Chapter 13 with Xu Yi

Together with Xu Yi (1) At that time, I was already with Xu Yi, and we were sitting together on a chair in the park. When I saw this sentence, I laughed alone. He sat down from the other end of the chair, surrounded me and said, "What did you see?" Is it fun?" "No." "Have." "If you say no, you don't have it." "Yes!" He pinched my cheeks and shook them from side to side, then said seriously: "You are getting fatter and fatter. Ear pig." "you are a pig." "Pig ears, pig ears." He was proud of his jingle, laughing until his shoulders kept shaking.

It was too late to say it, and then I slapped him hard on the shoulder with lightning speed. "Ah—" Comrade Xu Yi raised his head to the sky and screamed. "This pig is waiting to be slaughtered." I retorted convulsively.Then he rolled his eyes with a smile and continued to read my book. In this way, I finally became Xu Yi's girlfriend. This seems to be a long-planned thing, but when it succeeds, I feel inexplicably uneasy.And as time goes by, this anxiety becomes stronger and stronger, and sometimes if you are not careful, you will completely submerge yourself.One day, Xu Yi said to me on the phone: "Li Er, you may not be the most beautiful girl in this world, but you must be the most beautiful girl."

I switched the phone from the right ear to the left.Ask him in a low voice: "Can you please say it again?" He may have said it, but I didn't hear it. My left ear is still like this, deaf at the most critical time.But I didn't tell Xu Yi this, just like I don't know him very well, I know that we are all hurt children, sensitive, vulnerable and suspicious.My only hope is that the love between me and him can develop in the direction I imagined. It doesn't have to be ups and downs, ups and downs, just be safe. Under my suggestion, Xu Yi quit his job in the bar, cut off his association with those messy people, and concentrated on working for a computer company in his spare time, which gave me a sense of accomplishment.

We go on dates when it's not very busy.Our date is completely different from other college students. Sometimes it is in a small computer room assigned to him by the computer company. He is buried in his computer, and I am buried in my book.Sometimes at McDonald’s, we each finished our burgers and French fries face to face, and sometimes on the street, in some old alleys in Shanghai, he took my hand for a walk.I like being held by him, because every time he holds my hand, it is tight and refuses to relax.It gives me peace of mind.I told Lynn about this, and she laughed at me: "My dear child, it shows your insecurity."

Maybe it is.My sense of security actually comes from myself. There is a dangerous string deep in my heart. I know that it cannot be touched, and the consequences will be disastrous. So I stuck to myself and learned to be stable in this world. However, it is not that Xu Yi has not caused me troubles. His source of income is all on his own, so he is always short of money to spend. Maybe it is because he has developed a habit of being extravagant since he was a child. When he has money, he never thinks about it What should I do when I have money? For example, when winter comes, he bought me a red coat worth more than 1,000 yuan. A new piece of software will make you very rich.” As a result, his development was unsuccessful and he did not earn any money. On the contrary, he fell into financial panic again because of the purchase of computer equipment.I kept lending him money, and I couldn't get enough money, so I kept begging Lynn to find me a new job.Sometimes Lin got angry and said that she would never care about me again, but she said so, but she always tried her best to help me.

Another time, when I was in class, I received a strange call from a girl. She said that Xu Yi had brought me something and asked me to go to the school gate to get it. At the door of the classroom, so I sneaked out.Before I walked to the school gate, I kept wondering what kind of surprise Xu Yi would bring me. To a certain extent, my fear of such a surprise far outstripped my hope. This is indeed the case. The "surprise" I was looking forward to that day was like this. A stylishly dressed girl came up to me and asked me if I was Li Er. I said I was, and she jumped up and slapped me hard A slap in the face, then jumped into a taxi and walked away.

I covered my face and squatted down slowly on the ground.After about two minutes, I stood up and went back to the dormitory. I met Lynn in the cafeteria at lunch, and she asked me in surprise, "What's wrong with your face, why is it swollen? "It's fine." I replied as calmly as possible. "No." Lin insisted, "There must be something wrong with you, your eyes are also swollen." "It's really fine." I said. I don't want to tell anyone about being slapped, including Lin and Xu Yi.But Lin finally found out. This incident was passed on by eyewitnesses beyond recognition, which is very detrimental to me.Lin called Xu Yi without telling me, and scolded Xu Yi severely, but I didn't know all this.

