Chapter 22 LESSON 23: Little Man

We often do other things in some name, deceiving others and ourselves.Whether it's mean or noble, the world is so busy that we forget to ask ourselves, what do you want most?When such beauty comes in front of you, should you run away habitually, or muster up the courage to tell her: Although I am very scared, from the beginning, I am very sincere? Outside the window, the sound of cicadas is announcing that summer is coming to an end and autumn is coming. In the room, Gu Xiaobai was sitting in front of the computer, looking at his face with a mirror. "Mirror, mirror, please tell me, which man is the most handsome in this world..."

When the mirror was turned over, the words "Gu Xiaobai" were written on the back of the mirror. "It's too straightforward..." Looking in the mirror, Gu Xiaobai smiled shyly. "Mirror, mirror, please tell me, which man is the most handsome in this world..." Again... blushing. Satisfied now, cheer up and plan to start working. "You just play with yourself like this every day?" Luo Shuquan sat on the sofa in the back and didn't speak for a while. At this moment, he couldn't help it anymore, and asked coldly, "Is it fun?" "what?"

"Oh shit! You're a writer! You're not a male prostitute! Why do you ask yourself a hundred times a day who is the most handsome in the world?" The good-tempered man couldn't help but scream. "You don't understand." Gu Xiaobai turned his head and explained carefully, "This is called self-hypnosis therapy. Asking this question every day will give you a lot of energy, and you will be particularly motivated when you work." "..." "And, having said that, what's wrong with me paying attention to my image every day?" Gu Xiaobai stared at him, as if staring at heretics who discriminated against him, "Is it true that in your eyes, writers are all unkempt and well-dressed?" Like a beggar, he hides from everyone, a fringe member of society who is neurotic all day long?"

"You think you're not crazy?" "I call it strict with myself." Gu Xiaobai turned his head, picked up the mirror and read aloud, "Mirror, mirror, please tell me, who in this world is most jealous of my beauty..." Just as he was about to turn the mirror to Luo Shuquan, Luo Shuquan had already stood up and walked out the door. "Play slowly by yourself, I won't play with you anymore." AMY finally agreed to his marriage proposal and told the truth. There is no gap between the two of them, and they are happily preparing for the wedding.Luo Shuquan came up to stay with Gu Xiaobai for a while out of a happy mood, but he really couldn't stand such a deranged guy, and was about to walk out the door.

Opening the door, I saw a long-lost figure. Turning his head, Gu Xiaobai's mirror also reflected that person... Seeing that his hand holding the mirror was stiff there. Luo Shuquan turned his head again and smiled at the person in front of him, "Hi... Long time no see..." "haven't seen you for a long time……" Mo Xiaomin also laughed. When Mo Xiaomin came to see Gu Xiaobai, he didn't directly say what's the matter, he just went ahead and had a drink.Gu Xiaobai was in a weird mood, no matter what happened, Luo Shuquan was also pulled down, Mo Xiaomin didn't care.The three of them went to the tea restaurant downstairs and found a seat. Mo Xiaomin called the waiter twice, but no one paid any attention, so he got up and went to call.

"Why are you dragging me here?" Luo Shuquan took the opportunity to say to Gu Xiaobai. "How do I know what she wants from me?" Gu Xiaobai said, "With you here, I have more room to advance and retreat." "for example?" "For example, if she comes to ask me to borrow money, I will say that I have lent you all the money, and you will nod immediately." "You are so thoughtful for me, what if she came to get back with you?" "This...isn't possible?" Gu Xiaobai really thought about it seriously, "Seeing how anxious she is, there's no need to be in such a hurry to get back with me. I'm not going to die tomorrow."

But I still hope so in my heart, although Gu Xiaobai is very proud to show that he doesn't care. Luo Shuquan looked at Gu Xiaobai, and was about to brew up some sarcastic words to hurt him.From a distance, Mo Xiaomin came over, sat down in front of the two of them, and looked at Gu Xiaobai, as if thinking about something.After a while, it seems that I don't want to think about it anymore. "I can't live anymore..." Mo Xiaomin said a sentence that was difficult and seemed to be blurted out. Gu Xiaobai stared at her blankly, "What... what do you mean?" "I don't know what's going on. This circle seems to have abandoned me suddenly. In three months, there is no print, no advertisement, and no role in a TV series. It seems that everyone has forgotten me overnight. It's gone, what's going on?"

Mo Xiaomin looked at Gu Xiaobai in confusion, she encountered a predicament she had never experienced before... It was a predicament she hadn't anticipated when she resigned from the department store. At that time, she thought that she was favored by the god of luck, and she has been flying on the road of acting since then. "I...I can't help it..." Gu Xiaobai also looked at her blankly, "The roles of a play I'm writing now have already been decided, and I can't help it if I want to suggest it." I really can't help it, even if I am in front of someone I still love, I can only look at her like this.

In my heart... inexplicably, a complex emotion rose up, I don't know whether it is happiness or sadness. "I have something to say, I don't know if I should say it or not." Luo Shuquan who was beside him had been silent all the time, and suddenly interrupted. "Then don't say it!" Gu Xiaobai turned his head to look at him ferociously, and then became kind again, "Say it, I'm just kidding you." Luo Shuquan was about to say... "How dare you say it!!!" "..." "I'm still teasing you, let's talk." "What happened to him recently?" Mo Xiaomin stared at Luo Shuquan dumbfounded.

