Chapter 2 Chapter two

Yun Sheng: A man ran around the exhibition hall all day, dazzled.At one booth, I bumped into a French girl I met in this venue four years ago.Four years ago, I, Xu Mingshi and her had a very good conversation. We even went to eat hamburger steak at night, and we often talked on the phone after returning to Hong Kong.Later, she left that cloth factory, and it is said that she fell in love madly. I didn't expect to meet her again this year. We embrace warmly. The girl's name is Afang. "Where's your partner?" she asked me. "I'm the only one coming this year."

"The weather this year has been terrible," she said. She held up a piece of cloth to show me, it was a piece of lake green silk, very beautiful. "It's too wasteful to make curtains. It should be used as a wedding dress, which is special." She put the cloth on my shoulders. Yes, that would be a chic, sparkling and otherworldly wedding dress. After the exhibition hall closed, I went to eat with Ah Fang. "I'm married." Ah Fang said. "Congratulations." "Divorced again, so I went back to work in the cloth factory." She said, "Now I live with my dog, who do you live with?"

I stared at her blankly, unable to answer. We broke up outside the restaurant, and I walked on the snow, and finally realized that what I live with is memories, the memories you gave me. That night, I watched your back disappear under the solitary light in front of the attic window. Stop saying I misunderstood. "Isn't that great?" Huixuan said, "I didn't expect it to progress so quickly. I guess he already liked you." However, I always remember in my heart that if you draw the shortest one among the sixty-five bamboo sticks, you will finally meet the person you are waiting for.At that time, should I stand aside and applaud you, or hide and cry?I'm sewing a third throw pillow for you.

The third letter is also placed in this throw pillow made of dark blue cotton. That night, I took my pillow and went to the hospital to find you. "Wait here for me. I should be off work, but the replacement hasn't arrived yet. A child has just been sent in for an operation." You said. "What surgery?" When he was eating skewers on the side of the road, he accidentally fell and the bamboo stick just stuck in his throat. Why is it a bamboo stick again? "I'll be right back." You hurried out. I love seeing you rushing to save someone's life. I sit on your chair, pick up your stethoscope, put it on my chest, and listen to my heartbeat. The heartbeat of love seems to be particularly rapid and loud.

A young woman in a white robe suddenly walked in, startling me, and I quickly removed the stethoscope. When she saw me, she was a little surprised and asked me coldly: "Where's Doctor Qin?" "He's out." I said, standing up. She was holding a golden tabby cat. The cat's body was extremely long and disproportionate, like a stretched organ.She glanced at me, and then skillfully wrapped the cat around her neck. The weird cat wrapped around her neck like a shawl and lay on her left shoulder, as if tamed by her beauty. Unable to find you, she turned and went out with the cat shawl.

I can see that her relationship with you is not simple. After waiting in your office for thirty minutes, I walked out of the hallway just in time to see you talking to her in the hallway. She listened to you quietly, and obediently put her hands behind her back, as if she were two different people from the indifference just now.The weird cat stared back at me unfriendly. When you say goodbye, she looks back at you with a smile. "Sorry to keep you waiting for so long." You told me. "Did you take out the bamboo stick?" "Take it out." "What about the kid?"

"He will never dare to eat skewers again." You said with a smile. "That cat is weird," I said. "Oh, yes, it was a stray cat outside the hospital. Its body is so long that it can be tied around its neck. What are you holding?" I took the throw pillow out of the bag. "Another rag?" you smile. You washed your face in the basin. "If you are too tired, don't go out." I said.I was thinking of the woman in the white robe. "No, today is your vacation." You took off your white robe, put on your coat, and asked me, "Would you like to go to the movies?"

In the hospital parking lot, I ran into that woman again. She was driving a small RV and was about to leave. The cat cape was obediently on her lap.She waved you goodbye and didn't even look at me even though I was standing next to you. "What movie do you want to see?" In the car, you asked me. "Whatever," I said. In front of that beautiful woman, I suddenly felt very small.It turned out that A Su was not the only opponent of mine. In the movie theater, you fall asleep. When you sent me home, I took the key you gave me out of my purse. "I almost forgot to return it to you. I'm going to hang curtains at your house that day, and you gave it to me."