Xu Yi asked me to go to their school to find him on weekends.He picked me up at the school gate and took me into his arms as soon as he saw me.My face was slightly red, and he touched my face lovingly and said, "How are you doing these days?" I said, "Very good." He smiled and took me along the wide road of their campus.The girls who passed by looked at us with different eyes, which is the main reason why I don't like coming to their school. In this small university campus, the handsome Xu Yi is exactly the same as when he was in Tianzhong. It is always a focus of attention and a never-tiring topic.

Just like Lin said: "You have a terrible aristocratic aura about that poor kid." She always calls him a bad boy, and she is not very optimistic about our love. But it's nothing.I understand Lynn.Lin's own love has also made no progress. I know she must be deeply in love with a boy, but that boy doesn't like her.That fat boy is still relentlessly pursuing Lin, but Lin has remained unmoved. It's really a dilemma in the world. Xu Yi took me to the biggest playground in their school. Some boys were playing basketball on the playground, and some girls were shouting beside him. One of them asked me: "Did she hit you that day?"

I looked at the girl, she has changed a set of clothes, but I will not forget her appearance. I shook my head, pulled Xu Yi and said, "Let's go." Xu Yi said calmly: "Let me ask you again, did she hit you?" Together with Xu Yi (2) I still didn't make a sound, but the girl jumped up: "It's me, it's me who hit your sweetheart, so what, you hit me back, hit me!" Xu Yi slapped the girl on the face.After beating him is not enough, he has to pounce on him. "Don't, don't hit!" I screamed, pulling him desperately. The incident of Xu Yi beating a girl caused his popularity on campus to plummet, but he didn't care, he put me in his arms and said, "Li Er, I will not bully you in this lifetime, who would dare to bully you?" , I will never let it!"

I asked him, "Why are you so nice to me?" "Because you are kind to me." He said, biting my fingertips lightly, "I know, you are the only girl in this world who is really kind to me and doesn't ask for anything in return." I looked up at him, I thought he was going to kiss me, but he didn't, he looked at me for a long time, and finally turned his head away with difficulty.I know there are some inexplicable obstacles between us, but it's nothing, as long as he is patient, I am more patient. When the Spring Festival came, I planned to go home with Xu Yi. I thought about it for a long time, and made my request in words that did not provoke him as much as possible, but as I expected, he firmly rejected me.And I hope I can stay in Shanghai to accompany him during the New Year.But this is an impossible thing for me. Mom and Dad have already made preparations to welcome me, and Yuta, if I don’t go home, even if I find a reasonable reason, I believe they will Let's rush to Shanghai together.I said sorry to Xu Yi.He shook his head nonchalantly and said, "It's okay, you should go back, you have your home." "Xu Yi." I said apologetically, "I'll be back soon." "It's all right," he said, "you go home and have fun." The day I left Shanghai was very, very cold. Xu Yi sent me to the station, and he wrapped me in his coat. This was a very friendly gesture between me and him. That day, he walked me all the way to the platform. , I got out of his coat, jumped into the car, and when I turned around to look at him, I suddenly had the urge to cry, the Spring Festival is coming, the day of reunion of thousands of families, he is so lonely, so lonely .So I dragged my heavy luggage and jumped out of the car again. "What are you doing?" he asked me. "I don't want to go," I said. "Silly girl!" He pulled me into his arms, pulled up his coat to cover our heads, and kissed me passionately.When the train whistle sounded, he reacted, let go of me suddenly, then picked up my luggage for me, and roughly pushed me onto the car. "Go back!" he said. "I don't!" I said, "I'm going to stay with you." "Go back! Go back!" Regardless of my plea, he insisted on pushing me into the car, and then he turned and ran away from the platform in great strides. The