Chapter 12 time doesn't lie to us

time won't lie to us (1) Time will only get old, but time never deceives us.Loyalty to love makes my heart boil like blood.So, I smiled at him too. He froze for a moment at my smile, then took the last bite of the meal and said to me, "Check out, let's go." That night, Xu Yi sent me downstairs to the girls' dormitory and made a phone call. After a while, a girl with short hair came down to pick me up.She greeted Xu Yi, then smiled and hugged my shoulder and said, "OK. Come with me." I'm not used to being so intimate with strangers, so I pushed her away.

Xu Yi smiled meaningfully, and said to the girl, "This is my sister, take good care of her." The girl smiled and asked him, "How many good sisters do you have?" "Just the two of you." Xu Yi replied with a serious face. The girl giggled, said goodbye to him, and then took me upstairs. In order to avoid talking too much with that girl, I went to bed quickly that night and pretended to be sound asleep.But I heard her introduce me softly to other girls, she said: "This is Xu Shuai's new girlfriend." They called him Xu Shuai.I thought of the stupid boy in their dormitory in the morning, and guessed that Xu Yi should have better popularity among girls. What happened next proved my guess even more. The fat girl pulled the quilt for me and ordered other girls Take it easy.I was even more tired by the emotion that surged up in my heart, so I really fell asleep.

Early the next morning, Xu Yi was already waiting for me downstairs. He changed into a new tracksuit, and a girl walked by him, screaming softly. He said, "Let me take you to our cafeteria for some breakfast." "No need," I said, "I'm not hungry." "But I'm hungry," he said. "Let's go." I insisted on refusing to go.He had no choice but to say, "Okay, let's go out to eat." I followed behind him and walked out of his campus silently.On the way to the bank, he went to a hotel takeaway to buy some pan-fried buns, which we shared.He took out a tissue from his pocket and handed it to me. It was a non-scented tissue, but the quality of the paper was very good. According to the book, a man with a tissue on his body is a man of quality.

As we were walking, he asked me, "Li Er, how do you write your name?" "Add an ear next to the word Wang." "Are you and Ba La good friends?" he said. "Yes, but Bara is dead," I said. "Yes." He glanced at me, "But we're still alive, there's nothing we can do about it." "You can't make her sad anymore," I said. He laughed: "You are so cute and silly. She is dead, so why bother. Besides, she is her, and I am me. We have no relationship for a long time." I was so blocked by him that I couldn't say a word.So I arrived at the door of the bank, and I asked him, "How much do you want to withdraw, five thousand or six thousand?"

He thought for a while and said, "Six thousand." He added: "Don't worry, I will pay you back soon." "Oh." I said. "Thank you," he said. I raised my eyes to look at him, God knows how much courage it took for me, he also looked at me, but I felt a kind of disappointment that frightened me in this look, I felt that what I was looking at was A stranger, maybe he has never been familiar with me.Perhaps what I have held on to with all my might is a terrible illusion within me. God, how do I know what true love is? On the ninth day after I paid off the debt for Xu Yi, I received a call from him.He cut to the chase and said, "Li Er, I still need two thousand yuan."

I said, "I don't." "Okay," he said, "bye." I stared at the phone for a long time, then I called back.He answered the phone quickly, and I gasped and said to him, "I'll give it to you over the weekend." "It's too late," he said, "I'll get it from your school." At noon, I took out my last two thousand yuan from the bank at the school gate, put it in my backpack, and leaned against the subway entrance to wait for Xu Yi to appear.A couple of lovers walked by my side, a boy leaned down and gently kissed his girlfriend's face, I lowered my eyes and looked at the ground, there was a dirty brick on the ground, and a piece of green was glued on it Chewing gum, I felt an overwhelming pain in my stomach, as if I was going to faint.Xu Yi appeared in front of me at this moment, and he said, "Li Er, your hair has grown, so you should cut it."

I asked him in a daze, "Why did you go to gamble with others again?" "This time it's not a gamble," he said. "I'm doing something for a company and my computer needs an upgrade." I lowered my head, opened the bag, and took out the money to him.He took the money and whispered thank you to me.I said: "No need." He said: "Then I'm leaving, I have to rush to work." I said, "Oh." He turned around and walked into the subway, took two steps, then turned around and said to me: "Li Er, are you free this weekend?" I nod.

