Chapter 5 Chapter 3 The Wings of Desire

Xia Sangju is the promotion lady of the makeup crystal counter. She has regular clients, most of whom are also women.However, there are exceptions. Li Yiyu is one of the exceptions. He comes almost every day, every time to buy a bottle of perfume. The strange thing is that he never bought perfume just for the sake of buying perfume, and didn't mind what kind of perfume it was. As a result, colleagues are suspicious: he has other plans. To put it bluntly: he is for someone, such as Xia Sangju. This kind of thought is really exciting!So, Xia Sangju began to observe him consciously or unconsciously.

However, he was a veritable silent guest.He never talked much, he came in a hurry and left in a hurry.The appearance is cold and arrogant, handsome; there is always an indescribable melancholy hidden between his brows; his speech is short and incisive. An unpredictable guest indeed. Said he had that kind of attempt?Xia Sangju found it hard to be convincing, otherwise, he should at least introduce himself. She also studied him with her sister Xia Xinju, but Xia Xinju's reaction was rather flat: he was just a guest.Then I didn’t forget to make fun of her: research is research, you don’t want to fall into it by yourself.

At that time, Xia Sangju laughed it off. However, unexpectedly, the joke of the day actually became a "love curse" - Li Yiyu did not fall in love with Xia Sangju, but she fell in love with him. Their relationship started with her. On that day, she put on a special pink makeup and waited for him from the beginning of work in the morning, and he finally appeared before the department store closed. "My name is Xia Sangju," she immediately greeted him, and took the initiative to greet him: "Thank you for coming here often." "Hello." He actually looked at her and smiled. Although he still looked casual, Xia Sangju was already very satisfied.

"Are you buying so much perfume for your girlfriend?" Xia Sangju asked. "No, I like to collect. Perfume is really a very special thing." He replied. "Then you must have a lot of perfume bottles at home." She smiled sweetly.His answer seemed to be implying: I don't have a girlfriend. He was much "warmer" than she had imagined. "I like the smell of the perfume you put on yesterday." He said suddenly. "You actually noticed it?" She was overjoyed, but immediately felt that she had lost her composure and blushed. "You are a very beautiful girl." This is the first time Li Yiyu praised her: "Your skin is very good, you don't need makeup."

"Thank you." Xia Sangju smiled heartily. "Let's have dinner together?" Li Yiyu took advantage of the opportunity to invite. So, they went to a nice restaurant for dinner together. During the dinner, the two chatted happily, and the time passed quickly, and it was time to break up in a blink of an eye. After dinner, he sent her home, and she found that she couldn't leave him. Back downstairs in the building, instead of wasting time waiting for the elevator, she ran up the stairs in one go. Seeing her panting, Xia Xinju thought that some accident had happened.

Heaven pays off!She caught one last look at him before he leaned into the taxi. Xia Sangju reluctantly watched the car go away, and then sighed faintly. "You finally dated him." Xia Xinju didn't take it seriously: "Is he really charming?" "I finally met my man." Xia Sangju said. "How can you be sure that he is yours?" Xia Xinju was worried for her younger sister: "Maybe he doesn't take you to heart at all?" Xia Sangju was silent. She didn't have the courage to tell her: she took the initiative first. Xia Xinju is the host of the night talk show on the radio station, and she is used to all kinds of separations and separations.In her eyes, the love game between a man and a woman is nothing more than a game of chasing and torturing each other. She enjoys it happily, and even throws her head and blood when she is unlucky.

She felt that it was a pity that life had passed like this. Xia Sangju said: "I tried it, and if I didn't succeed, I would only regret it once; but if I don't try, I will regret it for the rest of my life." The relationship between the two sisters has always been very good, and she couldn't bear the slightest harm to her sister. "Then what about Liang Zhengwei?" Liang Zhengwei has always been in love with Xia Sangju. "Our relationship is just good friends, and only good friends. He knows it." "But he's going to be hurt." "Anyone who encounters this kind of thing will get hurt, there is nothing they can do about it." Xia Sangju said, "That's what you said on the show."

isn't it?Xia Sangju seemed to have matured a lot suddenly.Xia Xinju thought: Love makes people mature, it's true. That night, Xia Sangju slept soundly. "I found him." Xia Sangju said. Liang Zhengwei was not surprised.He had always known that she didn't belong to him. However, the difference is that before this, she did not belong to anyone. "Is he nice to you?" "We are just ordinary friends." Xia Sangju said truthfully: "But I have fallen in love with him." "Does he know?" Liang Zhengwei secretly felt sad for that lucky man.

