Chapter 5 The most meaningful life - 12 months before the college entrance examination

The most meaningful life - 12 months before the college entrance examination At 6:30 in the morning, when we came out of the camping base, C asked me: "What was the best at the party yesterday?" I said, "You are the best." He immediately moved back After a jump, I put my hands on A's shoulders, and said, "Don't do it." I said, "Yes, you are the prettiest." Then A said to C: "She You must feel very boring, very unhappy, very boring." I gave him a look and said: "Yah, why am I unhappy?" He said: "No. I see you sitting in the open air without any expression. If a person Even sitting in the open air with no expression, what does that mean?"

God knows when A sees me with no expression at all.Last night I clapped so much, yelled so much, gossiped so much, why was it boring? I said, "Bah! When you were singing that night in the suburbs of so-and-so, I kept giving You take pictures." C leaned over in surprise and said, "Did you take pictures?" I said, "Yeah." The whole class lost their voices last night.Everyone probably knew that this was going to be the last so-called class activity before class placement, so everyone was extraordinarily active, positive, enthusiastic, excited, agitated, irrational, elated, delirious—you name it.This hot scene is indeed worth a photo.This class is so energetic.Walking up and down vigorously, singing vigorously, laughing vigorously, clapping hands vigorously, dragging people up, cheering, throwing half-drunk beer cans to and fro, with extraordinary vigor.We are at the camping base, on the fourth day of the summer vacation of the second year of high school, in the open air, but we have neither sky nor land. , Swinging in the air full of roast duck aroma.

When A was singing "Night in the Suburbs of Moscow", B and I were sitting by the side to watch.I just sat there and took a picture of A from the same angle. A is wearing a blue T-shirt. I can't tell what kind of blue it is. In short, it is a very, very blue kind of blue.I looked at A in this kind of blue, wondering why he looks so good in this kind of blue.He was like a blue flag, weightless, waving in the wind amid the singing of "Evening on the outskirts of Moscow." B said, hey hey, pay attention.I said, what are you doing? She smiled viciously and said, why are you looking at Xiangmeicheng with shining eyes? Get the clothes. B laughed wickedly again, and said, bah.So I stopped ringing—a smart person like B always takes other people's words seriously.After sitting for a while, B stood up and said, "Now I won't prevent you from looking fierce. I will also sing, and I will sing Soviet songs too."So she left.

After sitting for a while, A came over after singing, and sat on the spot where B was sitting just now.I deliberately clapped my hands to show him, and he said solemnly: "Don't laugh at me!" Then he said: "Are you bored?" I looked at him in surprise.This is already the third time he asked this question today—why does he think so? I said fiercely: "Fart!" However, A didn't shout anything "Oh, little girl don't want fart", but just meant He took a long look at me, then turned his head to appreciate B who was singing.I looked at his back like a blue flag, and suddenly realized that the surroundings were already very dark, really extremely black—although they hung lights on the trees, the blue side of A was too blue. Against the background of the national flag, the surrounding area is already very dark.

A has been admiring B's singing, and I have been admiring A's blue dress.He didn't look back, and suddenly said out of the blue: "So drooping." I was stunned.He turned around and said, "I planned this group event. I'm ashamed of you being so downcast!" I was stunned when I heard him speak.The summer night wind blows on my face, probably because there are too many people here, and the wind is full of human smells—there is also the smell of A? The smell of A should be something like blue. I said, "Xiangmeicheng, you have a strong sense of responsibility." A laughed, shook his head, and said triumphantly, "Do you know? If this kind of collective activity is planned, a human head will be scrapped. My head—— —Here, this is it,”—he pointed to his head—“to give it here as a souvenir, lest it die without a place to die. It’s useless for me to keep it—it’s scrapped.” I frown at him. Xiaorou smiled without a smile.He asked me: "Hey, on the day of the college entrance examination, do you want to play all night like today?" "Like today?" I sighed and said, "How can it be like today?" After tonight, everyone here We have to go our separate ways, rushing to the examination room, the arena, the arena, and the battlefield one by one, fighting to the death - how can it still be like today? A ignored me and said happily: "We have discussed it, and we are preparing for the end of the college entrance examination. Then organize ten people to go to Dunhuang. The candidates have been decided, and you are also included." I wanted to laugh, but I didn't.I turned my head away slightly, just as F's grinning face flashed past my eyes.I watched her go by and saw she started singing with B.There was a hustle and bustle all around.

