Chapter 6 Title VI

59 There are three games we play most often together, poker, checkers, ground war chess, and occasionally a game or two of backgammon, each winning or losing, and there are three major books of winning and losing records.That's why we've been able to play for so long.Every time we fight, we have to go through a process of moving our mouths first and then fighting. Each other predicts that the other party will lose, and then we start the battle. Alai plays chess very seriously, just like a little boy. With a touch, there are east and west lines on the small face, like a naughty child. Once, the two of us competed in "Strong Hand" and played all night. There were countless hotels and restaurants on the chessboard, but the two of us were hungry and the sky was over. Liang, we're still fighting over who should cook yesterday's dinner.

60 In mid-June, 1988, the students of science and engineering came to the most painful time, and everyone began to meet the final exam like a bullet.Readers of my novel, if you have not yet entered university, I advise you not to choose science and engineering. In high school, they are often called idiots, but in college, they are free, because it is very easy to pass the exam, and at the worst, they can copy it. Even if you are asked to take the exam with a book, you can't do the test questions one after another. It takes a day or two to figure out how to use those formulas. After graduation, my classmates, every six, seven, twelve All these months have been extremely exciting, because of the aftereffects left by the university.

Every time there is an exam, the teachers of each subject must think hard—how to set up traps for students so that they cannot overcome them, how to use a series of difficult problems to make them feel depressed in the exam room, how to dodge students when they set questions, and how to answer questions that are not what they asked. Crossing mountains, crossing rivers, dodging traps, and then falling miserably on the last stumbling rope, how to make them kowtow to beg for mercy one by one, but have to do it again in the make-up exam, how to make them live a dark, panic-stricken life Restless holidays...it's almost a teacher's rule, everyone follows it.From elementary school to university, I don’t know how many difficult problems concocted by teachers. Its effect is that in my eyes, the world has become an endless examination room composed of countless difficult problems. Go to the teacher, otherwise, sooner or later, one day, I will be kicked out because I can't think of an answer.

On the eve of the exam, almost all the science and engineering students in the university looked the same - their faces were sallow, their eyes were red, their hands and feet were cold, their minds were confused, like a stroke demon, pitiful and ridiculous. As far as the level of insanity, I think it's the same whether it's a teacher or a student. 61 This is how I started studying desperately. On June 17, I walked into the classroom, but seeing the strange expressions of my classmates, Sun Bing came over and whispered in my ear: "Today's high math review outline, the exam is coming soon. "My heart clicked and fell to my heels immediately, and my whole body felt weak. I hurriedly asked him when the exam would start, and the answer date was July 4th. What a coincidence, the Americans celebrated independence with a large number of Americans, parading in the streets, coloring There are no stops, the flags are flying, the leader of the guard of honor is wearing a miniskirt, holding a small baton, kicking her thighs, revealing her underwear... This is what I saw in the movie. Chinese college students have to enter the examination room, sitting on pins and needles, thinking hard at their desks, waiting for opportunities to cheat, terrified... What a mistake!

62 After all, I know, I have to learn. So, all of a sudden, I only slept for four hours a day, and spent the rest of the time lying on my desk or my desk, studying crazily, and the desk was moved from the corner to the center of the room. Rustyly writing and calculating at the bottom, the draft paper quickly piled up to be more than two feet thick. The more I studied, the more panicked I became, the more uncertain I became, the more I learned, the more I felt that those things were unfathomable. Alai is quite stable. , not as lost as I am, but one afternoon she also told the truth, it was three days before the exam, she flipped through a stack of scratch paper, took a sip of water, glanced at me, and saw that I was looking at She, then, sighed and said, "I'm afraid."