"I think he'd be able to figure it out if he remembered me." She wasn't sure. "Don't say it first." This is Liang Zhengwei's advice, "Most men like mystery." "Thank you!" Xia Sangju was a little moved. This man knew that he had no hope, but he still stayed with her all the time. She couldn't help but sigh. "We will still meet, right?" Liang Zhengwei broke the silence first. Xia Sangju nodded. Liang Zhengwei smiled wryly: "Not being a couple doesn't mean you can't be friends. This is my consolation prize."

While sad, he did not forget to laugh at himself. Xia Sangju couldn't help smiling. But after that day, for a whole week, Li Yiyu didn't show up again.This was unexpected by Xia Sangju.She thought hard: what did she do wrong?She's behaving badly?He has forgotten her? She was suddenly haggard. Xia Sangju even dreamed that the department store would suddenly be open 24 hours a day, so that she would have more chances to meet him again. She wants to wait for him. Ten days later, she suddenly remembered a bar he had mentioned: Bird of Paradise.She decided to go there to find him.

As expected, he was there. She tried desperately to approach him pretending to meet him by chance, but her flushed face and rapid heartbeat betrayed her. "Are you looking for me?" he asked her coldly. It looked like he drank a lot. "Why don't you come to buy perfume anymore?" she asked in a trembling voice. "Are you looking for me?" he asked meanly again. However, she had no choice but to forgive him. His eyes were red, his expression was weary and sad, and his voice was hoarse. He still looked so attractive to her. "Yes, I've been looking for you." She had to admit. "Am I bothering you?" "Want to sleep with me?" he asked naked, his voice so cold. Xia Sangju closed her eyes in embarrassment, what is he doing?Torturing her or torturing yourself?If this can make him feel better, Xia Sangju thought: love needs tolerance. His home has a large glass cabinet containing hundreds of perfume bottles.Whenever he looked at these perfume bottles, Xia Sangju noticed that Li Yiyu always had a gentle face. "You have a lot of perfume bottles." "But none of them are what I want." He said, "What I want is out of print." "Then why are you still buying it?" "When love is dead, what else can a person do?" He was at a loss. Xia Sangju had nothing to say. Originally, she wanted to say: You can start over.However, she really didn't have the courage.Or rather: she didn't want to take any chances.If he answers: I don't want it.Then she is tantamount to driving herself into a poor alley. At this moment, she would rather live in the paradise she imagined than the truth. At least it would make her feel better. Li Yiyu said: "You are a good woman, I don't want to hurt you." When he said this, Xia Sangju wished that moment could stay forever. He called someone else's name and made love to her tenderly. After returning home, she called Xia Xinju's radio program.She wants to tell her she's fine.Because when they were face to face, she was afraid that she would not be able to hide her sorrow. She is such a kind woman, she doesn't want to hurt anyone who cares about her. "Are you happy?" Xia Xinju asked her on the phone. "Yes." She said with tears in her heart. "Is love really that important?" "Heavier than life." "If one day, you still have to lose him, how will you face it?" "I will leave everything to fate." Xia Sangju slowly closed her eyes. For love, she has no hesitation. Xia Xinju's voice floated in the air: "No matter how complicated or simple you think love is, in the world of love, love alone is not enough. We live in this vast world, and we work day and night to survive. Love is a gift from God. It comforts people and sublimates their beauty. However, if there is no love, will we still survive? Will we still survive? The answer is yes. If there is such a day, think about the love around you Your people, think about how much they care about you, don't veto everything for love, that's stupid." "Don't veto everything for love!" While taking a bath, Xia Sangju kept chewing on this sentence. For a whole month, she went to his house almost every day. However, Xia Sangju did one wrong thing. One thing many women do wrong. After being tender that day, she found a photo under Li Yiyu's pillow.A picture of a woman.The person in the picture is not beautiful, at least not as beautiful as her.However, she looked so confident and so radiant.Especially her big eyes that seem to be able to talk, which are seductive in their glamorous beauty. She knew that if she was poor, she would never have that look in her eyes. However, her clothes and her hairstyle are firmly in my heart. It took her three days to travel all over Hong Kong, Kowloon and the