Chapter 33 31. A deal

Xiao Mu finally fell asleep. For many days, she didn't sleep well, she just stranded herself in the cold thoughts.Now, she finally got peace of mind, she knew that he would always be by her side, so she fell asleep with peace of mind.In Xiao Mu's life, how many such peaceful and happy moments have there been? After she fell asleep, Ji Yan and the plumber went to prepare dinner together.Only Xiaojiezi and I sat quietly in the ward.Seeing that Xiao Mu was already fast asleep, Xiao Jiezi gently let go of her tightly holding his hand, got up quietly, saw that I was still leaning against the door, and walked towards me, he walked by my side Pushing the door open, brushing past me, but just walked out without saying a word.I then followed him into the long corridor outside the ward.

In the corridor, there are mottled tree shadows and the faint fragrance of lotus in summer.The wind was blowing head-on, he didn't speak, put his hands in his pockets, and walked towards the wind without looking back.I hurried to catch up: "Hey, what are you going to do?" "Go home." He replied easily. "What? You want to leave? You promised Xiao Mu that you will stay here and not leave." I said anxiously. "I promised you to come and see her, and I see her now, and she is asleep, why can't I go?" He asked back. "But, but," I was at a loss for words, "you promised her, what will she do when you leave? She won't see you when she wakes up, and she will be the same again!" He still strode forward Let's go, I followed his pace closely while telling him the truth.

He shrugged and shook his head: "I'm not some kind of savior." He finally pissed me off.I grabbed his arm and cried out: "How can you do this, how can you do this? Do you know? She will be finished if you leave!" I held him desperately, not letting him take half a step forward.My roar made everyone passing by stop and watch.I am the violent Du Wanwan from my childhood again.But I have no time to take care of these, I can't let him go no matter what.Letting him go is tantamount to letting go of Xiao Mu's life. He stopped suddenly and whispered softly in my ear:

"You said you promised me one thing, does it count?" His voice was suddenly extremely gentle, completely different from the indifference just now.I froze for a moment and nodded. "Okay, let's go to the back garden and talk slowly." He showed me with a charming smile, and then motioned for me to let go of the hand that was holding him tightly. We went to the back garden. "Little Jiezi, tell me, what exactly do you want me to do?" As soon as the words came out of my mouth, an ominous premonition emerged in my heart. "I like you." He suddenly put his hands on my shoulders.I felt like I was caught under a huge spider web that hit me head-on.I was stunned for a moment, not knowing how to respond.The boy's eyes, from the first time I met him, I felt that it was a danger.I knew that look was following me, dissecting me.But I'd rather believe that it was just because he was interested in strange girls, I didn't expect it to turn out like this.He said he liked me, if Xiao Mu heard this, how sad Xiao Mu would be.

"Please don't do this, we have nothing to do with each other. You should treat Xiao Mu well now. The doctor said that she can only live for one month, only one month. She is in this world, do you know? Take good care of her and give She is happy, please!" I tried my best to say these words, telling myself in my heart that nothing could happen again, and I had to restrain and suppress all his thoughts. "But I'm not obligated to do that, am I?" He said flatly, his irrelevant expression finally made me furious again.How can there be a person like him, who gave Xiao Mu a moment of warmth, but now he has to cruelly abandon her and leave her in a deeper cold.He has absolutely no morals and no conscience.He is a cold-blooded man.He doesn't deserve Xiao Mu's love!But what is the use of me saying this now?Love is irrevocable and irrevocable.For the terminally ill Xiao Mu, the only thing that is beneficial to her is to give her love, so that she can hold on to this love and continue to indulge in this love.

Trembling with rage, I said: "What are you going to do?" "It's simple, I like deals. Let's make a deal." He crossed his arms, stood there with his feet crossed, his eyebrows raised, and he looked very confident. "What deal?" I asked immediately.I felt that I was standing before a precipice of infinite height, or on the edge of an unknowable trap. "I will accompany you to perform this play until Duan Xiaomu dies. But——you have to be with me. After she dies, you have to follow me." His voice was not loud, but his words were clear.This is not a joke, no one is laughing.He had put away that smiling face long ago, and now he was extremely serious.His brows were still open, and there was no trace of danger, but what he opened his mouth to say were such terrible words.

