Chapter 3 Chapter 3 Song of New Year's Eve

Lin Fangwen made his debut for one year, and it was the first time he got his copyright fee, which was a considerable sum. "What gift would you like?" he asked me. "Don't give me a gift." I was a bit against my will, of course I hope to receive a gift from my lover. He stared at me as if he could see through my thoughts: "What gift do you like, tell me." "You can give any gift you like." I said to him sincerely. I have been eagerly looking forward to that gift, and believe more and more, it will be a ring.However, what I received was not a ring, but a violin.

"Why did you send me the violin?" I was very surprised. "You'll look great playing the violin," he said. "But I can't play the violin." It was an expensive violin, he gave it to me, but he ignored me whether it worked or not. It was the first gift he gave me, and I couldn't bear to waste it. "Do you know a teacher who teaches people to play the violin?" I asked Dizhi. "You want to learn the violin?" she was surprised. "yes." She laughed for a long time on the phone: "You learn the violin? Have you forgotten that you are tone deaf? You also go out of tune when you sing. Do you know that the violin is the easiest to go out of tune?"

Facing a mirror, I put the violin on my shoulders, put the bow on the strings, and like all violinists of international renown, I played very attentively. The way I play the violin, is it really pretty? Di Zhi quickly found a violin teacher for me.He has 20 years of teaching experience. He once taught an eight-year-old violin prodigy, and many people admire him. The violin teacher's surname is Yang, and his first name is Yunle.The name is read backwards, which is "Le Yunyang", which matches his profession very well.He is a little taller than a cello, which is probably why he can only play the violin.Although taking classes at his own home, he still wears a neat suit and behaves elegantly.He might have been a handsome man—twenty years ago.I'm sure he wears a wig, I don't see a noticeable hairline on him.He charged such an expensive tuition fee, and he didn't make a higher-quality wig, it was too stingy.The walls are covered with photos of him with his students, all of whom are children, and I must be the oldest one.Although I am full of confidence in front of Dizhi, I actually have no confidence at all. I was born with tone deafness, and thought that I would be insulated from music all my life, but I never thought that I would learn music for a man.

While waiting, another student of Yang Yunle came. It turned out that I was not the oldest one. The man was close to thirty years old. He wore a pair of glasses with thick lenses and his eyes were as small as two broad beans. He had at least one Two thousand degrees of myopia.We chatted, and I asked him why he came to learn the violin. He said that he made a bet with his friends that he would learn a musical instrument within a year. "Between the violin and the erhu, I chose to learn the violin." Myopia told me.I think he made a wise choice.With his appearance, if he still played the erhu, he would look like a blind person.

"Then why did you learn the violin?" he asked me. "For love." I sweetly told a stranger. The first violin lesson officially started, and Yang Yunle examined my violin very carefully. "Beginners don't need such a good piano." He was very sorry, as if I would spoil this piano. "It is because of this piano that I come to class." I said. "Okay! Now let's start the first lesson. I want to tell you first, I am very strict. The so-called strict teachers make excellent students." "When will I learn to play a song?" That was my biggest concern.

His face sank: "I'm not a crash course." "You should—" he said. I put the violin on my shoulder, ready to follow his words: "What should I do?" "You should pay the tuition first." Yes, I forgot to pay the tuition fee.Yang Yunle is a very philistine musician. "In the first class, I only teach you to pull the empty string. You can try to pull it casually." I put the bow on the strings and pulled it, it was very harsh, and I was taken aback by myself, but Yang Yunyue acted as if nothing had happened.He is used to this kind of scene.

"Teacher Yang, I have to tell you first that I am tone deaf." I declared to him in advance. "Over the past twenty years, I have taught countless students, and child prodigies have also taught a few, and no one has stumped me." He said proudly. In the first class, I learned the basic movements of playing the violin.One wall of Yang’s classroom is fully framed with mirrors. Looking at myself playing the violin, I imagine that one day, Lin Fangwen and I will have a violin and harmonica couple’s ensemble. "Why did you come to learn the violin?" he asked me. "For love." I said.

