Chapter 2 the second part

11 There is such a girl in your heart. You would rather give her your morning milk. You would rather ride for an hour to buy a pregnancy test for her. You are willing to help her copy notes every day for her and send them to her home. And in the same way, you would rather trust a stranger than trust her. And what you believe, is that she's a whore. 12 Yi Yao pushed his bicycle towards home. The prosperity along the road and the atmosphere of the city are intertwined, rolling towards the back like a movie set. It's like standing on a parallel elevator at the airport, being rolled forward by the ground.

The fingers of the hand that was placed on the faucet turned white from the exertion. Yi Yao suddenly remembered that what his mother often said to him, "Why don't you die sooner", "Why don't you die", if these words are actually realized, it can be regarded as a relief.It's just that now, before he dies, he still has to bear the same reputation as his mother.At this point, the depression in Yi Yao's heart was like a snowball, getting bigger and bigger, pressing heavily on his heart, almost unable to beat. Blood cannot flow back to the heart. The body floats in mid-air as if lacking oxygen.Can't fall down.Fall down to the ground and keep your feet on the ground.All the joints have been tied with bright silver threads, and the joints are pulled like a puppet, opened and closed like a zombie, walking forward on the street.

Tears flowed out of my eyes continuously, as if someone had pressed the switch to start tears, so I couldn't stop.Like all the water in the body, it flows cleanly in the form of tears. Until the car pushed to the entrance of the alley, when he saw Qi Ming sitting on the side of the road in the dark night, the switch that was pushed by someone jumped up again. Tears stopped. Qi Ming stood in front of her.The street lamp at the entrance of the alley just shone on his face.He rubbed his reddened eye sockets.He said, Yi Yao, I don't believe what they said.I do not believe. It was as if someone pressed a switch again in the dark, and the tears flowed effortlessly.

"You believed it at all!" Pulled the schoolbag from the basket of the car, and fell on Qi Ming. Pencil case, textbooks, notebooks, mobile phones, all fell out of the bag and hit Qi Ming on the body.A pen was drawn across the face, and there was a bloodstain in an instant. Qi Ming remained motionless. "You just believe it!" He smashed again. "You believe it..." smashed again and again.There was an empty schoolbag left, and it hit him softly with the texture of cotton cloth.Qi Ming stood still, but felt more pain than the first hit. over and over again.It kept falling on him.

But it was as if a small hole had been dug out of the body, and the strength was continuously drained from that small hole.As if the blood had been sucked out, Yi Yao fell to the ground, crying so silently that only his shoulders were shaking up and down. Qi Ming squatted down, hugged her, and pulled her into his arms. Like holding an empty doll. "You buy me, you give me money... I will sleep with you." "I'll sleep with you, as long as you give me money." Every crying word was like a sharp dagger, piercing heavily into Qi Ming's chest. She said, "I'm different from my mother! Don't take me for my mother!"

"I'm different from my mother!" Qi Ming nodded heavily. Streetlights shone down.The boy's black uniform was like a blurred night.On the heroic face, the blood from that cut had already congealed. Pencil cases, pens, and books scattered all over the ground, like disassembled parts. Who broke a doll? In the alley, Lin Huafeng stood motionless in the darkness. Every sentence "I am different from my mother!" greatly sucked the oxygen around her. She clutched her heart, it was as if a handful of shattered ice had been rubbed into it, and it was so cold that it hurt.

It's like summer suddenly took a big bite of a popsicle in his mouth, and in the end he was so cold that he could only spit it out. However, how do you spit out the ice that has been rubbed into your heart? 13 same.As soon as the key was inserted into the keyhole, the door slammed open. The mother's chatter was dismissed by Qi Ming's sentence, "I stayed in school and asked the teacher some exercises that I didn't understand, so I was delayed." There are three sets of bowls and chopsticks on the table. "Dad is back?" "Yes, your dad has just come back and is taking a shower. Waiting for him to wash... Ah! What's wrong with your face?"

