Chapter 2 The first part Mo Xingxing-2

But in any case, my high school unfolded wrinkledly at the end of this hot and cold summer.The foreground is the performance that will eventually be held. The play "Twelve Nights" directed by Xu Qingqing and starring Jiang Lan Qingqing is about to be staged.In those days, huge advertisements were posted on campus.Mi Sha dragged me past, and gave a stern "Bah" to Jiang Lan's profile picture on the advertisement.Cursed and said: "She is the only one who wants to be a star, if I go to act, I will compare her to her!" The performance of the women's troupe is scheduled for September 10, Teacher's Day.In the afternoon school is on holiday for half a day.

Almost all the teachers in the school were dispatched and sat in the positions closest to the stage.I see Xu.Sit in the furthest position in the first row.Today she wore a bright orange lipstick and a light green dress, obviously well groomed.I've known her for so many years, except when Bai Ran took her on a blind date, I rarely saw her take care of herself. The red curtain was drawn.The host came on stage and announced the start of the show. There were gentle cheers from the audience.I looked up, the boy was wearing a little white dress, with layers of lace on the neckline of his shirt, his manners were elegant and lackluster.

Halfway through the performance, Mi Sha ran back from the front and found me in the crowd. She was a little excited: "Did you see that boy who announced the curtain?" "Oh?" I half-opened my mouth and tried to remember. Mi Sha bumped into me and said solemnly: "His name is Lu Li. There used to be a handsome guy named Xu Yi in the sky, but everyone said that he was several times more handsome than Xu Yi. Standing so far away, you can see clearly." No?" "Look at you." I laughed at her with some affection. After realizing her gaffe, she stroked the ends of her hair with her hands a little cautiously, and finally smiled in relief.

I tried again to recall that boy, Lu Li, what a strange name, and even more strangely, I thought of Abu.When he was a child, he had a big nose and a tear mole under his eyes that seemed to only be found in girls.Always keep your head down and focus on the kite in your hand. What a long memory.Compared with the shameful reality, it is precious. The performance that day was unanimously approved by the teachers.At the curtain call, the boy also stood up. It turned out that besides being the host, he also participated in the director. A group of girls naturally kept a distance from him.In fact, only if you care about it in your heart, you will be embarrassed on the surface.I saw Jiang Lan sneaking glances at him several times, but the expression on his face continued to be fake and reserved.Mi Sha's hand tightly grasped my arm, and she couldn't help screaming softly.

Xu Lin was surrounded and walked onto the stage, and the teachers present applauded with dignity. She put on a lot of makeup today, and the light hit her face directly, which inevitably gave off a greasy sheen.She smiles in the light.She seems very happy. At this moment, Misha tugged on my sleeve and pointed to the middle of the auditorium.It took me a long time to see clearly that the person sitting there was Mi Li. Showing off with a fresh new haircut, he held his massive camera aloft and pointed it directly at someone on stage.Needless to say who that is. "No product!" Mi Sha said bitterly.Then she rushed over at a speed I didn't realize, and snatched his camera.I saw them fighting, so I could only dissuade them.

Mi Li repeated, "Try moving again?" However, Mi Sha kept moving, and he didn't show any seriousness.I noticed that on his hedgehog's head, a line of medium-sized letters was drawn with oil paint. "IL JL".The meaning is clear at a glance. Mi Sha also stopped moving, stared at his head for a while, and bumped his head deliberately with a "boom". "Ouch! Shrew!" Mi Li cursed. "You're going to die! I'll go home and tell my dad!" Mi Sha shook off those words, stood up abruptly, and was about to leave.She stretched out another finger and pointed at the tip of his nose, and said word by word: "A man with no taste! I will despise you for the rest of my life!"

Mi Sha, dressed in a lady's attire, strode ahead of me.In my heart, unknowingly, a kind of love was born.What an admirable girl who can freely express her likes and dislikes. The performance was over, and everyone left the stage one after another. Mi Sha and I were about to reach the entrance of the auditorium.Mi Sha suddenly pushed me to a seat in the last row, and said to me, "Wait for a while, I'll go talk to that guy." I nodded and plugged the earphones up again. "Wake up." Not long after I sat down, I heard someone calling my name, and when I opened my eyes, it was Xu.I sat up straight all of a sudden, and she took advantage of the opportunity to sit down on the seat next to me.

"It's useless to talk about it," I raised my head as if suddenly inspired, met her eyes, looked at her with a playful look and said, "No matter how much we talk about it, he won't marry you. Isn't it?" She was visibly taken aback.She definitely didn't understand why I said such a thing. Her face still had the resolute expression just now, but that expression had gradually turned into surprise. "He won't marry you!" I cheered up when she wanted me to shut up the most, "Go beg him to marry you. You should beg him. Maybe he will agree. If you are not together, Bai But is it not dead in vain?"

"Shut up!" she yelled at me. I stood up, took a few steps back, and said loudly to her: "Mr. Xu, I beg you, from now on, please put away your hypocrisy. You can do whatever you want, and I will not hinder you. But I also I won't accept your bribe." After that, I ignored her stiff expression and walked away solemnly. The exit was very close to our seats.After a few steps, I had already walked out of the exit, and at this moment, I found another person.He stood behind the door curtain at the exit, holding a 16-format picture album in his hands, and a slanted bag on his shoulders—it was the boy who hosted, Lu Li!

