Chapter 9 Chapter VII

It was late at night, and Luo Manli was lying on the bed with the phone in her arms, wondering if she should make this call.She and Liang Zhengwei have been separated for three years.Tonight, she missed him terribly, wanted to hear his voice, and wanted to know his life now. Three years after breaking up, what would he think if he suddenly called his old lover?Could he have fallen in love with another woman?What excuse should she use to find him? It's been three years, how many years have those sweet memories drifted in her heart?She rolled over, holding the phone under her stomach.She missed him very much, but was afraid to find him.Why should she be afraid?Three years ago, she proposed to break up.Since she was leaving, she wouldn't be embarrassed to call him now.However, what to say to him?

She broke up with Cheng Liqiao yesterday.She is not sad at all.Cheng Liqiao is good, but comparing him with Liang Zhengwei, he has many shortcomings.Several times recently, when he penetrated into her body, she closed her eyes and did not look at him.She knew that she no longer loved him. But she didn't want to tell Liang Zheng why.She didn't want him to know that she had any regrets. She turned on the radio, just in time to hear Channel A hosted by Xia Xinju.A woman called Xia Xinju on the show and asked: "If a man has been with you for a year and ten months, and he still doesn't want to publicly admit that you are his girlfriend, what does that mean?"

Xia Xinju asked her back: "What do you think this means?" The woman smiled melancholy and replied: "He does not love me." Yes, when you don't love someone, you don't want to acknowledge his relationship with you at all.She has been with Cheng Liqiao for eleven months, she didn't want to admit her relationship with him from the beginning, she knew that she would leave him soon.Some men, you can't tell what's wrong with him, but you just can't fall in love with him.At that time lonely, he was just a temporary pillow. Dan Fogelberg's "Longer" was floating in the air. She picked up the microphone and dialed Liang Zhengwei's phone number.His voice came from the other end of the phone.

"How are you?" she asked timidly. "Is it Mary?" He still remembers her voice. "Nothing, just to greet you," she said. "How are you?" His caring voice encouraged her. "Whenever you're free, we might have a meal," she said. "Any day will do," he said. "Then tomorrow." After hanging up the phone, she jumped off the bed and rummaged through all the clothes in the closet.What should I wear tomorrow?Should I dress sexy or not too deliberately?In the past three years, she has gained a little weight, and now it is too late to lose weight.She stood in front of the mirror and looked at herself. She was a little older than three years ago, but she also knew how to dress up.

Liang Zhengwei may not be able to see the traces of these years. Tomorrow, she will meet him in the most beautiful state.She wants to bring back good memories in his heart. His voice was so gentle just now, maybe he also missed her, but he didn't have the courage to look for her. The next night, she wore a sexy large V-neck dress to an appointment.Liang Zhengwei seemed to have matured a bit, and he had also become more attractive. Not seen for three years, he now has his own house, and his business is very successful.But she herself didn't make much progress. She is unhappy at work, not to mention her love life.

Seeing that Liang Zhengwei is living so well now, she is a little bit unwilling.Why did you give up on him that day?She is so stupid. "Do you have a girlfriend?" she asked him with a smile. Liang Zheng shook his head for a smile. Great, he was still alone, just like her. "I haven't been in a relationship for three years, it's too hard to believe." She said. "It's not easy to fall in love with someone," he said. She nodded: "Yes." She understands best. Three years ago, she was twenty-six and he was twenty-nine.They lived together for four years.She would love to marry him.However, every time when she hinted to him, he always procrastinated, and she finally said seriously:

"I want to get married." Time and time again, Liang Zhengwei evaded everything. "Do you not want to marry me?" she demanded him. "We're already living together, so what's the difference to being married?" he said. "If you loved me, you would marry me. You don't love me enough." Yes, he didn't love her enough, and he wasn't willing to give up her freedom for her. Liang Zhengwei explained that he still has many dreams. She doesn't think that marriage and dreams can't coexist, it's just an excuse. One day, she said to Liang Zhengwei, "If you don't get married, let's break up."

She packed her bags and moved away immediately.She confidently thought that in order to keep her by her side, Liang Zhengwei would give in.Unfortunately, she was wrong, and he didn't ask her to go back.In this game, she lost the bet. Now that she has walked out, how can she go back with the cheek? In the past three years, she had been in several relationships, and after a thousand times, she realized that Liang Zhengwei was the one she loved the most.No man can replace his memory in her heart.From the wonderful time of twenty-two to twenty-six, she grew up with him.She actually gave up on him for a moment.She regretted it more and more every day.She was so selfish back then.If she loves him, she shouldn't force him to marry.

