Chapter 3 third chapter

Yun Sheng: In Frankfurt, it is already the third day. When I wake up in the morning, the stars are smiling.I forgot to tell you that I brought the star you gave me and stuck it on the ceiling of my hotel room.So no matter how bad the weather is here, I can still see the stars. Today's temperature is lower than yesterday, I put on all the clothes I brought, and tied the silk scarf with stars and moon around my neck, you said it looks good. When crossing the river by tram, snow fell on my shoulder. I wanted to sweep it away, but, thinking that my shoulder might be its pillow, it wanted to cry quietly for a while before it melted away. let it.

In the exhibition hall, I busily picked up fabric samples in each booth. When the exhibition hall was about to close, I went to find Ah Fang, but she had disappeared.I wanted to have dinner with her, so I had to go back to the hotel alone. To beat the cold, I ate a large plate of beef and drank beer in the restaurant.This is the day I eat the most. After dinner, I didn't want to go back to the room, so I went shopping in the hotel's shopping mall. One of the boutiques was run by a German woman. I found a lamp on a shelf. It was an umbrella-shaped lamp with a glass base and a walnut base.A wooden young woman sits on a lamp base holding a needlework and a cloth heart broken in two.

After winding the clockwork, the woman mends the broken heart stitch by stitch. So heartbreaking. Can a broken heart be mended under a lonely lamp? I looked at the needle and thread in her hand and almost wanted to cry. "Do you want to buy it?" the woman asked me. I shook my head with a wry smile and told her, "I don't have a broken heart." "Then you're lucky," the woman said. I ran back to the room, who invented such a lamp?Must have been someone with a broken heart. A wound that heals is always a wound, and can a broken heart heal?I don't want to buy something that breaks my heart.

I lay in bed, unable to sleep, not knowing whether it was because I was too full or because of the woman who was mending a broken heart under the lonely lamp.I got up, changed my clothes, and walked to the lobby. In the boutique, the light was still on, and the woman was sadly mending a broken heart. "Changed your mind?" the German woman asked me. "No." I ran back to the room again, I still can't buy it, I can't afford it. Forget about it. That night, after Sun Mibai left, I told myself that I would not give up on you. I can't bear to give up. Love always has a maximum consumption, and I have never paid the maximum consumption.

"Have you ever tried to court a boy?" I asked Huixuan. "Didn't I say that I wouldn't like a man who doesn't like me?" She said while calculating the income for the day. "How can I move a man?" I asked her in a different way. "That depends on what kind of man he is." "What about Kang Zhaoliang?" "Him? Easy. Just set him free." "Give him too much freedom, aren't you afraid?" "Of course I'm afraid, just like today I don't know where he went or who he was with. However, I know he will go home no matter where he goes, and I won't ask. Only when I give him freedom will he be willing to suffer. Bondage. To get, to let go."

However, you and Kang Zhaoliang are different. If you let go, you may be lost. I'm sewing a fourth throw pillow for you at the fabric store. "Is there any girl chasing you?" I asked Xu Mingshi. "Girls have always pursued me." He said with a smile. "Really? Even Zhou Qingrong?" As soon as Zhou Qingrong was mentioned, he became silent. "Tell me, how do those girls court you?" "For a man, that's not something to show off, and besides, those girls are very happy now." "That means you rejected them that day?" "There is a girl, I have always felt very sorry for her, she is my middle school classmate, her grades are very good, she made the notes for me in class, and before each exam, she also told me in advance what is wrong. The point, during the exam, she even let me see her answer on purpose."

"But you don't like her?" "She wrote me a letter, but I didn't reply. One day, she came to ask me why I did this to her. I forgot what I said to her. Anyway, after that incident, she changed schools. I have always been a little guilty, but after many years, she suddenly came to me and told me that she is very happy now, so I let go of my heart." "Maybe she's not really happy." "It's not true?" Xu Mingshi didn't quite believe it, "Then why did she say that?" "If she has forgotten you, she won't come to you at all, and then specifically tell you that she is very happy now."

"You mean she wasn't happy then?" "Maybe she is happy, but without you, her happiness becomes regret. Of course, regret is also a kind of happiness, because there are still things that make you regret." "But she did seem happy then." "Can't happiness be faked?" I made a happy smile. "Maybe you're right." He smiled wryly. I sewed a fourth throw pillow for you out of a piece of pastel yellow gingham.Holding the pillow, I have an excuse to find you. I put the pillow in the hospital, and they said they would give it to you. Then, Xu Mingshi and I flew to Qingdao to prepare for the opening of the hotel.

