Chapter 12 Title Twelfth

157 After Lu Ran reappeared, it was like a different person. One day when we were walking together on the street, his pager rang. He glanced at it, and then threw his pager hard in front of me for no reason. He was smashed to pieces on the ground, and continued to walk forward swaggeringly afterwards. I speculated that he was probably caught in an emotion I couldn't understand and couldn't extricate himself. No one could comfort him at this time. The last time I saw him was at his place. In mid-August, one day, he called me to get some things from him. I went. It was all his tapes, videos and books. He helped me pack what I wanted. Put it into two big travel bags and send it downstairs, and he threw the rest into the trash bin. When he sent me to the taxi, he shook the plane ticket in his hand and said, "Tomorrow I will go to Hainan, or Become rich or die."

This is really beyond my expectation. When I asked him why, he said to me: "Money is the sixth sense of human beings. Without it, you will not be able to make full use of the other five senses. At least half of the way out of life will be blocked. This is what Maugham said. " The taxi started, and I saw him from the rear window waving at me, walked to the other side of the road without looking back, reached out to stop a taxi, and drove in the opposite direction. This time he really left. 158 After the summer vacation, the junior year ended, and the new semester began, our class moved from the third floor to the first floor, and changed the dormitory. There was a platform on the top of the new dormitory. When we were not going home, Hua Yang and I were often on it. Mix the time before the karaoke.

One night, Hua Yang and I climbed to the top of the dormitory again, and Jing Jian sat there chatting. It was an evening at the end of summer, and the setting sun reflected the sky like a layer of rose petals, and the leaves of the poplar trees downstairs They are dark green and dark green, they rustle with the evening wind that comes quietly, the badminton players downstairs are still shouting loudly, and laughter can be heard from afar from time to time, but both Hua Yang and I look unlucky, he I drank beer non-stop, and I smoked cigarettes one by one. When Ah Cai saw me in the morning, she looked calm, and while my classmates were not paying attention, I quickly approached her and whispered in her ear quickly, "Are you here?"

Ah Cai was chatting and laughing loudly with a girl not far away, while shaking his head at me, his eyes were confused. At this time, Li Wei patted my shoulder from behind, which shocked me. It turned out that he pulled me to play football, and I turned around. After walking with him for a while, I looked back at Alai. She was pushing and shoving with a girl, laughing and arguing about something, as if trying to reassure me. Hua Yang picked up a handful of pebbles from the ground and said to me, "If ten pebbles can be thrown into one, it means that Xin Xiaoye won't be pregnant."

There was an air vent three or four meters away from us, and he threw stones into it one by one. Tossed in until the night completely blocked our view, my best score: 8 out of 10. Suddenly it occurred to me that throwing stones into the small hole was very much like messing around in itself, so that my good mood turned bad again. "Zhou Wen." Hua Yang called me. "what?" "From next month, I will only mess with you during the safe period." I tilted my head to look at him, there was only a silhouette left in the darkness, I lit another cigarette, and flicked the nearly exhausted one into the air, a bright yellow trace drifted downstairs in the night, and then disappeared gracefully .

I listened carefully, and there was no movement in the distance except for the faint ringing of bicycle bells. The wind stopped, and I was bitten by mosquitoes in three big bags on my hands, arms and legs. I didn't notice it when I was there. 159 I was writing a program in assembly language when Alai opened the door to use on the computer tomorrow. She glanced at me from the open door, oops, and went straight into the kitchen. I heard her put a watermelon Cut it in half and put it in the refrigerator, heard her turn on the tap to wash her face, and heard her come in after changing a pair of slippers in the living room.

I raised my head: "Why are you ignoring me?" "It's hard to see you use your skills once." I stretched and stood up from my seat: "Don't you have an experiment this afternoon?" "Cancelled, lab moved." "Why are you smiling?" "Am I laughing?" "I'm telling you you're beaming." "Of course I'm glad I don't have class this afternoon, you see it's hot outside." "How much does a watermelon weigh?" "How do you know I bought watermelon?" "I saw you carrying you into the kitchen."