train started, and I burst into tears in front of the conductor.The conductor, who was used to parting, pushed me without sympathy and said, "Get inside quickly, don't block this place!" In this way, because of thinking about Xu Yi, I spent the most absent-minded Spring Festival in my life.Even when Uta asked me to go to the square to set off fireworks, I had no interest.It seems that my own joy is the betrayal of love by mocking Xu Yi.You Ta finally asked me: "What's wrong with you, Li Er?" "I'm in love." I told him. "yes?" "And Xu Yi." I said. I thought he would be furious, but I thought it was wrong, Yuta just let out a soft oh. I have no way to care about his emotions. What's more, Xu Yi completely turned off his phone after sending a New Year's greeting. I know what he means, and he wants me to have nothing to worry about.God knows how helpless I am in the face of all this. On the morning of the second day of junior high school, I went to Bara's cemetery. The grass in front of her tomb is Yiyi, and a bouquet of fresh yellow roses is placed there, with beautiful dewdrops on it.I leaned down to touch the petals, a familiar breath rushed to my face, scaring me to run away, a figure blocked my way. "Little Ear," he said, "Where are you going?" "Hey!" I managed to calm myself down: "Happy New Year, Zhang Yang." He looked at me with a smile: "You seem to have grown taller." "Why," I said, "I haven't grown any more since I was sixteen." He stretched out his hand, patted the top of my head and said, "Happy New Year!" "Are you going home for the New Year?" I was really talking nonsense. "Yeah." He said, "Go home for the New Year." He also talked nonsense. "We're going to start school soon." I continued babbling. "So do we." He touched the back of his head and cooperated with me. "What are you still doing here?" I asked him. He pointed to the front: "I'll wait for my dad, he's gone to the front." "Oh," I said, "bye." "goodbye." I took a few steps forward and wanted to turn back again, but I knew that I couldn't turn back anyway.But I heard him shouting from behind: "Little ears." I stop my steps. He said: "If you change your mailbox or phone number one day, remember to notify me." I turned around and tried to squeeze out a smile and said to him: "Okay, I will definitely." He raised his hand to say goodbye to me again.I also waved at him smilingly.I don't know why, at that moment I suddenly thought of Leung Ka Fai for no reason. I walked down the mountain while doing a very philosophical thought. A person must be different in and out of the play. This is not terrible, but the most terrible What's more, you can't tell whether you are in the play or outside the play. I went back to Shanghai for the first five days of school. I didn't tell Xu Yi, firstly, his mobile phone was always turned off, and secondly, I also wanted to give him a surprise. I returned to Shanghai at around three o'clock in the afternoon. I didn't bother to go to school to pack my luggage, so I went to Xu Yi's school with my big bag. Because the school hadn't started yet, their school seemed deserted.Xu Yi is not in the dormitory.I began to feel an indescribable panic in my heart, as if there was a sea of ​​people, and I lost him just like that.So I went to the computer company where he worked.It was already off-duty time, and the door of the company was closed, but the door was not locked. I pushed it lightly, and the door opened.Because of the long-time running around, I was already very tired, and I couldn't carry the big bag in my hand, so I put the big bag on the ground, and walked forward through the narrow aisle alone. I know the one where Xu Yi often stayed. The small computer room is at the top of this aisle. As I approached there, I seemed to hear a voice. Together with Xu Yi (3) I hesitated and stopped for a while, then walked forward involuntarily. I stood by the door for a moment, raised my hand and knocked on the door.Xu Yi's voice came from inside: "Who is it?" I didn't make a sound. He quickly opened the door.The moment he saw me, he was flustered.Quickly asked me: "Why did you come back?" and tried to block my sight with her body.I looked inside and saw a figure sitting in