Chapter 18 Chapter 17 There is a gap in my heart

Lu Fei watched Xin Chen rush into the yard without looking back, then returned to his car, checked the time, and still called Ji Ruoli's cell phone, and Ji Ruoli answered the phone after a while. "Ruoli, are you asleep?" Ji Ruoli smiled softly, "Do you think I can sleep?" "Then come down and have a seat. I'll wait for you at the bar on the second floor of the hotel where you live." Ji Ruoli lived in a five-star hotel by the river. The bar on the second floor had floor-to-ceiling windows facing the river to the south. You could overlook the river beach. After Lu Fei passed by, he ordered a glass of whiskey on the rocks and sat alone for a while , Ji Ruoli just came down, she was wearing a gray top and loose-fitting wide-leg trousers of the same color, her long hair was casually draped over her shoulders.Lu Fei got up and opened a chair for her to let her sit down, "What do you want to drink?"

"Same as you." Ji Ruoli said uninterestedly.The waiter brought the wine, but she didn't drink it, she just stared absently at the Yangtze River under the night sky outside the window. She has lived in this hotel for many days. In the big bed room on the 26th floor, she opened the curtains to see the so-called invincible river view. , she has no interest in watching, and she doesn't like wandering around in this noisy and disorderly city.Most of the time, she stood in front of the window with her arms folded, staring blankly into the distance, not knowing what she was waiting for.

"Ten years ago in the summer, this city encountered a flood that was said to occur once in a hundred years. The river rose to a height that surprised everyone, and the troops were transferred to participate in flood control." Lu Fei pointed to the opposite side of Binjiang Road, "I have a good relationship with the local people." Like a human being, I came to see the spectacle that the river surface was almost level with the road surface, and I stood there at that time. There was no hotel at that time, and there was no river beach park.” Ji Ruoli didn't know why he suddenly said this, "Will you join in watching the fun like everyone else? I don't believe it."

"I came over to see it, and found that sometimes it's a very happy thing to catch a lively occasion." Of course, with his personality, he wouldn't go, but the one who pouts and must go is Xin Chen.As soon as the heavy rain stopped, the water in the city receded slowly, and there was still a mess all over the place. She caught a cold and shook his hand coquettishly, "Just take a look, my classmate said that standing on the road, you can see the ship floating in front of you." .” How could he refuse her. The flood control situation is very severe. The tense flow of people and vehicles constantly carrying straw mats, sandbags and other flood control equipment is in stark contrast to the citizens pointing and pointing along the way.Lu Fei never thought that he would be mixed in such a crowd with nothing to do. Thinking of how his father would be exhausted during this time, he couldn't help worrying, but turned his head to look at Xin Chen, who stood on tiptoe excitedly looking at the river with bright eyes. , but his heart relaxed inexplicably, and he picked her up and raised her a little higher, so that she could see more clearly.

Ji Ruoli was stung by the vague smile on Lu Fei's face brought about by memories, she moved the corner of her mouth and smiled mockingly, "I remember that year when San Francisco held the largest National Day fireworks show , all the classmates have gone, only you don’t want to go.” "That's different, it's someone else's holiday." "So your happiness seems to be more than watching a once-in-a-century spectacle." "You criticized me, saying that I have always wrapped myself up tightly and never took the initiative to tell you about the past." Lu Fei looked at Ji Ruoli calmly, "I'm sorry, Ruoli, it's not that I deliberately wanted to hide anything, it's just that you Being smart, I can naturally see that all the memories I don’t want to give up, whether they are happy or painful, are related to one person, and I can’t share them with others.”

"Am I smart? I think I'm dull enough to fall into your feelings and can't extricate myself, but I'm not dull enough to fool myself to continue." Ji Ruoli could only laugh at himself. "None of us can fool ourselves, Ruo. I have tried to deceive myself, thinking that I can let the past go, accept life's arrangements, do a job that I am comfortable with, and be busy just right, just like everyone else. I have the feeling of sitting in an important position without exhausting my energy, and then marry a tolerant and considerate girl and enjoy the happiness in the usual sense. But I was wrong, even if I didn’t meet her again, there will always be a gap in my heart , I don’t have a sense of happiness myself, let alone bring you happiness, I’m sorry for delaying you for so long.”

