Chapter 29 Chapter Twenty-Eight

Time flies, and soon it will be the graduation season. A group of people put on silly academic uniforms and ridiculous academic hats.The girls hugged and cried with their close friends; the boys were relatively restrained, patted each other on the shoulder and sent a few words of blessing, and some had red eye circles. Although they would be ridiculed for looking like a woman, it was just a good-natured joke. Everyone felt uncomfortable, and the sadness enveloped the entire campus, and they walked with hope. Chen Yang also went back to school, wearing the same clothes as other students.But the bachelor's uniform seemed to be tailor-made for her, fresh and natural, without any sense of disobedience.

I kept my eyes on her, obviously she saw me too.It was an inescapable moment, and when our eyes met, she gave me a polite smile. By the time I realized that it was not an illusion, and was hesitating whether to go over and say hello to her, she had already turned around to say hello to someone else. We were far away when the whole family took a group photo. Later, I took the big scroll-like photo and counted it carefully.She is twenty-fourth from the left in the second row, and I am thirty-seventh from the right in the last row. After the group photo of the whole department, there is a group photo of the class, and then there are random group photos among the students.

I had a DSLR with me, and I was secretly photographing her.I saw her walking towards me generously from the camera. I panicked, put down the camera, and stood there in a daze.It was she who smiled generously at me first: "Let's take a photo together." I have said countless times before that as long as she is around, I will instantly become very childish.I immediately lost my right line: "You have a big face, the camera can't take it in." She bit her lip, trying to laugh but not smiling. The boss in the dormitory was next to me. Seeing this, he snatched the camera and punched me hard: "Why are you still standing there? Hurry up and pose. I'll take a photo of you two. Hurry up."

I stood next to her, and she looked at my arm with her arm, and leaned her head slightly towards my shoulder to show her intimacy.I don't know where to put my hands, whether to open or close, and I don't know what expression to put on my face, whether to purse my lips or grin.Just when I was hesitating, "click", the boss took a picture of us. Later I made a miniature of this photo.In the photo, she is next to me, smiling sweetly.I had a silly expression, and I laughed awkwardly and weirdly.Although we have known each other for more than ten years, we don't have many photos taken together, and we haven't taken photos together since we signed up for freshman year.

So this is very precious to me, until now, I still have this group photo in my wallet.Take it out and have a look. After taking graduation photos, many people began to pack their luggage.Some people moved their luggage to the rental house, ready to work hard in this city, and some people moved their luggage home to stay at home with peace of mind. More people got on the train or went back to their hometown or drifted to the next city... I had already taken home all the things I should have taken, walked around the campus, and returned home after leaving the last bit of memory. After six o'clock in the afternoon, I was lying on the sofa thinking about life, but I was thinking wildly.At this moment, the door suddenly slammed.Someone was slapping my door like a dead dog.

I opened the door and found that it was Chen Yang.She came in dragging two large suitcases, threw the suitcases into the entrance, and then sat down on the sofa. She was out of breath, and after panting for a while, she said to me: "My dad is on a business trip, and my mom went to my grandma's house. I didn't bring the house key." I stared at her blankly, wondering if she really let go when she came to my house so frankly? I stood stupidly in a daze.Instead, she acted as if she was at her own home, and said, "Why are you standing there? Get me something to eat. I didn't eat at noon, and I'm starving to death."

When she said that, I was even more stunned. She stood up and walked in front of me, patted my arm and said, "Are you crazy again?" This time, I finally couldn't hold it back, and tears flowed out.That was the only time I cried in front of her.She pressed me on the sofa and patted my head, and said like an adult comforting a child: "Be good, be good. Don't cry, be good..." I want to hold back my tears.No matter how hard she tried, no matter how she comforted her, she still kept crying. I want to ask her if she has been doing well without me for a year and a half?I wanted to tell her that I wasn't doing well at all, that I couldn't even talk much without her bickering with me.I also want to tell her that I have passed both TOEFL and GRE, so that I can go abroad with her.I want to ask her if she has let go of her heart and no longer cares about the stupid things I did before.I want to say that I haven’t been in a relationship or 419 for more than a year. When I’m bored, I just drive black, and when I’m lonely, I take a plane...