New Territories. She deliberately dressed herself up as the person she was looking for to find him.She thought that he would be pleasantly surprised and moved, but she was completely wrong. When he saw her, he was surprised at first, and then became very angry, even rude. Finally, he looked at her coldly and said, "You don't know what you're doing!" "I'm sorry!" She was like a frightened bird. "Please leave!" "No. Li Yiyu, don't!" she begged. "Please leave." He seemed unbearably cruel. "I'm sorry. I'm never going to be smart again! Please! Let me stay." She wept bitterly, almost falling to her knees in front of him. He seemed a little moved, but he still didn't let her into the house. "Can I come in?" Xia Sangju asked timidly. Li Yiyu said: "No one can replace her. I don't know why you demean yourself!" Xia Sangju cried like a child. When she passed by Li Yiyu, he suddenly pulled her into his arms. He kissed her tenderly and said to her, "I'm sorry!" Xia Sangju immediately forgave him. He didn't mean to hurt himself.She thought of it this way: he just hurt himself. On Liang Zhengwei's birthday, Xia Sangju invited him to dinner. "You're haggard." Liang Zhengwei felt heartbroken. "Is it always the best not to get?" Xia Sangju asked: "At least, that's what men think, right?" "No." Liang Zhengwei disagreed: "At least I'm not like this." "If you got me, you wouldn't be so kind to me." Xia Sangju said. Liang Zhengwei was speechless.He thought he should argue, but he didn't because he knew it was a fact he could never prove. He didn't want to argue with her.Because he knew he couldn't talk to her; and tonight, he was full of thoughts. "I'm playing with fire." Xia Sangju said. On this day, she gave Liang Zhengwei an alarm clock.On the back of the alarm clock, engrave a line of small words: It is not worth wasting precious life for a person who does not love you. Liang Zhengwei said: "Thank you for your generosity, this is the most wonderful verdict." When he said this, he looked very lonely. Xia Sangju suddenly felt guilty.Why are these words engraved?Maybe it's really too cruel? Then, I thought of Li Yiyu again. He probably felt the same way about her! Remember what he said: Love is cruel. "Xia Sangju, if there is a friend who is sad for someone who doesn't love her, will you do everything you can to help her?" Liang Zhengwei asked. "Of course." Xia Sangju said, "Unrequited love is very painful." "If you knew some truth, would you tell her?" "Yes." Xia Sangju was not sure. "But what if the truth will hurt her? Is it more hurtful to continue loving someone who doesn't love me, or is it more hurtful to know why that person doesn't love her?" Xia Sangju finally guessed what Liang Zhengwei was going to say. She turned pale.She stared at him desperately, like a drowning person trying to hold on to a straw floating on the water; the cold began to seep from her skin into her veins slowly, bit by bit. flow to her heart.At that moment, she wished that she was a little weaker, so that she could immediately escape from this predicament; she also hoped that she could be brave enough to accept the secret that had been revealed. Her heart was beating wildly. Liang Zhengwei threw out a stack of photos, "I'd rather you hate me for the rest of your life than be kept in the dark for the rest of your life." Xia Sangju vomited violently. In the photos, Li Yiyu is with different women: eating, walking, shopping, kissing in the car, and even a few, the background is his home, in the same bed, he is having sex with different women. Liang Zhengwei took back the photo. "The private investigator told me: He has more than ten women, and you are just one of them." Xia Sangju looked very sad.She really loves him. She originally wanted to ask: Why did he ask her to buy perfume?However, in the end she didn't ask. Perhaps, this is just his trick to "catch" women.She didn't want to go any further. That night, Xia Sangju returned home covered in bruises. Xia Sangju locked herself in her room and didn't go out for a few days. Then, she found another job—to be precise, she entered another Japanese-funded department store and continued to be her cosmetics counter promotion lady.Every day, the infatuated woman would buy a bottle of perfume and deliver it to Li Yiyu's house.Several times, she could hardly bear to ring his doorbell, but in the end she gave up. For many lonely nights, she would miss him crazily. Sometimes, the miss forced her to have nowhere to escape, heartbroken; should she hate Liang Zhengwei?she asked herself.But living forever in a world of self-deception?Should Liang Zhengwei be thanked?However, whenever her body was swallowed inch by inch by painful thoughts, she felt worse than death. She struggles