Chapter 34 32. Hidden secrets

Duan Xiaomu's condition gradually improved, and now she may be the happiest patient in the world.Xiaojiezi is here every day, from morning till night, by her bedside, feeding her and putting her to sleep.He even told her about his past "hard work" with his brothers.He was there all the time, and he didn't leave until he put Xiao Mu to sleep at night, and sat next to her bed the next morning as usual.There was breakfast and dewy lilies beside her bed. Meals and flowers were brought by the plumber.The plumber finally understood that he could no longer force anything.It's too late.The reunion between him and Xiao Mu happened too late.It's too late.He didn't have enough time for her to get to know him, get close to him and fall in love with him.

But he still has a grateful heart, thanking God for bringing this fairy-like kind girl into his life.So he spared no effort to save her life.He bought her the best tonic, started to cook delicious soup for her every morning, and went to the flower market to buy the freshest lilies.Then he walked silently to the door of the ward.He lowered his head and quietly looked at his girl with sad eyes - she was nestled in someone else's arms, it seemed that there was only her and her lover in the world, she would never take her eyes off Xiaojiezi, nor would she Not to mention, look at him.He handed the flower and meal set to Du Wanwan.Du Wanwan handed it to Xiaojiezi again.Xiaojiezi carefully opened the lunch box, picked up the spoon, and fed it into Duan Xiaomu's mouth spoon by spoon.Duan Xiaomu was like a docile kitten. During feeding, she gently rubbed her forehead and his chin.The plumber stood at the door of the ward where the draft was blowing past. Behind him was the dark corridor and the stretcher beds that were being transported back and forth, dripping salt water bottles.He suddenly felt that Duan Xiaomu and Xiao Jiezi were very suitable, yes, at this moment, they were both covered in bright sunlight, they were like the hero and heroine at the end of a fairy tale, everything was impeccable, how well they matched.The plumber watched, tears welling up in his eyes.

Ji Yan also felt that this was a very gratifying scene.He watched Duan Xiaomu walking all the way like this, he knew how precious such happiness was to her.He believed everything was going well until he discovered the unthinkable. That day he went back to Luocheng to pick up some clothes. He had originally agreed with Du Wanwan that he would come back by the train early the next morning, but after picking up his clothes, he missed Du Wanwan very much, so he took the train back to Licheng that evening.He didn't call Du Wanwan, but went straight to the hospital.It was already dark, he pushed open the door of the ward, and found that Duan Xiaomu was the only one inside who had fallen asleep.So he backed out of the ward and walked through the tree-dappled corridor at the door.There was a door on the left leading to the back garden of the hospital. When he passed it, he suddenly wanted to go into the garden to take a breath.So he turned the corner and came into the garden.

Directly opposite the garden gate is a small pond.He smelled the fragrance of lotus and felt very happy.He continued to walk towards the lotus pond, and suddenly he heard Du Wanwan's voice not far from the right.It was dark and he couldn't see her, but he knew it was her voice. "Please don't do this. You should go back and take good care of Xiao Mu. She may wake up at any time, and she will be very disturbed to see you not here." Then Ji Yan heard Xiao Jiezi's voice.This made him feel a shock in his heart.He had a sense of foreboding. Xiaojiezi said: "I can't watch her twenty-four hours a day. I've been watching her for so long. Now it's time for the two of us to be alone." His treacherous laugh made people feel uneasy.The two of them alone.The excruciating pain gnawed at Ji Yan's heart.What is their relationship?

"Hurry up and take care of Xiao Mu, can we talk about other things later?" Ji Yan heard Du Wanwan's voice almost begging.He had never heard Du Wanwan speak to others like this.She is always a girl who holds her reserved and arrogant and refuses to let go.However, at this moment, she was talking to Xiao Jiezi in such a humble voice, which made Ji Yan feel like a knife stabbed in his heart.He half turned his body, facing the direction of their voices.He couldn't see them through the night, but he could feel them standing very close. "But when will we wait?" Xiaojiezi growled anxiously.