"Well, the motivation is very good. If you are not abandoned, you must learn." He said. "Young people are so happy now!" Yang Yunle sighed, "I can learn something for love. At that time, I learned the violin for life." "Good. Life is better," I said, "if not dead." I didn't tell Lin Fangwen about learning the violin, I wanted to give him a pleasant surprise. In the second class, I started to learn to sing a song, which was "Twinkle Twinkle Little Star" sung in the first grade of elementary school.I'm still out of tune so badly, it's creepy.

I hide at home and study every day. "Do you...do you hear every note you play?" Dizhi asked me. "I can't hear you," I said. "I'm tone-deaf! I just memorize the tricks. It's like operating a machine." "You shouldn't be called Cheng Yun. In your cells, there is no rhythm at all." Guanghui said. "How is your dentist?" I asked Guanghui. "He's very good, but he's just too obsessed. He has to see me every day. I take my exams, and he also sits next to me." "It doesn't matter how much he loves you." I said.

"Did you do that with him?" Di Zhi asked her. "No!" Guanghui said solemnly. "And you?" "No!" I said. "You two are really Joan of Arc." Dizhi said. "You are lustful," we said. "I have good news for you, I have a new boyfriend." Di Zhi said, "He does stunts." "The kind of prodigal son in the movie?" I was shocked. "Yes." She smiled like a flower, "He will die at any time. The first time I saw him was at the rehearsal scene. He walked out of the raging fire. That scene was really magnificent."

"It's like making a movie." Guanghui said. "Yeah. In hindsight, we both had feelings at the same time. I feel like he was born to die to see me." "How long ago?" I asked her. "One more day a week. Yesterday happened to be a week since we've known each other." "Don't be impulsive this time, just see each other clearly." I advised her.Afraid that she would suffer from a man again. "I know, don't worry. Don't think that he is rude because he is a stuntman. He is very careful. This is called the tenderness of a tough man." She hugged my pillow very lewdly. "Intoxication is intoxication, don't leave saliva on my pillow." I reminded her. "What's his name?" Guanghui asked her. "Wei An." "Sounds like a bodyguard," I said. "His driving skills are very good. He once flew over 18 cars in a movie. He told me that his biggest dream is to go to China one day and fly over the Great Wall." "The Arabian Nights," I said. "Not necessarily impossible." She defended him. "Have you ever thought that his job is very dangerous, and it ranks as the number one dangerous occupation with firefighters, policemen and killers?" Guanghui asked her. "I'm most afraid of not dying, but being disabled, and I want you to take care of him. Do you know? You are definitely not the kind of woman who is willing to take care of a disabled husband all his life without complaint. You are not so affectionate." I say. "I just love that he can't give me a sense of security, he can die at any time, so every moment we spend together is full of excitement, and the next moment is afraid that it will be forever. Every time he leaves my side, I feel like he is back on fire Here. I've never been so heartbroken about someone. I like being widowed at any moment." I am not surprised by Dizhi's thoughts.She's the type of person who walks into an amusement park and immediately asks, "Which ride is the most dangerous?" and immediately runs to play that ride. Falling in love with Deng Chufa, because he is a hero on water, not to mention Lin Zhengping, he is a superstar in heaven.The only exception is the studio technician.During those days, she was too depressed. Dizhi's advantage is that he never turns back, and his disadvantage is that he often misses. "When will you let me see your racing hero?" I asked Dizhi. "Immediately, I'll ask him to pick me up, and we'll have dinner together." Guards arrived on time in his black Japanese sports car.He gave me the feeling that the gangsters in the new district went to Tsim Sha Tsui.He looks like a boy from a new district who has made a fortune, wearing clothes bought in Tsim Sha Tsui, that's all. He seemed impatient to show his skills. The car was driving at a speed of 180 kilometers per hour. Guanghui and I were holding on to the door handle tightly, not daring to speak. Only Dizhi could talk to me easily and non-stop. "The 1st of next month will be the Golden Melody Awards