Chapter 4 Chapter 3 The Bird Flying Backwards

"Yu Wuguo has to leave!" After the underwear store closed, Xu Yu came to me and told me. "Where are you going?" "He wants to study in America." "read?" "I heard that there is a school in the United States that specializes in teaching people to write novels. Michael Kiridon also took classes there, and later wrote "Congo" and "Jurassic Park." "Really? I haven't heard of it." "Yu Wuguo really surprised me a while ago. He seems to have nothing to do these days. He said that his inspiration was exhausted, so he put a lot of pressure on himself. He wanted to go out for a walk."

"That's a good thing, otherwise he might be the first person to go crazy writing science fiction since the opening of Hong Kong." "But he said he would go alone." "Alone? How long will you be going?" "He said he could go as long as he wanted." "Does he want to break up with you?" Xu Yu looked at me helplessly, and couldn't help but shed a tear: "He didn't say break up, he said he wanted to try another life, he was overwhelmed by life. Maybe I hindered his creation , can a writer not have a stable emotional life?"

I don't know how to answer this question, I thought there is no difference between a writer and anyone else, everyone is wandering in a stable and unstable relationship, sometimes getting balanced and sometimes losing it, but one thing is for sure, Yu Wu Guo and Xu Jade's feelings are changing.The man began to want to get rid of this relationship, and wanted to find a way out.There are only two outcomes: he finally finds out that Xu Yu is his favorite woman or he finally decides to break up with Xu Yu. Xu Yu opened her purse and took out a tissue to wipe her tears. I saw a lot of cash in her purse.

"Why did you bring out so much cash?" "I went to the bank to mention it to Yu Wuguo, and let him go to the United States." "Is it your savings?" Xu Yu nodded: "There are tens of thousands of yuan here, all of my savings." "He is too capricious, take your money to travel by himself." I said. "He's not going on a trip, he's going to relax. Zhou Rui, Yu Wuguo has always been a willful person. You didn't live with him, you just don't know. He often does what he likes and doesn't care about other people's feelings Well, as his wife, I have to always follow him and clean up the mess for him. For example, the newspaper office calls to follow up on the manuscript, but he never answers the phone, and I go to talk to him. He scolded people, and it was me. To apologize to people. He refused to get up and go to work. I called to ask for sick leave for him. I know he doesn't like to socialize, and I still don't dare to ask him to see my family."

I shook my head and smiled wryly. "What are you laughing at?" Xu Yu asked me. "I am very similar to Yu Wuguo. I am the most self-willed one. Sen has always cleaned up the mess for me. It seems that I am very happy." "I don't think I'm unfortunate! I like to take care of Yu Wuguo, and it's important that he needs me." Unlike Xu Yu, I am not used to taking care of others. I like to be taken care of, and I think it is very important for me to be taken care of. "When will Yu Wuguo leave?" "We need to see when the ticket is booked, it will be soon."

"What about you?" "He promised to call me. In the past few days, I have thought about a lot of things that I would not have thought about before. If you love someone, you should give him space, right?" "You are much smarter." I admired. If there is a kind of woman who grows up by falling in love and falling in love, Xu Yu is this kind of woman. Two weeks later, Yu Wuguo took the money Xu Yu gave him to find freedom and space.Xu Yu suppressed tears when sending off the plane, but Yu Wuguo left as briskly as a prodigal son.I still think being cared for is much happier than taking care of others.There is someone who will always clean up the mess for you, so why not be willful?

The semi-annual price reduction starts on this day, and many people who don’t usually come to the underwear shop come to the underwear store. These people are usually reluctant to buy expensive underwear, but admire famous brands, so they often appear when the price is 30% off or half price. At dusk, a thin woman came in to choose underwear. She looked very familiar, and I seemed to know her.I was so busy all day, I couldn't remember where I saw her.The woman's figure is not plump, I think she can only wear thirty-two A at most, she wandered in the store for a long time, I couldn't help asking her:

"Miss, can I help you?" "Is there a magic bust?" she asked me. "Ah, yes." I had already guessed that she wanted some special effect busts, so I didn't work up the courage to ask until the shop was not too crowded. "There are three kinds of magic bust, which one do you want?" I asked her. "What kinds are there?" "Strong, moderate and light." "Jinto." She said without hesitation. "Strength support is a very popular model, it can lift the chest by two inches." "Does this seem to be deceiving others?" She was a little hesitant.