"Please, go back to the ward with me now. Xiao Mu may have woken up, she will go crazy if she doesn't see us!" Du Wanwan begged again, she seemed to have no self-esteem in front of him. Ji Yan felt that they started to walk, the sound of their footsteps getting farther and farther away, and finally silence returned.They should have returned to the ward. Ji Yan did not immediately follow them back to the ward.He sat down from the edge of the pond.Her words are still ringing in my ears.She said to Xiaojiezi: Can we talk about other things later? What was her so-called other thing?What other things did she have with him?Ji Yan held a slender wooden branch in his hand and lightly wrote Du Wanwan's name on the ground, constantly thinking about the "other things" she said.

He did not go back to the ward that day.He left alone very late, planning to come back tomorrow morning, no one would know that he changed his schedule and came back half a day earlier.Ji Yan felt like he was at the bottom of a slippery and cold well with nowhere to climb.All kinds of guesses, good and bad, kept coming up in his mind, and he couldn't decide which one was the truth.But he was sure that Du Wanwan had concealed something from him. When he came to the ward the next morning, Du Wanwan and Xiao Jiezi were there.Xiaojiezi still held Duan Xiaomu in his arms and fed her warm polenta.Du Wanwan stood by the bed as usual, watching quietly - but at this moment Ji Yan was a little suspicious, who exactly was Du Wanwan looking at?Is it Duan Xiaomu or Xiaojiezi?It surprised him that he should have such an idea.The plumber was still standing by the door no one would notice, most of his body hidden in the darkness of the corridor.Everything is the same every morning.It was such a calm and peaceful morning.This was the first time that Ji Yan stood at the door, looking around at everyone seriously, and it was the first time that he seriously thought about what each of them was thinking in their hearts.What are they thinking about, and what are they really looking forward to?He fixed his gaze on Du Wanwan.She stood there with a calm expression just like every morning before, watching Xiaojiezi feed Duan Xiaomu with concern and expectation.But Ji Yan suddenly doubted her sincerity at this moment.He has never looked at her so carefully, without blinking, he hopes to see through her and into her heart.He knew that suspicion was the strongest poison for lovers in love, but he couldn't stop himself from thinking that way.He even wanted to jump up right now, rush over, grab her by the shoulder, and ask her, what is she hiding from him.

He and Du Wanwan later walked to the garden together.They stand opposite each other.He thought for a while, and finally asked: "When I was away yesterday, was everything okay? Did nothing happen?" He asked her in a tentative tone, hoping that she would take the initiative to talk about what happened yesterday.He hoped to hear a reasonable explanation, so that he could finally untie the knot that was tightly gripping him. "Well, everything is fine," she replied quickly, almost without thinking, smiling. "Okay then." He took a deep breath and said nothing more.

In a blink of an eye, Duan Xiaomu has been hospitalized for 20 days.Her heart condition has improved a lot.Now I can walk on crutches by myself.She likes to go to the garden to see the lotus, and likes Xiaojiezi standing behind her. At that time, she will think that this is the happiest life she can think of.She silently thanked God for allowing her to finally get the love she had been longing for after many years. The doctor checked her body again.She didn't seem nervous at all, she was full of confidence in her life, she knew she would get better slowly, and she would work hard to get better as soon as possible, there were many things waiting for her to do, she wanted to be with Xiaojiezi When traveling, she doesn't have a grand goal, her only wish is to go to the amusement park in Luocheng.She had heard from Ji Yan and Du Wanwan many times that the roller coaster there was spinning like a big beacon wheel, and everyone was shouting and laughing like a feast in the sky.She knows that people with heart disease cannot ride roller coasters.So she hoped that she would get better soon, and go to ride the roller coaster with Xiaojiezi.Hold his arm tightly, snuggle into his arms, laugh and cry together.There is also the Ferris wheel. She knows that countless beautiful fairy tales have happened on the Ferris wheel.The hero takes the heroine to the amusement park at night.Overlook the colorful city on the Ferris wheel.Then the male lead finally mustered up the courage to woo the female lead.What a wonderful moment that was, Duan Xiaomu often laughed happily just thinking about it.That was a moment she was willing to trade her life for.In order to wait for that moment, she must live well.