Ceremony, and "Tomorrow" is sure to become one of the top ten hits. Lin Fang has a good chance of winning the Best Lyrics Award. Did he invite you to accompany him to the awards ceremony?" "I haven't heard him mention it." "You are his girlfriend, there is no reason not to ask you to accompany him!" Di Zhi said. When we finally arrived at our destination, Guanghui and I breathed a sigh of relief. "I don't want to die for love with you." I said to Di Zhi. It's true that Lin Fangwen didn't mention the awards ceremony to me, so he doesn't plan to attend with me, does he? That year, our three good friends fell in love with each other aboveboard and decided to spend New Year’s Eve together. I selfishly chose Casablanca as the location. I hope that Lin Fangwen and I will spend New Year’s Eve there every year in the future. I reminded Lin Fangwen: "This time, don't forget. If you forget, send me the song, and I won't forgive you." He obediently did not forget.Both Di Zhi and Wei An wore black leather jackets, which matched them very well.Guanghui and Sun Weidong came together, Sun Weidong was wearing a suit, Guanghui was wearing a grand long skirt, with her hair tied back, looking very mature.Lin Fangwen and I seemed ordinary, neither trendy nor grand enough. The three men walked together because of the three women, but they actually had no common topic.Wei An kept talking about the car, he was preparing to participate in the Macau Grand Prix.Sun Weidong corrects the way we brush our teeth.In his life, there were only two things—teeth and Guanghui.Lin Fangwen was relatively silent, and his silence seemed particularly lovely between them. In 10 seconds, it will be 1988, and the singers on the stage count down to dozens. "Happy New Year!" The six of us raised our glasses to wish. "Love is forever." Di Zhi shouted. "Long live women!" Wei An shouted. "It's the New Year now, what's the matter with women?" Di Zhi scolded him with a smile.Dizhi always falls in love with men with a lower IQ than her. On the song stage, a fat Filipino woman was singing a black grievance song. Lin Fangwen and I were hugging on the dance floor, but I had something difficult to understand. There were more than ten hours until the Golden Melody Awards Ceremony, and he still didn’t invite me Attending together, he probably doesn't want to be in that place and openly admit that I'm his girlfriend. "Will we still be together on New Year's Eve next year?" I asked him. "Why not?" he said. I often feel that it is impossible for two people to be together forever. Combination is the exception, and separation is inevitable.We are all passionately in love for the eventual separation. The fat woman left the stage, and a violinist came on stage to perform, and the sound of the violin was sad, which was not suitable for the evening. "This is." Lin Fangwen told me. At that moment, I really wanted to tell him that I was secretly learning the violin, and I thought of giving up countless times. I really wanted to complain that he gave me a violin, which made me suffer a lot. However, the people on the stage were playing the violin. Zou, when love is long live, what else should we complain about? Leaving Casablanca, Dizhi proposed to go to Disco. Seeing that Guanghui and I didn't show much interest, she said cleverly: "It's time for two people to live together. Let's go our separate ways. Lin Fangwen, I'm going to win the prize tomorrow!" I will come to cheer!" Dizhi said to Lin Fangwen. We sat by the sea, waiting for the sunrise in 1988, and what accompanied us was not "Tomorrow", but silence. It was I who couldn't help but said first: "Do you want me to accompany you?" He took out the Walkman from his pocket and hung the earphones on my head. It was a new song. "Every year today, I will send you a song." He said. I stared at him, tears welling up in my eyes: "I really hate you." "why?" "Because I can't live without you anymore." "Women are really strange," he said. "If there is one song every year, I can only get sixty songs at most in my life." I said. "Maybe eighty," he said. I shook my head: "It's impossible, it's impossible for me to live to be one hundred and one years old." It turns out that in my whole life, I can only get sixty songs from him at most, maybe even less.That number is just the capacity of five laser discs.Our love, only five laser discs, is too light. "No. All the songs you write in the future will be