Chapter 7 Title VII

70 The autumn of 1988 can be described as an eventful year. Of course, this is from my personal point of view. Just after the turmoil of Alai's fake pregnancy was over, something happened, which was caused by Liu Xin. Liu Xin has always been very close to Hua Yang Guo, like me. The band we started was just a name. It seems that Liu Xin is the only one who loves rock and roll. The main reason is that he has nothing to do. I don’t even have a girlfriend, I have a lot of spare time, I have no interest in going to school, etc., but that year Beijing’s underground rock scene seemed to have a little atmosphere, and many people joined it out of interest or for other purposes, so there appeared There are quite a few small-scale gatherings. Hua Yang and Liu Xin and I went there a few times and found it very lively, so we came back to discuss whether we could make things bigger by ourselves. The three of us are characterized by not being able to play any musical instrument, and our knowledge of music is extremely good. I was poor, and I didn't even know the staves. Later I learned that rock and roll seems to be based on feeling, as long as you have an instrument, you can play to your heart's content. As for other things, it doesn't matter at all.This is what we gained at the rock parties. The bigger gain is that we met a few people there. Their status is similar to ours. There were many, and it became more formal. I rented a farmer's bungalow, gathered together instruments, and started to practice together.

71 The so-called joint practice is nothing more than connecting several instruments to the power supply and playing them together through a small power amplifier. The sound is much louder than Hua Yang's broken guitar, and of course it is also much more chaotic. If things go on like this for a long time, they are able to make some sound that is passable. Everyone works together to fill in some lyrics, and Hua Yang doesn't care what happens, just roar out and it's over. , something like "want to fly, feel tired, wander, love you, dissatisfied with reality, I dream", fortunately, everyone was very sincere at the time, and didn't think it was so stupid, so everything continued.

72 Since it is a band, there is a division of labor among the staff. Hua Yang plays the vocals and sings, Liu Xin plays the keyboard, I play an electric bass, Xin Xiaoye plays a saxophone (she used to play the trumpet), and the new acquaintance Xu Tong plays Drum set.There is also a manager named Lu Ran. He writes some songs and informs us to rehearse at some point. He finds almost all the instruments. This person is quite strange. Many people know him. Sometimes it seems to appear in several places at the same time, he changed the name of the band "Super Racing", and said to outsiders that the band often uses "my" as a prefix, as if he is the boss and we are employees. In fact, in At that time, he was the owner of the band, and we were just poor students with enthusiasm.

73 Meeting Lu Ran was purely accidental. One day, Liu Xin and I met a girl in the basement disco of Zhongyuan Hotel. She was my high school classmate, named Qu Hong (we called her Lao Chuan later, she had a good reputation, because of Yatra, she even had an affair with our physics teacher , she is very smart, she rarely reads and studies, but her test scores are always in the top three, and she seldom falls off. She has developed a very mature body at a young age, her buttocks are round and round, and her breasts shake up and down when she walks. , the eyes are very big, and she has a very good relationship with the boys in the sports class. She has never been to a sports school, but she won the first place in the three girls' 400 and 800 in the school sports meeting. She ran faster than the girls in the sports school. Hurry up, as soon as she ran, even the most serious teachers applauded her. I think it was sincere, because from the side of the runway, her breasts throbbed, her thin neck and waist swayed from side to side, fresh and alluring. People, sometimes she staggers, as if she would jump directly into your arms, which makes people intrigued. It just so happens that this person is the secretary of the school's Youth League branch, and she has to send a certificate or something from her I brought it in my hand, she was always the master of ceremonies at the school meeting, anyway, it was really popular at that time, it was hard not to have unreasonable thoughts, once I wanted to sniff her, but Xiang Xiaopiao was also in our school, big day I can’t see you up and see you down, and our school’s rumors spread so quickly, so it can be said that there is no chance at all. She was a sensation when she danced disco in our school for the first time, and almost made the teacher withdraw her official position, but She acted according to the wind and taught the students to dance the "national standard" a few days later. All the teachers followed suit, and she surfaced again. She led us to sing the school song at graduation, which can be described as brilliant After graduation, she disappeared for a long time, but unexpectedly ran into her again on a fashionable occasion, which shows that this person is a real man of the hour.