Don't blame me, it was Huixuan who taught me that before you want something, you have to let it go.So, I let go, I hope that after you receive the pillow, you will miss me, miss a woman who only dares to send you a pillow but does not dare to appear in front of you. On the fourth day in Qingdao, Xu Mingshi and I went to visit Zhanqiao, which is a pavilion stretching from the beach to the middle of the sea, called "Zhanqiao". "You said that women can fake happiness, is it true?" Xu Mingshi asked me. "Why not? Just as a man can pretend to be strong." "A man pretends to be strong, but he is afraid that a woman will find him weak."

"A woman pretends to be happy, just because she is afraid of being found sad by a man." I said. I forgot to tell you, in the fourth pillow, I hide my fourth letter to you, maybe the last one. The first thing I do when I get back to Hong Kong is to check the pager to see if you have called me.You paged me once the night I put my pillow in the hospital. Once, don't you think it's too little?Although the pager should tell you I'm not in Hong Kong. I stood by the window and looked at your home until late at night when the lights there were turned on. I'll call you.

"Have you seen me?" I asked you. "Yes, they say you are not in Hong Kong." "I went to Qingdao." "What a coincidence!" you say. "What's up?" "Every time you call, I'm always just stepping inside." You've had a meal here and you don't know why I moved here. I moved here because I can see your home here. "Thank you for the pillow." "It's the last one. A sofa can only have four pillows. If there are too many, it will be crowded." "I really don't know how to thank you." "Take me to dinner." I mustered up the courage to say to you. "Okay, when are you free?" "The moon will come back to life in two days, how about just that day?" On the night of the Mid-Autumn Festival, you come to pick me up. "The moonlight is beautiful today." I said. "Yes, it came back to life, thanks to the long-legged tortoise." You said with a smile. "where are we going?" "You can see the moon from the boat," you say. You take me aboard a magnificently furnished ship. "My patient is the captain of this ship. He told me that there is dinner on board during the Mid-Autumn Festival." You take two meal rolls and board the ship with me. The cabin was arranged as a dining room and we sat on the deck. "You can book this seat only if you have a special relationship with the captain." You told me quietly. Seeing you happy, I feel a little sad, as if your life in the past five years has been very painful. If I can make you happy, how much I would like to. After the boat set sail, the captain came to greet us. The captain is an honest man in his forties. "That day I went into shock at home and was sent to the emergency room by ambulance. It was Dr. Qin who saved me." the captain told me. "How long ago?" I ask you. "Three years." "You're fine." You tell him. "Yes, I can still see the full moon many times from the boat," said the captain. "Thanks to the long-legged tortoise," you say. "What long-legged turtle?" The captain didn't understand. That is a secret between us. "The long-legged tortoise carried the moon to the other side of the river. The moon came back to life. What about the long-legged tortoise? Where did it go?" I muttered. "Maybe it was always facing away from the moon, but the sky was too dark for us to see it." "I've been carrying the moon on my back all the time, isn't it very tiring?" "If one day, it is too much to bear, it may fall from the sky and turn into the largest meteorite." "At that time, the moon will not be resurrected." I said sadly. "Fortunately, there are still stars." You comforted me. Yes, to the end of the world, and the stars you gave me. "Did you have fun today?" You asked me after the ferry docked. "With another cup of coffee, it's perfect." "Where do you want to go for coffee?" "Would you like a cup of coffee carried by the moonlight?" I ask you. "Do you have this kind of coffee?" I'll take you to Causeway Bay for coffee.The coffee in that restaurant was served in a big egg-yellow soup bowl. "Like pouring coffee into moonlight?" "So you're talking about this kind of coffee." You held the soup bowl and drank the coffee and said to me, "It's a pleasure to be with you." "Thank you." "A girl like you should