Chapter 3 the third part

twenty one When Yi Yao was young, the school teacher once assigned a difficult math problem.For students in the fourth grade of elementary school, it is very difficult.And Yi Yao answered alone in the class.Yi Yao returned home very proudly. Originally, she wanted to show off to her father directly, but the kid's mentality of being a monster made Yi Yao make up another set of lies. She took the question and said to her father, "Dad I don't know how to answer questions, so please help me explain. Like to prove that I am smarter than my father, or just to show my father how smart I am.

That night, my father kept working on that problem until Yi Yao got up to go to the bathroom at night, and saw his father still sitting by the table, wearing reading glasses.That was the first time Yi Yao saw his father wearing reading glasses.At that time, Yi Yao suddenly cried.Thinking that she saw her father's old appearance, she was afraid that his father would grow old like this.He cannot grow old, he is his own hero. Yi Yao was standing at the door of the bedroom in pajamas and crying. His father took off his glasses and came over and hugged her. His shoulders were still very strong, and his strength was still great. His father said, Yaoyao, Dad solved that question, and I will explain it to you tomorrow. , you sleep well.

With tears in his eyes, Yi Yao felt that his father was a hero who would never grow old. When I was younger.There was a Children's Day.The school organized a trip to the square to watch the show. Crowds of people crowded the square.Even if I straighten my neck, I can only see the heads of the actors on the stage. At that time, his father suddenly picked up Yi Yao and put him around his neck. At that moment, Yi Yao saw all the people on the stage clearly. People around imitated their father's example and raised their children on their heads. Yi Yao rode on his father's shoulders and touched his father's hair, which was very hard.His father's hands clutched his ankles.My father is the tallest father among the people around me.

In the sixth grade of elementary school, Yi Yao won the first place in the city in singing. On the day I went to the Municipal Cultural Palace to accept the award, my father was wearing a formal suit.At that time, suits were still very expensive clothes.Yi Yao thought his father was very handsome that day. Standing on the podium, Yi Yao looked towards the auditorium against the light. She saw Dad kept wiping his eyes, and then clapped desperately. Yi Yao suddenly cried on stage. and also. there are more.And more and more and more. But these have nothing to do with me. Those long and dim days rolled back towards the sea like waves, finally revealing the beach of bones and remains.

twenty two Yi Yao held the four hundred yuan in his hand and stood in the darkness. Street lamps cast shadows on the ground, sideways. Yi Yao put the hair that was hanging in front of her behind her ears, she raised her head, and said, Dad, I'm leaving.I will pay you back the money as soon as possible. She turned around and pushed the car away. As soon as she took a step, tears flowed out. "Yi Yao," the father behind him stopped him. Yi Yao turned around and looked at his father standing in the backlight. "Dad, is there anything else? "Don't come to me if you have nothing to do in the future. Your Aunt Liu is not happy... After all, I have my own home. If you have anything to do, just call me and tell me, ah."

Quiet around. There were one or two scattered snowflakes floating overhead. Are there more sad things?Why don't we come together. This time, I couldn't even shed tears.Eye sockets are like dry holes.I can't wait to knead a ball of snow into it, turn it into water, and flow out to pretend to be sad. Yi Yao stood where he was, anger taking root under his feet.Those tender fantasies about his father accumulated in his heart were shattered into eleven million pieces at this moment.It was as if a piece of glass had been broken, and all the fragments and residues were blocked at the mouth of the sewer, unable to be removed, they rushed up together with a strong stench.

It stinks. Rotten. Those emotions inside. turned into hate.became a pain.Turned into a grievance.It turned into dense thorny vines, piercing every cell in the heart, and devouring the body like Cordyceps sinensis. I used to be the treasure in your hands, and I was also the jewel in your palm who praised everyone non-stop, and you also told me those stories before going to bed, why now I have become redundant, like a virus Same, hide from me, will you die if you don't hide?Am I the plague? Yi Yao held the money in his hand, wishing it could fall on his face. "Yi Jiayan, listen, I was born by you, so don't even try to get rid of me. Just like my mother, she is also like you, wishing to get rid of me and even wishing for me to die, but, I told you You, since you and her gave birth to me, you two don't even think about asking me." Yi Yao kicked up the bicycle's kickstand, "Don't even think about it for the rest of your life!"