"Oh." You put the key away. You didn't even say "you keep it". I thought you would say that. Embarrassed, I got out of the car and hurried up to my attic, which was my den. "Hi!" You called me from downstairs. I pushed open the window and asked you, "What's the matter?" You took the key and asked me, "Would you like to keep it?" I really hate you, why didn't you just say that? "Why keep it?" I deliberately challenged you. You look at me in embarrassment. "Throw it up." You throw up the key and I catch it.

Does owning the key to a man's house mean owning his heart?That day, Huixuan and I went to buy lipstick. I picked up a sakura-colored lipstick and painted it on my lips, which was the color the girl was wearing that day. "Does he like this color?" Huixuan asked me. "I hope not." "Then why did you buy it?" Because I want to compete with that cherry white woman. What a fool, isn't it? "Wearing a white robe, she might be a doctor." Huixuan said while trying on lipstick, "Why don't you ask him who she is?" "That's too obvious."

I look in the mirror and my hair is barely above my shoulders. "Is there a secret recipe to make hair grow faster?" I asked Huixuan. "Have." "real?" "Receive the hair." "I mean real hair." "He likes long hair, doesn't he?" "No, it's just that I think long hair looks good." I put down the cherry blossom lipstick, I still like the chamomile color, that color suits me better. "How is Zhengwen?" I asked Huixuan. "He is still the same. The person who has been with him for eight years suddenly disappears. No one can get used to it, but you know, he will not admit defeat." "I hope he will get a girlfriend soon, so that I will have a better life." "Not yet, we have an appointment to have dinner at the club tonight." Huixuan and I broke up outside the department store, and Kang Zhaoliang would come to pick her up. I didn't want to run into Kang Zhaoliang.We used to have dinner as a group of four, and these days have passed for years.Today, I chose to go a different path alone. It's a little lonely, can you understand it? I bought a lot of things to your house, and I cleaned it up again for you, and put on new sheets and pillowcases. After tidying up like this for an afternoon, it actually drove away a little feeling of loneliness. Those three pillows are placed crookedly on the sofa, maybe you will never know the secret inside. I'm sitting on the sofa, waiting for you to get off work.The best use for a sofa is for a woman to sit on it and wait for her man to come home. Waiting for you to go home, do you know how happy it is?After nine o'clock, you came back from the hospital. "Come back?" I rubbed my eyes, "I fell asleep just now." "Excuse me, if you eat out, you don't have to starve." "No, I promised to fry the steak for you. You haven't eaten the steak I fried." "There doesn't seem to be anything in the kitchen," you said apologetically. "I've bought them all." I took the champagne out of the refrigerator, "Look, I've prepared all the champagne. Let's send wine with steak, not with medicine." You smile. "Go and wash your face first." I said. I chop onions in the kitchen. "How can I cut an onion without crying?" you asked me. "Just don't look at it." Not looking at something that makes you cry, that's the only way not to cry. When I want to cry, I don't look at you. I put the two steaks on the plate and looked at them affectionately. "What are you doing?" you asked me. "Agong from the Yakitori restaurant taught me that the way to make food delicious is to fall in love with it." "Did you fall in love with it?" "Falling in love." I looked up at you. "I'm going to wash my face." You avoided my gaze. "I love you." I told Steak. What else can you not let go of?Is it Aso? "It's delicious." You say as you eat your steak. "Thank you." I looked at you contentedly. At this time, someone rings the doorbell, you go to open the door, and standing outside the door is the woman who was talking to you in the hospital. "Do you have friends around?" she asks you. "Yes." You let him in. She seemed to have drunk a lot of wine before coming here, and she sat crookedly on the chair. "Let me introduce you." You said, "This is Su Ying, and this is Sun Mibai." Sun Mibai honestly picked up your fork to eat the steak, and drank the champagne in your glass. "Is she your new girlfriend?" she asked you in front of me. You didn't call her back. Do you know how embarrassing I am? "It's hot today." She took off her shoes. "Can I sleep here for a while?" she asks you. "I'll take you home." You said. She shook her head violently, walked into your bedroom, and fell on your single bed. She actually slept in your bed. "Is she a doctor?" I ask you. "It's a colleague from the hospital laboratory." "Is she your ex-girlfriend?" You shake your head. "Is it your current girlfriend?" You laughed: "Why?" You didn't admit that I was your girlfriend just now, so why should I ask you who she is?Perhaps she, like