As soon as I said this, I was also depressed. She looked at me and said, "If I fail three subjects and get fired, my dad will beat me." I wanted to comfort her, so I walked over and hugged her shoulders, but I also trembled, so we started to give up on ourselves, climbed onto the bed, halfway through the work, I suddenly thought of the solution to the original high math problem, so I jumped up Get up, lean down on the table, write vigorously, finish it in a few strokes, and look at Alai, who has already fallen asleep peacefully. I sat on the side of the bed and looked at Alai's sleeping state. I saw her sallow face, with a hair stuck in her mouth, frowning, as if she was still thinking about the solution to a certain problem, her body curled up into a ball , holding her hands on her chest, her breathing was as rapid as a peasant woman, as if she was in a hurry, there was a layer of sweat on her skin, and some oozed from the tip of her nose. I leaned down to kiss her gently, but she suddenly opened her eyes and stared blankly. He looked at me intently, and after a while, he breathed a sigh of relief, kissed me, and asked me while kissing: "How long have I slept? I must finish reading Chapter 4 today."

I said to her: "It's too late, you only slept for fifteen minutes." She said, "Aren't you going to call me?" I said, "I didn't intend to call you, I wanted you to spit on it for a while." She shook her head, slowly got up from the bed, went into the bathroom, washed her face in it, and shouted to me: "Play some music, Suzanne Vega's will do, don't make too much noise." So I rummaged in the drawer of the desk.She shouted again in the bathroom: "The middle of the second row of the second drawer on the left, see?" I followed her guidance and found it. I took the tape out of the box and inserted it into the tape box of the tape recorder, and the music sounded, "My name is Luca, we live on the second floor..."

Alai sneaks into the kitchen to make a mystery potion.The so-called mysterious potion is nothing more than taking a piece of brick tea from the refrigerator, smashing it twice with the back of a kitchen knife, smashing a piece, putting it in a coffee pot and boiling it until the tea color turns pitch black, adding a lot of rock sugar, pouring it into a large cup, Then take a deep breath and drink it all in one gulp. Soon, the person who drinks this water will be excited, clear-headed, quick in thinking, studious and tireless. I don't know if the current stimulant can have this effect. The sound of Alai's slippers came from the kitchen, and I heard her humming softly, jingling and rinsing the teacup, when the phone rang, it was Hua Yang.

Hua Yang said on the phone that he was at the art museum now and would be there in a while. Sure enough, he arrived in less than twenty minutes, carrying a broken schoolbag in his hand. As soon as he entered the door, Alai brought a cup of mysterious potion to him. His eyes were red and his face was sticky. It looked like he had stayed up all night. He drank the mysterious potion and wiped his mouth: "Dude, have you read the high math?" I shook my head: "No play." He laughed: "My first guess is, where did you see it?" I brought the book over and showed him the page number, and he jumped up: "Have you seen all this? Dude just finished reading the ones before the midterm."

I said, "Look again." He looked at it and was delighted: "So you haven't finished reading the ones before the interim issue!" I sat back at the table where Alai was already poring over his head again. "What should I do?" Hua Yang asked me. "Give it up, forget it, I'll focus on physics, computer principles, FORTRAN, English, politics, so be more stable." So, the two of us started counting the time and discussing which courses to give up to ensure that we would not be expelled or repeated. Alai raised his head and said to us: "Don't panic, actually take a look at it, and the homework is nothing more than that. "

