Chapter 19 Chapter 15 Marriage

For Jiang Shan and me, getting married is a matter of course and success.We didn't discuss it beforehand. At the end of January 2006, I met Serena Williams in the first round of the Australian Open. After three sets, I still lost.I felt very tired, didn't say anything, picked up the plane ticket and went straight to Wuhan - every time I finished playing, I really wanted to go home as soon as possible. Playing made me physically and mentally exhausted, and home was my charger.I'm so tired, I want to have a good rest. Jiang Shan went to the airport to pick me up.When we got home and put down our travel bags, my friends invited me out for dinner and singing. I nestled on the sofa and said, "I'm too tired. I want to sleep. I don't want to go." It's on."

After the meal, we went to karaoke together. I didn't expect that Jiang Shan proposed to me at that time.He prepared a big cake and a big bouquet of roses—really a big bouquet, 99 in total.A friend helped me carry out the roses, and the girls passing by would say "ah" when they saw the roses, because they were so conspicuous. I was very moved, but at the same time subconsciously felt that it was a waste, such a big bouquet of flowers, you can't eat or drink, isn't this a waste of money?That bouquet is indeed beautiful, but we are no longer the age that needs to rely on romantic atmosphere to live.Such a beautiful flower makes me feel unreal.The next day the roses withered and I just put them in the trash.Jiang Shan had no objection either.In fact, whether it is sending flowers or talking sweetly, it is not what he is good at.I think he proposed with 99 roses just to make me happy.I'm really happy, not for Hua, but because he can observe my thoughts so carefully.

Neither of us are the type to create a romantic atmosphere.We prefer to live in the real world. The next day, we went to the Civil Affairs Bureau to get the certificate.Did not pick any auspicious days.I just have time today, so let's get the certificate!After taking it home, I had a good meal and felt at ease. The wedding room is already prepared.When we were in college, we bought a house with four bedrooms, two living rooms and two bathrooms. In a community in the suburbs of Wuhan, the environment of the community is very good and quiet. My ideal house is a sea view room.I like the sea, and I have always dreamed that I can have a house by the sea, with blue sky and white clouds, and I can see the sea when I open the curtains at home.Seeing the sea, people will feel very small.Many residential areas in Wuhan have river-view houses, but I don’t like the fact that the house is next to the Yangtze River. The polluted river water looks very turbid. I like the cool blue color unique to sea water, which looks very clean.

But with this house, I am content.The decoration was entirely our own idea, and the designer helped us turn one of the rooms into a bar.Then I won the Grand Slam trophy, so I put the trophy on the bar.In addition to the Susan Lundgren Cup, there is also a silver cup at home. I forgot which country’s Queen gave it to me. The cup is engraved with “To the People’s Republic of China, Li Na”, which was given by the Queen through the Ministry of Foreign Affairs. The Chinese Tennis Association and the Tennis Association gave it to me. I like the shape of the cup very much.Apart from these two cups, I don't have a single tennis thing in my house.My trophies were stored in my mother's place in the early days, and now they are all put in boxes. I don't like hanging pictures of myself playing at home.I don't want to go home and play tennis forever.

The biggest failure in the decoration is that there is no cloakroom, which makes me regret it.Nike has sponsored a lot of my sportswear, most of which can only be seen on the court once and then shelved, because the brand wants me to show more different styles of clothing.In addition, I like to buy bags and shoes indiscriminately, and I have filled all the closets at home.My clothes are mainly dark colors, because I think the probability of making mistakes with cool colors is relatively small, and there are no restrictions on styles.My favorite color will change every once in a while. This year I especially like purple, but I am not against other colors. Every color has its beauty.

Wine is the most important thing in our family. I like the packaging of small bottles of foreign wine. I bought a lot and kept it at home. Jiang Shan drinks very well, and so do I. Friends visit from time to time, and everyone will deliberately avoid topics such as "tennis" and "competition", but we all know in our hearts that it is impossible for us to avoid it very far. My mother is satisfied with my marriage. Like all Chinese parents, she can't wait to see her grandchildren. She also knows that we are not qualified to have children in this situation, but she hopes that when we have children Can be brought by her.

This is absolutely not feasible. I'm not very satisfied with my personality, I don't think I have any special qualities except for a little talent in tennis.When I was a child, I was a shy, introverted, and very unconfident child. This has something to do with my mother's education method. In my memory, my mother was very beautiful when she was young. She was the kind of woman who put on makeup every day. I often saw her carefully dressing up in front of the mirror.When I was a child, I had long "curly" hair, which could hang down to my waist if I let it down.Like all little girls, I love beauty and always look in the mirror when I have nothing to do.As a result, I was severely criticized by my mother once. She criticized me for knowing that I am ugly every day, and I don’t practice calligraphy like other children.