be liked by many boys." "There used to be one, but they broke up." "why?" I don't know how to tell you, so I had no choice but to hold up the moonlight and drink the coffee. "Don't worry, it's the whole moonlight's coffee." I was so dumbfounded by you that I wiped the coffee from the corners of my mouth and tears from the corners of my eyes with a tissue. Don't ask me why, that's something I can't say. If you love someone, you don't need to let him know, and you can give up everything else for him. That is the minimum consumption, and it is what I should pay. "Sorry, I was just asking." You said apologetically. You are so stupid, why didn't you think it was for you? "It's late, I'll take you home." You said. "Do you want to know why my calls always come after you get home? You can find out when you come up and take a look." I stand in front of the window, from here to you, this night, there is only one moon. "Because I can see where you live here. When you come home and turn on the lights in the house, I know you are back. For this reason, I moved here." I look happily at the place where you live. You didn't speak, you probably stood there stupidly. "Are we separated by the moon, or by the moon?" "What's the difference? The moon is the moon," you say. "No, if it's the moon, it seems to be closer." "You don't have to do that," you said to me. "Can you stay tonight?" It was the first time I said that to a man. Thanks to the long-legged tortoise, if there is no moon, I may not have the courage. I left you behind. I thought it was the body of a woman that kept a man.Of course, I later learned that that can only keep a man for a while. When I appeared in front of Sun Mibai again, I appeared as a victor. That day, waiting for you to get off work in the corridor of the hospital, I was so afraid that I would not meet her. I was wandering in the hallway and she finally appeared in the hallway. "Why are you here?" she asked me. "Yun Sheng and I made an appointment to have dinner together." "Oh, really? You're so persistent," she said sarcastically. "He asked me out." I said. Here you take off your doctor's gown. "Congratulations, you're finally in a relationship," she says to you. You are silent. She turned hastily away, Cat Shawl jumping from her shoulders to the ground, following her. "Let's go." You said holding my hand. When eating at a restaurant, I ask you: "When is your birthday?" "January eleventh." "The flower that represents January is the snowflake." I tell you. "You mean the snowflakes falling from the sky?" "No, it's a flower called Snowflake, which looks like a lily. Snowflakes symbolize hope in adversity." "It sounds beautiful." "It seems to be very suitable for you, a doctor in the emergency room, isn't it the hope in adversity?" At this time, Huixuan and a man just came in.I've never met that man, but Huixuan's attitude towards him is very intimate. "Why did I see you here?" Hui Xuan said, "Let me introduce, this is Hu Chongwei, this is Su Ying, and Qin Yunsheng." "Would you like to sit together?" you ask them. "I won't bother you anymore." Huixuan gave me a wink, and sat on the other side with him as if tactfully. "What are you thinking?" you ask me. I was wondering why she was with that man. The next night, when I returned to the roasted bird shop, Hui Xuan took the initiative to tell me: "He is my ex-boyfriend." "how long ago?" "Before I was with Kang Zhaoliang." I was taken aback: "He is the man who asked you to pay back the money on the bed." "it's him." "Don't you hate him?" "Yes, but there is a little nostalgia." "What the hell are you doing?" "Probably for revenge." "Revenge on him? Revenge on him after many years?" "Who wants to take revenge on him?" She said disdainfully, "It's Kang Zhaoliang, who is dating another woman without telling me." "He told you?" "No, I found out." "Does he know you?" "Why should I let him know?" "Can you bear not to expose him?" I was surprised. "That depends on what I want. I want to be the last winner." "What counts as the final winner?" "The woman who stayed by his side in the end." "for what?" "For what?" She smiled sadly, "If it's not for love, what else can it be for?" "But love, shouldn't it include loyalty?" "Not necessarily." She said sadly. "I think love is one hundred percent loyalty." "Don't be so naive, there is no 