Chapter 16 Chapter Fifteen When You Cross Bad Waters

Suomei's photo album has already attracted a lot of attention in the local industry before it was finished shooting. Yan Xuhui, who took the photo, has become famous in recent years. He is known as the most cutting-edge fashion photographer in China. The model he invited won a competition award last year and signed a contract. Joined a well-known brokerage company in Beijing. Although she has not entered the ranks of supermodels, her potential is obvious. Yan Xuhui was in the limelight and had a lot of contracts in hand, so he started taking photos of fitting clothes and makeup for the models the next day.He asked Xin Chen to participate in the whole process, basically doing post-processing while filming. Xin Chen didn't have much to do now, so of course he agreed.

In the residential area where she lives, there are still neighbors passing news in twos and threes, but the excitement at the beginning is no longer there.The dormitories on the easternmost side, because they belong to the small-area public property owned by the housing management office, have particularly bad living conditions. As soon as the news of the demolition spread, the tenant compensation process there was started at an astonishing speed, and it went very smoothly. Many people immediately chose to take the money to move away, watching the moving company's vehicles keep coming in and out, and other residents with their own property rights were disturbed.

However, the demolition company was very determined and did not respond to the gossip revealed by the big-character posters posted in this area. Instead, it immediately sent a team of migrant workers in, and began to use purely manual methods to demolish the buildings located in residential areas. The abandoned warehouse of a bankrupt unit in the siege and the several dormitories that have been moved out one after another were filled with dust for a while, and the sound of clanging and rumbling was endless from morning to night. This kind of psychological warfare is naturally quite effective, and the residents clamoring to protect their own rights and interests have their own plans.

Xin Chen goes out every day at noon and returns home at night, and does not participate in the discussions of the neighbors, nor does he inquire about anything. He just waits for the official release of the next demolition policy. One day, Xin Di went to the scene to watch the shooting after get off work. After dinner at night, David Fan drove the two sisters home. When they arrived at the street where Xin Chen lived, he saw that the roadside was full of demolition debris and a row of stalls appeared. Sewage was flowing, and a large number of migrant workers were gathering to drink and have a midnight snack. There was also a simple open-air karaoke next to it. It was so lively. Xin Di was surprised, "The demolition has already begun. How can people live here? Chenzi, you can move to my side."

David Fan also said: "Xin Chen, I think you'd better move out first, the law and order here will definitely not be very good now." Xin Chen said with a smile: "I still have to deal with the things at home, we will wait and see." She said goodbye to them and walked in alone. Xin Di knew that Xin Chen didn't want to disturb others easily, especially since her mother had always been somewhat prejudiced against her, and she avoided it as much as she could. She would only come when her father asked her to come for dinner.After going back, Xin Di called her father to exaggerate the chaos at the demolition site. Xin Kaiming was really anxious, and immediately called Xin Chen, telling her to move to Xin Di's place immediately.

Xin Chen smiled and said, "Uncle, it's not that serious, everyone lives well." "You are a single girl, you have to be a little defensive, you can't compare with other people who live there with a big family, especially your recent work and you always come home late, in case something happens, how can I explain to your father , do you want uncle to pick you up every night?" "No, no, no." Xin Chen had no choice but to admit defeat, "I'll take care of things tomorrow, and I'll go live with Dizi right away." Xin Chen is a man of action. Now that he agreed to his uncle, he put down his phone and started to think about how to deal with the things at home. Everything else is easy to deal with, but those flowers really worry her. Even if it is an annual herb, it is still in late summer and is growing vigorously. , must be reluctant to leave it alone, not to mention that there are many perennial herbaceous flowers and woody plants.After much deliberation, she posted on the outdoor forums where she often mixes up, and posted the names of the flowers she planted with photos taken in her spare time, and then posted the main points of daily maintenance, stating that because of moving, she is willing to transfer them to flower lovers for free, please Netizens follow the post and make an appointment to pick it up.

After posting the post, she turned on the computer speakers, turned up the volume, played her favorite songs, and then went into the bedroom to start cleaning. She first packed the outdoor equipment and clothes, and planned to send them to her father in Kunming by courier the next day.Most of her clothes were casual and sports style, so it was easy to clean up. Soon the closet was emptied, and a dark red Oxford cloth bag in the corner caught her eye. At this time, the song played on the speaker is Bridge Over Troubled Water by Simon&Garfunkel. The song was heard in the bedroom. Xin Chen sat down by the closet, put the bag on his lap, and listened quietly to the warm song with a bit of sadness reverberating in the room. .

, my friend left the team, This is Li Ao's translation of the lyrics that Xin Chen found on the Internet, which has a little more meaning than the usual literal translation.She was moved by the song from the first time she heard it, and has collected several cover versions, including interpretations by Elvis Presley, Teresa Teng, Whitney Houston and the Pope's choir, but in comparison, the favorite is still not for Originally sang an early version that he liked. It is said that after recording this song, the two broke up and went solo. Refuse to give Garfunkel a harmony voice, and it is this soft and tender style that Xin Chen never tires of listening to.