me, is but one of your many admirers. "I'll wash up and leave." I stood up and put away the dishes. "No, let me wash." "I'm leaving." "I'll take you back." "No, you have friends here." I don't look at you lest I cry when I look at you. "No, I'll see you off." You picked up the car keys and accompanied me to leave. Who is she to occupy your home? In the car, I was silent. I gave up the familiar people and came to you. Everything around you is so strange to me.I don't feel safe at all. "Where are you going?" you asked me. "Go home." I said.That was the only security I had left. You drove me back silently. In an instant, you seem to be far away from me. "I'm sorry." You said. "What are you sorry for?" I pretended nothing happened, although I knew I couldn't hide it from you. "She is A Su's younger sister." You said. I froze. "It's a very headstrong girl." "Then you should know the news about A Su." You shake your head: "They don't live together. Asu lives with her mother, and she lives with her father." "She always knows something, doesn't she?" "A Su often goes everywhere." "A Su must be pretty, right? Her younger sister is already so pretty." You didn't answer me. Even if A Su never comes back, you still live in her world. I look at you and really want to ask you, is there me in your world at this moment?But why should I ask such a question? "She seems to like you." "She has many boyfriends." It's hard for me to believe that you are not tempted by her at all. Look at her, you only need to nod your head, and she will fall into your arms. "Thank you for taking me back," I said. "Thank you for letting me eat such a delicious steak." "Goodbye." I got out of the car. Your world doesn't have me at all. You get out of the car and open the door with me. "Where are you going?" I ask you. "I don't know, go back to the hospital, there is a place to sleep there." I suddenly relented. "Want to come in and sit?" You shook your head: "I won't bother you anymore." I went up to the attic, you went back to your car, I suddenly realized that I never knew you, we are so strange, there is a distance.You didn't forget Ah Su because of me, maybe you never will. "Can you come out for a while?" I called Xu Mingshi. We agreed to meet at a nearby bar in thirty minutes. Xu Mingshi hurried over and asked me, "What's the matter?" "Just looking for someone to talk to." He came, but I was downcast and speechless. "I'll find you a house," he said. "My landlady has another house in Profield Road, and the tenant has just let it go." "I didn't think about renting a house." "You can't live in a fabric store all your life, right? There's not even a bed there. I went to see it. The house is on the thirty-fourth floor. It's very nice and the rent is very reasonable. You can go and see it now." "Now?" I looked at my watch, "It's past twelve o'clock." "It doesn't matter, I have the key, let's go now." It was a new building. The landlady's unit was on the 34th floor, with an area of ​​more than 600 square feet. There was a row of floor-to-ceiling glass in the living room, and one could see the scenery of the entire West District. I stood by the window and saw where you lived. The last house in the Western District, with lights on the top floor. "I want this place." I told Xu Mingshi. "Don't you ask how much the rent is first?" "What does it matter? I like it here. When can I move in?" "It's funny, to be so impatient all of a sudden." I leaned against the window, like before, looking at the place where you live, I like to be able to look at you like this, knowing that you are somewhere. Although I don't know where you are tonight. At four o'clock in the morning, you called me. "Did it wake you up?" You asked me softly. "I just fell asleep." I tell you. "Sorry." "It doesn't matter." I happily hugged the phone. "I'm in the hospital." You seemed to be telling me that you stayed in the hospital all night and didn't go home. "Yeah." I gently answer you. "Don't bother you anymore." You said. "No, I can't sleep either, I'm moving later." "Where did you move to?" "Puffy Road." "We're so close." You said. Is it close, or is it still far? "Can't you sleep?" I asked you. "I've trained myself to fall asleep whenever I want." "Have you not forgotten her?" You didn't answer me. The landlord asked someone to renovate the house, and she said it would take about a week. I can't wait to add things to my new home this week. When I was taking the fired tiles to be framed, I passed by an Italian lighting store, and I was attracted by a glass chandelier inside. The semicircular lampshade of that chandelier is made of frosted glass. When the lamp is on, the gentle light floats the entire lighting store. I looked at the price tag, and the price was half a month's rent for me, so I was reluctant to buy it. "We only have one chandelier," said the young male shop assistant. "Unfortunately, the price is very expensive." "But it's really beautiful," he