I have so many things I wanted to say to her, but I didn't say anything. She continued to coax me like a child.While rubbing my eyes, I said, "Take a rest, I got sand in my eyes." This is a very poor lie.In the past, she and I always complained that the person who told this lie was a fool, and the person who believed it was even more stupid.Now that the lie fell on me, Chen Yang would definitely not believe it, but he didn't expose me.I went to the kitchen and cooked a bowl of instant noodles for her, put marinated eggs and chrysanthemum chrysanthemum in the noodles, and washed apples for her.

After eating the noodles, she started chatting with me.It is said to be chatting, but in fact it is just that she is talking and I am listening. She said her roommates all found jobs.She said that the TOEFL was too difficult, and she took the test four times before getting a score of 81, so she simply gave up.She said that after her birthday in July, she will formally sign a contract with the company, and she is very happy.She said that her parents always asked her why she hadn't seen me for a long time and why she didn't play with me anymore.She said that her boyfriend is from the same company as her and treats her very well...

When she said "boyfriend", I instinctively tensed up and asked, "What did you say? Who treats you very well?" She smiled and said, "My boyfriend." I said, "You came here today to tell me that you already have a boyfriend, don't you?" She rolled her eyes speechlessly: "Are you sick?" I gritted my teeth and yelled back: "Yes, the biggest problem in my life is that I like you like a fool." "Can you stop doing this?" Chen Yang sighed, "It took me so long to try to be friends with you again." I thought I must have been crazy at the time, she was finally willing to pay attention to me, but I was not satisfied, I was still thinking about it, and I even shouted at her angrily: "Who wants to be your good friend? I His mother never wanted to be your good friend!"

I took a deep breath and said the sentence I regret the most in my life: "Since we can't be a couple, let's just continue to be strangers like you said before." She looked at me, hooked the corners of her mouth, and smiled a little coldly: "Let me tell you Yang Jie, I'm really tired of you now, I used to be so blind that I like people like you!" I didn't respond, and stood in front of her coldly and dumbly. She said angrily: "It's better not to see you again!" After she finished speaking, she pulled the box and slammed the door and walked out. I didn't chase, just like the last time I had a quarrel on campus.I'm not worried that she has nowhere to go with the suitcase, because when she took the tissue from the bag just now, I saw her key was in the bag. I haven't had any contact with her since then.She did not contact me and I am not qualified to contact her.I said that I often don't understand myself, and I always have to think twice and make progress. Alone and lonely, I still look like a voyeur, browsing her Weibo Douban every day, never stopping. Slowly, my life also stepped into the normal.After graduation, I did not stay in the company where I practiced, but went to a state-owned enterprise. I told my parents that the people in this company are very peaceful and there is no too much work pressure, which suits my personality like a bun.My dad said: "Do it first and talk about it later." It was obvious that he was not satisfied with the job I found. He had higher expectations for me, so he was disappointed. After eating in frustration, I lay down on the bed in frustration, and I checked Chen Yang's Weibo and Douban as usual.I really want to know how she is with her boyfriend, but she never shows her love and happiness online like other girls.All the community can't see an iota of her relationship status, it's like a blank slate.I couldn't figure out what was going on, so I could only speculate. Later, my mobile phone was stolen and all the data on the mobile phone were lost.After I changed my phone, I sent a group message of my new phone number on QQ, but I didn’t tell Chen Yang, because I knew that even if I told her the number, she would never be able to contact me again. But I always remember her number, and carefully store it in the first address book. I thought that Chen Yang and I had nothing to do with each other, and it would end so plainly.But one day, Chen Yang's Weibo suddenly mentioned me and our past. What touched me the most was a recent Weibo post by her: "Thank you for being with you for more than ten years. Although various reasons have kept us away from each other, our miss has not faded with time. I understand your indiscretion , I look forward to meeting you again, and looking forward to getting along as before. I hope that at that time, you and I can let go of the obstacles in your heart and change your old look. I wish you happiness, and I hope you wish me happiness." I was moved to tears.I found myself suddenly looking away and letting go.My mind was full of fantasies that one day I would find a chance to say to her myself: "I'm sorry. I hurt you, friend." I've been planning it, but not until January 24th of this year.That night, when I was playing cards with my buddies, I suddenly received a message from Zhao Qianqian: "She is getting married."