Ji Ruoli can no longer maintain that bit of ridicule that he doesn't know whether he is mocking others or himself. Lu Fei has always been sincere, but his sincerity has always been reserved.Seeing the man who was always restrained before him suddenly give up his usual restrained attitude, revealing in front of her his little longing, pain and helplessness about his past memories, she couldn't help but realize that this unprecedentedly frank gesture seemed to mean that he had let go With all the uncertainties and no possibility of turning back, she could only swallow a sigh forcefully.

"Since you came back from the United States three months ago, you have been telling me that you are sorry. Forget it, let's save some room for meeting in the future. Lu Fei, I have already asked my sister's secretary to book a plane ticket back to Beijing for me tomorrow. " Ji Ruoli picked up the wine glass and took a sip, staring at him, "Thank you for not showing a relieved expression." This is the end that Lufei wanted, but of course he couldn't let it go, he was silent for a moment, "I'll come and take you to the airport tomorrow." The next day, Lu Fei picked up Ji Ruoli and drove to the airport. The two of them kept silent all the way. When they entered the terminal, Lu Fei stopped suddenly, and saw Xin Chen and Lin Yueqing sitting on the side. In the rest area, both of them were wearing gray T-shirts and jeans, chatting leisurely, with several suitcases and bags beside them.

Lu Fei put down Ji Ruoli's suitcase, said sorry, and hurried over. "Xiao Chen, where are you going?" He put one hand on Xin Chen's shoulder, his voice was suppressed and low. Xin Chen only felt his shoulders suddenly heavy, and looked up at him inexplicably, before he could answer, Lin Yueqing smiled and said: "Lufei, hello, Hehuan is here to see me off." Lu Fei's expression relaxed, and he slowly withdrew his hand. He paused for a while before saying, "I'm also here to see someone off, Yueqing, do you want to go back to the United States?" "Yes, I'm about to start school, I can't wait any longer."

Lu Fei nodded, "Have a safe trip, Yueqing, I'll excuse you first." Xin Chen raised his head inadvertently, and saw Ji Ruoli standing not far away. She was wearing a pair of large sunglasses, facing her side with no expression on her face. Lu Fei walked over, said something to her, picked up the With the suitcase next to her, the two walked to the counter for boarding pass exchange together. Lin Yueqing smiled and said, "He's really nervous about you. You scared him. He must have thought that you were going to disappear quietly, or even worse, run away with me."

Xin Chen didn't know whether to laugh or cry, "I don't have that elegance. I want to abduct you and elope, does your father dare to let me see you off alone? Hey, yes, you still speak so bluntly to your father." Xin Chen and Lin Yueqing met downstairs at his house just now, Lin Yueqing insisted on refusing his father Lin Yueqing to drive him off, and while hailing a taxi, he said: "You go up, I will call you when you arrive." There was no parting at all. Lin Yueqing had no choice but to tell him to pay attention on the road, and said goodbye to him and Xin Chen. When he was hospitalized in Xi'an three years ago, Xin Chen was surprised. Seeing Lin Yueqing, who had such a cheerful and easy-going personality, was very indifferent to his father who rushed to take care of him. The two often couldn't speak a word for a long time. Lin Yueqing smiled shyly and shook his head, "What you see now is fine. He used to be sorry for my mother. When I was 15 years old, my mother divorced him and took me and my sister to immigrate to Canada. Later, he Go see us, I always ignore him." "Forget about the past, I think it's true that he's nervous." "Yes, when we were carried down from the Qinling Mountains, you were in a coma, but I was awake. When I saw him pounced over with an unshaven beard, he seemed to be much older. I thought, I have been angry with him for too long. No, my mother doesn't blame him anymore, and my sister is even more affectionate with him. It's just me, I don't know what I can't let go of, and I have been holding it for so long." Lin Leqing sighed, "Slowly we have resumed diplomatic relations, otherwise we will come back this time , it is impossible for me to live with him. But it is always far from intimacy, no matter how you want to make up for it, you can only do this." Xin Chen has always had a close relationship with her father, but she has a mother-daughter relationship that has never started and probably cannot be repaired. Of course, she understands Lin Yueqing's feelings. "Let's not talk about this, Hehuan, are you a little bit reluctant to part with me?" Lin Yueqing's eyes flashed with a mischievous smile. Xin Chen also