100% loyalty in the world. How many people like you would give up things at your fingertips to chase an unattainable dream?" "But the man who hurt you yesterday, can you still be with him?" "Besides Kang Zhaoliang, I like him the most. Maybe it's because he made me suffer. So, if you want Qin Yunsheng to remember you, don't forget to make him suffer." Huixuan said towards the door, "He came Now go and make him suffer." You are here, and as soon as you appear, you occupy the most important position in my heart. What can I do to make you suffer? "I'm here, you go first." Huixuan said. "Don't you need me to accompany you?" "I'm fine." Huixuan blinked at me, she really seemed to be fine, it seems that she is very confident to be the final winner. "Let's go." I said, holding your hand. I took your hand and walked from Wanchai to Causeway Bay. I really hope that this journey can last until tomorrow. I take your palm and look carefully. "What are you looking at?" You asked me with a smile, "It's so dark? Can you see palm prints?" "I just want to keep in mind the shape of your palm, so that even in the middle of the city, I won't hold another man's hand by mistake." You laughed and asked me: "Have you remembered?" "Yeah." I nodded. In the window of a watch shop, I found a men's watch that can only show the moon's waxing and waning. "Look, today there is only a crescent moon and two stars." I looked up at the sky, and there was a crescent moon and two shining stars in the sky. The clerk said: "If you like it, come in and have a look. This is a moon phase watch. It has been pre-calibrated according to the Chinese calendar for the days when the moon is full and the moon is waning. It is very accurate." "Come on," you say, "there's no tortoise on the watch." I smiled and walked with you for a long way. "Can you wait for me here?" I left you and ran back to the watch shop. I want to buy you a watch that can tell when the moon will come back to life. Unfortunately, the watch shop is closed. I went to several watch shops, but couldn't find that watch. When I went back to look for you, I found you standing in a panic on the street. "Where did you go?" you asked me. "I'm going to the bathroom." I lied. You held my hand so tightly that it hurt so much that I never let go. When I got home, I took out the key to open the door, and you were willing to let go of my hand. "I'm going back." You said. "Can you stay?" I ask you, "I don't want to watch you leave every time." You hold me and touch my back with your warm hand. "Just now I thought you wouldn't come back." You said. "No wonder you hurt me so much, I won't not come back, I just went!" I want to tell you the truth. "Needless to say." You said hugging me tightly. Are you afraid that I will leave you like Sun Misu?I can not let it go. The next afternoon, I went to that watch shop again. "I bought that moon phase watch for someone," said the clerk. He said that he did not know when new stock would be available. I want to give it to you, to remind you that the moon always comes back. At home at night, I sit on your lap with my head on your shoulder. You push me and give me the pillow. "There seems to be something in the pillow." "My pillow is empty." I blurted out. "Really, look." I touched the pillow, and there seemed to be something in it. I reached in and found a moon phase watch, the one I wanted to buy for you. "So you bought it, no wonder I can't buy it." "Do you want to buy it too?" "I want to buy it for you." "You look better on your hands." You said. "This is a men's watch." "If the surface is bigger, doesn't the moon look bigger? Besides, girls now wear men's watches." You put on the watch for me. It turns out that you, like me, have the habit of hiding things in pillows. "Will it be too heavy?" You asked me, holding my wrist. I shook my head, choked up. "Don't you like it?" You asked me. I bend my legs and curl up in your arms. It's too heavy. In my heart, this watch seems to suppress my heart. I feel happy and scared at the same time. I'm afraid that one day, you won't be so kind to me again. "Why do women always like to cry when they are happy?" You asked me with a wry smile. "Don't you think this watch doesn't have a turtle with long legs?" I asked you. "You are the long-legged turtle." You hugged my leg and said, "You told me that