Chapter 28 Chapter 28: The Thorn in My Heart

Tang Linglin's behavior was far more polite than a few years ago when she went straight into the dormitory and pulled up a chair to sit in front of her bed. Xie Nan couldn't help but say, "Go into the yard and sit down." She pushed open the courtyard door and walked in. The two sat down next to Xiaoyuan. Tang Linglin looked at the courtyard. The small courtyard was filled with the fragrance of honeysuckle that had just begun to bloom, which was very pleasant. "The yard is well planned." "I have already paid the full amount to Xiang Xinyang." Tang Linglin smiled: "Don't be nervous, I didn't come here for this. Seven years ago you refused even 300,000, and now there is no need to misunderstand your boyfriend for such a small amount of money. Only Xinyang is stupid enough to think that leaving Without him, how miserable your life is."

Xie Nan said nothing, just put the purse in his hand on the round table. "It can be seen that you don't want to greet me politely, so let's get straight to the point. Xiang Xinyang proposed divorce to me, and I am seriously considering it." "Did you come here specifically to inform me of this?" Xie Nan said annoyedly, "What should I say to make you understand that this matter really has nothing to do with me, I have never been involved in the relationship between you and your husband, and your movements have not You must tell me." "But you have been inserted between us like a thorn. For seven years, I have been enduring it all the time." Tang Linglin said calmly, as if he was talking about a fact rather than an accusation.

"If you want to say that, I can't help it. When I was in love with him, you were not her girlfriend; before you married him, we broke up. I can say frankly that I have no responsibility for your marriage .” "Of course you can watch this joke calmly, because I forced everything." Tang Linglin still said in a calm tone, "I often think, if I go back to seven years ago, I can know the result, would it be okay? No matter what, I will only be willing to snatch this from you." "How could I take this as a joke," Xie Nan smiled wryly, "But forget it, think whatever you want."

"do you hate me?" Xie Nan thought about it seriously: "Is this answer important to you? Well, I don't often think about this question, but I think I have already figured it out when I accepted the reality. Everyone is just making the choice they have to make .Even if Xiang Xinyang chooses me regardless of his family, I guess I can’t afford such a big sacrifice. So I don’t hate anyone.” "Even if I was so aggressive and let you make way for me?" "I didn't give way because of you, Mrs. Xiang. I couldn't even say I gave way. I was naive at the time, and I didn't have any noble feelings to think of helping anyone. You provided what Xiang Xinyang needed, and he chose you. It's as simple as that." " Xie Nan was really annoyed at being forced to reminisce about time gone by like this, she raised her wrist to look at her watch, but Tang Linglin ignored her gesture at all.

"Now it seems that you are the one who can afford to let go of the three of us. It's just pity that Xiang Xinyang and I have tortured each other in marriage for so many years." Hearing the comment of being able to hold and let go, Xie Nan felt helpless: "You really know how to joke, I am completely empty-handed, what to hold and what to put? And let me take the liberty to say that, I think people have to accept the reality, whether it is you It’s still your husband, there’s no need to dwell on the past.” "I should really ask Xiang Xinyang to listen to your opinion." Tang Linglin chuckled, "If I knew you were so open-minded, I should have agreed with him to come back and develop a few years ago. It's a pity that I have always wanted to separate him from you. Separate, if you can’t do it psychologically, at least it’s better to be far away. It’s been seven years, he’s just been indifferent to me, but he hasn’t made any effort to contact you. I started to think, I should feel relieved, there’s no need I must ask him for enthusiasm, maybe we are no longer young, enthusiasm is an unrealistic request. I resigned to my fate and even considered having a child for him. Unexpectedly, as soon as I came back, he suddenly had a seizure."

Her smile gave Xie Nan a chill: "Is this what we're talking about today? I don't want to be rude, but I really don't think it's necessary to tell me these things." "If I divorce him, what are your plans?" "How many times do I have to tell Mrs. Xiang, your divorce has nothing to do with me; what plans I have has nothing to do with you." "I met Xu Yan some time ago, and I know you have a boyfriend. I heard that he's in good condition." Tang Linglin looked at her with piercing eyes, but said in a leisurely tone. "You both pay so much attention to me, I don't know whether to be honored or to smile bitterly."

