Chapter 3 The first part Mo Xingxing-3

"Are you going to hit someone?" Jiang Lan shook her wet hair and said with a funny expression, "I'm warning you, I'm not afraid of anyone." My hand was already up, but someone grabbed it. "Don't get your hands dirty." It was Mi Sha. Jiang Lan looked up to the sky and laughed, clapped her hands and said, "Look, everyone, this is really a touching scene of husband and wife singing together." Just when I couldn't restrain the urge to beat people, I saw him. He followed behind the little braid, walking towards the door of the classroom in a hurry and anxiously.

I immediately lost my mind. They approached quickly, and the little pigtail waved to me and said, "Mo Xingxing, come here, your father is here to look for you." He took a big step forward, grabbed my hand, and dragged me to the playground. I followed his footsteps obediently, because I couldn't resist, and resisting would only make me feel more humiliated.He dragged me all the way to the school gate without saying a word, opened his car door, and forced me in. "What are you doing?" I yelled at him. "I haven't asked you what you want to do. You can read so many tricks for me by reading a book. I don't think you need to read it. Just go home with me, so as not to embarrass yourself outside!"

His words hurt me completely, and I really wanted to die.But I couldn't admit defeat. I held my head up and told myself that if I don't cry, I just don't cry. Xu Lin ran out of the school at this moment.She opened the car door and asked him, "Where are you taking Xingxing?" He doesn't speak. "Can you calm down?" Xu Lin said, "Things are not what you imagined." My helplessness has no place to hide in front of them.My tears finally flowed down uncontrollably. Disgraceful, he was not wrong at all. I jumped out of his car, Xu Lin grabbed me and said, "Wake up, talk to Aunt Xu, okay?" I broke free from her and ran forward desperately, and he started the car and came after me.How could my two legs run faster than his car, he stopped in front of me, I had no choice but to turn around and run back, who knew I was stopped by Xu Lin again.He came forward, squeezed my arm hard, gritted his teeth and said, "Tomorrow I will transfer you to another school!"

"No!" I yelled, tilted my head in desperation, and opened my mouth to bite his hand that pinched my arm. He must have been in great pain, but he didn't let go of me. When I looked up, I saw him A tear from the corner of my eye.It fell to the ground quickly and silently. It was really a tear, and I think I read it absolutely right. I swayed, trying to steady myself.Xu Lin supported me and said to him: "Calm down, I'll find a place for you father and daughter to have a good chat, okay?" Ten minutes later, he and I sat in Xu Lin's office, 207, Administration Building.Xu Lin poured a cup of hot water for each of us, closed the door for us, and went out.

He was sitting on the sofa by the wall, and I was sitting on Xu Lin's office chair. We sat opposite each other for several minutes, and it was he who spoke first."It's not that I don't believe you," he said. I asked him back, "Then what do you mean?" "This is something I never thought would happen," he said. "The school called me and said something like that. What do you call me a father?" "I want to go back to class, and I won't change schools." I stood up and said, "You can do whatever you want, it has nothing to do with me!"

"What's your attitude!" He got angry. "Let me tell you, I will not accept the crimes imposed on me. If you don't believe me, if you are exactly like those hateful people, then well, you can wait to collect my body!" I put down With these harsh words, he opened the door of the office and left decisively. I calmly returned to the classroom, and calmly attended the day's class under the eyes of everyone.I even performed supernormally and answered a super difficult question asked by the math teacher.Mi Sha wrote me a note in history class, and there were only four words on the note: Those who clean up clean up themselves.

I know we are all suffering. But I, a child who grew up in the dark, was destined to be no stronger than Mi Sha, and I fell ill that night.I was hungry like an empty city, so I lied to Mi Sha that I was going home to get things, and ran to a fast food restaurant outside the school, and asked for countless things to pack back to school.I urgently need food to solve my inner troubles and anxiety.I carried the two big plastic bags and looked for a place where I could digest them safely. I remembered the small hill where I met Jiang Lan and Mi Li last time. It was very cold there now, so no one would go there.I almost ran all the way there, opened the bag, took out the food, and stuffed it into my mouth without thinking.

I ate wildly, thinking that I didn't know what to do, and crying.I half-kneeled there, carrying the jelly, and ate everything. When there were only two empty and tattered plastic bags on the ground, I stood up and staggered back to the dormitory. Misha is not there.Maybe it was rehearsal again. I fell on the bed, pressed my face with a pillow, and forced myself to sleep. But of course I wasn't asleep.At around eight o'clock, my stomach pain erupted like a volcano, and I vomited up and down. When I had nothing to vomit, blood came out of my mouth. Wu You and Li Yan opened the door and came in, I heard their screams, and then I didn't know anything.

