Chapter 23 LESSON 24: Habitual panic

There are times when we are overwhelmed by the big twists and turns.Standing at a fork in the road of life, we look around blankly.There is no indicator light, no hint of the next step, where should we go... In the evening, Gu Xiaobai lay quietly on the sofa in the living room, looking at the ceiling, relaxing himself, hoping to get some kind of enlightenment and perch quietly. Someone knocked on the door outside, knocking on the door endlessly. Whether it was the knock on the door or the subsequent words, it proved that this person was Luo Shuquan. "Are you at home? I have something to discuss with you."

"..." "Please say it if you are here, and please say it if you are not here." "Not here!" Gu Xiaobai finally couldn't bear it anymore, turned his head and roared. The outside of the door seemed to be shocked by such a shocking answer. After a while, the sound slowly subsided, and the endless silence was restored. "I decided to vote for your script, come to my company to sign the contract tomorrow..." The smile that he was struggling to hold up came to his eyes again. As if to make a footnote to this sentence, the person opposite raised his head and smiled again.

"You deserve it..." The moment he passed by, did he want to hold her back? But there is no strength at all. All the strength disappeared in that instant, was drawn away. I am really a... despicable person... Despicable people fall in love with each other while doing despicable things. This is fully qualified to be ridiculed, right? "Call me, you have my business card." business card…… It's back to the distance we knew earlier. No, it should be farther away. "Call me." The alienation and indifference revealed in these words, accompanied by a polite smile...

I could see the other person's open heart quickly wrapped up as if stung by something. back to infinity... The phone rang suddenly, Gu Xiaobai turned over to answer it, it turned out to be Mo Xiaomin. "Hello..." After hesitating for a while, Gu Xiaobai answered the phone and asked. "what are you doing?" "Nothing." Mo Xiaomin didn't speak, and Gu Xiaobai also held the phone and didn't speak. It is a wonderful thing for two people to hold the phone and not speak. At the time of the initial passion, it seems that the breathing sounds passing each other are telling love, and when there is nothing to say, the breathing that tells love All become sighs.

But all the while, breathing is just breathing. But because of the different atmosphere and mood of the scene, the same situation is also different. After an unknown amount of time, Mo Xiaomin put down the phone silently. Gu Xiaobai also put down the phone lonely. Going close to another woman because of the woman he loves, but he is caught in the predicament of not knowing if he is really in love with her. Such ironic things make Gu Xiaobai confused.Looking left and right, seeing the ancients in front and the coming in the back, there is a kind of panic of falling into the cliff with one foot in the air.

And the corpse at that time... Because they belong to different countries, no one claimed them. "Could it be that I fell in love with her a long time ago, but I found a reason for myself to approach her, and even I was deceived by myself..." Gu Xiaobai thought luckily again. "What is the truth? The truth is not important anymore, what matters is the result, and the result is..." Shanli took her bag and bid farewell to Gu Xiaobai. When she walked away, her eyes were full of hurt. In his hand was the business card she had given him at first—the name of an office building on Huaihai Road was written on it.

After lying still for a while, Gu Xiaobai jumped up and quickly put on his coat. Before going out, he glanced at the clock on the wall. At half past twelve. "Hey, didn't this family poach you through headhunting before?" At this time, Zuo Yongbang, a man who has not found a job for nearly half a year, was lying in front of the computer at home, searching various recruitment websites with a sad face. Mi Qi waited patiently by the side, and suddenly pointed to a page Shouted as if discovering a new continent. "Miss, was that three years ago?" "Then try again, maybe people are looking for it now..."

"Three years ago, I rejected people so coldly, and I came to the door three years later, what did I say?" Zuo Yongbang turned his head and smiled coldly, "'Oh, I was very happy three years ago, so I can't accept this offer. , Now it’s been half a year since I resigned, and I’ve been looking for a job for half a year, but I still can’t find a job. I have to rely on my girlfriend to support me. I’m really poor and I can’t help it. Now I’m thinking of you.’ Do you mean that?” "It's okay." Mickey was stunned, and smiled cheerfully, "Let's change to another one."

