Chapter 14 Article Fourteen

176 After the winter vacation, the atmosphere in the class was completely new. The teacher wrote about 20 graduation project topics on the blackboard, and marked the level of difficulty on the side, divided into ABC and so on. I picked a daily topic and talked with the instructor. one time.The teacher gave me five or six reference books, and I reissued a library card. I found those books in the library without much trouble, and then took them home to read. Since I didn’t attend classes well, I hardly made any academic achievements, so I had to close the door at home and start writing the management software according to the gourd. I chose "DEBASE FOUR", which was very popular at the time and was eliminated by "FOXBASE" one year later. I used the "MICROSOFT C" interface for graphics, and it was very interesting to copy from east to west, and soon compiled a rather fancy database. My father found me a former classmate of his, who was a computer database He lent me five database program examples stacked half a meter high, and I copied the rather complicated query part in it.

A month later, I went to the computer room and spent a week typing in the program, and adjusted it for another half a month. I actually made a database that surprised the instructor.After finishing the work, it was the beginning of April, and the next time was writing the graduation thesis, waiting for the defense, and looking for a job. 177 I went to seven or eight places to find a job. Either the work was too tiring or the pay was too low. Seeing that I couldn't find a decent job, I couldn't help but feel discouraged. I simply went home and waited for the school to assign me, and I resigned myself to fate.

Hua Yang's situation is generally similar to mine. Alai's luck was better than ours. The second company she found was an American-owned telecommunications company. The examiner was an Australian engineer. He chatted with Alai about kangaroos in Australia and then an Australian-made movie. "Crocodile Dundee", then accepted her, and started to work for a trial in early May, with a monthly salary of 300 US dollars.Alai was very happy for this. 178 However, from a certain day, I couldn’t hear Hua Yang’s voice on the phone. This situation lasted for about a month. Immediately afterwards, Hua Yang’s parents also called me to ask me about Hua Yang’s situation, so I made a quick decision. , went straight to the hut where he and Xiang Pei lived early in the morning.

It was 9 am when I got there, the door was locked from the outside, the curtain was drawn, I climbed to the ventilation window on the door and looked in, it was a mess inside, half of the quilt fell to the ground, and the lid of the rice cooker was left open , some clothes were scattered on the bed, some belonged to Xiang Pei, some belonged to Hua Yang, the door of the chest of drawers was open, and the drawers were pulled out halfway, giving people the feeling of being intruded by a stranger. Suddenly, someone shouted from behind: "What are you doing? Who is it?" I was startled, turned around, and jumped off the broken bench I was stepping on, the lingering fear still lingering.But I saw Hua Yang's neighbor, an old lady, wearing a small piece of dirty red hoop on her arm and holding a small bamboo pole, staring at me suspiciously.

I asked her the whereabouts of Hua Yang and Xiang Pei, and she told me that they were taken away by the police. I ran to the police station, filled out an application form, and after a lot of talking, I found out that Xiang Pei had already been transferred and Hua Yang was fine. At that time, he stabbed them with a knife, but fortunately, a policeman quickly punched him and knocked him out. I made a phone call to the school security office and the Youth League Committee, telling them to hurry up and get the person, and then I went in to see Hua Yang. The fist, with a button inside, he told me, was the last torn off Xiang Pei's body.

We leaned against the wall to smoke together, waiting for the school to come. Hua Yang's jeans were dirty and torn, and the three words "wild child" on the pullover were connected together. Occasionally, when he raised his eyes, his eyes were full of confusion and sadness. He smoked without saying a word, and it made me feel as if I was bothering him or something. The half pack of cigarettes I brought was quickly exhausted, I crumpled up the empty cigarette case and threw it aside, he suddenly raised his head and stared at the empty cigarette case, for a long time, he said: It's over.