"Not recently, he has been like this since we broke up with you..." Luo Shuquan finished speaking quickly, then turned to Gu Xiaobai, recalling, "That's right, I don't know if it's accurate. I remember AMY once I accidentally told me that there has always been a regular customer in her store, who seems to be some kind of... an independent film producer? Is that what he said? I came back from abroad and have been doing independent productions. AMY also asked me, Shall I introduce you to…” After Luo Shuquan finished speaking, he turned his head and looked at Mo Xiaomin incredulously, "Maybe... if we get to know each other, there will be some chance, right?"

"Why didn't you mention it?" Gu Xiaobai asked. "Because you've always been working on orders. For independent films, you need to have your own original script first, right? How can you be so promising?" An indescribable expression suddenly appeared on Gu Xiaobai's face, as if someone had discovered some secret. "This... I really have it..." To Luo Shuquan's surprise, Gu Xiaobai actually had an original script that had never been seen or mentioned to anyone. "Probably out of shyness?" After Mo Xiaomin left anxiously, Luo Shuquan followed Gu Xiaobai upstairs, and when Gu Xiaobai took out a stack of papers from the back room, Luo Shuquan thought so. "Wow..." Gu Xiaobai handed the stack of torn papers to Luo Shuquan, and said, "This is after Mo Xiaomin broke up with me. I was so distraught that I couldn't do anything. It was impossible to write a sitcom. I just wrote this one and vented all my emotions on it.” Luo Shuquan took it and flipped through it. It's full of densely packed words, it gives me a headache just reading it. "What is it mainly about?" "Tell a story about a person whose whole family died." Gu Xiaobai said bluntly. Looking at Luo Shuquan's embarrassing expression, Gu Xiaobai carefully explained, "Because a person broke up with her boyfriend, a series of unlucky incidents happened, and the people around her died one after another, and she didn't know what happened. I'm so confused, so helpless, so miserable..." This is probably the truest portrayal of Gu Xiaobai's mood, right? "Why are you so vicious?" "Art comes from life." Gu Xiaobai said frankly, "but it's different now, the heroine is indeed too miserable in life, as a curser, I can't stand it anymore, you should call that producer people!" Luo Shuquan stared at Gu Xiaobai's face for a while, Gu Xiaobai faced it calmly without guilt.Luo Shuquan finally lost to this mentally disturbed man, he picked up the phone and called AMY resentfully, and got the producer's contact information from AMY. "Here..." Luo Shuquan copied a note and handed it to Gu Xiaobai, "This is that person's phone number, AMY has already told her, you can just contact her directly." "Shanli..." Gu Xiaobai took the note and muttered, "Male or female?" "I don't know, listen to the name, female?" "Who knows, what about the shemale?" "Why are you so boring! Every day!" Luo Shuquan watched Gu Xiaobai write down the phone number, and pressed it into the phone's address book. "When are you going to call her?" "For a while. Then let's make an appointment at night." "Then you are still poor with me here?" Luo Shuquan said in surprise, "Hurry up and adjust your script, and then show it to others later." "Where is it so fast, do you understand?" Gu Xiaobai said disdainfully, "This kind of thing is out of the question, men and women don't know it, of course everyone is polite and understands... ..." Gu Xiaobai simulated what was about to happen, shook his head and said, "What did you do in the past, and what are your plans in the future? Knowing each other, it's all a matter of retreat. The second dial can only talk about serious business, why is that so? Don’t you have any social sense?” "This has nothing to do with social common sense. The problem is that if you are so exhausted, Mo Xiaomin will die!" "Then let her die." Gu Xiaobai said bitterly. Despite this, Gu Xiaobai still made a phone call cautiously, and made an appointment with the other party in a tone that Luo Shuquan had never seen before—polite, calm, and mature, all of which he never saw in his daily life. .The other party was indeed a woman, but she couldn't tell her age from her voice.After making the phone call, Gu Xiaobai frowned and picked out clothes for a long time in front of the closet, while Luo Shuquan watched from behind. It was the first time I saw him so nervous, serious and restless. What is this man thinking? "Is this okay?" Finally, Gu Xiaobai came out of the room, dressed in a black suit, and asked Luo Shuquan while arranging the collar of his shirt. "Okay, it's