"These companies have poached me before... Well, who can I blame, I can only blame me for being too good before." "Are...are you joking now?" "What do you think... the level of joking has also dropped, and people can't hear it..." The man on the opposite side smiled wryly again, and Mickey was at a loss for what to do. "But...but you are also very good now." "Please, don't mock me anymore. You are the one who is outstanding now. Did you get promoted again yesterday?" Yesterday, at Mi Qi's promotion celebration party, someone with good intentions called Zuo Yongbang to attend.

"You didn't tell me!" Of course, in order not to irritate Zuo Yongbang, Mi Qi didn't mention it to Zuo Yongbang at all. Now that he said it, he felt a kind of embarrassment of being caught as a thief. Zuo Yongbang smiled faintly, "You didn't tell me either..." The two of them were... relatively speechless again. "I'm done smoking, I'll go down and buy a pack of cigarettes." After an unknown amount of time, Zuo Yongbang stood up, put on his coat, walked to the door, and found a total of three yuan and fifty cents. The stack of ten and twenty yuan change on the table was stuffed into his pocket, and he pushed the door and went out.

The back in front of her was unprecedentedly bleak, and Mi Qi watched Zuo Yongbang disappear at the door. For the first time, I felt that the man I loved so much... was really old. I never felt that he was old. It turns out that a man's vitality and career are really connected by blood.I went to work in his company in a wicked way, and turned the world upside down.Although the lover finally got married, he resigned because of himself and has not found a new job so far. Mickey is not without guilt. Zuo Yongbang went downstairs and bought cigarettes. He didn't want to smoke at first, but after taking two puffs, he became even more disgusted.The night was as cold as water, and for a while, the world was so big that he felt that there was no place for him to stay.Although the woman upstairs fell in love with her and had a cherished feeling that was lost and regained, she couldn't face it now.After Zuo Yongbang was stunned for a long time at the gate of the community, he took a taxi and went straight to Gu Xiaobai's house. After knocking on the door for a long time, Gu Xiaobai was indeed not at home.Instead, he ran to Luo Shuquan's house, Luo Shuquan was alone at home in a daze, and said that he had also visited Gu Xiaobai just now, maybe he had something on his mind and didn't want to talk to us, or maybe he really wasn't here right now. All in all, all three men are dying. Luo Shuquan went to the refrigerator to get two bottles of beer, and handed one to Zuo Yongbang. The two sat side by side on the balcony, neither of them spoke, drinking one after another in a slow rhythm. "Do you know? In our industry, what is the concept of not having a job for half a year?" After a while, Zuo Yongbang suddenly turned his head and sighed, "That is a circle. In this circle, everyone jumps from this company to that Companies, jumping from one company to another, no matter what, this is the flow of people. But disappearing in this industry for half a year means that everyone has forgotten you. Even if you don’t forget, all the positions are still occupied. One of your contacts and resources will be cut off every day, one every day, and all of them will be cut off after half a year." "..." "Yesterday I went to interview a company. Guess how old the account director is? It should be less than 30. He looks younger than you. He wants me to be his subordinate. I really want to ask him face to face. I'm the director." When he was in elementary school, he was in a few grades." "Then you ask." Luo Shuquan gloated. "When I asked, it meant that I didn't want to do it. But then they really didn't let me do it. My salary was higher than his." "Uh……" "No one wants my salary, and there are people who want it. I don't like what I want. Do you know? Miqi pays me a salary every month now, and she pays 8,000 a month, excluding her own rent. , expenses, give me 3,000 yuan a month for pocket expenses." "It's upside down? The current world report?" "Isn't it the present report?" Looking at Luo Shuquan's O-shaped mouth, Zuo Yongbang nodded, "What's the matter with you, you look so unlucky?" The night sky is so bright... there is a rare emptiness... "I don't know," Luo Shuquan shook his head distressed after a while, "I don't know how to say it." "I've told you such a shameful thing, what else can you say." "I don't know what my feelings are