"Cheating others? How can you say that you are cheating others? In fact, it is similar to makeup, just beautifying. You don't need to tell others if you put on makeup, right?" Satisfied with my explanation, she said, "Then let me try." "What size do you want?" "Thirty-two A." She said softly, with a look of inferiority on her face. Thirty-two A women stayed in the fitting room for more than twenty minutes. "Miss, do you need help?" I asked her. "Will it be too exaggerated?" She let me into the fitting room. On her left breast are five small moles arranged like a comma.I will not forget this comma.

"Are you Youying?" I asked her. "You are Zhou Rui?" All with a comma. "Are you really You Ying? I recognize your comma." I pointed to the comma formed by five small moles on You Ying's chest. "That's great! I felt very close to you just now, as if I met you a long time ago." You Ying took my hand and turned around happily. You Ying and I have known each other since infancy, she was born three months earlier than me.We are neighbors, and we go to the same elementary school, and we walk to school together every day. She and I often take a bath together, so I recognize the comma on her chest, and You Ying said it looks like an ear.I'd rather believe it was a comma, it's just too weird to have an ear on the chest.You Ying used to be very fat, I thought she would become a hippopotamus when she grew up, but I didn't expect her to be so thin now, so I almost couldn't recognize her.

"You have reduced a lot." I said to You Ying. "I was very fat before I was ten years old, but I refused to eat when I was growing up, so I got this figure." "I thought I would never see you again, why did you move away suddenly?" I remember that when You Ying was in the fifth grade of elementary school, their family suddenly moved away overnight, and You Ying even dropped out of school. We lost contact after that.I still don't understand why she moved away.At that time, I was very lost. As a child, I suddenly lost my best friend, which made me have childhood shadows. I was very afraid that the people around me would disappear overnight. I left without saying a word or saying goodbye. I go. You Ying sat down and said: "The thing is like this, my father won a lottery ticket with the first prize." I was taken aback: "The jackpot betting ticket?" "The bonus is one million yuan, which is one million yuan 18 years ago. It can buy dozens of floors." You Ying said. "It turns out that you have made a fortune!" "My father is a very suspicious person. After he got the bonus, he was very afraid that his relatives, friends and neighbors would borrow money from him or try to trick him, blackmail him, kidnap his children, etc. The more he thought about it, the more he thought about it. Afraid, he took us from Hong Kong to the New Territories by night, and changed schools for our four siblings. He even changed a new name himself.” "Then haven't you become a rich lady?" "The later story is not like this—" You Ying said. "My dad took the one million and bought only one floor. Who would have thought that property prices would rise so much? He used to work in a garment factory and wanted to own his own garment factory. He was in He bought a garment factory in Tsuen Wan and started his own garment business. He did make money in the first few years, but later, he misread the timing and thought that elastic fabrics would be popular, so he bought a batch of elastic.” You Ying said. "Elastic?" I wondered. You Ying gestured with his hands: "It's very thick and large elastic bands, bundled in bundles, each bundle is as big as a piece of cloth, mixed into the fabric, it becomes elastic clothing material. He thought it would be made of that The rubber bands are well developed, and the rubber bands can be speculated and sold at that time, so the factory is mortgaged to the bank, and all of them are used to buy rubber bands.” "The results of it?" "As a result, elastic clothing materials did not become popular. The factory was sold to someone else, and the elastic was moved back home. Our whole house is covered with elastic. The places where we sleep, where we eat, the bathroom, and the kitchen are all elastic." "Is this how your father went bankrupt?" "No. At that time we still had a floor. My father was very upset, so he mortgaged the house and set up a garment factory again. As a result, we didn't even have the only floor. We moved from the top of Tsuen Wan Peak