"Is he as nice to you as Xiang Xinyang, I mean your new boyfriend? Will he love you as much as Xiang Xinyang? I really doubt this, after all, he is as infatuated as Xiang Xinyang There shouldn't be many men left." Xie Nan lowered his face: "What exactly are you trying to say?" Tang Linglin didn't care about her anger at all, and just shrugged: "Forgive me, a woman who is about to be divorced, for talking nonsense, but I am really curious. I have been married to Xiang Xinyang for seven years, no matter what I do I tried my best, but I couldn't impress him. I tried to be gentle with him, and he would be polite to me; I tried to make out with him, and he would be polite to me; If you want to get angry, he will be silent. I have to think, hehe, what a retribution, I got his man, and he will retaliate against me by keeping his chastity for you psychologically."

Xie Nan was completely dumbfounded: "Why are you telling me this?" "To be honest, I don't know, maybe I just want to plant a thorn in your heart. He wants a divorce, well, I agree, I am suddenly tired, I want to keep a little self-esteem for myself, and I don't plan to pester you anymore Go on. But in terms of property, I will not soften my heart. After all, it was not my family who helped, and his family could not get out of the predicament. Everything he has now, he has worked hard, but I'm sorry, he has to pay the price if he wants to pursue true love. I guess, as soon as he is free, he will come to you. It is your turn to be entangled. Do you want to let go of the ready-made good terms and turn your boyfriend around? A 28-year-old woman should be very realistic. A woman who has nothing for you Xiang Xinyang, do you want it?"

"Do you hate him that much after you've been married?" Tang Linglin looked at her calmly: "I never pretend to be generous. Yes, I hate it. I hate him for ignoring me completely, I hate him for not giving me the slightest chance from the beginning to the end, I hate that I can afford it but can't let it go. , I hate him for being kind to everyone but being cruel to me. Well, now I want to see what will happen if he loves you so disrespecting marriage. " "I don't understand your thoughts at all," Xie Nan said with difficulty. "For Xiang Xinyang, I'm just a past. You or he must add special meaning to this past. I can't help it. Your marriage I'm sorry for this, but I can't accept that you blamed me. I still say that your past and future lives have nothing to do with me. "

Tang Linglin frowned, and the corners of his mouth curled down: "You are not as good as Xie Nan in the past, and now you know how to keep yourself out of things. Do you know why I came here today? I just want to see if you are still so innocent and just stay in a daze Staring blankly at others, it seems that fate has left the biggest grievance to you alone. Does Xiang Xinyang never forget your expression?" Xie Nan was a little surprised, and couldn't help but think back to how he was at the time, and he could only admit that he was probably embarrassed enough: "I don't have such a strong sense of tragedy, at most I just think it's a bad joke played by fate, young man When I was young, I was too confident, thinking that happiness was in my own hands, but people are not stronger than fate, so it can be said that grievances are the biggest."