In the afternoon after the physical examination, Du Wanwan, Xiao Jiezi, Ji Yan and the plumber all gathered in the doctor's office to listen to the doctor's analysis of Duan Xiaomu's condition.The doctor said that all of a sudden everything was fine.unexpected.Instead of getting worse, the patient's condition gradually improved. "So does that mean she won't die?" Du Wanwan asked very happily. "It can be said that her condition seems to be stable now. And it is getting better gradually." "Then is it possible to have an operation?" The plumber also seemed very excited, and he immediately asked about the operation.

"Not yet. We need to observe for a period of time to see the patient's condition. If it continues to improve, we can perform surgery in a few days." When the doctor said this, everyone breathed a sigh of relief.Ji Yan noticed that Xiao Jiezi's expression was a little strange, and when the doctor said that his condition had improved, he quickly exchanged glances with Du Wanwan.Ji Yan vaguely felt that Xiao Jiezi didn't seem to want Duan Xiaomu to recover. They went back to the ward.Duan Xiaomu has already fallen asleep.Ji Yan guessed that this was the moment when Xiaojie wanted to talk to Du Wanwan.He wanted to save this moment for them, and he wanted to know what they were planning.So he told them that he had some headaches and wanted to go back to the plumber's house where he had been staying temporarily to have a rest.Du Wanwan looked at him distressedly, and asked him with concern: "Are you okay, Ji Yan?" "No, I just feel a little headache, just take a rest." "Well. Well, take care of yourself. I'll see you later." She said softly.But now in Ji Yan's view, this is just talk, without any sincerity.It was terrible to say that since he heard her talk with Xiao Jiezi that day, he began to lose trust in her. So Ji Yan and the plumber left the ward.When they were passing through the aisle, Ji Yan suddenly said that he forgot to tell Du Wanwan one thing, let the plumber go first, and then he went to his house to find him.He dismissed the plumber and turned back by himself. This time he went straight to the garden.He had a strong instinct that they must be there to speak.Sure enough, when he walked to the gate of the garden, he saw them standing where they were last time.He made a detour to the holly bushes behind them, where he could hear them more clearly without being noticed.He suddenly felt that he was very funny, like the husband who often appeared in novels who worried about his wife cuckolding him all day long, quietly stalking his wife.But he wanted to know the truth so much that he didn't care about eavesdropping like a thief. "No, I won't be patient any longer! When will it end? Did you hear what the doctor said? She's fine, she's all cured!" Xiao Jiezi was yelling, looking very emotional . "You can't give up on her now, she just recovered. You can't do this." Du Wanwan was still begging. "Enough! I've had enough. Let me serve a cripple like a girl every day! I don't want to act anymore. I'm going to tell her now that I don't like her at all. I like you! Wanwan, didn't we say Okay? You want to go with me, let's go now!" Xiao Jiezi's voice became higher, and several passers-by around looked back at him.Ji Yan was taken aback by his words. Yes, that was the truth he wanted to know.Among Ji Yan's countless guesses, of course there is this one.This is the worst kind. Du Wanwan and Xiaojiezi are in love.They are plotting to fly away behind everyone's back.How unfortunate that the worst guesses turned out to be true.His girl was going to fly away with someone else, but he didn't know it.His mind was so messed up that he couldn't think about exactly when the love between her and Xiao Jiezi started, and how long he had been concealed. "Now is not the time to talk about this. Let's talk about it when she gets better and has an operation?" Du Wanwan's answer did not deny that she and Xiaojiezi were leaving, which made Ji Yan completely disappointed in her up.Both he and Duan Xiaomu are fools, they have been deceived by these two people for so many days. Ji Yan couldn't listen anymore.The blood was rushing to his head, and he feared he would roar and burst from the holly bushes.He suddenly raised his tightly clenched fist and slammed it on his leg, then turned and left quickly.Neither force nor irrationality can undo anything.In fact, no matter what you do, nothing can be saved.The heart that has turned away from him can never be