I was taken to the hospital again. But this time, my dad didn't know.When I woke up, I saw Mi Sha, and I was in a daze, so that her appearance didn't seem real.I tried to smile at her, and asked her: "What is fate, Mi Sha?" She thought for a while and answered me: "Fate is that I thought I walked a long way, but it turned out to be still in place." "Besides, the place is full of people, and they are all laughing at your stupidity." I quickly accepted her words, then slowly sat up with support, looked up at my infusion bottle, followed the thin transparent tube, I slowly saw my pale and cold hand quickly pull out my infusion tube.

Then I covered Mi Sha's mouth to prevent her from screaming.We all clearly saw that the blood on the back of my hand instantly splashed out like a tiny fountain and landed on the white quilt. I didn't have the slightest fear, I heard myself softly say to Mi Sha in a begging tone: "Don't talk, Mi Sha. Don't let them in, please." After finishing speaking, I raised my bloody hand, shook it to her, and said, "Don't save me, I'm hopeless." Then I passed out again. When I woke up again, I saw Xu Lin, Mi Sha and Lu Li. Xu Lin patted my forehead and said: "It's okay, wake up. The doctor said to observe again, and you can go back to school for class."

I look around.Xu Lin said with interest: "Don't worry, I didn't tell your father." I breathed a sigh of relief. Mi Sha stepped forward, with tears in her eyes, she pressed her warm palm against my cheek, and said softly, "Wake up, it's good that you're fine, God knows how worried I am." "Sorry." I said. "Don't say I'm sorry." Her tears fell and fell onto my blood-stained white sheet. "Between good friends, there is never a need to say sorry." Lu Li also stepped forward: "Mo Xingxing, don't worry, Teacher Xu has already stood up and clarified for you. The IP of the person who posted maliciously was also found out, and he posted it in an Internet cafe near our school." .You don't have to worry about it any more. Just forget about it, okay?" I saw Mi Sha turn her head and smile at Lu Li with tears in her eyes. The campus news changes every day. When I returned to school, everyone was already interested in things like "Lu Li fell in love with the leading female number one, Mi Sha", and the matter of the broken back was left alone. Jiang Lan lost this battle miserably. At noon that day, we ate in the cafeteria with Mi Sha. Halfway through the meal, Lu Li also joined in. "Actually, no one else is wrong. I figured it out too," Mi Sha put a piece of chicken into his mouth, "God is fair! It's just that some people have to wait to get it!" Just after finishing speaking, due to excessive excitement, Her chicken rolled out of her mouth. "Hehe," Lu Li laughed at her, "How does it feel to have slipped your tongue?" Mi Sha's face was flushed, and she still said, "No way! It's just that the chicken is too hard." Lu Li suddenly put a piece of chicken in his own bowl and put it in my bowl.Misha and I looked at him in surprise. "Do you want a piece too, student Mi Sha? My chicken isn't too hard." Lu Li said to Mi Sha with a smile. "Cut!" Mi Sha rolled her eyes and tried her best to chop the rice. After dinner, we met Xu Lin on the playground.She stopped, pulled me aside with a smile and said, "Are you going home this weekend?" I looked at her with some incomprehension. "Don't forget, your father's birthday is coming soon." After saying this, she walked away. I looked at her back. Maybe I still owe her a thank you.Maybe there are many people in this world, but they are not as annoying as we imagined.Just occasionally doing something wrong. November 29th is his birthday. In fact, Xu Lin didn't need to remind me. As early as a month ago, I drew a line on the calendar. The 29th is Saturday.In the afternoon, I packed up some things, carried the bag on my back, put it down again, carried it up again, and put it down again.There are only Misha and me in the dormitory.She was reciting words, turned to me and said, "What are you doing?" "Go home." I said, "Is your play rehearsed today?" "Row." Mi Sha clenched his fists and said, "It's the sprint stage, we will definitely do it." "I'll be back today." In order to wait for his text message to make a decision.I missed a bus on purpose. Fortunately, he got back to me before it was too late: "Okay. I'll do the grocery shopping." "it is good". I buy food at the same window every day. My aunt knows me, and when she sees me, she will say, "Oh, scrambled eggs with tomatoes." Then she turns around and puts a spoonful of scrambled eggs with tomatoes into my bowl. Mi Sha said, if I continue to eat like this, even if I don't experience taste fatigue, she will almost have visual fatigue. Oh, maybe, next month, I will try to fall in love with another dish.Things are always getting better, I would like to believe. It was near evening when