"It's nothing." Qi Ming turned his face away, "I accidentally scratched it while riding." "How can this be done! Such a long hole!" Mother still yelled, "Wait for me to get the medicine box." Mother went into the bedroom and began to rummage through the boxes. The sound of my father taking a shower came from the bathroom, and the water from the shower was loud. Mother rummaged through the bedroom for alcohol and gauze. On the table, my father's wallet lay quietly there.A stack of money can be clearly seen in the wallet. Qi Ming lowered his head and felt the wound on his face burning up, sending out a hot pain.

second round 14 There are some things that are isolated between people, which can easily create deep gullies between each other. After it rains, it becomes a river again, and there is no way to cross it. If there is another thick fog on the river... It's like fourteen-year-old Qi Ming's first seminal emission stained his underwear. He tucked his pants under the pillow after getting up in the morning, and then set off for class.After returning home at night and taking a shower, he took the morning pants to the toilet.When meeting her mother, Wei Wei blushed a little. Seeing him holding the trousers, his mother habitually reached out to take them.But Qi Ming unexpectedly rejected him.

"What kind of pants do you wash well? Didn't I wash them for you? I've got an evil today, silly boy." Mother stretched out her hand, "Bring here, you go to read a book." Qi Ming turned sideways, his face seemed to be burning, "No, I'll wash it myself." He walked around his mother, walked into the toilet and closed the door. Mother stood outside the door, listening to the beeping sound of the faucet inside, and laughed thoughtfully. Qi Ming came out of the toilet, shook the water in his hand, and just reached out to wipe it on the towel, when he saw his mother standing in the aisle of the living room, looking at him with a smile on his face, "Silly boy, do you think that mother doesn't care?" I know."

Suddenly, an uncomfortable feeling flowed from the blood vessels into the heart, like drinking too sweet sugar water, so sweet that the throat itch.It's like a mosquito bite in the throat. "It's nothing, I'm off to read." Qi Ming touched his face, it was very hot. "Oh, what are you and your mother to be ashamed of? From now on, mother will wash it. Be good. You have become a young man, haha." Qi Ming closed the door of his room, fell on the bed, pulled the quilt over his head. The mother's voice on the phone outside the door was high-pitched and clear. "Hey, Qi Fangcheng, your precious son has grown up, haha, let me tell you..." Qi Ming was lying on the bed, covered with a quilt, with his hands stretched out, touching the light switch on the wall, pressing it on, then turning it off, pressing it on, then turning it off again.The light cannot penetrate the quilt, and can only form a blurred light on the eyelids that disappears and disappears. My heart seemed to be covered with a layer of gray film, very much like the twilight in an alley in the evening, with the smell of hot oily smoke, which made my heart feel uncomfortable. A few days later, when I was going to school one morning, my mother and several middle-aged women happened to be chatting at the door.Qi Ming pulled his schoolbag, squeezed past them, and said in a low voice, Mom, I'm going to class first. Qi Ming hadn't taken two steps away when he heard a conversation behind him. "I heard about your son~ hehe." Yin Yang smiled strangely. "Oh, Li Xiulan, you have such a big mouth, how can you talk about it everywhere." The mother pretended to be angry.No matter how annoying the voice was, it was still smiling. "Oh, this is a good thing. It's not good to hold a grandson as soon as possible. Hahahaha." He laughed disgustingly. "The child now, really, is well nourished, like the one in our family, who was 16 years old!" an older woman said. Qi Ming pulled the bicycle out of the pile with force. It was so forceful that it knocked down a row of cars parked at the entrance of the alley. "Oh, I'm so shy! Your Qi Ming is really tender." "It's so tender that it's watery. You're so old and young, why are you so dishonest." The mother laughed along with her. Qi Ming wished that a bomb would suddenly be dropped in the alley, making the world peaceful with a bang. Turning out of the entrance of the alley, just as he was about to step into the car, he saw Yi Yao in front of him. "Your glorious deeds," Yi Yao turned his head, waiting for Qi Ming to catch up, "even I have heard about it." Qi Ming beside him gasped, and almost bumped into an aunt who was back from grocery shopping, and a series of "Oh, I'm going to die, be careful?!" Yi Yao couldn't help laughing a little, "I can only say that your mother is very