Chapter 13 Article Thirteen

166 Li Wei wanted to sniff Beng Beng, a girl in the management class one level below us when he was a junior. Beng Beng is slender and has a lively personality. , the two started fighting openly and secretly for Bengbeng. Jiao Fan saved his meal ticket and bought a copy of "Selected Poems of Xi Murong" as a gift for Beng Beng. Li Wei's solution was to lend Beng Beng "Confessions of a Century Son" and read some touching lyrical passages to her. Li Wei failed in the first round, because Beng Beng didn't like reading novels, she only liked poetry. Li Wei really worked hard to save the failure. He bought four copies of "Selected Poems of Xi Murong", and finally proved that Jiao Fan bought a pirated copy In the book, there is only one poem by Chief Murong.

The new round of competition is that Li Wei plays basketball with Beng Beng at noon, and Jiao Fan’s solution is to ask Beng Beng to go swimming in Yuyuantan by bicycle. At first, Beng Beng went on both dates, until one day, Li Wei stretched out his hands to meet Beng Beng. A ball was thrown to him. Unfortunately, the ball slipped between his hands and hit him on the nose, knocking off Li Wei's glasses worth 18 yuan, and Li Wei's glasses broke on the concrete floor of the basketball court. Li Wei turned a blind eye to the glasses that fell on the ground, but stared at Bengbeng with affectionate myopia, but in Bengbeng's eyes, his eyes were fierce. From then on, Bengbeng never played basketball with Li Wei again, but she When Jiao Fan asked her to swim, he met Li Wei. Li Wei couldn't swim, but he still brought a pair of swimming trunks. The three of them came to the lake and changed their clothes. Jiao Fan jumped into the water with a "plop" He tried his best to swim to the opposite bank, and when he came back half an hour later, he realized that he had miscalculated. Li Wei and Beng Beng were sitting on the bank hand in hand, chatting vigorously, and they ignored Jiao Fanli.

So, Jiao Fan fell out of love. This situation was later told to me by Li Wei and Beng Beng after they talked about it. I didn’t know it at the time. At noon, I was packing up in the dormitory. Jiao Fan said to me angrily: "What kind of love is it? Don't you just want to fuck each other!" Anyway, he was dark and thick, but at the moment he was very emotional, and when he waved his big hand, he was so aggressive that I had to dodge it. When Jiao Fan was distressed, it was also the day when Li Wei was distressed. In Li Wei's later words: "The incident between the two of us caused a lot of trouble in the city. The teacher even talked to me. Our relationship is also tense and loose. It’s too much for me, so I won’t mention it.” He also waved his hand, and after thinking about it, he said, “It’s like constipation!”

He stopped there and said no more. 167 After Li Wei and Beng Beng broke up, he read Tang poetry. He said it was to calm his mind, but I didn’t see it. One day I went to his dormitory to look for him. I went to class, and because I got up late, I didn't want to enter the classroom halfway, so I went to their dormitory to hang out. I knew that he didn't go to class for a while, and he was hiding in the dormitory reciting Tang poems. When Li Wei saw me coming in, he made a strange look at me. I didn't understand what he meant, so I asked, "What's the matter?" "Another satyr found."

"Who is it?" "Wei Yingwu." "What's wrong with Wei Yingwu?" "It's hidden really deep. But I still picked him out. Listen to the name of this Tang Dynasty poet——Wei Hard Things——that's powerful enough." Li Wei shook the book in his hand to me. "Tell me what's the matter?" After he said this, I became more and more curious. "I've read this song "Chuzhou Xijian" before, why didn't I see it?" He said to himself without looking at me. I took the book from him and flipped through it: "I didn't see it either."

He snatched the book back from my hand and said: "You should pity the grass that grows by the side of the stream, and the Huang Peng sings deep in the trees. The spring tide brings rain and comes late, and the wild crossing is unmanned. It's the whole sex thing, get it?" I see. 168 A person's head looks like a question mark from the side. Some people think that the bigger the space is, the smarter the person is. From this point of view, Xu Guozhu must be a very smart person, because his head looks like two question marks from the side. , but some people say that his neck is too thin and too long, so his head looks like a duck pear with a handle placed upside down on his shoulders.Li Wei was the one who said this, because Li Wei had a very good relationship with him when he was a freshman, and he was a bit of a personality worshiper of Li Wei. I'm talking about Li Wei's golden years. At that time, as long as it involved reading Li Wei is a well-deserved authority in the whole school, except for textbooks, of course.