for AMY." After a while, Luo Shuquan put all his eggs in one basket and spoke out. "what?!" "We both agreed to get married," Luo Shuquan looked at the mouth of the beer bottle, as if an answer would come out of it, "I will register in a week, but now I am asking myself every day, do I love her? If I love her, How come my legs are weak when I walk every day, and talking to anyone is like sifting chaff? Then if I say I don’t love her, how can I agree to marry her? And I proposed, I never thought about it before Who did you marry?" "Didn't you be fine before? Why suddenly... it's like this..." "So I just said that I don't know!" Luo Shuquan went crazy, "The closer I got to the registration, the more I panicked. It was like obsessive-compulsive disorder. I was thinking that I wouldn't fall in love with others in the future? She wouldn't fall in love in the future." Someone else? In the next few decades, can we really go on like this? You know that I don’t want to find a mistress when I get married, and of course I don’t want her to either!” "Well, you really think about it a lot." "According to my original personality, I don't think about these at all. But think about it, you and Gu Xiaobai are two role models, okay? Dancing in front of my eyes all day, what kind of power is this, can I not think about it? " It makes sense, Zuo Yongbang nodded, "It's definitely an inadvertent making friends." "It's too late to regret now!" "Cough, forget it, don't think too much about it," Zuo Yongbang was stunned for a while, then suddenly shook his head as if he had been shocked by an electric shock, "This is premarital phobia, every man has it before marriage. Once it is closed, it will be knotted with a push of the foot." "You were like this before?" "yes!" "So you left later?" Facing the rhetorical question without warning, three black lines immediately appeared on Zuo Yongbang's forehead. Really... making friends carelessly... The two drank in silence for a while. "In short, no matter what, I, find a job quickly." Zuo Yongbang didn't care whether the other party agreed or not, and began to draw conclusions, "You, hurry up and overcome your bullshit psychological barrier, this is the best thing for the two of us now. Urgent task." "Are you also mentally handicapped?" "Yeah, I can't even look at Micky's face." "I can't even look at AMY's face." "Hey, how about we switch?" "?" "I'll go to see Mickey, you go to see AMY, then our problems will be solved!" "What about after reading it?" "No, keep reading after reading it until you see nothing." Zuo Yongbang looked at him expressionlessly. "I was just joking." "Is it funny?" "..." "Stop talking nonsense, anyway, let's work hard!" Zuo Yongbang suddenly stood up, and slapped Luo Shuquan hard, "Come on!" "Come on, too!" Luo Shuquan twitched in pain, and after he realized it, he slapped Zuo Yongbang desperately. "Come on, too!" "come on!" Two people are going to kill each other like they want to kill each other. It's getting brighter. Gu Xiaobai came out from the supermarket on the roadside, drinking a bottle of beer while looking at the office building in front of him. This look is two hours. Watching the buildings being gradually carved into shapes by the sky... It must be the feeling of wanting to see her right away. "Hi... Guess where I am now? Guess what? Haha, I'm downstairs in your office building. I'm so advanced. It's five fifty-seven in the morning, and I decided not to sleep tonight, so I'll go all out , so that after dawn, I can see you as quickly as possible. Do you know what this is called? Waiting for a rabbit! Are you sleeping well now? Then tomorrow... no, you will see my face like a ghost in a while, Don't hate me..." In any case, dialing out is voicemail. Gu Xiaobai could only mutter to Shanli's phone for fun. I haven't felt this way for a long, long time. For a person, want to see her, no matter how long you wait, it doesn't matter, just to see the other person's mood at the first time. When was the last time? Sitting on the railing by the side of the road, Gu Xiaobai fell asleep while thinking... When he woke up again, he was woken up by the cold wind, Gu Xiaobai shivered, and opened his eyes—it was already bright at some point, the crowds were constantly flowing, and the city was like a huge machine, with an innocent look on his face. up and running... At some point beside the beer bottle on the ground, there were a few more one-dollar coins. The door of the office building in front of him has also opened. Gu Xiaobai suddenly woke up, tidied himself