laughed, "Are you serious, okay? Go back and be a good student, study hard, and see you next year." "I will graduate next year, and I plan to return to China to work. I have initially talked with my parents, and they also support me." Lin Yueqing lazily stretched his long legs, "Looking at the current situation, there is room for development of domestic architectural design. Still big." This is the first time Lin Yueqing talked to Xin Chen about his academic future. Xin Chen nodded, "Which city do you plan to go to?" "I want to see your arrangement first." Lin Yueqing's tone was relaxed, but he stared at her with dark and clear eyes, the sincerity was unquestionable, Xin Chen looked at him, and said equally seriously: "Yueqing, please choose the life you want most, don't rush to give it to yourself. Set a premise, okay?" Lin Yueqing shook his head, "You seem to want to draw a boundary with everyone now, Hehuan. You don't take others as the reason for your decision, and you don't want to be the premise of others' decision. Are you going to keep a distance from this world forever? ?" Xin Chen was stunned for a moment, "I didn't live so detached." "That's not detachment, that's a kind of self-isolation, you will miss a lot, I don't want you to live like that." Lin Yueqing held her hand and said softly, "Hehuan, it may not be with Lufei, or maybe I won't see you either. It has to be with me, and one day, you have to develop a more intimate relationship with someone, and you can't keep saying no." Xin Chen forced a smile, "I understand, maybe leaving this city will give me a chance to completely get rid of some things and get along with people more easily." "Then remember, I have made an appointment with you in advance, no matter where you plan to live in the future, at least I can start as a friend who goes hiking with you." "You don't need to make an appointment, Yueqing, we may go to the Czech Republic together. And as long as you return to China for work, no matter which city you live in, we will have a chance to meet." She pointed at the display screen, "Hey, go to counter No. 7 to change boarding Card." She helped Lin Yueqing take a backpack, and went with him to change the boarding pass and check in the luggage. Lin Yueqing suddenly looked back at her, "I'm going in, Hehuan, before I leave, I ask you to promise me a few things, okay?" ?” "What? I'll see if I can do it." "You have to do it, or I won't recognize you as a friend. Don't take risks casually, don't hike alone, keep in touch with me and your family, and don't play missing." Xin Chen didn't expect the big boy in front of her to whisper such an order, and she felt a little sour. She handed him the backpack, opened her arms and hugged him quickly, then let go, and smiled covertly, "It can be seen that a person If you start to be self-willed, no matter how restrained you are in the future, others will treat you as self-willed all the time. You don’t need to tell me these things, I will definitely do them all, Yueqing, let’s go in.” Lin Leqing nodded, and shook her hand firmly, "Take care of yourself, goodbye." Xin Chen watched Lin Leqing enter the security check passage, he turned his head and waved to her with a smile, then entered the waiting hall, she turned around, Ji Ruoli and Lu Fei also walked over, she nodded slightly, and passed them by, Walk out of the lobby, ready to take the airport bus.Lu Fei came up from behind her, "I'll take you back, Xiaochen." Xin Chen hesitated, and Lu Fei smiled slightly, "Even if you reject me, you don't have to cut off contact with me." "I don't care, I'm afraid it's not good to bother you." Lu Fei shook his head, "There is only one situation that bothers me, and that is that you are determined to treat me as a passerby." "We've known each other for so long, it's too pretentious to act like a passer-by." Xin Chen raised the corner of his mouth, and a dimple appeared on his right cheek, and smiled relaxedly, "It's better to be natural." Lu Fei's eyes darkened, but he only looked at her calmly, "I have no objection, we can take your time according to your ideas and steps." The smile on Xin Chen's face deepened, and he shook his head, "If you keep talking like this, it will be close to flirting, but if you flirt with you, we will probably have bad reactions. Let's go, get in the car, I have to go back." Xin Chen, who appeared in the posture of a mature woman with a smile and a smile, was not unfamiliar to Lu Fei. Although her refusal was decisive last night, her emotions were revealed after all. However, all the fluctuations seemed to calm down overnight. She faced him calmly and kept politely. Looking at the distance, it was slightly teasing appropriately, not cold, but not at all intimate. Lu Fei remained calm and opened the car door for her, "Shall