the dark, wearing red trousers and long hair like seaweed. I couldn't see her face clearly. I can't stop the nausea. "Li Er!" Xu Yi grabbed my hand and said, "Don't think about it." I angrily pushed him away. When I turned to leave, I heard the girl laughing proudly behind me.The sound pierced my eardrums and pierced my heart like a knife. Game Over. The door slammed shut behind me, but Xu Yi didn't catch up. During the May Day holiday, I went to Lijiang in Yunnan alone. When I stood on Sifang Street, listened to the sound of camel bells and looked at the high and far sky of Lijiang, I felt relaxed, as if I had lost a layer of skin and grown like yesterday. Le Er and Be Le Er are completely different from the past. I like to believe that growing up is a good thing. Love sank to the bottom of the sea. The love I thought I would stick to for the rest of my life turned into a ridiculous wound that I didn't even want to face. Xu Yi disappeared and no longer entered my life.Although we are still in the same city, there is no further news. Maybe he has already forgotten me, and I am trying to forget him, that's fine. I changed my phone number and no one knows my new phone number except my family and Utah.You Ta didn't know about my broken love, because he would send greetings to Xu Yi occasionally when he received a short message.I hardly ever surf the Internet anymore. The news in the newspaper said that blogs have become popular, and many celebrities have their own blogs, but mine is deserted. When I was sitting in a small shop by the water in the ancient city of Lijiang, eating a corn cob, I suddenly saw a familiar figure. He was wearing a peaked cap and carrying a big bag, and he was alone.I quickly buried my head on the table, my heart beating rapidly. He didn't see me. Also, I'm not sure it must be him. Everything is just a dream.And I have long been accustomed to accepting the emptiness and cruelty of dreams. I went back to the little inn, and while I was resting in bed, there was a knock at the door. I opened it, and was surprised to find it was him.It was really him, so I really read it right. "Little Ear." He said, "It really is you." "How did you find me?" I asked tremblingly. "I saw you, so I followed you all the way," he said. I smile and let him in.The small room, his tall stature, seems to have to be slightly hunched.I asked him to sit down and gave him a Coke I bought.He shook his hand and asked me, "Alone?" I nod. "Don't let your boyfriend accompany you?" he said. I shake my head. He smiled: "It's very nice here, let's go climbing the snow mountain together tomorrow, shall we?" "Okay, okay." I finally nodded this time. At night, Lijiang began to rain lightly, and the shadows of people and lights flowed, which was so beautiful that it was beyond words.Zhang Yang was sitting beside me, holding an umbrella for me, we looked like a couple.Perhaps it was disturbed by the rain, the lights, and the high-pitched low-pitched singing from the lakeside that night. Both Zhang Yang and I drank a little more. The rain finally stopped, and the moon swam out. On my shoulder, he said softly, "little ear, turn your head and look at me." I turned my head so he could see my blushing face. "Let me ask you a question." Zhang Yang said, "Do you like me a little bit?" I grinned. "Don't laugh." Zhang Yang said, "Answer me honestly." I pointed to my left ear, opened my mouth, and signaled to him that I couldn't hear. He suddenly approached my right ear and said loudly to me: "Little ear, do you like me a little bit?" My mind went blank. I still didn't answer his question after all, but he didn't push me to answer either.When we walked back to the inn together, he bought me a beautiful shawl, and I put it on my shoulders, and walked silently behind him.At this moment his phone rang, he stopped to answer it, I continued walking, I heard him yelling into the phone: "I told you not to call, it's useless if you call again!" ... I walked farther and farther, and I could no longer hear the words behind. When I went back to the inn to pack my things and make my bed ready to go to bed, Zhang Yang knocked on the door, put his backpack on his back, and said to me in a heavy tone: "I'm sorry, little ear, I'm afraid you have to play by yourself , I received a call saying that my father was ill and I had to rush back." I worriedly asked: "It's so late, how do we go?" "I can do it." He stroked my hair and said, "Be good, take care of yourself, don't be unhappy." After speaking, he left. I closed the door and wept uncontrollably again. Together with Xu Yi (4) That night, because I was worried about Zhang Yang, I couldn't sleep all night.Early the next morning, I called to ask where he was, if he had managed to get home, and how his father was doing, but no one answered the phone all the time, and then turned off the phone altogether.At night, I was worried, so I called again, but a girl answered, she asked me who I was, and I said I was Zhang Yang's friend. She said, "Are you Li Er?" I said: "Yes." "I'm Jiang Jiao, Zhang Yang's girlfriend." She said, "I know you are You Ta's little cousin, we met before." "Oh." I said. "He quarreled with me a few days ago, so he ran to Lijiang, but now he is fine." Jiang Jiao said, "He is very tired and sleeping, so it is inconvenient for me to wake him up. Come to Beijing to play when you have time. " "Okay." I said lightly. Back in Shanghai, I went to a small shop near the train station and changed my phone card. In fact, I don't have to be afraid of anything, but in fact, I am also afraid of something.So, it's okay to change. How can there be any real love in this world, or that sentence, stability in this world is the best. When I opened the door of the dormitory, I found that everyone in the dormitory looked at me with strange eyes. I touched my face and said, "What's wrong with me?" "Didn't you... have an accident in Lijiang?" "I... have an accident?" They look at me, I look at you, let me ask Lin. I rushed to the library, and Lin was lending books to others standing in the library desk. Seeing me, she rushed out of the library desk, hugged me and looked up and down: "Are you okay, are you okay?" , Li Er? You scared me to death." "What's wrong?" I said. "Xu Yi said that you were in a car accident in Lijiang and you were critically ill. Isn't that true?" My brain was buzzing.It took me a long time to ask, "How much did you borrow from him?" "Seven thousand dollars," Lin said, "all my savings." I hugged Lynn, trembling all over. I decided to find Xu Yi.I need to make it clear to him.I took the subway for a long time and walked a long way to their school.I was thinking along the way, when I saw him, how should I tell him, how to say the words of reproach to the person I loved deeply, but I really have no idea.I saw Xu Yi at their school gate, he was standing there waiting for me, the early summer wind was blowing gently, blowing the hair on his forehead, his appearance broke my heart. He saw me and didn't take the initiative to approach.I approached him like a dream, and he reached out to hug me.I pushed him away, he continued to hug me, I told him to get out loudly, he hugged me, tears streaming down, he said: "Li Er, don't do this, I know I'm sorry for you, I'm really in pain." "What's wrong with you?" I asked him, "Why on earth?" "My father was released from prison. He said he was wronged by others. He pestered me all day, I was really annoyed, you know, Li Er, I miss you, don't leave me. I miss you every day thinking of you." My heart softened in an instant, shrinking and disappearing in the air like marshmallows that have been baked for a long time. "He didn't work after he came out, and I was very tired, really tired." Xu Yi hugged me tightly, "Li Er, I know you are the best to me, I finally understand now." I gently pushed him away: "Don't be like this, this is at the school gate, let's find a place to talk slowly?" "Okay." His eyes lit up. He and I went to the park near the school, where we used to read books together and laugh at the stone benches, but the feelings I held on to in the past are long gone, and I know they will never come back. "Why did you lie to Lin?" I asked him straightforwardly. "It's not because of my father." He said, "He came to Shanghai to find me. He wanted to stay in Shanghai to work. His old friends ignored him. He got nothing. Later, he was hit by a car and broke his