Chapter 4 Part II Misha-1

——And I will leave after all, flying like a kite to the very blue sky. My nightmares always come on rainy nights.It circled and repeated a thousand times, like a prophetic curse. I always dream of myself, in the shower. Thinly, from the scalp to the eyes, to the chin, to the neck, to the body, to the toes.I don't know why, I get so dirty, in a very dark place, I use a white sponge and rub myself constantly.Then at this moment, suddenly it was dawn.I was covered in dirty things and exposed to everyone, only then did I realize that I was standing at a crossroads.There was a lot of traffic and bustling, and people looked at me with hateful eyes.

Usually at this point, I'd wake up suddenly in shame.Look around her.She sleeps very lightly, and whenever I wake up, she will habitually grab my hand. In this way, I will become a little more stable. I often find it incredible that why does she have such an ability to appear whenever I need it?Perhaps, some people are the doom of others; while others are the salvation of others. Her name is Mo Xingxing, my dear Moximoxi, she is a tranquilizer in my flustered night, and my first ray of sunshine in the morning.I love her and I don't care what anyone says. ——From Mi Sha's blog "I'm Waiting for the Dawn"

rice sand (1) My name is Misha.My name was Misha until I was seven years old.When I was in elementary school, I changed the word "沙" to "沙" on my own initiative.Just because I like the little "stone" next to it, it makes me feel more secure. Minofan didn't understand at first, but then he gave in and took me to the police station to officially change my name.When we got home, Mi Li was eating instant noodles. He bit the thin chopsticks in the instant noodles and reprimanded me in a more serious voice than an adult: "Mi Sha, congratulations on getting your wish, but then again, you It's no ordinary capriciousness."

Mi Li is my compatriot elder brother, he just came to this world a minute and a half earlier than me, so I have to call him "brother" all my life.God knows, what an honorable title elder brother is. Compared with the girls in our class who always dream of having an elder brother, I should have been considered lucky.However, things were not as I imagined at all. As we grew up day by day, the things between Mi Li and I began to be described with only one idiom, that is: it is too difficult to describe. The radio station at noon broadcast some outdated campus news, which made people upset.I stood under a cypress tree and asked Mo Xingxing, "How old do you think it is?"

"I think about these endless things all day long." "Didn't you say that there will be no rehearsals for these two days?" She was a little surprised. I hesitated and said, "I'd better go and have a look." She let go of me knowingly: "Then, let's go." I was a little sorry, and ran back a few steps facing her.She drew a circle in the air with her hand, signaling me to turn around and go, pay attention to safety.Her red face is like a red apple, and the sadness in her eyes makes me feel bad.But please forgive me, at this moment, I really want to see Lu Li, I must see Lu Li, whatever I say, I want to see Lu Li too.

I buried my head and rushed to the small theater, it seems to be my nature to be afraid of the cold.So when I was young, Meme knitted me a lot of little gloves and hats.What a clever hand, I was wearing the little gloves she woven, held in her arms and stuck to my face, raised my hands delicately, and took a beautiful photo. Oh, Lu Li, you are smart, it seems that you have said something similar to this.You see, how destined we are.I read his name and pushed open the door of the small theater. The dust in the air hurt my eyes.The small theater was empty.The small red stage is empty and lonely.I gasped lightly and stood there, feeling very sad but comforting myself: Actually, I just want to see you, whether you are here or not.

My dear Prince Luli, I am Silly Misha.A grain of sand that yearns for invincibility but is as tender as water. I deserve it. I do. Forgive me, since puberty my mind has been in a state of confusion, and I sometimes forget my own name for a brief moment while walking on the road or sitting in a classroom.It's a real worry, isn't it?I was a little scared and asked Mo Xingxing if I was sick, she scolded me sourly, saying that Lu Li was the only person I remembered, that's why I was ashamed to forget myself. Oh, and there was some truth to what she said.But, what should I say about Lu Li?

The initial beginning should be like this. One day, I saw this sentence on Tianzhong’s campus website: When you make a decision that you think is absolutely correct, reality will slap you hard—this is God’s decision. I'm teaching you how to bow your head. I applauded this sentence in my heart, and then I found out that this is a line in the campus DV short play "Blue Ideal".His director and leading actor are called Lu Li. When I met him, it was the most beautiful summer in this city.However, everything in the world cannot always go as one wishes. Apart from a large group of "road fans" surrounding him, I also have a cockroach-like rival in love, her name is Jiang Lan.

The reason why she is called a cockroach is because she often jumps out when she should not jump out, making people want to slap her to death. She has a pair of faint blue eyes, and she likes to stare at others.At least on the first day at the entrance of the girls' dormitory, when Lu Li handed me my luggage, she stared at me for a full minute with her cold eyes. Just stare, I'm not prepared to be afraid of her. But what's more, my classmate Mi Li actually fell in love with her. However, unfortunately, Mi Li's thoughts are completely opposite to mine. In order to please that witch, he did everything he could.

Right at the "forget it" bar.It was a very crappy and dilapidated small bar, with "famous ruffians" from various technical schools near Tianzhong, and the business was booming.I have heard of it before. He said: Lu Li will encounter accidents here. My first reaction, of course, was disbelief.According to Luli's personality, he would not go to that kind of place. Furthermore, it is impossible for him to be the kind of troublemaker.So I don't even believe it. Mi Li seemed to read my mind, and the text message came quickly: "He provoked a bunch of bad guys, and they lost their temper when they saw him with Jiang Lan. They tried to settle accounts with him, but he still ignored them."

