Chapter 11 The baptism of the college entrance examination

The baptism of the college entrance examination (1) it's finally over. Throughout the long summer vacation, I buried myself in reading.Go to the library every other day and bring back a lot of books.At that time, I liked to read foreign novels. I read one after another, but I couldn’t remember the name. Sometimes I cried along with the protagonist in the novel, and sometimes I didn’t feel the slightest after reading it, but I continued to read the next one. I was reading endlessly like this, patiently waiting for my admission letter, and patiently waiting for the summer vacation to pass.

Sometimes, I would go online to write a few random words on blogs, or go to QQ to talk nonsense with You Ta, or receive Zhang Yang’s letter. I heard that Zhang Yang went to Yunnan, but I don’t know how he played. Happy or not, the contact between him and me is actually very rare, occasionally a letter comes, just a few short sentences, nothing new.When I was sitting by the window and reading a book, I would suddenly think of the moment when he hugged me that night. It seemed that I was not me that night, bold, reckless, and reckless.I think about Bara's attachment to him, and it's probably the same. Unfortunately, Bara gave her life, and she will never come back.

On the day I got the admission letter from a certain university in Shanghai, my mother invited relatives and friends to a restaurant to celebrate.I was studying Chinese, and my father seemed very satisfied. He chattered and said, "Girls who study Chinese are good. Girls who study Chinese are good. Girls who study Chinese are really good." My aunt scolded him: "Hey, are you finished?" He is silly.He tapped the edge of the table with chopsticks, as if he was singing a Beijing opera. Everyone was beaming, except Utah. My mother slapped him and said, "What's wrong with you, you are not happy that my sister is admitted to college, have you lost your relationship?"

"How can there be a relationship! Don't talk nonsense!" He became anxious, and everyone laughed together again. I know, especially he is not in love.He continued his academic legend in Tsinghua University, taking the postgraduate entrance examination, taking the doctoral examination, and going abroad are a logical path for him without doubt. I watched him smile, but he didn't understand, and asked me: "What are you laughing at?" I said, "You're getting fat again." He was a little embarrassed: "You have lost weight again, are you trying to lose weight like others?"

"No way." I said, "I am born with good conditions, no matter how much I eat, I will not gain weight." "You're getting glib," he scolded me. He always puts on a big brother like this, and criticizes me severely when he gets the chance.I didn't bother to talk to him, and started to focus on the grilled fish on the plate.He still couldn't stop his mouth: "Be careful of the thorns, this fish has quite powerful thorns." I said, "It's better not to eat fish if you are afraid of thorns." He said helplessly: "He will be fierce to me."

The private rooms of the hotel are good, and there is a big terrace. The meal is almost the same, and the adults start chatting.I saw Utah stand up and go out on the terrace to look at the sky.I felt that I was a little fierce just now, my temper was unreasonable, and I felt a little sorry, so I walked over to him and asked him behind him: "What's wrong with you, frowning, are you really broken in love?" "No." He said, "The starry sky in my hometown is still beautiful, but all I see in Beijing are the roofs of buildings." "When are you going back to Beijing?" I asked him.I know he came back specially to congratulate me, his summer vacation is very busy, he has a lot of things to do.

"In two days," he said. I pretended to be relaxed and said, "Actually, you just need to call me to congratulate me. You don't need to make this trip in person. I know you are very busy in Beijing, right?" "Yeah," he said, "very busy, working several jobs." "Don't think too much about money," I said, "your body is important." "Li Er, I fell in love with a girl." He said suddenly. "Really?" I almost jumped up, "Tell me what it looks like!" "It's hard to say." He said, "Actually, I worked hard to earn money, just to buy her a new mobile phone."

"Hee." I laughed at him, "The power of love is really immeasurable. Tell me, what does she look like?" He still said: "It's hard to say." "Oh." I said, "When I'm free, how about going to Beijing to see you?" He turned around and asked me: "Why do you like Beijing?" "I haven't been there, I want to see it. Let's see your girlfriend by the way." "Then why don't you apply for a school in Beijing?" "You think I'm you, you can choose any school you want." I said, "I'm very lucky to be admitted. Besides, Shanghai is close to home, so my mother can rest assured."

