Chapter 39 38

Jing left home that day and went to the mountain to pay homage to Lu Yihan.Shen He was waiting for her there.They stood together for a while in the high wind at the top of the mountain, and then descended.Shen He said: I have helped you deal with that bookseller's matter.He hasn't read your manuscript, so he won't know that you write so well, so just give him some money and deal with it. thanks.I will return it to you as soon as possible.Jing felt that "as soon as possible" seemed a bit illusory, but she said so anyway. If you want to repay me, write a book with your heart.I promise you it will change everything that sucks right now.Shen He said firmly.

You trust me like that?Jing said softly. At the foot of the mountain, Jing said goodbye to Shen He, and Shen He asked her if she would go home, and she could take her home first, or meet Xiao Zhuo.Jing said no, I won't go home.I'm going to find another place to live.Shen He asked why.Jing said, Xiao Zhuo has grown up, he has a girlfriend, and I am a redundant person.After Jing finished speaking, she shrugged self-deprecatingly.Shen He said, you can live in my house temporarily.No one lives there.Jing shook her head and said: No, thank you.I don't seem to have a day in my life like this, when there are no constraints.When I was standing on the desolate mountain just now, I suddenly thought, if I find a hidden place to die, and no one cares about my disappearance, it will take a long time before I am discovered.Well, let me go, I've never tried to be so free.

Jing turned her back on Shen He. Jing wandered aimlessly on the street.She could vaguely feel that Shen He was following her, but she didn't look back to find out.That night Jing was like a busy female knight.She wandered to Mandolin first.She thought, I never went in.So she went in.Just like a spring, once the limit load is exceeded, it is impossible to return to its original state.She seems to be completely open now, let it be, no longer defensive, no longer tense.She has never been so idle, sitting at the bar, drinking strong drinks and devouring cheesecake. Vomit.She quickly fell into her binge eating cycle.Jing locked herself in the bathroom of the bar and leaned over to pick her throat for a long time, trying to spit out all the food she had eaten.However, in an unfamiliar environment, under such a bright light, the shame is doubled.The door handle was turned back and forth—someone was trying to get in.She couldn't make a sound, she was so afraid of making a sound, afraid that the door wasn't closed properly.Then this will be a most no room for turning around being caught and shown to the public.She was even more afraid of meeting Man here.It seemed like it was getting harder for her because she hadn't thrown up in a long time.The throat was like a rusted valve, and it couldn't be opened no matter what, even if she hit it so violently, she still couldn't.She felt dizzy like never before, blood rushed to her forehead and the top of her head, almost made her lose consciousness, she just felt her eyes swell and tears poured out mechanically.

The women couldn't open the door, and there was a slight resentment outside. Jing finally couldn't spit out anything anymore, and leaned against the corner opposite the toilet to rest.After a while, she stood up and went to the sink to wash her face. She buried her face in the sprayed water, rinsed it continuously, and suddenly raised her head—the moment she looked into the mirror, she was so frightened that she almost cried out .She saw blood in one of her eyes.This kind of blood was not the usual congestion, not the bloodshot she had become accustomed to, but bright red blood, which completely covered the eyeballs.She was terrified and didn't know what was going on. She had never seen such eyes, as if the pupils had been set on fire.

She poured water into her eyes, and she soon realized that it was futile to try to dilute the redness.The blood was not in the pupil, but in the retina (although her vision was still clear).She even stretched out her fingers to dispel the redness, but it still didn't work.Jing suddenly found it very interesting, this is her mother's territory, she really shouldn't come.Man must have put a curse here. While giving up all efforts, Jing thought of the word "retribution".She warned herself time and time again that she should give up overeating and vomiting, but every time she was lucky enough to want to do it one last time.This is no different from a person who cannot quit drugs.However, this time, she finally ushered in a violent event that she will never forget—she didn't know what kind of disease her eyes had, whether they could recover, or whether they would suddenly bleed.

Jing stumbled to open the bathroom door, and broke through the two women waiting at the door.She lowered her head hard, just looking at the pair of feet rushing towards her.The hair fell down and covered the whole face, a face with shameful red eyes.She ran straight to the gate, and was suddenly stopped by the waiter: Miss, you haven't paid the bill yet... She stood there hastily, hurriedly going to pay for money, her head still bowed.Suddenly, a big and powerful hand embraced her from the right, and the other hand paid quickly, and walked out of the "mandolin" with her in his arms.

After going out, Shen He asked her, why are you in such a panic and what happened? Jing raised her face and looked at him with those red eyes.Anyone who sees such an eye will be terrified.Shen He immediately asked, how could it be like this?Did you get into a fight with someone? Jing shook her head helplessly, and murmured: I was cursed by that witch. Seeing that she was insane, Shen He also knew that it would be useless to ask more questions.So he stopped a taxi and dragged her to the hospital.Jing refused to go, so Shen He coaxed and frightened her, and finally took her into the car. Jing was diagnosed with "conjunctival hemorrhage".The reason is that the blood pressure in the brain is too high, which bursts the blood vessels in the eyes.Fresh blood poured out of those broken little tubes.The blood quickly flowed to the entire eyeball, but there was no way out.So they get stuck in the cornea.But Yin Jing refused to say anything, and the doctor couldn't judge the cause of the bleeding.It may be fighting with others, or it may be excessive drinking, vomiting, etc... The blood cannot be removed, and it can only wait for it to disappear slowly.Finally, the doctor concluded.

Jing woke up from her sleep with sore body, and saw that she was in Shen He's house again.She thought of her eyes, jumped up and ran to the mirror, wishing it was a dream.But the eyeball of the right eye is really embedded in the eye socket abruptly like a red glass ball.At this moment, Shen He opened the door and came in, saw that she was awake, and said: I think the problem with this eye is a punishment for your reckless behavior.And I think it also wants you to stay here and recuperate, instead of walking out on the street with blood red eyes and scaring people.