Yun Sheng: On the evening of January 6th, I arrived in Frankfurt.The world's largest fabric exhibition will be held here tomorrow. The temperature in Frankfurt is only minus nine degrees, and the sky is full of wind and snow.I was reckless, slipped and fell twice on the snow, and finally got up. Because I wet my hair when I slipped and fell, the tips of my hair froze, and I shivered from the cold. I live in a hotel across the river from the exhibition hall, and the hotels here are cheaper.The hotel I live in is right by the river, and from the room, I can see the snow falling on the river.

On the first day, in the exhibition hall, I saw a piece of cloth from India. On the light yellow cotton cloth, white snowflakes were embroidered by hand, and the handwork was exquisite.Do you know snowflakes?This snow-white flower, which looks a bit like a lily, symbolizes hope in the face of adversity. It is the flower of January, and you were born in January. Hanging such a cloth embroidered with snowflakes in front of the window is not equivalent to hanging it with hope?In late December of that year, I went to the hair salon to cut off my ten-year long hair. "It's a pity that the hair has grown to the back," said Awan, my hairstylist.

Awan, I mean, cut my hair short to reveal a pair of ears. When I left the salon, I felt much more relaxed. My long hair had always been a burden to me. I lost my long hair, and the cold wind on the street made my neck very cold. The temperature suddenly dropped to only seven degrees this day. I heard that it would be even lower at night, so I hurried to buy an electric heater. There are a lot of people buying electric heaters, and the last one is left on the shelf. You and I saw the only one at about the same time. That day, you were wearing a lot of clothes, a cotton jacket over the sweater, a sweater over the cotton jacket, and a thick fleece jacket over the sweater. You were tall and looked frail, and kept going. Cough.At that moment, I actually felt compassionate towards you.

"You want it." I will give you the electric heater. I couldn't bear to compete with such a frail man for an electric heater. "You want it." You didn't appreciate it. "You still want it." I said. "You want it." You refused to accept my kindness, as if it was a disgraceful thing to accept a woman's kindness. "Then I'm sorry." I said. "Why don't you buy an electric blanket?" I propose to you out of sympathy. "Thank you, covering the electric blanket, it feels like sitting in the electric chair waiting for execution." You said seriously while blowing your nose.

Of course, the warmest thing in the world is the body temperature of your lover. I drove out of the parking lot, passed the open-air cafe next to the department store, and through the floor-to-ceiling glass, I happened to see you delivering medicine with a cup of hot coffee.I've heard people say that for a lonely person, the cold will drag on for a long time, because he doesn't want to get well. Cold is a very sad disease. I took the electric heater home, and after turning on the electric heater, the room temperature increased a lot, but the feeling of skin tightening due to dryness was not pleasant, I applied a lot of cream on my face, and also on my neck some.

Zheng Wen called back and asked me if he had left his purse at home. "wait for me a while." I found his purse on the bed. "Found it." I told him. He has already hung up, he is an impatient person. I drove the purse to him, and his staff said he was out, as if to eat, and I put the purse in his office. At that time, Du Huixuan called me. "Are you still here?" "I'm already in the car." I said. Huixuan's Japanese yakiniku restaurant will open tomorrow. She is the major shareholder and I am the minority shareholder.I'm her best friend and she says I should have my share of everything except the man and the inheritance.

Huixuan's wish is to open a restaurant, so she can sit in front of the cash register and count colorful bills every day. A year ago, we went to Kagoshima together, where we fell in love with Linglian Yakitori. Yakitori restaurants in Japan are places that specialize in grilled chicken skewers. They are usually opened in cellars, with a small area, crowded with customers, and dense air. Talking in that place has a special flavor. After returning to Hong Kong, Huixuan decided to open a roasted bird shop.We found a ground floor shop on Star Street in Wan Chai, which used to be an Italian restaurant, which had been vacant for more than half a year after it closed.

My favorite restaurant has a back garden where you can see the sky. Huixuan's money was paid for by her boyfriend Kang Zhaoliang, who was in business. The name of our burning bird shop is "Burning Bird", which was changed by me.Love is for burning, not for storing. The light is gone, this is the love I am after, will you understand?When I came to the burning bird shop, the decoration workers were still making the final sprint. When Huixuan saw me, she was startled and asked me: "Why did you cut your hair short?" "I feel bored." I said. "People will think that you are broken in love. A woman who is broken in love cuts her hair so short."

"Isn't it pretty?" She looked at me carefully and asked me, "Don't your neck feel cold?" "In the future, I can use different silk scarves every day." I said with a smile. That night, we were busy until five o'clock in the morning. Back home, Zheng Wen was already going to bed. "You don't need to give me the purse, I just ask you to see if the purse is left at home." He said. "Don't you notice any difference in me?" I asked him. He climbed into bed, looked at me, and asked me, "Where's your hair?" "It's changed!" I said with a grimace, "It's a New Year's gift for you,"

"Why did you cut your hair off?" He asked me under the covers. "Like it?" "No difference." He turned off the light casually. "Don't you feel it? It's a long hair you've been touching for eight years." I think men are the most careless animals. "I tell you, I won a lot of money today." He said triumphantly. "You never lose very often," I said. He kissed me on the cheek and said, "Go to sleep." "Zheng Wen, how many years have we been together?" "Are you going to get married?" he asked me.