Her fingers touched the chess inside through the bag, and she had rubbed each chess piece repeatedly, and was familiar with the shape and texture of each of them, including the small gap on one of the black bishops. After Lu Fei left, Xin Chen got her admission letter. She took the exam in a sluggish state, and her grades were predictably mediocre. She entered a newly opened graphic design major in an unknown university.She found the city he went to on the map in the geography book, and slowly slid her fingers across the place where she lived, crossing the continent and the ocean little by little, and stopped at the place name that had no meaning to her before.

How can such a vast and boundless distance be surpassed? Xin Chen couldn't give himself an answer, so he could only close the book and decide not to think about this question any more. After school started, Xinchen moved to school, and was unwilling to go home on weekends. When the local temperature suddenly dropped in late autumn, she was shivering with cold, so she had to come back to pick up her clothes.Opening the door that had been locked for nearly two months and looking at the deserted and dusty room, a voice suddenly echoed in her ears. "You are a girl, is it a lot of trouble to tidy up the room?"

That's what Lu Fei said to her with responsibility when he entered her house for the first time. She didn't take it seriously, but she did start tidying up later and formed a habit. There was a gentle and satisfied expression in the eyes of the boy who was obsessed with cleanliness. Yet he left after all. Xin Chen went to the bedroom to pick up the clothes, saw the chess bag at a glance, took it out, went back to the living room to arrange it, and moved it casually. In a sudden rage, she suddenly overturned the chessboard in front of her, and the chess pieces fell all over the floor. .But when a person lost his temper, he had to clean up the mess by himself. After a long time, she went to pick them up one by one, and found that one of the black elephants had lost a corner. Caressing this small dent, she cried out the tears she had suppressed for a long time.It wasn't the first time that he wailed childishly, but it might be the last time.She cried until she curled up on the sofa and fell asleep, sinking into a deep nightmare.She was once again trapped in the dark corridor, knocking and bumping, stepping into the air from time to time, bumping into unknown hard objects, unable to see the floor clearly, and unable to find her home up and down. The dream, but unable to get rid of it, when she finally woke up, she was already sweating profusely and almost collapsed. She tried her best to get up, poured herself a glass of water to drink, and told herself, you can't do this again, and you won't walk out with both hands in the future, so you can only rely on yourself. No one is a bridge, and you must cross the bad water yourself to find a night's sleep.Xin Chen began to adapt to life without Lu Fei, it should be said that he adapted well. It's just that in the daze of struggling from the nightmare, and in the lonely moments when she couldn't help but look for warmth in the memories, she had opened this bag countless times and set up the chess pieces to play against herself. Finally, it was time to help her. She became calmer and calmer. She could enter and leave her home calmly, face memories calmly, wait for the nightmare to dissipate calmly, and let another boy hold her hand calmly. Even without him, life still goes on. The phone rang, and Xin Chen thanked the voice for bringing him out of the momentary trance.She put down her bag and jumped up, went out to answer the phone, it was Yueqing who called, he was going back to the United States in two days, and today he went to meet his old classmates, he said with a smile: "Do you want me to help you move tomorrow?" "Did you see the post too? Of course, I need your help with physical work. I don't know if anyone will come to claim the flowers I planted tomorrow." "Didn't you read the reply? Hurry up and check it out, it's so lively." Xin Chen sat in front of the computer and refreshed the posts he had posted. He was taken aback. First, only a few netizens commented on the beauty of the flowers, or helped them out, and then there was an ID named Road who posted a post, claiming to accept all the plants grown by Albizia Julibrissin. And make sure to plant them all well.Then there were jokes from acquainted netizens, including Bruce naturally. Some people stomped their feet and beat their chests and said that they were a step late; Admirers put on vests and listed possible candidates for betting.Xin Chen couldn't laugh or cry, and then looked at Road's registration time, it was only a few minutes after she posted the post. "Hey, you're listening to Scarborough Fair, such an old song." "Yes." The speaker is still playing Scarborough Fair, which was sung by Simon & Garfunkel in the early days, and it is also a song she likes very much. The perfect chorus is like the sound of nature, with the power to make people calm. Xin Chen hummed along with the singing: " Are you going to Scarborough Fair? Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme, Remember me to one who lives there, Tell him to make me a cambric shirt…” Then laughed, “Coriander, sage, rosemary and thyme, Maybe one day in the future, I can have a garden, and I must plant all these flowers." Lin Yueqing smiled, "There will be such a day. Hey, don't tell me you can't guess who Road is." Xin Chen also laughed, "It's good that someone accepts the flower, it doesn't matter who it is, I won't guess." Putting down her phone, she leaned back in her chair, looked around the house, and thought, that's true, it doesn't matter who it is. The next day, Lin Le came to help Xin Chen clean up early in the morning, packed all the books and materials she was going to keep, and the bookshelf was empty.Xin Chen called the people downstairs who bought old electrical appliances and furniture, negotiated a price, and began to ask them to dismantle the air conditioner, electric water heater, and remove the washing machine, refrigerator, bookshelf, workbench, and wardrobe. She turned around and called several acquainted neighbors downstairs, and told them that she was going to move out, and she didn't want a lot of daily necessities, and asked them to just take what they needed.She has always lived here. Many of these old neighbors are acquaintances and colleagues of her grandparents and father. They almost watched her grow up. They have always had a good relationship. Electric kettles, microwave ovens, desk lamps, chairs, duvets, air-conditioning quilts, blankets, electric blankets and other things were taken downstairs by them. Lin Yueqing neatly cleaned up the connecting cables on the desktop, packed her desktop computer, scanner, and printer, and pointed to a dark red Oxford cloth bag in the corner, "What's in it, are you going to pack it or give it away?" people?" Lu Fei appeared at the door, he was slightly surprised by the people coming and going and the chaos in the room, he stopped and stood at the entrance. He also saw the bag at a glance, and was stunned for a moment. Of course he remembered that he brought it here. He once taught Xin Chen how to play chess in this room. He was about to speak when Xin Chen casually said: "Lv Master, this bag contains chess, take it back and let your grandson play it." Master Lu agreed, picked up the bag and a few other daily necessities and walked out from Lu Fei. At this time, the courier company's receiving personnel also came over, walked in from Lu Fei, took the cardboard box she was going to send to her father in Kunming, and asked her to fill in the address.The workers who disassembled the air conditioner removed both the indoor and outdoor units of the air conditioner, carried them through them, and placed them in the corridor. Xin Chen turned around and faced Lu Fei. He didn't know what to say for a moment. Across the turmoil of people coming and going, Lu Fei looked at Xin Chen with no expression on his face. After a while, he said, "I'm sorry, I'll wait Come up later." He hurriedly turned and went out the door, Lin Yueqing looked at Xin Chen puzzled, "You two have the same strange expressions." "Really?" Xin Chen smiled slightly, then lowered his head and concentrated on filling out the express form, paying the express fee, and then the person who bought the second-hand electrical appliances settled with her, and finally they all left. Lu Fei reappeared at the door, and his glance became empty. , The unrecognizable room looks calm. "I called migrant workers to come up. Apart from flowers, what else do I need to move? I drove a pickup truck here today." "I guessed right, the road is indeed you. The pickup is just right, and I think Hehuan doesn't have much furniture to take away." Xin Chen took a few steps back and sat on the imperial concubine's couch, "This kind of furniture is the only comfortable thing in my room that has been praised by the flute. I plan to give it to her. I don't want anything else." Lin Yueqing smiled and said, "Do you have the pleasure of dissipating your wealth?" Xin Chen laughed, "Absolutely, it's great to come and go naked without any worries." "If you like this concubine's couch, I'll give it to you. Chenzi won't mind." Lu Fei smiled slightly, "No, it's good to put it here, and it matches the sofa well." Xin Di had no choice but to admit that after Lu Fei delivered Xin Chen's things, he looked so silent, and he didn't seem to be coveting the imperial concubine's couch.She was really helpless, took out the red wine she brought back from France, and poured him half a glass. Lu Fei laughed, "You take me for an alcoholic, Xiaodi." "I've