capable, and you can talk about this kind of thing, but forget it, women are born like this." "Your mother didn't talk." Qi Ming was not convinced.Puffed cheeks. "Lin Huafeng?" Yi Yao rolled his eyes, "Let's forget about her." "At least she didn't say anything. The first time you...that time." Although he was 14 years old, the teacher still explained everything that should be said in the school's physiology class. "The first time I was on the way home from school, I suddenly felt 'it's over', I rode home quickly, like a thief on the road, I felt that people all over the world were looking at me, and everyone knew who was riding the bike. The little girl’s best friend came. As a result, I went home, changed my pants, and told my mother. My mother didn’t say anything. She gave me a blank look, went to my closet, opened the drawer, and threw me a pack of sanitary napkins. The only The one thing he said was, 'Be careful, don't stain the sheets, and wash the pants you changed, they stink to death'", Yi Yao stopped the car, stopped in front of the red light, and turned around Say, "At least your mother washes your pants for you, you are content, young master." Yi Yao didn't notice that the boy blushed beside him.I just asked casually, and I never thought that she would tell me everything like pouring beans.After all, it was a delicate age, when even touching hands between boys and girls would cause screams in the class. "Why are you telling me this..." Qi Ming's face was like another red light. "There's something wrong with you, you, didn't you ask it yourself?" Yi Yao frowned, "You're not happy after I told you, you're really a bitch." "You!", the boy's face turned pale with anger, "Hmph! Sooner or later you will become like your mother! A mean forty-year-old woman!" Yi Yao pulled the schoolbag from the front frame of the bicycle and threw it heavily on the boy's back. 15 Like this river. lie between each other.From fourteen to seventeen.One thousand and ninety-five days.Like a river 1,095 meters deep. Qi Ming has thought countless times that maybe like many rivers, the river bed will slowly accumulate quicksand, and then the river bed will rise. After a few occasional dry seasons, the flat ground at the bottom of the river will be exposed. The mother on the other side will slowly walk towards her. But the truth is, I don't know if it's me, my mother, or a certain hand that is digging the river channel day by day, cleaning up the quicksand, and attracting more canal water.The moat-like existence that is getting deeper and deeper day by day, if you step on it, you can only be drowned in an instant. Just like this morning, Qi Ming and his mother were eating at the table.As usual, his mother commented on every morning news on the TV, while Qi Ming kept eating food in his mouth. "Mom, I'm done eating." Qi Ming picked up his schoolbag and when he was changing his shoes, he saw his father's wallet lying quietly on the low cabinet by the door.A blood vessel in the neck began to throb again. "Oh, add another dress, you wear so little, you want to be sick, my ancestor." The mother put down her job and the TV morning news that she was still emotionally evaluating just now, and went into the house to get clothes. Qi Ming walked to the front of the cabinet, took the wallet, took out six one-hundred sheets, and quickly stuffed them into his pockets. Qi Ming opened the door and yelled into the room, "Mom, don't take it, I'm not cold, I'm going to school." "etc!" "I'm not cold!" Qi Ming opened the door and stepped out. "I told you to wait! Tell me what's in your pocket!" The white light outside the house suddenly rushed over, almost blinding Qi Ming's eyes.The hand in his pocket was still holding the six hundred dollars he had just drawn out.Qi Ming's hand holding the doorknob stopped there stiffly. The sound was like the plug of the pool being pulled out, and it was sucked into an invisible place like a vortex. There was silence in the room.A pool full of water.The silence after emptying. There is also the sound of mother's rapid breathing and excited and flushed face in the silence.And my own suffocating heartbeat. 