Chapter 11 LESSON 11: The Loyalty Dilemma

Loyalty, one of the most beautiful words in the world, has been deeply rooted in everyone's heart since the birth of human beings.It is not defined by law, but it is everywhere; it has no written agreement, but the criteria for judgment are so clear.From countries to political parties, from social relations to religious beliefs, no one has ever questioned the reason for its existence.It is so free of scope and therefore so easy to get and lose.Like in love, loyalty is like money - you only realize it was there when you didn't have it... This day is an ordinary weekend noon.In front of the box office of the movie theater, there were crowds of people, and couples were discussing what movie to watch at the window.Gu Xiaobai stood alone in the queue, brimming with inexplicable excitement.At this time, the phone rang, and he looked at the caller ID, it was Luo Shuquan.

"Hello?" Gu Xiaobai picked it up. "Hey...help me...I'm dying..." Luo Shuquan's weak voice came from the phone. "Oh, okay." Gu Xiaobai acted urgently, "I'm queuing now, I'll come and save you when I finish queuing..." "Damn, I said I'm going to die, you still have to wait in line?" "Damn, you're really going to die, you dial 110." Gu Xiaobai was surprised, "Why do you want me?" Luo Shuquan's sobbing voice came from the phone. "This... this... well... please tell me what's wrong with you?"

"Yang Jingjing always forces me to swear." "what?" "You said how miserable I am," Luo Shuquan's wailing voice came from the phone, "How miserable my life is, I haven't even held hands with her until now! I haven't even held hands! She just forced me Swear all kinds of vicious oaths, vow not to leave her for the rest of your life, and only treat her well in your life." "Hahaha, show your loyalty?" Gu Xiaobai's gloating mood came again, "Then did you post it?" "Send it!" The other side stomped their feet, "I said all the things you usually say, what the whole world I only love you, and all the women in the world are dead, I only love you , all the beauties in the world are in front of me, and I only love you, even if I dig out the cesspit and clean the toilet, I will let you live the happiest life..." Luo Shuquan enumerated.

"Uh... when did I say that?" "Oh, that may not be what you said." The other side was a little embarrassed, "I have been recalling all kinds of affectionate dialogues for the past two days. I have watched all kinds of Qiong Yao dramas, Korean dramas, and Haiyan dramas! She still Forced me to swear differently." "Oh... Maybe it's because she doesn't feel safe." Gu Xiaobai comforted him, "Maybe she's still in the shadow of being dumped in her last relationship and hasn't recovered..." "Brother! But I'm a science student! My vocabulary is limited! How can I stand up to tossing and turning like this!"

"I suggest you, go to the bookstore and buy a dictionary of famous phrases from famous writers "Love" or something like that. Recite two sentences every day, and I guarantee that within a week, she will never listen to it again." It's really... a bad idea! "I'm very surprised," Luo Shuquan insisted, "Why do your girlfriends never force you to show loyalty?" "Because even if I tell you, they won't believe it..." "Then...what are they with you?" This is so unfair. I don't know what acupuncture point was touched by this sentence, Gu Xiaobai suddenly became excited, "Then... this question is well asked! Why do I never swear or show loyalty when I am with them, and they are still willing to be with me? How about together?" Gu Xiaobai changed his affectionate tone, "Because I can do..."

A drop of sweat... slowly dripped from Luo Shuquan's forehead on the other end of the phone. "Do? What to do?" "Love is not based on words, but on actions." Gu Xiaobai said slowly, "Although I don't talk nasty things to them, I always stay at home and don't accompany them. But as long as I am free, work When I’m free, I’ll try to do something to surprise them.” "Oh, like?" "For example, I'm buying movie tickets at the box office of the movie theater right now. I haven't told Mo Xiaomin, but I'll pick her up at her studio in a while, and then we'll go to the movies together. This is a surprise, understand? Hahaha ..."

He was holding the phone, smiling heartily... Sudden…… In the crowd at the end of the movie theater, Mo Xiaomin came out chatting and laughing with a man, holding in his hand the promotional leaflet of the movie he was buying. The two walked towards Gu Xiaobai head-on. Almost an instinctive reaction, within 0.01 seconds... Gu Xiaobai hurriedly hid behind the pillar. "Hey, what are you doing? Why are you out of breath suddenly?" asked strangely on the phone. "What a big... What a big surprise..." His heart was beating wildly, and Gu Xiaobai heard a whirrrrr in his throat, and replied out of breath.

In the city where people come and go, the sun is shining like this. On the street outside the cinema, Mo Xiaomin and that man were walking in front.Seen from the back, the two are no different from typical couples on the road, talking and laughing, walking side by side.Gu Xiaobai followed behind with his mobile phone in his hands—forgot to hang it up—while the people in front seemed to stop.Gu Xiaobai turned his head and saw a Haagen-Dazs store next to him. Without even thinking about it, he bent down and slipped in. "Hey, when are you going to finish the movie, can you go shopping with me?" On the phone, Luo Shuquan asked innocently, forgetting about the time difference.

"I won't tell you now, I'll call you later." After hastily hanging up the phone, Gu Xiaobai turned his head and looked out of the floor-to-ceiling window. Mo Xiaomin and that man were probably going to take a taxi. They stood on the side of the road laughing, talking and looking at the passing vehicles. The glare of the sun, and such a backlit back. Gu Xiaobai suddenly felt a sense of soreness in his heart, and involuntarily dialed Mo Xiaomin's number with his mobile phone... Seeing Mo Xiaomin take out the phone from the bag, looked at the caller ID, hesitated for a moment, and picked it up.

