Chapter 10 chapter eight

Xia Sangju always felt that her name was a bit strange.There is a kind of instant herbal tea called "Xia Sangju".She has an older sister named Xia Xinju, and she prefers her older sister's name.Her own name is too much like herbal tea for clearing heat and reducing fire.However, from a certain day, she discovered that the name "Xia Sangju" turned out to be her love destiny.She is a cup of herbal tea for the man she loves. "Can I stay here overnight?" Xia Sangju softly asked Li Yiyu who was sleeping next to her. "No, I still have a lot of work to do tonight." Li Yiyu turned to look at the alarm clock beside the bed, and said, "It's almost two o'clock, you go back."

"I see." Xia Sangju crawled to the end of the bed, picked up the clothes on the floor, and sat by the bed to put on socks. "It's so late, you don't have to send me back." She said while turning her head to peek at Li Yiyu, expecting him to say, "I'll take you back!" "Yeah." Li Yiyu slept on the pillow without raising his head. Xia Sangju stood up in disappointment, picked up the leather bag beside the bed, looked at him, and said, "I'm leaving." In the taxi compartment, she just heard the program hosted by her sister. A 23-year-old girl called into the show and told Xia Xinju that her boyfriend hadn't touched her for five months.Did he no longer love her?She burst into tears on the other end of the phone, sobbing and saying:

"I feel like a little bitch." The female driver in the taxi chimed in and said: "If I don't touch you for five months, of course I don't love you anymore." "A man is willing to touch you, but you can't be sure whether he loves you or not." Xia Sangju said. The taxi was speeding down the night street, and the sobbing of the little grieving woman echoed in the car.A year ago, she met Li Yiyu.He is a friend of her friend.They met once in a bar and he was chatty and funny. Then one day, she ran into him again in a bar. Li Yiyu drank some wine and came over to call her:

"Prunella vulgaris!" She corrected him: "It's not Prunella vulgaris, it's Xia Sangju." He smiled awkwardly and said, "I'm sorry." "It doesn't matter, Xia Sangju and Prunella vulgaris are both herbal teas anyway." Their story also started with herbal tea. He loves her like crazy.In the first two months of their relationship, they spent more time in bed than on the ground. At that time, every time after making love, Li Yiyu would pester her and ask her to stay overnight at his house. That night, she pointed to the alarm clock beside her bed and said:

"It's almost two o'clock, I'm going home." Li Yiyu turned around, put the alarm clock into a drawer, and refused to let her go. "I hope that when I open my eyes tomorrow morning, you will be the first person I see," he said. She stayed. One night, she had to go home because she had to go to work tomorrow morning, and she didn't bring work clothes. At three o'clock in the morning, Li Yiyu sent her home with sleepy eyes. After six months together, everything changed. One day, Li Yiyu told her that he no longer had that feeling for her. Before that day, he had made love to her.How could he treat her like this?

"Miss, we're here." The taxi stopped, and the female driver reminded her to get off. Xia Sangju paid the fare and got out of the carriage. She was very hungry, so she ran to the convenience store and bought a beef cup noodle, and ate it voraciously in the store. When she went to find Li Yiyu tonight, she originally wanted to ask him to accompany her for dinner, but he said he didn't want to go out, so she had to go to him hungry and has been hungry until now. A warm cup of noodles in the middle of the night is actually warmer than the face of an old lover. After breaking up, she has been unable to forget him.In the final analysis, she was not trying hard enough; not trying hard enough to forget him.

One lonely night, she called him with a little alcohol. She asked him, "May I come to you?" Maybe Li Yiyu was lonely at the time, but he didn't refuse. She rushed to his house full of joy, and flew to his bed to sleep with him. He has no other women. What made her sad was that he had no other women.He would rather be alone than continue to be with her. She thought that as long as she could make Li Yiyu fall in love with her body again, she could make him fall in love with her again. However, that night, when she was snuggled into his arms, glad that she could finally return to his side, Li Yiyu gently pulled out his arm and said to her:

"It's late, you go home." She had become a stranger in his life.A woman who wants to go home by herself after having sex with a man is the most wronged and has the most status. However, she loves him.Every time, she took the initiative to go to Li Yiyu's house to sleep with him.Then, he left with his residual smell on his body.That remnant of his smell is the consolation prize. She is a little bitch. He slept with her, he should still love her a little, right?She thought so.When she thought about it that way, she was much happier.Before leaving the convenience store, she bought a can of soda, and drank it on the way.

When she got home, she sat on the couch and ate a large cup of ice cream.She seemed to torture herself by eating. "Aren't you asleep yet?" Xia Xinju came back. "I just heard the story of that little grieving woman in the taxi." Xia Sangju said. "Yes, poor little grieving woman. It's so late, you still eat ice cream? Aren't you afraid of getting fat?" "I just came back from Li Yiyu." "Haven't you already broken up?" "Yes." She said helplessly. Xia Sangju went into the bathroom to take a bath, Xia Xinju stood in front of the washbasin and brushed her teeth.