the moon will come back to life." How good would it be if days like this evening never passed away? "Your watch is very beautiful." In the fabric shop, Xu Mingshi told me. "It was sent by Yun Sheng." "Are you happy with him?" "Very happy." "That's good." He said with a smile, "Now I ask you to go on business, you don't want to." "Where are you going?" "Beijing, a new hotel, the fabric works are all entrusted to us, I want to go up and have a look at the environment." "Can I not go?" "I can go alone." "You are so kind, what would I do here without you?" "After returning from Beijing, I may have to leave here for a while." "Why?" I was stunned. "My friend opened a furniture store and wanted me to help. Don't worry, I will go both ways. It's just that I just started there, and I need to spend more time there." "Is there something unhappy here?" "How come?" he laughed. "I thought you'd fight alongside me!" "It hasn't changed now, I just want to develop in other areas." "Is it really for this reason?" He nods. I always feel that there are other reasons. After Xu Mingshi came back from Beijing, he spent most of his time in the furniture store in Happy Valley.I've been there once, it's a big place, it sells Italian furniture, it's beautiful. "You can pick any one you want," he said. "real?" I like a round walnut dining table in the store, but it's too big and expensive. "You live alone now, so you don't need such a big dining table. When you marry Dr. Qin, I will give it to you." "Marriage is very far away." I said with a smile, "In the past, Zhengwen often proposed to me, but I would not marry, but now this one, he has not proposed to me." "Don't worry, I still have another dining table in the warehouse, I'll leave it to you." "Thank you, I will try my best." Back at the Shaoniao restaurant, I received the news that Zheng Wen got married, and it was Hui Xuan who told me. "Who is the bride?" "We just met each other not long ago, and the conditions are certainly not as good as yours. I don't understand why Zheng Wen is so eager to get married. Maybe it's to stimulate you." "He's always wanted to get married, too." "You have to find someone you like." "Maybe he loves that woman." I was a little disappointed. "He told me to give you the wedding invitation, will you go?" I looked at the wedding invitation. The wedding will be held on January 20th, which is your birthday. "Should I call and congratulate him?" "Since he sent you a wedding invitation, he probably wants you to congratulate him. At the very least, he hopes you will respond." I made a phone call to Zhengwen. "Congratulations." I said. "Thank you." "I want to give you a gift, can you find time to come out and meet?" "Okay." He readily agreed. I picked out a set of cutlery for him. We made an appointment to meet at a coffee shop near his company in the evening. "Congratulations." I said. There was no expression of joy on his face. "I hope you and your wife like this gift. I shouldn't be able to come that day." "Oh, what a pity." "there's one more thing." "What's up?" "I should have told you a long time ago. You bought the floor of Pok Fu Lam Road. My name is on the deed. Since we are no longer together, I think you should delete me from the deed." Besides, you are married now, this matter should not be dragged on any longer, you should find a lawyer and prepare the documents." "I didn't intend to do this." He flatly refused. "Do you remember that we used to come here for afternoon tea? After finishing the afternoon tea, you will walk with me back to the company." I am silent. "Do you forget it?" "I haven't forgotten," I said, "but you're getting married." "As long as you say a word, I will immediately cancel the wedding." "How can it be? It's unfair to your wife." "This is between me and you." "Marriage is no joke." "Aren't you starting to regret it?" he asked me. It turned out that he wanted me to regret it. After all, he is a person who cannot afford to lose. "I never regret it," I said. "Then, thank you for your wedding gift." He stubbornly accepted the gift I gave him. We broke up outside the coffee shop. Yes, I used to walk with him for a while at dusk like this before going home alone. "Goodbye." He said to me. I watched him leave, that was the back that I was familiar with.I never thought that he loved me so deeply that