I stare at him.He glanced intelligently at his watch, avoiding my gaze.But with my perception, I can still be sure: he heard our conversation just now. Oh my God. I saw him flash in quickly from the door curtain, walk straight to Xu's side, and leaned over to say something to Xu who hadn't recovered yet. Who is he?Why did he appear at the door?What is his relationship with Xu?Will he tell anyone else?What kind of ulterior affair does a girl's father have with a single teacher in the school?How would he guess? ! Has my secret, the secret about Bai Ran, my father and Xu, been peeped by others?

It was as if I had been slapped across the face, and I stood there for a long time unable to relax. "Mo Xingxing!" Mi Sha ran out from behind me, gasped and said, "I checked and you are not in the auditorium, sorry! I kept you waiting for so long." "It's okay." I said two words slowly. "Yeah." Mi Sha stretched his neck towards the auditorium, "That Lu Li seems to be inside." "Let's go." I pulled her away quickly, and she turned her head three times a step, thinking about that damn Lu Li in her heart, but scolding Mi Li: "I told him, if he does this to that one again I will sever brother-sister relationship with him if the witch is fooling around!" I didn't expect that my father would come to find me. After I hadn't been home for three weeks, he was waiting for me in the corridor outside the classroom with two big bags. I made him wait downstairs for a long time.Sitting in the empty dormitory, I wandered and wandered, wondering if I should see him.I don't know if there is some kind of wind blowing in front of him, and if there is a storm waiting for me. It wasn't until most of the people returned to the dormitory after lunch that I walked slowly downstairs.He looked very patient, leaning against the wall and waiting for me, smiling at me.When I walked into the cafeteria with him, there were almost no students still eating in the cafeteria, and everyone went to lunch break. My plate came with scrambled eggs with tomatoes and celery, and very little rice.He sits opposite. I mixed the tomatoes and celery into the rice, stirred it frantically, and bent over to nibble.After a few bites, I looked up and looked at him with hatred.He stretched out a slap towards me, and finally put it down hesitantly. In the empty cafeteria, only the staff walked back and forth to clean up the dishes.The crisp echoes of bowls and bowls colliding continued to be heard. He lifted the two packages and put them on the seat next to me, and said to me word by word: "I am incompetent to give birth to a daughter like you." Then he turned and left. He didn't look back, so he didn't see me silently throwing up the few mouthfuls of food that were left. I'm sure that Xu said something, this woman who is going to die if she doesn't speak, I won't let her go so easily.I swear, I won't! It was cold and rainy that day.I skipped evening self-study.turn off the phone.Stay in the Internet cafe all the time.Stomach pain from not eating for almost four days.I saw Abu on the Internet, his avatar was always on, and his signature was changed to "Missing Momo".But I ignored him.I was invisible all the time, I went online just to find a safe place, I didn't need to talk to anyone.Mi Sha found me in the Internet cafe.Her hair was wet from the rain, and she said to me in a calm but irresistible tone: "Mo Xingxing, follow me back to the dormitory." I sat there without moving. She immediately turned off the computer for me.Then pull me up and go. We went out of the Internet cafe, the rain was getting heavier and heavier, Mi Sha magically took out an umbrella, she tilted the umbrella towards me, and she was soaked all over, and we returned to the dormitory at 10:30.Jiang Lan just took a shower, with a huge towel wrapped around her head, she stood at the door and stared at me coldly.Mi Sha pulled me to open the door and go in. "If you have the guts, you won't return all night, daughter of a hero. Aren't you a saint? Damn, that's what saints do." I went back to the dormitory with Mi Sha, and they were already asleep. Wu You got up from the bed and started gossiping: "Mo Xingxing, where have you been? Jiang Lan told the class teacher that you didn't go to study at night. Think of a good way to deal with it." "What are you afraid of? I have a stomachache and went to see a doctor, can't I?" Mi Sha asked me still holding a can of eight-treasure porridge. Didn't you have dinner?" I replied: "I have eaten." Because I know that as long as I eat a little bit, it is by no means that little bit can solve the problem. Half an hour after the lights were turned off, I was lying on my