My heart skipped a beat.Lu Li had dinner with Jiang Lan two days ago, and the whole school knew about it. Although I don't want to believe what it means, at least it might not be? I thought about it, and went back: "Which school? Who's taken a fancy to Jiang Lan?" "Believe it or not? It's from the second class of Guanghua Technical School. The boss of their school is Shen Meng! Nicknamed Brother Meng! A lot of people under him are desperate guys!" I said, "What do you mean by telling me this?" "It's nothing interesting, I just want you to know that Lu Li is either dead or injured this time. It's too scary! I can't afford to offend him! I won't chase Jiang Lan anymore! I can only say that our brothers and sisters are all suffering." "Bah!!!!" I hit "send" hard, and then I made a decision: go check it out. Head bowed like a criminal, I ran across the street to the door of the bar, which was decorated with pink fluorescent lights that read "Forget it...".I said to myself: Don't mess with anyone, just wait and see what happens. Then I rushed in. It was warm in the bar and there were very few people.After I walked in, I took a seat in a corner near the small stage. At this time, a person dressed as a waiter came over, and he said, "Little Miss Harou, don't you want some drinks?" He put the tray on the table and sat down across from me.I saw that his face was not bad, he seemed to be a part-time worker, not a few years older than me, so I boldly asked: "Do you know Brother Meng?" "You are here to wait for him?" "I won't tell you." I said. Can't explain everything. "He won't come today," he said. "why?" "Because he has something to do." "So, are they coming here?" He shook his head and left again.I grabbed his sleeve and said, "Please, tell me!" He thought for a long time before slowly saying, "There." "Thank you!" Turning around and walking towards the dark road. I ran and ran, and ran to the security office at the gate of the community. It was strange that there was no one here.As I kept looking through the window, someone tapped me on the shoulder. I turned my head and couldn't see the face clearly, but I could smell the smoke from his mouth.I wanted to leave, but he leaned on the window with one hand, moved his hand on my shoulder, and touched my back. As I pushed it away hard, I searched around with my eyes, where is Luli, where is Luli? ! "Little girl, you made us wait." His hand touched my face, and the other hand grabbed me and dragged me to the place where the cigarette butts were shining. "Help!" I yelled in despair.I don't know whose slap it was, it quickly slapped my face and covered my mouth. "Little sister, don't worry, we won't fuck you. We just want to help you design a more beautiful dress, so that you can wear it back to school in style!" Then a whistle sounded, and those disgusting people ran away easily.Xingxing came over to tear off the tape for me, but my rope was hard to untie. At this time, I saw rice gravel.He ran all the way from the alley, holding a small knife and handing it to Xingxing.Xingxing untied me, I tried my best to stand up, pretended to be calm and straightened myself up, then stepped up and slapped him with my left hand. It was the hardest punch I've ever used in my life.This is also the most wrong person in my life. But I will always remember that night—the darkest and most helpless night in 17 years, when she found me and gave me a hug. She saved me. An indelible gratitude in this lifetime. Her mother died in a car accident because she was saving others.In everyone's eyes, she is the daughter of a hero.Although I don't know the details, God knows how much I feel sorry for this sick child whose face is full of fear and can only comfort himself with drinking water in the dark night. Almost without hesitation, I made a decision to give her my hourglass. That was the gift I received on my first birthday: an hourglass with a white sand heart and a delicate crystal body. It has been preserved for 17 years.It is still intact, along with the writing on its base. December 20, Saturday.There are five days until Christmas, which is a day that has nothing to do with me.However, there are still people who will come to touch my bad head. That person is none other than Mi Li. In summer, he always wears a prison uniform with black and white stripes, an army green coat that is never buttoned, and a silver chain around his neck, which is said to be the style of Wilber Pan.When winter came and he had no clothes to wear, he put on Minofan's black cotton coat and acted like an adult.But in terms of temperament, he deviates too far from Minofan, and he has become more and more like a hooligan.Although I once swore never to care about anything