to the foot of Tsuen Wan Mountain. I Dad's betting ticket dream has only been issued for ten years." "Your dad was really born at the wrong time. He bought those rubber bands more than ten years earlier, and elastic clothing is only popular now!" I said. "I often make fun of him like this. I always wanted to find you in the old house, but when I left so suddenly, I didn't know what to say when I went back." "I didn't expect that we would meet again here." I said. "Yeah! I'll let you know my measurements as soon as we meet again." "You must have a boyfriend!" You Ying said melancholy: "This moment is still there, I don't know if we will be separated tomorrow." "Why do you say that?" I asked You Ying. "Any relationship, as long as it goes on for a long time, it will become dull." You Ying said helplessly. It didn't seem right to talk to her about it in a lingerie shop, so I suggested we have dinner together. "Okay! Anyway, he won't accompany me tonight." You Ying said. You Ying and I ate Indian food on Wyndham Street in Central. You Ying took out a photo from her wallet and showed it to me, it was an intimate photo of her and her boyfriend. "His name is Chang Dahai." You Ying said sweetly. "It looks good! It's a talent." I said.That man was indeed handsome. "We have been together for seven years, and he is a lawyer." "How did you meet?" "We work in the same law firm. I'm the boss's secretary." "Your name is You Ying, and his name is Dahai. They match perfectly." I said with a smile. "We also walked together because of this subtle coincidence." "I also know a man who was born on the same day as me, but we are not lovers." I said. "The so-called coincidence is only to make the relationship between the two people develop faster in the early stage." You Ying said. "Where is your problem? Is there a third party?" "I'm pretty sure he doesn't have a second woman, and neither do I." "What's the reason for that?" "My breasts are too small—" You Ying said. "Your breasts are actually not small. For Chinese women, they are also in line with the standard. I have seen ones smaller than yours." I comforted You Ying. Still frowning, she said, "You are older than me." I looked at my breasts and said embarrassingly, "I'm not very good either. Size doesn't matter. Some women have big breasts, but they sag. Some women's breasts are not big, but their breasts are beautifully shaped." "Honestly, I have low self-esteem. The sea said my breasts are too small." "He said so?" "He didn't criticize maliciously, he just mentioned it incidentally, and more than once." "But you've been together for seven years, wouldn't he just know your body today?" "Of course not. When we were first together, I asked him if he didn't mind, and he said he didn't like women with big breasts. But I know he actually likes big breasts." "When a man gets older, his eyes will move down when looking at a woman, from the face to the chest." I said with a smile.This is what Sen told me. "Zhou Rui, it turns out there is a so-called seven-year itch." You Ying told me seriously, "I didn't believe it before. I have been with Dahai for seven years. Recently, he often falls asleep in the middle of sex. He never Tried this. I found out that he reads "Playboy", you know, in this magazine, there are pictures of women with big breasts. There is a female lawyer who just graduated from the law firm. The woman has big breasts and sits When I come down to eat, a pair of breasts can be put on the stage." You Ying tried to demonstrate it to me, but unfortunately she couldn't put it on the stage. "Is that so?" I demonstrated to her. "Yes, that's it. It can be wiped out. She is doing an internship with Dahai." I understand why You Ying bought a magic bust. I'm not an expert in sexology, so I can't help Youying solve the sexual problems between her and Chang Dahai.I think, having sex with the same person for seven years might be really boring, especially a man. "Is this really useful?" You Ying pointed to the bra she just bought and asked me. "You try it tonight!" "You know what? I've never bought such an expensive bust." "After the price reduction period, I can buy it for you at the employee price." "Thank you." "I'm waiting for your good news!" I exchanged contact numbers with You Ying, but I didn't expect that we hadn't seen each other for 18 years, and when we met, we would talk about sexual issues, and our childhood acquaintance was indeed very cordial. The next morning, I