16 "What's in that pocket? Mom, what are you talking about?" Qi Ming turned around.To mother. "Tell me, what's in your pocket!" Mother's chest heaved violently.And suppressed anger whitewashed the appearance of calm. "It's really nothing." Qi Ming pulled his hand out of his pocket and spread it in front of his mother. "I mean this pocket!" The mother raised her hand, and Qi Ming saw that she was holding the clothes she had changed in her hand. The mother slapped her hand hard on the table, and a piece of paper was slapped on the table. Qi Ming suddenly breathed a sigh of relief, as if someone had let go of a string that was so tense that it was about to break.But then, after focusing his eyes, the blood rushed to the top of his head. On the table, the invoice for the pregnancy test paper lay quietly on the table. A minute ago the playground was as empty as if it could hold another plane.In the next minute, like ants attracted by the scent, a dense crowd of students poured out from every classroom and crowded the playground. The music on the radio swayed in the white winter air, swayed by the wind, and the music was affected by the current, making a beeping sound. The female voice who shouted the password on the radio obviously sounded listless and ill Damn, like dying. "The snot-like sound is really uncomfortable." Qi Ming turned his head.Yi Yao's strange metaphor. Yi Yao stood in the crowd, a group of boys and a group of girls, one meter away from him, Qi Ming held his hands in a polite manner.When the music played to the second quarter, Qi Ming changed into a more ridiculous posture, raising his arms to the sky. "Then why did you tell your mother? If it was my mother, she should have gone to the kitchen to get a knife and threw it in my face." Yi Yao turned his head and continued talking to Qi Ming. "I said it was needed for the teacher's physical hygiene class. Since I am the class monitor, I bought it and kept the receipt so that I can ask the school for reimbursement." The music played in the third quarter, and Qi Ming squatted down. "Huh?" Yi Yao didn't know whether it was a look of surprise or ridicule on his face, and said calmly, "It's really good. Does your mother believe it?" "Well," Qi Ming said with his face down, "my mother sat on the stool after hearing this, let out a sigh of relief, and said 'little ancestor, you are scaring me to death' and kicked me out of the house I went to class." "According to your mother's talent for acting, shouldn't she hold you and cry on the spot, then turn around and tell the whole alley?" Yi Yao teased him. "My mother really almost cried." Qi Ming said in a low voice.There was a feeling of inconsistency in my heart, "Besides, why are you acting like you have nothing to do with yourself? Anyway, this matter has something to do with you, right?" Yi Yao turned his head and looked at the front, the back of his head was covered with darkness.She stared fixedly at the front and said, "Qi Ming, you are so kind to me, so good that sometimes I take everything you do for granted. It is very likely that one day you will take out your heart and put it in front of me, and I will feel nothing. Maybe you will step on it a few times. Qi Ming, you better not be so nice to me, all women are like this, if you treat her well, your feelings will be cheap. Really. Women are cheap. " Qi Ming turned her head back, Yi Yao looked ahead and didn't move, the music was playing above her head, she seemed to be unable to hear it, standing there motionless, like an electric toy that had been ripped out of the plug.Her eyes were so wet that it was about to drip water, she opened her mouth but didn't make a sound, but Qi Ming understood what she was saying. She said, one is cheaper than the other. "That girl in the back! Why don't you move! Just chatting with boys, how decent! Talk about you!" The grade dean passing by in front of the line looked at Yi Yao who was in a daze, and waved the dirty face of her hand Little Red Flag roared angrily. Yi Yao came back to his senses and waved his arms stiffly.The music goes to the fifth verse.Stretching exercises. "I said," after the dean of students walked away, Yi Yao turned to look at Qi Ming with an unconcealable smile on her face, "She exclaimed 'how decent' when she saw me chatting with you. There is a child in her stomach, I don’t know if she will go into shock on the spot.” Like a naughty child.Tell a smug joke.His eyes narrowed with a smile, shining wetly. But it was as if a handful of broken glass had been rubbed into Qi Ming's heart. The surface of the heart with thousands of ravines.Stitching into sadness like a needle thread. Qi Ming raised his head.I don't know how many winters have passed like this. In the broadcast of the sound of music, all the people raised their pale faces, and under the paler lonely sky, they waited rigidly and passively for the distant spring. The sorrowful emotions deep in the heart of the earth flow down the soles of the feet, as if they have been connected to a circuit, and flow into the limbs.Stretch and wave towards the sharp sky.Those emotions were pulled upwards, accumulated around the eye sockets, and were about to flow out. Huge playground.There was a distance of one meter between her and him. She raised her head, closed her eyes, and said, she really wanted to get out of here quickly. He raised his head and said, me too, I really want to go to a farther place quickly. Yi Yao turned