about him.However, he never stopped messing with my thoughts and actions. From behind the door of his room he conjured a bouquet of vulgar roses.He was dressed surprisingly grandly like this, holding a large bouquet of flowers, and walked out of the house swaggeringly, so angry that I wanted to set him on fire. There were at least 30 pink roses, a large bunch, which was bigger than his fat belly. I think with my toenails and understand who this is for.But I still wanted to make sure, so I decisively changed my shoes, rushed out, got in a taxi, and followed him to the gate of Laku KTV. He wiped his hair with his hands forgetfully, stepped into the gate confidently, and didn't feel me behind him at all.After going up one floor, he turned a corner and entered a private room... She she she, I know it's her.I knew it was her. She is Jiang Lan. We may never be brother and sister again. It was almost dark when I got home.Strangely, he didn't spend the night with the witch as I imagined, but returned home for the first time, and was sitting in the living room with the heat turned up to the maximum, drinking a bowl of hot cereal while watching TV . I slam the door shut, then stride over and hula unplug it. "Birthday or death day? You are so handsome." I satirized him. He choked out a mouthful of water and said inarticulately: "You you you you... aren't you sleeping? Follow me you you..." "Fuck you!" I yelled, grabbing a cushion next to me and throwing it over. He was so beaten that he couldn't speak, and he wanted to plug in the plug with his head depressed. "Shame!!" I continued to scold. I slammed my door shut and fell flat on the bed.When I got home, my phone was out of battery, and I kept charging it on the bed. The phone hit my back. I picked it up and saw a text message from Lu Li. The show is ahead of schedule for some reason, please come to the rehearsal soon. No wonder Mi Li came home early from the birthday party. It seems that the witch also received the same text message. I jumped up from the bed, took my schoolbag and ran to the door. Mi Li stopped me and said, "You can talk about it later talk?" My heart has already flown to the small theater, so I am too lazy to discuss these esoteric and boring things with him.I left him and walked out the door As for rice gravel. In fact, I knew he would trade me for a long time. Once in the evening, I went to buy stationery after school.Passed by the rockery again.I don't know what was driving me, so I walked towards the place where the couple had a tryst. I see they are kissing. My bastard brother cupped her chin greedily and closed his eyes intoxicated. But Jiang Lan's eyes were wide open, like a cat's eyes, shining coldly in the late autumn night. Her expressionless face was in stark contrast to Mi Li's trembling facial muscles. After a while, Jiang Lan broke free from him.She smiled slightly: "Heh! I'll give it back to you now! You did a good job, you see, I did what I said!" Mi Li looked down at her own toes, and caressed her lips with her hand. Jiang Lan ran across his face lightly with her nails painted with red nail polish, and quickly ran in another direction. As for the bastard, he raised his head and looked in the direction she was running. ——I thought, if he turns his head and sees me, I'll pounce on him and strangle him. But he didn't look back. He didn't see the expression of his sister who couldn't shed a tear behind him. We are siblings born from the same root.Blood is thicker than water, and it is no match for a ruthless kiss. You have to believe, at that moment, I was just ashamed. We are two poor children who are bored, so I will be like this, so he will be like this.But, what can I do to learn to forgive? I was the last one to arrive at the theater that day. I didn't know until I went there that due to the venue, our performance originally scheduled for New Year's Day will be brought forward to Christmas. "Student Mi, you're late, you're playing a big game! Why, your broken back didn't come, won't she carry your shoes for you?" "Sorry, I just saw the text message." "It's okay, there's nothing wrong with it." Lu Li smiled comfortingly at me. Hualei Theater is a small theater that can only accommodate 80 people.The stage was not big, so Jiang Lan quickly followed me onto the stage and whispered in my ear, "To be honest, I've always been curious about your orientation." I ignored her. "It doesn't matter if you ignore me, but I want to ask you a question. If one day, Lu Li and Mo Xingxing fell into the river at the same time, which one would you save?" I couldn't hold back any longer, raised the manuscript in my hand, and looked directly at her face: "Get lost!" She jumped in front of me and