He said: "Then come and hang out at my bar, I don't have to work on Sunday, but I will hang out there at night." I smile. He waved at me and left. After Xu Yi left, I decided to skip class and went to a barber shop alone.The clerk greeted me warmly and suggested that I change my hair this way and that way. I interrupted her and said, "I don't have any money, so just cut it. It's just as short as it gets." Maybe it was because I couldn’t make money from me, so they sent me a silly-looking barber, who must be an intern. I saw his trembling hands in the mirror, and comforted him and said, “It’s okay.” , just cut it short, the hairstyle doesn't matter."

Hearing what I said, he smiled at me easily and gratefully, and then he said: "Don't worry, I will definitely satisfy you." While I was cutting my hair, I sent a short message to You Ta: "Please lend me one thousand yuan, and I will return it to you as soon as possible." I gave Xu Yi all the money my mother left on the card when she left, If I don't think about it anymore, I will face the danger of starvation. You Ta didn't text me back, but simply called me, and he asked me, "Li Er, what do you want money for? Didn't Auntie leave enough money for you?"

I lied loudly in the whining sound of the hair dryer: "No, I want to buy a computer, and I almost have money." time won't lie to us (2) "Does my aunt know? Does she agree?" "It's fine if you don't borrow it." He is still asking: "Just started school, what do you buy a computer for?" I said, "I want to write something." "Hey, that's good. By the way, how are you in Shanghai?" "It's okay." I said. "Okay," Yuta said, "send me your card number." "Don't tell my mother." I said.