"A while back, a woman came here looking for her old lover." Xia Xinju said. "Why did you come here to look for it?" "That man lived here fifteen years ago." "Fifteen years? Will anyone find the old lover from fifteen years ago? Did she find it?" Xia Sangju asked while soaping her body. "She found it, and her old lover hasn't forgotten her." Xia Xinju said while brushing her teeth. Xia Sangju, who was taking a bath under the shower head, couldn't understand Xia Xinju's last sentence, so she didn't press on.She didn't care if that woman could find her old lover from fifteen years ago.She hoped she couldn't find it.She hates all beautiful love stories.She no longer believes in love.

"Are you still dating Liang Zhengwei?" Xia Xinju asked Xia Sangju while undressing. "When I'm very lonely and I can't find anyone to accompany me, I will look for him, and these days, there are always two days in a week." Xia Sangju walked out of the bathtub with a towel wrapped around her, and stood in front of the washbasin to brush her teeth. Xia Xinju stood in the bathtub to take a bath.She closed the shower curtain and asked Xia Sangju: "Does he have a chance?" "I don't love him. I want to love him too, he's been so good to me." "That's right, all women need followers who will pledge their allegiance to the death." Xia Xinju said while rubbing her back. "Yes, but she will always remind herself that she must not soften her heart to these followers who pledge their allegiance to the death." Xia Sangju said while brushing her teeth. "What did you say?" Xia Xinju in the bathtub couldn't hear clearly. "It's nothing." Xia Sangju wiped her face clean with a towel, and then rubbed the perfume on her body.The smell that Li Yiyu left on her body has disappeared, and it can only be kept in memory. That night, she was very lonely, so she went to eat Italian food with her swearing follower, Liang Zhengwei. "You look beautiful today." Liang Zhengwei said. "Am I really pretty?" "Ok." "Which place is the most beautiful? Don't say it is my heart, I will hate you forever." She said with a smile. "Your eyes and mouth are pretty too." "Do you think my mouth is beautiful?" "yes." "Is it the kind of mouth that men want to kiss me when they see it?" "Probably so." "So am I in good shape?" Liang Zhengwei smiled and asked her back, "Do you want to know?" "Ok." "Not very good, but good enough." "Isn't it sexy?" "yes." She stared at Liang Zhengwei, and asked him sadly: "Do men just want to sleep with me and not love me?" "Stop talking nonsense." "Am I a lovely woman?" "Yes, you are cute," "Thank you." She laughed. Followers who pledge their allegiance to the death have this benefit.When a woman needs self-confidence, she can find it in him.When she loses her dignity, she can also get it from him. When being treated badly by a man, she needs another man to lift her up to the sky as a kind of compensation. "Are you free this Sunday? You said you wanted to learn water skiing. I asked a friend to borrow a boat so we can go to sea." Liang Zhengwei asked her. "No, not this Sunday," she said. "It's okay." He said disappointedly. This Sunday, she made an appointment with Li Yiyu.He asked her to come to his house at eight o'clock in the evening. She arrived at eight o'clock, and Li Yiyu hadn't come home yet.She returned the keys to his house on the day they broke up.She had to stand outside the door and wait for him. At eleven o'clock, he still hadn't come back.She dared not call him for fear that he would call her home. At 11:45, Li Yiyu came back.Seeing her sitting outside the door, he was a little stunned, he forgot to ask her out. "You're back." She stood up and said with her hands on the door weakly. Li Yiyu carried her into the house. When lingering, she asked him: "Do you not love me anymore?" He was tight under her crotch, and gently brushed away the hair sticking to the corner of her mouth for her, and said, "I want you to be happy." "My happiness is to be with you." She said, grabbing his arm. He gave her pleasure with his tongue for a long time. She already knew that he still loved her. At two o'clock in the morning, he said, "Shall I take you home?" "Don't you want me to stay here?" she almost whimpered. "Be obedient, you have to go to work tomorrow." He coaxed her. She didn't want him to hate herself, and he was also good for her.She got up, sat on the edge of the bed and put on her socks. "I can just go back by myself. You have to go to work tomorrow, so go to sleep." She lay on him and hugged him for a while. After returning home, she got into Xia Xinju's bed. "Why did you come to my bed?" Xia Xinju asked. "Tonight, I don't want to sleep alone." She hugged Xia Xinju and told her: "He said, he wants me to be happy, do you believe it?" Xia Xinju didn't answer her.She seemed to be talking to herself. She smiled at the ceiling, she believed it.With his smell, she tried hard and fell asleep sweetly.In a daze, she heard Xia Xinju turn around and ask her: "Could it be a momentary discovery of conscience?" Two days later, she called Li Yiyu and asked him, "Can we meet tonight?" "Yeah." On the other end of the phone, his tone was very flat. "Shall we go eat Italian food?" "No, I have a friend for dinner." "Oh, well, then I'll come to your house at ten thirty, see you then." She was full of grievances.She