up, and walked towards that door. The elevator is full of office workers in suits and leather shoes.Standing in the middle, Gu Xiaobai even felt like a courier for a while. When he reached the floor on the business card and wanted to walk in, Gu Xiaobai began to hesitate... "What on earth did I say to her, I'm sorry, I can't accept your investment, because I really like you." "That means I was really lying to her before... What if she insisted on me taking pictures? Do I still need it? What about Xiao Min? Why did things suddenly become so annoying..." Gu Xiaobai muttered, turning back and forth in the aisle. It's better to pretend to be a fake courier and go in to find out the situation... When did things get so messy? But going on like this is not an option... Gu Xiaobai took a deep breath, pushed open the glass door a few steps away, and walked towards the front desk. "Hi, I'm looking for Shanli." Gu Xiaobai said to the front desk, but what he got was a surprised expression. "Who?" "Shanli...your boss, you don't even know your boss, do you?" Gu Xiaobai stared blankly at her, as if seeing the prospect of this person being dismissed soon, then suddenly lowered his head to check his business card, that's right... A man's voice came from behind. "You are Gu Xiaobai, right? Hello, my name is Chen Kun, and I am Shanli's partner. She has already told me everything about you and handed over the project to me. I will tell you about the next thing." talk." Gu Xiaobai turned his head, the middle-aged man named Chen Kun looked at him, stretched out his hand, with a gentle smile, and even a little bit of kindness.Gu Xiaobai stared blankly at him, forgot to extend his hand to greet him for a while, the man turned around and walked to the office after he finished speaking, Gu Xiaobai could only follow behind in a strange way. "You are very young." After sitting down, the middle-aged man looked at him for a long time, and suddenly said without thinking. "what?" "Young and talented, very good." Seeing the expression on his face, Gu Xiaobai was a little confused. "It's like this," the middle-aged man seemed to have noticed this, and straightened his posture, "Last night, Shanli talked to me on the phone, told me about your affairs, and handed over the entire project to me Done." "Uh……" "Over the years, we have formed such a company, operating in our respective fields of interest. I mainly invest in those with commercial value." A few projects with artistic potential that might bring high payoffs. But overall, she’s taking a big bet — do you smoke cigars?” "No, no smoking." "Yesterday she told me about you, and I read the script, and we plan to do it." The man finally found the cigar tongs, heaved a long sigh of relief as if he had found his own mother, and handed over a piece of paper in front of him. "This is the contract, take a look." "Where's Shanli?" "She has handed over your project to me." "What about her?" The man laughed, "She has already handed over all your projects to me, and I can just talk to you about the next thing." "What about her?" Looking at the man's expression of being overwhelmed, Gu Xiaobai added, "Should we continue talking like this? I can ask this question a hundred times..." "She has returned home..." She has returned home... "She came back from the United States and often flies here and there." The man looked at him incredulously, "She found me last night and said that she had something to go back to China in a hurry. It's all here now." Looking at Gu Xiaobai's stunned expression, the man added a sentence like revenge, "We are partners, and we don't care much about each other's personal affairs, but she didn't seem to want to stay here for a second, and left in a hurry .” "Then how do you contact her? You will always be in touch, right?" "She has another number in the United States, but I'm sorry, I promised her that I can't tell you. If there is nothing wrong with the contract, sign it." Looking at the contract written in black and white, Gu Xiaobai hesitated for the first time... "Then you signed it?" Back home, Gu Xiaobai told Luo Shuquan about the matter, and Luo Shuquan asked in disbelief. "yes." "The next best thing? People can't get it, so it would be nice to get some dollars to make a movie." Luo Shuquan quite admired Gu Xiaobai's spirit of grasping with both hands, the East is not bright and the West is bright. Gu Xiaobai stood up abruptly. "Say it again, let me hear you?!" "Hey...this...isn't this also your original plan, and now the goal has been successfully achieved, isn't it