given to me." "Greed!" he teased me. "You really don't need me to accompany you tonight?" I asked him. "I don't want you to face failure with me." "I didn't think of you as a person who was afraid of failure," I said. "I am a person who is afraid of failure, so I work hard." "You will win, I will wait for you at home." The whole thing was originally very good, but in the afternoon, I received a call from Di Zhi, who told me that she had tickets for the awards ceremony. "Do you want to come?" "No. I promised to wait for him at home." "How can I watch him accept the award with my own eyes?" "He doesn't want me to go." "Just don't let him see it. If he wins, you can give him a surprise right away. At seven o'clock, Wei An and I will pick you up." I don't know if I should go. If I was there, I could share the victory with him and share his worries, so I went anyway. Di Zhi and Wei An and I sat in the 30th row of the stadium.In order to prevent Lin Fangwen from seeing me, I entered the show after the show started.I searched for Lin Fangwen's back in the venue. He was sitting in the sixth row, sitting with several lyricists.Our distance is twenty-four lines. The award for best lyrics did not fall to him, but to the lyricist next to him.I didn't expect that when he shook hands with that person to congratulate him, he would suddenly turn around and meet my eyes.He was stunned at that moment, then he turned his head and didn't look at me again.The distance of the twenty-four lines suddenly seemed to be very far away, separating us.He must hate me for watching him lose. After the awards ceremony, he left with everyone and ignored me. I feel sorry, but it doesn't help.I will wait for him in the dormitory.He didn't come back until after dawn. "Sorry, I shouldn't be there," I said. "Let's break up." He said with his head down. "Why? Just because of what happened last night?" I was a little excited. "No," he said, "I don't mind your being there. It's not important." "What's the reason for that?" "You need a lot of love, and I may not be able to provide it." "I don't understand you." "Falling in love with you is a very difficult thing." "Difficult?" I can't accept that reason, I think it's ridiculous if the reason for our breakup is that supply is in short supply. At that moment, I really wanted to throw myself into his arms and beg him to take back his words, but I couldn't do it, I couldn't even lose the last bit of self-esteem.I suddenly hated him.For the first time in my life, I felt abandoned and rejected.It turns out that no amount of tenderness in the past can make up for one injury. I sat on his bed, crying, trying to be strong, but I couldn't. "Don't do this." He comforted me, he was a little at a loss. "The promise of the New Year's Eve song will not be fulfilled again, will it?" I asked him. He is silent. "I'll take you home," he said. "No, I'll go by myself." I stubbornly left his room, maybe never going back.The New Year's Eve song is nothing more than a lie that is accidentally fulfilled. That night, Dizhi and Guanghui were with me. "Fortunately, you haven't slept with him yet, even if we separate, there is nothing to lose." Di Zhi said. "No, I regret not having sex with him, and it would be a pity if the relationship ended like this and we never had that relationship." "I think so too." Guanghui said, "It seems that I wanted to have a relationship with old Wenkang before we parted. We are both perfectionists." "If I'm a woman in his life who hasn't slept with him, I'm afraid he won't miss me," I said. "A man doesn't necessarily miss the woman he slept with." Di Zhi said, "Will Lin Zhengping miss me? Don't be so naive." "I don't know him. I don't know what I did wrong," I said. "Who told you to fall in love with talented people, talented people are very difficult to touch." Di Zhi said. "Don't be so pessimistic. Maybe in two days, he will find you. Very few people can break up successfully once." For several days, I didn't attend class, and deliberately avoided him, hoping that he would miss me, but it had been five days, and he hadn't looked for me. Lin Fangwen is also avoiding me.On the evening of the fourteenth day after we broke up, we finally met on campus. "How are you?" he asked me with concern. I looked at him, my heart ached, and tears welled up. He quickly comforted me: "Don't do this." "Are you in love with someone else?" I asked him. He shook his head. "Can you not