"Twelve catties." "Just come back to eat at night." "It's better if you don't come back." Alai sat on the other chair next to me, kicked his feet, and the chair immediately tilted up on its hind legs. , making it squeak. "Hey." Alai called me. "what?" "Are you going to go on like this forever?" "What do you mean?" "Means nothing." "Then why are you asking me that?" "Is it okay to ask?" "Just ask." "It's over." I cleaned up the table, put all the books back into the school bag, went to the kitchen to wash a clean cup, poured some cold water from a bottle on the lower floor of the refrigerator, and then took a few pieces of ice from the ice room and threw them into the cup. He shook the cup until it slurped loudly, walked back into the room, and shook it to Alai: "Do you want to drink it? If you don't drink it, it's fine."

Then he drank half of it in one gulp. Alai took an airmail envelope from her bag and threw it on the table. "A college wants me." "Really? That's good." "Half prize." "Isn't it impossible to go?" "I hesitate." "Do you want to pay the other half of your tuition?" "I want to visit America." "Sightseeing?" "Just treat it as sightseeing." "Go." "This is what you said?" "I said." "Then I'll give it a try." "How do you get the other half of the tuition together?"

"Is prostitution okay?" Alai looked at me defiantly. I am speechless. 160 For various reasons, Alai was not pregnant and did not go to the United States. For various reasons, I still stayed in college and dangled there, entering my senior year. For whatever reason, all the misincarnated guys are drinking beer, watching TV, playing pool at the pool hall, buying cosmetics, smoking, wearing ties, having sex, watching "News Network", buying pirated CDs, getting sick, singing karaoke OK, buy new fashion in boutiques, be keen on new inventions, earn money, have fun, forget pain, and wander around.