great?" Luo Shuquan backed away step by step with a sneer. "I can only sign this contract, I can only shoot this thing, you understand?" "I don't understand at all." The other party said simply. "Only after I made this film, can I contact her again, and we can meet again, otherwise we will be completely broken, and this matter will come to an end, do you understand?" "So you mean, the movie was made for her?" Gu Xiaobai thought for a while, then nodded, "It was for Xiao Min before, but now it is for her." "Movies are such a good thing..." Luo Shuquan suddenly looked at the ceiling leisurely and longingly, "It's so adaptable, whoever I love, why didn't I choose your career at the beginning... Then you are still going to find Mo Xiaomin now." play?" "Look for it, why don't you look for it, don't ask her to play you? But now I have to change the script... What did you ask me for yesterday?" "Well, it's all right." "Hurry up!" "Oh, it's nothing, it's AMY..." "What happened to AMY? You broke up again?" "What do you think..." Luo Shuquan made an appointment with AMY to inspect the wedding photo studio in the evening. In addition, there was no class today, so he was recharging his energy at home all day, and prepared to look at the happy people in the sample album with the best mental outlook.Those newlyweds who were photographed, pasted and fixed in photo albums for people to worship, although they no longer know life and death, the glorious image of the past is still recalled by the successors every day.Thinking of this level, Luo Shuquan was like sifting chaff, sitting at home breathing and meditating, trying to enter the highest state of the spiritual realm, but couldn't resist AMY discussing with him on MSN all afternoon about all kinds of bridal crowns, ornaments and other Taobao The business's reputation problem was on the verge of collapse, and it was exhausted again and again, so I had to find Gu Xiaobai to stimulate and seek some psychological comfort.At this time, seeing that the time was up, she left Gu Xiaobai and rushed to the wedding dress salon that she had agreed with AMY. The enthusiastic staff greeted him and led him and AMY to the corner of a small attic. Luo Shuquan suspected that they would pull out their submachine guns and shoot him and AMY in the next second.But wishes are good wishes after all. The staff brought out two beautiful wedding photo albums, opened them one by one, and explained them to them. In the photo album, there are indeed a man and a woman of different shapes, co-existing in the past and present, looking at Luo Shuquan with an expression of love that never dies. They are sometimes dressed in modern and sometimes ancient clothes, revealing the mysterious message of love for three lives and three generations after death. .According to this intention, the wedding salon should add a new set of scenes where the bride and groom wear spacesuits and land on the moon, or simply insert two antennas on their heads—this at least shows a sense of the future... "Do you think it's better for us to shoot 30% of the exterior and 70% of the interior, or 30% of the interior and 70% of the exterior?" AMY interrupted Luo Shuquan's train of thought. back to reality... "Let's shoot less outside, it's so cold." "But we went to the suburbs to shoot," AMY looked at him tangled, "The nature is so fresh, and this photo will be hung at home in the future, oh, the outside of the photo is indoors, and the inside of the photo is also indoors, it's so depressing to look at Beneath." "Okay, let's shoot more exterior scenes." "But the scenery here is so beautiful. No matter how we live in the house in the future, it will look like that. But if we take more photos here, it feels like we have lived in this kind of villa." Luo Shu looked at AMY expressionlessly. AMY also looked back at him blankly. Luo Shuquan raised his head and stared intently at the attentive waiter, "Is there a 70% exterior scene, 70% interior scene, and a total of 140%?" "According to your qualifications written above, this is not only a director, but also a vice president. Why did you apply for an account supervisor?" At this moment, in another company in an office building, Zuo Yongbang is being interviewed by a child from the human resources department who is at least one round younger than him. "Then you have to have the director position." "Let's not talk about it, but I think you are suspicious." The child suddenly looked at him very vigilantly, "You are not a commercial spy sent by some company, are you?" "What kind of