I got home. In the evening at the end of November, the sky was blue-purple.I still feel cold in my only red scarf.When I was still some distance away from home, I looked up and saw the lights in the kitchen.Warm yellow lights.The windows are frosted, so only the outline of a person walking back and forth can be seen clearly. A slightly hunched profile.walk around.I seem to hear the sound of "wow, zi--".It seems to hear the sound of the bowl touching the table and the sound of running water from the faucet, followed by the scent of sweet and sour fish in the range hood. That was when I was in the sixth grade of elementary school, and I was hungry every day.The sense of smell has become extremely sensitive, and I can often smell the aroma of food when I am downstairs.At that time, he did not work overtime often and never traveled on business.Come home on time every night to cook for me.I will not be ashamed to eat three bowls of rice in front of him.He thought that was when I grew up.Therefore, I often help me to serve my meals actively. In fact, I will put breakfast in my school bag and save it for dinner, but I will not eat lunch at all.All this, he had never known before.The combination of sounds and smells that seem to be far away and near at hand suddenly makes me feel very tired and wants to go home. I quicken my steps towards my home. The door is open. He poked his head out of the kitchen alertly: "Wash your hands, there is still half an hour before dinner." I said, "Oh." I walked into my room and put down my schoolbag.Then go downstairs and turn on the TV.entertainment news on the air.Several messages were about Jiang Yaxi. Jiang Yaxi held a press conference to clarify the scandal; Jiang Yaxi attended the book signing event; Jiang Yaxi's mainland FANS group members went to Hong Kong to cheer for their concert. etc. Jiang Yaxi's face was as white as transparent, and she signed with a smile while holding a gold pen, which was really elegant.Anyway, she looks much more pleasing to the eye than her cousin Jiang Lan. I was in a daze when he stood behind me in an apron and said, "It's time to eat." He cooked a table.The small dining table is covered with food.I said, "Would you like some wine?" He shook the things in his hand and said, "Red wine." "Did you drink red wine instead?" I asked again. "There's only red wine left." He was a little embarrassed, opened the lid of the wine and said, "Have some?" I stretched my five fingers to cover the bowl and said, "I just drink water." He didn't force it. I finally looked up at him carefully. In fact, I hadn't seen him for a long time, but it seemed like a long time since I saw him. I felt that he was getting old again.Gray hair seems to be much more than last time. "How about it, isn't the fish delicious?" We sat opposite each other, he picked up a piece of fish and tasted it himself, and said intoxicatedly: "Not bad." I also took a piece and put it in my mouth, and couldn't help but say, "I bought it from the store." "Haha," he laughed, "I didn't hide it from you, but I'm also one of the chefs. It's just that I'm in charge of heating. Haha." I laughed too. He took another sip of his wine and said, "Are you still used to living in school? Do you need to buy some more winter clothes? If necessary, I will buy them for you. The cold air is coming soon." I said, "No, I can handle it." He picked up a chopstick of meat for me and said, "I really did this." I took a small bite, and he put ginger in it.When Bai Ran was around, he would fish out all the ginger and throw it away after cooking the meat.Because when Bai Ran sees ginger, he no longer wants to eat.In order to save her appetite, he took great pains at that time.Except for fish, he can cook other dishes very well. I looked at the plate of braised pork, and stretched out my chopsticks to pick it in the bowl, but there was still no ginger in it. Perhaps picking out ginger has become his habit.Even if she is no longer there. Perhaps, Bai Ran still has a place in his heart.Hidden in the innermost place of his heart, even he himself may not know it. He finally said: "What happened last time was that Dad was too impulsive. I don't know much about it. The photos on the computer can be processed, so I blamed you. Don't blame Dad, Dad is uneducated. But the students in your school It’s too horrible, even thinking of such a thing.” "It's all right." I told him. He smiled at me.Some shyly touched the back of his head. This night, everything is quiet.It darkened quickly.One of the few normal meals I've had in my life.While Dad did the dishes, I climbed the stairs to the upstairs bathroom to shower. It's been a long time since I took a good look at myself in the mirror.The ribs stick out stubbornly.The clavicle is also protruding outside, which is a bit scary.Nails are very long.Hair is also growing.Single eyelid, heredity is