was about to have a seizure when she heard another voice: "We are about to start, are you ready?" It's Luli. "Lu Li! Didn't you hear what she said to me just now?" "Mi Sha, where's your costume?" Lu Li ignored her. I really admire his wisdom. That day we waited until very late to finish work, and Jiang Lan and I had no chance or time to quarrel, but she didn't let go of her anger.At noon the next day, she appeared again, wearing a thick red one-piece wool skirt and black leather boots with bare legs, standing at the door of our dormitory, like an actress.As soon as I opened the door, she put on a fight pose and wanted to fight me to the death. "Michai! You are very capable!" She poked her hand directly on my forehead, and her nails penetrated into the skin of my forehead, causing a tingling sensation.Wu You tremblingly slipped through the crack of the door. I bumped into her with my body and said, "Get out of the way!" "Let? Let you not much? Look at you bitch!" "You say it again?" I yelled.Wu You gently pulled me back and said, "Mi Sha, stop making noise! ​​Did you see that Mo Xing is awake? I want to borrow that math reference book from her." "The bitch is swearing! You can't clean it up!" I ignored Wu You, and approached her face with my eyes wide open. "Damn!" She withdrew her face, spread her hands towards me, pointed at me and said happily: "Mi Sha, today I want to tell you that Lu Li belongs to me. Lu Li belongs to Jiang Lan. You fucking Best to always remember!" All I can say is that she is sick. "What is she going to do again?" Wu You said worriedly, watching her disappearing figure. "Leave her alone!" I was disturbed by Jiang Lanyi that day, and I was almost late for class in the afternoon. The old lady in history was already standing on the podium, lying awake on the seat. I don’t know if she had eaten or not. Anyway, she seemed in a bad mood. This afternoon, after school, I ran to the small theater. That day was a joint play day.In order to let us know our own performance status, Lu Li decided to videotape us first, let us watch the playback by ourselves, and understand our own weaknesses, so that we can be more in place on the day of the official performance.Lighting, photography, costumes, actors will all be in place.Cockroaches are the last ones to come.As soon as he came, he asked, "Is there time for makeup?" Only Lu responded, "There is a makeup mirror in the background." "Thank you, brother Lu Li." Our interiors were done in the Bud Theater.The stage is set up like a home.The cameraman is a boy in the third year of high school. He has to take the mock exam at night. After Jiang Lan painted makeup for an hour, he was going crazy and kept urging us to move faster. Only then did Jiang Lan drag her thick-skinned face into the stage. Start recording. Jiang Lan and Lu Li were close together from the very beginning, I saw Lu Li frowned, and I was secretly amused.I pushed the glasses with my arm as required by the script, and the broken glasses fell to the ground, and I bent down to search for them. She stomped me hard with the heel of her boot, quietly, premeditatedly and with incredible precision. "It's not good! Something happened to Mo Xingxing!!" I looked down the stage, and it was Wu You who was out of breath.My legs softened all of a sudden, I ran off the stage, grabbed her and asked, "What's going on, what's going on?" "Don't say anything! Follow me first!" "What happened, what happened?" I subconsciously dragged him and ran out together. He is big and thick, so he should be useful at critical times. Wait for our group to rush into the dormitory.Mo Xingxing's face was as white as a piece of paper, and he had already fainted on the ground. A towel next to him was stained red with blood. I tried my best to pick her up from the ground, but no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't. I looked at Mo Xingxing, my mind went blank. Wake up, wake up, wake up, I hugged her, my hands were numb, forgive me for only knowing my drama these days, forgive me for only knowing my damn love, and ignoring you.I would never forgive myself if anything happened to you! "Let me see!" I heard a hurried voice behind me, and the person I saw turned out to be Teacher Xu. She turned around and said to Mi Li behind her: "You have great strength, come and help me." Mi Li walked over in a daze, but failed to beat Lu Li to vent his anger, but was pulled over to do good deeds. The child can not adapt to this psychological gap. Finally rushed to the hospital.Xingxing seemed to have some consciousness, her eyes slightly opened once, then closed again.Waking up seems like a pain. But why is she in pain? In a blink of an eye, Xingxing has settled down on