"Okay." You Ta said helplessly, "However, I'm glad you think of me. You know, no matter what, I'm willing to help you." "Yeah." I answered him with all my heart, "Thank you. I will pay you back as soon as possible." "Don't work too hard, Shanghai University, you often have to travel a long way to be a tutor or something, you are a girl, be careful, don't come here blindly, you know? Just tell me something." I suddenly wanted to cry.At the same time, I also really want to know, if Yuta knows why I want to borrow money from him, I wonder if he will kill me. I put the phone away and put it in my pocket.The hairdresser straightened my head up a little bit and looked in the mirror. I saw me with short hair and big eyes in the mirror, with a neat bang on my forehead. I was very satisfied with my new hairstyle, so I did it in the mirror. made a grimace. That week I got a job sorting books at the library.It was my senior sister Lin who introduced me to this job. Lin is already a junior in college and also a Chinese student. She often helps out in the library. Since I go to borrow books every now and then, she starts to talk to me. She is a human being. Very good, she speaks softly, does things neatly, and does not make people nervous, so I gradually fell in love with her.Sometimes, there are only a few people in the huge library, and Lin would sit across from me, put her hand on my forehead, touch it lightly, and then say, "Li Er, someone who loves reading like you There are really not many little girls left." After nine o'clock at night, when Lin and I washed our hands and walked out of the library, we were already dizzy and dizzy from hunger.Lin suggested that we go to a restaurant to comfort our stomachs.I said no, I have something to go back to the dormitory.Lin watched me walk away lovingly. When I turned around and waved to her, she was still standing in the distance and looked at me lovingly.Lin doesn't have a boyfriend, and Lin is lonely on weekends. I'd like to have a meal with her, but I don't want her to treat me, and I can't afford to treat me myself, so this is the only way I can do it. I went back to the dorm and ate some biscuits and drank a little water and felt much better.None of the girls in the same dormitory stay in the dormitory alone, and they have quickly found their own splendor.I leaned on the bed and struggled fiercely with myself. On this day, I made myself so tired just to avoid this kind of struggle. He already has a new life, and he has already forgotten it. , I should have washed and slept long ago, closed my eyes, and stopped even dreaming, but I couldn't do it, it was only about three minutes, and I had already lost from this senseless struggle.I changed into a pair of clean jeans, put on my pink KITTY cat sweatshirt, put my bag on my back, opened the door of the dormitory, and set off. There is an indescribable smell in the campus on October night, which makes people intoxicated and want to cry.I walked on the road with a depressed mood, and I became a piece of light paper, unable to control myself.When I walked to the school gate, I saw Lin, Lin and a tall, fat boy, and I couldn't help but slow down.I saw the boy trying to hold Lin's hand, but Lin gently pushed him away.I saw Lin's stubborn back with some resistance, and I thought I knew that Lin would not like that boy, Lin was just lonely, she just wanted someone to accompany her for a meal, but me, why myself , I have been scarred by my own unreasonable behavior, and there is no redemption. The last subway in the city roared away behind me.I walked up the long steps to the ground and looked at the unfamiliar sky in Shanghai in October. For some reason, I suddenly remembered the night when the fireworks were set off on the roof. I would like to believe that every little firework lighting up the night sky Never extinguished, they finally rose to the sky and turned into stars tonight.It's just that those who set off fireworks have already been scattered in the vast crowd, and they don't know where they are going. It was eleven o'clock at night when I opened the bar door.Compared with the last time I went there, the bar seemed much more lively and chaotic. There was a band performing, and a girl was singing lively on the stage: oh... oh..., let me take a look at that photo It’s best, you and I are photographed and photographed until your face is old. If you don’t look for troubles, there is nothing to mourn. Is it just to join in the fun with you? It’s no big deal to watch the sunrise and sunset... The shaky lights and shaky figures, I looked around, but I didn't see Xu Yi.A waiter passed by me, I grabbed him and asked loudly, "Excuse me, have you seen Xu Yi?" "Xu Yi?" He looked at me, smiled ambiguously, pointed his finger into the corner: "Here!" I turned my head and finally saw him. I didn't see his face, but I knew it was Xu Yi. I was thinking of Xu Yi who was longing to be intimate with him. He was hugging a girl tightly. Wearing green trousers and a red top, she closed her eyes, and her happiness dripped infinitely in her smile.He is kissing her. No, it should be said that they were kissing, deeply, intoxicated, and as if there was no one else present. I am deaf.I couldn't hear any music anymore, I froze there, something started to crack slowly, panic and sadness that couldn't be controlled.I said to myself, Li Er, this is what you asked for, and this is all you have to bear. you deserve it. "Until the last moment, never give up!" I was reading Qiong Yao's book in the library, this woman who wrote about love in a colorful way, her story is not easy to move me, but I was hit by this sentence in her story. I stood up a little shaky, and walked out of the library under Lin's concerned eyes. The weather in November is already a little chilly. I shrank my neck and walked on the quietest path on campus. I took out my phone and typed a very "Qiong Yao" text message: Dear, please tell me, what should I do? I sent the information to it. blah