said. "J." As I was about to leave, he said to me, "This lamp has a name." "Does the lamp have a name?" I asked him back. "It was given to it by the designer of this lamp." "What's its name?" "'Damion's Moonlight'." For the name, I bought the lamp. Ndemien is a mythological figure. Some people say he is a king, but most people say he is a shepherd boy. Endymien was extremely handsome. When he was guarding the sheep, Xining, the moon god, saw him by chance, fell in love with him, fell from the sky, kissed him, and lay beside him.In order to possess him forever, the moon god Xining made him sleep soundly forever, lying in the mountains as if dead, but his body was still warm and alive.Every night, Luna would visit him and kiss him.Endymien never woke up to see the silvery moonlight pouring down on him.The infatuated Luna loves him eternally and painfully. You are my shepherd boy, but unfortunately I was never your moonlight. Staying at the Yakitori shop at night, you haven't looked for me for several days. That night, you specifically called to tell me that you weren't with Sun Mibai, wasn't it to reassure me?Why are you ignoring me again? "Am I pursuing him?" I asked Huixuan. "This is not a pursuit, how can it be considered?" She asked me back. It's embarrassing. I am comforting myself, you are not looking for me, because you are very busy.Besides, you don't have to look for me.There is no unavoidable oath between us, is there?On the day I moved in, Xu Mingshi and Hui Xuan came to move for me. The last time we moved was when we moved to Pok Fu Lam Road with Zheng Wen. It was a very lively day. Zheng Wen, Kang Zhaoliang, Hui Xuan and I were busy all day long. Today, it's much cooler. "He should come to move for you anyway, otherwise, how can he be your boyfriend." Huixuan said while holding the quilt for me. "He's not my boyfriend yet." I said, taking the quilt from her hand. "It looks beautiful from here." Huixuan said standing in front of the window. "You can see the last house in the West District." I said. On the map, the distance between my place and yours is only 900 meters, which is closer than before. "So that's how it is." Hui Xuan said. Xu Mingshi hung the lamp above the bed for me. "Nice lamp," he said. "It has a name. It's called 'Endamien's Moonshine'," I said. When the light is on, the whole bed floats up, telling an infatuated story. At night, I stick the stars you gave me on the ceiling. I see lights in your house, are you alone?I will call you immediately. "Are you back?" I asked you. "How do you know I'm back?" You are stunned. "You usually get off work at this time." I lied. "How are you these days?" You asked me. "I moved." "How's the new house?" "Interested in coming over for a meal?" "Well, your cooking is so delicious." "Are you free tomorrow night?" "I just don't have to go to work tomorrow." "Then make an appointment tomorrow." At dusk, I left the fabric shop in a hurry to prepare our dinner. You arrive at half past eight. "Do you want to take a tour?" "This chandelier is beautiful," you say. "It's called 'Endamien's Moonshine.'" "Does it have a name?" "I bought it for the name." "Is it the shepherd boy in the myth?" "Do you know that myth too?" "He has been sleeping soundly in the mountain stream, as if dead." "He didn't die, he was deeply loved." "Yes, he is not dead, he is loved dearly," you say. I bring out dinner. "Can I see the West Ring Road from here?" You asked me standing in front of the window. How can I tell you that I moved in because of the view of the West Loop? "I suppose so." Watching you eat my lamb ribs with relish, I suddenly feel very happy. "There must be many boys who like you, the dishes you cook are so delicious." You said. "What do you mean?" I was suddenly a little angry. When you say that, do you mean that you don't like me? "Nothing interesting." You explained to me. At this point, your pager rings. "Could it be that the hospital is in an emergency?" "The phone number is not the hospital's." You dialed the phone, I peeked at your pager, it was Miss Sun looking for you, it must be Sun Mibai.You put down the phone and said to me apologetically, "I'm sorry, my friend has something to do, I'm going to see her." "Is it Sun Mibai?" "She got drunk at her boyfriend's house and made a big fuss." "Does she have a boyfriend? I thought her boyfriend was you. Do you want me to go with you? It would be more convenient to have a girl." "Also." I didn't expect you to agree. When we came to Qingshui Bay, Sun Mibai was already waiting for us outside a bungalow with a suitcase, and the cat shawl was on her shoulders. "Why did you come?" Sun Mibai asked me. "We had dinner together just now." I told her deliberately. She rushed to sit next to the driver's seat and threw the suitcase to me. "You're drunk again," you tell her. Your concern for her makes me jealous. "Did you get kicked out by your boyfriend?" I deliberately angered her. She sneered