When everyone started talking about Sartre, Li Wei already believed that most of the things in "Being and Nothingness" were copied from Heidegger. When everyone knew Heidegger, Li Wei was promoting Freud's psychoanalysis, When everyone was reading and asked each other whether dreaming of grass represented a desire for pubic hair, Li Wei had already seen post-colonialism.Feminist rights, when someone just wants to chat with Li Wei about the above issues, Li Wei has already opened his mouth and closed his mouth to be post-modern. When someone finds a new book, Li Weiwei says that he has read it after hearing the title of the book, and then casually mentions the writer's friend It is a certain writer, the chick he has practiced, the restaurant he loves to go to, the other books he has written, what he is doing now if he is alive, and what his children are doing now. The people who want to chat with him about literature are far behind. Li Weiyun can only follow suit. There are many followers behind him. Xu Guozhu is one of them. At that time, Xu Guozhu and Li Wei lived in the same dormitory. While smoking and reading, Wei Wei asked Li Wei, "What is truth?"

Li Wei immediately replied: "Useless is beautiful." The next day, Xu Guozhu asked Li Wei to tell him another truth. At that time, Li Wei was half asleep, turned over and said: "Many men have erections in the morning, and some have erections in the evening. People who don't get erections in the morning and evening are called Bubka. " From then on, Xu Guozhu insisted on asking Li Wei for a truth every day with unquenchable enthusiasm. When Li Wei was in a good mood, he chatted with him for a long time, and when he was in a bad mood, he would casually say, "If you want to avoid being annoying when you have bad breath, you'd better not Talking in someone's nose" get over it.

At the end of his freshman year, Xu Guozhu was expelled for failing four subjects. Before leaving, Li Wei gave him the last truth: "Knowing most of the truth is not good." Then waved Xu Guozhu to board the bus bound for the train station, and Xu Guozhu disappeared without a trace. Not long after Xu Guozhu left, the school magazine was closed for various reasons, and then the last poetry club in the school was also closed. Now, when Li Wei wants to bring the topic from French chicks to Foucault or Roland Barthes, someone will immediately answer—Who has fucked the most French ladies, Foucault or Roland Barthes?

This is the history of Li Wei's rise and fall in our school. 169 In the autumn of last year, I sat on the balcony leaning on the railing and looked into the distance, imagining that when I was old, I would face groups of girls coming towards me. I passed by, and I couldn't help but feel sad. Such thoughts cannot be shared with Alai. Alai quarreled with me a few days ago because I agreed to learn English with her, but it stopped automatically after three days. Alai piled up TOEFL listening, words, phrases, grammar, etc. The tape was slapped in the drawer for a while, and finally said to me: "You just play your "Tetris" and see what happens in the future."