"Will there be a day when you will no longer have feelings for me, or me for you?" "Will not." "You won't, or I won't?" "You won't. I never lose very often," he said. "Really don't want to get married?" He asked me again. "Why do you ask me that?" "Women all want to get married, it seems to be happier this way." He let me lie on his arms.Maybe, I am happy. The house we live in is more than 1,900 square feet on Pok Fu Lam Road. There are only two people living in it. I think it is really too big.The house was bought by Zhengwen three years ago, he paid for it, and the deed had my name and his name written on it.Zheng Wen said that the house is to be used for marriage in the future. Zheng Wen is a senior employee of a stock company. The European car I drove was also given to me by Zheng Wen. Every month, he will automatically deposit money into my account. He said that it is living expenses. He is a very generous man. I feel very corrupt when I spend his money, and sometimes I feel very happy. Zheng Wen is ten years older than me, and he was my first boyfriend. He took taking care of me as a matter of course. And I used to believe that loving him was a matter of course. I have this responsibility. Happiness is enough, I don't think marriage is perfect enough. Maybe I felt too happy, so I changed my hair away. When I woke up the next day, I felt uncomfortable all over, as if I had a cold. I must have been too close to you when I bought the electric heater, and I caught it from you. There was no close contact, not even a kiss, and I was infected by you, which made me unable to get up while lying on the bed.The first gift you gave me turned out to be a viral infection. At half past four in the afternoon, Huixuan called to urge me. "Aren't you up yet? The opening reception starts at five o'clock, and everyone is waiting for you." "I feel like I have a cold." I said. "Did you infect Yang Zhengwen?" "No, not him." At the opening reception, Huixuan dressed up very beautifully, and she looked very charming when she dressed up.Zhengwen and Kang Zhaoliang are classmates in middle school, and they get along very well. I first met Kang Zhaoliang before I met Huixuan.At that time, Huixuan was just with Kang Zhaoliang, and Kang Zhaoliang took her out to meet us. I didn't expect that she would stay with Kang Zhaoliang for five years. Kang Zhaoliang is a man who is not specific in his feelings. I have never seen a woman who can be with him for more than a year. He can give women everything except marriage and loyalty. Huixuan seemed to want to get these two things from him that he refused to give. Xu Mingshi also came. My job is to run a fabric shop, and Xu Mingshi is my partner. Besides Hye Hyun, he is my best friend.A good girlfriend of Xu Mingyou, Zhou Qingrong, is an outreach social worker.Their relationship has always been very good, but last winter, they broke up suddenly. The reason for the breakup, Xu Mingshi has been tight-lipped, whenever I want to find out from him, he always said: "It's meaningless to talk about the lost relationship." He has always been a cheerful person, but the matter of breaking up, he seems very mysterious. This breakup may be a wound that never heals. Since then, I haven't seen Zhou Qingrong either. In the past, when she was free, she often bought lunch for me and Xu Mingshi. "Your new hairstyle looks great." Xu Mingshi said. "Thank you, you are the first person to compliment me." He touched his neck and asked me, "Doesn't this place feel cold?" My neck must be very long, otherwise so many people would not care about my neck. After leaving the yakiniku shop, I bought a scarf at the boutique. It was a large cotton scarf with dark red roses on a black base, which could be wrapped around the neck and the entire shoulders. My neck really felt much warmer. Back home, I turned on the electric heater to sleep.My headache seems to be getting worse. At dusk the next day, the headache seemed to be a little better. I changed my clothes and went back to the roasted bird shop. Anyway, sitting at home is boring. When I went out, it rained suddenly, I couldn't think about it, but on the second day of opening, I left Huixuan alone, it seemed unreasonable. "Don't you know that there is an ancient method that is very effective in treating colds?" Huixuan said. "what way?" "Put your icy soles on a man's belly for twenty-four hours until your whole body is warm." "Who said that?" I scolded her nonsense. "Only if you like a man." She emphasized. "Have you tried?" "My health is very good, and I haven't had a cold in the past five years." "Then how do you know it works?" "I've tried it before," she said proudly. That seemed like a beautiful experience. I didn't expect to see you again