calf. In the hospital, a lot of money is needed, I can’t raise it, I can’t…” "Enough!" I didn't believe what he said at all, I interrupted him, "The story you made up can be used in a TV series. Xu Yi, do you know what I can't stand the most, it's lies! Lies!" His face was pale: "Could it be that I am such a person in your heart?" I gritted my teeth and said, "Yes." He suddenly smiled and said, "That's fine, you won't be in pain anymore." I continued to grit my teeth and said, "Yes, I won't." After finishing speaking, I left the park without looking back. The days passed like this day by day. On Christmas night, there was a performance in the sports center. Lin did not know where to buy a lot of light sticks and the like at a low price, and insisted on pulling me to sell them together.The snow that had been hesitating for a day finally fell, and with one click, it filled the sky.I stood at the gate of the stadium holding a lot of colorful sticks, and saw a very familiar face on the huge poster, wearing a red dress, smiling brightly, with her name written next to it: Jiang Yaxi. Jiang Yaxi? Together with Xu Yi (5) Lin shouted loudly beside me: "Light stick, support your idol. Telescope, see your idol clearly! Light stick, support your idol. Telescope, see your idol clearly! Light stick, support your idol. Telescope , see your idol clearly!" Seeing me staring at the poster in a daze, she pulled me and said, "What's wrong, Li Er?" I pointed to the poster and said, "I think I recognize her." "You mean Jiang Yaxi?" Lin said, "No way, she went to the bar last night, didn't you still say you didn't know her?" I said, "I think she's my school friend." "No way." Lin said, "She's been very popular recently, and her newly released album is selling well. I heard that she grew up in Hong Kong. How could she be your alumni?" I turned my head to look at the poster again, studying the delicate face with makeup on it.It's just that the snow is getting bigger and bigger, blocking my sight.Lin excitedly picked up the things in her two hands. Those colorful things were shining attractively in the snow. Lin was in a good mood, shaking them and said: "Look at me, the performance is good. You Hurry up! This Christmas is really exciting, Li Er, let's sneak in and watch the show later." "We don't have tickets," I said. Lin blinked: "Trust me, I can do it." Lin really has the ability to reach the sky. She made a phone call and chatted with people. A quarter of an hour after the concert started, a short man came out and successfully connected us into the stadium, which was still the infield. As soon as I entered, I saw her. She was singing and dancing vigorously on the stage, and the fans in the audience waved the light sticks in their hands, screaming one after another. In all honesty, she sang really well. After a song, the scene fell silent.She smiled and said, "Next, I will sing a song that you like, which is also my famous song. It is different from the one just now. This is a very quiet and sad song..." Before she finished speaking, the people in the audience were already shouting in unison: "The Shooting Star at the Age of Eighteen!" "Yes." She said, ""The Shooting Star at Eighteen Years Old" is for everyone. I hope you like it. On this snowy Christmas, Yaxi wishes everyone a sweet love." She calls herself Yashi. In the audience, her fan group held a sign with her photo and started shouting loudly again: "Yashi Yashi, we love you, Yashi Yashi, always number one!" She smiled brightly.The light shone on her young face, and she was blindingly beautiful.Lin shook my hand, and pulled me towards the front of the stage: "Let's go up and have a look, and see if it's your alumni! If it's true, get an autograph!" I couldn't help but follow her. Walking forward, the lights on the stage suddenly dimmed, and countless shooting stars flashed on the background board of the stage. She sat on the steps and began to sing softly: When I was eighteen years old, I saw a shooting star. It whispered to me There is no eternity in the world of love My beloved boy is by my side He gently kissed my face and said love I will never change No one can tell us forever How far it is I don’t know when we will