around, with a mocking expression on her face, and she said, I mean this damn radio drill is not over yet, I'm not as poetic as you, and I still want to go farther away.I feel like I'm going to die in this school. Yi Yao's mocking expression suddenly disappeared after Qi Ming turned around.She was dumbfounded when she saw the tears in his eyes. His heart was like the setting sun in winter, following Qi Ming's sudden drop of the corner of his mouth, he sank in panic. I really want to get out of here quickly. I really want to go to a farther place as soon as possible. But are you alone, or with me? 17 At four or five o'clock in the afternoon, it was dark. Twilight poured into the air like ink, spreading faster than anything else. Qi Ming took out the six pieces of money that he had spent the whole day pinching from his pocket, and handed them to Yi Yao.Say, give. It was like taking milk out of the bag for Yi Yao every morning, with a low and gentle voice.A sad silhouette illuminated by the headlights of passing cars.Fluffy rubbings are in sight. "Where did you get the money?" Yi Yao stopped the car. "Don't worry about it. Just take it. I don't know how much it will cost. You take it first." Qi Ming straddled the bicycle.head down.The red light above the head was suddenly on. "I asked you where did you get the money?!" Qi Ming was taken aback by Yi Yao's expression. "I took my father's." Qi Ming lowered his head. "Return it back. Return it at night." Yi Yao took a deep breath and said, "It doesn't matter if I steal, but you are so clean that people all over the world want to hold you in their hands. You turned black and stinky for me , your brain was shot." Red light jumps to green.Yi Yao raised the back of his hand to wipe away the tears from his eyes, and rode forward. Qi Ming looked at Yi Yao's gradually shrinking back, his throat seemed to be choked with water.For some reason, he felt as if Yi Yao would disappear into the crowd like this, and he would never find it again. Qi Ming raised his foot and stepped on it hard, the gears suddenly jammed jerky, and then the chain quickly came out and fell to the ground like a dead snake. Raising his head, just as he opened his mouth, Yi Yao's shadow disappeared from his sight. Big, dark clouds moved across the sky. Heavy as a black eulogy. pushing the cart.The chain drags on the ground.The metallic sound moved unevenly on the eardrums. Push it to the entrance of the alley.He saw Yi Yao sitting on the side of the road. "Why so late?" Yi Yao stood up and rubbed his numb legs. "The chain is broken." Qi Ming pointed to the bicycle, "Why don't you go in and wait for me?" "En." Yi Yao looked into his face, "To make sure you won't be scolded later." 18 The table is full of dishes.It was steaming hot.It made it hard to see the face of the mother sitting opposite. Even if you can't see clearly.Qi Ming also knew that his mother's face was ugly. The father sitting next to him had an even uglier face. Several times, my father couldn't help but want to say something, but was kicked back from under the table by my mother.Father had to lower his head and continue eating.The chopsticks were placed back and forth heavily, venting their dissatisfaction. Qi Ming pretended not to see it.Bow your head and drink your soup. "Qi Ming," my mother choked out a thin cry, as if holding a mouthful of phlegm, "do you have enough pocket money recently?" "Enough." Qi Ming drank the soup and answered vaguely.I thought to myself, the circle is quite wide. "Ah... this..." The mother looked at her father with an embarrassed look on her face, "Then have you..." She couldn't find the right words.The sentence was awkwardly broken in the air.How should I put it, I can't say the phrase "Then did you steal the family's money" in my heart anyway. Qi Ming's heart sank a little, so his face softened. He took out the 600 yuan in his pocket, handed it to his mother, and said, "Mom, I didn't buy the right one today. The money is useless. I will return it to you." Qi Ming had expected the momentary surprised expressions of his father and mother.So he quietly lowered his head and continued to drink the soup, took a few sips, looked up and saw that the two of them were still surprised, so he pretended to touch his head and said, "What's wrong? I left a note in the morning and told my mother that I would buy a rereading Take six hundred yuan first. I went shopping with my classmates in the afternoon, but I didn’t find a suitable one, but it also delayed some time.” As Qi Ming said, he walked towards the cabinet, searched for it, and then squatted down, "Ah, it fell to the floor." Pick it up and hand it to mom. On the paper are his son's familiar and handsome notes. "Mom, I'll take 600 yuan first and buy a repeater. I'll check it out at night and