tonight. "Welcome." I tell you. Your cold hasn't healed yet. You shouldn't be walking on the street and infecting others with your appearance. You look up at me as if you don't remember who I am. It turns out that I didn't leave any impression in your heart. I'm really not reconciled. I'm not ugly. How come you don't have any impression of me? "Did you go anywhere else to buy an electric heater?" I ask you. "Ok?" you remember me. "No need." You said. "How did you know this place existed? We just opened yesterday." "Is this place renovated?" you ask me. "Have you been here before?" You nod. "This used to be an Italian restaurant. It was very lively, but it closed down later, and it has been empty for more than half a year," I said. I found that your nose is red, is it because of a cold?At this moment, I have the opportunity to see your appearance clearly. Your hair is thick and messy, and it is a pile of very angry hair.The beard is always unclean, and there are many mustaches on his face. Huixuan came to ask me: "Do you know him?" "I only saw it once, when I bought an electric heater." "You seem to know him very well." From the first day, I felt familiar with you. At that time, I didn't know that you were a person who rejected people thousands of miles away. You take a bag of pills and put it on the table. "Want hot water?" I asked you. "No." You use Japanese sake to deliver medicine. "Didn't the doctor tell you that you shouldn't use alcohol to deliver medicine?" "I don't use wine to deliver medicine, I use medicine to deliver wine." You quibble with a smile. The next day, after seeing the doctor, I went back to the Yakitori shop, and I did what you did, using half a bottle of Japanese sake to deliver the medicine. You know, the medicine is too bitter, and I don’t want to swallow it without alcohol, especially the cough syrup, which tastes weird. Not long after I swallowed the medicine, I was sitting in front of the burning bird stove, my vision became more and more blurred, and my body seemed to be sinking, only to hear Huixuan ask me: "What's wrong with you?" "I want to sleep very much." I vaguely remember answering her like this. Huixuan, the bird-burning master Agong and the waitress Tiantian worked together to help me down. Huixuan cried and said, "What should I do?" "Call an ambulance," someone said. When I woke up, I was lying on the bed in the emergency room, and the nurse woke me up. "The doctor came to see you," she said. I opened my eyes and saw a familiar man in a white robe standing in front of me. "What's your name?" you asked me. "Su Ying." I said. You listen to my heartbeat with a stethoscope, and take my pulse for me. "What did you eat?" You asked me softly. "I use wine to deliver medicine, no, I use medicine to deliver wine." I said mischievously. "What medicine did you take?" You asked me solemnly. "Cold medicine." "How much did you eat?" I was still thinking, and the nurse had already said: "Did you commit suicide?" suicide?I laughed. "How many cold medicines have you taken?" You asked me again. "Four or five pills, and cough medicine." "It's okay, let her sleep here for a while." You tell the nurse. "I want a drink of water." I said. You in the white robe fluttered away from my bed, unable to hear my call. I had a very sweet sleep in the hospital, and when I woke up the next day, the first person I saw was you. You are wearing the same white robe as yesterday, but this time, your face is much clearer.With a smile on his face, his nose is no longer red. Your name tag reads: Dr. Qin Yunsheng. "Don't send alcohol with meds in the future," you tell me as you write your report. "Not everyone can take their meds in this unique way. You can leave the hospital." I'm so angry, you are the culprit. Zhengwen and Huixuan came to pick me up and leave the hospital. "I came here last night and you fell asleep." Zheng Wen said. "I slept very well last night." "You didn't commit suicide, did you?" It didn't occur to me that he didn't know me at all. "She is so afraid of pain that she dare not commit suicide." Huixuan said. "So that person is a doctor?" Huixuan asked me. "He's a bad doctor," I said. Isn't it a bad doctor to teach people to use alcohol to deliver medicine? When I got home, I took the cold medicine you prescribed for me with water, and slept in a dark sleep. When I woke up, I felt much more comfortable. I'm so stupid, how can I listen to you and use wine to deliver medicine? Not long after, you came to the Yakitori shop again. You always like to sit in the back garden. "Are you okay?" you asked me. "I didn't expect that the person who was so bleakly ill that day turned out to be a doctor." I said with a smile. "Doctors can get sick too, and they can also suffer from incurable