almost enough. Do you think you're going to see the Prime Minister?" The two stood silently looking at each other for a while, then walked out of the door at the same time tacitly.Gu Xiaobai closed the door, "You said that if Mo Xiaomin knew that I did such a worthless thing for her, would he be so moved and ashamed that he would commit suicide?" "It means you still love her deeply." "I'm not going." Gu Xiaobai turned around, scratched the wall, and made a sad and mournful sound like a cat in spring. "What are you being coquettish about?" Luo Shuquan resisted the churning nausea in his stomach, dragged Gu Xiaobai down from upstairs, stopped a taxi, and stuffed him in.Seeing Gu Xiaobai pawing his feet and the taxi disappearing into the traffic, Luo Shuquan had the hallucination that a poor family would sell his daughter. Two hours later, Luo Shuquan received a call from Gu Xiaobai, who sounded extremely excited. "Hello? Where are you?" "I'm drinking with Zuo Yongbang." "Huh? What's going on here?" It turned out that Zuo Yongbang hadn't found a satisfactory job since he resigned because of Mi Qi.Luo Shuquan was also free that day, so I asked him to drink beer in Xintiandi.The two are lamenting how a woman can change the trajectory of a man's life. "I became so down and out because I met Mickey again, and you are going to get married because you met AMY again. It's hard to say what's going on in the world..." Zuo Yongbang was drinking, expressing emotion. "Okay, okay, don't leave, don't leave, I'll come to you." Saying that, on the other end of the phone, Gu Xiaobai hung up the phone abruptly. Half an hour later, Gu Xiaobai rushed over, wearing a black suit and a white shirt, as if he had just fled from the Nobel Prize ceremony.Seeing Luo Shuquan and Zuo Yongbang, Gu Xiaobai didn't say a word, picked up the beer in front of Luo Shuquan, gulped down half of the bottle, then put down the bottle, staring at Zuo Yongbang blankly.Just as Zuo Yongbang was about to speak, Gu Xiaobai picked up the beer in front of him again and finished it in one go. Both of them... are a bit messy. "Something happened..." Gu Xiaobai gasped for a long time, and finally came to his senses, looked at the two of them, and said word for word. "Huh? What happened?" "Something has happened." "Don't repeat the machine," Zuo Yongbang said, "Hurry up and tell me what's wrong." "What a big deal." Zuo Yongbang looked at Luo Shuquan, "Let's go!" As soon as the two got up, Gu Xiaobai quickly dragged them down. "Didn't I go to see that producer just now?" Gu Xiaobai calmed down for a while, and said with a sad tone as the radio broadcasted the leader's death, "By the way, I got out of the taxi with an elegant posture, and walked to the restaurant in a well-dressed manner. , opened the door with my slender and strong hand..." Luo Shuquan and Zuo Yongbang stood up at the same time. "All right, I'll pick the important ones." "I searched around, but I couldn't find it. I was about to call..." The agreed restaurant was a place called 1931 on Maoming Road. When Gu Xiaobai entered, it was already full of people.Under the glazed light, there were staggered toasts, mixed with Zhou Xuan's singing on the old-fashioned record player.Gu Xiaobai suddenly lost his mind, he didn't know where the scene was and what he was doing. The agreed person couldn't be found either, so Gu Xiaobai subconsciously picked up his mobile phone and dialed the other party's number. Almost at the same time, a phone rang on a table behind him. Gu Xiaobai turned his head and met the eyes of the person on the table... The man looked at him and smiled politely. It was a woman who was nearly forty years old, and the years seemed to have left no traces on her body, but only added the charm of a real woman, embedded in the delicate facial features.Any one of the facial features can be taken as a standard model. It is said that the combination of such delicate and standard facial features will only be rigid, but the feeling of naturalness makes Gu Xiaobai hold his breath. Maturity and childishness, elegance and wildness, solemnity and style, sophistication and innocence are combined with a kind of magical power, but they seem so quiet... This is a woman who, no matter when she is placed, there are men who are willing to follow her to her heart... She looked at him with a smile. Gu Xiaobai sat down and greeted her politely.The woman named Shanli shook hands with him, and the two laughed and sat down to chat. The singing... lingers around me... Like the singing of mermaids... All of a sudden, I was in a different dimension... "She divorced her husband three years ago." Gu Xiaobai explained, "Come