bed, still tossing and turning.Misha's bed is very quiet.She has fallen asleep. I pressed the glass hourglass sent by Misha against my stomach, leaned my head from my bunk, and listened to everyone's breathing, whether it was very even. They have all fallen into a deep sleep. I climbed cautiously off the bed frame.Open the cabinet, only a box of instant noodles.can not eat.I warn myself.The smell of instant noodles can easily wake them up.Besides, one box is simply not enough. During the onset of the disease, only when this sense of fullness—that is, a strong sense of falling pain—comes, can I really feel the taste of fullness. Yes, I am full.I satisfied myself once again.I know that one day, my stomach will burst, and my bruised stomach will let me know what the price is. I stood up and found that Mi Sha had sat up from the bed and was looking at me. It turned out that she hadn't fallen asleep all this time!Her eyes were shining like stars in the dark night, I shrank back in fright, she slid out of bed gently, and said in my ear: "Wake up, what's wrong with you? Don't scare me. What's the matter, can you tell me? Okay?" My tears slid down and onto Mi Sha's bare shoulders.I don't know how to start with Misha, so many things, such a heavy taste, I'm not sure if Misha can break it down for me, the water in my stomach makes me feel swollen, I lower my head, thinking When I was about to vomit, Mi Sha dragged me out of the dormitory, and we came to the cold corridor outside, Mi Sha patted my back gently, and said softly: "Wake up, what's wrong with you? What's the matter?" I looked up at the starry sky, the starry sky in autumn was quiet and lonely, and Mi Sha gently hugged me from behind. The last lesson on Tuesday afternoon is art.After class, Mi Sha and I walked back to the classroom with a big art book in our arms.When passing by the piano room, he heard intermittent piano sound coming from inside, Mi Sha put his face on the glass and looked at it for a long time, then turned his head and said to me: "Mr. Xu is playing, come on, let's go in and listen? " "You go." I said, "I'm going back to collect my clothes." "Let's go." Mi Sha whispered, "She plays really well, the piece I like." I don't understand music, but I can already hear the clue, it's the song my father hummed that night.The melody of loneliness and vicissitudes, I broke away from Mi Sha with some strength and said: "I really have to go." "Wake up," Mi Sha followed up, "Okay, okay, let's go to the small orange grove? There is a row of trees over there with a lot of green fruits, which smell really good. Shall we pick some?" I hesitated, not wanting to go far.I've been feeling weak for days because I haven't eaten much lately. "Go." Mi Sha grabbed my hand and ran away.Mi Sha's hands are soft and somewhat dry, far from damp like mine.I compromised and followed her steps forward. We were very happy and arrived at the place Mi Sha said, there was a big rockery behind the row of trees.I think if I'm not mistaken, there are two people hiding behind it. And I know those two people.It was Jiang Lan and Mi Li. Mi Sha picked a bagful of fruits and was very happy.When she picked one up and put it under my nose for me to smell, she also discovered the situation behind the rockery. "Shhh!" she said to me, before carefully leaning over a rock and looking back. I was not mistaken, it was indeed Jiang Lan and Mi Li.Mi Li tried to pull Jiang Lan into his arms, Jiang Lan smiled and pushed him away with both arms, they were in a stalemate, Mi Li's face had that kind of fearful expression that would never let him go if he couldn't get his hands on. That expression was so funny that Mi Sha couldn't help chuckling. When Mi Li heard Mi Sha's laughter, she let go of Jiang Lan and jumped one meter away as if she had been electrocuted. "Who? Get out!" Jiang Lan's voice raised eighty degrees. We didn't hide, and we didn't plan to hide. "Bitch, listen to our conversation?!" Jiang Lan's mouth was more poisonous than piranhas. "So what if I hear it?" Mi Sha bravely stepped forward, and then said to Mi Li, "You succeeded! I haven't had time to congratulate you yet! Great Wei Suo Nan!" Mi Li, like Uncle McDonald's, with his hands clasped and his head slumped.It turned out that his height of more than 1.8 meters was false. Standing behind Jiang Lan, it seemed that he was not as tall as her. "How much have you heard?" Jiang Lan said calmly, "I don't think you're stupid enough to tell the head teacher?" "Puppy love is not unusual." Mi Sha said. "Hmph, what you say is useless. This place," she pointed at her feet, "is built with money donated by my uncle. Don't think that only the one