"Your college entrance examination results can be admitted to many schools in Beijing. What's more, with me in Beijing, why is my aunt worried?" "Let's not talk about that." I said, "Just tell me how you plan to take me to play." "You can play however you want," he said. He looked at me with eyes full of love, which made me unable to bear to look at each other, so I turned my head and pretended to look at the sky.At that moment, I knew in my heart that even if I really went to Beijing, I would not be able to find You Ta. I understand why Yuta told me about him and his girlfriend. Maybe he understands in his heart as well as I do that we are different. He said that just to make me feel at ease.To me, he will always be just an elder brother, who loves me like a brother but can never get involved in love.What's more, I will soon be a college student, and the past seems like a previous life. I hope that I can have a new start, reborn, and never forget it.

"A person takes good care of himself outside." You Ta said. "Oh." I rarely replied impatiently. At this moment, I saw a shooting star suddenly flashing past my eyes, I grabbed Youta's sleeve and jumped up and shouted: "Ah, shooting star, shooting star, make a wish!" The meteor flashed by. You Ta scolded me and said, "Stupid, it's useless for you to grab my clothes. You should tie a knot on your own clothes, and then make a wish, and the wish will come true." I shrugged and made a face. The baptism of the college entrance examination (2)

You Ta asked me: "Li Er, if meteors can really fulfill one of your wishes, can you tell me what is the wish you most want to make?" "You speak first!" "You speak first." "You speak first!" "Okay, let me say it first." You Ta thought for a while and said, "I hope the girl I like is always happy." Oh, this nympho! When it was my turn, I coughed and said seriously: "I hope all the people in the world are happy and happy." Yuta looked at me, and I winked at him. He suddenly reached out and stroked my hair lovingly.I giggled and dodged away. It was getting late.My cell phone rang, and it was You Ta, who said, "Li Er, where have you been?" "Outside," I said. "Well, my eight o'clock train is going back to Beijing. Say hello to you." "Oh, have a nice trip. Also, ask your girlfriend!" "Thank you." He hung up, and I was relieved. It was a quarter past seven in the evening when I got home.Mom asked me where I went, and I told her I went shopping.Mom pointed to a box on the dining table and said, "That's a gift from Utah for you." When I saw it, it was a mobile phone, a new model from Nokia. My mother told me: "Your aunt said that all the money he earned from working this summer was spent on this. Originally, we wanted to buy it for you when you were admitted to university, but we couldn't refuse because of his kindness." I stood there with a blank mind for five minutes. After waking up, I looked at the clock on the wall, and then I ran out the door holding the mobile phone case.Mother called from behind: "Li Er, what are you doing?" "I'm going to the train station!" I said, "I'll be right back after dropping off Uta!" I took a taxi to the train station, stood in the station square where people were coming and going, and called Yuta. He told me that he had already entered the station and got on the train.My throat seemed to be blocked by something, and I couldn't speak.It was he who spoke first and asked me, "Do you like it? I remember you said you liked Nokia." "Uta," I said, "I'm sorry." "Don't say I'm sorry." You Ta said, "I know, I know that some things cannot be forced. I will respect your choice." "Uta," I said, "You don't want to do that." "Okay." He replied gently, "It won't be like this in the future." I couldn't stand up, so I had to squat on the ground with the phone in one hand and the phone case in the other. You Ta's voice came from next to my ear: "Li Er, do you know when you are the cutest, that is when you laugh. So remember, no matter what, you must be happy, always be happy. I'm leaving, goodbye After You Ta finished speaking, the phone was disconnected, and my tears fell uncontrollably. That night, I went to the suburbs alone. I don’t know why, but I suddenly missed the rooftop where Zhang Yang took me, and those fleeting beautiful fireworks.I bought a lighter and a pack of cigarettes in a supermarket outside the community, and took them on the road.I walked for a long time relying on the memory in my mind, but I couldn't find the place I wanted to go.I stood on the edge of a field in the outskirts and lit a cigarette. This was the first time I smoked a cigarette. It was a pack of 555. I've seen it before.The smell of cigarettes is not as choking as I imagined, but the tongue feels a little bitter. I remembered the way Bala was blowing out smoke rings, so I tried to blow out one or two smoke rings, but of course it was in vain. I always I couldn’t succeed, and then I started to cough violently. I just coughed and smoked while wandering