161 One night at the end of September 1990, a group of uninvited guests came to the karaoke hall and took away all the escorts there. The karaoke hall was ordered to close down for rectification. I went home with my bass, and Hua Yang found another one with his electric guitar on his back. The hotel bar sang foreign language songs, and soon he introduced me to it. The first one was okay, but the next day I was fired for holding a cigarette in my mouth while playing. After I went to the accounting office to pay the bill, I came home and looked down from the balcony.A gray cloud of smog hangs over dimly lit Beijing, weighing down the dim yellow lights and making the city look both the end of the world and grim wonderland.From that day on, I began to be able to sit motionless on the balcony, with my eyes circling over the highway cars and low-rise houses, sometimes turning around a restaurant that had just risen from the ground and looking into the distance, and stopping at a certain point in the sky, I could Sitting like that for a long time, sometimes smoking, sometimes not smoking, sometimes drinking beer, sometimes not drinking, but I like to sit there and look into the distance.Unknowingly, time flew by me, and after I came back to my senses, it seemed that I had already gone through vicissitudes. 162 In order to allow Alai to open his eyes and see the stars during sex, the two of us set up a camp bed on the balcony on a sultry October night, and it was already two in the middle of the night after playing video games. I opened the balcony door, and Alai fell on the bed first. At that time, there was a cool breeze, and there was a hot smell of dry branches in the sky. I saw Alai take off his hood under the light from the window pane. shirt, unbuttoned bra, took off jeans, took off panties, finally took off socks, rolled them with both hands, tucked them under the blanket, then stretched, smiled at me slightly, blinked, and pulled the quilt under one foot with both hands Covering my body, I couldn’t help being in a trance. I threw half of the cigarette in my hand downstairs, took off my clothes, and lay next to Alai. I was next to the balcony railing and couldn’t see the night sky. Alai could see it. Lay's arm stretched out of the quilt was cool and smooth, and we began to make love in the most tender way imaginable. The narrow iron bed lightly tapped the concrete floor of the balcony, making rhythmic sounds, and Lai's eyes were tight. Closed, the bottom is warm, moist and lubricated, my whole body is soft and boneless, a pair of breasts gently lift my chest, my breath is short, my head shakes slightly, and a lock of hair shakes continuously, it looks very charming, after I finished Padded two pillows and smoked a cigarette behind my head, Alai rested his head on my chest, opened his eyes and looked up at the sky, the cool wind gently brushed our skin exposed outside the quilt, and the outside of the quilt was turned over one by one was damp and cold , a crescent moon hangs high in the sky, the color is smooth and bright, which is tempting.Alai pulled the quilt up and suddenly whispered to me, "If only we could float down here." After finishing speaking, he let out a long sigh. This is an unlucky word, because we are on the balcony on the twelfth floor, Alai closed his eyes, carefully got out of the bed, knelt on the bed naked, with his arms resting on the balcony railing, for a long time not moving at all.After I threw away the two cigarette butts, I reached out to touch her. She was already icy cold, her skin was like a rubber taken out of the refrigerator, and she was shivering slightly, but she still didn't crawl back into the bed. I don't know what she was thinking.When I fell asleep, I suddenly felt that the iron bed moved. I felt that she jumped off the balcony and quickly reached out to grab it. Alai screamed. It turned out to be my hallucination. Alai had already fallen asleep beside me. . 163 In my eyes, the autumn of 1990 was no longer full of infinite charm, but was short and depressing.The leaves are yellow and green, and the pedestrians are numb in a hurry. All these come from my tired mentality. In fact, I am disgusted with the university at this time. Alai had to squeeze the bus when he went out, wandered around to buy a piece of clothing, and lost interest in having fun. Sometimes when thinking about the future, he was at a loss, life was lifeless, except for video games that could temporarily take me out of reality. , and didn’t find anything new to like. Alai sometimes saw me playing video games night after night, and was inexplicably worried about me, but she still accompanied me to play the exciting "Space Soul", When she wasn't playing, I was alone with Tetris, a game I could never fail at, for three or four hours endlessly, until I lost feeling in my fingers. 164 One morning, the bell for the end of the second get out of class rang on time. I walked out of the classroom and smoked in the corridor, but the lighter couldn’t be turned on. I went to the door of the classroom and blocked Li Wei who came out of it to borrow a light from him. He stopped there , the two eyeballs rolled back and forth in the eye sockets three or four times, a classmate who came out from behind pushed him straight, and he dodged aside. I asked him again: "Is there a fire?" He still stood on the side, and it took him a long time to say, "I think so." I put my hand into his coat pocket, then into his trouser pocket, and he said, "I remember, it's in the desk." "Why didn't you say it earlier?" "Didn't I say that?" I stopped Jiao Fan who was walking back and forth in the corridor again: "Is there a fire?" He took out a flint lighter and handed it over. After I caught it, I failed to light it several times. He smiled and said, "I knew you couldn't light it." After speaking, he took the lighter from my hand, opened the cover, and just wiped it against the wall, and the flame jumped up suddenly.I took the lighter and lit the cigarette, he was still looking at me, I handed the cigarette to him, and I had to light another one myself. 165 Li Wei has a famous syllogism. The first is that most of the things people eat have no smell. The second is that the excrement excreted by people is smelly without exception. The third is the conclusion-the purpose and condition of human life is to put Everything stinks. I also have an old-fashioned syllogism. The first is that people will be unlucky if they tell the truth, and the second is that people will be unlucky if they don’t tell the truth. The conclusion is-people will be unlucky if they don’t tell the truth.Just as Li Wei's syllogisms come from his practice, so do mine. I remember when I was in elementary school, I happened to walk with our teacher on the way to school. He asked me for his classmates’ opinions on his lectures. He asked me this way—— "What do the students say?" "Good." "I want to be honest." He gave me a serious look. "Nonsense," I told him. "Who said this?" "What the students said." "Which classmate?" "I can't remember either?" "Think again." "Have no idea." "real?" "real." "That's you!" He came to conclusions easily.