recalled again. Ji Yan walked into a bar.The deafening music and noise hit his nerves, and the alcohol began to seep into his blood, soothing his soul.He had always been a rational person, and he never liked to drink away his sorrows.But ever since Du Wanwan reappeared in his life, he was always worried about her and got drunk for her.He persuaded her to return to Duan Xiaomu and Licheng, and he made various efforts for this.She left without saying goodbye, and he searched for her in every corner of Luocheng.In those days, he went to the bar almost every night.He fell asleep reciting her name after drinking.Wake up the next day and continue to look for her.Finally in Licheng, they met again, and the two hearts were close again, even closer, and he felt the joy of being reborn.He thought that all the twists and turns between them had finally passed, and he thought that nothing could separate them. But now it seems that his most precious love is just an illusion.His hallucinations talking to himself. If he knew this was the case, why did he have to bring her back to Duan Xiaomu's side?If she didn't return to Duan Xiaomu's side, then she would never meet Xiaojiezi. But this is a tangled fate.This is a catastrophe that has nothing to do with happiness.It's started too early.As early as when he was only six years old, he stood beside the swing in the kindergarten in a panic, and saw that vicious little girl shaking the swinging rope fiercely, pushing another little girl off.As early as that time, she entered his life.He remembered her cold and controlling expression.He felt that she was actually an all-pervasive wind.As early as that time, it penetrated him and entered his body.He can no longer get rid of her.He became weak, and he often thought of the bloody incident on the swing.He felt that there was a large shadow and ice in his heart that the sun could not illuminate and warm.Later, Duan Xiaomu's right leg became lame, and he felt that he was an unforgivable sinner, but in the final analysis, the root of everything was still her.He felt that that cruel little girl had ruined his supposedly innocent childhood and deprived him of his colorful happiness.She wants to make it up to him. Until he saw her again, she became even more indifferent, like a big hard block of ice constantly emitting cold air to the surroundings.When he first saw her, he wanted to influence her, and it was like a bad gamble.He has a strong desire to conquer this girl who is as staunch as a little wild horse.So he approached her with the purpose of taming her.However, in the process of taming the mustang, the poor hunter fell in love with the mustang.Forever, never again. He was finally conquered by her.This is a fate that cannot be fought.No one arranged for it to lead to happiness, only he himself has been foolishly convinced.He is a fool.The wild ponies are now off, to conquer even fiercer hunters. He was drunk again.The bar was closed, and he sat on the doorstep feeling bored.He took out his mobile phone from his pocket, found the built-in phone book with trembling fingers, looked through the numbers on it, and wanted to find someone to talk to.He browsed through the numbers, and suddenly saw Tang Xiao's name.His heart moved slightly.How long has he not seen Tang Xiao?A month, maybe even longer, since he left Luocheng without saying goodbye and came to Licheng to find Du Wanwan, he never contacted her again.And she dialed his number several times, and when he saw that it was her number, he let the phone ring and refused to answer it.Gradually she stopped calling.Just sent a text message: Tell me, Ji Yan, where are you. During this month, she sent him text messages almost every day.There is only one sentence: Tell me, Ji Yan, where are you. At this moment, he looked at her name, pressed the key with almost no hesitation, and dialed her phone. At midnight, she should have fallen asleep.The phone rang three times.He thought that if he rang again and no one listened to him, he would hang up, and gave up the idea of ​​calling to tell.But at this moment, on the other side of the phone, she said softly: "Hey?" He was startled to hear her voice.silence. She heard the silence here and didn't ask who it was.She seemed to realize it was him.She too was silent.They could hear each other snorting, one after another. Only one month has passed, but so many things have happened, time has changed. At last he broke the silence and said: "it's me." Then he heard the extremely soft voice