"Hello?" The figure from behind in sight uttered a voice through the earphones. "Hey, Xiao Min... what are you doing?" Pretending not to care, Gu Xiaobai asked casually. "Oh, I just finished shooting the film, I came out of the studio, and I'm walking on the road...how about you?" Turning sideways inadvertently, what appeared on Mo Xiaomin's face... was a sweet smile. A thorn stabbed in Gu Xiaobai's heart. Just as he was about to speak, the waiter came over, holding the menu, and was about to hand it to Gu Xiaobai and speak. Gu Xiaobai suddenly stood up...

Cover the waiter's mouth with the other hand. I have never seen a customer ordering like this before, the waiter... in an instant... petrified... Seeing the man in front of him covering his mouth, holding the phone and talking sweetly with the situation—— "I've just finished work and I'm going to go out, or... shall we meet somewhere later?" It's a sweet tone. "Okay... where?" Mo Xiaomin who was not far away also said. "Half an hour later, People's Square?" "okay bye bye……" Gu Xiaobai watched Mo Xiaomin hang up the phone, then turned around and said something to that man.Immediately, she reached out to hail a taxi, smiled and waved goodbye to the man. Car, drive away... Only then did Gu Xiaobai weakly and slowly put down his hand covering the waiter's mouth. The waiter stood there blankly, not knowing whether to leave or stay, or whether to speak. As if to pay for mental damage, Gu Xiaobai took out a twenty-yuan note from his pocket and stuffed it to the waiter as a tip. "Don't—don't—talk nonsense—" The heartbroken, warning, and threatening eyes whispered to him. I haven't said anything yet! At this time, Luo Shuquan sat weakly by the bed, waiting for Gu Xiaobai's call. Unexpectedly, it was Yang Jingjing's call who was waiting. "Hello..." Almost trembling, Luo Shuquan picked it up in fear.The test begins again. "Will you not want me?" "No, no, I said no." "You men always said that at the beginning, what happened to the world, the sea is dry and the rocks are rotten. What happened later? If you don't say anything, you will disappear. How can you guarantee that you won't?" "I...I promise to Tiananmen, I promise to the Pearl of the East, I promise to the Huangpu River. If I do this, I will jump off, I, I, I..." I can't say anything new and powerful, "Cough... just wait a minute , I'll call you later." When it was too late, he hung up the phone, and Luo Shuquan immediately dialed Gu Xiaobai again. "Hey!" "Hello?" Gu Xiaobai's voice sounded like gossamer, mixed with the whistling wind, it must be...by the window of a taxi. "Hurry up and accompany me to buy books! I beg you!" Luo Shuquan wished he could make a statue of Gu Xiaobai to worship at home every day. "Have you seen Mo Xiaomin recently?" the real body of the statue asked. "Ah? What? How did you turn around?" "I just bought movie tickets for Mo Xiaomin at the cinema," said a heartbroken voice from over there, "I was going to go see her with me later, but I didn't expect to see her walking out with another man..." "Ah! This! Ah!" For a moment, Luo Shuquan was so frightened that he even forgot his mother's last name, "Well, what are you doing now?" "I've made an appointment to meet her in People's Square now." "Then what are you going to do?" While asking, Luo Shu was full of samurai duels, seppuku, and the scenes of the Colosseum, "Hey! Let me tell you, there are so many people in People's Square! Don't mess around what!" "I won't...but, if you never see Mo Xiaomin again...that's what I did..." Gu Xiaobai hung up the phone with a bang, took a deep breath, and looked out the window. He just felt that his chest was empty, and he couldn't breathe any air. On July 4, 1776, somewhere on the earth, a composition recognized and respected by the vast majority of people was published.The composition believes that there are certain truths in this world, and the first of these truths is that all people are created equal.They have been endowed by their Creator with certain inalienable rights, among which are life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness.According to this declaration, people have the right to pursue happiness and happiness even in any relationship mode.No one has the right to intervene and stop except yourself. This is the Declaration of Independence. Based on this calculation, the so-called law of loyalty is simply fabricated to deceive oneself and others.When you promise loyalty to a person, it means giving up the natural rights of being a human being. In other words, I can show loyalty to you, but you have no right to ask me to be loyal, and