never seen you get drunk before. The problem with you is that you are too self-controlled. Drink, anyway, I don't know how to comfort people. This is the only trick." Xin Di also poured himself a small glass of wine, "I I'm going to New York next week, and Chenzi will live with me from now on, but judging by how thoroughly she handles her belongings, she will probably leave when she gets the money, and you can do it yourself if you can keep her." Lu Fei looked at the red wine in the glass, but changed the topic: "I will call my friend in New York later and ask him to pick you up at the airport." Xin Di thought, a former fiancée hadn't left yet, so it was really impossible for him to do anything, so he could only sigh secretly, "No need, AKEN will go there too, he is very familiar with that place." Lu Fei still drinks in moderation. After drinking half a glass, he leans back on the sofa, stretches his long legs lazily, half-closes his eyes, unbuttons the top button of his beige shirt, and hastily rolled up his sleeves. It is completely different. Yu Xindi's usual clean and meticulous appearance in clothes and clothes is a bit decadent, and the gloomy look on his handsome face makes him look even more solemn. If it weren't for seeing how sad he is, Xin Di would have suggested to him that he might as well try a more casual dressing style in the future. Lu Fei's mobile phone on the coffee table flickered silently, but he didn't respond, and seemed to be asleep.Seeing that he looked tired, Xin Di planned to let him sleep for a while. She picked up the phone that was blinking endlessly and was about to turn it off, but found that the name on the caller ID on the screen was "Ruo Li", so she hesitated for a while.She thought, this girl is staying in a strange city after all, and the only person she knows here is her ex-fiancé. It seems a little unreasonable for Lu Fei not to answer her calls.She quickly pushed Lu Fei, and Lu Fei opened his eyes, "What's the matter, Xiao Di?" "Answer the phone." Lu Fei took the phone to look at it, and then answered: "Hello, Ruo Li." Not knowing what was said there, Lu Fei said softly, "Okay, wait a moment, I'll be right over." He stood up, "Xiao Di, I'm leaving first." "Hey, I don't want to be mean, but you have already broken up, and you are still here at any time. Do you want her to misunderstand and have room for redemption?" Lu Fei looked gloomy and shook his head, "She ran to the bar to drink, she seemed a little too drunk, I have to go pick her up." "Wait a minute, I'll go with you." Xin Di got a little angry and stood up, "What is she going to do? What's the point of procrastinating?" Lu Fei smiled wryly, "Xiao Di, why do you bother to wade into this muddy water?" Xin Di ignored him and went downstairs with him to call a taxi. This bar called Blue Sky is opened by foreigners. It is located in the financial district and is quite famous among the local foreigners. The confused Ji Ruoli was talking to a muscular foreign man in a black T-shirt. The man's hand had already been placed on her shoulder, and she was obviously powerless to dodge it. Lu Fei walked over, photographed the man, said a few words in English in a deep voice, and the man immediately got up and walked away.Ji Ruoli looked at Xin Di and laughed, "It's so funny, I think I just called Lu Fei to come over. Didn't you clear yourself up and have nothing to do with him? Why are you so close?" Xin Di thought, no matter how ladylike and graceful she is usually, once she drank too much, she would be a little straightforward, but she didn't care, and said with a smile: "We happened to be chatting together just now, come and see if we can help." "You are probably afraid that I will use alcohol to pretend to be crazy and pester him." Ji Ruoli stood up with his hands on the table, and squinted at her, "Let me tell you, Miss Xin, I really used alcohol to seduce him before. , haha, he wasn't fooled, I guess if I do this trick now, I probably won't end up with anything." Lu Fei frowned, and reached out to support her, "Ruoli, let's go, I'll take you back to the hotel." But Ji Ruoli pushed his hand away, the movement was quite violent, his body habitually leaned to one side, staggered a bit, Xin Di who was standing here had no choice but to help her stand still, Ji Ruoli giggled, and leaned against her On the body, whispered: "Hey, you don't love Lu Fei too, do you? Then you are worse than me. He loves your cousin, you know?" Xin Di laughed, and pushed her away a little to avoid her mouth full of alcohol, "Well, now I know, you told me a lot of amazing news, I admit it." Ji Ruoli was about to speak, but covered his mouth, frowning, and hurried to the bathroom.Xin Di looked at Lu Fei, and had no choice but to follow her resignedly. After walking a few steps, she saw Yan Xuhui, David Fan and two girls sitting on the other table. On his