I asked A: "Who did you discuss with?" He said, there is XX, XX, XX.He said: "Will you go, you?" I still want to laugh a little - they talk about going to Dunhuang, it's as simple as going to People's Square.I said, "Of course I can go. It's better to go with the whole class like today." I straightened my back and watched the other forty or so people in the open space singing, laughing and bragging under the night.It was indeed a beautiful night, and a lot of fun. A sat with me without moving.After sitting like this for a long time, his old problem started again. He raised his head and began to observe the sky, and continued to observe.I have nothing to do around.Tonight, I am very content with this state of having nothing to do, I am really happy, it is rare to be able to confidently and confidently have nothing to do - really happy.I was wasting time tragically, wasting my young life.I sat with A tragically. A this person... this person.

After staying like this for an unknown amount of time, he suddenly stretched out his arms and said excitedly: "Ah! Airplane!" It was a plane that flew by and drew a diagonal line in the sky.What I saw was not the plane, but a few lights on the plane.I said, "Why are you so interested in airplanes?" A watched those few lights that were neither red nor green fascinated away, disappeared, and never returned, and then said slowly: "Wait someday there will be one." Money, I must buy a plane and fly to Paris by myself.” I listened to his nonsense without paying attention, and kept quiet—who would pay attention to his words.It's just that A is getting excited.He was sitting next to me, there was a plane in the sky thousands of miles away, and a few meters away, many people were drinking and going crazy-he just started talking about how he yearned for Paris, how good Paris is, he said He went bankrupt and wanted to go to Paris once, and said that he would take me to Paris when he got rich.I immediately said, yes yes yes.However, this does not mean that I do not doubt that he will know me by then.

There must have been a lot of other people in my class who made the same type of commitment as A's bullshit that night.It has something to do with the wine we drink.But there seems to be something else besides the alcohol.Hard to say. After drinking, A looks like an old man, talking about everything with pleasure.In the end, many people went to sleep, and one or two people were singing loudly; as for A, he was still sitting there, holding a wine bottle in his hand, chatting endlessly.Around A, in the small gaps between the dirt and bricks, countless small bugs chattered with him. A is wearing a T-shirt like a blue flag,

White trousers and black lacquered NIKE shoes, he stood up and took a few steps before falling to the ground, waving his hands, like a king of insects. Leaving the lakeside of the camping base is at half past six in the morning.Everyone else walked faster than me, and I dragged myself slowly. A and C are waiting for me at the gate.As the car started, desperation seized me and choked me so hard I couldn't cry.Physics or history? I have a summer deadline to choose. B sat next to me and was still singing. A turned his back to look at the smaller and smaller camping base, and shouted: "Ah, what a masterpiece! This event is really a masterpiece!" Everyone in the car followed him and shouted, C also called, B also called, I do too.We screamed out of our wits with the last milliliter of alcohol.I personally think that shouting is the best idea in A's planning this time.

Once again when I was walking with A on one of the thousands of annoying streets in this city, A asked me what he said yesterday.I said: what? Nothing.If he doesn't believe it, he must know.I could only sigh, and honestly said: "You said you were going to Paris and you would take me there. You said you could park planes on both sides of the Champs-Elysées. You said you wanted to buy an airplane. You also said, you The factory where I went to learn engineering in the social practice last time was very interesting. You will take me to play in the future. You said that the factory is like a paradise, and all the work looks very comfortable. It looks like it is about to close down inside and out, but the benefits are passable. You feel so happy inside, and you say that you hope they don’t close the door or rectify it when you take me to play next time, otherwise it’s so boring. You also said that after the college entrance examination You want to take me to Dunhuang to play. Anyway, you always want to take me somewhere, as if it is easy for me to bring you around."