back from the United States, and now she is alone in Shanghai, mainly engaged in some independent film investment. I don't understand too many details. Domestic talents, give them the opportunity to make films, and then sell the films overseas, mainly for this kind of thing, the two sides matchmaking." Gu Xiaobai looked at Luo Shuquan and said. "Wouldn't that be nice? How did the talk go?" "I didn't talk about the details. Today, she will introduce the situation on her side, and I will introduce the situation on my side." "So how did it go?" "Okay," Gu Xiaobai took a deep breath, "it couldn't be better." "Isn't that great?" Zuo Yongbang said, "The matter is settled, how about letting them serve three more bottles of beer?" "No," Gu Xiaobai shook his head, "You didn't understand me, it's too good—it can't be—better." Two people... really don't understand. "Although we were very polite, exchanged greetings, and even talked politely throughout the whole process, I could feel it—" Gu Xiaobai was stunned for a while, "She has a crush on me." "What favor?" Zuo Yongbang asked. "That's a good feeling." "I believe." Luo Shuquan nodded sincerely, "You are a master of hallucinations, you have all kinds of hallucinations every day, and you live by hallucinations." "Why don't you believe my words?" Gu Xiaobai was anxious, "I haven't been a fool for so many years. I can't tell if a woman has a crush on you?" "How do you feel?" Zuo Yongbang also became curious. "Two strangers are talking," Gu Xiaobai opened his hand, creating a virtual space, "There is always room for words, right? One person has finished talking, and the other person has not yet started talking. At this time, both parties are often very nervous. Embarrassed, trying to find something to say." Gu Xiaobai shook his head, "But just now, there was no such feeling between me and her. I looked at her, and she looked at me. Several times, for several seconds, we They are all staring at each other, do you understand what I mean? Staring at each other! She didn't even avoid my eyes." The two did stare at each other several times. "The two of you must be thinking at the same time..." Luo Shuquan said, "Who will pay for this meal..." "Fuck! I'm leaving!" The two quickly grabbed him, "Ah, let's do it, we believe, we believe." Gu Xiaobai sat down again, "Is this what you came to us to talk about?" "Yeah, ah, what else?" Gu Xiaobai looked at the two of them blankly, and said as if he suddenly remembered something, "Oh, yes, I came to you... Do I want to start from this angle?" "What angle? What cut? What cut?" Luo Shu couldn't figure it out. "What do you think?" Zuo Yongbang had already chatted with Gu Xiaobai. "It's risky," Gu Xiaobai mused, "but it's not impossible." "I think so too." Zuo Yongbang said. "Damn! You don't treat me like a human, do you?! I've said it all, but I still don't understand what it means!" Luo Shuquan died of grief and anger. "What Gu Xiaobai means is..." Zuo Yongbang looked at Luo Shuquan and explained carefully, "Since that woman has a crush on him, does he want to approach and develop this matter from this angle, understand? Yet?" Luo Shuquan was stunned for a long time, and suddenly realized, "Ah? Are you really going to sell yourself?!" "You're selling yourself!" Gu Xiaobai shouted at him. "Why isn't it prostitution? Isn't this prostitution?" Luo Shuquan said excitedly, "You are in a working relationship, from a professional point of view, you are planning to sell your appearance now, so what is prostitution?" "Do you understand what prostitution is? I'm still here right now? I'm already invoicing her..." "If it's not prostitution, then it's also a bad face." "I'm too lazy to tell you." "I don't quite agree with your point of view," Zuo Yongbang looked at Luo Shuquan, "Oh, why can a woman know nothing, rely on her face to eat everywhere, whoever sees who will give a chance? Oh , Gu Xiaobai is capable because he looks better, isn't it okay to look better? Do you have to disfigure yourself to talk about things?" "I'm taking this meal." Gu Xiaobai whispered to Zuo Yongbang. "Next time, please." Zuo Yongbang also responded in a low voice. "no problem." Before Luo Shuquan could react, Zuo Yongbang continued to enlighten him. "Really? Don't you think so? How many women have we seen since we were young, and shit is in our minds, because they are good-looking, have a good figure, big breasts, buttocks, and we have never suffered in our lives. Everyone is like grandma. They seem to offer it. They themselves take it for granted, the whole earth takes it for granted, it’s beautiful. Why?! Oh? Why can’t men do it?!” "Why did I start to feel that you were