blah blah. I closed my eyes. Come on, my dear, if you are looking at me in the sky at this moment, please guide me.Let me know that I must persevere.Let me still have the courage to believe that if we persevere to the end, we will definitely get the happiness we want. In my dream that night, I miraculously returned to my seventeenth year. I dreamed of that snowy winter, a thin, tall and thin boy, wearing a gray coat, approached me viciously, stretched out a finger and said to me: "I wouldn't like you." I looked at his haughty face, and stretched out my hand hesitantly, wanting to touch it. This face, which is cleaner and fairer than a girl's, with big and bright eyes, impacted me vaguely and strongly in the dream.But when I held out my hand, he turned and ran away. He rushed out of the half-closed blue rolling door, into the snow, and never looked back.I wanted to call out his name, but I suddenly forgot who he was. How can I call you back? time won't lie to us (3) I dreamed that I was squatting on the ground, trying to remember your name, and I had a splitting headache. Come on, my dear.I know you will never answer me again.You have left, and you hesitate to leave me here, with left and right hands, not knowing whether to reach out or let go.Do you know, I have been guessing what the last sentence you said to me, many, many days have passed, I insist on believing that you are telling me the secret to happiness, but until today I have to admit, Our happiness is so remote, so hard-won. I was tormented by such a hopeless dream all night, and when I woke up, it was already daylight.The girls in the dormitory were gone, and I just remembered that today is the weekend.There is a missed call from Lynn on the phone.I washed up in a hurry and headed to the library.Lin was already there waiting for me. She bought pancakes and handed them to me warmly. "You didn't answer my call, I'm a little worried about you." Lin looked at me and said reproachfully, "Li Er, you are a worrying child." I took a big bite out of the pancake and giggled. "Sometimes I want to plug your head into a computer and see what's stored," Lynn said. I continued to giggle, and when I finished I said, "I want to make money, the more the better." Lin looked at me in surprise: "Why is there an economic crisis just after school starts?" I said with some difficulty: "Can I not ask?" She smiled tolerantly and meaningfully at me, took out a Mizuno dual-purpose notepad from her pocket, unzipped it, and there were more than thirty business cards neatly stacked inside. "From Monday to Saturday, except for class time, I should be able to help you find part-time jobs. If you are willing to go out at night, I can help you find something to do until the lights are turned off at 12 o'clock." I reached out unexpectedly with my oily hands holding the pancake and gave Lyn a soft hug, and she jumped up screaming. In the following time, everything was really well arranged by Lin.I wear running shoes every day so that I can run back to school from the nearest neighborhood without having to hit the road.I pulled my hair up and tied it into a bun like Ba La used to do, exposing my whole thin face, which was completely unattractive, but I didn't need to care. One night, a girl from Suzhou who was sleeping on the upper bunk started a topic in the dormitory and asked everyone what the most rustic hairstyle in the world was. I smiled politely at them on the bed, then I patted my hair and said: "Beauties, look here!" After speaking, amidst their contented laughter, I closed my eyelids peacefully and tiredly, and fell asleep firmly. You know, how precious a good sleep is to me. The next morning, I was refreshed. I listened to the class for the day seriously. The library went to give it to Lin to eat.Lin handed a pile of books in her hand to a boy, then stood at the library desk and smiled at me. The gentle atmosphere in the library reminded me that winter was coming, and my hair was growing fast. They had grown a lot and were messy. Luandi softly pressed against my neck, making me feel warm.I don't want to go to the barber shop to fix them again, but when the bangs grow long, I use a pair of scissors in the dormitory and cut them short in front of a round mirror.Sometimes the scissors don't work well, and the bangs look awkward, but I don't care, anyway, my hairstyle is also notoriously bad. Compared with the gorgeous girls in the dormitory, I look dull and dull all day long. Sometimes I think of him inexplicably, and think of him unexpectedly appearing in front of me and saying to me in a nice voice: "Li Er, it's time to cut your hair." He will not appear again, I think so sadly again and again. Lin is my only friend.During the breaks, we spent long hours sitting in the library to pass the time, a season Lynn could wear a turtleneck sweater to hide the mark on her neck.The fat boy who liked her would bring her hamburgers and hot milk while she was reading, put it on the table and leave without saying anything.Lynn tends to leave it alone until it cools down.Sometimes she would force me to drink the hot milk, she said: "Li Er, you are too thin, I am really worried that the wind will blow you away, you should eat more, so that your face will be rosier." After hearing what she said, I rubbed my face vigorously with both hands until two blushes appeared, and then I smiled silly at her. Getting along with Lin is very comfortable. She doesn't ask about everything about me, and of course I don't ask about her affairs either.Compared with me, Lin's social skills are much stronger. Sometimes she will take me to the carnival to do services, or sell mobile phone cards for mobile companies, or go to the door of the mall to distribute leaflets for a certain company. She can always change. She used many tricks to make money, and I followed her, relaxed and comfortable, without having to think too much, and not being too embarrassed in life. Lynn ate the fluffy cake I bought for her, licked her fingers