we go directly to your work place?" "I have to go to the hospital first. My aunt was hospitalized for a heart attack last night. I'll go see her." Lu Fei drove the car to the entrance of the downtown hospital, "I'll go see Aunt Li too." Xin Chen didn't want to go up with him, but he had no reason to refuse, so he could only nod his head, "Then wait a moment, I'll go get the ordered soup." She strode across the road to the soup restaurant across the street. This soup restaurant was quite famous in the local area. She called before going out in the morning and ordered an angelica chicken soup. Last night, Xin Chen had already fallen asleep, and the phone rang at home. She got up to answer the call, and it was Xin Kaiming who called, "Xiao Chen, tell Xiaodi to come to the central hospital immediately. Her mother is not feeling well. Come to the hospital." Xin Chen quickly agreed, but found that Xin Di had left her mobile phone on the coffee table when she went out for an appointment, so she had to call David Fan's mobile phone, and after a while, David Fan answered, and he immediately handed over the mobile phone to the Xin Di, Xin Di was shocked when he heard that, and hurriedly urged David Fan to drive to the hospital, while calling his father's mobile phone, Xin Kaiming said: "Your mother suddenly felt palpitations, dizziness, and breathlessness. Big problem." When they arrived at the hospital, they met Xin Chen getting off the taxi and waiting at the door. The three of them hurried to the emergency ward of internal medicine. They saw Li Xin half lying on the hospital bed, and Xin Kaiming sitting on the chair next to him. "Dad, how is Mom?" "I took the medicine and had an electrocardiogram." Xin Kaiming said softly, "The doctor said that he will stay in the hospital for observation today, and he will have a comprehensive examination tomorrow. He may need to consult with a neurologist." Xin Di breathed a sigh of relief. Li Xin suffers from chronic rheumatic heart disease, which is not considered serious. Over the years, she has paid attention to maintenance and exercise. Her physical condition looks good, but there are always hidden worries. Li Xin opened her eyes and said weakly: "It's okay, it's late, Xiaodi can stay with me, you all go back." She saw Xindi's clothes clearly, and frowned, "Xiaodi, no matter how urgent you are, , and you can’t run around in such short pajamas, it’s too unseemly, it’s your father who stays here, and Xiao Dai hurriedly sent her home.” Xin Di cried out secretly, and quickly gathered her shirt, "Okay, okay, I'll come over tomorrow morning and make sure I'm dressed neatly. Dad, if there's anything you need, call me right away." Xin Di went out to the hospital at six o'clock in the morning, and Xin Chen told her to bring chicken soup up at noon so that she would not have to order a hospital lunch.She came over with the chicken soup packed by the clerk, and Lu Fei also bought flowers and fruit baskets nearby. The two went upstairs to the ward where Li Xin lived, and were about to go in when they heard Li Xin's voice raised slightly. : "Why are you so stupid, you can't listen to what your mother says. In short, Xiaochen lives with you now, so you have to be careful not to let her get in touch with David Fando." Xin Chen stopped in his tracks, with an unbelievable expression on his face, Lu Fei frowned and was about to speak, when Xin Di had already opened his mouth: "Mom, the more you talk, the more outrageous you are, how can Chen Zi bother to do such a thing." "You have the same tone as your father, you don't understand Xiaochen's scheming at all. Don't mention the past, don't say that Lu Fei was disturbed by her and broke the engagement with his fiancee now. Your Aunt Xie is very angry about this, it is Feng Yi'an At home, there was a big disturbance yesterday." "Feng Yi'an broke up with Chen Zi a long time ago, how can he blame her for his family's affairs?" Lu Fei put the things in his hand against the wall, and stretched out his hand to Xin Chen, "Let's go over there and sit down first." Xin Chen didn't move, and looked at him with a little sneer, Li Xin's voice continued to come from the room, "Why do you think they broke up? Xiao Feng's mother felt that the family Xiao Chen grew up in was not normal from the beginning, and there were many single-parent children. She has psychological problems more or less, and has always opposed their relationship. It was because of Xiao Feng's insistence that they reluctantly agreed. But not long ago, they somehow found out that she had filmed an advertisement for a hospital for abortion before graduating from high school. Many boyfriends got angry when they heard Xiao Feng said that they wanted to marry Xiao Chen, and ordered them to break up. They only have one precious son, how