shoulder, he was whispering something in his ear, and that gesture was of course considered intimacy.Yan Xuhui saw Xin Di first, and waved to her to say hello. She glanced at her and didn't bother to pay attention, and went straight into the bathroom, only to see Ji Ruoli vomit into the toilet, and then go to the washstand to rinse her mouth. Paper towels passed. Ji Ruoli covered her face with a tissue, and burst into tears. Xin Di looked at the sky depressedly, but couldn't think of anything to comfort her, and could only wait for her to control herself slowly, and her crying gradually subsided became a sob. Xin Di paused for a long time before saying: "Miss Ji, let me tell you again, I have never had a crush on Lu Fei. But just now I saw a man sitting outside. He said a few days ago that he wanted to marry me. Together, right now I'm kissing a hot girl in cool clothes, how about I cry with you for a while." Ji Ruoli turned back in astonishment, looked at her with tears in her eyes, Xin Di spread her hands, "Well, I'm sorry, I'm exaggerating, I can't cry, I didn't intend to cry for him at all. I've never been able to comfort people, You probably don't need such poor comfort from me." "Are you proving to me that I'm stupid enough and you're smart enough?" "What can this prove? It probably only proves that I don't take this too seriously. I seem to have told you last time that I don't think love is the most important thing in life. If a man can't even let me Happy, then I don’t see why I need to spend time for him. It’s not because Lu Fei is my friend and Xin Chen is my cousin, so I just speak for them. I really think it’s really okay for you to procrastinate like this significance." "I know, I'm embarrassing myself and others." Xin Di shrugged, "It's okay to make Lu Fei feel embarrassed, he deserves it more or less, but have you ever thought that sooner or later, his guilt towards you will even be exhausted." Ji Ruoli looked at her blankly, then turned to look at herself in the mirror, after a long time she said: "I have loved him for five years, but I am not willing to let it go, I want to see how far he will persist. " "You probably have a good family background, so it doesn't matter if you quit your job, but it's really unfair to yourself to use your good time to witness this kind of thing." Ji Ruoli smiled wryly at the mirror, "Yeah, after vomiting, I also feel a little worthless." "Let's go, let's go out, you go back to the hotel early to rest." The two walked out of the bathroom, only to find that David Fan was circling outside like an ant on a hot pot. Seeing Xin Di coming out, he rushed up to meet her and grabbed her, "Xin Di, don't cry, I promise..." Xin Di shook off his hand angrily, "I'm crying, David Fan." David Fan didn't see Xin Di just now, and after hearing Yan Xuhui's schadenfreude, he hurriedly pushed away Shen Xiaona who was talking to him, hurried to the bathroom, heard the faint crying inside, and was dumbfounded, wandering outside Thinking about how to explain, but looking at Xin Di again, his eyes were shining, and his face was as usual, there was no trace of crying, so he could only say awkwardly: "Old Yan said he was tired and wanted to relax, I just came with him, He can testify that I have nothing to do with that girl, she has always been a little crazy." Xin Di waved her hands like chasing flies, walked out with Ji Ruoli on her arm, met Lu Fei, and went out to get in the car. Lu Fei sent Ji Ruoli back to the hotel first, and then took her home. Xin Di went home and saw that Xin Chen had gone back first, and David Fan was sitting on the sofa waiting for her. Xin Chen winked at her and went into the study. David Fan decided to put down his figure, "Xin Di, listen to my explanation. It's too noisy in the bar, and her family also owns a clothing company. Ask me about the photo album." Xin Di covered her mouth and yawned, "No need to explain, I know, you are pure, it is said that there are men and women lying on the bed covered with quilts and just chatting, let alone talking in a bar. Let's talk about it another day, I'm sleepy .” David Fan could only leave in dismay, with nothing to do, she felt that she was wronged enough, and she had let go of her status like never before, but she still played it lightly, if she was not pretending to be indifferent, she probably didn't care about this matter at all, let alone herself—— He couldn't help feeling frustrated when he thought about it. In the afternoon of the next day, Xin Di went to the shooting site of April Garden to see the progress. Yan Xuhui immediately said, "Xin Di, check out my blog. I wrote a certificate of innocence to Lao Dai at his request." Davidfan was so embarrassed that he didn't know what to say. He was worrying about it the night before, but the ignorant Yan Xuhui called again: "Old Dai, run to explain it, does it work?" Laughing maniacally, "Don't