diseases." You said. "Is the work in the emergency room exciting?" Huixuan came over and asked you. "Never before has a handsome prodigal son with blood on his face rushing into the emergency room with a beautiful dying woman in his arms and saying, 'Doctor, you save her!'" you laugh. "Movies are like this." Huixuan said. I stood by the side without opening my mouth. I also had this kind of dream. In the dream, I was seriously injured for my man. He rushed into the emergency room of the hospital with blood on his face, screaming hoarsely with all his strength. Begging the doctor: "Doctor, save her!" It was an everlasting dream. Died in the arms of his lover. I didn't tell you, lest you laugh at me. The third time I saw you at Yakitori was the eve of my trip to Frankfurt. You come alone and sit quietly in the back garden. "It's not easy to come three times a week." Huixuan said. I used to wishful thinking that you came for me. "You don't look like a doctor at all," I said. "Should doctors look the same?" you say. "At least the beard should be clean-shaven, and the hair shouldn't be so angry." You sat silently all night, and you didn't seem to come for me. "You still have to go to Frankfurt tomorrow, so you go first." Hui Xuan said. I put on my overcoat and left. There was a mobile vendor on the street selling silk scarves. The silk scarves he sells are colorful. I chose a sky blue one with patterns of moon and stars on it.I tied the scarf around my neck. I suddenly saw you behind the crowd. "Doctor, are you leaving too?" "Your silk scarf is very beautiful." You said. "I like stars." I said. "Yes, the stars are beautiful." "Doctor Qin, where do you live?" "The last room in the West Loop," you said. When I got home that night, I immediately took out the map and looked for the location of the last house in the West District you mentioned. I think it's probably that one.Standing on the balcony, I can see the building you live in.I was thinking, which window is yours?In the morning, Zheng Wen was still sleeping, so I didn't wake him up.Xu Mingshi came to pick me up and went to the airport together. "I heard that Frankfurt is very cold." Xu Mingshi said in the cabin. "The weather report says only six degrees below zero." "This is for you." He took out a box wrapped in floral paper from his backpack and gave it to me. "What is it?" "It's very suitable for you, open it and have a look." I opened the box, and it was a square silk scarf with colorful animal patterns printed on it. "You need this now." "Thank you." It was a full silk neckerchief, which was very warm around the neck. On the plane, I thought of you and your mustache, and suddenly found it funny. "What are you laughing at?" Xu Mingshi asked me. "Nothing." I said with a smile. Because I think of you. As in previous years, we stayed at the hotel on the other side of the exhibition hall, which is cheaper. On the first day in the exhibition hall, I was attracted by the booth of a French cloth merchant whose silk was beautiful. "The price is very expensive." Xu Mingshi reminded me. "But it's beautiful!" I refused to leave the booth. The French lady at the booth gave me a piece of light yellow French silk, which was just used to make a silk scarf. After leaving Frankfurt, Xu Mingshi and I traveled to Madrid together. Zheng Wen was very relieved of Xu Mingshi, he was never worried that we would have feelings.The real reason may not be that he trusts me, but that he looks down on Xu Mingshi. He thinks Xu Mingshi is not his opponent. Xu Mingshi and I have endless topics to talk about. If one day we become lovers, we may not be able to talk about everything. I like him, but I wouldn't choose him as my life partner. Don't ask me why, it doesn't matter if you stay together for the rest of your life or just pass by, it's just a little bit different.He is not the man I am looking for. However, is it a political document?I started to ask myself repeatedly. On the last day in Madrid, I found a very unique hand-fired tile in a tile shop.It was a six-by-six-inch white tile that had been hand-painted with people from all walks of life, including a doctor and a patient in one of the tiles.The young doctor who is treating a patient has thick and messy hair and a mustache on his face, which is surprisingly similar to your imagination; the patient is a woman with long hair and a sad face. I bought that tile and put it in my backpack. "What did you buy it for?" Xu Mingshi asked me. I can't explain it either, maybe from that moment on, I was already betraying the government. I made a phone call to Zheng Wen at the hotel. "I won again today!" he told me cheerfully. I suddenly felt very tired and hung up the phone. On the day I returned to Hong Kong, Zheng Wen came to