"Can I visit your house?" she asked. "of course can." Liang Zhengwei took her home.A small lamp that Luo Manli gave him before was still placed beside his bed.She bought it for him on his twenty-seventh birthday.She likes that lamp very much.Under the wavy glass lampshade is a metal circular lamp holder. This lamp holder is a switch, whichever place you press, the light will turn on.Liang Zhengwei likes to keep the lights on when he makes love to her.The gentle light is reflected on his and her faces, she loves to open her eyes and look at him, so she will feel very happy.

The little lamp beside the bed is on, he hasn't forgotten her yet, has he? Three years later, they hugged and kissed again, and he penetrated her body.She opened her eyes and stared at him, lost in his tenderness. She wants him to pursue her again.She searched no more. At midnight that night, she got up and said, "I'm going home." "I'll take you back." "No." She left gracefully.She wanted to take this sweet reunion as a coincidence.Perhaps Liang Zhengwei regretted not cherishing that day more than she did.For the sake of dignity, she will not take the initiative.

The next day, Liang Zhengwei asked her to meet at the bar after get off work.He didn't mention what happened last night.She was very disappointed.Perhaps, last night was just a coincidence for him.The old dream revisited, just because I was lonely at that time. Since Liang Zhengwei no longer loved her, why did he still put the lamp she gave him beside the bed?Maybe, it's not that he doesn't love her, he's just afraid that she will ask him to marry again. "I was so selfish back then," she said. "Huh?" He didn't understand. "About the marriage—" "I'm selfish, too," he said apologetically. "I don't want to get married at all right now." "why?" She smiled: "I'm past the age when I really want to get married." She wasn't lying.Over the years, she has lost her vision of marriage.Why did she want to get married then? She wants to use marriage to affirm his love for her.The more he resisted, the more she insisted, even breaking up. "If we had been married then, I don't know what would have happened now?" she said. Liang Zhengwei smiled and didn't answer. She looked at him, those beautiful days repeated a hundred times in her heart, how stupid she was!Why leave him then?She won't let go again. Every day after that, she often called him at night to tell him about her unsatisfactory work.Once or twice, she deliberately told him that some nice men were interested in her. Sometimes, she would have dinner with Liang Zhengwei after get off work.He is always happy to be with her.He still cared about her.She relives the days of being in love with him.They are even better now than they were before.They can exchange views frankly.In the past, when his opinion was different from hers, when he refused to accommodate her, she would lose her temper with him. She thought she was beautiful and thought he would bow down before her forever.It turned out not to be. Tonight, they go to the movies.After coming out of the movie theater, her hands passed through Liang Zhengwei's arms, and her head rested happily on his shoulder. "How about going to your house?" she asked. "Manly, we can't be the same again." He let go of his hand and said. "Why? Don't you love me very much? I'm the one who wants to leave you." She said proudly. "We have broken up and are no longer a couple," he explained. "Then why do you keep the lamp I gave you next to your bed?" "The days with you are indeed wonderful." "Then why can't we start again?" "You'll find a better man than me." She covered her ears with her hands: "I don't want to listen! You once promised that you would protect me forever." "I still do it." She suddenly asked him, "Are you taking revenge on me?" Liang Zhengwei didn't know what to say to make her understand.He once loved her deeply.When she proposed to get married, he also seriously thought about giving up her freedom.When she ran away from home, he was suddenly relieved.She was right, he didn't want to get married, maybe he didn't love her enough. For three years, he and she have not grown up together.He thinks of her occasionally, and wishes her a happy life.However, his love for her has faded with the years.On the day of the reunion, he knew even more clearly that the feeling of loving her was far gone forever.She came to him again suddenly, and he knew that her life must not be very happy.He felt sorry for her.If he was willing to marry her that day, it might be different now.She was a woman he loved, and he was happy to take care of her, but he didn't want to take advantage of her or delay her youth.Besides, he already had another woman in his heart. The phone rang, and it was the woman looking for him. "Are you free tomorrow night? I'd like to eat Italian food." "Italian? Okay," he said cheerfully. "See you tomorrow, then." "See you tomorrow." "Who is looking for you?" Luo Manli asked. "It's just friends." "Is it a girl?" "yes." "Didn't you say you don't have a