the hospital bed.I held her cool hand, the blood on that hand had solidified, blurry dark red, it looked a little scary, but I didn't dislike it at all.The attending doctor came quickly. He raised his glasses, stared at Mo Xingxing, looked again and again, and finally said, "Ah? It's her?" "Is the family here?" he asked. Teacher Xu walked out with him. Not long after they went out, they woke up and opened their eyes. Mi Li was standing beside me. I signaled to Mi Li with my eyes that he was finally smart enough to close the door when he went out. "Am I not dead?" she asked me. "Why?" I stroked her cold face with my hand, "Wake up, tell me, why?" She turned away and closed her eyes. Xingxing refused to talk anymore, and finally I ran out and called the nurse to tidy up her wound.Teacher Xu ran in and out, sweating profusely, with a ecstasy on his face. I looked at Xingxing on the hospital bed.Her hands had been wiped of blood and lay flat on the left and right sides of her body.I don't know if she fell asleep, but she seemed to have stopped breathing, and her normally fair and moist skin was sallow, like a wax statue.There is only a dropper, tirelessly dripping transparent glucose solution, which is slowly transported into her body. I stood up and silently exited the door.My heart was overwhelmed with discomfort.Then I saw Mi Li standing at the corner, covering half of his face with a black scarf, leaning against the wall.As I walked past him he asked me, "How long are you going to hate me?" I thought of him trotting all the way with Xingxing on his back, and most of the hatred in my heart had disappeared.So I stopped and said, "Leave her, leave that witch, we are still brother and sister, otherwise we won't talk about it." He sneered: "if I leave her, can you leave him?" "What do you mean?" I asked him. "You know what I mean," he said. "You can give up everything for him, why shouldn't I be given away for her?" I feel like I'm a little unsteady. "Actually, we are the same." Mi Li looked at me and said, "Don't look at me with contempt all day long." After saying this, he pulled his black scarf, bowed his head and strode away, walking away.I leaned against the corner where he just leaned against, trying to calm down my mood. At this moment, the door of the ward opened, and the awake father and Teacher Xu who came out, they didn't see me, stood by the door and said softly Saying something, I suddenly saw Teacher Xu bowed her head while talking, she seemed to be crying!Xingxing's father took out a handkerchief from his pocket, bent down and wiped away her tears. Their relationship looks very unusual. what…… turn out to be…… Fearing that they would see me, I quickly and quietly retreated downstairs. That day, it was past nine o'clock at night when I returned to the Huabud Theater from the hospital.I thought there would be no one there, but when I opened the door, I saw him unexpectedly. He sat on a chair in the corner of the stage, saw me go in, put down the manuscript, stood up and turned around, and said, "Come here." I walked onto the stage and followed him behind the curtain. He tore off the green flannel with a huff, and what I saw was a dark, beautiful upright piano! The piano was spotless, obviously freshly wiped.I looked at Lu Li with some surprise, and he said, "Ms. Xu Lin helped. Don't be grateful to me." I sat down with an indescribable emotion, and took off my gloves, revealing my fingers stiff with cold. "How about playing a piece to warm your hands." Lu Li encouraged me. I turned my head and asked humorously, "Why didn't you help me warm my hands?" As soon as I finished speaking, I blushed.Really, how could you be so careless and tell the truth. I pressed the notes nervously, ready to play the piano.But the first sound is wrong. "Oh," he came over, sat on the same piano chair as me, stretched out his slender fingers, and said, "I just prefer playing the piano to warm my hands." After all, he played.What I played was "Fishing Boat Singing Evening", a very artistic Chinese folk music. I sat beside him, my heart fluttered.Oh my God.Sitting side by side with him, my heart seemed to fly out with a huff. After playing, he turned his head and smiled at me: "Does it sound good?" "Sounds good." I said nympho. "Haha, I seldom show my skills." He raised his head and smiled, as if very proud.But he quickly stood up, left my seat, and said, "Okay, it's your turn. Although I believe that you don't need to practice at all with your strength, in exchange, you still have to play a piece. Are you right? wrong?" I took a breath, closed my eyes, and played the first sound.With him by his side, the notes turned into cute elves, dancing around me, so that I almost