I chatted with her about the school for a while, and the conversation was speculative. She said to me: "Let me introduce my boyfriend to you. His name is Lu Ran. He is studying at the Normal University. He is also engaged in rock and roll." Then she turned to the bar counter While yelling, a tall and thin man walked over there, holding a bottle of beer in his hand, smiling and nodding at us, we shook hands, Liu Xin went back to school to call Hua Yang, the three of us went to Andingmen Waiting for them, remember that Hua Yang sang songs all night that night, we drank twenty-four bottles of beer, talked about rock and roll all night, when the early morning bus appeared in the early morning, we went to Lu Ran's residence in Weigong Village, Haidian, where there was Equipped with a full set of equipment for a band, Lu Ran told us that this was left over from their original band, and now all the members of that band have come out, bought new instruments, and the band has disappeared.

Lu Ran told us: the result of everything is bad, if you don’t believe me, wait for it I thought he was drunk. 74 The autumn of 1988 ended like this. At the end of October, most of the leaves fell, and the dry and cold northwest wind blew on the street. Alai was really pregnant. During the operation at Tiantan Hospital, I was fidgeting on the long bench outside. In front is the operating room of the obstetrics and gynecology department. There is a blue curtain half-covered at the door. I don’t know what girl’s scream came from inside. It scared me enough. Smoking is not allowed in the lounge. I went to the corridor outside to smoke. , a nurse in the hallway drove me to the men's room again, where I smoked three full cigarettes before I came out, and then went back to wait for Alai, after waiting for almost an hour, Alai came out, we walked to the gate, Alai Lai complained of pain and couldn't walk, so we sat on the steps to rest together. When the cold wind blew, we both looked miserable. I took a Xiali and went back to Andingmen with Alai. Alai drank a lot of water. Then I watched the video for a while, halfway through, Alai fell asleep.

The next day, she was as good as ever, and she played volleyball with the girls in her class for a while in the afternoon. Through the dirty windows of our class, I saw her figure in a brown sheepskin jacket dangling on the playground, and I felt very sad. feel bad. 75 Three months after I met Lu Ran, the band played the first song in rehearsal, which was "Sunshine on My Shoulders" by John Denver. At that time, the sun had become icy and winter had entered , the sky is gloomy, the scenery is gray everywhere, the trees are bare, the few yellow leaves hanging on the trees, swaying with the cold wind, sometimes a small wind can blow down a large leaf, People put on the down jackets that get in the way of winter, and they are all bloated. My bass playing fingertips have thick calluses. We rehearse three times a week, and we can hang out for more than ten hours each time. Ah Lai went to a rehearsal studio in the western suburbs of Beijing once, and then never came back.We have to pay 150 yuan per month for the rent of the farmer’s house. This month, I put it on the mat for Liu Xin. His Yamaha electronic organ broke down and turned into a dumb horse. It took Hua Yang to help repair it for two days. After it was fixed, Xin Xiaoye and Hua Yang had an awkward quarrel, they didn't talk to each other during rehearsal, and Liu Xin often passed on the message, which made everyone feel very blocked.The final exam of the sophomore year is just around the corner, and everyone is in a panic, not knowing what will happen to their results.

76 I'm tired, I'm so fucking tired, day after day, I don't know what keeps me alive, the steel inside my body is weak, my heart doesn't feel like it's beating, I feel I slowly relaxed, and every day before going to bed, I silently said over and over again: don't wake up this time, don't wake up this time. This sudden, deadly desperation hit me again, like a high fever, and every once in a while, it would come, and I didn't think I could shake it off, during that empty winter of my sophomore year, between Alai and me When we went to the store to pick out quilts for the winter together, I walked beside her with reluctant steps. Alai didn't know this change in me. She was picking and picking in the store, and I followed behind her. I answered her question in a nonchalant manner, ran from one store to another, I didn't know how many places I turned around, and finally bought a thick and fluffy quilt. After returning, I covered it and went into hibernation. Alai was worried at first, but later she saw that although I only ate one meal a day and slept fifteen or sixteen hours a day, I could still make love to her.

In mid-November, I suddenly started to review my homework crazily, because the exam was about to come, and if I wanted to get into college, I had to get a score of 75 or more on each subject.To my surprise, I did it. Of course, except for the subject of prawns, two students in our class were expelled after the exam.I heard their names, but I don't remember their appearance. These are two quiet classmates. I heard that they studied very hard. They were admitted in silence and then expelled in silence. 77 The winter vacation was very ordinary. We got together five days a week and began to rehearse a song written by Lu Ran called "Rush Forward". I still listen to this song sometimes, almost nothing The melody is not a work in any way, but I just love to listen to it. Whenever I am in a bad mood, I will listen to it. This song is like a panacea, as if it is specially designed to heal me Written out of emptiness.