scolding me a little?" "Don't interrupt, I'm talking to him." Zuo Yongbang ignored Gu Xiaobai, "Oh, man, if you look better and have skills, if you do both, then there is still a crime?" "Cut, that's not the problem at all." Luo Shuquan sneered back, "Okay, even if people like him now, but Gu Xiaobai wants to take advantage of him to like him for Mo Xiaomin." He looked at Gu Xiaobai, "That counts What, think about it for yourself, as long as you don't feel shameless." "..." "Whether you like it or not, this kind of thing will die out sooner or later." Zuo Yongbang disagrees, "Love can be cultivated with anyone, but you can't cultivate millions of dollars by falling in love with anyone at first sight." Zuo Yongbang turned his head to Gu Xiaobai, "What is the important thing... What is the secret of doing everything - what is your purpose for doing this thing? If you have identified the purpose, choose the shortest path. It's that simple, it's the same with everything." Gu Xiaobai looked at Luo Shuquan, looked at Zuo Yongbang, and struggled in his heart... This is the first day he met Shanli, and he is already considering and hesitating whether to be a badass... Mo Xiaomin's figure suddenly appeared in front of him. "I've decided." After a while, Gu Xiaobai opened his eyes and said. At this time, in Luo Shuquan's house, Mo Xiaomin was deeply regretting.I couldn't get any job for dozens of days in a row, so I went to my ex-boyfriend for help as soon as my brain got hot.Think about it afterwards, why should he help me? What is his relationship with me?Mo Xiaomin thought to himself. "Just because you still like him, he also likes you." AMY sat on the side, saying to the point. Mo Xiaomin looked at AMY and sighed slowly. In the following days, Mo Xiaomin didn't have the courage to call Gu Xiaobai again, and Gu Xiaobai didn't call her again.Borrowing Mo Xiaomin to break all ten heads, she never thought that Gu Xiaobai was making a fool for her at this time.He frequently dated Shanli, and there was nothing serious to talk about, just chatting.Sometimes I go shopping with her and buy clothes.The two tacitly didn't mention anything, nor did they mention work.But Shanli also started to contact Gu Xiaobai occasionally, but she didn't mention work, just went shopping and chatted. Things... seem to have become obvious... "Why did you get divorced before?" One day after half a month, the two of them finished their shopping and sat in the Fairy Trail Forest nearby. Gu Xiaobai asked Shan Li while holding his chin in his hands, showing off his cuteness. "Cough," Shanli was caught off guard, and was taken aback, "You've got a lot of control." "Cough, it's okay to care about you, so as not to make the same mistakes in the future." Shanli met his eyes. "Whose mistakes are you repeating?" "Love so and so." Shanli looked at Gu Xiaobai for a while, took a breath, and smiled, "Maybe I am not suitable for marriage by nature. In the United States, basically married women rarely come out to work. They take care of their children at home. I also think it is normal, and the mainstream society also thinks that housewives are a respectable profession. Have you seen "Desperate Housewives"? "Desperate Housewives"?" Speaking of this, Shanli looked at Gu Xiaobai with a slight smile on the corner of her mouth. "It's that kind, but I'm a naturally restless person. I don't agree that a woman should have a husband and a child after she gets married. My previous ideals, pursuits, and ambitions are all gone. Isn't that a contradiction?" "Ok……" "Almost all unmarried women in the world think... marriage is their destination." Shan Li smiled vicissitudes of life, "But no one thought that marriage is actually just the beginning. It's just that the first half of the road has come to an end. Half of the road has just begun. Some women think that all the troubles in the first half of the road are for the beginning of the second half of the road; some women feel that there is no way to move forward in the second half of the road. The latter." "Oh? But it's very lucky for me." Gu Xiaobai blinked. "Oh? Why?" "If you are still walking the second half of the way, I will have no way to go." Shanli suddenly raised her eyes and looked at Gu Xiaobai. Looking into her eyes, Gu Xiaobai was still smiling politely, his eyes sparkling.Suddenly, I don't know what happened, the smile gradually became embarrassed, and I looked away... Eyes... full of fear. Saying goodbye to Shanli at the intersection, Gu Xiaobai fled home scrambling.On the way home, he was nearly mad with terror.He originally dated Shanli with a provocative heart.In Gu Xiaobai's concept, "bubbling" and "teasing" are