I can show disloyalty whenever I don't want to be loyal. So, what is the purpose of loyalty? Half an hour later, Gu Xiaobai arrived at People's Square.During the time waiting for Mo Xiaomin, it was such a question that kept thinking over and over in his mind.People's Square was full of people, and Mo Xiaomin came from afar, shining brightly, just as beautiful as when I saw her for the first time. It's just that at this time, every ounce of beauty is blooming for whom. "Hi... have you been waiting for a long time?" Mo Xiaomin came over and asked heartily. "It's okay." Looking at her, even though his heart has been corroded by acid water to the point of melting, Gu Xiaobai still maintained his temperament and replied with a slight smile.Then, the person opposite put his arms around him. "I'm sorry, I've been too busy filming recently. I was so busy just now, and it's difficult to get a taxi over there. Cough, let's not talk, where are we going?" "Shall we go to the movies?" Turning his head, Gu Xiaobai asked with a charming smile. It was obvious that the person in front of him opened his mouth slightly, and was stunned. But soon disappeared. "What?" Mo Xiaomin asked with a smile. Holding up the two movie tickets in his hand, as if showing off his wounds, Gu Xiaobai shook them deliberately, "I just bought two movie tickets, I've been waiting for this movie for a long time! It's so good, let's go see it Bar!" Going up to look at the movie title on the movie ticket, Mo Xiaomin suddenly felt dizzy. I just saw this... However, she still smiled and said, "Okay... okay..." "But it doesn't matter." Gu Xiaobai was still pretending to be considerate, "If you want to do something else, such as shopping or something, I can also accompany you." Taking a deep breath, as if determined to go to the execution ground, Mo Xiaomin laughed, "It's all right, just watch this!" With a snort... It sounded in Gu Xiaobai's heart... It was the sound of something breaking. An hour later, in the projection hall of the movie theater, under the flickering light and shadow of the screen, Gu Xiaobai turned his head to look, and Mo Xiaomin beside him had already fallen asleep at some point.In the mottled light and shadow, fair skin, peaceful sleeping face, eyelashes are still trembling slightly. What are you dreaming about? Suddenly, Mo Xiaomin shivered slightly, probably because the air conditioner in the cinema was too cold.Gu Xiaobai took off his coat and covered her body. Unconscious, Mo Xiaomin still fell asleep soundly. Gu Xiaobai sighed, stood up and walked out of the auditorium, strolling outside the auditorium.There are many people outside the screening hall, buying Coke and popcorn.Couples snuggling up to buy movie tickets, waiting to enter. None of you have good results! Gu Xiaobai thought bitterly, and felt that he was too dark. He kept taking long, deep breaths, not knowing where to go. At this moment, the phone vibrated. "Hello? Do you want to buy domestic ones or foreign ones?" Luo Shuquan asked nonchalantly after picking up the phone. "what?" "I'm in the bookstore right now!" Luo Shuquan's voice sounded so confused that he was about to commit suicide, "There are dictionaries of famous sentences in front of me! Why are these people so empty? They talk about love and swear all kinds of poison all day long. Hey? Domestic ones or foreign ones? Or should I just buy the original English version? Is it better if I speak English directly to her?" Luo Shuquan read while pinching his throat, "I love you until the end of my life ...to die to die..." "Take your mother's head!" "Oh, by the way," Luo Shuquan asked, probably because he suddenly remembered, "Is Mo Xiaomin still alive?" "She's alive, I'm dying..." "..." "Do you think this is my retribution?" After a while, Gu Xiaobai sighed softly. "what?" "I have hooked up with girls who have boyfriends before..." Outside the auditorium, looking blankly at the screening schedule, Gu Xiaobai said, "I don't care if I knew it when I first got started, but even if I knew Now, I don’t have any moral psychological burden, and I don’t feel guilty. Because I think everyone is free. I chase you, and whether you choose me or not is everyone’s right, just be happy. It’s all right now, my girlfriend was pried away, and I’m getting retribution.” Sighing, “Retribution!” "I think it's wrong for you to attribute this matter to retribution..." After watching the movie, Luo Shuquan invited Gu Xiaobai to the cafe downstairs. Luo Shuquan enlightened Gu Xiaobai earnestly, "Why? Because of you Once you attribute this matter to retribution, to the cycle of karma, good will be