"So, you regard Xiang Xinyang as the page that fate turned for you. Haha, I thought that true love doesn't care about time, property, or everything. Now it seems that there is only Xiang Xinyang, that idiot. I'm playing the extravagant game of true love by myself." Tang Linglin raised his head and sneered at the darkening sky, "I've hired a lawyer to represent me and Xiang Xinyang to discuss divorce conditions. Next, it's my turn Look at the joke." "Whose joke? You must have a great sense of humor if you can see the joke from this incident." Tang Linglin turned her head, and Xie Nan's familiar stern expression reappeared on her face, but it was only for a moment, and she quickly regained her composure: "Xie Nan, do you have a sense of accomplishment? A man, even though he was forced to break up with you He gave up his hands, but has always enshrined you in the shrine of his heart, ignored his wife, and regarded his marriage as a shackle that he had to endure. First, he paid attention to you from a distance, and when he saw you again, he immediately stopped holding back Don't go on, I want to get rid of my wife and get back together with you." "You said so much today, do you just want to plant a thorn in my heart? Well, you succeeded. Are you happy? I hope you are happy, otherwise I have to feel sorry for you again." Xie Nan said as calmly as possible, " Speaking of fulfillment, it's ridiculous. Does that make sense to me? We're all women, do you think a woman would rather spend seven years of her youth with a man she loves, or with a man out of reach heart." Tang Linglin, who was always articulate, was stunned by this question. Xie Nan stood up and put on a pose to see off the guests: "This is probably not a simple multiple-choice question, so you don't have to think about it. In my opinion, each of us is paying the price for our actions, and there is nothing to complain about. " "You're reminding me that I forced Xiang Xinyang to accept me, and it's my own fault. I should be willing to admit defeat." "How can I remind others?" Xie Nan laughed self-deprecatingly, "This is a complete summary of my life. I am not a straightforward person. If I had enough integrity back then, I should have torn the contract to pieces and threw it in the project. Xinyang’s face: If I am sensible enough, I should sell the house as soon as possible. The money deposited in the bank account has no attributes. I will be sad for a few months and then start a new life. It’s good for everyone. It’s a pity that I Nothing, muddleheaded repaying the loan, and guarding the house. Do I still need you to plant a thorn in me? I've made a mess of my life, and now I can only suffer the consequences. I have all I need to say Having said that, I hope we don’t have to be entangled in this matter in the future.” Tang Linglin also stood up, but shook a bit, put her hand on her stomach, and showed a painful expression on her face: "It's really clear enough, very good." She forced herself to walk out of the yard, her gait slightly See slow. Xie Nan sensed something was wrong, and asked her a step ahead, "Are you okay?" Tang Linglin shook his head, walked straight out, went to his car, reached into his bag to get the car keys, but put his other hand on the car to support himself. Xie Nan originally walked out of the yard to enter through the garden gate, but when he looked back, Tang Linglin maintained the posture of leaning on the car.She hesitated for a moment, and walked over: "Are you feeling unwell? Or call Xiang Xinyang and ask him to pick you up." Tang Linglin shook her head: "Stomachache, old problem, I'll be fine after a while." She opened the car door and sat in, leaning on the back of the chair, ignoring Xie Nan. Xie Nan had no choice but to go home and open the doors and windows to ventilate. She had no energy to cook, and she was so tired that she lost her appetite.But knowing that if you don't eat it, hypoglycemia will kill you, so you can only take the biscuits, sit on the sofa, and eat without emotion. Just as you are about to peel another apple for yourself, you see Tang Linglin's car is still parked in the same place . She was a little uneasy. Although she and Tang Linglin had only met each other a few times, and they were not happy at all, she knew that Tang Linglin came and went like a breeze, and she had a calm personality. There must be a reason why she couldn't stay here at this time.After thinking about it, she still took the keys and went out. Through the half-opened car window, she saw Tang Linglin leaning back with a pale face on the back of the driver's seat, with his hands resting on his stomach. She opened the car door: "come out, get in my car, and I'll take you to the hospital." Tang Linglin opened his eyes and glanced at her: "Don't worry about it." This angry tone made her dumbfounded. She restrained her impatience and said: "I don't want to bother you, but you are at my door like this. If there is anything, I can't get rid of it. I'm tired and I'm not in the mood to coax you, or You come out as soon as possible, or I have to call your husband and ask him to come and pick you up." Tang Linglin stared at her sharply, but did not speak.Xie Nan didn't want to say anything more. She took out her mobile phone and was about to dial a number, but Tang Linglin suddenly blocked her mouth with a tissue. She could clearly see that