he would even use a marriage to make me regret it. I never regret it, but looking at his stubborn back.I can't help but ask myself if I'm doing it right. In the evening of the next day, a document was sent by the political police. "Mr. Yang, please sign the document." The person who brought the document said. After I signed the contract, the floor of Pok Fu Lam Road will no longer be mine. Zheng Wen is a guy who likes to gamble, he is aggressive and hopes that I will regret it at the last moment. I sign the document. There is no longer any connection between me and Zheng Wen. On the way home, for some reason, my hand trembled slightly; just now when I signed the document, my hand didn't tremble, but it started to tremble only at this moment.I signed my name to put an end to this relationship, and I lost my political paper forever, but will you stay by my side forever?Back home, you are taking a shower in the bathroom. "So early?" I asked you. "I want to come back and take a shower and sleep for a while." You said. Your suit is hanging on the back of the chair. I want to hang up your suit for you, but in the pocket of the suit, I found that half of the bamboo stick. After so long, you still keep the half of the bamboo stick. That game I played with you, you'd love to believe. You came out of the bathroom, and I took the half bamboo stick and asked you: "Do you still keep it?" You neither deny nor admit. "Did you think she would come back?" "She's not coming back." "But you always wanted her back, even if only as a ghost, didn't you?" "Don't talk nonsense, that's simply impossible." "Then why do you keep the bamboo sticks by your side?" "I simply forgot it was in the pocket of this suit." I cut off the bamboo stick severely. "what are you doing?" "Why are you so nervous?" I demanded you. "You are making trouble for no reason." "When will you forget her? You just replaced her with me, right? You're just lonely." "I'm going back to work." You said, picking up your suit. "If you leave, don't come back." You close the door and leave, you're really gone. I remember it so clearly because that was the first time we had an argument. It took me a long time to understand that the unreasonable trouble that day was because I suddenly lost my sense of security. I've been waiting for you until late at night, and I haven't seen you come back. I stand in front of the window, there are lights in your house, you have gone home, will you never come back?I mustered up the courage to call you. "Sorry." I choked up. "Are you crying? Don't cry." You said softly on the phone. I cried harder and asked you: "Are you not coming back?" "I'm afraid of arguing with you." "I won't be so unreasonable again." "Come on, I'll be back tomorrow, okay?" "No, I can't wait until tomorrow." "Don't be like this, go to sleep, I'll be back tomorrow." I lie in bed hoping tomorrow will come soon. After a while, I went to the window again, the light in your room was on, you are so cruel, why wait until tomorrow?You suddenly opened the door and came in, which startled me. "Why are the lights on in your house?" I ask you. "Turn off the lights, and you know I'll be back." You laughed. "Why are you coming back?" "I'm afraid you will cry." You said. You used to be so nervous about my tears, do you remember?Maybe, I didn't realize that my love for you has gradually become your burden. That day, I walked into a jewelry store, intending to buy you a moon phase watch, but met Zheng Wen and his fiancée in the store. When Zheng Wen saw me, he lifted his spirits and immediately introduced me to his fiancee. "This is my fiancée." Zheng Wen told me, holding her hand. Zheng Wen's fiancée is very young, she seems to be only 21 or 2 years old, and has a beautiful baby face. She is always smiling and standing behind Zheng Wen, like a silk tree. "Are you old colleagues?" His fiancée asked me naively. It turned out that Zheng Wen never mentioned me to her. "Yes." I said. Zhengwen and I used to work together and have a relationship together. "We're here to buy wedding rings," she said innocently again. I noticed that Zheng Wen was starting to get impatient with her naivety. "Goodbye." I turned and left the jewelry store. Zheng Wen said to his fiancée behind me: "Ask for the biggest diamond, a diamond is a woman's star." I know he said it to