between love and lust. She thought she would continue talking like this until she died. But she survived. This night, turning on the radio, Xia Xinju was reading her Thanksgiving prayer. Xia Sangju's mind calmed down. She no longer mourns. "Happy Thanksgiving!" She called Li Yiyu. "Happy Thanksgiving!" he said with his usual indifference. Li Yiyu never mentioned those perfumes.Between them, there seemed to be a thin veil suddenly, but no one wanted to pierce it. The two who were once so close are now relatively silent. "Goodbye!" she said. "Goodbye," he said. Before making the call, Xia Sangju had thought: If he invited her to his home again, how would she respond?will she go But nothing happens. Nothing will happen to Ezai. Putting down the phone, Xia Sangju called the restaurant where they had their first date, and she ordered a "special Thanksgiving meal" for him. She remembered him saying: He likes turkey. "We'll have it in half an hour," said the waiter. "Okay, don't let it get cold." Xia Sangju said. She forgave him. Suddenly thought of a sentence: Love stays in the breath, hate lives in happiness. There was a sound of opening the door, Xia Sangju knew that Xia Xinju had returned. She is no longer lonely.Xia Xinju unexpectedly brought back a turkey.It was given to her by a male listener who had a crush on her. "I just ordered a turkey for him." Xia Sangju told Xia Xinju. "You are really a good girl. Whoever gets you is his blessing." Xia Xinju handed the turkey leg to her sister. Xia Sangju took it: "What if we all love turkey legs?" "A turkey has two legs." "So what if we both love chicken necks?" "Then eat a portion each." Xia Xinju looked at her younger sister: "What do you want to say?" "Things always have a solution." Xia Xinju laughed heartily. "Looks like your problem is solved." "It turns out that it's really easy to give up on someone. You just need to make a phone call and say 'goodbye' to him." "But people always like to deceive themselves, and it's hard to make them face the truth." The two sisters looked at each other and smiled. "Then what about Liang Zhengwei?" Xia Xinju asked. Liang Zhengwei began to fall in love. That day, Xia Sangju was shopping in Causeway Bay. When she walked into the sugar shop she frequented, she suddenly saw Liang Zhengwei carefully adding sugar to the bowl of the girl beside her.In the past, he often did this for Xia Sangju.I remember one time, Xia Sangju said: "One day you do this for your girlfriend, she will be very touched." "Will there be such a day?" Liang Zhengwei didn't think so at the time. Unexpectedly, this day finally arrived. When he first saw Xia Sangju, Liang Zhengwei looked a little embarrassed, but it passed quickly. "This is Xiaobing, my girlfriend." He introduced them to each other: "Xiaobing, this is Xia Sangju, my good friend." "Xia Sangju? A very cute name." Xiaobing was very young and innocent. "It's the name of a kind of herbal tea." Xia Sangju fell in love with this innocent girl at first sight. "Thank you for telling me. I'm from Shanghai, so I'm not very familiar with herbal tea." Xiaobing said with a smile. "You happy man." Xia Sangju whispered into Liang Zhengwei's ear. Liang Zhengwei looked at Xiaobing with embarrassment and smiled affectionately. Xia Sangju sighed.Once upon a time, his affectionate gaze was her patent. "Come to my house for dinner another day. Xiaobing's dishes are delicious." Liang Zhengwei extended the invitation sincerely. "Okay." Xia Sangju nodded, and after saying goodbye, went to the cashier to buy "Mango West". "Have some change?" the cashier called to her.The checkout counter was crowded with people, and Xia Sangju was squeezed in the middle and pushed back and forth.Xia Sangju raised her hand to hand over the change, but with a "snap", the money was knocked off. Xia Sangju looked helplessly at the money in the ground, and then at the swarming crowd, feeling at a loss for what to do. "Here you are." Suddenly a glass of "Mangosi" was handed to her. It was Liang Zhengwei! Xia Sangju was so moved that she wanted to cry. "Hold it." Liang Zhengwei stuffed the cup into her hand: "Xiaobing said she can call it later." It turned out that his girlfriend gave her his cup of "Mangosi". Xia Sangju watched Liang Zhengwei hurried back to his seat, and then the two began to share a plate of "Haidilao Coconut". The two chatted and laughed lightly, talking happily.Liang Zhengwei didn't look at her again. Holding the cup, Xia Sangju left the sugar shop lonely. On the way home, Xia Sangju thought: She will give her a good man, and she will give her a cup of "Mangosai". They each get what they need. Pass by a boutique where an old song is playing: Xia Sangju decided to go home and take a good bath.