behind you is shrouded in halo." She glanced at me, "I Not acceptable!" Mi Sha pulled me, took a step back, and said, "It's okay, just wait and see." Then we ran away quickly. Jiang Lan's loud and unrelenting voice could be heard behind him: "You deserve to wait and see with me?!" Early the next morning, the morning reading class was Chinese.When I arrived, there were only a few classmates.Some were eating breakfast, some were reading texts, and one or two were copying their homework early.The morning reading class in the day follows the principle of voluntary.Come if you want, or come if you don’t want to.The teacher never checks, it all depends on the students' self-consciousness.Freer than college. In Chinese class, I saw Mi Sha scribbling on the notebook. It was a boy's face. Mi Sha's drawing was not satisfactory, but anyone could tell who she was drawing.The teacher's eyes began to notice her, I coughed lightly, took her Chinese book and covered the notebook for her, she turned to look at me, her face flushed slightly. In activity class on Friday afternoon, Mi Sha and I went back to the dormitory to clean up.After cleaning the glass, she sat back on the chair, staring at one place in a daze.But out of the blue, he asked me, "If I fell in love too, would you look down on me?" "How come." I said. "Do you still remember the boy who hosted the drama performance that day?" How can I not remember. "Is that him?" I suppressed my nervousness and pretended to ask casually. "I think," Mi Sha put a pink cushion on the back of the chair, lay on it and said, without speaking for a long time, when she buried her head deeply in the cushion and raised it again, she said four words: "I like him." She went on: "I wrote him a letter . . . and it was . . . returned." "He is the chairman of the student union, and his grades are the first in the whole grade. It's like Jiang Zhishu in "Prank Kiss", he is very good, but he is very indifferent to everything." She lowered her eyelids and poured out everything about him to me silently. Yeah?If it was a boy like that, he probably wouldn't tell my secret.But what if he was with Mi Sha?But what if he met me again through Misha? I gathered my thoughts and said, "So, you mean you're chasing him?" "It's just that I wrote a letter hoping to ask him a lot of questions...but it was returned. Hey, he must have regarded me as that kind of vulgar girl!" Mi Sha said with a sad face, "God knows, I just I want to be friends with him." "Retire as soon as possible." I comforted Mi Sha and said, "One day he will regret it!" Mi Sha frowned and said, "But, what's worse, Mi Li saw the returned letter. He threatened me not to tell anything about him and Jiang Lan on this condition." "Hehe." I laughed. "Wake up, you're laughing at me!" Mi Sha sighed, "Mi Li and I are destined to be embarrassing roles, oh." That night, Mi Sha insisted on sleeping with me again.Fortunately, we are not too fat, the narrow bed can accommodate the two of us. Wu You said: "If I sleep with one of you, you will definitely become meatloaf!" It's fine if Li Yan doesn't speak, but when she speaks, she scares people to death: "Don't break your back." Mi Sha jumped up from the bed and sang loudly: "I'm broken, I'm broken, I'm broken..." We laugh together. Someone in the next room was banging on the wall dissatisfied. You don't need to guess, you know who it is. "Hmph, hum!" Mi Sha said unconvinced, "If you have the ability to break through the wall, come over and make a move, who is afraid of whom?" Wu You said softly: "She is the most shameless person. I saw her pestering that Lu Li at the library gate today, and everyone ignored her. She kept saying that she was like a spider." Mi Sha dragged my quilt over my head and said loudly, "Sleep!" After turning off the lights, about an hour later, neither Mi Sha nor I fell asleep. Mi Sha, who turned over to face the wall, slowly turned her body towards me and held my hand in hers.Her palms were full of sweat.The whole body seems to be steaming. "Wake up," her voice was also hot: "Do you believe in love? "No." I said. "why?" "Nothing, just don't believe it." "I don't think boys are reliable." Mi Sha said, "Do boys like other people's admiration? If they are spoiled by girls, they don't know how to get off. Hmph." It's good to know, it shows that Mi Sha hasn't become confused because of love.I didn't speak.Just a vague "hmm", Mi Sha squeezed my hand, thinking that I fell asleep.Her hand was on my stomach, and I felt uncomfortable, but I didn't push her away.Through a layer of pajamas, I can feel her warmth and her heartbeat. Girls grow up, but they are different, and they can't escape their