received a call from You Ying. "It's really useful!" She said happily. "He praised me for being sexy. It's the first time I've heard him describe me with that adjective. He didn't fall asleep in the middle of last night!" "Isn't that great? Looks like you're going to buy a lot!" I didn't expect women's underwear to have the same function as sex experts.A woman pinned down by sex seems to be reborn. That night, on the bed, I asked Sen: "Are you bored?" "Bored of what?" "To my body." I said, sitting on top of him. Sen laughed: "Why do you say that?" "Facing the same woman's body every day, one day I will get bored." "Who said this?" "I asked you if you would?" "I can be with you and do nothing." He hugged me. "You hugged another woman before. Do you have any secret agreement with her? You promised her not to see me again after a certain day." "Your imagination is really rich." He shook his head and smiled wryly. "Are we going to keep going like this?" "What is the price for this floor if you want to buy it?" he asked me. "At least two million more." "I'll buy it for you." He told me seriously. "No." I said. "Why not? You don't like this floor?" I shook my head: "Why did you buy it for me?" "You are my favorite woman." He kissed me. "I'm not your wife, you can buy it for her." I got angry with him. "I owe you." "You don't owe me, even if you owe me, it's not money that can be compensated." "I know. I want to give you a sense of security. If one day, I'm not by your side, not in this world, I hope you can live a better life" I fell on Sen's body, weeping uncontrollably.What's the use of a floor if I have a floor and lose him? "Don't cry!" He wiped my tears for me, "Tomorrow, you can ask the owner how much you will be willing to sell it." "Are you trying to use this floor as a parting gift?" I asked him. Sen Wan'er: "How can there be such a wealthy man in the world, who would give away a flat after breaking up? You really don't understand men." "One day, if you don't love me anymore, you will take back this floor. Right?" "I won't stop loving you, and I won't take back this floor. Why do you doubt me? Even you don't believe me?" "No, I believe you." I hugged Sen.He probably didn't understand that if he suddenly gave me a generous gift, it would make me think wildly. Xu Yu's thinking was just the opposite of mine. She said, "He is willing to buy you a floor because he intends to be with you forever." I asked the owner, and he asked for 2.6 million.Because it is an old building, the bank is only willing to make a 60% mortgage. "You don't need to make a mortgage, just pay in one lump sum," Sen said. "Aren't you afraid that I won't want you after I get this floor?" I didn't expect him to trust me so much. "I never doubted you." "Can the house deed be registered in our two names?" "No, don't use my name." "Why?" I asked him. "It's fine to register in your own name. If you add my name, you will lose half of the property rights if you have anything to do with me in the future." "If you have anything to do, it's useless for me to ask for this floor." "Don't be so stupid, you should protect yourself. In case I divorce her or something happens to me, she can take half or all of my things." This is Sen's first mention of divorce. "Are you going to get a divorce?" "I have nothing when I get divorced." He smiled wryly. "If money can solve problems, why not use money?" "In this world, besides money, there is morality. What man can she find?" Men are always self-righteous, they refuse to divorce and think they are noble, they think that woman can't find a better man than him, but they don't understand that a man who doesn't love a woman but refuses to let go is just depriving her A chance to find a man who loves her more. "Do you think I can find a good man?" I asked him. "You can, you are so beautiful, many men want to pursue you." He hugged my face and said. I often thought that it was me who was insecure. It turned out that Senbi was insecure. He was very confident in his work, but he was afraid that a woman would leave him.I looked at Sen Yuanqian's back, a man with such a strong back was afraid of losing me. "Sen!" He turned to me and asked, "What's the matter?" I fought back my tears and said, "I won't go." "You won't leave until you're thirty?" He asked me with a smile. I shake my head. Xu Yu came to the lingerie store and gave me a set of bed sheets and a pillow bag as a housewarming gift. "Did Yu Wuguo call