the tissue was quickly dyed dark red, and she froze in shock. Tang Linglin took out a few more tissues to cover his mouth, moved his body with difficulty and sat on the passenger seat, and said in a low voice: "I'm afraid it will dirty your car in the past, please take me to the hospital." Without saying a word, Another mouthful of dark red blood gushed out, and the tissue could no longer block it. It fell on the gray knitted top she was wearing, which was shocking. Xie Nan tried his best to suppress the panic, got into the car, started the car and went straight to the hospital. While waiting for the red light at the intersection, she took out her mobile phone and called Xiang Xinyang, planning to ask him to go to the hospital to wait, but his mobile phone was transferred to the global call.Tang Linglin tilted his head to one side, half-closed his eyes and said, "He's on a business trip, he's coming back today, he should be on the plane now." Xie Nan asked, "Do you want to notify your family?" "If I look like this, I'll show my family and make them worry. Don't worry, I won't rely on you. Just send me to the hospital and leave." Tang Linglin said coldly. Xie Nan couldn't care about her attitude now, so after thinking about it, he called Xu Man.Xu Man happened to be on duty at the hospital. After asking about her past medical history and the color of the blood she vomited, she concluded that it should be gastrointestinal bleeding. She asked the patient to lie on her side as much as possible to prevent the bleeding from entering the respiratory tract. She promised to wait in the hospital and help her to the emergency department . She drove the car to the Central Hospital. As soon as she parked the car, Tang Linglin got out of the car and staggered in with her stomach in her hands.Xie Nan had no choice but to resign herself to catch up with her, her face was distorted in pain at this moment, no matter how weak she was, she finally put the weight of her body on Xie Nan's hands. Xu Man was already waiting at the door, and immediately took them to the internal medicine consultation room: "Let the internal medicine diagnose first, if the vomiting is severe, I'm afraid they have to be transferred to the surgery." Xu Man told a doctor he knew well and went back to work.Xie Nan went out to pay the fee, when the phone rang, it was Xiang Xinyang calling: "Nan Nan, I just got off the plane..." "Hurry up to the emergency room of the internal medicine department of the Central Hospital, your wife is ill." Xiang Xinyang was taken aback, and quickly said, "I'll be right over." When Xiang Xinyang arrived, Tang Linglin had already been sent to the inpatient ward for infusion. The physician told him that the gastrointestinal bleeding had stopped after the injection of vasoconstrictor through the artery, and he had to be hospitalized for observation and further examination to determine the follow-up treatment.Xie Nan, who had been standing by the side all the time, was exhausted and left immediately: "Please rest well, I'll take a step first." Tang Linglin on the hospital bed suddenly opened his eyes, looked at Xiang Xinyang and said, "Xinyang, Xie Nan drove me to the hospital in my car, you can take her home." Xie Nan quickly said, "No, it's very convenient for me to call a taxi back." Seeing Tang Linglin's gaze turned to her, there was a hint of pleading on his usually indifferent and proud face, she was taken aback, and immediately understood what Tang Linglin wanted her to do. I can be silent. Xiang Xinyang nodded: "I'll take Xie Nan back and pack your things for you." He told the nurse to pay attention to Tang Linglin's situation, and then walked out with Xie Nan. Xiang Xinyang stopped at the store attached to the inpatient department, bought a bottle of concentrated juice, unscrewed the cap and handed it to Xie Nan: "You look bad, drink some." Xie Nan did feel dizzy and had the harbinger of a hypoglycemia attack, so he took a few sips. "What happened today? Did Ling Lin tell you anything?" "I'm sorry, I have to go on a business trip tomorrow. I'm really tired. What she told me is not important, but I'm still willing to say what she wants me to say to you. It's good for everyone." Looking at Xiang Xinyang in front of him, "I am not the Holy Mother, Xinyang, and I am not qualified to teach you how to live, but please treat her and yourself well, okay?" Xiang Xinyang smiled wryly: "Nannan, who do you take me for? She had stomach problems before she married me, and it wasn't caused by my abuse." "The doctor said that from the acute attack of duodenal ulcer to bleeding, it has something to do with emotions and living conditions. Look at your white hair, and then look at her. We don't have the right to make our own and other people's lives like this. In the past Just let it go." "I can't give her what she wants. Maybe she will live a much easier life if she leaves me." Xie Nan said wearily: "That's your business, outsiders don't need to express their opinions. Xinyang, I have a saying, we encourage each other, the past cannot be traced, and don't let the past hinder the future. This is also a lesson I have learned." "How could I give up the memories I shared with you? How could I watch you live unhappy." "Don't be reconciled to the past, Xinyang, my happiness doesn't need to be maintained by you sacrificing my family. I was too young