troubles. "Lu Li is really different." She murmured, "Actually, we met for the first time on the first day of school. I was carrying a big bag, saw his back, and asked him to help carry things into the classroom He agreed. But he didn’t speak all the way. I was the only one talking. I asked him about how far the dormitory was from the school, whether the weekends were off, etc. Weak questions. He only said: “I will get to know you later and you'll know.'” "Oh." I commented with a sober voice, "He seems a bit lofty." "I heard that if there is no first love before the age of eighteen, life is incomplete." Mi Sha said. "Bullshit." I answered simply and rudely, scaring Mi Sha too: "Ah? Why is it bullshit?" "There is no reason. Love is not worth mentioning." I turned over and faced to the left. This is the usual sleep method that people think will oppress the heart.Press it, press it, the pressure is numb and I won't hurt anymore. Mother's love is humble. Papa's "love" is shameful. My "love" is beyond reach. There is no eternal "love" in the legend-love is not worth mentioning, and time destroys everything.I shed tears unknowingly.Stomach cramps started again. Mi Sha leaned over and hugged me. She put her palms over my eyes. "I don't know how much you have been wronged before, and no matter what kind of pain you are suffering now, Mo Xingxing, we will always be together in the future. Trust me, okay?" Her voice rang in my ears.Such a weak but firm voice seemed to plant a hopeful seed in my heart. From now on we will always be together, Misha.I want to believe it. But who can tell me how far forever it is? Autumn has come. The leaves on the campus are red, and the unknown tree dyes the sky outside the classroom majestic.The most popular news on campus that autumn was: Jiang Lan and Lu Li became a couple. "Ah bah!" Mi Sha said, "She made it up by herself. Shameless! I heard that she bought a lot of people to praise her in front of Lu Li with her sister's concert tickets as a deal." "So what?" I said, "Don't pay too much attention to that logic, it's nothing special." "But," Mi Sha said with a bitter face, "he's really amazing. You've seen the posters of dramas, and they were all designed by him. There are also DV dramas directed by him on the Internet, which won the first prize in the country. Don’t be too good. I heard that his grades are also very good, such an all-round boy, not to mention Tianzhong, I don’t think I can find a second one with a flashlight in the whole of China!” It's an exaggeration. "I must let him know a different me!" Mi Sha raised his fist and said like an advertisement. One afternoon not long after, I saw that boy named Lu Li at school. A girl wearing an ELAND short coat and dazzling pink short fur boots walked proudly beside him.The so-called handsome guy, Lu Li, still kept his cool pace with his hands in his pockets, and ignored the witch beside him.The two of them crossed the campus together in such a peculiar way, which attracted the attention of countless people. But for Jiang Lan, this is of course far from enough. "Hallo! Holy Maiden!" When passing by me, she stopped suddenly and called me with her unique loud voice. It was noon at that time, and Misha had gone to post letters at the post office outside the school. I sat alone in the booth and read an English newspaper.I looked up and stared at her with the weirdest eyes.She felt uncomfortable being stared at by me. She waved her hand and said, "Give my regards to your best friend! Why didn't you get together today?" I can't even bother to care about her. "Lu Li, Lu Li!" She called out his name loudly, pulled his arm and said, "Come on, let me introduce you, this is classmate Mo Xingxing, you should know her, she is very famous .” I was really afraid that she would say something I didn't want to hear, so I stood up, closed the newspaper and asked to go out of the pavilion.But Jiang Lan stopped me and said, "Saint, don't you want to say a word?" I said coldly: "I feel sick when I see you, how can I talk?" As soon as I finished speaking, I really wanted to vomit. This is a disease that I can't get rid of. Whenever I feel blocked, panicked or angry, I vomit very easily. I cover my mouth and lie on the pavilion On the side, trying to control himself, his face must be extremely ugly. "Are you okay?" a voice asked behind me.He spoke in a very flat tone and his voice was very soft. Of course I know who it is.But I didn't answer him, and my situation didn't allow me to speak, otherwise, I would definitely throw up my stomach and throw it to Spain. "Lu Li, I think you should go and tell Xu Lin to let the saint of the acting school be the