aimlessly in the suburbs, looking for the roof in my memory that could hold the lonely and blooming fireworks. I am such a willful child. From this point In fact, there is no difference between me and Ba La. It was two days before I started school that I saw Zhang Yang again. I went downstairs with a pile of books, ready to cycle to the library to return them.He leaned against a tree not far downstairs from my house and smoked.He was dark and thin, wearing a big T-shirt, and he hadn't shaved for many days. If it wasn't for that signature cap, I would hardly have recognized him. "Little ears." He called me. I'm a little unsteady on my feet. "You came just in time," he said. "I was about to call you." "Are you back?" I calmed down and said in as relaxed a tone as possible, "Long time no see." "Yes." He put out his cigarette butt and said, "Where are you going?" "Go to the library and return the books." "I'll go with you," he said. "I want to go by bike." "Then I'll take you." He said, "Where's the car?" I handed him my book to hold it for me, and I went to the garage and rolled Dad's bike out.The sun at three or four o'clock in the afternoon is not so bad, Zhang Yang put all the books into the front car basket for me, then he stepped into the car first, turned around and told me, "Come on." I was a little hesitant, and he smiled with his mouth crooked and said, "Afraid?" I hop in the car. Zhang Yang stepped on the car, and the car drove briskly on the road.The leaves of the sycamore trees on both sides of the road were dazzling green, and the breeze was blowing. I heard my little white skirt rubbing against the wheels, making a sound like music, like someone's inner lyrical sigh. I couldn't help thinking about it again, thinking of her riding a bicycle and following Xu Yi, stopping and going, naughty.The 18-year-old bicycle, the memory of that year, the girl painted green with a smile, is so vivid at this moment, as if she has never been far away and has always been by our side. "What are you thinking?" Zhang Yang turned his head and asked me loudly. "Why did you come back all of a sudden?" I asked him. "My father's rheumatism is serious. I came back and took him to Beijing to see a doctor." "Oh." I said, "how many days can you stay?" "It's only half a day." He said, "The return flight at eight o'clock tonight, the ticket has already been booked." what!It turned out that it was only half a day, but he came to see me. The baptism of the college entrance examination (3) "Is Yunnan fun?" I asked him. "I didn't make it, I will go next year." He said, "By the way, how did you do in the exam?" "Benyi." I said, "Go to Shanghai and study Chinese." "It's good." He said, "It's good for a girl to study Chinese, and Shanghai is close to home." His tone was exactly the same as my father's. I jumped out of the car outside the library and said thank you. He suddenly said: "Go and return the book, I still have time, I will drive you back later." "Thank you, it's really unnecessary." "No nonsense," he said. "Go!" I ran into the library with the book in my hand, feeling that the staff was too slow.When I ran out empty-handed, I found that Zhang Yang was really waiting there and didn't leave.Holding a colorful ice cream in his hand, he said to me, "You seem to like this?" I pressed my heart firmly, not allowing it to rise and fall and hurt.I think I really don't hate him anymore, don't hate him anymore. Come on, let's stop hating, shall we? I took the stick of ice cream, put it in my mouth, and let it melt sweetly.Then, I smiled at Zhang Yang. "Going home?" he asked me. "No." I suddenly made a decision, and I said, "Zhang Yang, take me to that roof again. I wanted to go there later, but I couldn't find it anyway." Zhang Yang thought for a while and said, "Okay, let's go!" Cycling is much faster than walking, but in just a short while, we have reached our destination.It looks very different during the day than at night.The house stood dilapidated, surrounded by wild grass, and a tree with a crooked neck stood lonely, without any artistic conception at all. Zhang Yang leaned on the bicycle and said to me: "I have to come here at night, it's boring during the day." "Have you always come at night before?" He looked at me and said, "I've only been here twice, once with you, and once with you." After speaking, he smiled meaningfully, and then took out his cigarette case to smoke. "Give me a cigarette." I said. "Kids go!" he said. "I have smoked several times." I said. "Where are you looking for Bian?" He glared at me. "You can't control me." I said. "Don't provoke me." Zhang Yang pointed with the finger holding the cigarette, "If I want to control, there is no reason why I can't control it, do you believe it or not?" "I believe." I said. "Bingxue is smart." He praised me, "If you are not so clever, you will suffer." I looked down at my white skirt, and there was an ugly piece of mud on it.Zhang Yang lowered his body and flicked it off with his fingers.Then