worry, don't worry, I'll help you prove your innocence and guarantee that Xin Di will believe you." When David Fan saw his so-called proof, he could only blame himself for being careless in making friends, and greeted this guy who was afraid of chaos countless times in his heart.Xin Di knew that he couldn't write anything good, so she curled her lips and said with a smile: "You just take a photo of him wearing chastity underwear and put it on the blog, it will definitely attract more attention than a bad certificate." All the people around laughed out loud. After Xin Di returned to the office, she continued to get off work. When she was about to leave work, she was curious for a while, so she decided to check Yan Xuhui's blog. Yan Xuhui has always kept his camera in hand, and likes to record his life with pictures and texts. He started a blog very early, but in Xin Di's opinion, the greatest value of his blog is that he sometimes posts photos of fashion shows that ordinary people can't see. and samples from fashion shoots.However, the exclamation and comments made by this person from time to time dilute her viewing pleasure, and although she agrees with his level of taking pictures, she has never rated his writing skills very highly, and has no interest in the running accounts recorded in blogs, so she didn't care at all. Favorite address.Fortunately, he is now a moderate celebrity in the fashion industry, and he can be found immediately after searching. The interface of his blog is done in a low-key and simple tone, but the friendship links are a row of deafening beauties in the capital's fashion circle, which makes people dazzled at first glance.The diary hanging on the first page was written in the early hours of this morning. At the beginning, it is a photo taken outside the Blue Sky Bar. The picture is completely out of proportion and has a hilarious caption: How to prove a man's innocence and chastity. She looked at it, and saw that Yan Xuhui wrote quite sarcastically. On the surface, he seemed to be whitewashing for David Fan, saying that the beautiful woman was passionate, but he was calm, but in fact he said half-mockingly and half-sarcastically that he "wet before going down the river." Shoes, without eating mutton, they already smell bad", and then sighed, "It is really difficult for a man to prove the innocence of another man, probably women are wary of the tacit connivance between men, especially in Sandy's view, My reputation can't be said to be good, and it's useless to say it sincerely, so Lao Dai, you can ask for blessings." Xin Di couldn't help laughing. She didn't take last night's incident seriously, but she did think that it seemed unnecessary to continue with David Fan. After she has invested in her feelings, she will inevitably have to face such situations in the future. She has no interest in being jealous. She was about to turn off the computer and go out, when suddenly she thought of Xin Chen's strange evasive attitude when she mentioned Xin Chen went to Beijing to find a job a few days ago. recorded. As she rummaged forward, she secretly scolded Yan Xuhui, a talkative and narcissist, for keeping his blog updated so frequently.She finally patiently found the late March three years ago, she could see for a while, picked up the phone and called Lu Fei: "Lu Fei, where are you?" Lu Fei is sorting out documents in the company. He has handed in his resignation report, but has not yet made a formal handover. He is still working in Haotian's office building. "I'm in the office. What's the matter, Xiaodi?" Xin Di hesitated, and decided to tell him: "You turn on the computer, and I will send you the address of Yan Xuhui's blog, so you can take a good look." Lu Fei quickly turned on the computer, clicked on the link sent by Xin Di, and the displayed date was exactly three years ago in late March. Sure enough, there were several diaries related to Xin Chen in the ten days before and after.I saw the title of the first article: Dear Xiaochen is here. "My dear ex-girlfriend Xiaochen came to Beijing. Of course she didn't admit that I was his ex-boyfriend (a big grinning emoji). As soon as I bragged during the meal, she calmly said to my buddies, let's go Let him talk nonsense, anyway, there are too many lice and it doesn't itch, and I don't worry about having one or two more ex-boyfriends. This child is as straightforward as before, and he will hit wherever it hurts." The following is a photo taken indoors. It can be seen that the room is not spacious. Seven or eight men and women are crowded around the table to eat. Of course there is Xin Chen in it. She is wearing a light pink turtleneck sweater and her hair is tied behind her head. In the steaming heat, her smile was bright and moving. A diary after a few days wrote: "Xiaochen's interview went well, and she will go to work next Monday. Celebrating that