Chapter 9 Lesson 9: Hero Or Zero

Man, why have a career?One day, you make a lot of money, and you have a lot of people who support you, will you remember the woman you lost when you fought for it?When you did these things, wasn't it just to be with her carefree?Women will never understand how much anxiety and panic there is in every man's heart.Because there are so many wolves in this world, I, a shepherd dog, have no choice but to give up my docility and shine the most dazzling light on this world... "I'm coming!" In the evening, Gu Xiaobai's living room. Gu Xiaobai, Luo Shuquan, Zuo Yongbang, Mo Xiaomin, AMY, and even the long-lost Aqian also came.Everyone sat upright, tense, staring at the TV without moving.

Waiting calmly for the next second. Not a live broadcast of the game. It's not the announcement of the college entrance examination-who's college entrance examination will be announced on TV? On TV...a woman appeared. A tall woman with long hair - Mo Xiaomin, was walking lazily in front of urban buildings in a long windbreaker with fluttering sleeves. Touching every window and every sycamore tree, sometimes looking up to the sky with a smile on my face. "No matter what kind of weather it is, no matter where it is, no matter what kind of mood it is, you will always be with me..."

Said a female voice on TV. Mo Xiaomin picked up a piece of chocolate with her fingers and put it into her mouth that was about to drip. "Guide me... lead me... meet him..." Melting the chocolate in his mouth, Mo Xiaomin opened his eyes with a sweet and comfortable expression... A handsome guy with long hair was standing three meters away in a long windbreaker, looking at her with a smile on his face. Standing opposite each other, the two looked like they fell in love at first sight. "It's like meeting you...Dove Chocolate..." After the lazy and sexy voice, the picture slowly faded away.

"Yeah! That's amazing!" After the commercial was over, everyone sat there quietly, and then cheered at the same time. "I didn't expect you to be so good-looking in the camera! Of course, you are also good-looking in person!" Luo Shuquan said. "Hey, Xiao Min, how much money can you earn with such an advertisement?" This was Zuo Yongbang's voice. "Don't mention it, I'm exhausted, and I made five or six thousand dollars for a day of shooting outside." Mo Xiaomin said shyly. This is a fatal blow to Ah Qian, the winner of "Unable to Receive the Best Achievement Award in Acting".

"Five to six thousand! I'm only paid two thousand per episode now! When will I be able to get ahead? By the way, Xiao Min, that male model is so handsome! Did you leave your phone number?" "He wanted to give it to me, but I didn't take it." Mo Xiaomin smiled, "However, if you like it, may I ask for you?" "Okay! Damn, it's not good to make money, it's good to have a handsome guy as a boyfriend." "Hey, Xiao Min, I have a clothing launch event next month, how about you come to be a guest model?" Zuo Yongbang said. "I... can I do it?"

"What works?! You're a star now, do you know? Do you know how famous this brand is?" "Then I... let's try." "Hurry up, help her find some more work, let her become famous quickly and become a star! Supermodel!" Ah Qian said excitedly to Zuo Yongbang, "We will rely on you from now on, everyone will be saved now It's..." From the beginning to the end, Gu Xiaobai didn't say a word, just sat there with a faint smile.At this time, he stood up suddenly, "Okay, the performance is over, everyone, go back and wash up and sleep!"

"Why?" Everyone looked at him wonderingly, as if they had just discovered his existence, "Shut us away so quickly?" "Did you suddenly find that Xiao Min is extremely sexy?" Ah Qian asked seriously, "So you are a little impatient?" "Get lost!" Gu Xiaobai said seriously. The people had no choice but to leave without saying anything. After closing the door, only Gu Xiaobai and Mo Xiaomin were left in the room. He stared at Mo Xiaomin, and Mo Xiaomin felt embarrassed. "Take me... guide me?" While smiling badly, Gu Xiaobai slowly approached Mo Xiaomin and hugged her.