he said, "Let's go back." That night, I huddled alone on the balcony of my cabin and smoked. I was not addicted to cigarettes, but cigarettes made me stable.At ten o'clock at night, the train bound for Beijing has left for two hours, two hours, almost 300 kilometers, and then it will become 400 kilometers, 500 kilometers, and finally more than 1,000 kilometers. This long road, I know it will be difficult for him to turn back. Goodbye, maybe never. The stubborn pursuit in my heart can only be seen by myself.But I hope I'm not wrong.I must not be like Ba La, wrong again and again. After school started, my parents sent me to Shanghai to report together. After completing the formalities, our family of three ate at a simple restaurant near the school. While eating, my mother’s tears fell, and my father quickly handed her a tissue: “Don’t worry, we Li Er will definitely be able to take care of ourselves. Take good care of me." As he said, he winked at me. "Yes. Mom." I held her hand and said, "Don't worry, I will call you once a day." She sobbed: "You child, you have been sick and troubled since you were a child, and you have never left me. How can you make me feel at ease!" "Okay, Mom." I whispered, "These are all students from our school. It's embarrassing for others to see." "Don't cry." My dad also coaxed her, "I will accompany you to Xintiandi tonight!" "I'm going to take my daughter to a big hospital in Shanghai to have her ears checked again." Mom suddenly said, "Shanghai has a lot of cars and the traffic is chaotic. If her ears..." "Mom!" I interrupted her, "I'm fine, don't worry about it. I've been too tired and exhausted, and I'm so tired?" You must not Listen to MP3 while walking! " "Ok." "When eating at school, try to go to the cafeteria as early as possible. Cold food is not good for the stomach." "understood." "It's no better outside than at home. You have to be skillful in getting along with people. Just let it go, don't be serious with people." She was really nagging.At that moment, I really admired my dad, who could endure her for so many years. "Yes." I still answered obediently. "I know my daughter best." My dad said, "There is no one better than her. What are you worried about?" "What's the use of her being good, there are a lot of bad guys out there." My mother's mind really became more and more crooked, and my father and I looked at each other and smiled, and each of us began to eat tacitly. Sometimes I think about it, like my parents love me, I really love my parents, but my heart is something they can't see.It's hard for me to imagine what it would be like for them to watch me smoking a cigarette on the balcony, what would happen if they saw me being hugged by other boys, maybe my mother would faint from this.Based on this point, I deeply believe in one sentence: the human heart is as deep as the sea. Who knows who is thinking and who will be whose savior. I knew this a long time ago, but I still hopelessly insist on my own persistence. After the freshman training, it happened to be a weekend.I bought a map of Shanghai, researched it for a long time, changed into a new skirt, took the subway for a long time, walked for a long time, and finally found the school.The school's signboard looked a little old, and it didn't have the grandeur I imagined. I asked in the guard room, grabbed two or three students, and finally found the place I was looking for.I saw a list downstairs of the boys' dormitory, with the names of the people in each dormitory written on it.The list was a bit torn. I used my fingers to cross the list, and when I finally stopped at those two familiar words, I felt a kind of overwhelming sadness in my heart. 302．He lives in 302. The baptism of the college entrance examination (4) It was a very old building, and the wooden stairs creaked when you stepped on them, giving you the illusion that you would step on empty space at any time.I walked up step by step, and I said in my heart: "Xu Yi, here I come." I knocked on the door, and the one who opened it was a boy with a crew cut and a stunned look. "Who are you looking for?" He looked at me defensively and asked. "Xu Yi." I said, "Is he there?" "Not here." He wanted to close the door. I stopped with my hand: "Please tell me where I can find him?" "Call his cell phone." "Please tell me the number." "I haven't," he said. "Please," I said, "I really need him urgently." He held a thick book, looked me up and down for a while, and then told me: "Go out from the school gate, turn left, and walk along for ten minutes, there is a bar, he should be there on weekends work to earn a living." I thanked him and came out.In Shanghai in September, the sky is high and the clouds are light.Three hundred and sixty-five days, from the day I knew he came to Shanghai to study, I walked this road for three hundred and sixty-five days.I think of the moment when he walked out of the campus with a big schoolbag. I think of those days and nights of studying hard in the