and said, "That suitcase is not mine." "Whose is that?" you ask her. "It's his. His most precious things are in there. His passport, his diploma, the sweater his dead mother knitted for him. He pissed me off, so I put him things to take away.” "Too much." You scolded her. "parking." She got out of the car, took the suitcase out of the car, and threw it down the hillside, and all the things in the suitcase fell out. "It's got a sweater his dead mother knitted for him." You scold her. "He said he could do anything for me. He said no matter what I did to him, he would forgive me. What does it matter if he throws away his things?" This is the first time I have seen such an arrogant woman. You didn't say anything, took the flashlight, climbed down the hillside and retrieved the discarded suitcase for her. "It's dangerous." I said. She looked at me proudly, as if to prove to me that you were willing to take risks for her. You find the suitcase at the foot of the hill with a bruised hand bleeding from it. "Your hands are bleeding," I said. "It doesn't matter." You put your suitcase in the car and drive back to the bungalow. "What are you going back for?" she asked you. "Give him back the suitcase," you tell her. She obediently took the suitcase into the house. I'll wipe the blood off your hands with a tissue. "Thank you." "Why are you so nice to her?" You didn't answer me. "Because she is Ah Su's younger sister, right?" You bow your head and keep silent. I know you don't like such an arrogant woman, it must be because she is the sister of the woman you love. She also knows, so she is so willful in front of you. She came out of the bungalow, put her hands behind her back, and said to you obediently: "Give it back to him." Cat Shawl also barked. She got into the car and fell asleep quietly in the car. "Can you take me home?" I asked you. "of course can." I know that I am not A Su's opponent yet, I want to go back immediately and hide in my lair to lick my wounds. "Can you drive faster?" I urged you. "Are you okay?" you asked me on the highway. "It's okay." I tried my best to hide it, "I suddenly remembered that I might have forgotten to turn off the faucet at home, please turn it on as quickly as possible." You hurried me home. "Thank you for taking me back, goodbye." I didn't forget to turn off the tap, what I couldn't turn off were my tears. I turned off 'Endemien's Moonlight', I'm not a moon god, I love you so obsessively, I really can't control myself.Tomorrow, tomorrow I will forget you. I try not to stand by the window, I don't want to look at where you live. I'm busy at the fabric store ordering curtains for the new hotel in Qingdao. I tear the stars off the ceiling, and I forget you. This day is Zhengwen's birthday, and Huixuan and Kang Zhaoliang are going to celebrate him. "Are you coming?" Huixuan asked me. "He wouldn't want to see me." "He's still waiting for you to go back to him." "No, he's waiting for me to regret it, but I won't regret it." "Didn't you say you want to forget Qin Yunsheng?" "yes." "You can't forget him at all." "I don't know what's good about him, but I know he has a big shortcoming." "What shortcoming?" "He doesn't love me, isn't this shortcoming big enough?" "Yes, a great one." Huixuan left, leaving me alone in the Yakitori restaurant. On Friday night, the Yakitori restaurant was crowded with people. It was after eight o'clock, and there were still people waiting. Being busy is also good, I can not think about you. I haven't seen you for three weeks and you suddenly show up. "Alone?" I asked you. You nod. "It's full now, so you have to wait." "OK." I will hand you over to Tiantian and ignore you. Not looking at you is the only way not to be sad, please forgive me. Tiantian takes you to the back garden. I came over and asked you, "What do you want to eat?" "Did you forget to turn off the tap that night?" You asked me. "Why are you asking me now?" I asked you back. You looked at me awkwardly, a little overwhelmed. "I really hope Asu will show up soon." I said. You froze. "She is the one you want, and you have never forgotten her." "She won't show up." "why?" "She's dead," you say. I was stunned: "When did she die?" "She died five years ago." "Did you just find out about it recently?" "I already knew." "But haven't you been waiting for her?" "Yes, I'm waiting for her, but that doesn't mean she will show up." You said sadly. "Why did she die? Didn't you say you broke up with her here five years ago?" "At that time, the hospital was very busy, and I was busy taking professional exams, so I neglected her, and I could only see her once a month. I was just thinking about my future, and I didn't think that she might feel alone." "That day, she told me that she would wait for me here at night. If I didn't show up, she would never see her again. She cried on the phone and said she would break up with me." "I was supposed to be on duty. In order to see her, I begged my