can they let go of this?" Xin Di's voice was inconceivable, "This reason is too ridiculous, Feng Yi'an is still not an adult man, he is so at the mercy of his family." "At the beginning your father wanted to introduce Xiao Chen to Xiao Feng, I thought it was inappropriate. I told your father, if you don't do it well, don't say that you can't become an in-law, but it will embarrass your old colleagues when they meet. Am I right? Originally Even if we broke up, I don’t know what Xiaochen signaled to Xiaofeng. He suddenly went back to have a showdown with his parents and insisted on reconciling with Xiaochen. The family was in a mess. Xiaofeng’s mother called me to complain. What, come back and talk about your father, your father blames me, that's why I got so angry that my chest hurts." Xin Chen smiled with the corners of his mouth pulled, handed the chicken soup in his hand to Lu Fei, and said softly: "Eavesdropping on other people's speech is really bad, every time you can hear things that embarrass yourself. Please help me take it in, needless to say I've been here." Without waiting for Lu Fei to say anything, she turned and strode away. The elevators in the hospital are crowded and slow as usual. People come and go on every floor. Everyone looks sad and has their own thoughts.Xin Chen leaned against the corner and stood, looked sideways at the frowns reflected in the mirror around her, and finally stared at herself, she still had that little smile on her face, but it was also a face without any pleasure.She knew that although her aunt didn't like her, she had never owed her anything for so many years, and she always maintained her superficial care and kindness. She really didn't expect that she had already regarded herself as a vixen in private, and she was a vixen with such a definite crime. Her mobile phone rang, and she took it out to see that it was Feng Yi'an calling. She waited for the elevator to go down to the first floor, and while walking out with the crowd, she answered: "Hello." "Xiaochen, are you free now?" "What's the matter, Ian?" "Where are you? I'll come pick you up." "I'm visiting a patient and I'm going to work soon, can I talk on the phone?" "A freelancer actually started to prevaricate me with work." Feng Yi'an's voice was sarcasm again, "I'm sorry, I couldn't make it clear on the phone, please do me a favor and spare some time to meet with me, it won't delay you too much Long." Thinking of the really unpleasant conversation she heard outside the ward just now, she lost interest, "Yi'an, we broke up and live in the same city, just say hello when we meet by chance, you think I will Are you interested in learning your sharp tone in person?" Feng Yi'an obviously didn't expect her to be so direct, and was speechless for a while, Xin Chen said politely: "That's it, I'm hanging up, goodbye." Before she put the phone back into her bag, the call came in again, it was still Feng Yi'an, she sighed, and answered again: "Hello, what else can I do?" "I'm sorry, I apologize, Xiao Chen, I was wrong just now." Feng Yi'an's voice was distressed. "Forget it, my tone is not good," she hesitated, but still said, "Yi'an, please don't argue with your family because of me." "You never cared about me, did you?" Feng Yi'an became irritable again. Before Xin Chen could speak, Feng Yi'an hung up the phone first this time. Xin Chen put away his mobile phone and was about to walk out of the hospital when he saw several doctors in white robes walking towards him. The man surrounded by them was thin and slender, probably in his early 50s, wearing rimless glasses, with slight spots on his temples, She immediately recognized that it was Lufei's uncle Xie Siqi, who had diagnosed her with sleep paralysis eleven years ago. She was not going to say hello hastily. Seeing Dr. Xie, who was more scholarly than ever, passed by, she couldn't help remembering that when Lu Fei took her to see a doctor, standing at the door, she refused to enter the hospital. Being firmly grasped by Lu Fei, he looked at her so gently and coaxed her patiently, the midsummer sun shone on him through the shade of the trees, and his smile was as warm as a spring day amidst the mottled light and shadow, this sudden memory made her slightly Absent. A hand suddenly reached out and held her hand. She was startled, and when she looked back, it was Lu Fei. Lu Fei held her hand tightly, but didn't look at her. While holding her, he called Xie Siqi, "Uncle." Xie Siqi stopped and turned around, "Lu Fei, why are you here?" "I'm here to see Aunt Li. She lives in bed 1907 in the internal medicine ward." Xie Siqi nodded, "Yes, Director Xin's wife, I have consulted with the heart surgeon in the morning, she should be fine, this lady is—" "She is Uncle Xin's niece, Xin Chen. I used to bring her to treat