I mean nothing else." "I'm so jealous that I completely scared you. It's okay, I don't mind." Yu Mucheng shook his head, "But from the standpoint of a man, I guess he won't like or accept your decision." Xie Nan was a little dazed for a while, and Yu Mucheng sighed: "Silly boy." He beckoned the waiter to check out, "Don't mention this, I promise not to interfere, and you can do whatever you want with the house. We'll only go for three days and come back. You can call Xiao Wang and ask him to bring someone to see the house in three days."