number one female. Compared with her, I don't know how far it is." Jiang Lan smacked her lips and said, "Look, look. .What a pity!" "You go first!" I heard Lu Li say to her. "Okay." Jiang Lan said sensiblely, "Then I'll go first, don't forget our date, 88." I was half-bent and frozen there, still unable to move.A hand suddenly held my arm: "Are you okay? If you don't feel well, you must go to the infirmary!" I almost jumped up in shock, and turned my head to see a face. That was the first time I did this. Take a close look at a boy's face.My God, he looks really good-looking, such beautiful eyebrows, such beautiful eyes, such beautiful lips... My face quickly became hot, and I quickly pushed him away. I pushed so fast that he was a little unsteady, but he was not angry, but said to me with a slight smile: "Mo Xingxing, have we met somewhere?" I didn't answer, turned around and left quickly. Mi Sha entered the classroom by the bell, looked at me, and reached out to touch my forehead: "What's wrong with you, have a fever?" "No." I hurried to find something to say: "Your letter has been sent?" Mi Sha smiled mysteriously, but didn't speak.Stretch out two fingers and make a "V" gesture for me. That night, Mi Sha seemed a little mysterious. Before going to bed, she climbed into my bed again and said that she had an "important event" to announce to me.It is already autumn weather, two people sleep together, even if the temperature cools down in the middle of the night, it is not easy to catch a cold. At 11 o'clock, the lights in the dormitory are turned off on time.Mi Sha used all her strength to pull the quilt "hula" over our heads.Then, from nowhere, she conjured up her cell phone and opened it with a "snap". Under the light of the bright mobile phone screen, I looked at her eyes that were shining with excitement.She looked at the phone intently, clicked the button, and the screen jumped to the "inbox". Opening the top message, an unfamiliar number said: See you at the pavilion next to the rockery tomorrow at noon. ——Lu Li the next day. Misha wakes up at 5 o'clock.She quickly climbed out of bed.After tossing for an hour, she even sacrificed her precious morning reading class.She finally puts on the "barely fitting" one.The light green lady skirt, the white tunic shirt, and the light green grid jacket are pure to the extreme. But at noon that day, Lu Li missed the appointment, and Mi Sha sat alone in the pavilion for nearly an hour, and there was no shadow of the handsome guy Lu. When the class was about to start, I forced her back to the classroom, and she lay on the table, Ask me: "Why is he like this, why are you playing me? Why is he like this?" I thought about it, and told her: "Wu You said that I saw Lu Li and Jiang Lan together in the cafeteria at noon today." She turned her back to me and straightened her back. "Forget it." I said, "This kind of person is not worth it." After a minute of silence, Mi Sha turned around and said to me softly, "If he really falls in love with Jiang Lan, I will die of disappointment." I squeezed her hand, which I know is a thin comfort. Love is always disappointing, dear Mi Sha, if you understand earlier, you should be less hurt. I don't know if it was because of Mi Sha's frustration, but that afternoon was a self-study class, and Jiang Lan hummed songs for as long as she took classes. Mi Sha couldn't bear it anymore, so she deliberately raised her voice after school, turned to Mi Li and said, "Is my sister-in-law okay today? I sang foolishly all afternoon!" Jiang Lan stopped in her tracks and said, "I'm just happy. Can you control being happy? You don't have to listen to it if you don't like it!" "Wake up." Mi Sha grabbed me and said, "Let's skip class tonight!" "No way?" I said. "I'd like to see what tricks they are playing!" Look, love, that's love.Love makes Mi Sha become crazy. "Wake up, let's go together!" In the cafeteria at six o'clock in the evening.Mi Sha doesn't know how to eat, so he smashed a bowl of ramen, and has been lobbying me non-stop. "No." I ordered porridge, and hung my head down to drink my rice soup. "Wake up, let's go together, okay?" Mi Sha simply pushed the ramen aside, pulled my sleeve, and begged, "I don't have any homework tonight, and the teacher has another meeting. Nothing will happen, promise Me, okay, okay?" "No." I said. "Oh." Mi Sha pulled the noodles over, lowered his head, and swiped the noodles into his mouth in a daze. After dinner, Mi Sha said that she was going to buy a pen at the canteen, and asked me to go back first. That night for self-study, as I expected, Mi Sha did not show up.I sent her two text messages and she didn't reply.When