didn't know where I was. I don't know when, he sat next to me again.When the ending sound sounded, he said, "Mi Sha, you are really a talented woman." "Really?" I asked hypocritically. "What do you think?" he asked me slyly.But quickly added: "You know, I never flatter people." We were separated by a very close distance, I looked at his face, I don't know why I suddenly thought of Minofan, I remembered when I was a child, because I was secretly playing the piano, Minofan grabbed me and almost threw me into the air.My arm hurts from being grabbed by him, squatting on the ground and crying.My crying angered Minofan even more, he approached me, stretched out his hand and scratched my face, wiping away my tears.Then, he opened the door of the dark storage room and pushed the small coffee-colored piano in.Turning his head and said a word to me: "The piano can't make you successful. Forget it." I don't cry anymore.Instead, he chose to sit at the door of the storage room without moving.Mi Li came over to me and asked, "Have you finished your homework? I want to copy it." He squatted beside me, sucking his nose, squatted for a while, and left again. "Mi Sha, get up!" Minofan ordered me as he passed me with a cup of coffee.I didn't move, we were deadlocked for a while, and he left too. "Mi Sha, I want to copy my homework." Mi Li walked around irritably, looked at my face again, and said, "Stop doing this, it's useless." Minofan came out of the study with an empty coffee cup in his hand.He said: "If you don't understand now, you will understand one day. If you want to sit, you just sit. Dad is sympathizing with you now, and he is killing you." "Do you often lose your mind like this?" Lu Li beside me looked at me and asked curiously. "Oh, yes." I quickly withdrew my thoughts and smirked at him. "Thinking of what?" he asked. "What do you think?" I imitated his tone. he laughs.It was that invincible and deadly smile again, I panicked in that smile, and quickly had nothing to say: "I'm sorry, I missed something today." "Is she okay?" Lucy asked "It's okay." I quickly replied, "I'm just sick and may have to stay in the hospital for two days." "What's the matter with her illness?" "Mo Xingxing, this name is very strange." "I'm really sorry for everyone today." I don't know why, but I changed the subject again. "It's okay, it's all on this list, and you're so smart, you know, I'm counting on you for the performance in two days' time." "How much do you expect?" I lowered my head and asked cheekily. "A fiery beating heart that is higher than your current body temperature is looking forward to it with affection." He expressed it completely without knotting his tongue at all.It seems that he really has to admire his title of minister of literature and art. What was even more unexpected was that he leaned close to my ear and whispered: "cooperate with me, many people are jealous of you." His tone was serious and shameless enough. I also shamelessly continued to hoarse: "Especially Jiang Lan." "You seem to have a grudge against her." He tapped his fingers on the piano lightly, in a casual tone. His slender fingers are still walking on the keys, from do to west, from west to do.It taps every little nerve in me to experience happiness. Sure enough, as Lu Li expected, the performance on Christmas Day was quite successful. As the number one heroine, I greatly overwhelmed Jiang Lan's limelight.Amidst the roaring applause, Lu Li took my hand for the curtain call.The warmth from his palm made my heart tremble like a spring flower bud in the breeze. It's a pity that my dear Xingxing hasn't been discharged from the hospital yet. She didn't see my scenery and share my joy. For me, what a pity! As soon as the new year is over, final exams are approaching.Xing Xing was discharged from the hospital, but because of his frail health, he still needs to stay at home for a while. Our study has become very intense, and even the evening self-study classes are occupied by teachers of various subjects.It wasn't until the weekend before the exam that I was free to go to Xingxing's house to see her. It was his father who came to open the door. I greeted him politely. He welcomed me in very politely and told me to wake up in the attic.I walked up to the attic with careful steps, the stairs were a bit narrow, I gently pushed open the door of the attic, and called out the wake-up name.She leaned up from the bed in surprise, and I saw an English reference book in her hand. "Hi!" "Mi Sha!" she said with a smile, "I guessed it was you." "How is it?" I sat by her bed, looked at her pale face, and asked distressedly, "Have you recovered, can you go back to take the final exam?" "It should be fine." Xing Xing