I saw him put his head in his palms, and I thought he was crying. 179 At the beginning of June, Alai paid his first month's salary, invited his classmates and friends to dinner, and bought me a pair of Adidas sneakers. For this reason, whenever I entered a restaurant, I would ask the waiter, "Is there any soft food?" 180 At the end of June, I passed my dissertation defense and the assignment from the school came down. It was my turn to be Sino-Japanese joint venture Wacoal and Xidan Shopping Center.I weighed the two tasks of sitting in front of the computer every day drawing bras, panties and underwear and filling the inventory.The former was obscene and the latter was boring, so I didn't go anywhere.Soon, I found a job in a small company in Zhongguancun, and I agreed without asking what it was. It was also because I was in a panic, and I realized afterwards that it was a very ridiculous job-repairing computers.This is the worst job I could ever get.

181 Hua Yang said that the most common thing to do in life is to escape around.This is his point of view, but I don’t see it that way. I think running around should be changed to bumping into walls. As long as you live in this world, you have to run around, bear the burden of humiliation, and be anxious. Every day has to meet new troubles. 205 Alai, I'd rather be like when we first met, my arms on your shoulders, my forehead gently rubbing against yours, until we know we'll always need each other. The bell for Yu Nian was heard by me sitting alone at home. I was so drunk that I turned off the TV with my foot. The room smelled of tobacco and alcohol, and the floor was covered with peanut skins and All kinds of food scraps, crumpled bedsheets, rolled quilts, I was shaped like a prawn, with a bowed back, long and messy hair, enduring a bunch of nausea from my stomach, in that room Spent a long night in the house that has long been changed.

207 In order to change my bad mood, I bought a foreign car and a Rixiali, which cost more than 60,000 yuan. After I got the car, I overhauled it. Counting the remaining money, it was less than 20,000 yuan. up. I called Hua Yang, and we drove for a drive together. It was severe winter, and I turned on the heater to the maximum, and closed the doors and windows. It didn't look like a drive! Hua Yang was sitting next to me, constantly fiddling with the tape recorder in the car, changing tapes one by one, listening to one song at most per tape, and spending the rest of the time looking for songs, we walked through the streets and alleys of Beijing , listening to boring songs.

Hua Yang's job is not going well. According to him, their manager always dislikes him. When the car arrived at Zuoanmen, Hua Yang said to me, "Hey, where are we going?" I slowed down and took the opportunity to light a cigarette: "Go ahead." "have no idea." "Then I'm going blind." "Aren't you just blind?" "Want to go to Tianjin?" "Okay, let's go to Tianjin." "What are you doing in Tianjin?" "Maybe we'll find out when we get there." I drove the car on the Beijing-Tianjin Expressway, stepped on the accelerator, and the speed of the car slowly increased. When the speedometer pointed to 130 kilometers, the car was a little fluttering, and the needle kept shaking around 130 kilometers. , Hua Yang fastened his seat belt.