break up." I begged him. He was silent. Exercising my rights as a jilted girl, I threw books, wallets, and everything on the ground with all my might. He bent down to pick up the things on the ground for me. "Go away!" I scolded him. "You go!" I said again. he's gone.I knelt down and picked up the things on the ground.I have lost all hope in my life. That night, I continued to learn violin from Yang Yunle.I originally learned the violin for Lin Fangwen, but now I have been abandoned, I should give up, but I am reluctant to let go of the violin he gave me, it is the only remaining connection between us.If between us is a song.It is the aftertaste, the saddest part. At Yang Yunle's place, I encountered myopia. "How are you doing?" he asked me. "Very bad." "Me too," he said. "Didn't you learn it for love?" I smile wryly.I remembered what Yang Yunle told me on the first day. He said that love is a good motivation, if it is not abandoned. Yang Yunle taught me to play a serenade, and I was always out of tune, and that day I was in a bad mood, and my out of tune was even worse. Yang Yunle couldn't bear it anymore and said, "You pull very hard." I ignored him and pulled hard, making a very harsh sound. Yang Yunle was dumbfounded, and myopia covered her ears with her hands. I will abuse them!I want revenge on the man. The song "Fragments" that Lin Fangwen gave me on New Year's Eve has become popular. I often hear it on the radio. The song says: "If emotions and years can be torn apart gently and thrown into the sea, then, I am willing to be silent at the bottom of the sea from now on—" The song is rippling in the air, but we have been silent ever since. He often misses class, I dare not miss class, I look at the door of the classroom, wishing he would show up.When he showed up, we had nothing to say. It's been four weeks since we broke up, and I've learned what it means to live like a year.I continued to learn the violin and abused myself and Yang Yunle by going out of tune. Who called him a man?He took my money and deserved the abuse. One night, I received a call from Di Zhi. She was crying very hard on the phone, so I rushed to see her immediately. One of Di was drinking at the bar alone. "What's the matter?" I asked her. "I want to break up with Wei An." I was a little surprised, but shamelessly happy. I will not be alone in the future, and Di Zhi will accompany me. "It turns out that he has a girlfriend. And it's a childhood sweetheart's girlfriend, and they live together." Di Zhi said. "how do you know?" "I know that woman. She's a colleague in the company." "Such a coincidence? Wei An is so bold!" "She is from the public relations department. I don't know her well. We had lunch together by chance today. She opened her wallet to take the money. I accidentally saw Wei An's photo in her wallet. She told me that her boyfriend is a stuntman. People. Just now, I questioned Wei An, and he admitted it." "What are you going to do?" "I won't let go." "Didn't you just say you broke up with him?" "I can not be reconciled." "I love Wei An, and Wei An loves me too. He has no relationship with that woman, it's just a responsibility." "What did he say?" "Ok." "You have only been with him for three months, and his girlfriend and his childhood sweetheart." "Love cannot be measured by time." "You always like to challenge the difficulty." She smiled stubbornly: "Is there any chance for you and Lin Fangwen to get back together?" "have no idea." "He's a weirdo. Falling in love with that thousand-year-old banshee is really weird. To him, you may be too normal." I'm normal?I should be normal.Unexpectedly, when a person is abandoned, normal is also a sin. Di Zhi is better than before Wei An, she wants to win that war.Being a third party and being a widow are both poignant, she likes it.Having afternoon tea with them that day, Di Zhi saw a very cute little girl, so he clamored to marry Wei An. "Okay, as long as you like." Wei An said. "What do you think is the name of a girl between me and Wei Ansheng?" She asked me. "Sanitary napkins," I said.I wish I could crush them both. After breaking up with them, I went to Yang Yunle to learn violin.I didn't think about abusing him, I pulled with my heart, trying to make the last effort for my lost love.But, I can't, I'm not that material at all. Yang Yunle sighed deeply: "I declare my surrender. I have been teaching for twenty years, and I have never met a hopeless