colleagues to take the shift for me. I sneaked out and bought a large bouquet of white daisies at the flower shop. I was going to give it to her. I thought she was just emotional and coaxed her It'll be fine." "It was raining that day and the weather was very humid. I sat inside alone and waited for a long time, but she didn't come. I thought she was still angry with me. I hugged the bouquet of daisies and went back to the hospital dejectedly." "While passing the corridor, I saw a dead body covered with a white cloth on a hospital bed in the corridor. In the hospital, this is a very common thing. Patients who have just died are placed in the corridor like this, but, That corpse exposed a foot, which is a foot that I am very familiar with!" "What the hell happened?" "She is a ballet dancer. Due to long-term practice, there is a bone protruding on the back of her foot, which is different from ordinary people. I told myself, it is impossible, she can't be lying here. I stretched out my hand to touch the sole of that foot. The sole of the foot is very cold, and the five toes are familiar to me. I have touched the layer of skin covering the sole of the foot. It cannot be wrong. I put down the daisy, and slowly pulled away the white cloth covering the corpse. , she closed her eyes and pursed her lips, as if she was complaining that I made her feel lonely!" "You wept in front of me." "Why did she die?" "The weather was very humid that day. She was taking a shower in the dressing room of the dance school. When she came out, she was barefoot, staggered and fell, and just hit a glass screen in the dressing room. The whole screen cracked and the glass The splinters just cut open the main artery in her thigh. She was alone in the changing room, and the cleaning lady found her when she went in to clean, but she had lost a lot of blood." "She died a terrible death," I said sadly. "She was taken to the hospital in an ambulance, and I, who was on duty, couldn't save her myself because I slipped out to meet her; if I hadn't left, she wouldn't have died. I really would never see her again, the bunch She will never see the white daisies." You choke. Seeing your sad look, I don't know what to say, and I've always been jealous of her. "I'm sorry, but I shouldn't have advertised your story with her." "Maybe she'll see." You said sadly. It turns out that your waiting is a kind of mourning.No wonder you said that waiting does not mean waiting for that person to appear. No wonder you said that she will not be happy. No wonder you said that the breakup was because of the rain. No wonder you said that the shepherd boy Endamien is not dead, he is deeply loved. I look at you, and it's hard to believe that for five years, you've been waiting here for a woman who won't show up. I am very jealous, jealous that she has a man who loves her so much. My rival in love no longer exists, what ability do I have to defeat her?Compared with her tragic death, my wishful thinking is too embarrassing. She is not in the world, but she is in the deepest part of your soul. I am right in front of you, but I cannot get your affection. why?I would rather your past is not such an unforgettable story, otherwise I am just ordinary to you. Unless I die too, right? "Am I stupid?" you ask me. Didn't I ask you this sentence? After closing, I left the roasted bird shop with you. On the way, I asked you: "Have you heard the story of the long-legged tortoise and the short-legged tortoise?" You shake your head. "It's an African fairy tale. One night an old man saw a dead moon and a dead man. He called up many animals and said to them, 'Which of you would carry the dead man or the moon across the river?' Two The tortoise agreed. The first tortoise had four long legs and carried the moon on its back and arrived at the case unharmed. The second tortoise had four short legs and carried the dead man on its back and drowned in the river. Therefore, the dead moon Can always be resurrected, but the dead can never be resurrected." "Thank you." You said sincerely. "It can be used to comfort the patient's family in the future." I said with a smile. "yes." I look at you, just a short distance away, but the end of the world.Although I don't want to, I should give up on you. I can't bear the fact that my position in the heart of the man I like is second to another woman. "Shall I take you home?" you asked me. "No need, I want to walk by myself, the moonlight is beautiful today." I looked up at the full moon in the sky, and it turned out to be a little desolate. I can actually refuse you. I read that African fairy tale in a fairy tale collection when I was a child. It is not a fairy tale at all, and fairy tales should not be so sad. What would happen if the long-legged tortoise carried a dead man instead of the moon?The next day, I went to the library to look through the microfilms from March five years ago.On a certain day in March this year, you said