Since then, I seldom look in the mirror, and that sentence has followed me for many years.Every time I look in the mirror, that sense of frustration trickles silently from the memory and envelops me. For the convenience of playing, the girls on the tennis team will tie their long hair into ponytails or braids. I never use a comb when I comb my hair. Before I was 4 years old, I lived in my grandparents' house, and I was very close to everyone in my grandmother's house. My two uncles never regarded me as an outsider.My relationship with my two uncles has always been good.My uncle's daughter is 5 years younger than me. We grew up together and have a very deep brotherhood.My little uncle is only 12 years older than me, and he always played with me when I was young.

When my family was in trouble, the two uncles often helped us.Now my environment is relatively better, and if I can help them, I will help them more.To my embarrassment, this seems to be a weapon of the mother.Her attitude towards the uncles is obviously a bit condescending.At the once-a-week family gathering, my uncle sometimes talked about work matters, and my mother immediately interrupted impatiently: "Don't tell me about this, I will be annoyed when I hear it." My grandmother is an open-minded and optimistic old man. Every time I want to give her money, she firmly refuses to take it, saying that it is your hard-earned money, which is not easy to come by, and my heart will hurt if I spend it.My mother, however, seemed to regard money as an ironclad proof that the relationship between our mother and daughter had never been cold. She accepted any money or things that I "respected" frankly, but she was puzzled by the little help I gave to my uncles.

This attitude will of course embarrass everyone, but she is the eldest sister, and the uncles don't care too much.I talked to her behind my back: Don't be like this, don't always feel that others owe you everything.We have to think about how others helped us when we were in trouble.Brothers and sisters from other families may not be as united and harmonious as ours. In addition, my mother is a very face-saving person.When my athletic performance is particularly good, she goes to a class reunion and asks me to call her in advance during her reunion so that her classmates can hear—she thinks this is a way to look good.This also makes me feel awkward.

But I can't talk about her. If I talk too much, my mother will feel that I am inconsistent with her.I don't know if it's menopause, but she always feels angry and wronged.So no matter what she said, I just listened and tried not to talk back. Mom is the closest person I have in this world.I always think about how she came to see me every day when I lived in a sports school when I was a child, and brought me iced mung bean soup to relieve the heat in hot weather.She is my mom and I love her very, very much.I am her only daughter, and it is impossible for her not to love me.It's just that I often don't know how to communicate and communicate with my mother now. Of course mother knows this better than anyone.After my father left, my mother felt lonely and wanted to spend more time with me, but the distance between our hearts was getting farther and farther, and the difference in concept was getting bigger and bigger. If we really stayed together, we would make everyone unhappy .It also made my mother very painful.She is a very straight person, she will speak out when she is unhappy, complaining that I don't go to see her, and don't spend more time with her. I don't know what to say. In fact, I would rather stay with Jiang Shan's mother. She has a completely different idea from my mother. Jiang Shan's mother has a mentality of "as long as you feel happy" and respects children. Does not interfere with our lives.My mom always felt like we were kids and needed supervision and control, even though I was almost 30.She doggedly used her experience to guide my life, unaware that the world had changed. My mother thinks that she is someone who has experienced it and will have more experience, so I have to listen to her.When I chat with my mother, she is used to using such sentences: "You listen to me", "I have eaten more salt than you have eaten rice".I said to myself, that's not necessarily the case. So when my mother offered to help me raise the child, I refused in my heart without hesitation.No, I said in my heart, when I have a child, I can no longer educate him/her with the education I received when I was a child, I have to give him/her enough respect and freedom, and I have to say "no" to him/her Right, I want him/her to have his/her own soul and dreams. Jiang Shan and I have never had a wedding, which made my mother very dissatisfied, but I think marriage is a matter between two people, and a ceremony is just a dispensable thing for me. Nowadays, many people's weddings are alienated. They are no longer a witness of feelings, but a boring ceremony that wastes time, manpower and material resources.Both Jiang Shan and I think that this ceremony is not that important, and whether life is happy or not has nothing to do with whether this ceremony is grand or not. In the future, I guess I will not make up this kind of ceremony.We have been together for so long, everyone knew that we were married, and I don't have that spirit anymore. In the final analysis, marriage is just a matter between me and Jiang Shan.What other people think and think is their own business.