student like you. You are not normal." He said I'm not normal?Dizhi said I was too normal. I suddenly felt inexplicable anger, I could no longer force myself, and I was powerless to do anything for love.I hugged the violin, ran back to Hong Kong University, and rushed into Lin Fangwen's room. He happened to be lying on the bed, and I threw the violin against the wall vigorously: "Back to you!" Lin Fangwen was stunned.I didn't want to finish it, so I picked up the violin and played it many times in front of him. "Is it ugly?" I played "Long Live Friendship" taught by Yang Yunyue. It was the shallowest piece, and I was out of tune in two-thirds of it. "Long Live Friendship?" he asked me. "Really, you can recognize this song with just one-third of it." I smiled wryly, "Why did you give me a violin? I can't learn it." "It's just a gift," he said. "Yes. I'm just being self-indulgent." I threw the violin on the floor and rushed out of his room. I suddenly understood why he said that loving me is a very difficult thing, and I asked too much of him.He wasn't blaming me for showing up at the award show, but he understood once again that I wouldn't set him free. The day after returning the violin to Lin Fangwen, I received news of Wei Lili's death.She threw a powerful discus to a female discus thrower at the sports meeting of the Teachers College, and hit the back of the head, resulting in cerebral hemorrhage on the spot. She was sent to the hospital, where she died after an hour of emergency treatment. Except for Ye Qinghe and Liu Xinping who couldn't come back from other places, all the volleyball team members came.The hospital where Song Xiaomian practiced was the same one that Lili was sent to.When she died, she was also shrouded in Xiaomian's body.Xiao Mian said that the back of Lili's head was completely sunken. Lili's mother sat in the mourning hall with a blank expression, but the girl Sammo Hung, who threw the discus and killed Lili by mistake, was crying like hell. It didn't occur to me that anyone died at our age.When we were chasing a beautiful youth, some people had quit.She can get sick, she can have a traffic accident, why is it so ridiculous to be a discus?I heard that before she was hit, she had just won the women's 400-meter individual championship on the podium, and was killed shortly after leaving the podium. She died so suddenly, and she must have been very happy when she died. Lili's body was buried in the Chinese permanent cemetery. Lili's mother chose the jersey of Baozhong women's volleyball team and a volleyball that Lili had always kept to be buried with her. We signed the volleyball.I watched the coffin with Lili's body buried in the loess, and felt so close to death for the first time.Lili's only relative is her mother, and I have never met her father. I remembered that there is nothing in her family that belongs to a man. Maybe she has never seen her biological father, but she has returned to the dust. I was with Dizhi and Guanghui, and we were all scared.It's a horrible feeling when someone who was close to us suddenly dies. "I dare not go home." Dizhi said. "When I think of that bloody discus, I have nightmares," Guanghui said. "Life is very fragile." I said, "Man is so clever, but he is no match for a piece of iron." "So if you want to love, love as much as you want." Di Zhi said. "Yes, so what if I'm wrong?" Guanghui said. Lili's death caused a great shock in our hearts, and we only spoke a few words throughout the night.Life is impermanent, Di Zhi rushed to see Wei An, Guang Hui asked Sun Weidong to accompany her, I suddenly longed to see Lin Fangwen, wanted to stay by the side of my favorite person, and seek some comfort.One day, death will do us part. I walked across the corridor of the dormitory and knocked lightly on his door. Lin Fangwen came to open the door, I looked at him, not knowing how to speak, he looked at me with gentle eyes, I threw myself into his arms, hugging him tightly.One day, death will do us part. "Wei Lili is dead." I whimpered, "She was hit in the back of the head by a discus throw at the sports meeting." "I know it from the papers," he said. "I'm scared." He hugged me tightly and gave me warmth, and I suddenly felt that he was back by my side again. "I miss you so much!" I said to him. "Me too," he said. I was overjoyed and wept bitterly in his arms. "Don't cry." He hugged me tighter. "You don't love me anymore?" I asked