pick me up at the airport. "Why was the phone call suddenly interrupted that day?" he asked me. "There's a breakdown in the hotel terminal." I lied to him. In the car, I was silent.Zhengwen kept telling me about his brilliant achievements in the past two weeks. I suddenly felt that he was so strange. Eight years ago, he wasn't like this. He is confident and idealistic. Now, he has become a gambler.In his life, there is only winning and losing and buying and selling. How boring it would be if there were only winners and losers in life. "Why don't you talk?" he asked me. It's not that I don't speak, but I don't know what to say. "What you're doing is like gambling," I said. "Buying and selling stocks for clients is a gamble. All gambles are a balance between greed and fear. The more greedy, the greater the risk and the higher the profit. The result is that the balance is gradually lost. Whoever gets the balance can win money ."He said. Isn't love a balance of greed and fear? The more you want to possess, the easier it is to lose.Love is a balance between trying to possess and trying not to lose. Going back to the roasted bird shop again, Huixuan said that you have been here once. "I told him you went to Frankfurt." "Why did you tell him? Did he ask me?" "No, we're just talking about you." I'm a little disappointed. Do you like Huixuan? One night at the end of January, you reappeared, still sitting in the back garden. "Will you come on Valentine's Day? We have a special offer that day, do you want me to reserve a seat for you?" "okay, thank you." You can't celebrate Valentine's Day alone, can you? On Valentine's Day, Zheng Wen and I went to work after having dinner. There were a lot of guests that night, and Xu Mingshi also specially came to help. "Find a girlfriend quickly, so you won't be lonely on Valentine's Day." I told him. "With a girlfriend, I'm not lonely on Valentine's Day, but I'm lonely on other days." He said with a smile. Yes, love makes people lonelier. I haven't seen you all the time, and I'm starting to worry. "I was too busy just now, I forgot to tell you, Doctor Qin already called to cancel that seat." Tian Tian said. "yes?" "En." Tiantian's face was very pale. "Are you OK." "My stomach has been uncomfortable since the afternoon." "Then why don't you go to the doctor?" "It's okay, I'll be fine with some painkillers." "Could it be appendicitis?" "It's not that serious, is it?" Xu Mingshi said. "I had my cecum cut ten years ago," Tiantian said. "Then it may be a more serious problem. Change your clothes quickly, and I will accompany you to the doctor." "No need, Miss Su!" Boss Tian Tian was unwilling. "It's so late, where can I find a doctor?" Xu Mingshi asked me. "To the emergency room, of course." I forced Tiantian to the emergency room. "Miss Su, it's really not a serious illness. My stomach doesn't hurt anymore." Tiantian pitifully begged me to let her go. The nurse called her name. "I'll accompany you in." I took Tiantian hostage into the consultation room. I'm disappointed that the doctor who came in was not you. I looked outside the consulting room, but there was no sign of you.I asked the nurse at the registration desk. "Is Doctor Qin there?" "He's on vacation." "Is it a vacation or a special leave?" The nurse glared at me and said, "It's a vacation." There is a difference between taking a vacation and asking for a vacation. If you ask for a vacation, it may be that you have arranged a rich Valentine's Day program. Tiantian came out of the consulting room with a sad face. "How?" I asked her. "The doctor injected me. I am most afraid of pain in my life. Miss Su, next time, don't force me to see a doctor." She said with a sad face. I took her to the emergency room with bad intentions, just to see you.I'm really sorry Tiantian. what am i doing I've never had an unrequited love for anyone, and never will.If you don't show up anymore, that's fine. At noon that day, in the fabric shop, I was busy choosing fabrics for customers, when you appeared outside the shop. "Miss Su, do you work here?" You asked me. "This is my job. I'm just a minority shareholder of that roasted bird restaurant. Can I help?" "I want to change the curtains at home." "We're going to your house to measure the windows." "I'll write you the address." "You live in the last house in the West Ring. I know which one it is. You just need to tell me which unit you live in." You are a little taken aback. "I lived in Xihuan when I was young." I lied. Why did you suddenly appear when I decided not to think about you? "I live on the top floor." You tell me. That night, I stood on the balcony and saw the light on the top floor of the last house in the West Ring, and I felt unspeakable joy in my heart.I really want to