girlfriend?" She was full of jealousy. "She is indeed not my girlfriend." Liang Zhengwei smiled melancholy. She gets it.When he was talking on the phone just now, his expression was so gentle. The woman on the other end of the phone must be a very special woman. On the way home, she painfully defended herself.She didn't want him, so why should she be jealous now? She heard from Liang Zhengwei that there was a very good Italian restaurant, and said that he would take her there another day.He and the woman must have gone there for Italian food.She wants to see what kind of woman she is. The next night, she purposely asked Li Siluo, Lin Kangyue, and Yang Yiyu, some old classmates, to have dinner at that Italian restaurant.When she called to reserve a table, she had already inquired.Sure enough, a Mr. Liang reserved a table for two. She appeared dressed up, pretending to bump into Liang Zhengwei by accident.He was eating there with a young woman with a pretty face.If the woman hadn't been pretty, she might have been better off.She is beautiful but makes her miserable.She deliberately walked over to their table to say hello. Liang Zhengwei introduced them awkwardly. That woman's name is very strange, Xia Sangju. "Sounds like herbal tea," she said. "Yes." Xia Sangju said. "I'm Liang Zhengwei's ex-girlfriend." She put her arm around Liang Zhengwei's shoulder and said. "It's really rare to be friends with an old lover." Xia Sangju's voice was full of envy. "Yes, I think so too," she said. She went back to her desk and looked at them occasionally.They did not look like lovers, but she hated seeing Liang Zhengwei's infatuated eyes.He seemed to love that woman wishfully. The next day, she asked Liang Zhengwei to meet at the bar after get off work. "Did that surprise you that day?" she asked. "No." Liang Zhengwei said. "Do you like her very much?" Liang Zhengwei sighed deeply: "She still loves her boyfriend who broke up." "She doesn't love you?" She stabbed him deliberately. After a moment's silence, he said: "Can you not mention her?" "You don't want to be with me anymore, just for a woman who doesn't love you?" "You don't want to be like this again? You don't care about me anymore!" He was a little impatient. "Yes, I have no right to control you!" Her eyes were wet. "Do you understand it or not?" She smiled: "Are you turning around and rejecting me now? Don't forget, I didn't want you first!" "Then why are you coming back?" Tears nearly welled up in her eyes.She couldn't answer this question, should she admit that she regretted it?She still has this last bit of dignity. Maybe, she shouldn't look for him at all.If she never saw each other again, she wouldn't regret it so much.If you leave a man, it's best not to look back. What's so good about Xia Sangju, he would rather love someone who doesn't love him than return to her.It's only three years.When the two were together, he once said that he would love her forever, but now, he loves another woman. It's better not to remember a man's promise.Remember, you will be unhappy all your life. Then one night, she waited for Liang Zhengwei outside his apartment and followed him.She doesn't have any purpose, she just wants to stalk him after him.This is her way of saying goodbye to him, and she wants to pay attention to his back.However, something strange happened, she discovered that Liang Zhengwei was following Xia Sangju.Why is he following Xia Sangju? Liang Zheng followed Xia Sangju outside an apartment building.Xia Sangju walked in, and he stood waiting in a hidden place opposite the apartment. In order not to let him find out, she hid in another corner. At midnight, Xia Sangju came out of the apartment.She was very different from when she went in a few hours ago.A few hours before, she had been flamboyantly dressed.When she left, her blouse was on the wrong side, her hair was a bit messy, her lipstick was not on, and her face was a little pale. She must have slept with a man, maybe it was the boyfriend who had broken up.She walked at the front with sad steps, Liang Zhengwei followed behind her, and she herself followed Liang Zhengwei. Is Liang Zhengwei going to escort Xia Sangju home? She never knew that Liang Zhengwei, whom she knew and loved, was such an affectionate man. Liang Zhengwei must not know that when he stalked the woman he loved, there was also a woman who loved him stalking him. She laughed, aren't the three of them very pitiful and pathetic? On the night of the reunion, the light beside the bed was on, and when she opened her eyes to look at Liang Zhengwei, she found that he had closed them.When he made love to her, was he thinking of another woman?Knowing this, she would rather turn off the light. Under the dim street lights, Liang Zhengwei followed Xia Sangju with a long shadow. When Xia Sangju came home, he sadly set foot on the way home.She followed him silently. The back figure under the lamp was getting farther and farther away. At the moment of farewell, she also turned off the lamp in her heart that was lit for everyone.