Father's face quickly flushed red from these words, and he trembled slightly, "Yi Yao! How did you become like this!" Yi Yao sneered, and she said, "I have a better look, you haven't seen it, you will come to see me and my mother someday, and you will know what I look like." After speaking, Yi Yao got on the bike and left. After riding for a few meters, she braked suddenly and there was a long brake mark on the ground. She turned her head and said, "How did I become like this... You should know best Shouldn't you be asking yourself?" twenty three

When I was in the first year of junior high school, there was a small stall selling roast mutton in front of the school, and men wearing Xinjiang hats were there every day. At that time, almost all the girls in the school ate it.But Yi Yao didn't. Because Yi Yao has no pocket money. But she also refused to ask her mother. Then one day, she picked up five yuan on the side of the road, and when all the schoolmates had gone home, she quietly ran to buy five skewers by herself. After she took the first bite, she squatted down and cried, covering her mouth. This is something that has long since disappeared from memory.But on the way home, he was remembered again.The heartache at that time returned to my heart like a mountain and sea this night.

The snow in the sky is falling more and more.After a while, it became a vast expanse of whiteness. Yi Yao couldn't help speeding up his feet, the car skidded on the snow, and he rode back home crookedly. I couldn't tell whether it was snow or tears on my face, but it must be dirty.Yi Yao reached out and wiped it again and again, feeling sticky and greasy. Leave the car at the entrance of the alley.Run towards the door of the house. Hands shivering with cold took out the key, inserted it into the hole, opened the door, and the room was pitch black. Yi Yao breathed a sigh of relief, turned around and closed the door, turned around, and a sudden slap in the dark hit her face loudly.