I continued to play, and said in a low voice: "What do you care about me, my result is Tetris, I am Tetris! Okay? If you don't like it, you can think about it differently. Don't be in my tree. hanged from a tree." Although the voice was small, Alai still heard it. She stood less than one meter away from me for ten seconds, motionless. Then, she nervously packed her schoolbag, and strode towards me, Standing angrily, after a while, she suddenly let out a long sigh, relaxed all over, sat down on the bed opposite to me, discouraged him and said: "Let's stop arguing, I will never ask you to learn English again." I said, "I will never promise you to learn this or that again." As soon as the words came out, Alai sighed again and bowed his head in silence. I put my hand around Alai's waist, Alai's waist is soft, and the thin leather belt is slippery and cool in my hand.Alai pressed against me, her body was still a little stiff at first, but soon became soft. She reached out and brushed my hair a few times, and pointed at the TV screen: "You are dead." On the TV screen, cubes of various shapes fell all the way to the top. That night, Alai and I were sitting on the bed. Alai was eating sunflower seeds while reading a book called "The Sunflower Seeds" in the other hand. The melon seeds were bought from the free market and fried by farmers themselves, so her fingertips were clean. It's Hei Yin'er.Alai's way of eating melon seeds is different. Instead of eating one by one, she puts the melon seeds into her mouth one by one. Drum, when the drum reached a certain level, Alai picked up a piece of waste paper, spit the melon rind on it, and then slowly chewed off the flesh of the melon seeds. I reminded her many times that this method was unhygienic, and Alai answered every time. Gui promised to do what she should do, and when I mentioned it, she said, "Oh, I forgot!" Then she spit out what was in her mouth, went to the kitchen and rinsed her mouth while spitting, and as time passed, I stopped talking. , not only did not say, I also changed to her way of eating, the advantage is obvious - fast. I lay on the side of Ah Cai and read another book "Shackles of Human Nature" written by Maugham. Alai, she read dozens of pages and then threw it aside. She read it endlessly, and she didn't know how many times she read it. Looking at it, Alai suddenly remembered something and pushed me. I turned my head, she smiled at me and said, "I did something sorry for you, and I want to tell you today." I looked at her and waited for the next article. Alai stopped talking and went on reading. I put the "Shackles of Human Nature" on her book and motioned her to continue. Alai had no choice but to put down the book, smiled at me, and said, "I just thought of it occasionally. It's funny. Do you still remember that time when I went to the lab to watch Spanish Film Week, when I was a freshman? We hadn't even slept at that time." After thinking about it, I could only shake my head, my memory was blank. "It was that time, when you and Hua Yang drew movie tickets in my dormitory..." she reminds me. I really can't remember. Alai saw that I was confused, so he stopped questioning me and continued, "That time I bought a pack of pistachios in front of our house with all I had, and then went to school to find you, and ate more than half of it along the way." After the meeting, I simply didn’t take it out. After the movie ended, you didn’t know where to eat, so I went back to school by car and ate up the remaining half on the bus.” "That's all?" "That's all." Alai took the book and began to read it. The only sound left in the room was the sound of children turning pages and A Cai cracking melon seeds. Before going to sleep, Alai said to me, "I feel like a fucking married woman right now." "Really?" I asked. Allie fell asleep. 170 In my senior year, I don’t know why all the teachers in class are very young, three or four years older than us, and they may be younger than me in terms of smoking age, but they are especially annoying to me. During class, the young male teacher's eyes fell from one girl to another, carefully scrutinizing the big bumps on their faces, imagining where to avoid kissing?See if their looks are decent, whether they are tall or not, and whether they match themselves?Is the width of the marrow bone conducive to the birth of bad seeds like him?Look at the size of their breasts, pretend to touch them unintentionally to test whether they are soft or hard, guess the length of the nipples, the color depth, whether the buttocks are upturned or downturned when walking?Is the pubic bone protruding or concave?Then compare this girl with that one... In short, they are busy enough!So usually their eyes flicker in class, look left and right, talk nonsense, because all the time saved is spent thinking about who to dance at the dance, which one is suitable for bed, and which one is good. Take the opportunity of making up lessons to turn her into his wife. Young female teachers