classroom, and the ideals that dare not give up lightly with an idea in my heart.Now, I'm finally going to see him, and I'm not as flustered as I imagined before, as if I was just going to meet an old friend, as if he had been waiting for me here for many years. The name of the bar is only one word, called: Wait. It is located at the corner of the whole street, with a small facade, if you don't pay attention, you will ignore it.I opened the door and went in. At noon, there were almost no people in the bar, and the facilities inside were very simple, with a few red sofas, a long dark wooden table, and a few yellow wild chrysanthemums in long glass bottles on the table.As soon as I sat down, I saw him. He was wearing a uniform, came up to me with a list, and asked me, "What would you like to drink?" I looked at him, speechless for a moment. He recognized me.Put the list on my desk, turned and walked away. "Xu Yi".I called him, and to my dismay, my voice suddenly became hoarse. He stopped with his back to me. "Are you free today?" I said, "I want to chat with you." He turned to me and said, "I'm sorry, miss, I have to work and I don't get off work until eleven o'clock in the evening." I smiled and said to him: "Okay, please have a glass of ice water." "Sorry, ice water is not sold here." "Well, watermelon juice," I said. A few minutes later, he brought me a glass of red watermelon juice.Add a glass of ice water with a slice of golden lemon floating on top.He put them on my table and said in a low voice, "My treat, you can go after you drink." His tone was so indifferent.I control my tears and don't let it fall easily. He walks away. I took out a thin book from my backpack and read it, by the old-fashioned Duras, I watched this movie, Leung Ka Fai and his little French lover, in a hotel in a foreign land, the eyes of her desperately asking for love made me feel I am excited.To be precise, I only watched half of it, because when my mother came back from shopping for vegetables, I turned off the TV under her disturbed eyes. The ending is exactly as I imagined.separate. When I closed the book, dusk came, and the bar finally started to be lively, a group of girls in fashionable clothes laughed and pushed the door open.They seem to be from the Academy of Art, and they are very familiar with this place. I saw a girl wearing a flowery skirt and red sandals stretch out her hand and squeeze Xu Yi's face. Xu Yi smiled.Xu Yi with my angelic face.He's still so damn handsome. "Xu Yi, I'm going camping tomorrow. I'll count you in," another girl said sharply. "Okay!" Xu Yi stretched out his hand and patted the girl on the head quickly.The girls smiled ambiguously and brilliantly. They really are very familiar. I put fifty yuan on the table, put my backpack on my back, got up and left. Walking out of the bar, looking at the strange sky of Shanghai with high-rise buildings at dusk, I have lost the desire to cry. I have to pay the price for my willfulness, I know. Suddenly, someone reached out and grabbed me from behind. I turned around and saw Xu Yi. "Your money." He handed me the money and said, "I've agreed to treat you." I push him away. "Take it." He said, "I'm still at work, so I can't tell you more. Don't come here again." I took the money. He turned and went into the bar. When I got to the subway station, I decided to turn back.I said to myself, never give up lightly, never!So I went back to the door of the bar, sat down on the curb steps, and started reading.The light at dusk made my eyes swell and hurt, but I still insisted on reading. The words on the book gradually couldn't enter my eyes, so I still insisted on reading.As I said, many times, I am powerless against my willfulness. It was eleven past five at night.I saw Xu Yi coming out of the bar.He changed into his own clothes, without a backpack, and crossed the road whistling with his hands in his trouser pockets.I rubbed my numb feet and stood up. I wanted to follow him. I knew that there were many girls chasing him. I would rather believe that he was used to this way, and I had no other choice.At this moment, I really wish I had a white T-shirt, green oil paint, with the words "I love Xu Yi" written on it.Then I can stand before him without any words. But before I could reach him, I saw a green off-road vehicle stopped in front of him, three men jumped out of the vehicle, they said a few words to Xu Yi, one of them stretched out The fist hit Xu Yi in the face. Xu Yi covered his face and squatted on the ground.He stood up quickly and wanted to run, but they held him tightly and pushed him onto the off-road vehicle. I ran over quickly and shouted loudly: "What are you doing?" My sudden appearance shocked them all, including Xu Yi. "Why are you still here?" he asked me. "Wait until you get off work." I said. The baptism of the college entrance examination (5) "Who is she?" A boy with blond hair chewed gum and asked Xu Yi, pointing at me. "I don't know." Xu Yi said bluntly. There was no