Chapter 32 30．sweet appeasement

The heavy rain knocked down many flowers overnight, but Xiao Mu was still unconscious.I sat by her bed, waking and sleeping.Suddenly, the pain in my heart became unbearable. I kept calling the nurse. I said, she was in a coma and couldn't scream, but I knew that she was in pain, she was in pain, you should give her anesthesia! They think I'm crazy, no one believes me, no one pays attention to me.They didn't know how much pain the patient was having while sleeping peacefully on the bed. When Xiao Mu woke up, it was already another morning.Suddenly she grabbed my hand, and I was sitting with my head on her bed, falling asleep.

I raised my head suddenly and saw that she had sat up.Looking straight ahead, she said softly: "Wanwan, he rejected me. He's right. I'm a useless person. I can't take care of anyone. I need someone else to take care of me." My nose was sore, I hugged her: "Fool, why do you say that? How can you be useless. We all need you. You are the strongest, and you will definitely get better." "I don't want to get better. When I get better, I just cause trouble for others. No one needs me. Wanwan, he doesn't need me." She shook her head desperately in my arms.Is this the Xiao Mu I know?She was completely blown away.She was totally blown away by that jerk boy.What kind of nonsense did he say that convinced her that she was worthless and made her desperate.

"Xiao Mu, can you give up on that boy? He's not good at all, he's terrible. Just give up on him, he'll only hurt you. He's talking nonsense." I said firmly. "But Wanwan, I love him, I love him so much. No matter how bad he is, no matter how he laughs at me, fools me, and belittles me, I still love him." The poor girl in my arms grabbed my clothes tightly with both hands and looked at me with pleading eyes.Actually, I know, don't I, love is such a hopeless thing, but I still don't want to admit it, I still don't want to watch Xiao Mu be crushed by this futile love.

The situation after Xiao Mu woke up was even more worrying.She sat on the bed, so emaciated that she could barely support her head.If it was Ji Yan or the plumber who came to see her, she wouldn't say a word.It was as if they were all transparent, negligible in front of her eyes.She just sat there, her eyes looking at one place.The plumber brought her a Bible and read it to her, but she didn't respond either.When they all left and it was only me and her, she would suddenly grab my hand and ask me nervously: "Wanwan, has Xiaojie come here? Has Xiaojie come today?" When I finally made up my mind to find Xiaojiezi, it was already a week later.During this week, I saw with my own eyes that Xiao Mu was like a fruit rapidly losing water. She didn't eat anything and slept very little.My heart ached so badly that I didn't cry out.Just sitting there stiffly on the hospital bed.Her sunken cheeks sank even further, her cheekbones protruded like roots that had broken through the ground, and her face no longer had a smooth curve.His face was paper white, revealing a cloudy blue color, his eyes were always red with tears that could not be wiped away.She didn't let me comb her hair or wash it, it just hung dry and fell out in big handfuls.Every time she reaches out and grabs mine, I can't bear to look at her hand.There are only distinct joints and bones in her hands, stretched out like the skeleton of an umbrella, as if they would break if touched.Her voice is hoarse, and she hardly speaks.The only thing she said was:

"Wanwan, has Xiaojiezi been here?" Ji Yan's words are not wrong, everything is useless now.All I can do is to make Xiao Mu happy in her last moments.That's more than anything.But unfortunately, I can't give her this happiness, neither can the plumber, nor can Ji Yan, only the boy named Xiaojiezi can.He is her knot. So I dragged my emaciated body and stood alone at the end of Xigendao Street waiting for Xiao Jiezi—Xiao Mu once told me that she was here again and again waiting for Xiao Jiezi to appear. I leaned against the wall of the narrow alley and watched the bustle of children leaving school and playing tag.It wasn't until it started to get dark that I finally saw Xiaojiezi swaying from the other end.He was wearing a very tight black sleeveless T-shirt, baggy shorts, slippers, and his hair was still tied back.In fact, to be fair, he was good-looking, with a fair skin tone and bushy eyebrows.Big piercing eyes, and a strong nose.But I always feel that there is an evil look between his brows, as if he will cause trouble at any time.He looked up suddenly and saw me.He froze for a moment, smiled slyly, walked towards me, and stopped in front of me:

"Huh? Are you here to look for me?" "Yes." I said, looking at him.I hate his frivolous tone when he speaks, and his dangling eyes. "What's the matter?" He turned sideways and put one hand against the wall so I was standing between his hand and his body, which made me uncomfortable.I took a step back and said: "Can I ask you something?" I tried to be as polite as possible, hoping that my sincerity could impress him. "Let's hear it." He shrugged his eyebrows and took another step forward.He's barely half a head taller than me, and now his chin is almost touching my face, and his shoes are on mine.