I was about to leave for self-study, I called her, but she didn't answer.A strong sense of foreboding rose in my heart, I was worried that something would happen to Misha!God, something must have happened to her!I suffered like this until the end of get out of class.I said to myself: I can't go, I can't go.If he left like this and the head teacher suddenly appeared, there would not even be a single person to speak for Mi Sha. Thankfully, not a single teacher showed up at the door that night. After self-study get out of class, I rushed to the school gate like flying.Mi Li shouted behind me: "Wait!" I turned my head and asked him loudly, "Did Mi Sha go to the bar?" He rubbed his head: "I guess so." He rubbed his head again and said, "If something happens to her, my dad will kill me." The feeling of ominousness continued to rise in my heart, and my brain exploded. I rushed to the school gate, and Mi Li followed me panting. Suddenly, a security guard in uniform flashed out: "What are you doing!" "Uncle, can you open the door?" I begged him. "Where's the teacher's approval note?" He scowled. I was incoherent, "That's not the case, there's something urgent..." Mi Li came from behind.He walked over old-fashionedly, pulled the guard to another place, took out a pack of cigarettes like a magic trick, and quickly settled everything. The electric door slowly opened, and I ran out. My heart hurts like it's about to break.My stomach turned upside down—but I couldn't take care of it anymore, I ran to the three-way intersection outside the campus and stopped suddenly, wait, where should I go to find Misha? "Forget it?" Is that the name? While hesitating, Mi Li followed me and asked, "Come with me, I know where the bar is." I nod.I saw that Mi Li's forehead was covered with sweat.I clenched my fists, if something happens to Mi Sha, I will never spare this kid! "Yes, yes." Mi Li took me to turn left skillfully, and said to me as he walked, "You have to persuade classmate Mi Sha in the future, she has a problem with her personality." "You're the one with the problem," I said. "You guys, it's not really broken back." Mi Li said, "It's so enviable to protect each other so much." I didn't answer his words anymore, I followed Mi Li and walked for about ten minutes, and then I saw the sign of the bar, and it really said "forget it".Mi Li pushed open the door skillfully, and I stood at the door and waited for him to bring Mi Sha out.Three minutes later, Mi Li came out alone and shook her head at me. At ten o'clock in the middle of the night, the wind blows and blows in the street, like a black hole full of danger.I was afraid that Mi Li would lie to me, so I pushed him away and entered the bar. There were all kinds of young people in the bar, and I saw a junior high school classmate inside. He didn't get good grades and didn't get into high school. , I read a technical school.That night, he was wearing a black top with weird patterns on it, and with a cigarette in his mouth, he asked me in a surprised voice: "Mo Xingxing, why are you here?" "Look for someone." I said, "Have you seen a girl from the sky?" He narrowed his eyes and thought for a long time before saying, "No." When I was about to go out, he suddenly said, "Wait, it seems." "Sitting there at first." He pointed to a seat in the corner, "Then he went out, I don't know where he went." I walked out of the bar, Mi Li was wearing thin clothes, huddled in the autumn wind and looked around.I walked up to him and said to him in a commanding tone, "Find Mi Sha for me!" "Where can I find it?" he said. "It's around here," I said. "We'll separate." After speaking, I left him and walked forward.I am not familiar with this area, it can be said that I have hardly been here, but the desire to find Misha made me temporarily forget all my fears. After turning the corner, I arrived at a more secluded neighborhood, and my intuition tempted me to keep going. , When passing by an alley, I heard movement. I stopped, and with the help of the dim light, I saw several vague figures at the end of the alley. I rushed forward without thinking, and it was Mi Sha, surrounded by several boys, her hands tied behind her. , the mouth has been sealed with a black cloth strip, and the big eyes are full of fear. "Let go of her," I said. My voice is very calm, strange, I don't seem to be afraid at all. "Here comes another one!" A boy stepped forward and grabbed me, "Good time, we buddies are worried about not having enough fun!" I shook off his stinky paws, took a quick step back, and said sharply, "You guys Better get out!" The boy put a finger up, put it to his lips, and said obscenely: "Student, let's get out together, okay?" A few boys looked at me and I looked at you. The leading boy made a gesture, and they dispersed like birds and beasts. I saw Mi Sha squatting down slowly along the corner of the wall.Silent tears dripped from the corners of his eyes.