and said to me happily: "Let's go to the movies tonight. I know there's a good one, Tom Cruise's. My treat." I said, "I like Andy Lau." "Vulgar." She scolded me. I laughed, I said this on purpose, actually I like Leung Ka Fai, besides, I have also seen another movie of his, in which he plays a man who is infinitely loyal to love, his desolate appearance made me cry several times , My heart ached beyond measure, I still remember the name of that film.It was adapted from Wang Anyi's novel, what a genius name, long-term hatred, short-term pain.Perhaps, this is what love really looks like. "What are you thinking about?" Lin put five fingers in front of me and shook them. "I have to go to the student's house," I said, "today for the first time, and be serious." At this moment, my cell phone rang suddenly.In the quiet library, I saw the word Xu Yi flashing on my phone, and I pressed it in a panic. The phone rang again, and I pressed it again. Then, I escaped from the library. The phone still rang unrelentingly.Lin came out after me, put my coat on me and said, "You forgot your clothes." "Thank you." I said. She looks at my phone.It's still ringing. "I'm leaving." I finished speaking hastily, turned around and ran out of Lin's sight. time won't lie to us (4) That night, it rained heavily.I came out of the student's house and took the subway back to school. It was raining heavily, and I didn't bring an umbrella.When I went back late, the dormitory would be closed. I stood at the entrance of the subway and thought for a while, put my coat on my head, gritted my teeth, and rushed straight into the rain.When I was about to reach the school gate, a figure rushed up and put the umbrella on my head. It was Lin. Lin shouted at me loudly in the rain: "Why did you turn off the phone?" I said, "The phone is dead." She dragged me to the school and scolded me, "Why don't you take a taxi, it's raining so hard!" "I have no money!" I yelled at her. "You are enough!" Lin threw the umbrella at my feet, "Li Er, I hate you for torturing yourself like this, let me tell you, if a woman doesn't love herself, no one is willing to love her! " Lin ran away after saying this. I stayed in the rain, and after a long time, I picked up the umbrella, dragged my heavy steps, and walked to the dormitory. That night, Lin's words kept echoing in my mind: "I tell you, if a woman doesn't love herself, no one is willing to love her!" I tried to struggle, struggled from the curse-like words Come out, but I can't do it, my whole body feels as if I'm bound by something, and it's like sinking into the deep sea, and I can't breathe. When I woke up, I found that I was lying in the hospital. Lin stayed by my side, and she asked me gently: "Honey, I bought fresh chestnut cake and gruel, would you like some?" "Where am I?" "Hospital." Lin said, "You have a high fever of 40 degrees, and you are talking nonsense. You scared everyone in your dormitory. You know that I am your only sister, so you called me." "Thank you." I said. "Don't say that." Lin stroked my forehead, "Li Er, I'm sorry, I will never leave you behind." I looked away, tears fell. "Who is it?" She wiped away my tears and asked me. I looked at her in surprise. She said, "You must have been shouting last night." I don't know how to answer her.I may have lived in the world of Bara for a long time. That girl was closely entangled with my adolescence. Although she will never come back, I never thought of going out of her territory. I looked at Lin, and there was Looking at the illusion of Ba La, I believe that Ba La is the same as Lin, they love me equally from a perspective that has nothing to do with love, so that my pain can be released. From this point of view, how lucky I am. "Who is Xu Yi?" Lin suddenly asked again. I was taken aback, did I still call Xu Yi's name, then would I... Oh my god, my god. Seeing my nervousness, Lin smiled, and she said, "That guy named Xu Yi has been calling your cell phone. So I answered it, and I told him you were sick, and he said he would come right away." My first instinct was to jump off the bed, but I had no strength, no strength at all.Lin Duo pressed me down and said, "Li Er, calm down." "Lin," I said, "I don't want to see him." "you sure?" I nod. "That's good, you go to sleep, you need to rest. I'll deal with him." Lin patted me. I watched the bright liquid in the infusion tube drip into my body drop by drop, and felt extremely sleepy, and then I really fell asleep.It was midnight when I woke up again, and Lin was lying on my bedside to rest.Then, I smelled the faint fragrance of lilies, and Lin was awakened by me. She raised her head and asked me: "What do you need, to eat, or to go to the bathroom?" I turned to look at the flowers.Lily, in the dark night, has amazing and charming beauty. "He has been here." Lin said, "He sent the flowers, and he asked me to give this to you." Lin handed over an envelope, thick. I opened it and it was full of money. "I ordered it, 3,000 yuan. He said he would pay you back, so I will accept it for you." Lin said. "What about others?" "He is in a hurry and left. Let you call him." "Oh." I said. Lin giggled: "But to be honest, that poor kid is so handsome, no wonder you are so out of your mind all day long." I pulled out the white paper from the envelope, and there were two words written on it: Thank you. I was heartbroken because of these two unfamiliar and polite words, which were out of control and hopeless.I'm really afraid that even if I try my best, he will still be the warmth that I can't get close to in this life. Two days later, I was discharged from the hospital.I didn't call Xu Yi, and his call never came.This week's evening job is to sell cakes in a coffee shop.Every night from 9:00 to 11:00 is the cake sale time.I stand under the advertising umbrella and sell to the passing customers. When the cake was almost sold out, thunder sounded.I looked at the sky and hurriedly started to close the stall. "Sell me the rest," said a