go and see where you live. When you go to a guest's house to measure the windows, you usually send a servant, but in order to have a look at your house, I came alone. "Miss Su, are you alone?" You wondered. "I'm not afraid of you, what are you afraid of me?" I entered your house pretending to be righteous. One side of the living room is full of windows, and the curtains are dark blue, which is already very dilapidated. The furnishings in the room are very simple, so simple that it is almost desolate. It doesn't look like there is a hostess here to take care of everything. "Can I go into the bedroom?" I asked you. "of course can." You sleep on a single bed, the bed is neatly made, and there are no pictures of girls in the room. A book on dream interpretation lay on the pillow. "Do you believe this too?" "I often have strange dreams, so I just read books." You said. "What strange dream?" "Can't remember." "Why do I always forget that dream every time I wake up from a dream? Especially a good dream, if it is a nightmare, I will remember it very clearly." "When you hear a funny joke, you forget it quickly, but when you hear a tragedy, you will remember it for a long time. Sorrow is always more unforgettable, and dreams are the same." "You sound like a doctor." I said with a smile, "Do all dreams have meaning?" "You seem to be very interested in dreaming." "Yes, I daydream a lot." "Can I make you two new sets of sheets and pillowcases?" I ask you. "Also." "The sofa in the living room should also be replaced, this one is already very old." "You really know how to do business." You said with a smile. "Our handwork is very good, and we can finish it in a month. Why didn't you come on Valentine's Day?" I pretended to be casual and asked you, "Did someone break the appointment?" You smile and remain silent. "Okay, goodbye." I said. You call me: "Miss Su." "What's up?" "Wait for me, I have to go to work too, did you come by car?" "No." In fact, my car is in a nearby parking lot. "Then I'll give you a ride." "Thank you." "Where are you going?" In the car, you asked me. "Go back to the roasted bird shop. Do you like roasted birds very much?" "No." "Then why do you come here so often?" "I'm waiting for someone." You told me when you got off the bus. Who are you waiting for? Step into March and it's wet and cold and you still come every week. Sometimes, you tell Huixuan and me some emergency room jokes.It turns out that you are a cheerful and talkative person. Sometimes, you sit silently in the back garden, silent. Who are you waiting for? "Your curtains and sofa are ready, when will you be home?" I asked you. "I'll be on a day shift starting tomorrow, and I'll be home very late. How about this, I'll give you the keys to the house." "Do you believe me?" You smiled and handed me a bunch of keys and said, "I have nothing to lose." In the evening of this day, my workers and I came to your home, put the sofa in the center of the living room, and hung up the curtains for you. "You go first." I told them. I am left alone. With new curtains and sofas, your home is not the same as before, a little more alive.Those drapes are my favorite. I also made you two sets of sheets and pillowcases. I put them on your single bed. Looking at your bed, I thought, I should put new sheets and pillowcases for you. After putting on new sheets and pillow bags, the single bed matched the curtains and sofa in the room. Sheets and pillowcases are sewn from soft off-white and green cotton. Wouldn't it be nice if you saw me change the sheets and pillowcases for you?My job should not include this part. So I remade the old set of sheets and pillowcases, folded the new set, and set it aside. When you leave your home, the sky is full of stars. I stood on the balcony of my house, and finally saw your home lit up at ten o'clock in the evening, do you like what I made for you? On the second night, you dragged your tired body to the burning bird shop. "You look tired." I said. "The emergency room is understaffed. Last night, three patients who committed suicide were brought in." "Is it male or female?" "All three are women." "Is it trapped by love?" "It's usually the reason, some of them are regular customers." "Regular customer?" "Yes, every time we revived her, she would seriously say to me: 'Doctor, I won't do it next time.' However, not long after, they were brought in by ambulance again, and finally one time, they would Get what you want." "What do you think about death?" "Why are you asking me?" "You are a person who faces death every day, maybe you have some special views!" "Death is as domineering as love is." I didn't expect such affectionate words to come out of your mouth. "Give me back the key." I said. "Those drapes are beautiful, thank