you back?" "Yes! He even wrote me a letter." She said excitedly. "Wouldn't that be nice?" "He said he missed me very much." Xu Yu took out a letter from the United States from his purse. "Keep it with you! It must be a very touching letter. May I see it?" "You want to see?" Xu Yu was stunned. "I haven't read a love letter! What's more, it's a writer's love letter! It must be touching and exciting, right?" "Well, seeing that you are so pitiful, I will let you have a look." The letter reads as follows: "Jade: Here I saw a lot of birds and white pigeons, they all flew forward, I wondered, can birds fly backwards?As a result, I found in the book that there is a very small bird called a hummingbird, which sucks honey to survive like a bee.When it hovers above the flowers and stops at a fixed flying point like a helicopter, it can fly backwards, but it can only fly backwards a little... During the days when I was alone outside without you, I often miss the scene when we first met. If people can fly upside down like a hummingbird and go back to the past, it would be so wonderful.As time goes by, everything will become complicated. I almost forgot the many beautiful love words between us. I remembered it again when you were not by my side. I really hope to see you soon! Yuwuguo" I'm really jealous of Xu Yu, she actually received such a touching letter of love. "How is it?" Xu Yu asked me. "As expected of a writer, it's so touching!" "Me too! I've watched it many times, and I can't help crying every time I watch it." "He loves you very much!" "I miss him very much." "Why don't you go see him?" "Where do I have money to buy plane tickets!" "Do you want money?" "No need! Yu Wuguo said that he wants to live alone, and I don't want to disturb him. If I'm not by his side, he will miss me more and more. I hope to see him come back by himself." "Yes, it's what you can't get that makes you dream." "So I began to understand why you and Tang Vincent are so close." "Sen can't write such a touching letter!" "But he gave you a floor!" Xu Yu said with a smile. If Sen is also a hummingbird, and can fly backwards, before he gets married, how wonderful it would be!As time goes by, everything will become complicated. The longer I spend with him, the longer he spends with that woman, the deeper the friendship, the less likely he will be to divorce. "Are you okay?" Xu Yu asked me. "I was wondering why the hummingbird can fly backwards." "Why can hummingbirds fly backwards? Let me write to ask Yu Wu Guo." Xu Yu said. "Hummingbirds may be crazy, so they fly backwards, but birds always fly forward!" I said with a smile. "Who is crazy?" You Ying walked in and said. After using the magic bust, You Ying has really changed, and her attitude is more coquettish. "You came just in time. Let me introduce you. This is Xu Yu, my good friend; this is You Ying, our childhood sweetheart, we met again recently." "I've seen you!" You Ying said to Xu Yu, "I saw you in a bust advertisement!" "She's a model," I said. "You have a good figure!" You Ying praised. Xu Yu smiled from ear to ear: "It's not very good, I only have thirty-six A." "You seem to have thirty-six C." You Ying said. "Not that great." "I don't know what thirty-six C will be like?" You Ying looked curious. "It's about the size of a three-year-old's head!" I said. "My figure is not as good-looking as Zhou Rui! She is very average all over, she is thirty-four A!" "I couldn't see it when I was young!" You Ying said, "I really envy you, I'm only thirty-two A." "Then aren't we three A-cup women?" Xu Yu said. "It's not just three women who are out of the club!" I said. "Why are you so free today?" I asked You Ying. "Dahai has work to do tonight, I'm coming to you for dinner, are you free?" "Is it okay for the three of us to eat together?" "Okay." Xu Yu said. "I'll tell you a story about Thirty-Six C later," You Ying said. I had dinner with You Ying and Xu Yu in a Shanghai restaurant. "Tell me the story of Thirty-six C, who is it?" I asked You Ying. "Isn't it the female lawyer Luo who is intern in the law firm, her name is Oli Huahu. Since she came, the men in the law firm have been very lucky." "Does she often wear low-cut shirts?" Xu Yu asked. "She can even wipe the table with her breasts!" You Ying sneered. "You hate her so much, she must always wink at Chang Dahai?" I made fun of You Ying. "She made a joke recently." You Ying said, "She came back wearing a loose suspender skirt, and the