Mo Xiaomin had nowhere to put his hands and feet, and was a little confused.Unexpectedly, Gu Xiaobai fumbled in Mo Xiaomin's pocket. "Where's the chocolate?" Mo Xiaomin opened his eyes, "Huh?" "Didn't you say you brought me that chocolate?" Gu Xiaobai raised his head, with an extremely serious and vicious expression. "Ah?! I... I forgot..." "Then how do you compensate me?!" Mo Xiaomin pretended to smile affectionately, tilted his head, and looked at him with wandering eyes, "What do you think?" "Go out and buy it for me!" Gu Xiaobai pointed at the door with a serious face.

After being driven down by Gu Xiaobai, Luo Shuquan fiddled with the program in front of the computer for half an hour, but nothing came out.Suddenly, a feeling of melancholy and loneliness surged up. Luo Shuquan was unprepared for this emotion, and he didn't enjoy it at all, so he wanted to get up immediately, take a shower and go to sleep.Unexpectedly, at this moment, Gu Xiaobai pushed the door in with a feeling of displeasure, and slammed it down. "Come in, you're welcome..." Luo Shuquan finished what the guest should say for him. "What mess?" "Didn't you drive us away suddenly?" Luo Shuquan looked at him strangely, "Why so fast?"

"What is so fast?" Gu Xiaobai was stunned for a while, "She's already asleep." "Oh...so you came to say goodnight to me, didn't you?" "Yeah, there is no AMY to say good night to you now, let me say good night to you..." Gu Xiaobai put his head in front of Luo Shuquan and smiled cruelly.He had hoped that stepping on Luo Shuquan's sore foot would cause a fight.Unexpectedly, Luo Shuquan completely ignored him.Gu Xiaobai walked around the room for a few times, an evil fire had nowhere to go, and he slammed the table. "Damn! I should have insisted!"