rewarded with good, and evil will be rewarded with evil, you will feel calm and at ease, and you will be able to justify yourself? But in fact, "Luo Shuquan, a science student with flickering eyes Unique wisdom, "Even if you haven't done that kind of thing before, Mo Xiaomin will go to the movies with other men, you ignore the essence of this matter, do you know what the essence of this matter is? Then, he began to draw conclusions, "It's that you are miserable, very miserable, miserable. Do you know what a real warrior is like? A real warrior dares to face the bleak life and face the dripping blood... ..." "Are you here to comfort me?" Luo Shuquan nodded, took out the book from the plastic bag beside him, and read aloud: "The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you cannot have them..." "what?" "That is to say, the worst thing about losing someone is that he is clearly by your side, but seems far away..." This was the result of Luo Shuquan's visit to the bookstore. He saw Gu Xiaobai looking at him incredulously, coughed twice, and put down the book, "Did you just leave her halfway?" "Yeah, what else do you expect from me?" After watching the movie, Mo Xiaomin and Gu Xiaobai walked out of the movie theater.Mo Xiaomin cheered himself up, while Gu Xiaobai seemed nonchalant, the two walked for a while without speaking. "How, what do you think?" Gu Xiaobai suddenly turned his head to Mo Xiaomin and asked with a smile. "what?" "Do you think this movie is good?" "It looks good, it's funny." Mo Xiaomin said. "Hahahaha, yes," Gu Xiaobai also laughed, "I think it's funny too." Turning his head and staring at her seriously, "By the way, what do you think is the funniest?" "It's that man," Mo Xiaomin also became excited, "he got into the trunk of the car and was going to steal something, but he was taken all the way to nowhere, I laughed so hard." "Hahahaha, yes, I also think this place is very funny." Gu Xiaobai laughed desperately, tears almost came out from laughing, and his intestines almost burst from laughing.Then, he turned his head and looked at Mo Xiaomin quietly, and asked very gently: "But, I clearly remember that you fell asleep when this part was played?" "..." "You're sleeping." Gu Xiaobai asked softly, "When did you learn to watch movies while sleeping? This skill is amazing, can you teach me when you have time?" The questioning tone was so dreamlike, but Mo Xiaomin's face turned pale.Looking at Mo Xiaomin's blank eyes, Gu Xiaobai smiled and reached out to hail a taxi.Before Mo Xiaomin could react, Gu Xiaobai got into a taxi and walked away... Want to drive into the depths of the universe. "Let me tell you," Gu Xiaobai looked at Luo Shuquan, "I'm definitely not the kind of narrow-minded man who watches over his girlfriend all day, doesn't let her do this, doesn't let her do that, doesn't let her be alone with anyone What does a man do, don't let her go anywhere. You are going to watch a movie with someone, it's OK. Just watch it, but you tell me, it's okay before and after, but she didn't say anything, do you understand?" "So, you feel betrayed." Luo Shuquan nodded. "Isn't this nonsense? How can you tell me to trust her again in the future?" "Then..." Luo Shuquan changed his sitting position, "You look at the problem from a different angle. It may be because Mo Xiaomin didn't tell you, she didn't want you to worry about it. Originally, I just watched a movie, but your kind Imagination, maybe this matter will be endless in the future... This also proves that Er——she still cares about you very much." It seemed that he was very proud of himself for saying these words. After speaking, Luo Shu leaned back in his chair with all his heart and soul. "Are you a man?" Gu Xiaobai looked at him in disbelief. "Yes, but I'm speaking from a woman's point of view." "Then talk about it from a man's point of view!" "How dare are you!" After staying for a while, Luo Shuquan suddenly trembled, "Cut the crap and I do not want to see your face again, get out of my life!" Luo Shuquan stood up, trembling with excitement, and began to speak English frantically. "Don't get excited, don't get excited..." Suddenly, Luo Shu stopped talking and stared blankly ahead.Gu Xiaobai followed Luo Shuquan's line of sight. Mo Xiaomin stood outside the cafe, looking at the two of them sadly with complicated eyes. "I get out of my life!" Looking at Gu Xiaobai, then at Mo Xiaomin, Luo Shuquan said politely, then opened the door, nodded to Mo Xiaomin, and fled. "That person is the photographer who has been taking pictures for us. He has always taken good care of me at work. We finished work