come home a little late. Qi Ming." The mother's shoulders suddenly relaxed, and the tension that seemed to be stretched all over the body disappeared in an instant. "Oh, that's right, I thought..." "What do you think?" The voice suddenly raised.Nice counterattack. "Ah..." Mother's embarrassed face.Turning to his father, but the father said nothing, bowed his head and sipped his soup.How can you say, "Think you stole money"?It's just self-defeating. "I'm full." Qi Ming put down the bowl, turned around and walked back to the room.Leaving awkward parents in the living room. Pull out the light.He fell headfirst on the bed. There was a murmured quarrel between parents outside the door. The clearer sentence is "It's all your fault! Fortunately, it's true, it's your son! You doubt what you gave birth to yourself!" What is more clear is the sentence added later, "You are endless. Isn't it you who was so nervous that you were crying and fussing in the afternoon and almost hanged yourself? I just told you that I lost 600 yuan, and I didn't say it was Qi Ming. Take it." The latter gradually became unclear. Qi Ming pulled back the quilt. Darkness suddenly fell from the top of the head. Yi Yao cleaned up the finished meals. Just brought it into the kitchen.The phone in my pocket rang. When I opened it, it was a short message from Qi Ming. "You're so smart. Luckily you wrote a note when you got home." Yi Yao smiled and closed the phone.Take the plate and go to the kitchen. The faucet was turned on, and the water was rushing. She looked out at the alley, where the windows of every house were filled with warm yellow light. What she is thinking now is another matter. 19 I can't recite the string of numbers starting with 138 and ending with 414 on my phone, and I can't even say I'm familiar with them.But this string of numbers has a name called Yi Jiayan. Even I forgot when I changed "Father" to "Yi Jiayan".The polysyllabic words that were repeated countless times almost every day disappeared in my life out of thin air.Except for reading texts or reading books, I hardly come into contact with the word "Dad". A small piece of white suddenly in life.Take the missing two characters as the specific shape. It's like falling asleep accidentally in a movie theater. After waking up, I found that a part of the plot was missing. Everyone around me watched it with gusto, but I couldn't find it again.So I continued to follow along vaguely, and slowly discovered that the missing paragraph would hardly affect the future plot. Or, like an unsolvable equation on a test paper.Very real hollowness.There is a place in my heart that cannot be smoothed out. Yi Yao opened the door of the room, and the living room was pitch black.Mother is already asleep. Yi Yao looked at his watch, it was half past nine.So she put on her coat.He opened the door and went out. Passing by Qi Ming's window, the yellow light inside shone on her face.There was a sudden burst of unfounded sadness in her heart. That string of addresses was also overheard from my mother's mouth.Later, it remained in a certain corner of my mind, existing like a subconscious mind.I thought it would be very complicated to find, but it turned out to be easy to find, and it was confirmed by the old man downstairs, "Oh, Mr. Yi, that's right, right, it's 504." Standing at the door, with his hand on the doorbell, but he didn't have the courage to press it. Yi Yao stood in the corridor, dizzy from the cold light above his head. Yi Yao held the phone in his hand, wondering if he should call his father first.Just as he was turning on his phone, the elevator door opened with a "ding".Yi Yao turned around, and a young but well-dressed woman walked out, holding a little sister by the hand, and behind them, a man walked out with two big bags in both hands. The man raised his head to see Yi Yao, his eyes suddenly became agitated and flustered.He opened his mouth, but no sound came out.It's like he doesn't know how to deal with the situation in front of him. Just as Yi Yao opened his mouth, he heard the little girl call out crisply, "Dad, hurry up!" The "Dad" in Yi Yao's mouth was abruptly swallowed back.Like swallowing a razor blade, it scratched the entire chest. 