two completely different concepts.Succulence means chasing, pressing every step of the way, stalking and stalking is not ruled out, it is achieved as the goal of pursuit.And teasing is much more subtle. If you sum it up, it is to pick you over first... and then tease you to play-this is a kind of thing without psychological burden, just like a skilled lute player playing the lute.It is fast and slow, fast and slow, fast like a gust of wind and rain, slow like melting spring snow, like big beads and small beads, ding ding dong dong, all viewers are heartbroken.But as a performer itself, it is an act of skill display.How can you show it and show it without even daring to look at the other person's eyes? Obviously at the beginning, they stared at each other for several seconds... Looking back at the way Shanli looked at him just now... Gu Xiaobai even had difficulty breathing... She...has practiced at home, right? Like a Beijing opera actor or a master of hidden weapons staring at the flies flying in the air, have you practiced it? Gu Xiaobai resentfully and maliciously speculated... When I got home, I didn't expect Mo Xiaomin to be waiting at the door. "Why are you here?" It turned out that Mo Xiaomin had been thinking about it for the past few days, and the more he thought about it, the more he felt that this matter was inappropriate.She didn't know that Gu Xiaobai had already taken sufficient action, but her request that day alone filled her with a burden of thought.She came to ask Gu Xiaobai to forget this request. "look into my eyes!" Unexpectedly, Gu Xiaobai made such a weird request as soon as he let her in... "what?" "Don't talk nonsense, look into my eyes!" Gu Xiaobai said viciously. As a girlfriend who has been in contact with Gu Xiaobai, a senior mental patient, she seems to have cultivated the psychological quality of not being surprised even in the face of strange requests.Although Mo Xiaomin had a hundred thousand reasons in his heart, he still raised his head and looked at Gu Xiaobai in a daze. Time passed slowly like this. The man opposite was still staring at him like this... But I... can't take it anymore... I still love him, I still love such a man... While realizing this, a sense of sourness rose from Mo Xiaomin's heart, as if the sourness emerged from the pores of his body, accumulated in Mo Xiaomin's eye sockets, and turned into a misty vision.Mo Xiaomin shook his head, forced a smile, turned around and rushed out the door. Gu Xiaobai was left alone, looking at her back curiously. Shanli is really a master... Gu Xiaobai couldn't help... thinking in a daze. "Do you know? My liver trembled when she brought her to the door." The next week, the three men got together again, drinking beer.Gu Xiaobai looked at the sky and said distressedly. "It means you still love her very much!" Zuo Yongbang has been really boring recently, and he is an outstanding representative who is always on call. "Yes, who said no!" "Then you have to hurry up, what's going on with that Shanli?" "Look, I dare to look at her." Gu Xiaobai, who had been practicing for a week without moving, sighed, "She also dares to look at me now, we just had dinner together four or five times, look at me, I look at you, you look at me, I look at you, there is no progress, just like the animal world-what's so good about looking at each other?" "Then you have to act quickly!" Zuo Yongbang is like a retiring master who sees a fledgling quack kid fighting the enemy for 3,000 rounds with no score, so impatient that he seems to want to join the battle anonymously. "How should I act?" Gu Xiaobai called, "I used to follow the steps step by step. You have to lose in my eyes first, so I can hold your hand with confidence. When your little hand struggles , I hold you tight, you don’t struggle anymore, be good, I dare to hug you. You are going to be slapped in the face—the problem is that she is not afraid of my lustful eyes now! Just like Sister Jiang Yes, how dare I take the next step? The blank board is dead." "You can gouge out her eyeballs." Luo Shuquan had been sneering, but he couldn't help but interjected. "I said why does your comrade always target me!" Gu Xiaobai said angrily, "Can I gouge out her eyeballs? Ah? Can I gouge out her eyeballs and ask her to read the script?" "I think you..." Zuo Yongbang was silent for a long time, "Is it a little messed up by yourself first?" "how to say?" "You have to figure out what you want to do first. For Mo Xiaomin, you are willing to dedicate yourself, that's for sure. But have you figured out what you want to do with that Shanli, how far you want to go, which Type? Do you want to go out and have a