bust without straps fell out. She caught it with her hands in time and made us laugh!" You Yingyi Vice gloating expression. "She might have used some cheap bust," I said. Throughout the night, You Ying kept talking about that Oli flower, I think her hatred for that Oli flower is a bit unusual, she kept making fun of Oli flower's impressive figure, almost laughing until she burst into tears, instead she seemed like It is more jealousy than hatred. Xu Yu went to the bathroom, and You Ying told me, "I want breast augmentation." "Breast augmentation?" I was taken aback. "Do you know any plastic surgeon?" You Ying asked me. "I haven't had plastic surgery yet." I said awkwardly. "I know Dahai likes big breasts." You Ying said dejectedly. "Didn't you say that your relationship is very close now? Besides, you also use a magic bust now." "It is for this reason that I want to have breast augmentation. I don't need to use the magic bust in the future. I want to satisfy him." "The body is your own. Breast augmentation has many sequelae. In the past, people thought that silicon was safe, but now it has been proven to be problematic?" I tried my best to persuade You Ying to give up the idea of ​​breast augmentation. "Medical medicine is flourishing now." "I just saw a piece of news about a Turkish actress whose breasts suddenly burst open and collapsed." You Ying was startled: "Really?" "Besides, even if you have breast augmentation, you can't hide it from Dahai. If he loves you, he won't want you to take this risk. Your figure is actually very average. What's the problem with smaller breasts? As the saying goes, why do you need big breast augmentation? It’s not necessarily beautiful, I’ve seen a few clients who had breast augmentation, and I accidentally touched their breasts with my hand, it’s so hard, it’s totally unreal.” You Ying seemed to be intimidated by me, and said with a smile: "Actually, I'm just thinking about it, I don't have the courage yet." At this time, Xu Yu came back from the bathroom. "Guess who I ran into?" "Who?" I asked her. "Wang Sisi, you've seen some models before." I remembered that Wang Sisi is a fashion model, quite famous, famous for her flat chest, although she has a flat chest, she has a very good personality. "So she's married," Xu Yu said. "Are you married well?" I asked Xu Yu. "Her husband is a well-known plastic surgeon, and many celebrities also ask him for plastic surgery. She even gave me a business card." You Ying cheered up, this time Xu Yu got into trouble. "Plastic doctor? Is it famous?" You Ying looked at the business card in Xu Yu's hand. "Wang Sisi seems to have breast augmentation. Her breasts were flat before. When I saw her just now, they seemed to be much plumper," Xu Yu said. "Can I have this?" You Ying asked Xu Yu. "Do you want to have plastic surgery?" Xu Yu was curious. "Are you serious?" I asked You Ying. The next day, I was still worried and called You Ying again. "Don't go for plastic surgery casually." I reminded her. "I've been thinking about it all night, but I still can't muster up the courage. You are so lucky that you don't need to go through this kind of mental struggle." You Ying said. "I have other mental struggles," I laugh. "Do you want to meet Chang Dahai?" You Ying asked me. "Can I see him?" "Why not? I mentioned you to him!" You Ying asked me to have lunch in Central.This is the first time I have met Chang Dahai, he is not like a man who likes big breasts at all. Chang Dahai is about five feet ten inches tall, with fine features and delicate features. You Ying said that he likes women with big breasts. Chang Dahai is a lawyer in charge of criminal proceedings. "Last year, in the case where the wife dismembered her husband, he was the defense lawyer." You Ying said. "I only acted as her defense lawyer in the early stage, and in the end a barrister has to act." Chang Dahai corrected. "She dismembered her husband and cooked his meat to eat. She was only imprisoned for six years. Is the sentence too light?" I asked Chang Dahai. "The law is not to judge whether someone has done something, but whether he has a reasonable reason to explain what he did. This woman has a mental problem." Chang Dahai said. "Her husband hasn't had sex with her for twenty years," You Ying said. "Knowing that a person is guilty, but denying and defending him, will it be painful?" I asked Chang Dahai. "The law is a very painful struggle." Chang Dahai said. "I've heard similar