early today, and he asked me to watch a movie, and I... I agreed..." Mo Xiaomin sat down opposite Gu Xiaobai, and after a moment of silence—crime and punishment surged in the air—she spoke. "Oh..." Gu Xiaobai stirred the coffee. "It's the movie theater we went to before, so I think about it now, maybe when you went to buy tickets just now, you saw us coming out." Mo Xiaomin asked suspiciously, "You...why didn't you come up with me at that time? What about talking?" Staring blankly at her, Gu Xiaobai didn't know what happened for a moment.It took a while to react, and looked at Mo Xiaomin in disbelief. "Are you out of your mind? If your English is not good, I can translate it for you. The meaning of this sentence is——Are you out of your mind?!" "That's what it is!" Mo Xiaomin protested eloquently, "I just watched a movie with someone else! I didn't do anything else! But you, you not only saw it but didn't say it, and not only didn't you say it, but also told me again. They made an appointment at People's Square and asked me to watch the same movie on purpose. What do you mean, you? Playing with me?" I almost admire Mo Xiaomin. "You are really good at hitting back..." Gu Xiaobai narrowed his eyes and looked at her and said. "Isn't it?" "It's your size! Okay, I'll tell you two things now." Gu Xiaobai suppressed the ups and downs of his chest due to anger, "According to my usual temper, I won't tell you at all, you will never see me again Yes. But, for the sake of you accidentally appearing in front of me just now, I would like to tell you two things. First, I didn’t ask you to watch the same movie on purpose, but I had already bought the ticket to watch it. Until you and that man come out. You have the movie list in your hand, and I'm not considerate enough to exchange two movie tickets for you right away." Mo Xiaomin didn't speak. "Second, I didn't come up to talk to you but asked you to come to People's Square. I gave you time and gave you the opportunity to tell me about this matter. But instead of saying anything for such a long time from the beginning to the end, you still Fell asleep." "Why do I have to tell you?" Mo Xiaomin asked suddenly. "Ah?" Gu Xiaobai was stunned, staring blankly at Mo Xiaomin. "Why do I have to tell you?" Mo Xiaomin asked back, "This person is just one of my work partners, at most an ordinary friend. I watched a movie with an ordinary friend. Do I have to tell you? It's just me A small matter in life, like eating and going to the toilet, or sneezing a few times a day, I don't need to report everything to you, right?" "It's like this...so when I asked you to watch the same movie, you didn't say anything, you took care of my feelings. Because I really want to watch that movie, not because of your guilty conscience, right?" "Yes!" Mo Xiaomin said confidently. Gu Xiaobai was stunned and looked at Mo Xiaomin in admiration. "Admiration, admiration, I really have a feeling of admiration for you. I haven't admired anyone for a long time." "..." After taking the napkin, Gu Xiaobai took out a pen from his bag and handed it over sincerely, "Can you sign it for me?" Mo Xiaomin looked at Gu Xiaobai quietly, without speaking. "After signing, write the word 'loyalty' for me. I really want to know if you will write these two words..." "I knew you would be like this," Mo Xiaomin began to panic, "I'll tell you, the reason I didn't tell you is because I'm afraid you'll be thinking wildly..." "Ha! This comment is not new at all!" Suddenly, Mo Xiaomin stood up angrily, which frightened Gu Xiaobai instead. "Okay, then I will tell you, loyalty, I will never be loyal to anyone!" Mo Xiaomin solemnly announced to Gu Xiaobai, "But I am with you, there is love between us. If I feel I won't say anything if it will affect our love. What I am loyal to is our love, do you understand?" After Mo Xiaomin finished speaking, he turned around and left. Gu Xiaobai sat there blankly by himself. —but I am with you, and there is love between us.If I feel that talking about something will affect our love, I won't say it.I am loyal to our love!This sentence completely stupefied him. When he realized it, he was completely mad. A few days later, Luo Shuquan went to find Gu Xiaobai.He knocked on the door, and Gu Xiaobai was looking at the mirror changing various suave shirts, getting his hairstyle done, picking up keys, and wallets, just like Tony Leung in "Days of Being Wild".After everything was tidied up, Gu Xiaobai turned around and saw Luo Shuquan standing at the door, staring blankly at him. "Get out of the way." Gu Xiaobai said calmly. "Where are you going?" "Dating." "Ah! Are you