"You still know how to come back? Why don't you die and go outside!" twenty four In the darkness, Yi Yao remained motionless, not even making a sound. Lin Huafeng turned on the light, and under the light, the red finger marks on Yi Yao's face jumped on the retina. "Are you dumb? You talk!" Another slap. Yi Yao didn't stand still and fell towards the door. She still didn't move. After a while, Yi Yao's shoulder twitched twice.She said, Mom, will you find me when you see that I'm missing? "Looking for you?" Lin Huafeng's voice rose an octave, "You'd better die outside, I won't care about you, you'd better die and don't come to me!" That heartache.Stretches over the temples.There was a dull pain in the place where it had just been hit. In just one hour, my father said to himself, don't come to me. My mother said to herself, don't come to me even if you die. Yi Yao touched his stomach and said in his heart, you are stupid, why did you come to me. Yi Yao supported the wall and stood up. She wiped the snow from her forehead, and when she put her hand down, she realized it was blood. She said, Mom, I won't look for anyone in the future.I'm not looking for you, and I'm not looking for my dad either.I'm left to fend for myself. "You went to find your father?" Lin Huafeng's eyes suddenly darkened like candles blown out by the wind. Yi Yao said "En", and just raised his head, before he could see clearly, he felt Lin Huafeng rushing towards him, pulling his hair like crazy and bumping towards the wall. Qi Ming turned on the light in the room and sat up from the bed. The sound of Yi Yao's house came from outside the window.He opened the window, and the cold air poured into the house like a hurricane.Come in together with the screams of the people on the opposite side. Lin Huafeng's voice echoed sharply in the narrow corridor of the alley. "You bitch! Go find him! You think he wants you! You bitch!" "What's so good about that man? Huh? Get out! Get out! Get out! Go to him, why are you still dead!" There is also Yi Yao's voice, crying, all the voices have only one word, sad, painful, angry, begging for mercy, shouting "Mom—" Qi Ming sat on the bed, his temples hurt like needles. 25 In fact, no matter how long and cold the night is.Those rays of light, those sunrises, and those morning fogs will all come on time. In such a world, the antennas staggered overhead will not change.The cramped alleys will not change. Someone will always turn the wrong tap in the shared kitchen. The smell of oily smoke and soy milk will be embedded in the growth rings and become a mark of life. Just like every morning, Qi Ming would meet Yi Yao. Qi Ming looked at the scars on her forehead and face, and felt as if she had knocked over a water glass.The water flooded over the heart, chest, and to every lower part of the body, accumulating into puddles, reflecting tiny pains. He passed the schoolbag, took out the milk, and handed it to Yi Yao. The hand that was handed over stopped in the air, and no one came to pick it up. Qi Ming raised his head, and Yi Yao in front of him suddenly collapsed like a hill collapsed in the summer rain, and fell to the side as if he had lost his support. She fell hard against the wall, sliding her face against the rough brickwork to the ground. The blood wiped out was left on the wall, which was a striking red. The morning light flooded in from the entrance of the alley. The girl shining on the ground, and the frozen boy. The world was silent. I will not look for anyone in the future.I am not looking for you.Not looking for my dad either.I'm left to fend for myself. third time 26 I don't know where the bell sounded.ringing back and forth. But it doesn't have the remoteness and sorrow in the poems.Only dullness and boredom remain, going back and forth regularly.hit the eardrum.Send dull pain to the scalp. open your eyes. Filaments of white light seep through the gaps in the undrawn curtains.All the surrounding furnishings are highlighted with white and fuzzy outlines. It looked like it was almost noon. Contrary to time is the gravity on the eyelids, like being pressed by a bed of cotton wool, unable to open them, and feeling aching when they close them.The light swept back and forth over the eyes like a rough brush, and tears flowed after a few blinks. Yi Yao turned over, and felt a tingling sensation in his left temple. "It should have scratched the skin." Thinking this way, I raised my right hand to touch it, only to feel the discomfort of being involved.Looking down, there are several white adhesive tapes staggered back and forth on the back of the hand.There is a needle stuck underneath.Continuously pouring cold liquid into his body.The hard needle stuck in the blood vessel can be clearly felt, and when the fingers are bent, it seems to be pierced from the back of the hand. The plastic hose was facing upwards from the back of the hand, and was gently dangling back and forth by the wind from nowhere. One-third of the transparent liquid remained in the upside-down drip bottle that was connected.Bubbles are slowly and steadily rising from the mouth of the bottle. rise.puff.broken. The figure of the boy on the right looked at him quietly in the sunlight. The voice is as gentle as a pool of 37-degree water. "you're awake." They say that putting your hands in 37-degree water can actually feel the heat.Not completely unconscious. Yi Yao raised her head, Qi Ming closed the physics textbook in her hand, bent down, and looked at the back of her hand.Checked it was not swollen. His eyes are like the lonely winter outside the window. The whistling white light.Shows a slight sense of tenderness in the cold.Cover the body layer by layer. "The doctor said you are malnourished and hypoglycemic." Qi Ming stood up, walked to the low cabinet in the corner of the room and stopped, picked up the thermos and poured water into the cup, the heat was bubbling up, condensed into white mist, and floated in the air. In the distance of his eyes, "That's why I fainted in the morning. But it's not a big problem. You can leave after transfusion of this bottle of glucose." Qi Ming walked over with the water, and the few rays of light in the gaps in the curtains swayed past him.He took the water in the glass, blew on it for a while, and then handed it to Yi Yao. "Are you and your mother fighting again?" Yi Yao forced himself to sit up without answering, enduring the inconvenience in his hands, took the water, and drank in a muffled voice with his head down. Qi Ming looked at her and didn't ask any further questions. "You drink water first, I'm going to the bathroom." Qi Ming got up and walked out of the ward. The door closes.The light is much dimmed. Forgot to turn on the light.Or it was turned off on purpose. In fact, there is no difference. All that remained were the light gray outlines of various objects, and the hot air from the cup when I breathed, splashing wetly on my face, like an even layer of thin tears.The stiff presence of the needle in the blood vessel on the back of the hand was very real on the skin. Yi Yao bent his fingers repeatedly, experiencing the pain of the needles in the blood vessels again and again like masochistic. It's as real as a dream. Fog and tears. In fact, there is no difference. 