When I was talking, A was laughing all the time, and then he laughed so much that he even dropped his schoolbag on his shoulder—first it fell on his hand, and then "slapped" to the ground.I said vigilantly: "What are you doing?" He smiled and said: "I adore myself, what are you doing?" Then he couldn't wait to ask me: "What else can I say?" I thought about it and told him: "You said, God Things like this are designed to make people worry about wind and rain and whether they will collapse. Things like the ground are designed to make people afraid of earthquakes and magma and whether they will crack. Things like time are designed to make people feel sorry. I am sorry for my country and the whole universe. But tonight we have no land for five days and no time, so we can be very happy." A laughed and laughed, and finally said: "But this night is still over." Later we saw a film being made on the side of the road.I don’t know what the movie is about, and I don’t know the actors. I just saw water trucks spraying water, causing it to rain, and there were several banners on the buildings, which read: "Celebrate the liberation of Shanghai." A leaned close to my ear Said: "Did you see? Today is the liberation of Shanghai, you have to be careful. If you have a bitter face, people will arrest you." I said: "Fart!" A said: "Oh, I said it a hundred and eight thousand times , don’t be fart.” I grinned and grinned.Anyway, the night is over. A said: "Are you really bored now?" I nodded.He said: "What do you want to do now? Where do you want to go? I will take you to do it." I said I don't know.he sighed.I couldn't stop him from sighing.There are too many places he wants to take me: Dunhuang for a while, a factory like a paradise for a while, Paris for a while, and I can go wherever I want. A takes me to the station.I said, is it okay to walk another stop? He said, no, no, today is absolutely impossible, no matter what, I have to go back to get some sleep.I said, didn’t you say take me to where I want to go? He smiled, is the stop ahead the place you want to go? Or is your home the place you want to go? When I heard it, I became even more disheartened stand up.We stood silently waiting for the car, and suddenly I quietly ran a little farther away, eager to see A flying like the bluest and bluest flag.I stared at him hard, trying to get this blue color to stick in my heart--what a blue, so bright that it sings.I thought: Well, it is really worth living for him. The car came staggeringly, making such a crashing sound and so loud, it was like a chariot. A said: "Go home and discuss with your family what to choose, call me. Find a place to read carefully, do you understand?" I didn't ring.He stuffed me with a one-yuan coin. When I got home, I sat down.Mom asked: Are you happy? I said: Happy.Mom said: I see you are unhappy.The joy of mother understanding is kicking open the door, yelling, shouting and laughing, and dictating every minute and every second including the time, minutes and seconds to go to the bathroom.I don't.I said: eat.After eating, I went to take a shower and cried while taking a shower.I'm not unhappy, I've never been so happy - we sat there talking, talking, singing, some of these people, some of these people, playing for hours and hours, and drinking, and Drunk... But now, the camping base is gone, the night is gone, the blue flag is gone, the plane is long gone, and I'm sitting as far away from the booze as possible. There was an incident that night, maybe it happened when I was a little drunk, and I couldn't tell if it was real or just a dream.But I kept thinking of that scene repeatedly—the surroundings were already very quiet, everyone was in a daze, and A and I were walking up and down on the gravel ground arm in arm.The street lights are far away and high, and the lights make the shadows on the ground infinitely long.A and I walked on this empty ground, trying to make the shadow on the ground look like a person walking—two bodies joined together, two pairs of feet walking at the same pace, so intoxicated and enjoying ourselves Walked for a long, long time.At that time, there was no moon, there were only a few stars, and there were big and big clouds in the sky, with bumps and bumps.Let's go, go, go, go, go.