voice. I lowered my head and turned to leave, but he grabbed my arm from behind and pulled me over. My God, this is on the street.Even though I didn't lift my eyelids, I knew he was Xu Yi.The person I still can't bear to look at is Xu Yi.He's coming, and I'm doomed. time won't lie to us (5) He hugged me lightly, sighed and said, "Li Er, it's weird, I miss you." His hug was so light, if there was nothing, the last piece of cake in my hand fell in response.Maybe it was the cream left on my fingertips that suddenly smelled of love in the air, so I closed my eyes resignedly. After a long time, he let go of me and said, "Come with me." I foolishly followed him, and we walked side by side on the streets of Shanghai near midnight.This area is not considered prosperous, and coupled with the fact that it is about to rain, there are not many pedestrians on the road.The sound of thunder and the sound of wind rise together, and the leaves of the sycamore trees in November are still dense, whispering eagerly in the blowing wind. At the age of 17, how much I longed to walk side by side with him.I looked sideways slightly, looking at his straight nose, and felt as if I had passed away for a moment. After walking for a while, he still didn't stop and seemed to have no direction. I stopped and asked, "Where are we going? If it's later, I won't be able to go back to school." Xu Yi stopped, glanced at me casually, and then at the sky.Then he quickly dragged me under the tree, stared at me with soft eyes that were different from those in the dream, and said word by word: "Li Er, be my girlfriend!" The rain, at this moment, fell in torrents. I pushed him away hard. My hand was suddenly held tightly by him and placed on my chest, unable to move.The rain hit my bun, and I closed my eyes desperately, shaking my head as if under a curse. He held me tightly, like a curse, and kept me immobile, saying, "Promise me, promise me, promise me." I couldn't stand it.Leaning down to him desperately, she bit his shoulder hard. He never moved, not even trembled.My bun finally came loose, and it must have slumped over my head in an ugly way, like a newly born octopus. I cried. I finally cried.I cried and stomped on him with my old running shoes, the same pair that staggered and squirmed in the snow two years ago.His hand loosened a little, and I pulled it out. "Be my girlfriend." He was still talking, but his voice had softened, and he finally let go of my hand.I squatted down covering my head, I suspected that I was dreaming. In the dimness, he picked me up on his back and ran towards the school.In the dimness, I heard him say again: "I won't like you." In the dimness, Ba La stood aside holding my thin body, Xu Yi was kicked to the ground by countless feet, his head was in the middle of Blood was bubbling...my head was heavy and hurting, and everything, like being thrown into a pot of boiling water, rolled unscrupulously in my mind. The world is turned upside down, and there is no peace. "Come on, it's raining too much, let's go over there!" He shouted and dragged me up, and dragged me to the eaves of a shopping mall.Patting the rainwater on my body for me, in fact, such patting is futile, because both of us are completely soaked. I was shivering from the cold, and suddenly wanted to smoke, so I begged him: "Give me a cigarette." When I feel depressed, I always think of Ba La smoking.She stood on the stage and sang softly, then she walked off the stage, lowered her head lonely and lit a cigarette. The moment the fire light illuminated her face, it seemed to ignite all the warm desires. Xu Yi asked me: "What did you say?" "I want to smoke." I said. He took out a cigarette from his pocket, Yunyan, lit one himself, and then lit it for me.I was trembling, the cigarette was extinguished quickly, Xu Yi came to light it for me again, I pushed him away.His hand suddenly clasped my five fingers.I subconsciously moved my hand away, and he reached out and grabbed me again.I turned my head away, he had a cigarette in his mouth, and stubbornly straightened my head. I feel hypocritical.So I couldn't help sending a villain in my heart.He slapped himself hard. "Would you like to listen to me?" "I do not want to." "My father, because of corruption, went to jail." "I know." "Mom got cancer and passed away." "I know too." He snarled at me: "You little goblin, what else do you know about me? Tell me!" I said desperately: "Xu Yi, please don't do this." I felt powerless in words, and I shrank and couldn't say anything in front of him. Xu Yi calmed down for a while, then raised his head and said to me: "You have always loved me, right? You won't lie to me, right?" I still didn't speak, and turned my head away. He continued to hold my hand and said: "I went to the hospital that day, I saw you lying there, you fell asleep, I saw you for a long time, you looked very familiar, I didn't see you for a long time It's such a familiar face." I still turned my head away, although the position was ugly and difficult to maintain.But I was moved by his words, I finally couldn't hold back the moment I turned my head involuntarily, Xu Yi's face suddenly approached, and then bit my lips. My heart was beating wildly, and I wanted to push him away, but he took advantage of the situation to put his hand on top of mine, pressing tightly on his chest and not letting go. In that instant, the lips ached unspeakably, and the cold fingers pressed against the warm skin under his neck.I wanted to break free, but he held it down even more. That elegant and quiet young man Xu Yihe who remained in memory has transformed into such a stubborn and selfish man at this moment.This is my first kiss, and it is finally dedicated to my dear Xu Yi under the eaves of the dripping rain with no one in the night in a strange city.I finished it in tears, and my heart beat so hard? /p>A long time later, I saw a magazine that said that a man who puts a woman's hand on his chest when kissing is the one who really loves her.