another person is going to float in Beijing, the heart of the great capital and the motherland. We are all here. But this silly child said she didn't want to The reason for being a graphic model is that this industry is a job of youth, and she has experienced enough vicissitudes. Looking at her who is not childish, but still young and beautiful, I can only sigh, this statement makes me feel so embarrassing." Below are a few snapped photos. Xin Chen came out of the office building wearing a small black suit jacket. His beautiful face was thoughtful, and he was not excited about finding a job; I don't want the other party to take pictures. Look at the next blog post. It was written the next day, at the end of March. The title is: Goodbye, Xiaochen. "Today is the weekend, but there is still work to do. I went out with Xiaochen in the morning. She looked very happy and asked me the bus route. It happened that the places we were going to were all near the National Exhibition. She said that she would go to see a Friend, find a house and settle down. No matter how much I tease you, this little girl won't say what kind of friend she is. Whatever, I'm happy for her. Even if the reason she stays in Beijing is not because of me, I hope she From then on, I was as happy as before. Thinking of this, the wind and sand in the sky are not so annoying. She underestimated the weather in Beijing and didn’t bring much clothes. Seeing how funny she borrowed my coat to wear, I helped her take a photo. Then go to work. "When I came back in the afternoon, Xiaochen came back first. She didn't have a key, and she sat in a daze in front of the door. I sat down with her and asked her if she found any friends. She smiled so badly, I wanted to comfort her, but she suddenly said she was leaving, and started to pack her luggage without any room for discussion. No matter what I asked, she didn't make a sound. I know I can't ask anything, okay, Beauty always has the perverse privilege, especially her. "I sent her to the train station. She didn't say anything all the way, but I looked at the window on her side and I knew she was in tears. I don't know who made her cry. I hate the friend she went to see. As usual, the weather in Beijing is terrible. I have to go to Fashion Week tomorrow, so I can't help myself. It's good for Xiaochen to go back to her hometown, at least her life there is more leisurely. I hope she can live happily. "When I came back from the West Railway Station and looked at these two photos, I suddenly felt sad. When I took pictures of her for the first time, she was a carefree child. Let me express my feelings in other people's words: every teenager will When you grow old, whose youth can be immortal." Ji Ruoli came over and knocked on the door of his open office, but Lu Fei focused all his attention on the two photos below and didn't notice her at all. In one photo, Xin Chen was wearing a dark olive-colored men's hunting jacket, a black baseball cap on his head, a large outdoor sunglasses on the bridge of his nose, and a unique camouflage-patterned outdoor headscarf wrapped around his nose and mouth. The lower part of the clothes is completely covered, and the background is a diffuse wind and sand. This is exactly what street girls wear when they have to go out in the weather of sandstorms in Beijing.The sky was gloomy, and she looked thin and lonely when facing the camera, with a sense of desolation. The other photo shows the entrance of the West Railway Station. Under the lights, Xinchen is surrounded by bustling people. She is wearing a thin sports coat, no hat and sunglasses, and the camouflage turban is loosely pulled down. On her neck, she was carrying a small bag in her hand, and she was turning around and waving, her expression could not be seen clearly in the dim light. Lu Fei clenched his left hand tightly into a fist and was completely stunned.Ji Ruoli walked in, "Lu Fei, my sister's secretary said that she will come out soon after the meeting, have you finished?" Lu Fei didn't respond at all. Ji Ruoli turned around in doubt, and saw the two photos at a glance. She couldn't believe it and took a closer look, then turned her head and met Lu Fei's gaze. They also determined that they and she had stood face to face, very close, and even greeted her. Lu Fei returned to Beijing for work at the end of February of that year. Lu Shi gave him a well-decorated house in a good location to live in, but it was empty and unfurnished.Lu Fei just took over the job and was very busy, so he had to live in a hotel near the office building, planning to buy daily necessities and move in when he had time. Ji Ruoli offered to help him with the purchases, and said with a smile: "I submitted a few resumes and am waiting for the job announcement. I am free now. Women are naturally interested in buying these things to decorate the house. I promise to take your