We accepted her advice, sat in a triangle again, and studied like crazy.In less than ten minutes, Hua Yang stood up and shouted loudly: "It's so fucking deep, when I was in elementary school..." I hurriedly interrupted him: "Don't mention elementary school, don't mention elementary school." Hua Yang sighed: "Why can't I understand anything now? Go out and walk around." The three of us went downstairs together and sat by the river. It was already dark, and the water surface reflected street lights. Hua Yang pointed to a watermelon stand not far away and said, "Is there anyone watching there at midnight?" I shook my head: "I don't know." "There is no way to steal the ones next to our school. Zhan Wei was almost caught yesterday. We finally ran away, but the vigilance of the farmers has also increased. Fortunately, you didn't go yesterday." We were silent, and suddenly Alai asked, "What day is it?" This time, we panicked again, and I thought about it: "July 1st, there will be two more..." We came up from the river with a heavy heart, walked across the road, bought a pack of cigarettes, and walked back. When we got home, Hua Yang threw himself on the bed: "I'll sleep for a while, call me in an hour." An hour later, I called Hua Yang and fell asleep by myself, and another hour later, they woke me up, and Alai fell asleep.When Hua Yang and I were cooking, Alai woke up by himself. The three of us ate a meal of fried rice with eggs, and then each drank a cup of mysterious potion. Finally, we stayed up until dawn. We packed our schoolbags and went straight to school to listen to the teacher In the review class, on the way, we walked staggeringly one by one, very unsteady. 63 Three days later, the exam began. How did I live during those days? Just thinking about it makes my palms sweat. The interesting thing is that Hua Yang had a strange dream before the first general physics exam. He dreamed that he was standing in the exam room Looking at the students going in one by one, I was in a bad mood, so I squatted down and took a shit, the invigilator urged him to enter the examination room, but he didn't go, squatting there to play with shit, the teacher said, go in, he said, wait a minute Son, let me play a little longer. The results of the exam were not bad. I had one make-up exam, and Huayang had two. Alai passed all of them, and even got a third place in the class. For Huayang and I, the summer vacation was not fun, because we If you fail the make-up exam, according to the school regulations, you will have to wait until graduation to take the exam again. If you fail the exam, you will be admitted to the university. The school will only issue you a diploma, which will be miserable. 64 The first year of college passed by like this. In the summer vacation, Alai and I basically hang out every day. She told their family to participate in the summer camp organized by the school and go to Beidaihe for a month. Their family also believed it. Woke me up and said to me: "Let's go to Beidaihe to play!" Then he dragged a big bag in from the door, and said to me who was sleepy: "Get up quickly, the train to Beidaihe is about to arrive!" Open." After speaking, he fell down beside me, hugged me very tightly, and said to me: "If you treat me badly, I will have to go to Beidaihe." 65 During the holidays, the heat was unbearable, I didn’t want to go out during the day, and staying at home was extremely boring, so I read all the romance novels I could borrow with Alai, and I could read one or two every day. The two of us compared each other, and Qiong Yao , there is Wang Shuo, there is Dumas fils, there is Duras... Alai's mood is affected by the novel, and it becomes good and bad, and sometimes he secretly cries. The most amazing thing is that she can remember the content of the book very clearly, even the names of the people are exactly the same. We read casually at first, but then it became endless reading, sometimes while listening to music, because the books we read are not the same. In the same way, one of them often wants to go out after reading a book, while the other is in high spirits and disagrees at all, so outdoor activities become less and less, and even swimming is given up. At this point, the books I have read are piled up in a pile, and I will return them to Li Wei or others immediately, and then I will borrow new ones. When I read it, I finally shed tears. The name of the book I still remember is "For Whom the Bell Tolls" by Hemingway. During the summer vacation, Hua Yang and Xin Xiaoye only came once. Seeing that Alai and I were studying romance novels hard, they satirized us a few words and took away a lot of them. Afterwards, they never came again. 