commercial espionage?!" Zuo Yongbang finally screamed. "Well, I am doing a humble job in our company and collecting all kinds of intelligence at the same time. In fact, I am working in another company with another high income, and then sell all the business intelligence of our company." The more you describe it, the more red alert the child will show on his face, as if his company is going to close down in a second. I... still have 30 years of mortgage... "Would you like to open a little bit? Dude..." Zuo Yongbang wished he could get up and shoot him to death, "Are you awake?" "No, the more I look at you, the more suspicious you are. I can't take this risk." "Damn it, who told you to take risks!" At this time, a man with the appearance of a director came in, and just about to say something to the child, he suddenly caught a glimpse of Zuo Yongbang, and couldn't help shouting: "Zuo... Mr. Zuo, why are you here?" It was Zuo Yongbang's subordinate when he was in the original company, and now he is the director here. "Boss Lu, he is a spy, I intercepted him..." The child was still claiming credit without thinking. Seeing his former subordinate's embarrassing expression, Zuo Yongbang wanted to die, and he walked up to his former subordinate step by step. "Xiao Lu, do you have a knife, do you have a knife?" "What... what knife?" The other party stared at him blankly. "Give me a knife, any knife, if I don't stab him to death, I will stab myself to death." At night, Zuo Yongbang walked lonely on the street alone, and Mi Qi kept calling. Zuo Yongbang looked at the phone, closed his eyes, and didn't even have the courage to connect.At this moment, Luo Shuquan and AMY are in the bridal shop, with a pile of clothes next to them, and the photographer is trying to shoot them. AMY smiled happily, while Luo Shuquan laughed so hard that his face cramped.At Gu Xiaobai's house, Gu Xiaobai was facing the computer, and Shanli's face was reflected on the computer screen. He looked at the monitor, took a deep breath, and began to change the script.On the computer screen, various words popped out of the document. "How did the script change?" The three met again, almost a month later, and the three gathered again in the bar. "It's almost done. I've been preparing for the past two days. I'm almost exhausted before I start filming." Gu Xiaobai said, "But there is no way, no matter how hard it is, I have to bear it. Who told me to do it myself? It came out. It will be filmed next week, Xiao Min has also read the script, and she likes it very much." "She doesn't know that you took this photo for another woman?" Luo Shuquan exclaimed. "I didn't say it was for her, did I? I said it was for her to earn money." "There's room for being a human being." Luo Shuquan turned his head to Zuo Yongbang with emotion, "How is your job search going?" "Please...don't ask such a sharp question." Zuo Yongbang was stunned for a moment, then suddenly heaved a long sigh, "Hey, I can simply start a company with a loan shark." "Don't, don't! Don't be too hard on it, it's not suicide. And what if you still don't come out? Miqi left you, but Xiaoxiao is your daughter, Xiaoxiao can't let you go, she still wants to help you Selling your body to pay off your debts, why is it so miserable..." "How can you think so far all of a sudden..." Zuo Yongbang looked at Gu Xiaobai blankly. As if hearing the two talking, Xiaoxiao's voice suddenly sounded behind Zuo Yongbang. "dad." The three turned their heads together, and Xiaoxiao stood behind them. Gu Xiaobai was so surprised that he forgot to blink. "I have something to tell you." Xiaoxiao ignored Gu Xiaobai and said directly to Luo Shuquan. Walking out of the bar with Xiaoxiao, the two found a corner by the bar. Luo Shuquan was very embarrassed, because not far away, Gu Xiaobai and Xiaoxiao's father Zuo Yongbang were lying on the window watching tacitly. "Are you going to get married?" After a moment of silence, Xiaoxiao raised her head. "Yeah, you heard it from your dad?" "Why didn't you tell me?" Xiaoxiao stared straight at Luo Shuquan. "Why didn't you tell me yourself?" "I..." Luo Shuquan was at a loss, "Why should I tell you this myself, you are not my mother..." Xiaoxiao still looked straight at him. "Then you promise me that you will be very happy in the future." "You...you've watched too many idol dramas, what's the line?" "I don't care, it has to be said." "I can't say such disgusting words." Luo Shuquan said frankly, "And who can guarantee that you will be happy in the future? Everyone is working hard to