"You save Xiao Mu! She is very sick and is going to die. She needs you very much, can you go see her?" I begged. "I'm not a doctor, how can I save her? You go to the doctor to save her." He looked down at me with a very helpless expression.I know he understands, he understands how much Xiao Mu loves him and needs him, but he still puts on a pitiful look that has nothing to do with him.hateful!I really want to turn around and walk away, never to see this person again.But I can't just leave like this, it's over for Xiaomu after I leave.I must take him to see Xiaomu.I have to do it, and I will do whatever it takes.So I sank down and begged him:

"Xiao Jiezi, you clearly know that Xiao Mu loves you so much. She suddenly became like this because of you. Go and see her, if you go and see her, she will get better! " "Uh," he pondered for a moment, then said immediately, "It's fine if you want me to accompany you to see her, but you have to promise me one thing." He was still smiling all over his face, and his chin lowered slightly, just above my face Skimming.Instinctively, I dodged backwards. "What's the matter? Tell me." I tried to be patient.In fact, I almost didn't have the energy to beg him.The angina pectoris was also tormenting me, and Xiao Mu's depression also hit me like a cold snap.I gritted my teeth and struggled to hold on.I kept thinking in my heart that I must take him to see Xiao Mu.This is the only way for Xiao Mu to survive.

"You promise first, and I'll talk about it when I think about it." He blinked and said slyly——his expression is sometimes not so annoying. There is no doubt that he is a very spiritual person, with An attraction. "Okay, okay, as long as you are willing to come with me to see Xiao Mu, anything is fine." I took a deep breath.I no longer have the energy to argue with him over these issues.Now I just want Xiao Mu to see him immediately and get better. When Xiaojiezi and I walked out of the ward side by side, I said to Xiaojiezi: "You have to treat her better, you know? Don't make her sad or angry. She can't take it now."

He ignored my warning, just took a deep look at me, and said word by word: "Don't forget what you promised me." After speaking, he strode in. When he appeared in front of Xiao Mu, Xiao Mu had just fallen asleep.He walked over and stood by the bed.He touched Xiao Mu's face with his hand, and lightly slid a finger across her skinny fingers.Feeling that gentle touch, Xiao Mu suddenly opened her eyes. It was an amazing moment.If I hadn't seen it with my own eyes, I couldn't believe it.The moment I saw Xiao Mu's face, it quickly turned bright pink, and the dark clouds suddenly moved away. We have never seen such a gorgeous rosy glow.Xiao Mu must not know how beautiful she was at that moment.

She was about to sit up immediately, still holding onto Xiaojiezi's hand.Xiao Jiezi leaned down, held Xiao Mu's back with his hands, slowly helped Xiao Mu up, and let her lean on the pillow behind her - this surprised me very much, Xiao Jiezi actually made a Such a gentle gesture.A warm current surged in my heart. I thought Xiaojiezi still had love. At such a critical moment, he finally stretched out his hand and passed the love to Xiaomu.This love is like blood, making the pale and dying Xiao Mu turn rosy so quickly. Xiaojiezi didn't say anything to Xiaomu, but turned around and said to me who was still in a daze: "Where's the meal for her?" I hastily brought over the insulated lunch box and spoon filled with millet porridge, and handed them to Xiaojiezi.Xiaojiezi picked up the spoon, took a small spoonful of porridge, put it near his mouth, touched it with his mouth lightly, and tried the heat, it was just right.So he brought the spoon to Xiao Mu's mouth.Xiao Mu looked at Xiao Jiezi, tears welling up in her eyes.She opened her mouth obediently, ate the porridge, and kept her eyes on Xiaojiezi, watching him scoop up another spoonful, bring it over, feed her to drink it, and then scoop it up... I believe that Xiao Mu's heart is overflowing with happiness at this moment, I can feel it.I just stood there, not daring to move, for fear of disturbing this beautiful scene. Poor Xiao Mu, a wronged but happy Xiao Mu.She meekly swallowed the porridge one mouthful after another, and big tears fell from her eyes. Just like that, Xiao Mu drank up the whole bowl of porridge spoon by spoon.Xiaojiezi turned around and handed me the bowl, then said to Xiaomu in a commanding tone: "Lie down and sleep for a while." He said, and slowly flattened the pillow behind Xiao Mu, motioning her to lie down.At this time, Xiao Mu suddenly became flustered, and she squeezed his hand even tighter: "Well, don't go, okay?" She raised her pale face and begged him. "I won't go." He smiled at her.She was relieved and lay down in peace.He moved a stool and sat beside her pillow, his hands were still tightly held by her.Xiao Mu was lying flat on the bed with her eyes slightly closed——in that narrow gap, she looked at him quietly.The corners of her lips are slightly raised, which is the best testimony that she is immersed in happiness at the moment.I could feel her heart beating hard—for the first time in a long time, I felt her heart beating regularly and strongly, not like a patient anymore. Xiaojiezi sat there quietly, looking at Xiaomu, he suddenly said: "Don't open your eyes to look at me again, sleep well, or I'm leaving!" He got up and made a gesture to leave.Xiao Mu quickly opened her eyes and said loudly: "Don't go, don't go, I'll sleep well, I'll sleep well!" Xiaojiezi showed his usual sly smile again.At such a moment, his smile looked very moving indeed, with a little bit of complacency, and a stubbornness that could not be resisted.I finally began to understand why Xiao Mu loved him so much. So Xiao Mu closed her eyes and did not open them again. Xiao Jiezi held her hand tightly with one hand and patted her gently with the other. His body shook slightly, coaxing her to sleep. What a scene of relief and joy.I leaned against the door, and I could feel Xiao Mu's heart beating vigorously.I think she will get better, and under Xiao Jiezi's care, she will definitely get better.