not be together Believe in everlasting promises Time will engrave oblivion into our palms Eyes can't see running water drops can't pass through it can't pass through tomorrow won't be far away Now it's quiet and many years have passed I think of the wish I made on the shooting star My beloved boy has long been Is it not as beautiful as yesterday before tears are shed by my side? Together with Xu Yi (6) No one can tell us forever How far it is I can't remember the day we stopped believing in the everlasting promise The years will engrave oblivion into our palms Eyes can't see the water drops I can't pass through it I can't get through it Tomorrow will not be far away How should I tell you, my love, I have not forgotten, I always remember the shooting star at the age of eighteen, it kissed my face, and under the leadership of Lin, I have unknowingly walked to the place closest to the stage.I think I see it clearly, I think I will never be wrong, the girl singing on the stage, she is indeed my alumnus, Zhang Yang's girlfriend, her name is Jiang Jiao.She is famous in school because her family is very rich, and I think every student in heaven will know her. It was very hot in the stadium.Lin took off her coat a long time ago, but I wrapped it tighter. I lowered my head and told Lin that I was not feeling well and I had to go back first.Lin touched my forehead and said, "My God, Li Er, you don't have a fever again, do you?" I forced myself to smile: "Why? I just slept too late last night and couldn't hold on anymore. Take your time here and don't worry about me." Lin said worriedly: "It's okay, but, I can't accompany you back, I have to return those unsold goods later." "It's fine," I said, "I can go by myself." When I left the stadium, I looked back at Jiang Jiao on the stage again, oh no, it should be Jiang Yaxi.She wears a long purple dress and slightly curly long hair, like a noble princess.But I dare not look at the crowd shouting for her under the stage, I am afraid that I will see so-and-so, some past events, there is no need to mention them anymore.At this moment, I saw a person rushing to the stage to offer flowers, he hugged Jiang Jiao, and gently kissed her face amidst the screams of fans. Lin turned around and looked back for me, and I ran away quickly. The person who presented the flowers was Xu Yi. That Spring Festival, I returned home. Uta came to pick me up at the station. He was wearing a yellow coat and looked like a cute bear. He took my heavy luggage for me, and then he said, "Why are you so thin again?" "I don't want to be fat." I said angrily. "Where is Xu Yi?" He looked behind me, "Why didn't you come back with you? I heard that his father was released from prison and resumed his official position." "We broke up." I said. "Really?" He looked in disbelief. "We broke up a year ago." I said. His expression is strange. When we got home, we found that my aunt and the others were all there.As soon as the door opened, mom and dad rushed up to hug me, making me don't know which one to hug.I took off the outer coat, and my mother's eyes were red immediately, and she choked up in front of everyone and said, "Why are you so thin, did you not eat well at school?" "I don't get fat just by eating anything." I quickly explained. "I don't go home during the summer vacation, and I work all day long!" My father also scolded me, "Look at you, a girl with a family, and she hasn't loved her family yet!" "That's right." My aunt also booed, "At least I will make more calls at home in the future. It's not like your parents can't afford the phone bill!" Yuta laughed gleefully at the side.Seeing all the guns and short guns coming at me, I quickly changed the subject: "I'm hungry, do I have anything to eat? I didn't eat anything on the train." I ate a lot that night, but Yuta, who was always good at eating, ate very little. I hated him for looking at me with worried eyes. I hated him so much, so after dinner, I chatted with my aunt and the others. After a while, I excused being tired and went back to my room.Not long after, my mother knocked on the door and said to me, "Let's go for a walk with your father, and drop off your aunt and uncle by the way." "Okay." I