you." "Where's the sofa?" "It's so comfortable, I slept on the sofa yesterday." "Don't you think there's something missing from that sofa?" "what?" "Pillow." "Oh yes." "Well, I'll give you the pillow, but I can't make it until there are rags." "Thank you." You yawned. "It seems that you can't stand it anymore, go back to sleep." You look at your watch and say, "So it's twelve o'clock! I'm sorry." Huixuan had already changed her clothes and said, "We are leaving." On a breezy night, we left together. "It's already late spring." Hui Xuan said. "Shall I give you a ride?" you asked. "No, thank you, Su Ying has a car." Huixuan said. "Goodbye." I tell you. "Do you like him?" Huixuan asked me. "Do you agree?" "What do you like about him?" "I used to believe that Zheng Wen was a man who could be with me forever, but when I met Qin Yunsheng, I was suddenly shaken." "You don't know Qin Yunsheng well. Everything in your imagination is better than reality. If you really leave Zheng Wen and stay with him, you may be disappointed." "Zhengwen and I no longer feel love. If you fell in love with someone else, would you tell Kang Zhaoliang?" "Of course not. If I tell him, I don't love him anymore. Don't tell Zheng Wen. Even if you break up in the future, don't tell him that you are in love with someone else." "why?" "He can't afford to lose." "I know." I took out the silk scarf from my purse and wrapped it around my neck, "But I haven't fallen in love with anyone yet!" I'm not in love with you yet, and I'm trying to stop myself from doing so. Yunsheng, the weather in Frankfurt is so cold that people don't feel anything, but the feeling of love can resist the low temperature. One day in late March, you came to the Yakitori shop again. It rained all day, and the weather was humid and depressing. You come in late, your eyes are red and you look tired. "Just got off work?" I asked you. "Well, I haven't slept for thirty-six hours in a row." I took a bottle of warm Japanese sake and put it in front of you. "Drink a bottle of warm wine and go home to sleep well. This bottle of wine is very suitable for you." "Why?" You looked up and asked me. I'll turn the bottle around and show you the label: "It's called 'Pretty Boy.'" You laughed: "I'm not anymore." "Yes. I want you to remember the past." "There are very few guests tonight," you say. "You are the only guest tonight." "yes?" "It would be bad if it was like this every day." "Where's Miss Du?" "She went on a trip with her boyfriend." I seem to be deliberately emphasizing that Huixuan already has a boyfriend, and I'm afraid that she is the one you like in your heart. I peeked at the expression on your face, and you didn't look disappointed at all, and silently drank up the bottle of "Pretty Boy". It was past twelve o'clock, and I told Agong, Tiantian and others to leave first. "Am I getting in your way from get off work?" you ask me. "It's okay, do you want to eat?" You shake the bamboo tube used to put the bamboo sticks and say, "I've eaten so much." "You said you were waiting for someone here, has the person you were waiting for come?" You shake your head. "Who is he?" "A girl!" My heart seemed to break suddenly. "Is it your girlfriend?" "It's my first girlfriend." You told me that you have been waiting here for another woman for the past three months. I try to hide my disappointment from you. "Why is it the first love? Did you get back together with her, or was it wishful thinking? She never showed up." "We have an appointment." "A date?" "This used to be an Italian restaurant, and our first date was here. It was spring, and that night, it was raining. We sat in it and watched the light rain hit the stone steps in the back garden. I remember the sound of the pattering rain, it was a beautiful rain." You happily recalled the past, "This back garden used to be full of various herbs, one called rosemary, but now it's gone. " "We filled in the garden so we could put two or three more tables here." "Oh, that's it." You seem to miss the herbs in your backyard. "It was also raining when we first met. I was in French class, and so was she. The first night of class, the weather was very bad, and it was pouring rain. We happened to stop at the same bus stop. She didn't have an umbrella, and she hid Under my umbrella, she quietly sheltered from the rain. When get out of class was over, it was still raining heavily. I was waiting at the bus stop, and she stood quietly under my umbrella to shelter from the rain. The day we broke up, it was also raining. " "Can you tell me why you broke up?" It took you a long time to say: "Probably because of the rain." At that time, I didn't understand what you meant. "When we broke up, we agreed that if one day, she thinks of me and wants to see me, she will come here and wait for me. I will wait for her forever." 