said, "I will go to the hospital for a review tomorrow, and I can go to school if I have nothing to do. In fact, I am fine. My dad is too nervous." Just as I was talking, my father, who was awake, had already come up, poured me a cup of hot tea, and handed it to me. I said thank you to him, and he said, "I should thank you. In school, you are the one who takes care of her. Wake up. The girl in our family is just too poor in self-care ability, which makes people worry." "No." I quickly corrected, "We take care of each other!" As I said that, I saw Xingxing put the hourglass I gave her on the bedside, it seems that she is very close to it. Those ailments will be cured and discarded forever. "Get out, don't hinder us from talking." Xing Xing ordered her father softly.Her father uttered an oh, and obediently withdrew.This is not the case between me and Minofan. I never dare to speak to her in such a tone, even if it is to act like a baby.He is strict, and usually doesn't care about us, when he cares about us, he just needs to tell us whether we can do this or not.From a certain point of view, I envy Wake Up. "Your performance was very successful. I heard that your song made many people cry," Xing Xing said, "I haven't congratulated you yet." "How do you know?" I asked strangely. She hesitated for a moment, then smiled and said, "I guess." True or false, you can guess. "Are you okay?" I asked her. "It's fine," she said. "Mi Sha, I've been thinking a lot these days." "tell me the story?" "I feel too tired to live, and I'm afraid I won't live to be eighteen." I was frightened by her words, I went up and covered her mouth: "Don't talk nonsense!" She couldn't speak with her mouth, so she looked at me with those sad eyes.I let her go and said softly, "Wake up, please." "Yep?" "Wake up," I said, "I want to tell you a secret. It's a secret that no one has known since my first day in elementary school." She looked at me with wide eyes. "I'm like you, I don't have a mother." I said, "When I was four years old, Mi Li and I came home from kindergarten one day, and my mother suddenly disappeared. Later, they all told me that she died. But, I don't believe it, neither does Mi Li, I just don't know where she went and why she left us! After my mother left, Minofan took us to move several times, until we were in junior high school, We just came to this city. In fact, we are the same, and the love around me is not as much as you imagine, but we must live on, and we must live wonderfully!" After I finished speaking, I picked up the hourglass next to the bed and woke up with the bottom facing it: "Did you see this line?" Wake up and take the hourglass over to examine it carefully. "This is a gift from my mother." I said, "the only evidence of love she left me, making me believe that she has never been far away from us. Wake up, I give it to you, you today You should know why, right? So, please, please don't talk to me like that, okay?" "Misha." Xingxing threw away the hourglass, stretched out his arms, and hugged me tightly. Yuanjia Road is narrow, and we met Jiang Lan at the door. "Oh, my princess, what's wrong with you?" We didn't bother to pay attention to her, but she said a shocking and weeping sentence behind us: "Germs, I think this whole dormitory building needs to be cleaned up. If it's AIDS or something, it should be destroyed throughout the day." It's over once!" I pushed Xingxing away suddenly, turned around and rushed in front of Jiang Lan. Before she could react, I hugged her tightly, pressed my mouth against her cheek, and sipped at her face She let out a fierce breath, but she couldn't get rid of me even with all her life, and she heard her howling like a pig: "Help, help! Help!" When I returned to Xingxing, she looked at me with a sad expression, as if she was blaming me for something.I said with some embarrassment: "Hey, this kind of person should be dealt with like this!" "Let's go to the hospital." Xing Xing said. "Ah!" I said, "No need!" Really no need, haha, after cleaning up Jiang Lan, I found that most of my illness has miraculously recovered! I decided to have dinner with Xingxing.The school cafeteria has been closed, and even if the food in it is not closed, it will not make me happy. 晚自修前的拉面馆人烟稀少。我们踏进去的时候，有两个初中部的女生正好从里面出来，她们用好奇的眼光看了我们一眼，嘻笑着跑开了。我听到其中一人在喊我的名字。看来，我还算得上是个名人。 醒醒的眼光，却有些不安。我想她一定是大病初愈。 我拉她坐下，跟老板要了两碗拉面。她大声更正说：“一碗就好。” “两碗！”我冲着老板喊。 “那你一个人吃。”她说。 “我要你陪我吃。”我赌气地说，“如果你不吃，我也不吃。” “米砂你不要这样。”她站起身来说，“你吃吧，我先回教室去了。” 回到教室的时候，晚自修早已经开始，可是，醒醒却不在座位上！ 我坐下，转头问米砾：“看到莫醒醒没有？” 他头猛地一抬：“啊，我还以为你俩集体逃课！” 我在教室里坐立不安地呆了半小时，猜醒醒会去了哪里，我的手机振动起来，一看，是一个陌生的号码，那条信息的内容是：你该去琴房看看，有好戏。 琴房？ 那是许老师常呆的地方，难道是醒醒和她之间出啥事了？ 我加快步子，跑到琴房门口，推一下门，门是虚掩着的。我悄悄的走进去，里面没有灯，黑漆漆的一片。 “谁！”一声断喝，吓得我半死。