reconciled with Mo Xiaomin?" "Wrong, I'm going on a date with another girl." "Huh? Did you break up with Mo Xiaomin?" "I'll repeat it to you again," Gu Xiaobai looked at Luo Shuquan and smiled, "I'm going on a date with another girl, watching a movie, understand?" Looking at Luo Shuquan's blank eyes, "Okay, you don't understand, I Teach you. Didn’t Mo Xiaomin tell me last time that it’s none of my business to go out with other men? Because what she’s loyal to is not me, but the love between us. So there’s no need to tell me, even if you tell me I I can also think wildly. So this has nothing to do with me. Do you know how I reacted to that?" "You were mad, that day." That day, Gu Xiaobai went upstairs and went crazy for a long time at Luo Shuquan's house, almost tore his newly bought dictionary of famous phrases to pieces with his teeth. "Yes, I was mad at the time, but I looked back and thought about it, hahahahaha..." Gu Xiaobai looked up to the sky and laughed out loud, full of grief and indignation. "Why am I so mad?" Gu Xiaobai stared at Luo Shuquan, "Huh? This is such good news for me, it's like the Gospel, it's like the language of God..." He approached Luo Shuquan step by step, " It’s like a ray of light shooting down from the sky, it makes me suddenly enlightened, it makes me enlightened, and it makes me so happy!” "..." Luo Shuquan was so frightened that he could only step back. "That is to say," Gu Xiaobai continued, "from now on, when I'm not with her, I can date any girl, watch movies, drink tea, eat, and do whatever I like. Xiao Min doesn’t care! Even if she saw it, even if she called at that time, I can tell her confidently that I am with other girls now. But it’s okay, it’s as unnecessary as I eat and drink every day Report to you. This does not affect the relationship between us, because what I am loyal to is the love between us!" After finishing speaking in one breath, Gu Xiaobai was like a party member who had just taken his oath, full of pathos and spirit. "Are you going to tell her that directly?" "What's wrong? I'm just telling her what she said." Looking at Luo Shuquan, Gu Xiaobai once again... He smiled sincerely and politely. Gu Xiaobai already had a girl whom he met at work, and who kept dating him after connecting to MSN.But since having Mo Xiaomin, Gu Xiaobai has always been evasive about such invitations, pushing them whenever he can.If you really can't push it, you just say that you have a girlfriend, for fear that your girlfriend will misunderstand and be unhappy.Unexpectedly, after a long time, I was too narrow-minded. What Mo Xiaomin recommended was great love, the feeling of a god-like realm, Sartre and Beauvoir, Bill Gates and Jobs, and the Smurfs and black cats. Sheriff.After coming out of the cafe, Gu Xiaobai went home and asked the girl out. That is today. After driving Luo Shuquan away and leaving the house, Gu Xiaobai met the girl at the movie theater. It just happens to be a movie theater, and it just happens to watch movies. Gu Xiaobai and Murong Fu must both be Scorpio. After meeting, the two bought tickets at the ticket office.While waiting, the girl laughed and asked him if he broke up with his girlfriend—again, the same cheesy question.Gu Xiaobai said no, and the girl asked why did you come out again? "Alas..." Gu Xiaobai looked at her, sighed, and began to persuade, "You only have two states in your mind: being in a relationship and being single? If you are single, you can do whatever you want; when you are in a relationship, you should care about this and that. You can't imagine that there are some more advanced...more advanced...more grand relationships in this world. In that kind of relationship, one person's possession of another person is too narrow, and it's not up to the grade at all!" The words were sad, indignant and cruel, but unfortunately the girl didn't understand at all, and she didn't want to understand, she was only thinking about how to seduce classmate Xiao Gu.Xiao Gu didn't want her to understand anything, but was just thinking about the June Snow in her heart.The two bought tickets and walked to the popcorn counter.The girl watched Gu Xiaobai keep taking out her phone to look at it, with a disappointed expression on her face. "Are you waiting for someone to call?" The girl finally couldn't help asking. "what?" "From seeing me just now, to buying tickets, to taking the elevator, you have checked your phone a hundred and thirty times. Are you waiting for someone's call?" "Hahaha, how is it possible," Gu Xiaobai laughed heartily, "How could I be waiting for someone to call?" "Or are you afraid that your