know very well that male students cannot be their reliance, but this does not prevent them from showing off and showing off their cleverness. At school, whenever I saw this group of people, I would greet them with smiles on my face and say "Hello, teacher", and after passing by, I would turn around and wave and mutter "Fuck your mother" softly to show off. 171 In November, the first school-wide football league was staged since the school. The reason was that the frenzy after the end of the World Cup last year continued unabated. At that time, the students in the school might not know how many courses he had this semester, but like Matt The names of Us and the like were reported so frequently that even Liu Lixin, the ugliest girl in our class, would say: "I don't like Maradona, his legs are too short." Our class played a total of three games and lost every game. When the last game was 3-0, Li Wei was pushed a somersault in the opponent's penalty area and was awarded a penalty kick. Our class scored 4 in the first two games. Lost to 0 and 5 to 0, if the opponent scored a goal in this game, it can be regarded as a goal. At that time, Li Weixiong stood about 20 meters away from the ball and started to run. I and a few other students were sweating profusely Standing not far away, I saw that Li Wei rushed to the ball like a gust of wind under the cheers of the six girls in my class, and flew up. The ball did not move, but Li Wei kicked empty. Falling to the ground caused a burst of laughter. When Li Wei was carried off the field, he yelled at me: "Let Zhou Wen punish me, let Zhou Wen punish me, fuck them!" After the pass, he aimed at the upper left corner of the goal and kicked hard. The opponent's goalkeeper jumped up after the ball entered the net and fell to the ground. I don't know what it means. The game continued, and Li Wei came back on the field. Our team had just scored a goal, and our team was very popular. Two minutes before the end of the game, we organized another attack. After kicking out of the penalty area, two figures appeared from the crowd. Upon closer inspection, it was actually Jiao Fan and Li Wei. The ball was at Li Wei's feet. After running not far away, Li Wei was overtaken by an opponent. Li Wei passed the ball Give it to Jiao Fan, and continue to run forward. After Jiao Fan got the ball, all the opponents rushed towards him. At that time, he had already run in front of the opponent's goal. Li Wei shouted at him: "Pass back, pass back!" But Jiao Fan kicked the ball towards the goal in a panic, with a beautiful posture, a bit like the Dutch star Gullit, but unfortunately the ball just flew out of bounds. As a result of the game, our class lost the last game 3-1. After the game, Li Wei yelled at Jiao Fan, saying one by one, "You can't conspire with me!" "What do you mean?" Jiao Fan was puzzled. "Just don't mess with idiots." I replied for Li Wei. 172 In mid-November 1990, the weather was sunny and cloudless. Not long after the football wind passed, our school’s business wind was already hopeless. When I was staying, every night, there were students from our school pushing the door into the room late at night. Asking if anyone buys socks and the like makes people feel uneasy. There is a classmate in our class named Sun Bing, who has never had any contact with me. I don’t know when he changed his seat and moved next to me. His characteristic is his stinky feet, and he was very famous at that time. There is a song dedicated to him. Now I only remember one sentence, which is called "If you pull the shoelaces, you will fall down". There are a lot of inconveniences in being next to him in class, but there is also an advantage—you can read novels calmly below, because the teacher usually frowns suddenly when he walks one meter away from us, and leaves in a hurry. step. I was in the dormitory when I was pestered by a low-level classmate for half an hour. In desperation, I bought a pair of deodorant insoles for 4 yuan. I gave them to him as soon as I started class the next day. Knowing that he will not accept it.At that time, I was attending "Architecture", and the stench was gushing out from the edge of his nylon socks, which made me confused. Knowing that this person doesn't appreciate it, it took me a long time to figure it out. He thought I was selling to him! In the end I had to stick out a finger. "A dollar?" he asked. "One cent." I replied. He immediately took the insole over, took out a box of "Golden Flowers" from his pocket, and took out two of them and handed them to me: "Let's settle the matter." The effect of the deodorant insoles lasted for about two weeks. After that, Sun Bing relapsed again; the disease recurred every day, and I often ran away. One day, I was stopped by him at the door of the dormitory. He stuffed 10 yuan into my hand, and then He hesitated and said, "Can you get me 100 pairs of insoles?" 