We were standing in the back garden of the hospital where people came and went, men and women in hospital gowns passed by us, and children who refused to get injections hid in their mother's arms and cried.There was a dead silence between us, and I looked into his face, met his eyes. "Okay." I said.I was also shocked to hear my own answer.I thought I'd give him a slap in the face, but so what?The deal is between me and him, and the deal is also between Xiao Mu's life and death.What would happen to Xiao Mu if she woke up and saw that everything was in vain, as if nothing had happened, or in other words, everything was completely over?A heart patient with less than a month to live, once again completely lost hope of life, what will happen to her?

When I went to find Xiaojiezi, I chose to go by myself and didn't tell Ji Yan. I had a vague premonition that Xiaojiezi would not welcome Ji Yan.Now it is even more impossible to let Ji Yan know.The two of them are bound to fight, and things will only get worse. But, what I want to do most now is to rush to find Ji Yan, without explaining anything to him, or even speaking, just hold his hand and let him lead me out of here.Take me back to Fallen City.Yes, Luocheng, take me away, take me away, Ji Yan, we don't belong to this city long ago, maybe we should have gone back long ago.Ji Yan and I left so that Xiaojiezi could never be found again.But there is Xiao Mu here, the dying Xiao Mu.She has a month to live.She is my little sister who is attracted to me for life.Her breathing is connected to me, her heartbeat is connected to me, and her emotions are connected to me.If Ji Yan and I leave like this, can I get rid of all this?Her breath will still be in my ears, her cries, her sighs.All her struggles when she was dying will clearly appear in front of my eyes and bottom of my heart.What happened when I was six years old has always been a knot in my heart.Every time I see Xiao Mu's shrunken right leg and how difficult it is for her to walk with crutches, I can't contain my loathing for myself.Neither innocence nor angina afflicted me with any reason could lessen my guilt.For this reason, I once knelt in front of the Jesus statue and swore that I will take good care of Xiaomu in this life and in this life, so as to atone for the sins I have committed.Now I know that the so-called "this life" is only a month away, so how can I throw away all the vows and walk away?

She is my little sister.I want to promise him for her. At the moment I promised him, my mind was in a mess. I just kept reassuring myself that I would be fine soon. I would not really go with him. If I really got to that point, I must fulfill this promise. I will confess all this to Ji Yan, and I want Ji Yan to take me away.Yes, when it really comes to that point, Ji Yan will take me away, he won't let me be taken away by others. "Okay, that's the deal!" Xiaojiezi left a word, and then walked back to the ward. I was still standing in the garden, and many sick people came out for a walk on a midsummer evening.They were all wearing white robes, and the soles of their feet fluttered lightly.They all wandered around me like lost ghosts, passing me over and over again with sticky, indifferent expressions.A slight wind blows my hair layer by layer. There are many lotus flowers in the pond in front of me. The lotus leaves fill the entire pond, almost overflowing.

I squatted down, and in front of the pond, I saw a lonely little fish, turning and swimming in the clear water.I put my hand in the water, trying to caress its cool back. I don't know how I walked back to Xiaomu's ward.When I opened the door, I saw Ji Yan was there, and Xiao Jiezi was there too. Xiao Mu has already woken up, she is lying in Xiao Jiezi's arms, Xiao Jiezi wraps her arms around her, peels an apple with both hands, cuts off a thin slice, and puts it in Xiao Mu's mouth, Xiao Mu is soft Open your mouth and eat it.She still looked at him, always smiling at him. Ji Yan came over, very excitedly attached to my ear, and said softly:

"Wanwan, this little jiezi really has a way. After he came, Xiao Mu could eat, laugh, and talk." I fixedly looked at Ji Yan, the joy on his face was so real.I also saw Xiaojiezi quietly give me a smug look. I once again saw Duan Xiaomu's face blooming layer by layer like a warm peach blossom, her pupils absorbed all the afterglow of the summer evening, so bright. Ji Yan took my hand and walked out of the ward. He hugged me, stroked my head, and said: "Xiao Mu will get better, why are you crying, idiot, you should be happy!" I buried my head tightly in Ji Yan's arms and kept nodding, yes, I should be happy.At this moment I am so greedy for his arms.