expression on his face, and there was still fresh blood on his nose.My heart ached sharply. "Really?" said the yellow hair, "Is it true that I don't know you?" "What do you want to do?" I continued to ask. "Hehehe." The yellow hair laughed, "We are friends, invite him to drink, little sister, if you are fine, go home, wash and sleep." "Wait!" I said, "If you must take him away, I'll call the police!" "Stop messing around!" Xu Yi yelled at me. "Oh? Interesting!" I was terrified by the look the yellow hair looked at me, but I insisted on looking at him, unwilling to admit defeat. "Who the hell are you?" he asked me. "I'm Xu Yi's friend." I said. "girlfriend?" I looked at Xu Yi, Xu Yi was expressionless, and then I nodded with difficulty. "Then your boyfriend owed us more than five thousand yuan, did you pay it for him?" I thought about it, nodded and said, "Okay." Xu Yi looked at me in surprise. "Okay." I said, "but all my money is on the card. It's too late now, so I don't know if I can withdraw it. Tomorrow at the latest, when the bank opens, I will definitely return the money to you." "I heard, I will definitely return it tomorrow." Xu Yi said, "Come and pick it up tomorrow." "Trust you again!" The yellow hair pointed at Xu Yi, "Tomorrow is the deadline, and we will pay back the money here at ten o'clock in the morning. I warn you not to play any tricks, otherwise, you have to go and talk to our boss in person." explained." "Understood." Xu Yi said. The yellow hair and the others jumped into the car. When the car was about to drive away, the window rolled open. The yellow hair chewed gum and shouted to me: "Little sister, be careful when making friends!" Windows, the car drove away quickly. Xu Yi glanced at me, pushed me away and walked forward. "Hi!" I called to him, "Hi!" "You go." He said, "Didn't you hear what people said, you should be cautious when making friends." "Do you remember me?" I asked in despair. "I don't remember." He gave me the answer I imagined. "You lied," I said. He thought for a while and asked me, "Can you really lend me money?" I thought about it and nodded. "Are you hungry?" he asked me. "Hungry." I said. "Then let's go eat first," he said. After Xu Yi finished speaking, he walked in front, and I followed him. We didn't speak, and he didn't look back at me.Walking to a small restaurant not far from their school, he opened the door and went in, and I followed.There was no one in the restaurant at night, and there were traces of water just dragging on the ground.There was a dark red tablecloth on the table, covered with a thin layer of oil-stained plastic cloth.Xu Yi frowned, and quickly lifted off the plastic sheet.Here is a clean table top, with a drawing of a bear on the muslin, staring at me heartlessly. A chubby little girl handed over the menu with a blank expression. Xu Yi ordered two or three dishes and said, "Have a bottle of beer." I sat down across from him with my bag in my arms.Xu Yi finally took a look at me, and then he asked me, "How about you, would you like a bottle of wine too?" "I don't drink," I said. He took out a pack of Yunyan from his pocket, shook out one, and handed it to me.I shook my head, he took out the cigarette, lit it himself, and smoked silently. I asked him, "Why do you owe someone money?" He said, "None of your business." I said, "It's none of my business if I pay it for you." He raised his eyes to look at me and said, "The bet is lost." I said, "Then don't bet with others in the future." He said, "Okay." When the dishes came, he asked for a big bowl of rice and devoured it hungrily, but the taste was good.I sat across from him and watched him eat without any appetite.In fact, I was really hungry too, but I couldn’t eat any more. I remembered that a boy said the same thing when he sat across from me eating noodles a long time ago. He said: “I am often like this, very hungry, but a little I can’t eat it.” That’s how I am now. Xu Yi suddenly asked me, "Where do you live?" I gave the address.He said: "So far? You have to go to the bank first, can you make it at ten o'clock in the morning?" "Okay," I said, "I can get up early." "Why don't you leave." He said, "I'll arrange for you to live in the girls' dormitory of our school." I was a little hesitant, but he saw my doubts and said, "Don't be afraid, the girls' dormitory is full of girls." I rolled my eyes at him, but he suddenly smiled. "Your name?" he asked me. "Li Er." I said. "Yes, I remember, it's the name," he said. When he laughed, he was so cute, and at that moment time suddenly fell back to my sophomore year in high school, my lonely and empty seventeen-year-old, the first time I saw him, he was leaning against the railing by the street at dusk A boy was carrying a large schoolbag that had been washed white.His face is so handsome.At that time, I was still a young girl, love was just beginning to sprout in my heart, the world was turned upside down, I was flustered, and I couldn't recognize myself from now on.