sayings, that sentence is: Divorce is a very painful wrestling." I said. "Whether to get married or not is also a very painful struggle." You Ying suddenly felt emotional, and looked at Chang Dahai resentfully. Chang Dahai seemed to turn a deaf ear to it. "Being human is also a very painful wrestling." I joked. "Oh, yes, yes." You Ying nodded frequently. When You Ying was smiling, the lemonade in her mouth accidentally dropped on her clothes, and Chang Dahai took out his handkerchief to wipe off the water stains on her body.Dahai is still very careful with her, but most men don't want to get married. "Will your wife chop you into meat sauce and cook it while you are asleep?" I asked Sen on the phone after returning to the underwear store. "Sooner or later this will happen," Sen said. "She must love you so much that she wants to eat your meat." "Hate to the bone will do the same thing." "Without love, how can there be hatred?" I said bitterly. "Then will you also chop me into meat sauce?" "I don't like pate," I said. "In case I unfortunately become meat sauce, will you still recognize that ball of meat sauce as me?" Sen asked me with a smile. I suddenly felt very scared, I was really afraid that he would be chopped into meat paste by that woman. "Stop talking!" "This may be the fate of any man who changes his mind. Either the words are chopped into meat paste, or the whole person is chopped into meat paste." "Stop talking, please." I begged him. "If you find me turned into a ball of meat paste, don't be afraid, that is the price of loving you." I couldn't help crying, if I want him to turn into meat sauce for me, I would rather give him back to that woman. In fashion design class at night, I think about a dollop of pate and have no appetite. "Shall we have dinner together?" Chen Dingliang asked me after class. I saw that I was alone anyway, so I agreed to have dinner with him, and Chen Dingliang chose a nearby Italian restaurant. "I want spaghetti bolognese," he told the waiter. I almost queasy. Chen Dingliang ate spaghetti bolognese with great relish. "I ran into my ex-wife last night." Chen Dingliang said. "You are really destined." I said. "She's pregnant, her belly is protruding." Chen Dingliang gestured with his hands. "Are you happy or frustrated?" I couldn't tell from his face. "Of course I'm happy, but I'm also very frustrated. She has been with me for five years and has never laid an egg. She became pregnant not long after she married her current husband." He smiled wryly. "Do you like children very much?" "I don't like it, and I'm scared." "Then why are you jealous!" "She had a baby with someone else!" "What you can't get, no one else can get it, right?" I satirized him. "Aren't you like that?" He asked me back. "I have no such experience," I said. "Do you sell underwear?" he asked me. "Do you want to buy it as a gift?" "Is there any underwear specially designed for pregnant women?" "There are underwear specially made for pregnant women, because their stomachs are too big to wear ordinary underwear. Generally, pregnant women also have to change to some larger bust sizes, because their breasts will swell, and the old ones will not fit. After giving birth, the breasts may loosen, so we need to use a bust made of harder material. After the birth, the belly is loose, and we also need to wear a special girdle to hold it in. So once a customer is pregnant, we can do business." I say. "So it's like this, being a woman is really hard." "Why are you so interested in pregnant women? You still miss your ex-wife, don't you?" "No, it's just that I saw her pregnant and felt very strange. We used to sleep together. I am familiar with her naked body. Naturally, I am curious and concerned about the changes in her body." "Are all men like this? Broke up and still miss her body?" "He doesn't miss every woman's body," Chen Dingliang said. "It's not that I can't forget her, but I also miss her body. I don't understand this." "A man may not have loved a woman and still remember her body if it ever pleased him." "If it's like what you said, a man's memory can only have sex, not love." I said. "Aren't women like that?" he asked me back. "A woman's memory must have love." I said. "Lie!" He sneered. "Why do you say I'm lying?" I was dissatisfied. "Don't women remember a certain sex with a man?" "That's because she loves that man," I emphasized. "Recalling a sex session is a sex session and nothing else should be