me. He also said this sentence to me, but I still like stars a little more. "Miss Su!" Zheng Wen's fiancée called me from behind, "Will you come to our wedding?" "She can't come." Zheng Wen answered for me. "That's a pity," she said. "Sorry, I wish you happiness." I said. "Thank you," she said. "Yang Zhengwen, I wish you happiness." I wished him sincerely. "Thank you." He said stubbornly. This evening, I packed my luggage and prepared to leave for Frankfurt tomorrow to attend the annual exhibition. Another year so fast. "What's your favorite birthday present?" I ask you. "No, I haven't celebrated my birthday in a long time." "That's why the celebration. You're going to tell me when I get back from Frankfurt." The next morning, you drove me to the airport. You said to Xu Mingshi, "Please take care of her." It's the first time I'm separated from you, and I don't want to part with you, so I don't care that Xu Mingshi is beside you, I'm holding your hand, and I've been refusing to let go. "I'm going to buy lozenges." Xu Mingshi excused himself and walked away. "Are you thinking about me?" I asked you. You took out a pack of medicine from your pocket: "I have prepared some medicine for you, in case you feel unwell over there, take some medicine." You explained to me the colorful medicines one by one: "The white round ones are headache medicines, the white long ones are for taking when you have a severe headache. The white thinner ones are antiemetic medicines, and the finer ones are antidiarrheal medicines. , vomiting and diarrhea, you can take these two medicines, the capsules are antibiotics, if you have a sore throat, take one sooner or later. These two yellow ones are sleeping pills, because you can’t sleep due to jet lag, you can take one.” "Is there any poison?" I jokingly asked you. "I'm sorry, but you won't die if you swallow all the medicine here." You said solemnly, "There is no guarantee to deliver the medicine with wine." "It's only been a few days, how can there be so many diseases?" "You don't need it this time, you can save it for the next time, just keep it by your side every time you go out." Looking at you, I know that I am happier than Zheng Wen's fiancée, at least, the man I love loves me too. "We're going in." Xu Mingshi said. I rubbed your nose reluctantly, your nose is very cold. "Go in." You said. That was the only time you saw me off at the airport. In the cabin, I took out the medicine you gave me, and looked and looked like a fool. "are you uncomfortable?" I smiled and shook my head. The night I arrived in Frankfurt, I looked at my watch, and it showed a full moon, which is a full moon night on Earth.Outside the window, the bright moon hangs high. I shake the phone and ask you: "Do you see the moon?" "It's cloudy here, and it's raining." "The moon in Frankfurt is very round," I said. "The clouds in Hong Kong are very thick." You said. "It's cold here." "Hong Kong is not much better, it's only eight degrees Celsius now." "Cold?" "not cold." "There is an electric heater at home, so it's in the storage room." "No." "Yesterday, I felt your nose was cold, go and take out the electric heater, promise me." "Okay." You agreed reluctantly. I only met you because of this electric heater, so when I left Zhengwen's house, I took it with me. "Be sure to turn on the heater to sleep." I told you. "For some reason, Hong Kong is always cloudy every time you leave," you said. "Yes. I am your sun." I said happily. Not long after putting down the phone, Xu Mingshi called to my room. "Would you like a cup of coffee in the lobby?" he asked me. Although very sleepy, I still agreed.I hurriedly put on a coat and went to the lobby. I came to the lobby coffee room and he was already sitting there. "Can't sleep?" I asked him, "I have sleeping pills, which Yunsheng gave me." "Seeing the beauty of the moonlight, I just want to drink a cup of coffee. Are you tired? If you are tired, you don't need to accompany me." "No, we haven't talked for a long time." I said. "You have always valued sex over friends." He laughed. "Zheng Wen got married this month." "So suddenly?" "Marry a girl you've only known for a month." "Time is not an issue at all." "Yes." I smiled wryly. "You wear so little, aren't you afraid of catching cold?" "Not afraid." "I almost forgot, you have a lot of medicine on