live, and...why should I promise you this?" Seeing that the first two conditions were not met, Xiaoxiao took a deep breath, "Okay, that's the last thing. Give me a kiss." "What?!" Luo Shuquan was embarrassed. "Think of it as your legacy to me." "I'm not dead again!!!" "In my mind, you're starting to die." Luo Shuquan stared blankly at Xiaoxiao, and Xiaoxiao stared at Luo Shuquan bravely.Looking at such eyes, Luo Shuquan suddenly became obsessed, and forgot where he was for a moment.The first time I saw her was in class, and later she bravely confessed to herself. Although she couldn't accept such emotions, Luo Shuquan couldn't help being moved.Ask yourself, do you really have no feelings for the girl in front of you?This is impossible.But it is also impossible that Luo Shuquan completely killed it in the bud from the very beginning, whether it was due to human relations or the morality of the world. But how could I forget that when the whole world abandoned me, it was her, and she was the only one who cuddled close to me and accompanied me through the darkest days. When she was thinking like this, her cheek seemed to be touched lightly by something, and Xiaoxiao stood up on her tiptoes and kissed him on the cheek.Before Luo Shuquan could react, Xiaoxiao had already turned around and ran away like flying. Looking at her back, Luo Shuquan had completely forgotten where he was. Until someone tapped him on the shoulder. "This is my account number. You took away my daughter's first kiss, and you should transfer money to my card." Zuo Yongbang said to him blankly while holding a note. "And mine," Gu Xiaobai also handed over one, "help me pay for the hush money." Luo Shuquan didn't hear anything, because the figure from the back got farther and farther away, getting smaller and smaller. From then on, she will disappear from his life. Because as she said—he was starting to die in her heart. Faced with the fact that my beloved is about to enter another "temple" of my life, will he survive in my heart, or will I just let him perish? — because it is impossible.Xiaoxiao couldn't answer such a question, because she was still young, and she couldn't understand whether a person survived or disappeared in her heart has nothing to do with the current situation of that person in reality.He has become a life in his heart, using his own breath as oxygen and his own blood as nourishment to nourish and irrigate.Because of the blood connection, he has become a part of himself. Similarly, like photosynthesis, he feeds back his courage, strength, and fearlessness in the face of all future setbacks. "Today is the fifth day since you disappeared. My script has been revised. How are you doing over there? I miss you very much." Every day, Gu Xiaobai would hold a recording pen and mutter to the microphone. He believed that one day she would hear. Another day. "Dealed up the scene with the art today. There is a restaurant, very similar to the restaurant when we first ate. I got there, walked in the door, and for a moment, thought I would see you, but I didn't. I don't know what you are doing over there now Well, I just wanted to tell you that sometimes I don't know myself. I'm really sorry if you got hurt because of this. I'm just sure, I really miss you right now, are you okay?" "Today, I drew the storyboard script by myself. The drawing is a mess. You will definitely laugh when you see it. I didn't tell you that the way you smile is really, really beautiful. I..." "The producers and actors had a meeting today, I've never given a meeting to that many people, so I was shaky at first, but I thought you might be somewhere on this earth looking forward to this film, my voice Bigger again." "Where are you, what does it mean to go away without saying a word... I don't know that I'm in love with you, I really don't know...but I know now, where are you... Where are you? Not here? Call me back if you’re not here..." Gu Xiaobai, who pressed the REC button of the recorder, finally burst into tears. Someone knocked on the door, Gu Xiaobai was stunned, turned off the recorder, and went to open the door. Mo Xiaomin stood quietly at the door. "what happened to you?" "It's nothing, let's see you." Mo Xiaomin smiled, walked in, and sat down. "It's going to start up tomorrow, how are you doing, are you under a lot of pressure?" "Fortunately," Gu Xiaobai smiled, "my mind is blank, like a mental retardation." "You thought you weren't mentally handicapped before?" Gu Xiaobai smiled wryly. "This script, this film, you made it for a woman, right?" Turning