him. "I never said that." "You never said you loved me either," I said. He kisses me and I hold his head, refusing to let his tongue out of my mouth.He pulled me onto the bed, and I kept my eyes closed, not daring to open them to look at him.He undressed me, and I regretted not having put on a new bra, and the style of the bra didn't match the panties.If I had foreseen that scene, I would have dressed better. At that moment it was 11:55 p.m., and the radio just happened to play "Tomorrow" that Lin Fangwen gave me on New Year's Eve 1986: "Because of you, I am willing to take this risk, even if there is no tomorrow..." The first experience was lame and didn't work out.Dizhi said that she and Deng Chufa tried many times before they succeeded.Lin Fangwen and I seemed to be losers, and we finally couldn't help laughing on the bed. I think of that violin, that day, I threw it on the ground. "Where's the violin?" "Rotten," he said. "Can it be repaired?" "It's all changed shape, beyond repair." "Give it back to me if it's rotten." "What good is a violin that you can't play?" "Remembrance. Remembrance of a breakup," I said. "I've lost it." I am so sorry, I like that violin. I told Dizhi about my reunion with Lin Fangwen. "Alas!" she sighed, "you are in danger of being abandoned by the same person more than once." "That's not it! I purposely reconnected with him, and then I broke up with him." "real?" "I really thought about it. I thought, no matter what, I have to reconcile with him, and then take the initiative to break up. The one who breaks up first will definitely feel better." I said. "Of course! When I broke up with Deng Chufa, I just felt sad for a while. If someone abandons you, even if you don't love him very much, you will still be very sad. So, I will be the first one to announce my withdrawal in the future." Di said. After lunch, Di Zhi and I went to visit the company.I was a little embarrassed remembering the bras I wore yesterday and decided to buy a new batch. "I want to buy a bra," I said. Di Zhi looked at me maliciously. "Why are you looking at me like that?" "Did you sleep with Lin Fangwen?" "Not yet," I said. "Guessed it!" She smiled lewdly: "Women don't buy bras for no reason, they must want to wear them for their boyfriends to see." "If you don't have a boyfriend, you still need a bra." "If you don't have a boyfriend, you can only wear it for yourself, and you won't be so particular about it." She casually picked up a see-through bra and gave it to me: "This is very sexy, it must be amazing." "Too revealing." "What's the point of not being exposed?" She picked up a white lace bra again, "This one! There is a little sexiness in pure love." "This button is on the front," I said. "It's best if the button is in the front." She smiled lewdly again: "If he wants to unbutton it in the front, it will definitely make his heart beat faster. Wei An likes it the most." "Since Wei'an likes it, you can buy it!" I told Di Zhi, "I like simple styles." "Women's underwear is meant to be worn by men," said Dizhi. We try on bras together in the fitting room. "Are you going to continue to be a third party?" I asked her. "Of course not. He will break up with her. He wants me to give him time. Do you think I like to be the third party? Every time after sleeping with me, he has to go back to that woman. I feel very painful. I Ever wanted to die." "Don't do something stupid." "I'll just think about it. I don't have the courage. I'm thinking of a more positive approach now." "what way?" "I want him to sleep with me every day, and it wears him out, and he goes back to that woman, and there's nothing he can do." We were back to back, squatting on the ground laughing. I stood up wearing a white X-shaped bra. "Does this look good?" I asked her. She pressed her fingers on my breast a few times and said, "It's bouncy, good, good." "I mean my bra, not my breasts." I also pressed my fingers on her breasts a few times, "Yes, yes, the elasticity is very good." I carefully looked at Dizhi in the mirror. Her breasts are plump, her size is 34C, her waist is slender, her hips are round, her legs are slender, she is really charming, and I am also a little moved. "Your figure is very attractive." I said. She was suddenly sad: "Is this why men like me?" I looked at her with pity: "No, you are a good girl." "Really? Even I suspect that I have slept with four men." "Everything done for love is not bad," I said.