my uncle, but she was still young at that time, only 14 years old. You may not remember." Xie Siming smiled, "Please don't question the memory of a doctor who has been doing neurology research all his life, Lu Fei, this is the only girl you brought to me since I was a child, of course I have an impression." He looked kindly Looking at Xin Chen, "Do you still have sleep disorders?" Xin Chen really thought it was ridiculous, but he could only keep smiling, "Even if there is still, I've gotten used to it, thank you doctor." Xie Siqi smiled and said: "Yes, the proportion of adults with sleep problems is very high now, and it is very important to adjust yourself. Lu Fei, if you have time, bring your girlfriend to my house for dinner. I will go in first." Watching Xie Siqi go away, Xin Chen looked at Lu Fei with a half-smile, "You don't mean to make up your mind to flirt with me, do you?" "Don't be offended by what you heard upstairs." "I'm really not angry, at most I'm surprised. If there is still a man who can stimulate my desire to seduce and destroy, I seem to be grateful." The desolate sarcasm in her tone made Lu Fei silent. He looked at her quietly and paused for a while before saying, "Xiao Chen, it's unfair to yourself to punish yourself with other people's prejudice." Xin Chen raised his eyebrows, with a slight smile on his lips, "Fortunately, I'm not too stubborn about fairness. You heard it just now. Right now, there are probably two mothers who think that I have plans for their sons, and one mother thinks that I have plans for their sons. Her daughter's boyfriend has become covetous, and if you hold my hand like this again, do you want to completely prove my innocence." Lu Fei opened his hand lightly, "Aunt Li misunderstood, my parents are indeed dissatisfied with my termination of the engagement, but after I reached an understanding with Ruo Li last night, I have already talked with them seriously, it's none of anyone's business, it's just me The problem." "Thank you, then at least I can save one crime, and I really have to go to work." "I'll take you there." "No, let's keep a proper distance, okay? I don't want to cause any more trouble before I go." Without looking back, she walked to the waiting taxi in front of the hospital, opened the door and got in. Xin Chen went directly to David Fan's advertising company. After Yan Xuhui moved to the studio, the shooting progress of the album was significantly accelerated.She didn't have to go to the shooting site anymore, David Fan arranged a desk and computer for her in the company, and she began to carry out the final editing process on the pictures taken in the early stage.The most difficult thing to deal with is the part of the pictures taken in the April Garden. The old-fashioned houses and antique furniture are certainly sentimental, but the lighting is not as thoughtful as professional studios. Several scenes were shot in the semi-open air environment of the cloister, and the model’s hair was blown by the wind. When it comes to the face, the thin hair is very troublesome to trim. Feng Yi'an sent a text message, asking her to meet up at a time, she didn't want to reply, so she turned off her phone and kept busy until 8:00 in the evening. Dinner was a box lunch with other employees, and the overtime employees of the advertising company had to leave before she could get up. It is almost inevitable that she spends most of the day in front of the computer, sour eyes and dizziness. After she came out, she waved goodbye to a few young men and women who were talking and laughing lively. They left, but she did not take a step, and restrained her smile. Yi, standing on the street illuminated by street lights, looking up at the gray sky, raised his left hand and rubbed the back of his neck, suddenly he didn't know where to go. After a while, Xin Chen lazily took steps towards the underground passage, preparing to cross the road to the opposite bus stop.Taking the escalator down to the bottom, she only heard the sound of the violin in front of her. She walked over and stopped in front of the violin player. Usually, there are various street stalls in the underground passages. Occasionally, there are people performing arts. They are all blind people playing erhu and gourd silk. Today, the violin player is a thin and short young boy with slightly disheveled hair. Throwing some bills and coins.The lights in the underground passage were dim, pedestrians came and went in a hurry, and few people stopped in front of him, but he didn't care, he focused on playing the violin, immersed in the sound of his music.At the end of the song, no one applauds.He handed over the bow to his left hand, bent down and picked up the mineral water from the ground and took a big sip. "I want to listen to Chrysler's "Joy of