她的脸上有被打过的红肿的痕迹，衣服也被扯破了些许，半边肩膀裸露在外面，我一把扯掉蒙着她嘴巴的那块破布，手忙脚乱地替她松绑，她趴在我肩上，无声地抽泣。 “没事。米砂。”我一面对付那根该死的绳子一面安慰她，“没事，马上就好。” 她终于嚎啕大哭。 我还是没能解开那条绳子，只好抱住米砂，拍着她的背说：“别哭，别哭，我们马上就回学校。” 她显然是受了很大的惊吓，身子抖得厉害。 旁边忽然有人说话：“用我的小刀试试？” 是米砾。他左手握着一把哨子，右手捏着一把小刀，怕兮兮地站在那里。 我接过刀，米砾俯下身来帮我，我们终于把绳子弄断了。重获自由的米砂有些艰难地站起身来，她抬起手臂，把衣服理理好，把眼泪擦干净，我扶住她问：“有没有事？” 她没做声，而是上前一步，给了米砾清脆的一耳光。 “去死！”她咬牙切齿地说，“我饶不了你！” 米砾捂住脸，站在那里像根木桩。 那晚我们回到宿舍的时候，已经是夜里十一点半，灯早熄了，伍优和李研双双朝里睡着，一声不吭。等我重新爬上床，我还是睡不着，我把窗台上的沙漏取下来玩，沙子缓缓无声的滴下。恍然间我在想：我们的心，是不是也像这些小小的沙砾一样，只有不断缩紧自己穿越狭窄的缝隙，才能得到皈依，不再孤独？ 沙漏颠倒反覆，人生的阵痛便经历一次又一次。 ９９秒。 可是米砂啊米砂，人生有多少９９秒，需要多少的勇气，才能经得住这一次又一次的痛彻心扉呢？ 莫醒醒，我们又见面了。”他继续说。 “莫醒醒，我们又见面了”，好象他永远都是这一句开场白。 我听到自己轻轻地恩了一声。 “怎么不打伞？”他回过头来，把手上的那叠A4打印纸放在我的头顶，说：“把我的避雨工具借给你使使。” 我很尴尬，取下那叠纸不是，说：“谢谢”更不好意思，只好继续沉默地低头，像在想非常非常深奥的问题。其实天知道，我只是想一步跨到剧场门口，离这个所谓的“万人迷”远点。 他可真是做作。 “在想什么，快走啊。”他提醒我。 我想一定把我当成那种“花痴”女生了吧，他永远都不会知道，其实低头只是我的习惯动作。当我没有话说，或者讨厌一个人的时候，我都会这样做。这是一种最隐晦的拒绝方式。但现在而今眼目下，我无法断然拒绝这个人对我的关心，他就这样用一叠纸挡在我的头顶，和死死埋着头的我一起用这种奇怪的姿势半跑进了剧场的大门。 “我跟米砂一起走到前台，然后我独自下台来，穿过第一排的过道准备往后走。蒋蓝坐在第一排的某个位子上，路理站在她旁边，他们好像正在讨论本子。我懒得看他们，加快了我的步伐。可我怎么也没想到，经过蒋蓝身边的时候，她竟然伸出一只脚来，狠狠地拌了我一下。我的身体失去重心，眼看着就要一个“狗吃屎”撞向地面，却被一只胳膊用力地拉了起来，整个人站不稳，倒入了他的怀中！ “你干什么？”路理一面抱住我，一面转头怒斥蒋蓝。 “醒醒，你没事吧。”米砂也从舞台上直冲下来。 “没事。”我赶紧挣脱路理，脸已经红到脖子根。 “哈哈哈哈哈。”蒋蓝哈哈大笑，“莫醒醒，我这是在给你创造机会，你应该好好谢谢我才对，瞧，你的脸红得……真好看，像红苹果。” “你给我闭嘴！”路理骂她。 蒋蓝有些不相信地看着路理。一旁的米砾又抽风，笑得像个神经病。米砂正好拿他开刀，一拳头揍到他胸口上。米砾要回手，米砂灵巧地闪开，米砾追过去，战争瞬间变成兄妹之间的。 “别闹了，开排！”路理拿着手里的剧本，一个箭步跳上了舞台。我跟米砂匆忙做了一个再见的手势，低头往门边，以最快的速度冲出了小剧场。 我真恨蒋蓝。 在回家的摇摇晃晃的公车上，我收到米砂发来的短信：“醒醒，谢谢你的红薯，你吃饭了吗，不许饿肚子啊，听到没有？” 我回了一个“恩”。 有人关心的感觉，真不错。 下了车，发现雨已经停了。这是秋天被雨水刚刚洗过的干干净净的黄昏，我的心里忽然冒出一个决定，这决定让我有些激动，心也加速地跳动起来。 我把包放下来，把外套也脱了。吸了一口气，呼啦拉开了橱门，打开上锁的柜子，从里面把我要的东西拿出来。 那是一匹布。 刚买没有多久。我很少买东西，这是经过一个裁缝店的时候，无意中瞟见的。不是太贵，但还是用了一个月的零花钱。我是一个很懒得花钱的人，可是一旦花钱，必是买不中用的东西。本来还发愁用它做何用，可是，现在它有了很重要的使命。 我端坐在椅子上，将那截棉布缓缓展开。 这才发现原来布上面是有花纹的。一小朵一小朵饱满的栀子花，淡得快要不见了。边沿的花瓣有点枯，整朵花却正开的好。 我将它覆盖在眼睛上，面向屋顶的桔黄色的小灯，是多么多么暖和。 我把布匹放在床上摊好。把我的小本子拿出来，看我做的一些记录。 163是她的身高。32是她的胸围。19是她的腰围。31是她的臀围。 那是她曾经告诉过我的数字，其实早已经默记在心里，不需要记。但是就是怕出错，所以看了又看。 米砂没有飘扬的长发，我要用我的剪刀和针线，为她弥补这个遗憾。 我用小粉笔在白布上描出裁剪的轮廓。又戴上白然的顶针，给缝纫机装线，穿针。然后踩下踏板。嘀哒嘀哒，金属针准确无误地扎在淡淡地粉笔线上，我的心，像跟着脚下一起飞起来一样。 有时候，我觉得做衣服真是一件让人喜悦的事情。你穿针引线，她裙裾飘飘。有付出有回报。多么好的事情呢。何况，穿上它的人，是你最亲密的人。 那件衣服，我做了整整两天，这中间，我只吃了一碗面条，下楼喝过两次水，倒在小床上潦草地睡了几个小觉。这是我第一次做衣服。以前都是改小或裁剪，这次是名副其实的制作。不要嫌弃我笨拙的手艺，亲爱的米砂。我只有这份寒酸的礼物送给你。只希望你穿上它和你的王子站在一起的时候，是最幸福的女生。 我亲爱的米砂。你的微笑是我们共同的幸福，我必须为之去努力。 就这样忙啊忙，忙到我都不知道时间，才隐约听到开门的声音。 是他回来了！ 我以迅雷不及掩耳的速度拾掇好一切，把衣服抱在胸前，关了灯钻进被子里。 我听到脚步在门口游移的声音，好在，感谢现在已是午夜，他一定以为我睡着了，终于走开了。 我听到他下楼的脚步声，松了一口气。 把暖暖的衣服抱在胸口，不知道什么时候，我才放心地睡着。 不幸的是，第二天，我起晚了。 当我套着衣服拎着装满东西的大包急匆匆走下楼梯时，爸爸已经坐在那里吃早点了。餐桌上摆满东西，显然他很早就起了床。 我假装没看见他，径自走过去换鞋。他说：“等等，吃完早饭我送你过去。” “可是，快来不及了。”我嗫嚅着。 “过来吃早饭。”他说，“我开车总比你坐公车快。” 我说：“那你帮我把早饭热一下我带走吃吧，真的来不及了。” 他想了想，点点头。 我想，米砂一定没吃早饭。 我又坐上了他的二手桑塔纳，他有些得意地对我说：“醒醒，爸爸最近生意不错，很快就要换辆新车了。等你满了十八岁，我就让你去学驾照，到时候也替你买一辆新车！” “不用这么夸张吧。”我说。 他一面开车一面转头看我，忽然问我说：“爸爸是不是老了？” “有点吧。”我说。 他哈哈地笑，我真怀疑他是不是捡到金子了，情绪这么高昂。不过难得他这么开心，我也不想扫他的兴，于是也假装笑了一下。 “在学校给我好好学习，这个春节爸爸带你去香港游迪斯尼！” 我偷偷看他，他的鬓角已有白发，而他还一直当我是孩子。我的心里忽然涌起一股说不出的酸楚，我们是相依为命的父女，或许我不应该对他那么绝情。下车的时候，他替我把包拎着说：“有些重，我替我拿到宿舍吧。” I did not refuse.因为我知道拒绝一定会让他不好受。就这样，他拎着大包昂着挺胸地走在我前面，一直把我送到宿舍，才离开。 米砂看着那条裙子，一动不动。眼泪忽然就掉了下来。 又过了很久，她一把抱住我，浑身颤抖，哽咽着说：“哦，亲爱的，它比我所有的淑女屋的裙子都要漂亮。我爱死你了莫醒醒！” 最后一句话，她用了超大的嗓门，正戴着耳机写作业的伍优痛苦地捂着耳朵，边摇头边叹息。 当天晚上，我去学校外面的网吧上了网。果然，学校的BBS上，最热的那张贴名叫：《高一17的情侣姐妹》。 我点开它。这篇突破1000０点击的热帖内容是这样的： 她们朝夕相处，形影不离。——朋友能这样。 她们互相亲吻，彼此拥抱。——好朋友能这样。 她们每个夜晚同床共枕，彼此缠颈。 ——谁能这样？ ! 本校高一17班的两名性感出位女生，大胆奔放，公然做出种种不堪入目的同性恋行为。 天中不能容忍早恋，更不能容忍同性恋。容忍可耻的“断背”，让她们滚出天中！ 还天中纯洁！还花季纯洁！让堕落的人滚出天中！ 这个贴子里还附有模糊不清的，明显被ＰＳ过的不堪入目的照片。 我趴在网吧的键盘上，欲哭无泪。 我俩走进宿舍，伍优和李妍正在说话，见我们进去，立刻闭了嘴。 米砂冷冷地笑着说：“你们要是觉得不舒服，可以申请换宿舍，这没有什么。” 伍优结结巴巴地说：“不……关我，我的事。” 米砂很凶地回他：“我有说你什么吗，大嘴巴？！” 伍优扁扁嘴，就要哭的样子，被李妍劝到窗边去了。米砂把我一拖，故意很大声地说：“醒醒，我们睡觉！” 我的天呐。我一时真想不明白，这件事该如何才能收场。 我的预感是灵的。事情远不如我想像中那么轻松。 第二天早上我又醒得比米砂晚，等我吃完早饭往教室走去，远远的，就透过窗户看见蒋蓝站在讲台上，她最近染了红头发，造型很好认。不知道为什么，不好的预感又一次袭来，我不由得加快脚步。 “三八！”这是蒋蓝的声音蒋蓝站在她自己的座位上，好象在哪冲了个澡，头发统统贴在脸上，脸上的妆也花了，看上去傻极了。地上有崭新的毛巾，我猜是被她扔在地上的。 看这个样子，好象是被人浇了水。我表情难看地望着米砂，不相信是她干的。 她用眼神告诉我，确实不是她。 蒋蓝继续说：“今天哪个三八浇水泼我了，最好自己站出来！”说完，她拼命拍了一下桌子。 有人把头埋下去睡觉，有人抽风般的翻书，有人拿笔在桌子上瞎划拉，有一个男生想逃出去上厕所，蒋蓝冲到门口一把把门关上。 米砂一只手撑着脑袋，一只手在桌上敲着，就那样无所畏惧地看着蒋蓝。 “有人刚来，那我再重复一遍。”蒋蓝继续说：“今天我在一楼经过的时候，楼上有人冲老娘头顶泼水！我看得清清楚楚，她绝对是咱们班的！”说完，她锐利地扫了一眼米砂。 米砂接了腔：“凭什么在咱们班门口泼的就是咱们班的？” 我来不及捂她的嘴巴。该死，她又中计了。 “哈！米砂，你不用心虚。”果然蒋蓝很受用她的话。 “虚什么虚，我要是想泼你，绝对是用桶，而且是开水。”我根本来不及捂她的嘴，米砂一秒钟也没停顿就脱口而出。 说完，她也趴下来，对我灿烂地笑了一下，又马上收回她的笑。 蒋蓝跟着也纵声大笑，说：“你泼我没关系，不过，你不要被学校泼出去才好。” 说完，她拣起地上的毛巾，准备出去，刚拉开门，她又突然回头，对我笑了一下，轻轻的说了句：“两个贱货。” A scholar can be killed but not humiliated.我冲上前一把拉住她：“你说什么？” 她看着我，不敢重复。我轻声说：“有种你把刚才的话再重复一遍。”