"Can it go any faster?" I heard him ask me that. The gas pedal had already been pressed to the bottom, and the car seemed to be scattered. A white Santana was overtaken by us, and then a black Mercedes-Benz was overtaken. Soon, the Mercedes-Benz caught up and left us far behind. I saw the taillights flickering at the back of the car, as if deliberately mocking us, I stepped on the gas pedal, the car roared, I ignored it, but the speed of the car was at the limit, and it couldn't go any faster. After arriving in Tianjin, Hua Yang and I found a small bar to sit down and drink. The beer in winter was very uncomfortable to drink, and the air in the bar was cloudy. Three or two waiters in ugly uniforms walked around the tables. Hua Yang asked Me: "Remember the small restaurant in front of our school?" I nod. "We had a band there called Wild Children." Hua Yang looked at the foam at the bottom of his glass and said softly. I nodded again, Hua Yang was already slightly drunk. "How about the two of us doing it again today?" I smiled bitterly: "How old are we?" "But," Hua Yang drank the wine in his glass, "We are indeed homeless now." He looked at me again, "Even if we have a home, we don't want to go back, do we?" I had to nod again. "So we are now--" Hua Yang hurriedly extinguished the cigarette butt in his hand, "wild child!" I cast my eyes out of the window, the wind blowing made the poplar trees on the side of the street rattling, and occasionally a car drove by, the narrow street was half-lit and half-dark, and the shadows of the trees were shaking in the shadow of the lights. I turned around and saw that it was just the two of us in the bar. "Where did everyone go?" Hua Yang said to the deserted street. 208 In January, Lu Ran came back. Hua Yang and I met him at Lu Ran's place. He caught up with real estate speculators in Hainan and made a fortune. Seeing that there was no result in messing around in Hainan, he came back.Lu Ran became more impetuous than before, and the conversation continued with the occasional collision of beer glasses as usual. "No money, poor, rich, disgusting!" After saying this, Lu Ran let out a long breath, which was a summary of his life in Hainan. He was wearing a woolen sweater with an open neckline, and he was scribbling around on the ground with his feet. He said, "What the hell do you want to do in the future?" Hua Yang had already fallen into a deep sleep on Lu Ran's bed. I was lying on Lu Ran's loveseat, staring listlessly at his roof, where a piece of wall was about to fall off.That night, the three of us smoked five packs of cigarettes, burned the last decent blanket in Lu Ran's room, and ate up all the leftovers brought back from the restaurant in the evening. Seeing that we were silent, Lu Ran went to the kitchen alone to cook a bowl of instant noodles and came back. He ate it on the coffee table, and suddenly stopped and asked me, "Do you remember what I said before I left?" I shake my head. "I said at the time: be rich or die." "Did you say that?" "Said. Unfortunately, I neither became rich nor died." I bowed my head and remained silent. "Have you seen old X?" "No." "You and Alai really blew?" "Blow." "How did this happen?" "Bullshit." "Yeah, it's all bullshit." 209 After the Spring Festival, Lu Ran and I partnered to set up a pheasant company, which was located in a door-to-door house in Zhongguancun. Lu Ran bought a Ford sedan that was probably 10% new, and it only ran 30,000 kilometers. We drive up to 160 kilometers, and when we have nothing to do, we often go to the Beijing-Tianjin Expressway for speeding. While passing cars that don't look good, we turn the stereo to the maximum while drinking canned beer in the back seat of the car. . The business was not satisfactory, and when the accounts were settled in March, we lost more than 1,000 yuan in addition to the rent, water and electricity. We decided not to make computers, changed course, and started advertising.The company recruited three young ladies, and I, Lu Ran, and Hua Yang each sniffed one, and the six of us, while having fun, advertised everywhere, and the days went by day by day. 210 My little pangjian is called Song Ming, with small round eyes, and her voice is a bit like Xing Zhibin, an announcer from China Central Television, very formal, and sometimes she tells me something like go to bed, and I suspect that she is broadcasting the news.She likes to carry a schoolbag with straps that extend below her hips, walks in muddy water, and has a changeable personality. When we were eating at a Moscow restaurant while sniffing her, she looked at the high ceiling and put the half cigarette she took from me in the tea. It went out in the cup, looked at me, and said: "Anyway, I don't have a boyfriend now, so it's you." In the evening, I took her home, and as soon as I entered the door and turned on the light, she said to me playfully, "Why are you turning on the light, are you tired?" I went to the bathroom to take a shower and came back, she was wrapped in the quilt naked, I hugged her, she said in the tone of broadcasting the news: "Today is a safe period, it's okay to cum inside." When I was done I asked her, "Have you ever been pregnant?" She held her moderately large breasts in her hands, stared at them for a while, and then said, "I was pregnant once, what's the matter?" "Nothing, just ask." "You don't have to worry, I'll let you know when it doesn't work. Look," she took her school bag by the bed, took out a black-covered productivity book from it, and showed me the calendar on the first page, "Drawing The red circle is the dangerous period, you have to wear a condom." I took a look at it, and the red circle was interrupted in July.Without waiting for me to look at it, she snatched it away, took out another red and blue ballpoint pen from her bag, and began to draw on the notebook.I touched her shoulder with my hand and asked her: "Did you blow it with your ex-boyfriend in July?" She raised her head and glanced at me: "You are quite clever." Still using the announcer's accent.