you!" "It can be eaten for a lifetime." I said with a smile. "Did you find the right person this time?" "I found the right person, but I don't know if he found the right person." I smiled and said, "What about you? It's been almost two years, and you are still alone." He bowed his head in silence. "Why did you and Zhou Qingrong break up?" Xu Mingshi looked at the coffee in his cup and didn't answer me for a long time. "If you don't want to say it, forget it." He looked up and said apologetically, "I said something to her that she will never forgive me." "Which one is it?" I wondered. "Forget it." He kept stirring the coffee in the cup with a spoon. "What the hell did you tell her?" "Don't ask any more." "You say you don't love her?" "Do you think a woman won't forgive a man for saying that?" "It's harder to forgive when he says 'I never loved you'." "I never said that." "Then what did you say?" He drank the coffee in his cup and said to me, "Don't ask any more." The moon is shining outside the window, and I'm thinking, if you tell me "I never loved you", I will never forgive you.No woman will forgive the man she loves for saying that to her. I don't know if it was because I accidentally caught a cold while drinking coffee with Xu Mingshi. I caught a cold. In the next few days, I didn't feel well, and I took the cold medicine you gave me every day. A cold is a very sad disease. In Frankfurt, the moon is sinking day by day. The exhibition is finally over, and I can go back to you. Xu Mingshi was going to Italy to buy furniture for a furniture store. His flight departed a day later than mine, so he took me to the airport first. "Is your cold better?" he asked me on the way. "It will be fine when I return to Hong Kong." I said with a smile. "Will Doctor Qin come to pick you up?" "He's on duty," I said, cowering in my coat. "Then be careful on your own way." Xu Mingshi and I broke up outside the penalty area. I called him to stop. "What's the matter?" he asked me back. "Smile." I told him. He was baffled. "It's been a long time since I saw you smile." He tried hard to put on a smiling face. If there was no such person as Yang Zhengwen and you, maybe I would fall in love with Xu Mingshi. He will always make me feel that no matter where I am, he will still care about me. However, I already have you.Since there are already people to spend the rest of their lives with, other people can only be friends. When the plane arrived at Hong Kong Airport, I hurriedly grabbed my suitcase, boarded a taxi, and rushed home. 屋里暖烘烘的，我猜一定是你忘了上班前把电暖炉关掉。 当我亮起屋里的灯时，赫然看到孙米白养的那一头猫披肩就伏在电暖炉旁边；牠看到了我，瞪了我一眼，然后继续懒洋洋地伏在那里取暖。沙发上的抱枕掉在牠身边，给牠抓开了一道裂痕。 原来电暖炉是为牠而开着的。 孙米白的猫为什么会在我家里？ 当我不在这里的时候，你竟然让她进来？我拾起地上的抱枕，里面的羽毛给牠的利爪抓破了。我坐在沙发上瞪着牠，牠也瞪着我。 我跟猫对峙了两个小时之后，你回来了。 “你回来啦？”你问我。 那头可恶的猫，走到你身边，伏在你脚背，讨你欢心。 “牠为什么会在这里？” “孙米白去了旅行，托我照顾牠几天。” “你在长途电话里为什么不告诉我？” “我以为只是一件小事。”你抱起猫，把牠放在脖子上，绕了一圈，牠根本就是一头怪物。 “牠把抱枕抓破了。” “牠就是爱抓东西，对不起。”你若无其事地说。 “孙米白是不是来过这里？” “没有，是我把猫带回来的。” “我最讨厌猫了！”我忍不住说。 你愣了一下，难堪地把猫放下，牠站在你脚边，跟你站在同一阵线。 “对不起，我不知道你介意！” “这是我的家，我不欢迎孙米白的猫！”我用抱枕掷向那头怪物，牠敏捷地走开。 “你什么时候才可以忘记她们两姊妹！”我控制不了自己，向你哮叫。 你站在那里，巴巴地望着我。 “难道你就不可以忘记她？”我哭着问你。 我从千里以外回来，只是想投进你的怀抱，但是，在我不在的日子，你竟然照顾着孙米白的猫，你知道那一刻我是多么的难受吗？ “对不起，我现在就把牠送走。” 你走过去把猫抱起，牠得意地伏在你怀中，这刻伏在你怀中的竟然是牠而不是我。 我别过头去不望你。 你把猫抱走。 也许，你不会回来了。 你走了，我很后悔为什么向你发那么大的脾气。我竟然妒忌那头猫？不，我只是妒忌你跟姓孙的女人依然纠缠不清。 我竟然妒忌一个死了，而且死得很可怜的女人，你一定很讨厌我。 我的情敌已经不在世上，她早已化成了天使，在云端俯视着我，我凭什么可以抢走她的男人？我瑟缩在沙发上，等你回来。 你肯原谅我吗？ 你已经去了很久。 “留言还是留下电话号码？”传呼台的小姐问我。 “留言！” “请说！”我说什么，你才会回来？ “就说我身体很不舒服吧。” 是不是很可笑？我只会扮演一条可怜虫。 You are finally back. “对不起，我不是想这样的，我愈是害怕失去你，就愈做出令你远离我的事！”我抱着你说。 “我们根本不适合对方！”你惆怅地说。 “不，不是的。” “我不想令你痛苦。”你轻轻推开我。 我无论如何也不肯放手，像小孩子不肯放开他手上一件最珍贵的东西。 “你不要这样！”你还是推开了我。 “跟你一起，我很快乐。”我说。 “我觉得你很痛苦！” “快乐是用痛苦换回来的！”我凄然说。 你沉默。 “不要离开我，求求你。” 你替我抹去脸上的泪珠。 我知道你舍不得我。 “我会改的。”我吻你，我不会让你再说要离开我，即使我因此窒息，我也不会再让你开口说话。 你温柔地吻我。 云生，你是爱过我的，对吗？ “你在发热。”你捉着我的手说。 我把身上的衣服一件一件脱下来。 “别这样，你在发热。” 我要把你吞进肚子里，从子宫直到心房，我不会让你离开我。 “你的身体很烫。”你说。 “我听过一个治感冒的方法，只要把冰冷的脚掌贴在你心爱的男人的肚子上二十四小时，感冒就会好。” “这是没有医学根据的！” “那个男人一定要是你爱的，否则就没有效。” “为什么要二十四小时？” “因为刚好是一日一夜。”我把你拉到床上，赤裸裸地蜷缩在你怀里。 你把我冰冷的一双脚掌放在你温暖的肚子上。 “不是说没有医学根据的吗？”我轻轻问你。 你用一双温暖的手替我按摩脚背。 “肚子冷吗？”我问你。 You shake your head. "Where's the cat?" “护士长愿意暂时收留牠，她很爱猫。” “你恨我吗？” You shake your head. “答应我，你不会离开我。” You nod. 你答应过我的。 “真的要二十四小时吗？”你带笑露出痛苦的神情。 我的脚已经不冷，但我舍不得离开你温暖的小肚子。 你的体温是医我的药，明知道吃了会上瘾，如果有一天，不能在吃到这种药，我会枯死，但是我仍然执迷不悟地吃这种药。 最遥远的距离…… 世上最遥远的距离，不是生与死的距离，不是天各一方，而是我就站在你面前，你却不知道我爱你。