我听到开关的声音，瞬间，我就暴露在白花花的日光灯下。我伸出手遮光，再一看，路理手上拿着一个黑家伙，奇怪地看着我。 “米砂？”他摸摸头，说：“这么晚了，来这里做什么呢？” "Passing by." “去哪会路过这？”路理把他手上的黑东西举起来摆弄了一下，我才看明白那是架照相机。 说的也是，花蕾剧场在这个学校的最深处，再往旁边走，就是荒凉的栏杆了。 我只好憋着红脸说：“那个，那你这么晚了来做什么呢？灯也不开，鬼鬼祟祟！”说罢，我没事一样搓搓手，好像很冷的样子。 “我来拿这个。”他晃晃自己的手，“拿了就走，我知道在哪，何必开灯。” “是吗是吗，那我就先走啦。” 就在我伸手跟他再见的瞬间，他举起了他的相机。 他，好像，给我照了张照片？——其实我已经听到了喀嚓的快门声。 心慌意乱的我拔腿就跑。 我听到他在我身后喊我的声音：“米砂，等等……” 我跑得更快了，很快就跑出了剧场，跑出了那条唯一的窄路，跑过路灯灿烂的篮球场，一直跑到女生宿舍楼下。 我刚刚站定的时候手机短信又响了，还是那个陌生的号码：笨蛋，不是告诉你有好戏吗？你应该回头看看！ 我拿起手机，拨那个发短信的号码，我想一定是蒋蓝，这个可恶的人在捉弄我。可是，电话一声一声地响，对方根本就不接！ 我本来已经打算去宿舍看看醒醒在不在了，但鬼使神差地，我又走了回头路。这一次，那里的灯是开着的，靠近窗口的时候，我看到了两个身影。 那不是别人，正是醒醒和路理！ 我看到醒醒低着头，路理把他的手放在醒醒的肩上。那个姿势，像极了一部经典韩剧的广告片。 他们到底是什么关系？他们到底发展到了哪一步？ 或许，我是最后一个被蒙在鼓里的人？ 期末考试就这样稀里糊涂地结束了。 我的成绩差强人意，全班第九名。莫醒醒三十七，米砾四十九，排在蒋蓝前面。靠她那么近，对他而言实在是可喜可贺。 那些天我变得异常的沉默，醒醒和我说话，我有时也会听不见。我并没有问她和路理之间的事，更何况，她也没有任何要告诉我的意思。 天中高一的寒假不必补课，领了成绩通知单，我们就可以各自回到家里度假。那天，我在宿舍里收拾我的大箱子，醒醒在拆她的被子，我们都没说话。我把我的橙色围巾收到箱子里的时候伍优从门外搓着手踱进来问我们：“今天都走吗？” "Oh." I said. 她说，“你们知道吗，听说蒋蓝今晚就要赶去北京演一部什么戏，是她姐姐唱的主题歌，推荐她演女一号！” “那你赶紧找她签个名！”我拿她开心。 “就她，不稀奇！”伍优这次考了全班第三，胖胖的脸上神彩飞扬。 “米砂。”莫醒醒忙完她自己的被子后对我说，“你让开，我来替你把被子拆了，被套你自己带回家去洗。” “我自己来吧。”我说。 她笑：“你会吗？还是我来吧。” “谁说我不会的！这些事不要太简单哦。” 她往后退了一小步。 我一边拆着被子一边用故作轻快的口气问：“醒醒，你这个寒假有啥安排啊？” “随便吧。”她说，“你呢？” “也随便吧。”我说。 “你这么多东西都要带回家吗？”她说，“要不打个电话让米砾来帮你拎？” “找他？”我说，“我还不如自己来。” “那我送你去公车站。” “不用那么麻烦。”我扬声说，“对了，伍优，最近有什么好听的歌好看的片子，推荐一下，回家好好放松放松。” “我比你过得还封闭。”伍优抱着本厚砖头一样的英语书皱着眉头说，“我这个年是别想过好了，我妈给我找了三个家教。” “我的妈呀，你还需要请家教，下学期还要不要我们这些人活了……”我夸张地喊着，看到醒醒在她的床边坐了下来，看着窗外，不听我们的谈话。 为了掩饰我内心的小九九，我在那里装模做样地摆弄伍优的复读机，跟伍优有一句没一句地聊着。就在这时，李妍进来了，进门就喊：“米砂，路理找你。” 醒醒挺直了腰，眼睛继续看着窗外。 我对李妍说：“那麻烦你去跟他说一声，我不在宿舍。” “要说你自己去说！” 宿舍里的气氛忽然变得怪怪的。 醒醒不说话，我也一直都没有下楼去。可是没想到的是，十分钟以后，路理竟然上来了，他推开我们宿舍的门，大声说：“听说行李很多，需要帮忙？” “是的。”回答她的人是醒醒，“米砂有两个箱子。” 醒醒站起身来，开始收拾我乱七八糟的床，她动作又快又麻利，很快搞定一切，对路理说：“麻烦你把米砂送回去哦。” “走吧。”路理唤我。说罢，他已经一手拎起我的一只箱子走到了宿舍门口。我就这样傻傻的在众多女生羡慕的眼光里一路小跑地跟着他来到了校园外。 一辆出租车在我们面前停了下来，他替我把箱子放进后备厢。微笑着对我说：“祝寒假愉快！” 谁知道车子刚要发动，他却拉开车门坐了进来。我惊讶地看着他，他神情自然地说：“我应该送你到家门口，不然这些箱子你怎么拎上楼呢？” 那天路理送我到家，才发现我家是别墅，根本用不着拎箱子上楼。 我手脚慌乱地跟着路理一起把我的箱子从出租车的后备厢里拎出来，路理看看我家的房子，再看着我，用一种让我感觉很甜蜜的责备的口气对我说：“坏丫头，害我白跑一趟。” “是白跑吗？”我背着双手，反问他。 “也……不。”他答完，跟我做再见的手势，拉开车门，让车子开远了。 我站在那里一直看着车子消失于我的视线，这才扯开嗓门喊：“米砾，出来，替我拎东西，快点！” 屋内没有反应。 我走到窗户那里，家里好像一个人都没有。我掏出钥匙来开了门，用力把箱子拖进家里的客厅，就在这时候，我看到了玄关那里放着的一双女人的鞋。 我想我认得那双鞋。 她居然潜伏到我家里来了！ 我把门轻轻的关上，蹑手蹑脚地走到米砾的房间门口。难怪米砾听不到我喊他，原来他房间的音乐放得老大声，我把门猛地一把推开，看到他和蒋蓝正坐在地板上摇头晃脑地听歌。 我径直走过去，一把把他从地上拎起来：“你在抽什么风？” 他被我吓了一大跳“米砂同学，欢迎你来参加我们的音乐派对！” 我斜着眼睛看着蒋蓝，用威胁的语气对米砾说：“把这里不受欢迎的人给我赶出去，不然我马上就打电话给米诺凡。” “打吧打吧。”米砾说，“他在广州，我们刚通过电话，估计坐宇宙飞船可以来得及回来扁我。” 难怪他这么放肆！ “大明星。”我对蒋蓝说，“寒宅容不下你，我看你还是早走为好。” “不必这么不客气吧。要知道，万一哪天我真做了你嫂子，恐怕该是有的人从这个房子里滚出去，而不是我！” 米砾就这样看着我们吵，一句话也不说，他真的已经无可救药了。 我忧伤地看着他，然后我下定决心对他说：“米砾，我今天给你一个选择，如果你选她，我马上从这个家里离开，从此以后，我们再也不是兄妹，有她没我，有我没她！” 我的话音刚落，音响里的ＣＤ也正放结束。空气里是死一般的寂静。我站在那里，期待米砾的答复。 我看到米砾抱着头蹲到地上，一开始我不明白他要搞什么花招，但我很快发现他是在哭，我的心里忽然就破了一个洞，越扯越大，没法收拾。在米砾的哭声里，蒋蓝狠狠地骂了一句：“没出息。”然后蹬噔噔地跑到客厅里，穿上她的鞋，离开了我的家。 我想伸出手去拉米砾，手却僵在空气里。 那个寒假，因为爷爷身体不好，米诺凡带我们回了老家。 巧的是，醒醒也去爷爷家过年，她爷爷家在乡下，据说空气不错。我们俩短信来短信去，无聊和不无聊的说上一大通，拇指都快要断掉。 米砾歪着嘴骂：“断得真够厉害的。” 我狠狠地瞪他一眼，要是给米诺凡听见，我怕是连小命都保不住。 我决定去醒醒家看看，要是她也不在家，我就决定去看场电影，我一直都想看却一直没看成的《如果，爱》。 真是人生何处不相逢。我还没走到醒醒家楼下呢，远远地就看到她，穿着金色的靴子，戴着大耳环，黑大衣，正在拼命地拽一个男孩。而那个男孩穿着一条海军蓝的紧身裤，头发有一撮黄，嘴里叼的烟一半变成烟灰也不弹一下，任蒋蓝拖来拽去就是纹丝不动，简直就像尊雕塑！ 我听见蒋蓝大声喊：“别等了。快跟我走，一帮哥们等着你HIGH呢！” 而那个男生就站在与莫醒醒家阁楼垂直不偏不倚的方向，不知疲倦地抬着头，死死盯住莫醒醒家的阁楼，眼睛眨都不带眨。 难道这个叫阿布的是找醒醒么？看他的样子，难道他和莫醒醒有仇？ 我情不自禁地走近他们，看到蒋蓝从口袋里摸出一个红色的烟盒，抽出一根粉红色的烟，把他的烟从他嘴里拔出来，借了一个火吸上，然后她转过头来，看到了我，忽然哈哈地笑起来：“哦哟，今天莫醒醒家楼下可真热闹！” 那个男孩终于肯把一直盯着楼上窗户的目光移下来，看着我。 “看清楚些，阿布。”蒋蓝靠在墙壁上，懒懒地说：“这就是你的情敌米砂小姐。别傻了。我早跟你说过，莫醒醒只对女人有兴趣。” 阿布把烟扔在地上，狠狠一踩，说：“你娘的，放屁！” 蒋蓝仰天大笑，说：“哈哈！瞧你那天真样！你去天中问问！她和米砂的故事，那可真是无人不知无人不晓来着！” “闭上你的臭嘴！”我骂她。 “臭女人，我就不闭，咋了，要打架还怎么的？我不怕你！” “莫醒醒，莫醒醒，下来下来！” 我顺着他的眼神往上看去，本来开着的阁楼小窗户“啪”的关上了。 看来醒醒在家！ 蒋蓝叼着烟哼哼：“你看，你看看，就这1种货色的小妞也拽得起来！满大街一抓一大把，值得你这样！” 阿布一脸不服气，他换了一个角度站，脸上的表情誓在必得，好像莫醒醒不下来他就准备在楼下打坐一样。 我刚这么一想，就见他把手放在嘴巴上做成小喇叭，竟然真的像打坐一样“呼啦”盘腿坐到了地上！他更加大声地喊：“莫醒醒，我爱你！再见我一面，让我死我也愿意！” 我听得胆战心惊。我不敢轻举妄动，只好继续站在那。我还没想好该怎么办呢，没想到唯恐天下不乱的蒋蓝竟然鼓起掌来，甚至开始替他加油：喊！call!继续喊，我就不信把她喊不下来，喊不下来她把他爸喊下来也行！ 阿布仍然忘我地喊着莫醒醒的名字，重复着那句要命的“我爱你”。楼上已经有不少家推开了窗户在看热闹。我再也不能允许他们这样羞辱醒醒，于是我一把推开蒋蓝，猛扑到那个男生的背上，用手掌死死地捂住了他的嘴。他再也发不出声音，嘴里呜呜呜的，就是甩不开我。然而就在这时候，我听到一个熟悉的声音在惊讶地问：“米砂，你在做什么？” 是路理！ 一听到他说话，不知道为什么，我全身的力气忽然就没了，男孩趁机一个转身把我掀翻，我没站得稳，后脑勺结结实实地撞到墙上，然后就眼冒金星，失去了知觉。 不知道过了多久，我感觉到我被谁扶了起来，他让我躺到他温热的怀里，连声问我：“米砂，你怎么样？你没事吧？” 我努力微笑着说：“没，没事。” "Can you stand up?" 好不容易镇定自己，我拉好自己的衣服，站在他面前，看着自己的脚尖，不知道该说什么好。 “我看你们还是先回去吧。”路理说。 “啊？”我惊讶地抬头，才发现他不是在说我，而是在说蒋蓝，才发现那只臭蟑螂和莫个莫名其妙的叫什么阿布的黄毛小孩还阴魂不散地站在墙边。 “你来找她干什么？”阿布像审犯人。 路理轻声说：“至少，我不是来给她丢脸的。” 原来，他什么都看到！ 阿布的脸微红了。不知道该怎么应答。 “你先走。”路理说，“我来劝她跟你见一面，可好？” “我凭什么相信你？”阿布不屑地问。 “我相信他。”蒋蓝甜甜地笑着说，“谢谢你啊，路理哥。我这个朋友就是这样，脾气很倔，莫醒醒借了他的钱不肯还，所以……” “别胡扯！”阿布呵斥蒋蓝，然后对路理说：“我信你一次，今晚八点前，我一定要见到莫醒醒，我有话跟她说。如果她不见我，后果将是不堪设想！”说完，他转过身，在地上捡起一块石子，在墙上用力地画下他的电话号码，然后，他用石子敲着那行数字，像江湖片里的老大一样轻声说：“记住，打这个号码找我，我等着。” 说完，他把衣领拉得竖起来，扬长而去。 我没想到的是，路理竟然掏出手机，把那个号码记了下来。 “干吗？”我问他。 “我去会会那小子。”路理吩咐我说，“你先上去看醒醒吧。”话音刚落，他已经跟随蒋蓝而去。