A month ago, Gu Xiaobai and Mo Xiaomin were walking on the street like a couple of gods, when they were suddenly stopped by a dog-headed man who insisted on handing Mo Xiaomin his business card, saying that he was a scout. "We are a formal company, and we are looking for future stars on the street. I think you really have such potential, miss." Of course, Gu Xiaobai snorted. He is also half an insider, and he especially hates this kind of stealth. Fraud.Before Mo Xiaomin could react, he took out a dollar and handed it to the man. "Uh... I'm not a beggar." After the dog-headed man finished speaking, he continued to pester Mo Xiaomin. It's not a beggar anymore, insisting on leaving your address and phone number in front of her boyfriend, how can you be suspected of asking for a beating?Gu Xiaobai endured it for a while, and when he was about to go up and beat him up, the man forced his business card to Mo Xiaomin, turned around and ran away. But it didn't end there. The whole process of the date that day, the two of them were awkward, and Gu Xiaobai didn't come back to normal until he got home.After Mo Xiaomin was praised so harshly, he was still immersed in the joy of being confused, completely puzzled—— "I just don't understand, why are you so angry, isn't it just a phone call?" Back home, Mo Xiaomin was still puzzled by Gu Xiaobai's ignorance. "It's not a problem with the phone, it's a problem with your IQ." Gu Xiaobai said. "Uh...huh?" "How old are you? You can't even tell?" Gu Xiaobai was inexplicably angry, "This is obviously a liar, oh, I'll praise you so much that you're dizzy, and then let you go to their company , pretending to fill in some information, and then asking you to pay a few thousand dollars, and disappear from the world, you don’t hear much about this kind of thing?” "The problem is, he asked for my number," Mo Xiaomin retorted in confusion, "didn't he ask me for money? When he really asks for money, it's not too late for me to ignore him." "How do you know it's not too late? Who knows what will happen to you when you turn around? You will be held there, and you will not be allowed to leave unless you pay the money. Rape and then kill, rape and then kill..." "..." Mo Xiaomin was silent. Mo Xiaomin was speechless because he hadn't recovered yet, why did he rape first and then kill him.Gu Xiaobai thought that it was Mo Xiaomin who started to make mistakes and carried out fierce self-reflection, so he felt that it was necessary to emphasize it again, just like a killer who shot another shot in the forehead after killing someone. But he didn't know that it was this shot that completely defrauded Mo Xiaomin, who had already been killed. "Did you know that your IQ directly reflects my taste?" Gu Xiaobai said. "What do you mean?" Mo Xiaomin reacted for a while, and finally broke out, "What do you mean by that?" "Nothing, nothing." Gu Xiaobai consciously said something wrong, "I was wrong." "What do you mean that you are wrong, what do you mean that my IQ reflects your taste?" Mo Xiaomin roared, "I can see it, you just don't look good!" "Wh... what do you mean by not being nice to others?" "Let me ask you, do you really enjoy your current state?" She looked straight at Gu Xiaobai. "what?" "You are a writer in SOHO, you don't have to do anything at home, and you don't need to eat and sleep in the open. You just need to type on the keyboard in front of the computer, and you can earn tens of thousands of dollars a month. Your girlfriend, a salesperson, squeezes the subway every day and eats box lunches, don't you Have a sense of superiority?" The burning anger in the opponent's eyes seemed to burn through him. "Where did this start..." Gu Xiaobai was also taken aback by the question. "Then why are you so angry? Like eating gunpowder?" Mo Xiaomin stared at him for a while, picked up his bag, and was about to leave. Before he slammed the door, he turned his head and slammed a sentence, "I'll tell you, I have to hand over the information. I'd rather let someone rape and then kill! Rape and then kill!" It's really...heavy taste. "Later, she really went like this..." Gu Xiaobai said sadly to Luo Shuquan, "I didn't expect that stupid liar to be not a liar, and he actually took an advertisement." "Isn't this good?" Luo Shuquan couldn't understand Gu Xiaobai's complicated mood. "Where is the good thing?" Gu Xiaobai suddenly yelled at Luo Shuquan, "You are mentally retarded! This is a good thing for everyone, and it can't be a good thing for me! If she is really so popular, the advertisements are like this. Shooting, developed and become a star, is this a good thing? The lessons of countless ancestors and the bloody reality tell us that once a woman climbs a branch, she will climb another higher branch. As the vision becomes more and more The wider the space, the higher the requirements. As the saying goes, a sparrow and a crow become a phoenix! A phoenix matches a phoenix! Do you think I look like a phoenix?!" Gu Xiaobai looked almost crazy. The girlfriend was discovered by scouts, and then walked smoothly on the road of acting.It is true that this is a small probability event for most people, but the essence of the matter is that when the value of a partner is further explored, it becomes known to the public.What's more, when both the momentum and the prestige start to flourish, and when it starts to pressure you... For men, what should we do? As your horizons broaden and you get to know more and more people, naturally...the possibility of you being "dumped" is also increasing.Although it may not be such a great thing to shoot an advertisement, but Gu Xiaobai, who is planning for a rainy day, obviously doesn't think so. "I don't want to be a screenwriter anymore." Gu Xiaobai turned his head abruptly and said this. "Ah..." Luo Shuquan stared at him blankly, "Then what do you want to be?" "Director." He said firmly. No matter in the biosphere or the human workplace, there is a saying that mutual generation and mutual restraint exist.Just as mosquitoes cannot escape the mouth of frogs, roosters have always been the natural enemies of centipedes.Gu Xiaobai felt a huge sense of crisis, which made him breathless like a thick fog. Am I... thinking too much?still…… Thinking too early? But now he is so anxious. At night, Gu Xiaobai slept next to Mo Xiaomin, anxious all night long.Every time I turn my head, I feel that the people next to me are disappearing at a phantom-like speed every second.Early the next morning, without saying anything, he rushed to the company that bought his script, found the producer's office, and walked in. "I want to be a director!" Gu Xiaobai said firmly while sitting opposite the producer. "Are you...are you joking?" The honest, slightly fat man across from him completely did not expect such a sudden day, and the other party handed over such a sentence. "Do you think I'm joking?" "Hehehe, I think it's..." "Actually it's not..." Gu Xiaobai looked at the producer with an expression of "I've never been so serious in my life", and he couldn't help but gradually become serious--Great love turned out to be serious, although I don't know what kind of madness it is, but... … "I can always ask why first?" "Don't worry about the reason." Gu Xiaobai waved his hands irritably, as if he was about to dig his own ancestral grave, "Anyway, I want to change my career!" "That's it..." The producer finally lost in the eyes of electric drills, and tried his best to move his chubby body forward, showing sincerity, "What about you... You are a very good screenwriter for us, no matter what Whether it's a director, an actor or a producer, they all like your book very much. But what about the director...director is a technical job, without any consideration, it is difficult for us to put you in that position, and the director now has someone... " "That's right?" That's a... Similar to Crayon Shin-chan's eyes. "Hey, don't be so arbitrary." The producer seemed to be a negotiator who was sent to negotiate with the robbers, and he found new fun, "I propose a plan and you see if it works... As for the book, you write it down .In addition, we will put you in the position of an assistant director first. You have to practice and get familiar with it first, and then you can get a share of the money. When the time is right, we will put you in that position, you see How about it?" "Are you serious?" "really!" "make a deal!" In order to achieve the final result, Gu Xiaobai wished he could slam his head on the desk to death. Zuo Yongbang and Luo Shuquan didn't take it seriously at all. When Gu Xiaobai told the whole story, development and whole story, they only attracted doubts and completely puzzled inquiries. "Are you really free?" Zuo Yongbang said. "What about you?" Luo Shuquan said. "What is it?! Let me tell you—" Gu Xiaobai wanted to jump up and strangle them to death, as if they were all people in the iron house described by Lu Xun, "especially you, I only now suddenly understand why career is so important to men. It’s so important to me. Why do men value career so much? I’ve never been poor before, and I lived a pretty good life. But so what?” Gu Xiaobai yelled at Luo Shuquan, “ In the final analysis, I still achieve nothing!" After yelling, he yelled at Zuo Yongbang, "I don't have a real career of my own, do you understand? And a woman, even if you love her again, if she is outstanding, she can't stay in a Too long around a man who accomplishes nothing." "Isn't Mo Xiaomin obediently by your side now?" Luo Shuquan pouted. "Is she obediently by my side? Is she obediently by my side? Good! I'll call you now..." I don't know how much the stimulation Gu Xiaobai received, but he became more and more nervous, As he said that, he took out his mobile phone and pressed Mo Xiaomin's number cracklingly. "Hey! Xiao Min! What are you doing! Oh, is that so? Okay, let's do this first..." After shutting it down with a snap, Gu Xiaobai turned to look at Luo Shuquan, "I'm filming an advertisement for shampoo, and the brand is bigger than before. That's even bigger." "..." "Is it too late when everything happens?" Facing the anxious Gu Xiaobai, Luo Shuquan didn't dare to attack even if the saliva was sprayed on his face, so he had to wipe it away silently. Although Gu Xiaobai's reaction was a bit too neurotic.But his judgment, indeed, is "based on the lessons of countless ancestors".At most, he could say that the early warning was too early, as if the Earthquake Administration had sounded the horn a year before the earthquake that occurred only the following year, and urgently requested evacuation.At most, it is said to be "nervous", and at worst, it is evaluated as "is it so early?" But look at it from another angle... The thing that was feared to happen will actually happen one day - is it a good plan, or... because your focus is too focused on a certain place, and that "fear" event is brought over? It's like riding a bicycle and always be careful not to hit the big rock in front of you, but you end up hitting it. Because