Love", is that okay?" Xin Chen asked softly. He was startled, looked up at her, seemed a little shy, immediately looked away, nodded, took a deep breath with the bow, and began to draw it. The familiar music came oncoming and surrounded her densely. She stood motionless, letting herself be fascinated for a moment. Ten years ago, another boy went to her house with a piano case, stood in the living room, and asked her with a smile, "What do you want to hear?" She blinked her eyes, but she had no idea about the violin music. She hesitated and said, "Uh, "Blessing Lovers"?" He smiled, showing his white teeth. "Listen to this, Chrysler's "Joy of Love." She was sitting on the sofa, concentrating on the handsome and handsome boy standing in front of her.The last time she saw him playing the violin was an art performance in elementary school. He stood on the stage to receive everyone's applause, and she looked up to him like other students in the audience.But at this moment, he was so close to her, she could clearly see him lowering his eyelids and staring at the violin in his hand, his eyelashes cast a little shadow, his slender fingers plucked the strings, the bow was flying on the violin, and the gorgeous and full music lingered In her humble home.She has no musical literacy, and usually listens to pop songs, but at that moment she can really feel the joy and moving of love, and she can't help but feel relaxed and happy. At the end of the song, he asked her, "Does it sound good?" Her answer was: "In the future, you are not allowed to play the piano alone for other girls." He was amused by this childish coquettishness and shook his head, "Miss, what I played is "The Joy of Love", no." After Lu Fei left, Xin Chen didn't deliberately look for this song to listen to. Standing in front of a strange boy playing the piano, she didn't know why she made this request. The joyful melody flowing from the piano gradually turned into warm and friendly, from lingering to clear, from hesitation to bright and cheerful, such joy and romance overflowed in the sound of the music, making her feel as if she was in the blooming spring . When the boy's hand holding the bow was lowered, the eyes of the two met. This time, he didn't shy away, she applauded lightly, then took out a banknote from her bag, squatted down, and put it in the box, "Thank you, good bye." She walked towards the exit of the underground passage, and behind her, the melodious sound of the violin sounded again. Xin Chen touched her bag, the small flashlight and the keys were there, she went upstairs, entered her home, turned on the light to check, it was quite strangely empty inside.She opened the door and window and walked up to the balcony. The petunias climbing along the anti-theft net railing could not be moved away. The leaves are drooping with no one to take care of them these days. Even though it is almost autumn and the flowering period of morning glory is coming to an end, She still scooped up water and poured it into the flowerpot.With a light touch of her hand, the black seeds on the calyx leaves scattered and fell. In previous years, she would collect them, some of them would be kept for sowing next year, and some of them would be given away. Now she can only let them fall on their own. She returned to the living room, sat down on the floor, and realized for the first time that having a home is still very important, at least when she doesn't want to see anyone, she can have a place to go. At the beginning of the renovation, because the minimalist style was set and there were no tricks, she produced the renderings and supervised the work by herself. On the day the decoration was completed, she did not hire a cleaning company, but did the wasteland cleaning by herself. After being exhausted, she Holding a rag, he sat against the wall in the same way, looking at the same empty home, thinking about what furniture to buy when he came back.Although there are too many uncertainties in her heart, she still decides to live here well. It is not difficult to deal with all the things outside her body with a nonchalant attitude, but it is always not easy to deal with the memories and the past. She put her head on her knees, wishing she could just lie down and sleep for a while. After an unknown amount of time, the doorbell rang, and Xin Chen didn't bother to answer it, but the people outside the door obviously decided to compete with her in patience, and they kept ringing one after another, the ringing echoed extremely harshly in the empty room.She could only stand up, walk to the door, and look out through the cat's eyes, only to see that Feng Yi'an was pointing his hand on the doorbell button. He was wearing a blue and white striped shirt, with tight lips, and a stern expression she was not familiar with. .