你说，你会永远等一个女人，你知道那一刻我心里多么难过吗？“这是多久以前的事？” “五年了，今天刚好是第五年，也是下着这种雨。” “但是从前那间义大利餐厅已经不在了，她还会来吗？” “只要这个地方仍然存在，她会来的。” “你为什么不去找她？” “如果她想见我，她会来的。” “她叫什么名字？是什么样子的？也许我可以替你留意一下。她一定很漂亮吧？”我酸溜溜的说。 “她叫阿素，她有一把很长的头发。” “原来你喜欢长发的女孩子！”你微笑不语。 你知道那一刻我多么懊悔吗？我本来也有一把长发，就是遇见你之前刚刚剪掉的。 剪掉一把长发才遇上喜欢长发的男人。 “如果她不来，你是不是会永远在这里等她？” 你垂首不语。 “这样等待一个不知道会不会来的人，你不认为很缥缈吗？这样吧！”我站起来，去拿了一包新的竹签。 我把其中一支竹签折断，跟其他竹签放在一起。 “你在这里抽一支，抽中最短的一支的话，她会回来的。” 我数数手上的竹签，不多不少，总共有六十五支。 “来，抽一支，赌赌你的运气。” 你随手抽出一支。 how is this possible?你抽中我折断的那一支。 你好像也开始相信这个毫无根据的游戏。 “恭喜你。”我说。 六十五分之一的机会，都给你遇上了。 我望着你，愈望着你，愈舍不得你朝思暮想的是另外一个女人。 我用手指揩抹湿润的眼角。 “你没事吧？”你问我。 “我很感动。”我真是不争气，竟然让你看到我流泪，“如果有一个男人这样等我，死而无憾。” “世事没有一宗是不遗憾的。”你无奈地说。 那天晚上，我做了一个梦。 梦中的我，拥有一只箱子，那只箱子很华丽，铜造的箱子，上面镶满七彩的宝石，箱子像一个鞋盒那么大，那把锁很坚固，我费了很大的力气，仍然无法把箱子打开，我很想知道里面放了些什么东西，但我就是打不开。 醒来的时候，箱子不见了。 政文刚好在那个时候回来。 “我刚才做了一个梦。”我说。 他显得垂头丧气。 “输了吗？”我问他。 “明天我就可以把今天所输的，双倍赢回来。”他把灯关掉，躺在我身边。 我们很久没谈心了，彼此之间，已经没有什么话很想告诉对方。 可是你，也不可能喜欢我，我突然觉得很无助。 亲手为你缝一个抱枕，彷佛就可以把这份无助驱走。我选了一块湖水绿色的条纹棉布做抱枕。 抱枕上将会有三颗柠檬色的钮扣代替传统的拉链。 “这个抱枕是哪位客人的？为什么要你亲自来做？”徐铭石问我。 “秦医生。”我说。 “很漂亮。” "yes." “铭石！” “什么？”他回头望我。 “是谁发明抱枕的？” “大概是很久以前一个家庭主妇发明的。” “故事也许是这样的，人们发明用窗帘布把自己住的房子包裹起来，不让外面的人看到，沙发是让女人坐在上面等夜归的男人回来的，而抱枕，是放在沙发上，让人孤单的时候抱在怀里，伤心的时候用来哭的。” I say. “那么一定有很多人想做你的抱枕！”徐铭石微笑说。 我特别留意长发的女人和信用卡上的名字有'素'字的客人，可是，没有一个长发女子来等人。 惠绚愁眉苦脸说：“近来的生意不大好。” “我们的东西很好呀。”我说。 “但是我们没有做广告，现在什么都要做广告。”阿贡说。 “对呀。”田田附和他。 阿贡和田田正在谈恋爱，所以意见很一致。 “做广告很贵的。”惠绚说，“让我想一想吧。” 那天晚上，又看到你，你的精神比上次好多了。 “你会解梦吗？我几天前做了一个梦。” “你还记得那个梦吗？” “因为很特别，所以到现在还记着。” 我把梦见一只箱子的事告诉你。 “箱子里面一定有很多东西，说不定是金银珠宝。”我笑说，“可惜我费尽九牛二虎之力也无法把它打开。” “梦中的你，打不开箱子，是表示你很害怕内心的秘密让人知道。” 是的，我多么害怕我对你的感觉会让你知道。 “我猜中了？”你问我。 “谁的心里没有秘密？” “我不是专家，随便说说而已，别相信我。”你笑说。 “那位阿素小姐，真的会来吗？”我问你。 你点头。 我总觉得你在等一个永远不会来的人。 “你相信盟约吗？”我难过地问你。 你怔怔地望着我。 “我不该问你，你不相信盟约，便不会在这里等一个也许永远不会来的人。” “是的，也许她永远不会来！” “等待，有时候，并不是为了要等到那个人出现。”你温柔地说。 等待，如果不是为了要等到那个人出现，那是为了什么？我在抽屉拿出那块在马德里买的手烧瓷砖来看，医生正在位一个女病人诊病，她欲语还休，愁眉深锁。医生可会明白她的哀愁？就在那天晚上，政文拿着一个皮箱回来。 “这是什么东西？”我问他。 他打开皮箱让我看，里面全是千元大钞。 “你拿着这么多现钞干什么？” “是客人的。” “他为什么给你这么多钱？” “他要我替他买股票。” “为什么不给支票或银行本票，会不会是不能见光的钱？” “我不理他的钱怎么来，他有钱，我就替他赚更多的钱，这是生意。”他关上皮箱。 “万一那是黑钱呢？” “这不是我关心的问题。”他一边脱下西装一边说，“即使是毒贩的钱，也不关我的事，我只是负责替人赚钱。” 他把皮箱放好，走到浴室洗澡。 我走进浴室，拉开浴帘。 “你干什么？”他问我。 “我总觉得这样不大好，那些钱可能有问题！” “你没听过富贵险中求吗？” “我不需要富贵。” “有一样东西，比财富更吸引，你知道是什么吗？” “我不知道你心里想的是什么？” “是赢。”他轻轻为我抹去脸上的水珠，“难得有一个人这样信任我。” “你有必胜把握吗？” “谁会有必胜把握？我也害怕的，而且有时候害怕得很。” 他把头浸在水里。 “那为什么还要冒险？” “我在玩的这个游戏，正是贪婪与恐惧的平衡。想赢又害怕输，好像在空中走钢索，想到达终点，又害怕掉下来会粉身碎骨！”我用海绵替他洗头。 他捉着我的手说：“谁能够在两者之间拿到平衡，就是赢家。” 我良久无言。原来令他泥足深陷的不是我，而是那个贪婪与恐惧平衡的游戏。 我替他拉上浴帘，悄悄地离开浴室。 那只皮箱，难道就是我梦中的箱子吗？箱子里面藏着的是邪魔。 我跟政文已经无法沟通，他所做的，我能够理解，却不能够接受。 结果，政文赢了，他替那个客人赚了一笔大钱。 他说要送我一枚两克拉的钻石戒指。 “我喜欢星星。”我说。 “钻石就是女人的星星。”他意气风发地说。 我还是喜欢星星多一点。 再见到你，是在布艺店外面，我正在应付一个很麻烦的女人。 你在阳光中，隔着一道玻璃门，跟我打招呼。 “经过这里，顺道跟你打个招呼。”你说。 你的头发凌乱得像野草一样，我用手指把你头上一条竖起的头发按下来。 “谢谢你。”你腼腆地说。 这个动作，有别的女人为你做过吗？ 你用手指拨好头发。 “这就是你的梳？”我失笑。 “男人就是这个样子。”你笑说。 “要去哪里？” “想去吃碗云吞面罢了。” “我也想吃啊！”我冲口而出。 “要一起去吗？” 那个麻烦的女顾客已经很不耐烦。 “不了，有工作要做，下次吧。”我扮了个鬼脸。 你走了以后，那个女人扰攘了三十分钟还不罢休。她看过了店里的布料，还是无法决定用哪一幅布。她根本不知道自己想要什么。 “你快点决定吧，反正分别都不大。”我不耐烦。 她好像被我逼得六神无主，幸而徐铭石刚好回来。 “你回来正好，这里交给你。” 我匆匆跑出去。 我跑到云吞面店，却见不到你的踪影。我猜你是来了这里，这是老字号，不会错的。 我看看钟，你来的时候是十点钟，现在已经是十点四十分，你当然已经离开了。 为什么不等我？我真的恨你。 我没说过会来，又怎能怪你？ 我失望地离开，走在街上，天空突然洒下一阵雨。 我走到一间盆栽店外面避雨，看到一盆盆淡粉红色的花，迎着雨露，刚刚开花。 “这是什么花？”我问店东。 “是樱草，四月的樱草最漂亮。”他告诉我。 我付了钱，抱着一盆樱草回去。我想，你离开云吞面店之后，必然会经过这间盆栽店，或许见过这一盆樱草，所以我把它带走。 回到店里，那个女人已经离开了。 “你被雨淋湿了。”徐铭石拿毛巾给我抹去身上的雨水。 “你匆匆出去，就是为了买盆栽？” “你是怎样把她打发的？”我问他。 “她决定不来，我便替她决定，于是她开开心心地放下订金离开了。” “有些女人真幸福，她不用知道自己需要什么，自有人替她决定。” “这世上不是只有一种幸福的。”徐铭石说。 是的，有时候，失望也是一种幸福。 赶到云吞面店，你走了，我失望得不想回去，在街上徘徊。 天空洒下一阵微凉的雨，失望，有时候，也是一种幸福。 我把樱草抱到阁楼上，放在窗前，突然很想提笔写一封信给你。 这一封信，我没打算交给你，我怎么可以交给你呢？我把信藏在抱枕里面，信被软绵绵的羽绒包裹着，你不会发现的。 然后，某一天，我把抱枕交给你。 “为什么只有一个？”你问我。 “说好是送的，那就要用碎布，碎布要等的呀。迟些有碎布再缝一个给你。” “真不愧是一流的老板娘，精打细算。”你笑着把抱枕放在大腿上，双手用力去按那个抱枕。 你每按一下，我的心就跳一下，害怕你会发现里面的东西。 “抱枕有什么用？”你傻呼呼地问我。 “抱枕是用来托着头的，不然，手就会很累。”惠绚走过来说。 “抱枕是让孤单的人抱着的。”我说。 “抱枕不是用来载眼泪的吗？”你说，“女孩子最爱搂着抱枕来哭。” “你也可以。”我笑说。 “秦医生才不会哭。”惠绚说。 "how do you know?" “医生都是铁石心肠的，不然怎么可以拿起手术刀剖开一个活生生的人的肚皮？” “你是吗？”我问你。 你拍拍手上的抱枕说：“这个抱枕太漂亮了，用眼泪把它弄湿的人才是铁石心肠。” 你没有告诉我，你到底会不会哭。 女人最关心的是她所爱的男人会不会为她流泪。 你带着抱枕离开烧鸟店，我希望你永远不会发现里面有一封信。 日子一天一天地过去，你等的人还没有出现，你仍然痴痴地等她。难道你就没有爱过别的女人吗？看着你无止境地等，我既嫉妒又心痛，我决定替你把她找出来。 “这样行吗？”惠绚问我。 “这个意念很好。”徐铭石说。 “那就这样决定了。”我说。 烧鸟店要做广告，我决定把你的故事变成广告的内容。徐铭石的好朋友在广告公司里工作，我把我的想法告诉他，他不大相信地问我：“今天还有人这样相信盟誓吗？” 有的，我相信。 盟誓，本来就是美好的东西。 巨型海报挂在铜锣湾一间百货公司的外墙上，随风飘扬。 海报上，是云生写给阿素的信。 巨型海报挂在铜锣湾一间百货公司的外墙，每个经过的人，都会看到，只要你的阿素经过，她也一定会看到。 你和她的盟誓，将会在整个铜锣湾流传。 海报挂出的第一天，我们的生意立刻好起来，很多情侣专程来寻找阿素和云生。 最高兴的要算是惠绚了。 “没想到这种宣传手法真的行得通。”惠绚说。 “那就证明盟誓愈来愈少了，所以人们看到会感动。”徐铭石说。 这一天，整天在下雨，雨停了，还看不到你要等的人。 星期天，我们忙得不可开交。 有顾客问我们，阿素和云生是不是真有其人。 也许，云生和阿素，才是天造地设的一对。 差不多打烊的时候，你怒冲冲的来到。 “你这是什么意思？”你凶巴巴地质问我。 我从没见过你这么凶。 “那张海报，我看到了，你为什么利用我？” “我不是利用你，我只是想替你把她找出来。”我解释。 “我的事不用你管。”你无情的说。 看到你这样保护另一个女人，我反驳你：“她不一定还爱着你，也许她已经忘了她跟你的盟约，也许她已经爱上另一个人，也许她已经嫁人了，而且日子过得很幸福。” "Will not." “你怎么知道不会？难道只有你才可以给她幸福吗？你别再自欺欺人。” “不会的，她不会幸福的。”你凄然说。 “你怎么知道她不幸