hated seeing him every time it was just for sex. She didn't come to his house until eleven thirty.She was late on purpose.She redeemed a little self-esteem by coming late.She enjoyed his caress, waiting for his sincere repentance, but he didn't say anything. After making love, she got up to take a shower.In the bathroom, she said to Li Yiyu who was lying on the bed: "Tonight, I want to stay." "no." "I don't want to go home alone," she insisted. "Then I'll take you back." "Can I leave tomorrow?" "You go home." She came out of the bathroom angrily and asked him, "Why do you want me to go?" "I want to be alone for a while—" Li Yiyu got up, walked into the bathroom, and closed the door to urinate. She rushed into the bathroom and watched him pee. "What are you doing here?" He quickly pulled up his pants, as if feeling that his privacy had been violated. "It's not that I haven't seen you pee." She wanted to stand there and look at him. "Enough is enough, we can never be the same." He walked out of the bathroom. "Then why are you still sleeping with me?" she asked him, whimpering. "You came by yourself." She couldn't answer for a moment.Yes, she wanted to come by herself, and Li Yiyu didn't invite her to come. What Xia Xinju said was right, that night, he only said that kind of thing because of a momentary realization of his conscience.She loves him so much, is so pitiful, and takes the initiative to satisfy his sexual desire.He found out with conscience, but he had already stopped loving her and could not tolerate any demands from her. She, Xia Sangju, is really a herbal tea, and she comes regularly to clear up the heat and reduce the heat of this man. Opposite Li Yiyu's apartment, there is a small hotel.After leaving his house, she rented a room in the hotel. She said that she didn't want to go home alone tonight, and she meant it. She asked for a room with a view of his home.Standing by the window, she saw that the lights in his house had been turned off.He must have slept soundly, right?He didn't care about anyone. She called Liang Zhengwei and told him that she was in the hotel. She was sitting in front of the window, Liang Zhengwei squatted in front of her, and asked her: "Is there a problem?" "No." She smiled. She stared at Li Yiyu's flat and dark window in a daze. "Li Yiyu lives opposite, doesn't he?" Liang Zhengwei asked her. "How do you know?" "I followed you several times." She was taken aback and scolded him: "You actually follow others? You are so wicked!" "He always asks you to go home alone in the middle of the night." "It's none of your business! Why are you following me?" "I don't know why. Maybe, I want to accompany you home." Liang Zhengwei sat on the ground slumped. She took a deep breath, looked at the man sitting in front of her, and said sadly, "I really wish I could fall in love with you." "No, never wrong yourself," Liang Zhengwei said with a smile. At that moment, she couldn't help but shed tears, but it was just a stone's throw away, and it was heaven and hell.The man on the opposite side made her suffer a lot; the man in front of her loved her so much that he was reluctant to let her suffer a little bit of wronging.How many nights, he walked behind her silently and accompanied her home. She hugged his head to warm her heart. The radio in the room is playing the evening show hosted by Xia Xinju. "The last song tonight is for my sister. A few days ago, she suddenly came to sleep on my bed, saying that she didn't want to sleep alone. She is a weird person. I hope she knows what she is doing. What. I think she'll be happy forever." When her sister sent her a love song, Xia Sangju fell asleep on the chair. When she woke up, Liang Zhengwei was sitting on the ground, holding her hand. "Go back." She told him. "No, I'm here with you, I'm not at ease." "I want to stay here alone, please." "Alright then." He reluctantly agreed. "You really don't need me to accompany you?" Before leaving, Liang Zhengwei asked her again. "Please, let's go." She almost begged him. Liang Zhengwei left the room in frustration. When she saw Liang Zhengwei's back, she suddenly saw herself.When you don't love someone, you really don't want him to stay by your side for a moment.Your most urgent wish is to ask him to go.Even if tomorrow is soon, you don't want him to stay until tomorrow. She took off her clothes, stood under the shower head, and washed herself thoroughly from head to toe with water. Until the smell left by Li Yiyu on her body had flowed from the sink into the sea and disappeared from her forever, she put on her bathrobe and sat by the window until the sunrise.The sky today is beautiful and blue.She hadn't looked up at the sky for a long time.She pressed her feet against the cold floor-to-ceiling windows.She feels much cooler now.Perhaps, when a person is willing to admit that love is gone, she will come to her senses.Her name is Xia Sangju, and she is not some kind of herbal tea. At nearly eight o'clock, she saw Li Yiyu coming out of the apartment, ready to go to work.He suddenly raised his head and looked towards the hotel. He didn't see her. The glass window in front of her was reflective; only she could see him.Li Yiyu is at her feet now.He and her should be very close, very close; but she felt that she and him were already far, very far away.