girlfriend will call to check on you?" In front of him was a girl with a smirk in her eyes. "Check the post?" Gu Xiaobai opened his eyes wide on purpose, "How could I be afraid that she would call over to check the post? Hahaha. I am aboveboard and aboveboard, and a gentleman is magnanimous. I have nothing to be afraid of. Tell me!" Stretched out the phone , "Do you want the phone to be turned off, or should the ringer be turned up to the max?" "Whatever you want!" "Then drive it to the maximum! Hahaha." Holding the phone up high, Gu Xiaobai solemnly turned the ringtone to the maximum, stepped forward and held the phone up high, maintaining a very cool look, as if he was going to blow up a bunker. As if deliberately not to disappoint him, the phone rang, and the caller ID: Mo Xiaomin. At that moment, Gu Xiaobai was stunned instead. After reacting, Gu Xiaobai made a move that he didn't expect - he suddenly took the phone to his ear, walked away ghostly, and picked it up in a low voice. "Hey?" "Hello?" Mo Xiaomin asked gently on the phone, "I just finished filming, where are you, shall I go find you?" "Hahaha!" I have been waiting so hard for this moment, and the time for shame has come.I saw Gu Xiaobai laughing boldly with his arms crossed, then lowered his head and continued to face the phone ghostly. "I'm... having a screenwriter meeting..." "Why? Why? Why am I so scared?" Back home, Gu Xiaobai grabbed Luo Shuquan's shoulders and shook desperately, "I obviously didn't do anything, why am I so guilty? I should be very righteous I said to Mo Xiaomin, I am watching a movie with a beautiful woman. And it is none of her business, please rest assured. Why did I go to the screenwriter meeting?" "So...you...understand now, right?" Luo Shuquan was shaken upside down, and continued intermittently, "This kind of protective psychology for...emotions is...an instinctive reaction, Mo Xiaomin won't tell you ...That's the truth..." "Hmph, I always feel that something is wrong." "Where?" "Look, I want to prove that Mo Xiaomin's reactionary remarks are wrong, right?" Gu Xiaobai asked cleverly after letting go of Luo Shuquan. "yes." "Then I will treat her in the same way as her own," Gu Xiaobai turned his head and thought seriously, "Let her know that she should feel guilty about hiding this matter from me, not justified .So now I feel guilty, and she doesn't feel guilty at all, what does that mean?" "what?" "It means I can't figure this out at all! Ahhhhh!" Gu Xiaobai went crazy, waving his limbs, clenched his fists, tears in his eyes, and made a decision, "In short, I must do it again. Give it a try! I must personally tell Mo Xiaomin what she said to me, and let her end this life in repentance!" Then, Luo Shuquan coldly watched Gu Xiaobai rummaging through the house, not knowing what he was looking for.After a while, as if recovering a treasure, I saw Gu Xiaobai dig out a dilapidated mobile phone from the cabinet in the corner.Gu Xiaobai opened it happily—it turned on unexpectedly—and found a person’s name in the address book. He walked over and pointed it to Luo Shuquan. I met on an unexpected occasion years ago, I liked her very much at that time, and I think she also likes me..." "and then?" "Then we had an affair for a while, eating, watching movies, taking walks, and flirting online, but neither of us would formally confess our love first." "And then what?" "And then it will end without a problem..." "..." "There are many such situations." Gu Xiaobai's eyes seemed to be regretful, as if he had a unique kind of compassion for the world, "When you meet someone, you are interested in her, but not so interested that you have to. She also treats you Interesting, but it's not like you're going to die without it. If one person mentions it first, the other person will say yes. The problem is that no one mentions it, and it ends up being nothing-this kind of person is the best for me This is the situation now." While explaining, Gu Xiaobai pressed the number on his mobile phone.After finishing speaking, the evil contact information was also saved on the new phone.Gu Xiaobai looked at Luo Shuquan, stretched out his hand and made a shh gesture, then slowly put the phone to his ear, showing an evil smile. beep beep... "Hey, Xiaoqian..." Gu Xiaobai regained his old love, "I'm Gu Xiaobai... ahahaha, yes yes, long time no see, how are you? What?" Suddenly, he turned his head and stared blankly at Luo Shuquan. "What's wrong?" "She said she wanted to see me for the last time..." Gu Xiaobai said blankly while holding the phone. After rushing out of the house, he arrived at the agreed hotel and got out of the elevator. Gu Xiaobai ran wildly in the corridor, frantically looking for the house number while running.After finally finding the house number mentioned on the phone, he knocked hard on the door. "Don't die, don't die! Think about it!" Gu Xiaobai shouted affectionately. The door opened, and the beauty named Xiaoqian stood at the door, wearing pajamas, looking at him, "Who said you're going to die?" "what?" Walking in blankly, before Gu Xiaobai could react, Xiaoqian in pajamas had already closed the door. “你不是说你刚失恋，”顾小白转身困惑地看着她，“打算自杀，要我来见你最后一面吗？” “是啊……”美女嘲弄般地笑起来，“我是刚失恋，而且正打算见你最后一面，但我没说要自杀啊。” “什么意思啊？”