said, "Come back soon." "If you're tired, take a bath and go to bed early." "Ok." I said. I saw Utah through the crack of the door, already putting on his ugly yellow overcoat, changing his shoes with his back to me.I yelled over, "Youta, buy the fireworks. Let's go to the square to set off during the Chinese New Year." He just seemed to answer with a muffled hum in his nose, and walked away with them. They were all gone, and the house fell silent.I sat on the sofa in the living room and looked around. This three-bedroom house represented my entire teenage years. I remember when we moved in. It was my fourteenth birthday. The whole family was so happy. I wore My little white dress is lying on the windowsill of my cabin, and I feel like I have started to own a whole new world, smug and content. Together with Xu Yi (7) Those days are gone forever.The pure self at that time was just a green imprint in my memory.Just as I was trying to pull myself out of this shameful contemplation, the doorbell rang.I got up and went to open the door, and the person standing outside the door was Yuta. This is what I expected. "When I was changing my shoes just now, I forgot my phone on the shoe cabinet," he said. I silently let him in. He took the phone in his hand, stared at me and said, "Li Er, you are completely different from before, do you know that?" "Really?" I said, "Maybe." "I don't like seeing you like this," he emphasized. "No one forced you to watch." I also stared at him and said calmly, "There is no need for you to be so angry." He slapped the mobile phone in his hand back on the shoe cabinet, and shouted at me: "Look at your current appearance, isn't it just a lovelorn? Even if Xu Yi owes you, who else owes you?" Is it your father, your mother, or those of us who always make you hate and always feel redundant?! Li Er, let me tell you, if you feel that the pain is only your own business, if you feel that it is tormenting you You are only concerned with yourself, then you are wrong, you are very wrong!" After Yuta finished yelling at me, he opened the door and left resolutely. His phone blinks on the shoe cabinet.He forgot to take it with him again.I walked over, took the phone, turned it on, and I saw a flowery smiling face on the screen saver of his phone.It was taken from a photograph.That was me at fourteen.That's me in Utah's memory.That's me who is ignorant of the world, unaware of customs, and has no secrets, cute and transparent. But now, everything is different. Utah, silly boy, we can't go back. On New Year's Eve, I found You Ta in the square. He was setting off fireworks seriously with a group of unknown children.I walked up to him, and greeted him with a smile like a long-lost old friend: "Hi." "Hi." He laughed like a child, and then handed me a firework stick. "I heard from my aunt that you are going abroad after graduation?" "That's the plan," he said. "Thank you." I said. "Thank me for what?" He didn't understand. "Thank you for caring about me." I said. "Don't say that, you are my sister. Can I not care about you?" “尤他。”我说，“答应我，不管如何，你都要好好的。” 他看着我说：“我会的。你呢？” 我努力笑着说：“我也会的。” “状元哥哥，状元哥哥，”一个小男孩过来拉他，“快过来，最大的烟花，等你来点，快哦快哦，我们都快等不及啦。” 我微笑，示意他快去。 尤他问：“李珥你来吗？” 我摇摇头：“我还是站远远地看好啦。” 尤他被小孩子们拉走了。我看着地上，是他买的一大堆的烟花棒，我意念一动，抱起其中的一小捆，朝着郊外走去。 那条路还是一如既往的黑，潮湿。我走得飞快，目的明确，像是去赴一场非赴不可的约会。我感谢我脚下轻便的跑鞋，它让我有像飞一样的错觉。我怀抱着我的烟花，做旧的一年最后一天最后一小时里最最任性的孩子。 我很快到了那里。那个废弃的房子，那个记忆中梦中无数次出现的屋顶，像童话里的堡垒充满了诱惑，甚至闪着金光。我把烟花塞进大衣里，熟门熟路地爬了上去。等我在屋顶上站定，我惊讶地发现，前方有一颗红色的忽明忽暗的，像星星一样的东西在闪烁。我打了一个冷战，不过我很快就明白过来，那是烟头！有人在上面抽烟！我吓得往后退了一步，一个熟悉的声音在我的耳边响起：“小耳朵，你终于来了。” 然后，那个人站起身来，他迅疾地走到我面前，一把抱住了如被施了魔法一般动也不能动的我。 是张漾！It's him! 有一瞬间，我想推开他，但他有力的手臂让我不得动弹，我感觉到他怀里的温度，他的身子紧紧地贴着我的，唇滑到我的左边脸颊，然后辗转到我的左耳。我听见他问：“能听见我说话吗？” 我说不出话来，只能点头。 他说：“那就好，你知道吗，医学专家证明，甜言蜜语，一定要讲给左耳听。如果你听不见，我就带你去治病，哪怕用一辈子的时间，我也非要治好你不可。” “张漾……”我喊他。 “不许动。”他说，“乖乖地听我说话。” 我浑身发抖，我预感到他要说什么，我感觉我就要昏过去了，这突如其来的幸福让我无法抗拒也不想抗拒。 然后，我的左耳清楚地听见他说：“我爱你，小耳朵。” “我爱你，小耳朵！”他再次大声地喊，喊完后，他把我高高地举了起来，我怀里的烟花散落一地，在我尖叫声里，世界变成了一个巨大的游乐场。我看到不远处，烟火已经照亮了整座城市，每颗星星都发出太阳一样神奇的光茫，而我期待已久的幸福，我知道它终于轰然来临。 吧啦，亲爱的，你看见了吗？ 尾声：一首歌 他们都说我们的爱情不会有好的结局而我一直没放弃努力当今年春天飘起最后一场冰冷的雨有一些故事不得不写下最后的痕迹那些关于我们之间的秘密就让它藏进心底再也不用跟别人提起他们都说左耳听见的，都是甜言蜜语左耳的爱情遗失在风里谁会怜惜你要相信我不会离去我一直在这里用左耳听见左耳听见这消失的爱情左耳听见左耳听见这不朽的传奇左耳听见左耳听见你没有离去你还在这里你从不曾离去你一直在这里守着我们的过去