that you broke up with her in the restaurant five years ago, but in fact it was the day she died unexpectedly. I started from the newspaper on March 1 five years ago, and paid attention to whether there was such a news in the Hong Kong news edition. I finally found this news in the newspaper on March 22: A young ballerina teacher slipped and fell in the dressing room and smashed a glass screen in the dressing room. The glass shards severed the main artery in her left thigh. Since there was no one in the women's changing room at the time, she lost consciousness after being injured and fell into a pool of blood. An hour later, a cleaning lady came in to clean the changing room and found her, calling the police and sending her to the hospital.After the injured were sent to the hospital, rescue efforts failed and he died due to excessive blood loss. The deceased's name was Sun Misu, twenty-four years old, and a teacher at a famous ballet school.A picture of her life before her death was published in the newspaper.Wearing a white dress and long hair, she hugged a Mickey Mouse in Tokyo Disneyland and dragged its tail mischievously. She looks very similar to Sun Mibai, but she is smaller than her. Although she is not as beautiful as her, she is gentler than her. She is very right with you. I just said yesterday that I want to give up on you, why do I care about your affairs today?what am i doingI put down the micronegatives and hurried out of the library. On the way back to the burning bird shop, the evening in August was very hot, and the streets were crowded with people who were off work, hurrying. Life is short, and who would wait five years or more for someone who won't show up?I thought I was chasing an unattainable dream, but you are more than me. Outside a flower shop, I saw a pot of purple heather. Heather, which blooms in August, symbolizes loneliness. The person I am waiting for is waiting for someone else. Do you understand this loneliness?I squatted on the ground and stared blankly at the pot of purple heather, when a familiar voice sounded behind me. "Give me a bouquet of yellow roses." That was Kang Zhaoliang's voice. When I stood up to talk to him, he was already walking towards his expensive car with the bunch of yellow roses in his arms.There was a young woman wearing sunglasses in the car, and Kang Zhaoliang happily gave her roses. Should I tell Huixuan? On the way back to the burning bird shop, it was much heavier again. Back at the Yakiniku shop, Huixuan took care of everything happily. "Come back? Where have you been?" she asked me. "library." "What are you doing in the library?" She asked me with a smile. I don't know how to speak. "Are you all right?" She frightened me. "It's okay, I'm just a little tired after looking through the documents all day." "I scared you to death." I suddenly decided not to tell her what I just saw, maybe I would have done so before yesterday, but last night, looking at you and hearing your story, I know what it's like to be sad. If she didn't know, maybe she would never be sad. "Where's Dr. Qin? How are you and him?" Huixuan asked me. "It's not how, but what can be done." I smiled wryly. After nine o'clock, an unexpected person came suddenly, it was Sun Mibai. "Has Yun Sheng ever been here?" She asked me. I shake my head. She sat down by herself. "Would you like something to eat?" "Is there any wine?" "What kind of wine do you like to drink?" "Drink the wine that will make you happy." "some." I gave her a bottle of "Pretty Boy". "How did you meet Yunsheng?" she asked me. "I met you when I was buying an electric heater." "For so many years, you are the only woman who appeared by his side. There are very few such good men." "So you like him?" She gave me a look and couldn't deny it. Her arrogance and willfulness seemed to disappear in an instant. "My sister and I have a very good relationship." Sun Mibai said, "My parents divorced when I was ten years old. My sister lived with my mother, and I lived with my father. My mother is a very capable and smart woman, but When we got divorced, she chose my sister and gave up on me. From then on, I compared my sister to her. I was better than her in everything. As a result, my grades in school were better than hers, and more boys pursued me than hers. I am prettier than her. But she got Qin Yunsheng, and she died, and the dead one is the best. " "Yes, Yun Sheng said that death and love are equally domineering. Now I understand what he means." "Do you like him very much?" Sun Mibai asked me. I didn't answer her, it was my secret and my dignity. “他也好像喜欢你。”她说。 我不敢相信。 “五年来，你是他第一个带回家的女人。” "yes?" 她望着我说：“其实你也不是很讨厌。” “你曾经觉得我讨厌吗？”我反问她。 “云生喜欢你，不代表他爱你，他永远不会忘记我姐姐，我和你都只会是失败者。” 本来我已经打算放弃你，但是孙米白的说话，反而激励了我。 “你可以忍受在他心中的地位排在我姐姐之后吗？”孙米白冷冷地问我。 “云生不是说过，死亡和爱情同样霸道吗？死亡和爱情的力量是一样的，我可以给他爱情。” “我可以为他死。”孙米白倔强地说。 “他不再需要一个为他死的女人，他不可能再承受一次这种打击，他需要得失一个为他生存的女人。” 那一刻，我很天真地相信，我可以用爱改变你。 伪装，只是一种姿态男人伪装坚强，只是害怕被女人发现他软弱。 女人伪装幸福，只是害怕被男人发现她伤心。