78 Of course I have to talk about Lu Ran. Lu Ran was born in 68, the same age as me, and also a monkey. He graduated from No. 8 Middle School in Beijing. He called that school a big cesspit. He was almost expelled from that school twice, but finally got his wish the third time because he let someone older than him A girl in the first grade is pregnant.Then he joined a cram school, spent half a year studying the courses for the last two years of high school, and was admitted to the Normal University, so he was one level higher than us, at level 86. The reason why he was admitted to the Normal University was because I heard that There have been many writers there, and he always wanted to be a writer. Unfortunately, his ideals were disillusioned after half a year. He read a lot of books and mixed with a group of people who were engaged in writing for a while, but he soon got tired of those people. Yes, at a school celebration party, he met old X who went with her boyfriend, and was fascinated by her.After nearly a month of crazy chasing, I finally got my wish and got old X. Old X was obsessed with rock and roll at the time, and he was also obsessed with her. He tried his best to organize a band. The band spent a year and a half mixing out He lost his appearance and was bought by a Hong Kong record company. Because of a disagreement with the company, he left the company alone, and then met us.

Lu Ran’s family is richer than the rest of us, and his mother indulged him blindly. Whenever a teacher interviewed him about his various shortcomings, his mother always kicked the teacher out of the house, so that he could watch some movies during class time. The so-called internal movie, his mother not only bought movie tickets for him, but also wrote sick leave notes for him to fool the teacher. His father was a high-ranking official, but he obeyed his mother, so he ignored everything about him , so this person doesn't care about everything. Apart from us, he has many friends from all over the world. He has a pager that he bought in the first batch, and it always rings non-stop. 79 In mid-March, 1989, although the Spring Festival had passed long ago, the wind was still blowing in Beijing. The trees on the campus were high and low, bare and swaying, making people feel in a trance and fluttering all day long. . One morning at about ninety o'clock, I walked into the second door on the left hand side of the third floor of the teaching building with very reluctant steps. Walking around restlessly, I walked to my seat, blew the dirt on the chair, sat down, carefully took out the book, placed it gently on the table so as not to splash dust, then stood up and walked back to the corridor . In the corridor are scattered students who came out of various classes, leaning against the wall one by one, all of them with indifferent expressions, like prisoners who have just been abused, which is disgusting. Those elites who came from other places It even made me itch to find a brick as soon as I recognized it. Putonghua with various dialects flew over sporadically from far and near. The first sentence I came across was "Is there any smoke?" When I saw it, it was Jiao Fan. He had his hands in his pockets, his hair was as messy as a crow's nest, and his face was as shiny as if he had been burned by a fire. No need to ask. , it was because I stole my facial oil. This incident started to happen when I was alone. One morning, I was woken up by the sound of people in the same dormitory waking up. When I looked up, Jiao Fan was holding his hand. Reaching into my drawer, I skillfully took out a bottle of Aiyi sheep oil, unscrewed the cap and used it, without even glancing at me, and then, put it back and forget it, his behavior called me I can see clearly from the beginning to the end, but he didn't pay attention to the eyes I stared at him. I wanted to say a few words to him, but I thought that it seemed a little worthless for such a trivial matter, so I had to watch helplessly. He blew an ugly whistle and left triumphantly. I took out Dubao from my pocket, took out two from it, and handed one to Jiao Fan.Unexpectedly, he didn't pick it up and pushed his mouth, so I had no choice but to stuff the cigarette into his mouth.I took out a lighter from my pocket and lit two cigarettes. He took a puff and turned away. Liu Jun came out of the classroom, looked around twice, his eyes fell on me, and then waved to me, I asked: "Is there something wrong?" He pulled me into the classroom and pulled me all the way to the blackboard. When I was in a daze, he stuffed a blackboard eraser into my hand. I caught it without paying attention. He pointed to the blackboard full of writing, Then he returned to his seat, and several boys and girls near the blackboard laughed together.Liu Jun thought he had done a very humorous thing, returned to his seat and laughed along with him, looking at me while laughing, this despicable villain was never merciless when I was absent from class, every time he registered, he filled in the first It must be my name. Once, when I came to class, the teacher asked him: "Who is not here today?" He said my name without hesitation. In fact, he even took a stick from me during class. Yan, knowing that I am here, this move is just to make my classmates laugh.It is such a person who also tried to ask me to wipe the blackboard, what a Qingqiu dream! I turned around and walked in front of him, threw the blackboard eraser on his desk and walked back to my seat. The grandson's face suddenly turned livid, because the