relationship with her, or just have a one-night stand? This position is different, and the approach is also different." "Ouch!" Gu Xiaobai stared at him blankly, "I really didn't expect this, your words awakened the person in my dream, and scared me to the point of losing my soul... This is the call of my heart... This is love... dedication of..." Zuo Yongbang coughed twice when he saw that Gu Xiaobai was showing signs of insanity again. "Let me give you an idea, is she older than you?" "yes." "How old are you?" "Big one, two, three, four..." Gu Xiaobai snapped his fingers, and suddenly cried out in horror, "Seven years old... seven years old!" "So, you made a complete strategic mistake." Zuo Yongbang looked at the men and women passing by like quicksand... These men and women who are bumping in the sea of ​​love... all learned how to swim while swimming... "How can you play a game of equality with a woman who is seven years older, only white boards are against each other." "Then... what do you say?" "Don't forget what your mission is, it's to be a jerk! What is the concept of a jerk?" Zuo Yongbang turned his head in a daze, and said word by word with a look unique to a top expert, "pretend to be weak... to arouse her motherhood!" "You call her, don't say anything, keep silent there, she will definitely ask you what's the matter, and then you will be very hurt and say, can you come out with me to sit for a while, just accompany me." Zuo Yongbang's lesson echoed in his ears, the next day Gu Xiaobai made an appointment with Shanli again, in an empty and comfortable restaurant, he booked a box where the afternoon sun was shining warmly. "The environment must be open, so that she doesn't feel nervous, but at the same time has a small closed space." Gu Xiaobai practiced his sad expression all afternoon, and when he walked into the box, Shanli was already sitting there. "When you get there, she will definitely ask you what's the matter, what's the matter? You don't say anything, sit opposite her, lower your head, or look at her, like seeing a cloud of air." Gu Xiaobai raised his smile and looked at Shanli, like the Mona Lisa whose father died. "What's the matter? Call me out in a hurry?" Shanli asked with concern. "fine." Gu Xiaobai sat across from Shanli, his eyes were blank, and he smiled awkwardly as if he suddenly remembered three seconds later. "What happened to you, tell me?" "If she had a crush on you in the first place, she would have basically started guessing wildly at this time. What happened to you, did you borrow a usury loan and was hunted down by someone, or did a relative die at home? But no matter how she asked, You shook your head in vain." Gu Xiaobai who was possessed by Zuo Yongbang shook his head emptyly. "Nothing, I just want to sit with you." Shanli looked at Gu Xiaobai worriedly.Gu Xiaobai smiled and lowered his head. "Then, you tell her..." "Can I lie on your lap for a while?" Gu Xiaobai suddenly raised his head, his eyes sparkling, and said softly. "what?!" Shanli stared at him blankly. "Yeah, what kind of way is this?" In the bar, Gu Xiaobai looked at Zuo Yongbang with the same astonished expression as Shanli. "Weak little sheep!" Zuo Yongbang also looked at him incredulously, "She's a strong woman, it's useless for you to compete with her. If you want to soften her, you have to make yourself weak first and pretend to be innocent." Fan Er, who was very injured... But you can't say why, if something happens to you, it depends on whether she agrees or not, this is the most critical part. If she agrees, the matter will be half successful. " "What if you don't agree?" "Then you are basically out of the game." Zuo Yongbang spread his hands and sighed, "You can't cover her if you compete with her, she needs a man with a stronger aura than her, who can cover her in all directions. But when she really faces that kind of man, she will run away out of instinct, so this kind of entanglement has no choice but to pretend to be pitiful!" Gu Xiaobai stared blankly at Zuo Yongbang, just like Yang Guo looked at the eagle. "It's okay..." In the restaurant, Yang Guo, who had a broken arm, looked at Shan Li and smiled wryly, "I'm just kidding." "What's the matter with you?" "It's okay, I called you out so suddenly, it's okay, I'm sorry." Gu Xiaobai stood up without thinking, and was about to go outside. "You come back, what happened?" Shanli stood up, grabbed him desperately, and pulled him back to the seat. "I just want to lie on your lap for a while..." Gu Xiaobai's eyes were empty, staring at the air in front of him. Looking at the air is really much easier! Gu Xiaobai thought happily. "Uh..." A voice suddenly came