66 In September 1988, the second year of college came. I didn’t pass the make-up exam, but Hua Yang passed one. I was reminded at the beginning of the new semester that this school year I have to change my appearance, be a new person, stop absenteeism, and don’t violate any rules and regulations formulated by the school. I also decided to avoid trouble, so I gave up. Day school, and live back to school. In the first few days, I didn’t feel anything. As time went on, I gradually lost confidence. It seems that there are all kinds of people in the world. Some people can listen to it for forty-five minutes in class, while others I can't, after understanding this point, I realized in my heart that there was nothing wrong with me, but that I belonged to the kind of person who didn't like to go to class. So, everything returned to the old way. 67 When Hua Yang called me, I was sleeping on the bed. Although I didn’t really fall asleep, I was always a little angry when I was woken up. Moreover, when he called me, I was just about to wake up. Because of such a small amount, I couldn't adapt to the fact of waking up, and it didn't matter if he called me, but he just called me casually when he saw me lying there.I agreed, but saw him climb into bed and go to sleep. I took out the watch from under the pillow, and it was 10:15, which was the time when the third class started. Fortunately, there was still a little drowsiness left in my mind, so I lay down in another position, put my head under the pillow, and tried to make the drowsiness gradually expand until I thought I was asleep. In fact, I didn't really fall asleep, I just kept a sleepless state. I supported myself, stiffened on the bed, motionless, breathing evenly, and my heartbeat was slow. In this way, I finally entered a daydream, a dream Like all the movies in the past, they are projected frame by frame before the eyes, sometimes at high speed, sometimes with fast switching, and sometimes with unbearable long shots. , the timer stopped, I looked at my watch, it was ten minutes before lunch, so I jumped up from the bed, picked up the lunch box from the table, shook wildly, Hua Yang also woke up, and we walked to the cafeteria together , to eat the lunch that must be eaten every day. On the way to the cafeteria, both of us were not fully dressed yet. I was buttoning my buttons and walking. Hua Yang stopped from time to time to tie loose shoelaces. The students came out of each classroom and were also rushing towards the cafeteria. Carrying a schoolbag, they look haggard, as if a gust of wind could blow them all away. Most of the boys and girls are slender. It is these people who are said to be the pillars of the country in the future. I think it would be a bit strange if the country really planned to do so. Sure, but it’s hard to say, the way they squeezed towards the window when they were queuing up and stuffing children can also be said to be a bit of a pillar of strength.Newspapers often refer to college students as bean sprouts. I think the person who wrote the article must have been to the school cafeteria, where the most common thing to eat is bean sprouts. Since we went early, we got to the front of the queue, and I bought a copy for Alai, so as not to look for her in the queue. Soon, Alai arrived, and when he saw me smiling, Hua Yang sent him A chair next to me hooked over with my feet, and let Alai sit down. Alai took out the lunch box from the small pocket in his hand, and I poured the vegetables in my lunch box. Alai said to Hua Yang: "Are you Didn't you go back to the dormitory in the second class? I saw you, when the bell rang, everyone else ran towards the classroom, but you were the opposite, going straight to the dormitory, didn't you?" Hua Yang broke an uneatable steamed bun into countless small pieces and threw it on the table, yawned, looked around, and said to Alai: "How is it possible? I found that to go back to pick up the book, and Zhou Wen can prove it." , I also helped to get his book." I nodded: "I gave false testimony, what Hua Yang said is true." Alai glanced at me: "Where are the books, where are your books?" Hua Yang tilted me and shook the lunch box: "You are so stupid, didn't I tell you it was a perjury? I'll go first. Hey, Zhou Wen, I will go to Xin Xiaoye's school in the afternoon. We will meet again in class tomorrow." , we must see each other tomorrow, it's the class of Shrimp." After all, he stood up and walked towards the sink behind us for washing dishes without looking back. Alai asked me, "Where are we going this afternoon?" "I don't know, where are you going?" "Do you want to go to the art gallery? I heard there is an oil painting exhibition there." "No, is there any other place to go?" "there is none left." "Let's go then." 68 When Alai was washing the lunch box, I was waiting for her outside the cafeteria with her schoolbag. The sun was shining outside, the sky was as blue as washing, and a few birds flew from afar, bouncing on the ground, and then flew away. The campus Lunchtime music, George Michael's "Silent Talk," blared from the loudspeaker in the cafeteria, and Alai emerged from the cafeteria refreshed, a lunch box in one hand—mine and hers—and headed straight for the I'm coming.We headed back to the dormitory to put things away, then met at the gate of the school, and went straight to the art gallery. We came out of the art gallery after a while, but we spent a long time at the stall outside the art gallery, where Alai bought I bought a denim shirt, forced me to buy a gray T-shirt, almost made me change it on the side of the road, a girl was trying on a pair of denim pants at a stall, and I saw her thighs, Alella Seeing me step aside, I kept asking me: "Can't control myself, really want to see it?" I