slowly coming from over there: "Tell me, Ji Yan, where are you?" Early the next morning he received a text from her.She said that she hung up his phone last night and got on the train to Licheng.Now she has arrived at Licheng Railway Station, come and pick me up, Ji Yan. Ji Yan did not expect Tang Xiao to rush over immediately after he made a phone call while drunk.He went to the train station to meet her.I haven't seen her for more than a month. She has lost so much weight. She is too thin. He is worried that she is sick.But she looked in good spirits, wearing a black sling top, her arms, which had not been exposed to the sun for a long time, looked particularly moving in the morning light. He didn't know what to say to her, where to take her.So he led her around aimlessly until he unknowingly took her to the kindergarten where she was a child.He passed by the kindergarten door without making a sound, and he didn't mention it to her.They crossed the intersection and walked to the door of the cold drink shop that Du Wanwan liked.At last he stopped and said to her: "Let's go in and sit for a while." Ji Yan and Tang Xiao sat at both ends of the small transparent table in the cold drink shop.He ordered Tang Xiao a three-color ice cream that Du Wanwan likes to eat.A few days ago, he found Du Wanwan in Licheng and made up with her. They did have a sweet time.She often dragged him to this cold drink shop, as long as he wanted this kind of three-color ice cream.She liked the cherries on top. She put the cherries in the small spoon and shook them gently, refusing to eat them. "I always think cherries are very wonderful things." Du Wanwan said to Ji Yan, staring carefully at the round and bright red cherries in the small spoon. "Why?" Ji Yan asked her at the time. "I don't know, I just think so when I see it." Du Wanwan giggled.He opened his mouth, brought the small spoon to his mouth, and swallowed the cherry. But the one sitting opposite him is not her, but Tang Xiao.Tang Xiao ate the ice cream very cautiously, she obviously had no interest in this kind of cherries that were not fresh enough.She pushed all three cherries to one side of the saucer and didn't touch them anymore. ——Ji Yan suddenly remembered that he used to handle the cherries on the plate in the same way, and then Du Wanwan saw it and yelled: "Don't waste it if you don't eat it, give it to me quickly. I like it." When coming to eat ice cream in the future, Ji Yan will give Du Wanwan the cherry on top of the ice cream first, and let her eat it.So every time, Du Wanwan can eat six cherries, and she feels happy and sweet for this. But now it was not her who was sitting opposite him, but Tang Xiao.He found himself thinking about her constantly. Tang Xiao looked at him and said softly: "Have you had a fight with your cousin?" It's not hard to guess that it must be because of her that he is so sad and down and out. He lowered his head to eat his own ice cream, no one would compete with him for the cherry on top today.He slowly put the cherries into his mouth, neither sweet nor sour, only soft after soaking.The juice in the pulp flows between the teeth, slowly passing from far to near.It was cold, and it should be blood-like red.As he thought about it, he suddenly remembered that Du Wanwan said that cherries are things full of mystery, and he felt that it was true. Tang Xiao saw that he didn't answer his question, so he didn't ask any more questions, but just looked at him with concern, and turned the topic elsewhere: "The rest of the band misses you. The band can't do without you." "Are they okay?" he asked.In fact, to be fair, these days, he seldom thinks of the band he once loved so much.He also almost forgot his own ideal, to be an outstanding drummer, to stand on the top stage to perform, his eyes closed, his body trembling unceasingly, completely immersing himself in the exciting music, with the applauding crowd below.They like him so much. These days, he has completely forgotten his dream. "It's not good. After you left, everyone seldom rehearsed. I already missed the benefit performance organized by the school in July." Tang Xiao shook his head sadly, it seemed that the band was really terrible. "Can't Yang Bing replace me? How could you miss such an important performance!" He couldn't help scolding her.He really felt distressed, the band still grabbed his heart, and he still cared so much. "No. No one can replace you." Tang Xiao looked into Ji Yan's eyes and said every word.