when we broke up, and I said that I hope you have a bad life, but now I know that your life is not good. You can't let me live well, no matter what my life will be, it shouldn't be the reason why you decide to live your own life. I'm leaving first, you'd better go back and pack your things, and then come to accompany your wife. " Xie Nan turned around, walked out of the hospital quickly, raised his hand to stop a taxi and got on it, and went back to the community where he lived. After paying and getting off the car, he didn't go directly into the garden gate, but walked to the yard, looking at the empty space opposite. He looked up at the parking space where he was sitting, and looked up to the fourth floor, but there was still no light there.During the day, she still struggled to call Yu Mucheng to report her whereabouts, but now she thought, it seemed unnecessary. She walked into the yard. It has been sunny and dry for the past few days, and the flowers in the yard are a little wilted.She carried a watering can to catch the water, and first watered the honeysuckle and radish; the roses are more drought-tolerant, so you can leave it alone; then watered the potted plants on the flower stand one by one.Then sat down, scanned the small garden, and smelled the faint fragrance of flowers in the evening breeze. It's time to say goodbye to this house, she told herself. At the same time, Yu Mucheng was sitting on the terrace of the villa left by his sister on the other side of the lake drinking alone. For several days in a row, if he didn't socialize after get off work, he would find a place to eat by himself, take a rest, go swimming in the hotel's indoor swimming pool, and then drive back to sleep.In fact, the villa is only separated from the community where he lives by a lake. He usually entrusts the property company to help take care of the garden, and an hourly worker comes to clean it once a week.All the furniture in the room was covered with white sheets to prevent dust, and he didn't bother to remove them. Anyway, he only took out a bedroom on the second floor to sleep. He was afraid that when he got home and saw the woman downstairs again, he would do something more absurd than getting angry for no reason. This was the first time in his adult life that he had lost confidence in his self-control. He saw the financial newspapers' detailed reports on the troubles encountered by Xie Nan's company, but he wasn't worried. After all, foreign-funded companies are relatively capable of dealing with such crises, and Xie Nan's business is purely financial. It shouldn't be affected.But he still read the newspaper for a long time, and at the same time honestly admitted to himself that he really missed her. Yu Mucheng reflected seriously, the irritability and unreasonableness of the past few days really surprised him, as if every word Xie Nan said could easily arouse his anger.But after calming down for a while, Xie Nan bit her lips all appeared in front of his eyes. She would bite her lips when she didn't want to speak, when she had nothing to say, and when she was silently forbearing.He thought, he really has no resistance to her entangled look, it seems that he can't just sum it up with bad taste. In the evening, Yu Mucheng was not in the mood for any business. He opened a bottle of whiskey stored in his brother-in-law's wine cabinet, poured a half glass with some ice, and sat on a chair on the balcony on the third floor to drink slowly.The villa area is quieter than ordinary residential areas, only occasionally a car passes by with its headlights on.This villa is facing the lake, the scenery is very good, the night wind is blowing a bit cool, looking around, you can just see the residential area where you live on the other side, where the lights are scattered, he doesn't know which light he wants to see arrived.Looking at the watch again, it was already past ten o'clock, she should have turned off the lights and went to bed, wondering if she was still troubled by insomnia. "Your desire to control is too strong. You can come and go when you want to, and you have to follow your steps. But I am very tired, and I have worked very hard to cooperate, you know that?" "I cherish our relationship so much that I can even admit it frankly that I have become more and more dependent on you to the point where I am afraid of myself." He reconfirmed that entanglement is indeed a contagious state.He has always prided himself on being unquestionable, decisive, and enjoying the fact that everything is under his control.But now, he began to wonder if he was really overly controlling as Xie Nan said: I love this woman, but my love did not give her a sense of security, and it actually made her feel tired and dependent Gotta be a little scared. Yu Mucheng felt slightly frustrated.He shook the wine glass in his hand, watching the ice cubes shrink and melt little by little. But this kind of frustration is also mixed with sweetness. The eyes she rolled between hesitations were actually a little unconsciously serious, and the love words she vaguely uttered were also serious. She is such an awkward and serious woman. He suddenly felt that he was a little cruel, and he would actually talk about enjoying her awkwardness. God knows how embarrassing her entanglement is. Maybe I forced her too hard, it's time to give her some space to think clearly.