honestly told her: "I really want to see it." She was so angry that she rolled her eyes and yelled at me: "Then go and see her, why are you walking around me?" I said, "Alay, I see that you two have similar legs." Alai suddenly became angry: "Where does it look like, what do you think it looks like? You can't see clearly, how short her legs are." I said, "Hush your voice down, people will hear you in a while." Alai said: "If you hear it, you will hear it. Anyway, sooner or later someone will tell her, tell her that she has a pair of sad legs." She gave me a white look, "not the kind of sad that makes people dream about." I echoed, "Of course not, I'm sad for myself." "It's for her." "I'm sad for you." Alai's eyes widened. "Do you want me to try on a pair of pants?" I said: "Forget it, don't make me feel embarrassed for you by walking next to you." "Are you feeling sorry for yourself?" Alai and I bickered and plunged in one direction. We didn’t know where we were going. We walked and found the back door of Beihai. After thinking about it, there was no other place to go, so we had to buy a ticket and go in. Going west by the lake, we walked through Jingxinzhai, Nine Dragon Wall, and Wulong Pavilion, where a group of old men sang Peking opera, some played huqin, some played drums, and the singing was quite energetic, so we had to go back. , walked half a circle around the lake, came to the dock, and walked forward again. In front of it was the pedal boat dock. We rented a boat there and rushed to Qiongdao. At first, we pedaled very fast. Water splashed on both sides, and arrived at the edge of the island within two strokes. Even the dirty marks on the White Pagoda could be clearly seen, so then went south, passed the east gate, crossed a bridge, and circled the island , Alai stopped stepping on it, I can row the boat to the center of the lake by myself, there are not many cruise ships around, and there are weeping willows on the far shore, the water surface is green, with layers of ripples, the sun has turned to the west Come on, it's almost dusk.Stop the boat and let it float on the water. Alai and I sat side by side. The boat moved up and down gently. Say, "I'm probably suspended, it's been two weeks." I didn't speak, and looked at her, Alai looked anxious.In order to comfort her, I patted her on the shoulder, threw away the cigarette in my hand, and stroked her hair with my hand. Alai tilted his head to my side, and strenuously reached for me across the seat. I leaned over Body to kiss her.After a while, Alai said, "I felt a little pain in my stomach when I came here." After that, he reached into his trousers, groped between his legs for a while, took out his hand to have a look, and told me, "No." I grabbed her hand and held it in the palm of my hand. I didn't know what to say. Before that, I was also a little bit worried. When Alai said this, it seemed that everything was self-evident. All of a sudden, I lost all thoughts and feet. Unconsciously stepped on the pedal, and drove to the place where the boat was returned. We returned the boat and went straight to Andingmen. After entering the door, Alai went to the kitchen to cook a small pot of egg noodles with tomatoes. We ate, then fell on the bed and listened to the Beatles. He told me that his stomach hurts, and tried to test it with his hands, but there was nothing. We decided to break the pot and start to rush, both of us were a little desperate. Leaving her face, she hugged me back, I don't know why, it took me a long time to finish, Alai wouldn't let me go, and then she leaned on me and said to me: "I will never talk to you again. You are in bed." Then she wiped the toilet paper from under the pillow, and suddenly she yelled, smiled, and showed me the roll of toilet paper, which was red.I smiled and asked her: "Will you not sleep with me in the future?" Alai said excitedly, "You don't have that ability anyway, so it doesn't matter if you get in bed or not." 69 The previous days were easy to say, but Alai and I were both terribly scared, almost in a constant state of panic. Alai avoided himself in those ten days, reading a novel by Marquez, and her love for I was quite satisfied with her attitude during those days, so I called those days "love during the period of false pregnancy". That was the longest time when Alai's menstrual period came late, and it came 14 days late. According to popular science books If we do it with the knowledge introduced above, then we may have already gone to the hospital to embarrass ourselves. In fact, I really raised a sum of money, a total of 100 yuan, to be used for the operation fee. Of course, after the incident, Alai and I Happily spending the money, instead of buying contraceptives or pills, bought books and tapes, which had the side effect of overcoming Alai's fear of getting pregnant. I think that no matter what we do, nothing will happen to me, and I even say that there will be no future for me in the future, because we will have no next generation. The reason is of course me, not her. In daily life, this kind of thinking manifests in: Ah Sometimes Lai even offered to mess with me, which she called teasing, so she added a new catchphrase, "Zhou Wen, can you do it today?"