27 After Qi Ming went to the toilet, he took out a few prescription receipts from his pocket, and turned around to go to the toll booth.After searching for a long time, I looked up in the corner of the first floor and saw a painted sign with the words "toll office" written on it. Stretching the receipt through the hole-like place, a pale hand stretched out from the long sleeve of the clothes, took it, and tapped a bunch of blue stamps feebly, "Three hundred and seventy yuan. "No one could be seen, only a sickly female voice came from inside. "Why is it so expensive? It's just a bottle of glucose and a small bottle of medicine." Qi Ming touched the money in his pocket.Inquired in a low voice. "You ask the doctor what I'm doing? It's not the medicine I prescribed for you. It's strange to beat you. You can hand it over! People are queuing up behind." The woman's high-pitched voice sounded a bit like Lin Huafeng. Qi Ming frowned, and really wanted to tell her that there was no one queuing up behind her, so he was alone.Later I thought about it and held back.Take out the money and hand it in. A handful of receipts and loose change were thrown out of the hole, and the coins slammed into the metal grooves for a while. Qi Ming put the money away and carefully put it in his pocket. After taking two steps, I turned my head and said into the window hole, there is no one in line behind me, I am the only one.After speaking, he turned and left.The calm expression is like an ink painting, floating shallowly in the dimly lit corridor. The woman's high-pitched voice came from behind, "There is something wrong with Nong's brain..." The door of the doctor's office was ajar. When Qi Ming walked to the door, he heard the conversation of two doctors inside.Mixed with the vulgarity of the market, there are also some dirty topics about women.From time to time, the heart-comprehensive laughter came out, like laughing from his throat through a mouthful of phlegm. Qi Ming frowned, his eyes became more three-dimensional under the light.In the sunken eye sockets, the light seems to be thrown into a black pool, and no sporadic light can be reflected, and it sucks like a black hole. "Doctor, Yi Yao...it's the girl who is getting an IV in the outpatient clinic. What kind of medicine is she getting? It's quite expensive." Qi Ming stood in the light, his outline blurred into a circle by the light. The doctor who just prescribed the medicine stopped, turned back to look at Qi Ming, with a strange smile squeezed on the corner of his mouth, "Young man, that bottle of nutrient solution is only two hundred and sixty yuan. Plus other Miscellaneous fees, outpatient fees, how can they be very expensive." He paused, his smile changed into a look that made Qi Ming uncomfortable, and he continued, "Besides, the little girl is just in need of compensation now, how can you feel sorry for this? As for money, there will still be places where money will be used in the future, how can she resist it with her body." Qi Ming raised his head abruptly, and understood the doctor's implication in his meaningful eyes. Seeing his comprehended expression, the doctor stopped covering it up, raised his eyebrows, looked him up and down interestingly, and asked, "Is it yours?" Qi Ming didn't say anything, turned around, opened the door and walked out.The doctor raised his voice from behind and said: "Young man, you are too young, you should be careful. Our hospital can also do it, so don't go to other hospitals. I will go to the gynecology department to say hello, and I will take care of you... ..." Qi Ming stepped out.There is only one aunt mopping the floor in the empty corridor. Behind him came the low laughter of the two doctors. Qi Ming walked over, sideways to pass by his aunt, and jumped over with his feet on the mop.He raised his head and was about to say "sorry" when he met the eyes rolled up to him. "Oh, I'm going to die, I just mopped the ground, help me cut it." The wet ground gave off a strong smell of disinfectant. 28 --is yours? 29 When Qi Ming entered the room, the nurse was helping Yi Yao pull out the needle on the back of his hand.Roughly tearing off the tape, the needle was pulled high from the skin, and Yi Yao's face wrinkled in pain. "Take it easy." Qi Ming walked over, feeling the impoliteness in his tone, and added, "Okay?" The nurse didn't even look at him, pulled the needle outward, quickly pressed a cotton swab onto the blood vessel in the upper part of the needle hole, said coldly, "Why are you so delicate", and turned to look at Qi Ming , "Hold her down." Qi Ming walked over and reached out to press the cotton swab. "Sit down for a while and leave. Don't leave anything behind." Put away the plastic syringe and bottle, the nurse turned and left the ward. Yi Yao reached out and pressed the cotton swab, "I'll do it myself." Qi Ming nodded and said, then I will pack my things.He got up and put his physics book on the bedside table into his schoolbag, as well as Yi Yao's schoolbag.There was still thick dust on it when it fell, Qi Ming stretched out his hand and patted it, the dust floated quietly in the sparse rays of light. "Did you spend a lot of money?" Yi Yao rubbed his hands, loosened the cotton swab, and it seemed that there was no more blood coming out of the needle's eye.There is a tingling sensation on the back of the hand.The slightly swollen back of the hand looked bloodless under the light. "It's okay. It's not very expensive." Qi Ming took the coat from the stool, carried both of their schoolbags on his shoulders, and said, "Let's go after resting." Yi Yao continued rubbing his hands, lowered his head, and couldn't see his expression in the backlight. "I'll try to pay you back." Qi Ming didn't answer, and stood quietly. After a while, he said, well, whatever you want. A drop of blood came out of the needle hole on the back of his hand, and Yi Yao reached out to wipe it away, leaving a pale yellow mark on the back of his hand. But immediately a bigger one popped up. Yi Yao pressed the cotton swab onto the blood vessel again. 30 twelve o'clock.Several doctors and nurses carrying lunch boxes walked around the hospital. The ward is filled with the aroma of various meals. Walking out of the hospital gate, Yi Yao walked down the steps slowly.Qi Ming walked a few steps ahead of her.With his head down, he and his schoolbag were on his back.Occasionally look back, look at yourself in the sunlight, and then turn around again. The sunlight almost swallowed his back completely.The black silhouette in the backlight has precipitated a sad outline. Yi Yao looked up at the sky, and saw a few lonely clouds standing motionless in the sky.