173 In the cold and windy December, Hua Yang said to me after returning to the dormitory at noon, "I'm breaking up with you." "Who?" I didn't respond. "Xin Xiaoye." "Really? Haven't you broken it several times?" "It's really broken this time." I said "Oh", and then looked at a Go book in my hand. "Zhou Wen." He called me. "what?" "It's nothing." After Hua Yang said, he tidied up his scattered things on the bed. I got up and asked his busy figure, "Would you like something to drink?" Hua Yang's movements stopped in mid-air for a moment, then he turned around, sat in front of my bed, brushed his long hair back with his hands, and then sighed: "Forget it." I don't know if he said forget about drinking or forget with Xin Xiaoye. "What are you doing this afternoon?" "fine." "Want to play pool?" Hua Yang thought for a moment: "Let's go." I got up from the bed, put on my shoes, put on a jacket, and put on a scarf. I left the dormitory with Hua Yang, went to the school gate, took a taxi, and went straight to Chongwenmen. We played for two hours. Hua Yang He is distracted, the ball he hits is erratic, and the ball in the mouth of the pocket can also be hit by him. I see him playing like this, and he doesn’t feel emotionally affected, and he is not serious. Sometimes it takes five or six shots to hit a ball. Come in, just like that, we closed the show, walked out and walked to the Huashi Cinema to see what movies were available, and came across a boring domestic movie, thinking about it, there was nowhere else to go, so I went to the window to buy tickets, I wanted to pay , Hua Yang rushed forward and paid first.When we entered the door together, Hua Yang turned to me and said, "The first time I saw Alai was under that tree." I looked back at the tree, and the leaves were bare, swaying from side to side in the cold wind , the litter box under the tree was full of rubbish. The movie had already started for a quarter of an hour when we entered the theater. We found two empty seats in the last row where we entered the door. After watching it for less than 5 minutes, we both stood up and walked back to the lounge, where we each smoked a cigarette. Yan, then bit the bullet again and entered the arena, and walked out after watching for a while, looking at each other helplessly. We walked out of the cinema, turned left and found a small restaurant, sat in it and drank a couple of baijiu before we settled down. We sat on the seats not far from the door. When the cold wind came in, it swept past us first, so it was very uncomfortable. After drinking another glass of white wine, we stood up and left.At this time, it was rush hour, and the streets were crowded with people, traffic was rolling, and hawkers were constantly hawking.After the movie ended, more people flooded into the street. Hua Yang and I stood there hesitating for a while, not knowing what to do. Suddenly I remembered a girl I knew before who lives very close to here, her name is Xiang Pei.I used to work as a waiter in the karaoke bar where we sang. I told Hua Yang that he also remembered that once a group of us took a taxi home and sent them off one by one. Among them was Xiang Pei. Hua Yang and I I vaguely remember walking along the road, searching while guessing, and stopped in front of a compound with a vermilion door frame. I went in and knocked on a door with a portrait of Andy Lau on the glass. The door opened in response, and it was Xiang who came out. train. "I didn't expect you to be here. It's really difficult to handle." I said. "What do you mean? Come in." Xiang Pei was quite generous and let us in. "Why do you think of me?" She closed the door and looked at us both suspiciously. "We stood at the gate of Huashi Cinema, and we immediately thought of you." Hua Yang said. "Where are your parents?" I glanced at the empty room. "I moved away, just moved for a week, and I haven't had time to clean up here; don't stand, sit, don't sit on that sofa, it's a trap, sit in it for a long time before you can climb out." Hua Yang and I walked to the bed together, and sat down together, Xiang Pei couldn't help laughing out loud. I said, "This is an aimless visit. Look, I'm going to faint as soon as I come in." "I'll pour you some water to drink." Xiang Pei walked to the corner, took a thermos bottle to a small table not far from us, found two glasses, poured two glasses of water into them and brought them over. "Are you still in school?" "Ah." Hua Yang answered. We each took a sip of water from a glass, feeling a little embarrassed and regretting our intrusion, but it didn't seem appropriate to say "ah, we're leaving" and leave.So they chatted without talking. Hua Yang asked: "What are you still doing in the karaoke hall?" "It's not in the previous karaoke hall, it's a new one." "Where is it?" Xiang Pei didn't talk to us, but asked us, "Are you still singing?" I pointed to Hua Yang: "He still sings, in the International Trade Cafe, you can ask him to play if you have nothing to do." "I haven't been to China World Trade Center yet." "Let's go together later, I'll treat you to a free