这下顾小白彻底愣了。 “我想我也不用挑明了吧，”面前的人对他微笑起来，“之前你喜欢过我，我也对你有点意思，我又刚失恋，你又正好打电话给我，这不是天意吗？” “我……我没弄懂，怎么就天意了？” “你说呢？”说完，对面的美女……缓缓解开了睡袍的丝带。 睡袍下似乎什么都没有，几乎是条件反射地，顾小白连忙闭上了眼睛。 “对不起对不起……我……呃……我有女朋友，而且……”顾小白突然反应过来，睁开眼呆呆地看着她，“怎么就是最后一面了？” “今天过后，”叫小倩的美女已经合拢睡袍，勾起一抹微笑，就当没这个事，“你不认识我，我也没认识过你，怎么样？” 呆呆地看着她，顾小白一时不知道说什么，她也静静地看着他。 这个时候，顾小白的手机响了——没办法，手机这种东西就是应该在不应该响的时候响的，不然也不能叫戏剧冲突的必备道具了——顾小白慌忙接起来。 “喂？”那边刚喂了一个字。 “对不起，我现在在赶一份稿子，我回头再跟你说，好吗？” “好吧，回头打给我。”莫小闵叹了口气。 挂了手机，顾小白长长松了口气，美女似笑非笑地看着他。 睡袍下一无所有。 “赶稿子？那就快赶啊。” 顾小白静静地看着美女，她也静静地回望着。两人就这么伫立着。 窗外……起风了。 这个时候，这个城市，有多少人在背叛，有多少人在被背叛呢？在每一个角落里，在每一个恋人的视线外，有多少心事对着爱的人讲，又有多少身体奉献给另一端？ 身心合一和知行合一，恐怕是这个世界上最基本也最难做到的事情了吧！ “过来……”不知过了多久，顾小白轻轻地美女说。 美女慢慢走过去，顾小白慢慢抱住她，拢住她的后背，轻轻拍了起来。 “你还爱他对不对？”顾小白微微一笑，“你很痛苦，正好这个时候我打电话给你，你想借着我把他忘掉。就算忘不掉，你也好歹往前迈了一步，因为你跟我上床了……对不对？”顾小白轻轻地说道。 “但是你知道吗？这不能解决任何问题。”很轻柔的语气，“因为你还爱他，尽管你们之间已经没有关系了。最近有个人跟我说过，她不会忠于任何人，她只忠于她的爱情。我本来不明白她是什么意思，以为她在发神经。但是我现在想告诉你，只要你还爱他，只要你心里还有这份爱情，就不要随便和你不爱的人上床。这和他已经没有关系了，你要忠于你的爱情，你懂吗？” 被顾小白抱着，毫无预兆地，那个美女在顾小白肩头失声痛哭。 如此撕心裂肺的哭声…… 在顾小白轻拍着的抚慰中，如洪水般宣泄出来…… 多少人，借着身体的出卖，而硬生生转移了感情。这一招，女生常常会——男人有事没事都会出轨，所以谈不上出卖。只是从来想不到，这样的转移，只不过将一个伤口转移到另一个部位…… 不变的，是流血的事实。 是血流尽，脓收干，结痂愈合的过程。 顾小白突然明白，忠诚这个东西，无关对方，无关什么关系，它只是你心里最宝贵的东西，最想珍惜，最想呵护的东西。为了这份东西的完整，你宁愿拼上所有的力气，去排除所有的阻碍，来让心里的这份东西干净。即便这个人离开，即便你想摆脱这份忠诚。我们都忘了，有时候，自己背叛自己，才是最痛苦的事情…… 在回去的路上，他拨了电话给莫小闵。 “小闵，我想你了。” “我也是。”电话那头的莫小闵说。 “我们见面吧。” “我想和你看电影。”莫小闵沉默了一会儿，笑道。 又是同样的地方，同样的时光，两人却已似成长。 放映厅外的售票处前，顾小白和莫小闵亲密地搂在一起看着排片表。莫小闵温柔亲昵，而顾小白……望着密密麻麻的电影排片表……心里真真为难死。 “我们看这个吧！”莫小闵指着一个片子说。 "this……" "how?" “我……我看过了……前两天……” "What about this one?" “这个我也看过了……” “那……”莫小闵愣愣地看着排片表。 “你别费心了，现在上映的所有的电影我这两天全部看遍了。” 莫小闵呆呆地看着顾小白。 看着莫小闵，看了不知多久，顾小白忽然深深吸了口气。 “小闵，你那天跟我讲的话，让我非常非常不开心。因为我明明看见你和那个男人有说有笑地走出来，但是事后你对我只字不提，还说出了忠于爱情这种话……”顾小白静静地说道，“所以为了回报你也好，实践你的理论也好……”顾小白又吸了口气，“这几天我约了无数女孩陪我看电影，吃饭，散步。就是为了能够在你打来电话的时候对你说一句，这件事情和你没关系，我不用和你汇报……” "..." 他笑了笑，“但是我没有一次说出口，我越说不出口，我就越想试，但是我现在终于明白了，”这口气吐了出来，“我之所以什么都说不出来，我骗你说我在工作，我骗你说我在开会，其实我潜意识里是想保护这份感情。虽然我心里很清楚，我当时做的，和我们的感情没关系。但我在说谎的时候，我是心虚的。我在说谎的时候，我其实在分裂我自己。” 凝视着她的眼睛…… “我现在全部告诉你，也是想告诉你，我真正想忠于的人是我自己。希望你也是。” 顾小白说完，静静地看着莫小闵。莫小闵也静静地看着他。 然后，顾小白微微笑起来，“走吧，随便看哪部都好，只要是和你……” 往前走了两步，突然听到身后有一个声音轻声地说道：“我是喜欢他的。” 站住，呆呆地，顾小白转过身来，用一种似懂非懂的眼神看着她。 "what?" "What did you say?" “我是喜欢他的。”莫小闵低着的头，终于抬起来。 "..." “我们已经好久没有在一起过了，你的工作越来越忙，我的工作也越来越忙。”莫小闵轻声说。 “你在忙着和别人看电影！”顾小白终于忍不住嚷起来。 “小白，我不想吵，是你让我忠于我自己的。”莫小闵继续轻轻地，像在说给别的人听一样，喃喃道，“那个人一直给我拍片子，可以说是我同事，我们在一起的时间更多。其实他从见到我的第一天起，就在不断地向我表示好感……” "You never said that." “我不想让你担心……也因为我心里根本没有他，我心里全是你。但是……”抬起头，莫小闵看着顾小白，“但是你不觉得我们根本就不像在恋爱吗？你不觉得我们就像两个小孩子在过家家吗？高兴的时候就两个人在一起玩一会儿，玩完了就各回各的家，直到下次兴致来了，可能是你，可能是我，我们再玩一次过家家……” "..." “小白，你把我想得太坚强，太独立了。我也是个女人，我也需要被宠爱，被爱护的。” 这是一句……再平实不过的大实话啊…… “不知道为什么，在你面前，我一直很没有自信。”莫小闵苦笑了一下，“我有时候在问自己，是不是刚认识你的时候，我还是个营业员的关系？其实不是的，直到我转行了，我还是这样。是他，一直在告诉我，这个姿势很漂亮，这个你可以的，你还可以更好……然后我就一点点变得更好。每到这个时候，他都不会忘记夸我……” "..." “小白……你有夸过我吗？”抬起头，有些凄楚地，莫小闵看着顾小白。 "..." “你知不知道，其实女孩子是需要被夸的，被鼓励，被肯定的……” "I……" “不……不怪你……你可能是真的没这根筋。无数次我也对自己说，不是你不在乎我，不是你不在乎我，是你真的没这根筋，但你知道吗，”莫小闵好似竭力忍住什么，“每次他帮我按下一次快门，夸我一句，我都会好开心哦！我有时候会开心得哭出来，你知道吗？你知道我一个人在家里哭过多少次吗？” “你……你为什么从来不跟我说？” “跟你说，跟你说有什么用呢？”莫小闵笑笑，摇摇头，“你就是这样的人，我无数次地跟自己说，要做顾小白的女朋友，有些事情你就别特别指望了。因为那真不是他的强项，他可以写出很漂亮的话，但是你要他真的对你说，他的自尊心比谁都强……” “所以……所以你就要跟他走了，是吗？”顾小白听见自己的声音在颤抖。 “我没有想过啊……”莫小闵摇摇头，“我只是渐渐觉得自己不爱你了，你懂吗？当我第一次和他单独吃饭聊天，我觉得好开心啊，你知道我当时有多害怕吗？” 抬起头，莫小闵眼睛里不知什么时候全是泪水，“我怎么可以不爱你呢，我怎么能够不爱你呢……但是，我就是渐渐不怎么爱你了啊……” 终于哭出来，顾小白静静地站在那儿，看着莫小闵。 “我对自己说，这是他的问题，这是我受到的诱惑。回想起你第一次在百货商厦柜台前和我说话的时候，我的心跳得好快，我的脸好红。这些日子，我一直在让自己回忆那些画面。告诉自己，你是爱顾小白的。那个人，让他就这么过去就算了，他最多是一个插曲，他只能是一个插曲……” "..." “但是……”莫小闵抬起头，“这几天没有联系你的日子里，我想得最多的，不是你，是他。” ——这几天没有联系你的日子里，我想得最多的，不是你，是他。 这句话，是死刑。 看着顾小白，莫小闵已经满脸是泪。 好像待罪的羔羊，已被判下罪，顾小白反而有了一种踏实感。已经死了，不会再多死一次了。看着她，顾小白慢慢走了上去，轻轻抱住她，“别哭了，别哭了……” “你为什么不骂我，为什么还要抱住我……为什么不推开我？”抬起头，她这样问。 “我为什么要骂你？是我不好……” “是我不好啊……我怎么可以不爱你了呢……”莫小闵使劲咬着嘴唇，好像要把自己嘴咬破。 眼泪却滚滚而下。 “小白……你叫我忠于我自己……我忠于我自己……我好难过啊……” 在顾小白的怀里，莫小闵终于失声痛哭。 拿着电影票擦身而过的情侣们，谁也没有过多的在意，只是偶尔有人好奇地瞥了瞥那对男女，以为只是小情侣的别扭。 那一天，他们手里拿着连排的座位，从相反的方向走进去。顾小白知道，莫小闵那个时候是多么希望他一把抓住她…… “命令她好好地待在我身边，哪儿都不许走，我会好好待她。那样，她可能真的就会留下来。可能，她说的这些话，是为了让我留住她。但是……我没有那么做……在那一刻，我所有的力气都已经消失，我所有的自信都已经消失。我想忠于我自己，我使劲地看我自己的内心，才发现，不知道什么时候，我已经连自己都找不到了……” 走进放映厅…… 音乐响起的瞬间…… 电影院放映厅内，灯光渐渐全部熄灭了…… 什么都……熄灭了…… 心头有光的地方……一片漆黑。