from the side, "Okay." Gu Xiaobai turned his head to look at her, and suddenly collapsed slowly and painfully, lying on Shanli's lap.Shanli stiffened with tension. "If you get to this point, it's the most important thing! Remember! Don't touch! Lying obediently, like a wounded and helpless little sheep..." "Then... then what?" "Then you start asking all kinds of messy and illusory questions," Zuo Yongbang said, "the meaning of life, the emptiness of life... What abstract questions, she must be confused at this time, and she must try her best to answer you ,Comfort you." "I really don't know what I'm doing." Little idiot Gu lay on Shanli's lap, looking at the shadow cast by the sun on the wall, and murmured, "What is the purpose of life? We are busy all day long. Busy, busy, busy, why on earth?" "This...you have to live no matter what." The voice above is a little... flustered... "But what about being alive? What you get will eventually be lost..." “你不能这么想啊，人虽然怎么样都要死，但就是要活着，要找有意义的事情来做……” “我真的不知道有什么事情是有意义的……” “有很多啊，你小时候的理想啊，你想成为什么样的人啊！” “可是那又怎么样呢？” “可是那又怎么样呢？”到了这个阶段，顾小白也烦了，瞪着眼问左永邦，“这么车轱辘话说来说去……” “不不，关键不是这些话，”左永邦摇头，“是你要打动她，让她发自内心的开始怜爱你，觉得要保护你。记住，这个时候你只能死撑，标志性的动作就是她会不会开始摸你的头发。如果会，就彻底成功了！你马上抓起她的手就走，如果不会，你就乖乖再坐起来吧。” 原来……是要摸头发呀…… 为此……昨天洗了两遍呢…… “你真的不能这么想，”珊莉说，“你才三十啊，这么下去你以后还怎么过啊？” “我也不知道怎么过，好像过不过都无所谓……” "Do not be silly." 上面传来的声音充满心疼，那一瞬间，顾小白躺在珊莉的腿上，突然一种劈头盖脸的温润感扑面而来…… 突然……真的是觉得好累呢。 这么多年，颠簸了这么多年，在人群中混迹，为了生活，为了爱别人，也被人爱…… 付出了那么多……从未觉得累。在这个时候，这个瞬间，仿佛这么多年，这么多力气，一下子全被抽走了。 真的……好累。 这么想着的顾小白，自己也不知不觉间，眼眶湿了起来，有一种不知名的液体悄然涌上，滴落了下来。 液体轻声地掉在她的腿上，一摊印渍徐徐扩散了开来。 “乖，别胡思乱想……”光顾着诧异和忍住眼泪的顾小白，浑然没察觉到，珊莉的手已经轻轻抚摸着自己的头发。 这样为了生活死磕到现在的她，也是不容易的吧？ 这一刻对她来说，也是充满宁静，可以休憩的场所吧？ 好想轻吻她的手呢。 突然，顾小白的手机响起来。 珊莉的手仿佛触电般收回来，顾小白也浑身震了一下，连忙坐起身来，掏出手机。 是莫小闵。 那个空间消失了。 “喂？”顾小白连滚带爬地出了包房，急急接起电话。 “小白，别帮我找工作了。” “啊？”一瞬间，顾小白连什么意思都没听明白，“什么？” “没什么……”那边无奈地笑了笑，挂了电话。 顾小白也莫名其妙地挂了电话，一瞬间连身在何处，到底意欲何为都完全困惑起来。 他愣愣地回到包厢，刚要说话。 对面的女人不知何时……已经坐直了身子，恢复了冰冷的神情，以及比初次见面更加遥远的距离感。 顾小白静静地看着她。 “我还有事，”不知过了多久，珊莉突然拎起包，“先走了。”也没等顾小白的回答，珊莉匆匆地离开包厢，和顾小白擦肩而过的瞬间…… 从未有过的气息弥漫来开，又随即消失得无影无踪。 从那一天起，珊莉再也没有联系过顾小白，顾小白不知出于什么原因，也没有再打电话给珊莉，莫小闵更像蒸发在空气里。顾小白又恢复了一个人工作、一个人在超市里购物、一个人出入小区的生活。偶尔想起，他甚至怀疑这一切彻头彻尾都是自己营造出来的幻觉，从来没有发生过。 只是那种感觉……只有几秒钟…… 仿佛可以记很久…… 哪怕不是真实存在过。 即便真实发生过，过去了，和没有发生过的幻觉也没有区别吧！ “你知道为什么吗？”一个月后的一天，在顾小白家，左永邦说，“因为她发现她已经爱上你了，这段时间她自己心里过不去这个坎儿，所以自己在那儿纠结呢……” “你给她打过几个电话她没接？”望着顾小白呆呆的眼神，左永邦又补了一句。 “就一个，我想她要回的话总会回的，但是她没再回过啊。” “一个就对了，”左永邦点点头，“这个时候千万不能逼她，越逼她越逃，她想清楚了会来找你的。” “想清楚什么？” 左永邦抬起头，笑了笑，“耐心点，她如果再来找你，就彻底成了。如果不再找你，这事儿就这么算了吧，总之她想清楚了。” 顾小白刚要说话，突然边上的手机响了，无意中瞥了一眼。 他整个人都僵在那里。 “珊莉”的名字显示在手机屏幕上，不断地震动着。 “小白，你明天有时间吗，我有事想找你谈谈。” “好……”仿佛过了一辈子，顾小白长长地吁了口气。 “明天你就可以把那个剧本给她了。” 看他挂了电话后，左永邦微笑起来。 转眼看一下边上自己的包，顾小白那本全家死光光的剧本就在里面。 “她说要找我谈谈，我怎么知道她要找我谈什么啊？” “她应该还是会找你谈工作，但你应该知道，她这次找你，和以前已经不一样了，谈工作只是幌子。” “那……那我怎么判断呢？” “打扮，”左永邦抬起头，淡淡笑起来，“如果她明天打扮得像少女，或者不管怎么样看起来都比以前小，那就恭喜你了。” 第二天，回想着这一切的顾小白走在赴约的路上，已经浑然不像第一次行刺的凶手，而变成待罪的罪犯。周围的人行色匆匆，神情自若，但为什么我竟然这么忐忑呢，我在忐忑的是什么呢？ 顾小白连气都喘不过来。 到了约定的咖啡馆前，顾小白推开门。 第一眼，就看到背对着自己的珊莉。 仿佛感应到他的到来似的，她转过身子。 从未见过的年轻朝气的打扮…… 顾小白的心……陡然剧痛了起来。 “不好意思，我之前那阵特别忙，就忘了回你电话了。” 恍惚间，看着珊莉笑着站起来，对他说，也听见自己微笑地回应着。 "It doesn't matter." 焦点慢慢清晰起来，珊莉在他面前好像很忙碌的样子，掏出一本东西递给他。 “喔，对了，我这次找你是因为前一阵有一个年轻导演找我投资，给了我一剧本。我看了，但是我很犹豫，不知道该不该投，所以想你帮我定夺一下。” "what?" 顾小白呆呆地看着她，对面的珊莉可爱地笑起来。 “啊什么啊？就当你是一普通观众，帮我看一下啊。” 顾小白呆呆地伸手接过，毫无意识地看起来…… 不经意地抬头。 珊莉正一动不动地看着他，眼神里千言万语。 顾小白静静地迎着她的眼神。 两人凝视，很多很多秒。 顾小白再也没有转过头。 珊莉垂下眼帘，化解尴尬般笑了笑，“你慢慢看，我去一下洗手间。” 珊莉起身，往洗手间走去。 顾小白傻了，马上翻出自己包里的剧本。两个剧本，左右看，不知如何是好。 突然……，他好想抽烟。 “对不起先生，我们这里不能抽烟。”服务员看见他掏出烟，连忙跑过来阻止。 顾小白拿着烟，心乱如麻，恍恍惚惚地走到室外。 阳光好刺眼，他不知道想干什么，不让抽烟啊，打个电话给莫小闵吧。 刚拨出去，又被自己掐断了 不知道到底发生了什么事，她刚才这样看着自己，顾小白混乱地想着，心里好像陡然开了一个洞。有一种涟漪般的东西在心底深处涌动，终于以无法阻挡的气势奔流上来…… 好像开了一个泉眼一样，一切洞开了，好像是顾小白期望已久的。 终于连接上了。 剧痛过后，自己感到的只有喜悦…… 不不，不是骗局得逞后的喜悦，是一种无可比拟的快乐与宁静…… 好像自己一直在寻找的那种感觉……终于毫无通知地推送到自己面前。 自己……是真的爱上她了。 或许，自己早就爱上她了，第一眼的时候就是了，只不过…… 无论是理智还是感情，都借着那个骗局，让自己心安理得地进行下去…… 因为自己还喜欢着莫小闵。 我不知道……我早在第一眼就爱上了珊莉…… 我不允许…… 可是……事实就是这样的啊。 直到她也明确地用同样的眼神看着他，才没办法再这么骗人骗己了。 顾小白拿着烟，在门口怔怔地站着，脑子里一片混乱，不知道下一步究竟该怎样。当务之急是不能让这个计划——骗局——再进行下去了。 一秒钟都不行了。 顾小白连忙转身进到店内，刚进门，就怔怔地站直，呆在那里。珊莉正坐在原来的座位上，看着他的剧本，垂首不语。 听到声音，她转头看着顾小白，眼睛里全是不解，疑问，受伤，掩饰。他呆呆地看着她的眼睛……一句话都说不出来。 “不好意思，”仿佛反应过来，珊莉强笑着说，“我随手拿起来看了，是原来打算给我看的吧？” "I……" 是这样的……但不是这样的…… “为什么不早点拿出来呢？”她看着他，脸上露出了无法形容的神色，连语气都变了起来，“看着我干吗，坐啊。” 他不由自主地坐了下来，在她面前，好像等待宣判的囚徒。 一直被看着，然后珊莉……自嘲地笑起来。 “好了，现在我也方便了。本来还在犹豫要不要投那个片子，现在你这个比他的好多了，我也不用犹豫了。怎么样，就你吧？” 这样嘲弄的语气，让自己的脸发烫，不，我要解释…… “真不用这样，”珊莉突然打断，“本来就是很方便的事，”从包里拿出合同，“合同都是现成的，把名字改一下就行了。这对你来说更简单一点吧？” 这对你来说……更简单一点吧？ “不是，你听我说……” 奇异的是，对面的人好像卸下了什么重担，长长松了口气。 “好啦，就这样。合同你看一下，没问题的话，明天到我公司签约，地址我给过你名片。就这样，好吗？” 珊莉微笑地说着，拿起包，就要站起来走人。 顾小白也站起来，想说话。 她看着他，好像也想说什么，但最终什么也没说，转过身往门外走去。 几乎是本能般，顾小白伸出手，拉住她。 她站直了身子，低着头，看着他的手。 他的手松开了…… 珊莉笑了笑，好像看着一个无法攀附在自己柔滑肌肤上的蚊虫一样，嘲弄地笑起来。 “电话联系吧？”耳边传来这样的声音。 再抬起头，已经隔着玻璃窗，她在他的视线中，越走越远。 只有玻璃窗仿佛某种象征似的告诉他……本来就是两个世界。 却挡不住，最初遇上的相互凝望的眼神。 不……要……走…… 人来人往，我没想到我们会遇上……