coffee, shall I?" "Okay." Xiang Peiting agreed happily. Hua Yang looked at his watch: "Let's go, it's almost time." Xiang Pei found a pair of leather shoes from under the bed, put on a long down coat that reached to the heels, and the three of us walked out together, stopped a car on the street, and went straight to Guomao. When Hua Yang was singing on stage, I said to Xiang Pei, "He just broke up with Xin Xiaoye, and he was very sad." "I said why don't you like to talk anymore?" Xiang Pei said, and drank the cup of coffee in his hand, "Are you guys graduating soon?" "It's been half a year." While talking, Hua Yang had already finished singing a few songs and came down to rest. I went to the pay phone booth and called home. Alai was really there and asked me where I was. I said I was with Hua Yang and asked her if she wanted to come over. Alai hesitated for a moment, and said that she would be there in a while, so I went back and waited for her. Half an hour later, Alai came in and said to Hua Yang: "I called Xin Xiaoye, and she asked me to persuade you. " "Advise what?" I asked. "I don't know," Alai said. "What's the matter?" "It's over." Hua Yang said. The four of us drank a cup of coffee each, in silence, the atmosphere was depressing, Hua Yang went up and sang three more songs, we walked out of the International Trade Center with him, Alai and I went back to Andingmen's old nest, Hua Yang sent Xiang Pei back.We broke up on Chang'an Avenue. On the way back, Alai said to me, "It's good that they broke up." "What's wrong?" "Xin Xiaoye told me that she had been with a doctoral student for a long time. She didn't want to hurt Hua Yang's heart, so she kept silent. Finally, she did yesterday." "Then why didn't you tell me earlier?" "Tell you? Then I might as well tell Hua Yang directly!" "What doctor?" "Xin Xiaoye said that the man was very ambitious, so he didn't have time to say anything else, so don't tell Hua Yang." "I'm not going to say anything, Dr. Shit has nothing to say." 174 To my surprise, a few days later, Hua Yang went to the dormitory and rolled up his bedding and moved it to Xiang Pei. Alai and I went there. The two of them were painting the walls and pasting some Color pictorial, I helped them clean up all afternoon, we had dinner together in the evening, then Alai and I left, and a few days later, Hua Yang and Xiang Pei came to our place to watch the video for the night, in exchange After changing more than a dozen films, only one, "The Condor" starring Tom Cruise, was watched from beginning to end. Xiang Peibi was much more active than the previous few times. I borrowed it from us before leaving. Walked away with a dozen books, packed in a handbag. A week later, Alai and I met Xin Xiaoye and a small man four or five years older than her when we were visiting the Xidan shopping mall. They were trying on clothes in the leather department. Xin Xiaoye was wearing a short leather jacket and turned around in front of the mirror. Turning around, we didn't say hello to her, and she didn't notice that the little man was standing beside Xin Xiaoye absent-mindedly, holding the pale yellow that Xin Xiaoye had worn for two winters, which we were very familiar with. Down jacket, it looks so funny. 175 After New Year's Day, entering 1991, the final exam began on January 7th. Hua Yang and I failed to steal a paper in one class, which happened to be the most difficult one of this semester, "Architecture". After hard work, we finally passed.After the winter vacation, Hua Yang switched from China World Trade Center to Jingguang, sang songs like "Casablanca" in the coffee shop, met a group of friends who were engaged in music, and spent 4,000 yuan to buy an American-made folk piano and beer once. You can drink up to twelve bottles without getting drunk, which is really amazing. During the winter vacation, Alai and I bought a new pair of skates, equipped with speed skating knives, and went skating in Beihai Park every other day.Alai's father had an old-fashioned air gun, and Alai brought it to me from home. I bought a stack of target paper and a few boxes of bullets from Lisheng Sports Store, and pasted the target paper behind the toilet door to practice shooting. During the winter vacation In the end, I finally punched a big hole in the toilet door, so I had to buy another set of darts and use a dart board to block the big hole. When the Spring Festival came, I bought a thousand firecrackers and set them off on New Year's Eve. At that time, my dad was watching me coming back from the balcony and said to me, "You're graduating soon?" I nodded as an answer. My dad gave me a pair of Hongtashan, which is my New Year’s gift. It’s an exception. He never gave me cigarettes as a New Year’s gift. In previous years, the New Year’s gifts I got were nothing more than a Parker pen, so I got cigarettes. I was flattered afterwards. It took me a week to smoke that Hongtashan. It was bland, just like my college life. Thank God, it was finally coming to an end.