natural.thin lips.small nose.It's all genetic.Only the forehead, broad, inherited from him.Two moles on the chin, brown, very close together.From a distance, it looks like a big mole, making the whole face restrained. Shower and shower. Wash away all the past and give yourself a new life.I closed my eyes under the hot water nozzle, and said silently in my heart, Bai Ran, my mother.When I need you most, you can't be by my side, so much pain has passed, can you bless my new life?Can? After taking a bath, Dad has not entered the room yet.He was writing something on the desk in the study. After hesitating for a long time, I knocked on his door and asked, "Would you like a glass of water?" "Oh," he looked up and saw me.I stood up straight, showing only half of my face to him. "No, you go to bed early." "That," I lost to myself, slipped my lips and said, "Happy birthday." "What did you say?" "Happy birthday, happy birthday." I have already passed through the study quickly and repeated twice aloud. "Maybe you should ask her to go clubbing, you know, you're not too old." He didn't answer me, maybe he was stunned, he stayed inside for a long time and didn't come out. I'm going to hide in my little attic and not interfere with his world.Passing by their room, I noticed the TV was still on, I thought about it, went in and turned it off. Save electricity.It's a habit I've developed since childhood. By the way, I secretly looked at the turned off TV in the mirror and stroked my wet hair.In fact, I am also a bit smug. When I was about to leave, my toes seemed to touch something, and it was cool.Bending down, it turned out to be a bunch of keys.I bent down to pick it up, but found that there seemed to be a square thing in the depths of the cabinet.When I pulled it out, I saw it was an iron box covered in dust. My first reaction was Jay Chou's "Peninsula Iron Box". I wrapped the box with a bath towel in a mysterious way, and quietly left Dad's room. I went up to the attic, sat on my little bed, and had a long fight in my head as to whether I should open it or not. It took me a dozen sheets of tissue paper before I wiped the surface clean.A smiling girl was vaguely drawn on the surface of the box. She had braided hair and a baby-fat face.Next to her face, in gold letters, read "Philippe Cake".It's clearly one of those cookie boxes from the 80s.Well, it should be their thing. My heart suddenly jumped: maybe it was a marriage certificate or something.Or maybe it's just an abandoned box containing half a box of moldy cakes that have turned to ashes. When I closed my eyes, I used my hands to separate the box and the lid. I opened my eyes, and there were no mice or bugs crawling out, only a stack of quiet yellow paper. I took one of the papers and tore it apart.It turned out to be a letter! first letter second letter... Nth letter: The time when the letter was signed was the anniversary of her death. It turned out that she was already ready to die.Saving people was just a coincidence. After reading all the letters, it was already midnight.All the letters are addressed to a man named Xin.Not signed.It was never sent either. Who the hell is Shin? I found a picture at the bottom of the box. At two o'clock in the morning, it suddenly began to rain heavily. In coastal cities in late autumn, it is indeed rare to see such rain.Accompanied by it, it seems that there is only the whistling wind in the typhoon season. Could it be that this year's winter really came so fast? I took out the hourglass that Misha had given me from my backpack.Untie the velvet tie, the sand drips, drips, like a string of invisible tears, endless, endless. I put all the stationery back into the box, closed the lid, stuffed it for a long time, and finally stuffed it into my schoolbag.I climbed onto the bed with bare cold feet.Wrap yourself in the same cold blanket. Then turn off the lights. I wrapped myself very tightly, holding that photo firmly in the palm of my hand, I wanted to tear it up, but for some reason, I still didn't tear it up.I just try to squeeze it into a ball in my hand.A group that couldn't be smaller.It's like shrinking all the filth and ugliness into one ball.After a while, I got up like crazy, hula opened the window, and the rain hit my face, turning into tears.I looked up at the dark night sky and cried like a dumb man. Xin, a man named Xin. He turned a mother into a cold-blooded devil. He made an ordinary woman mistakenly become a heroine admired by everyone. He gave her a poison, and he made her suffer from illness and mental torment day and night. What a great man he is.Great enough to control everything, disregarding life and death. I closed my eyes in despair—— Is this the gift you gave me as a newborn?Mother. If so, I want to tell you what a shameful gift it is.Enough to push me off the steepest cliff, and bury me in hell.Never wake up like you.