taste into consideration and absolutely not It's going to be dusty." Lu Fei couldn't help but handed her the key and a credit card at the same time, asking her to swipe the card to pay the fee directly. At the end of March, there was no spring in Beijing, but sandstorms hit the sky, the sky turned khaki, and the air was full of fine dust, which made it difficult to breathe.Ji Ruoli is from the south, so she can't adapt to this harsh climate at all. She caught a cold, but she still went back and forth to various home cities to carefully select and compare. The process filled her with joy. Lu Fei still has work to do on weekends, and when he drove over at noon, Ji Ruoli had already arrived, coughing, and ordering the workers to hang the curtains, all the furniture in the three-bedroom room had been placed in an orderly manner, even The bedding is all ready, and the color scheme is harmonious and low-key, which is in line with his taste.Sending the workers away, Lu Fei said thank you, but she just smiled and said, "It's great for letting me have a good time." She was playing with a crystal decoration, and suddenly looked back at Lu Fei, "Now your house is full Put my mark on it, let's see how you bring other girls back in the future." This is not the first time she made a hint, but Lu Fei didn't react at all, and just looked out of the window in a daze, "At this time, the city I used to live in is already full of spring." 纪若栎的心怦然一动，他很少谈及他生活过的地方，她因为工作的关系偶遇了他的大学同学丁晓晴，回来提起，他也只淡淡一带而过。 “似乎现在应该到了你母校著名的樱花开放的时间了，不知道和华盛顿那边比有什么不同，真想去你们学校看看。” 路非长久的沉默，纪若栎记得那天丁晓晴含笑跟她透露的八卦，心跳加快，正要说话，路非笑了，“不早了，走吧，去吃饭。” 两人下楼，准备步行去附近不远的餐馆，纪若栎指一下他车边不远处站的一个女子，有点纳闷地说：“那个女孩子似乎在等人，我来的时候就看到她站这儿了，可怜，这么大的风沙。” 路非只不在意地瞟了一眼，只见那女孩子穿着件空荡的男式长外套，袖子挽起一点，戴着一副大大的户外太阳镜，面孔上蒙着迷彩头巾，一动不动、笔直地站着，完全无视周围的漫天风沙，棒球帽和衣服上都已经落了薄薄的一层沙尘。 他心神不属，仍然沉浸在自己的回忆里。现在的确到了母校樱花开放的时节，曾经无数次在他梦里飘扬而下的花瓣，仍然落在那个女孩子的发间、肩上吗？此时为她拂去花瓣的那双手又属于谁？ 他也曾在某年春天出差到过日本京都，那时樱花隔一周才会盛开，接待方感叹时间不巧，他却根本不觉得遗憾。没有花下熟悉的身影，即使躬逢其盛，对他来说也没有意义。 纪若栎走过那女孩的身边，有些不忍，迟疑一下，停住脚步回头柔声说道：“小姐，风沙太大，站外面太久，当心身体受不了。” 她转头正对着她，停了一会儿，声音嘶哑而瓮声瓮气地说：“谢谢你，我在等一个人。” “可以给他打电话呀。” 她沉默一下，说：“不用了，我大概等不到他了，再站一会儿就走。” 这样奇怪的回答，纪若栎只好不再说什么，和路非继续一边向餐馆走去，一边说：“待会儿再去那边超市，把你的冰箱填满，晚上我来给你露一手，我的菜做得很不错的。” “不用这么麻烦。” “趁你的信用卡还在我这儿，我要花个够。”纪若栎笑道，走出很远，却又回头，看看仍一动不动站那儿的女孩子，“路非，如果有女孩子这么等你，你会不会感动？” 路非一怔，一个清脆的声音突然回响在耳边：“我不等任何人，我不想再见到你了。”他怅然地看着眼前的风沙飞扬，那点失神落在纪若栎的眼内，她顿时后悔。她按捺不住要去试探他，可总是得不到想要的回答，他想到的显然并不是一直痴等着他回应的自己，她只能赶忙拉扯开话题。 他们吃完饭，路非让纪若栎等在餐馆，他过来取车，却只见那个古怪的女孩子正俯在他车头，用手指在他落满黄沙的前挡玻璃上写着什么，他在她不远处停住脚步，“小姐，有什么可以帮你的吗？” 她的手指停住，站在他的角度，依稀可以看到似乎是一串阿拉伯数字，下面正要写出汉字的笔画，她俯在那里好一会儿，突然手一挥，拂去写的东西，直起身子，“不好意思，无聊乱涂而已。”她的声音沙哑，从他身边匆匆走过。 他们竟然曾在三年前就这样面对面，然后擦肩而过。 路非努力回忆着那天的情景，可是寻常的日子，记忆早已模糊，如同隔着沙尘，那个身影远不及眼前这张照片清晰明确。 他再度看向严旭晖的博客：每个少年都会老去，谁的青春能够不朽。那么，那个少女就在那一天悄然老去，她的天真、她的爱娇、她毫不迟疑的爱……湮没在了时间的风沙里。 而他甚至没能伸手挽留。 他的决定永远慢了一步，他甚至不能归咎于不可测的命运。从小到大，他选择自己要走的路，安排自己的生活，决定自己要做的妥协和坚持，但是，他并没有为辛辰有过坚持。 纪若栎看着路非，迟疑一下才说：“这么说，她去找过你，却看到了我们在一起。” 路非咬紧牙不说话，当然，他回国之前，就给辛笛发了邮件，告诉他住处的地址，“姐姐把房子和车都准备好了，我打算借住这里，到办公室交通还算方便。”辛笛回邮件的时候还感叹，“似乎离国展也挺近，以后再去北京看服装展，我可以顺道来看你。”那么，辛辰至少是看到了这封邮件的。 他以往经常与辛笛联系，报告行踪，也是存着一点希冀，希望辛笛会跟辛辰提起自己，那么两人之间算得上有点间接的联系。然而回到北京，与辛辰的距离不过1000公里，一方面，刚接手的工作忙碌繁杂；另一方面，他情怯了，不知道怎么去面对有男友的辛辰。 可是辛辰仍然比他勇敢，她来了北京，并且主动来找他了。意识到这一点，路非只觉得心猛然加快了跳动。 她的面孔、她的声音无数次萦绕在他心头梦中，可是他竟然面对着她，听到她说话，却没有认出她。更糟糕的是，他和一个女孩子进进出出，从她身边走过来又走过去。 看着路非沉默得神思不属，纪若栎突然大怒了，厉声说道：“这算什么，你是不是要归罪于我，我出现得不合时宜，搅了你们的久别重逢？她完全可以出声叫你嘛，那样不声不响来又不声不响地离开，她到底想干什么？真让人恶心，本来大家都可以省些事，我大不了伤心几天，然后自动退场就好了，也不用再多这几年不明不白的恋爱、订婚再取消婚约。” Why?路非同样在心里追问。这个一向骄傲的女孩子，看到他和别人在一起就起了误会吗？可是她一向坦率而直接，没必要一言不发就离开。莫非她仍然记着分开时说的话，于是恨自己主动找上门来却看到了这一幕。 “你们两个倒真是很般配啊，都完全漠视他人的感情，把别人的命运看成你们伟大爱情的背景，是在玩戏剧人生吗？”纪若栎完全控制不住自己了，怒不可遏地说，“你们两个玩就好，为什么要拉扯上我？” “你这样说，对她并不公平。拉扯上你的只是我，我很抱歉，跟她没有关系。” 他看着她，声音平静，似乎在讲述一个干巴巴的事实，没有透露出感情色彩。当然，这样镇定的路非她并不陌生，从第一次见面开始，他就表现得冷静自持，从来不轻易暴露情绪的波动，而她正是被他的这份略带孤高疏离的态度吸引，一点点陷进情网不能自拔。 她居然一度以为已经与他足够亲密，突破了他的淡漠，意识到这一点，她的心如同系上铅块般沉重坠落，“你是在讽刺我了，路非，想不到你也有刻薄的时候。你和我一样清楚，是我努力痴缠几年才换到了你的拉扯，所以我更恨她，她有什么资格这样扮伟大？” “你不了解她，她从来不屑于扮什么，我想。”路非的声音苦涩低沉，“她只是对我彻底失望了。” 路是出现在办公室门口，看着神情异常的两个人，略微诧异，她约了纪若栎、路非晚上一块吃饭，“我才开完会，走吧。” 路非站起身，“对不起，姐姐，麻烦你陪若栎去吃饭吧，我有点事，先走一步。”他拿了钥匙，谁也不看，大步走出了办公室。 纪若栎颓然地坐到他的座位上，直直地看着已经出现屏幕保护图案的电脑，路是叹气，走过来拍拍她的肩头，“若栎，我去深圳开会，妈妈叫我过去，让我一定劝你们好好沟通，不要随便说分手。我也答应了她，打算趁今天约你们吃饭，认真谈一下，可是现在突然觉得，再拖下去，对你不公平。” 纪若栎的眼中一阵酸涩，“爱情里哪有公平可言？” “说得也是，我们总会为某个人放弃自己的坚持。”路是也有点惆怅，“不过，还是不要放弃自我的好。” “姐姐，你会这样牵挂初恋吗？” 路是一怔，记起自己曾跟一个小女孩回忆过初恋，而那个女孩毫不迟疑的坚持让她在很长时间内都对自己的生活起了小小的质疑。 可她现在只能苦笑摇头，“初恋在我心中只是一个模糊的影子了，不过每个人大概都会不自觉地把某一段感情看得特别重要一些，不一定非得是初恋，也许是因为一段时光、一个回忆有特殊意义，也许是因为付出得足够多，而以后再没有那样付出的心力和机会。” “是呀，他把他的那份回忆神圣化了，相比之下，别的都无足轻重可以放弃了，哪怕我们在一起也有很开心的日子。” 当然他们一样有过非常愉快的回忆，路非含笑的温柔神情浮现在她眼前，那个愉悦毫无虚假，可是现在想来分外讽刺，所有的开心似乎都罩上了阴影。她突然发现，其实有很多蛛丝马迹，只是她都刻意忽略了。爱情让人如此盲目，她只能苦涩地想，她从来没有选择，如果给她机会，不知道她是愿意甘心一直盲目下去，还是清醒地接受现实。 “你是个很好相处的女孩子，若栎，又对他足够用心，我一点不怀疑，他和你在一起会开心。可人都是贪心的，付出越多，想要得到的也会越来越多。你现在想的可能是和他结婚就好，迟早你会发现，自己得到的并不完整，一样会不平衡，一样会怨恨凭什么婚姻只是靠你的努力在维护，听姐姐的话，算了吧。” “大家都劝我算了，我再不算，又能怎么样？好像只剩去对着叔叔阿姨哭的一条路，可是以他现在这个坚决，我真要那么做，不要说回头，我们大概都没再见面的余地了。”纪若栎伸手碰一下鼠标，看着显示屏上屏保图案散开，照片重新出现在眼前，停了好一会儿才说，“我也腻味了，姐姐，本来我还想争取一下，现在一看，好像没必要费这个事，希望他不会后悔，不会失望。”