his head, the woman in front of him looked at him quietly. It turns out...she already knew. "You can see it just by looking at it. You don't know how big the difference is between your heart and your heart." Mo Xiaomin laughed, "I cried, but when I thought that this matter has nothing to do with me, I laughed again. gone." "Did you come here on a special trip to disgust me?" Mo Xiaomin laughed, and the two sat for a while. "Xiaobai." Mo Xiaomin suddenly stared at the air in front of him, "We haven't chatted for a long time." "We didn't talk much at all." "Yeah... We always fall in love with someone in a hurry, and when we fall in love and get together, we don't think about why all this is, and we keep rushing forward." "What the hell are you talking about?" "It's okay, I'm just here to tell you, first, I know about it. Second, I will help you with this." "..." "I have money to earn, and you can fulfill your wish, isn't it great?" Gu Xiaobai turned his head to stare at her, and the other party looked at him in the same way. "Is she pretty?" What a stupid question... "The last question." Mo Xiaomin suddenly looked at him seriously, "Did you really like me when you were with me?" "One hundred percent." "That's good." Mo Xiaomin smiled comfortably as if she had unloaded a heavy burden. The next day was the day when Luo Shuquan and AMY registered their marriage, and it was also the day when Gu Xiaobai’s new movie was launched—Gu Xiaobai and Mo Xiaomin couldn’t accompany each other, so Zuo Yongbang and Mi Qi accompanied them all the way with a DV.Last night, Zuo Yongbang noticed that Miqi had been tossing and turning, and asked her why she wasn't asleep, but all he got was a forced smile.Zuo Yongbang knew very well that the woman in front of him had been going around with him for five or six years, but what he was about to face was another pair of friends who fell in love for a year and entered into marriage. What's the taste.It's just that as a middle-aged divorced man, the fear of marriage has fermented in his blood, evaporated, permeated, and penetrated into every pore, and he didn't even dare to say a word about it. Early in the morning, he drove the car and arrived at Luo Shuquan's house with Mi Qi. Luo Shuquan was already there in a suit, and AMY locked herself in the bathroom and cried uncontrollably. More than ten years of homelessness, more than ten years of hope, failed, once again mustered up the courage to hope, once again failed. This kind of life has persisted for more than ten years... Everyone once thought it was possible, but in the end the facts proved that it was not possible... AMY doesn't know what went wrong, except to try again... Try with the courage not to hit the south wall and not look back, but also to collapse it if you hit the south wall... Finally came the day... ——I am afraid that Edison also had the same tears when the light bulb was turned on. "Are you really good at acting?" On a street in the city, Gu Xiaobai finally couldn't bear it anymore when facing the monitor, and rushed up to yell at Mo Xiaomin. "what?" "I asked you to express the feeling of losing something that can no longer be retrieved. You stare at the camera like a dead fish. No, why are you staring at me?" “你又没说具体是什么东西？”莫小闵理直气壮地反驳，“我对很多不同的没办法挽回的东西所表现出来的心情是不一样的。比如说初恋，失去了，没办法挽回，我虽然伤心，但是会想还有光辉灿烂的未来呢，这个时候，我就会带着又伤心又振奋的心情。” "..." “比如说我亲人出了什么意外，我就会往死里哭，怎么哭都觉得不够。” “那你想想我呢，”顾小白愣了一会儿，“想想你失去我的时候你是什么感觉？” 莫小闵突然……长长地松了口气。 “你什么意思啊？你和我分手，你就长长松了口气？” “是啊，想到以后不用整天受折磨了，我心里不知道多轻松。” “我靠，你真的假的啊？” “你自己问我的啊。” “我让你说实话啊！” “我说的就是实话啊！” "you you you……" "Me, me, me!" 导演和女主演……当街互相辱骂起来…… “从今天开始，我们将共同肩负起婚姻赋予我们的责任和义务，上孝父母，下教子女，互敬互爱，遵纪守法。从今以后，无论贫穷与富有，健康与疾病，我们都将患难与共……” 民政局的宣誓台上，罗书全和AMY并肩站在一起，拿着一张纸，同声念道。十分钟前，他们办完了所有的手续，在各种表单上签字，直到两张红本递到面前，听着那个笑容满面的公务员对他们说恭喜，这一切都还恍如一场梦。然而即便是梦，也踏踏实实地发生着，被米琪目睹着，被左永邦手里的DV记录着，被一个人坐在大学长椅上痛哭失声的潇潇想象着…… 从今以后，无论贫穷与富有，健康与疾病，我们都将患难与共…… 这意味着从此以后，我只为你的欢笑与泪水负责，你只为我的欢喜和哀愁挂心，我们只为彼此的未来而努力，他人与己再无干系…… 这样的誓言，尽管和其他所有的誓言一样，是用来击破的…… 但数百年来，仍然牢牢维系着每一个愿意为此尝试的人。 因为这代表着最大的渴望，最难以企及的梦想，最魂萦梦牵的诱惑…… 因为我们每个人，都是如此孤单…… “她没走，她根本就没有走……” 走出民政局，罗书全就接到顾小白的电话，顾小白没头没脑地说道。 "what?" “珊莉，她从来就没走过，她一直在我附近……” “你没事儿吧，你怎么啦？” 可能是被幸福冲击的喜悦，罗书全压根听不懂顾小白的话。 “我没事，我向你保证，我把她找出来，带她来参加你婚礼。不管她在哪里，不管她在哪个地方躲着，我都把她找出来，我把这个城市给刨了也要把她找出来……我向你保证！” 电话那头传来了顾小白的哽咽声。 罗书全不知道，此时此刻，在剪辑房里整理素材的顾小白已经泪流满面。 本来只是单纯地整理一下今天拍摄的素材罢了。 在剪辑台上，摄影师随意的空境里…… 人群中，珊莉的身影一闪而过…… 被顾小白发现，按了暂停…… 她凝视着自己…… 尽管只有短暂的零点零一秒钟，也宣告着她从未离开，一直在远远地关注着…… 她自己也没有想到会爱上的人。 以前，有人告诉过我，这个世界上存在着天堂和地狱。做了好事的人会进天堂，做了坏事的人会进地狱。其实，这个世界上没有天堂和地狱之分。我们不断地在经历，不断地在寻觅，其实和结果没有关系。是你让我知道，无论天堂还是地狱，只存在我的心里，不论你在哪里，你都在我心里。为此，我会不断地鼓起勇气，只为了你在我心中那个天堂，更好地活下去……