involved." Chen Dingliang is really scary. He is very confident and believes in his ability to understand women.Of course, women will only recall a certain sex, but it is too difficult for women to admit this in person. "A woman told me." Chen Dingliang said. "Did she say she recalled a sex session you had with her, but didn't love you?" I teased him. "You like to mock people very much." Chen Dingliang didn't do anything to me. "This is my specialty." I said proudly. Chen Dingliang drove me home in his Jeep. "When will Yu Wuguo's second book be published? I promised to design the cover for him." Chen Dingliang told me. "He went to the United States to take a short course. She and Xu Yu had a little problem, but it should be fine now." "What's the problem?" he asked me. "Every couple has problems!" "Exactly." He said with a smile. "Is it fun to drive a Jeep?" I saw that he was intoxicated. "Do you have a driver's license?" he asked me. "Yes, I took the test five years ago, and I have renewed my license once, but I have never driven a car before." "Would you like to try driving this car?" he asked me. "No, I can't, I've forgotten how to drive." "You don't have to be afraid if you have a driver's license!" Chen Dingliang parked the car on the side of the road. "Come on, it's up to you to drive." "No! No! No!" I quickly refused. "Come! Come! Come! Don't be afraid, I'll sit next to you." Chen Dingliang opened the car door and kept persuading me to get out of the car. I dared to sit in the driver's seat. "Do you remember how to drive?" Chen Dingliang asked me. I nod. "Okay! Start!" I entered the wave, stepped on the accelerator and left in the dust, and the journey was smooth. "Not bad!" He praised me, "You can drive faster." I was on the gas pedal, speeding down the road, and somehow the whole car flipped. Chen Dingliang and I hung upside down in the carriage. "How?" I asked him. "Climbing out, of course, are you okay?" he asked me. I nodded, opened the door and climbed out. I used to do handstands when I was a child, so I didn't find it difficult to go out hanging upside down.The most embarrassing thing was that I was wearing a skirt. When I was hanging upside down, the skirt turned up, revealing my whole leg, which Chen Dingliang could see, and he might even see my underwear. Chen Dingliang climbed out of the car, and then helped me climb out of the car. "It's a miracle that we were not injured," Chen Dingliang said. Chen Dingliang and I worked together to turn the Jeep over. "Let me drive this time." Chen Dingliang said. "It's weird that we crashed on the same day," I said. “有什么奇怪？我们坐在同一辆车上。” “我意思是说，我们同月同日生。” “你跟我同月同日生？”他惊讶。 “是啊！十一月三日，同月同日。” “竟然这么巧合。”他一边开车一边说。 车子到了我的家。 “我到了，谢谢你送我回来，修车的费用，由我来负担好了。”我说。 “如果还能开的话，我不会拿去修理，这辆车本来就满身伤痕，象我。”他苦笑。 "Goodbye." I said. “再见，真不想这么快跟你分手。”陈定粱说了这句话，便开车离去。 我没机会看到他的表情，但他大概更不想看到我的表情，我很惊愕，他说出这样一句话。 回到家里，我在镜中看看自己，今夜的我竟然神采飞扬，原来女人是需要被仰慕的。咦，我的项链呢？森送给我的项链我明明挂在脖子上的，一定是翻车的时候掉了。 我连忙走到楼下，陈定粱的车已经去得无影无踪了，那条项链到底掉在车厢里，还是掉在翻车的地方呢？我发现我原来没有陈定粱的传呼机号码。在街上茫然若失，正想回去的时候，陈定粱竟然开车回来。 “是不是想找这个？”他调低车窗，伸手出来，手上拿着我的蝎子项链。 “噢！谢谢你。”我欢天喜地接过项链。 “我在车厢里发现的。”他说。 “我还以为掉在翻车的地方。”我把项链挂在脖子上。 “谢谢你，再见。”我跟他说。 "Goodbye," he said. 我走进大厦里，他还没有开车。 “你还不开车？”我问他。 他这时才猛然醒觉似的跟我挥手道别。 我心里出现的第一个问题是：“怎么办？” 我没有打算接受陈定粱，但仍然不知道怎么办，原来拒绝一个人也是很困难的。也许他并不是爱上我，只是今夜太寂寞，很想有一个女人和他温存，而碰巧我是一个卖内衣的女人，他又错误地以为卖内衣的女人很开放，于是想试一下我会不会跟他上床。 我打电话给徐玉，想把这件事情告诉她，她却抢着说：“宇无过回来了。” “宇无过就在身边，我让他跟你说。”徐玉把电话筒交给宇无过。 “周蕊，你好吗？”宇无过的声音很愉快。 “很好，你呢？你刚刚回来的吗？”我问他。 “我惦念着徐玉。”他坦率地说。 徐玉抢过电话跟我说：“他回来也不通知我一声，吓了我一跳。我们去吃宵夜，你来不来？” “不来了，不便妨碍你们久别重逢啊！” “你找我有什么事？”徐玉问我。 “不要紧的。明天再跟你说。” 我挂了线，悲从中来，为什么徐玉和宇无过可以那样自由地在一起，而我和森却不可以？我只好相信，我和森的爱情比起宇无过和徐玉那一段，甚至比起尘世里任何一段爱情都要深刻和难得，只有这样，我才可以忍受无法和他结合的痛苦。 我把蝎子项链放在温水里洗涤，如果我是蝎子就好了，只要够狠够毒，我会想出许多方法从那个女人手上把森抢过来，可是，我办不到，有良心的女人，其实都不该做第三者。 第二天晚上，徐玉找我吃饭，她说宇无过要谢谢我替他照顾她。我们在一间韩国餐厅吃饭，宇无过比起去美国之前健康得多，就象我最初认识他的时候一样。他的打扮依然没有多大进步，仍然穿着一双运动鞋，只是换了一个背囊。他没有神经病，也算幸运。 “周蕊想知道蜂鸟为什么可以倒退飞？”徐玉跟宇无过说。那是宇无过写给徐玉的信上提及过的。 “因为蜂鸟的翅膀比较独特。”宇无过说。 “怎样独特？”我问他。 宇无过说：“蜂鸟的翅膀平均每秒搏动五十次以上，因为速度如此快，所以可以在空中戛然停止，前进或后退。即使在平时的直线飞行，蜂鸟的翅膀也可以每秒搏动三十次，时速约五十至六十五公里，麻雀的时速只得二十至三十公里。” “原来如此。”我说。 “其实倒退飞并没有什么用处。”宇无过说。 “为什么？”徐玉问宇无过。 “人也用不着倒退走，若想回到原来的地方，只要转身向前走就行了。”宇无过说。 “可是，人是不能回到原来的地方的，思想可以倒退飞，身体却不可以。”我说。 “我宁愿不要倒退。”徐玉把手放在宇无过的大腿上说，“如果宇无过象去美国之前那样，不是很可怕吗？” “那段日子的你真的很吓人。”我跟宇无过说。 他吃吃地笑。 “香港好象没有蜂鸟。”我说。 “蜂鸟多数分布在南北美洲一带，总数约有三百多种。”宇无过告诉我。 “能找到蜂鸟的标本吗？”我问他。 “你想要？”他问我。 “你为什么对蜂鸟那么有兴趣？”徐玉不解地望着我。 “因为那是尘世里唯一的。”我说。 “我在美国认识一位朋友，他对鸟类很有研究的，我试试问问他。”宇无过说。 “谢谢你。你有想过写一个蜂鸟的故事吗？”我跟宇无过说。 "A science fiction story?" “一个男人，化成蜂鸟，一直倒退飞，飞到从前，跟一个本来不可以结合的女人结合……”我说。