classmates who laughed at me before were laughing at him, and he was sitting on the seat. I didn't move for ten seconds, then stood up, walked in front of me again, and said to me, "Zhou Wen, it's your turn to wipe it off today." I ignored him. He raised his voice a little, and said, "Zhou Wen, smoking is not allowed in the classroom." I said, "You are sick." He is a bit frustrated, he is that kind of person, he feels so good about himself, he even ran for the chairman of the student union when he was in school, it is said that he was in Anhui No. There were bursts of ridicule, and whenever he stuttered, there would be applause. Of course, the result is self-evident.He even wrote a speech for that campaign, and he suffered from it for a few days afterwards.Such a psychopath is standing in front of me right now, his little face is flushed and turns sallow after a while, holding a blackboard eraser, standing motionless in front of me, racking his brains to make a fool of me. I squinted at him, and to make him more embarrassed, I asked him, "Are you tired from standing like this?" He fixed his eyes on me, I thought he was about to cry, for some reason, this action of the two of us caught the attention of the whole class, those students who had been walking around outside are now entering the classroom one after another, and the class bell rang It's going to ring. He noticed the classmate who was looking at us out of the corner of his eye, so he became more nervous. I lowered my head without even looking at him, threw the cigarette butt in my hand into the desk, and tore off a piece of paper from the first page of the textbook , wiped the table over and over again, the class bell rang, and during the bell, I said to him: "If you don't want to leave, just stand." Suddenly, he turned around and left. He walked to the blackboard and rubbed it hard. The teacher came in and looked at him dissatisfied. He stopped after rubbing a few times, and looked at me with hatred. Masculinity, he threw the blackboard on the podium table after wiping it, glanced at me again, and finally returned to his seat. After sitting down, he glared at me again, as if to say: You wait . I knew that this person, like all non-local students, was not only putting on airs, but also being a bully and a bluffer. In order to test whether he thought of me, I went to his desk after class, bent down and asked him: "What do you mean by looking at me when you wipe the blackboard?" He raised his head and saw that I was staring at him closely. The expression on his face changed from surprise to seriousness, then from seriousness to embarrassment, from embarrassment to anger, his nose twitched violently, and his hands clenched involuntarily. Fist, he stood up from the chair, grabbed me, walked out of the classroom in full view, and said as he walked, "Zhou Wen, let's talk outside." I knocked him off and took my hand, we both went out together, followed by a few classmates who speculated that something might happen, we went downstairs, walked across the playground, and came to a small garden with no one there, I stood still, When I turned around, something that surprised me happened. This person turned to me with a smiling face! There were about three or four meters between us. I approached him step by step. He stepped back and said to me while trying to force a smile: "I have something to say, something to say..." I glanced around and saw that there was no one there. I don't know why, and I got angry from my heart. I suddenly approached him, and when I got to him, I swung my arms round and gave him a big mouth, and kicked him in the stomach. He squatted on the ground clutching his stomach and burst into tears. The madness in class just now was swept away and replaced with a pitiful look. I walked away in disgust. From then on, every time Liu Jun saw me, it was as if I was hitting him, with an unnatural expression, and always lowered his eyelids in the same way, and then left in a hurry. Sometimes I walked face to face with him because of something, and when I went straight to him When they were walking, they thought they would pass by each other, but this person suddenly pierced through obliquely, and the panicked figure disappeared in the blink of an eye.What makes me happy is that he never dared to remember that I was late or absent from class. I knew he hated me secretly and gritted his teeth. At the same time, sometimes he smiled at me knowingly, but it was very natural. I don’t know why? I didn't say a word to this person until graduation. That's what some people call me a nuisance, and the result of the nuisance is that I stay away from them and hang out with people I don't really dislike. 80 In university campus life, there is a deadly lethargy that everyone in it is hard to get rid of. It is manifested in two aspects-one is the lethargy during get out of class, and the other is the lethargy after class. First, you I have to spend the daytime in class listlessly, thinking about what to do after class.Secondly, after class, you find that there is actually nothing to do, so you have to spend more boring nights listlessly, thinking about even scarier classes.In this way, day by day you will learn to be patient. Even a girl like Alai finds school boring, she would rather go to my place to listen to music and watch TV at Chengda University.As for the pursuit of knowledge, the general attitude of those who can go to college towards that kind of intellectual game is--willing people take the bait. A Cai and I will never take the bait.