20 Very simple living room.There are simple cloth sofas and glass tea tables.Although it is a very simple apartment, it is still much cleaner than the houses in the alley. Now Yi Yao is sitting on the sofa.The woman my father later married was sitting in the other corner of the sofa.Pressing the remote control back and forth, with an impatient expression. Yi Yao held the water her father poured for her, waiting for her father to put her little daughter to sleep.The water in his hand cooled little by little, until it was so cold that Yi Yao didn't want to hold it anymore, so he gently put it on the table. When I bent down, my line of sight leaked into a corner of the bedroom, looking through the open door, it was my father reading a story with a book of colorful fairy tales, and the little girl beside him was already asleep up. When I was a child, every night, my father read the story in the same way, letting myself fall asleep in the fairy tale.At that time, I never had a nightmare.Thinking of this, tears suddenly welled up in his eyes, his stomach seemed to be filled with soreness suddenly, and his throat was blocked tightly.The hand holding the cup slipped and almost knocked over the cup on the coffee table, and a small puddle of water accumulated on the surface of the glass.Yi Yao saw that there was no paper around, so he quickly wiped it with his sleeve. Tears dripped down the back of the hand. The woman next to her snorted contemptuously through her nose. Yi Yao stopped crying.Indeed, in her opinion, her behavior like this is indeed contrived and sensational.If it were me, I might not only hum in my nose, maybe I would add a sentence of "As for". Yi Yao wiped his eyes.Sit down again. Another ten minutes passed.Father came out.He sat across from him, looked at Yi Yao with an embarrassed expression, and then at the woman. Yi Yao looked at his father, feeling a surge of sadness in his heart. The father in my memory, even on the day he left me, his back in the alley was still tall. But now, my father's hair is half white.Yi Yao controlled his voice and said, Dad, are you okay? The father looked at his current wife, nodded in embarrassment, and said, well, it's good.The woman switched channels more frequently, pressing the remote control back and forth with an impatient expression. Yi Yao sniffed and said, "Dad, thank you for paying my tuition all the time. It's hard for you. I..." "What did you say?" The woman suddenly turned her face, "He paid for your tuition?" "Yi Yao, what are you talking about?" The father's face suddenly became flustered, "I can't help you pay the tuition. Don't talk nonsense, kid." It's not so much for Yi Yao, but for that woman Yes, a flattering and awkward smile appeared on his father's face. Yi Yao's heart suddenly sank. "Don't do this," the woman's voice was sharp and mean, "I knew you had been giving money there! Yi, you are very capable!" "What am I capable of? Me!" The father's tone was a little angry, but he still held back his temper. "Don't you know how much money I have, and you watch and receive my salary every month. Where did I get the money?" !" The woman thought for a while, then stopped talking.Sit down, pick up the remote control again, but still drop a sentence, "Why are you yelling, why are you getting nervous." Father turned his head and looked at Yi Yao, "Did your mother tell you that?" Yi Yao didn't answer.Fingernails dug hard into the palm. In the room, the little girl must have woken up because of the quarrel, and called "Daddy" vigorously. The woman rolled her eyes and said, "Go in quickly, you'll wake up my daughter." Father took a deep breath and went back into the bedroom. Yi Yao stood up, turned and left without saying anything.She thought, really shouldn't come. When she came to open the door, the woman turned her head and said, "Go out and take the bag of garbage by the door." Yi Yao came out of the building, and the icy wind hit her face hard.Tears quickly disappear in the wind to take away the temperature.Clinging to the face like two trails of ice. Yi Yao bent down and took the key to unlock the bicycle.Several times, failed to insert the key in.After poking hard, but still unable to get in, Yi Yao stood up and kicked the bicycle to the ground.Then squatted down and cried loudly. After a while, she stood up and helped the bicycle up.She thought it was time to go home. Just as she was about to leave, footsteps sounded in the corridor. She turned her head and saw her father chasing him out.He looked a little downcast because he wasn't wearing a coat. "Dad, you don't have to see me off, I'm going home." "Yi Yao..." "Dad, I know. Stop talking." "I haven't asked you why you came to see me today," my father trembled, exhaling a big mouthful of white air, which floated in front of him like a small cloud under the street lamp. "...Dad, I want to ask you to borrow money..." The father lowered his head, reached into his pocket, and took out a stack of money, big and small, and he took out the four largest ones, "Yi Yao, take these four hundred yuan..." It's like being refilled with hot water. Little by little, the limbs and bones that had almost gone just now were thawed. "...Dad, actually..." "Don't talk about it. I only have four hundred yuan. No more!" An impatient tone. Like a streetlight tripping, in an instant, everything around was engulfed in darkness.