the mind is too concentrated, whether it is fear or yearning, it will eventually be recruited. No matter what, Gu Xiaobai began to live a cruel and inhuman life—mixing with the crew during the day, writing manuscripts at night, and only sleeping for two or three hours a day.And Mo Xiaomin's life here also quietly changed, and the ad was well received.Following this, more and more advertisers came to the door, all of which made Mo Xiaomin at a loss, and he couldn't even find anyone to discuss with. Because Gu Xiaobai couldn't turn on his mobile phone at all during the day on the set, even if he turned it on, he could only switch it to silent. When he dialed back, Mo Xiaomin couldn't pick up the call again because he was filming a new advertisement. The two of them just came and went by staggering, and no one was able to find the other for a while. This is really a weird situation, yet it happened quietly, diffused, and expanded. At last…… One afternoon after more than a month, Mo Xiaomin resigned from his job at the cosmetics counter in the commercial building.Until now, she still remembers the day when she left, the store manager patted her on the shoulder and said, "I hope you will come back to endorse our products next time." Walking out of the commercial building, looking at the sky full of clouds and the streets full of people, what kind of mood is this.Proud, a little sad, and more of a fear of a completely blank new field in the future-even though my future looks so bright. But all this...she couldn't find anyone to share... Except AMY. Mo Xiaomin had no choice but to find AMY. "Inferiority! It must be inferiority!" After hearing Mo Xiaomin's complaint, AMY revealed mercilessly, "Otherwise, why didn't you answer your phone?" "No way..." Mo Xiaomin supported the counter of AMY clothing store with her hands, with a troubled expression on her face, "It is said that if I am more successful than before, men should feel that they have more face? Isn't it like this? All men want to date a female celebrity or model..." "It's true..." After finishing speaking, the two raised their cheeks at the same time, falling into endless melancholy. Then they lamented in unison. "Men really don't understand." As a woman, you may never be able to understand—men born out of male animals are born with the biological instinct of hunting and being hunted.In the animal kingdom, the strongest males always have the most beautiful females.And the loser can only be eliminated.This sense of fear and crisis is deeply engraved in the genetic factors of every man. "Hero Or Zero", this is the fear that women who are full of love in their hearts and think they can stay together forever with love will never understand. Fear of being hunted. With dirty blood, watching the beloved opposite sex being snatched away by an opponent stronger than himself, he can only whine in fear... It is deeply imprinted in the heart of every man. Men are really poor animals. Because women are endowed with the factors of pursuing "stability" and "stability" in their DNA, they will rely on more powerful males, because that means a reduction in the risk factor.Whether it's a reduced sense of life's suspense or a sense of security out of reproductive needs, it's hard for them to appreciate the "throwing away" of a man as a male animal in order to "defend his home and country" in this world dominated by the law of the jungle. Head, sprinkle blood" behavior. Strong, must be strong. But in the process of forcing myself to become stronger... Weakness is magnified accordingly. Luo Shuquan never expected that when he saw Gu Xiaobai again - it would be more than a month later.He went out to eat, opened the door, but met Gu Xiaobai who was "lying" at the door like Sadako with disheveled hair. "Ahhh!" Luo Shu's scalp exploded, "What are you doing?" "I can't climb up to my house anymore, come to your house to rest for a while..." Gu Xiaobai said dying, and fell to the ground. Luo Shuquan helped Gu Xiaobai in, laid him down on the sofa, and made another cup of ginseng tea.Gu Xiaobai had already wrapped a towel blanket that he found out from somewhere, and covered himself, looking at him with the eyes of a raped little resentful woman. "Where did you get the blanket?" Luo Shuquan asked calmly. "Carpet." Gu Xiaobai replied calmly. Deathly silence. "I... how do I know the assistant director and the director—there is only one word difference," after the silence, there must be an accompanying explosion.Gu Xiaobai shouted frantically: "It's all what slaves do! I ran up and down, here and there all day. Sending notices, maintaining law and order, passing on microphones, keeping an eye on clothing...whatever they can do Zhao'er has done everything for me..." "..." "In the past, they treated me as a human being, but now actors can throw them at me directly after taking off their clothes..." "Don't they know that you are the screenwriter of this play?" Luo Shuquan asked anxiously. You really need to be careful with what you say now. "I don't know." Gu Xiaobai shook his head, "I told the producers not to tell the crew that this is a secret, and I even chose a stage name for this." This is something that only a poor person can do. "Then you deserve it, don't you?" "What do you know, this is called professional..." Gu Xiaobai curled his lips, he didn't expect that this small action would pull any nerves, and his expression suddenly froze there. Then…… Tidal tears flooded around the eye sockets. "Why do I say you are doing this?" Luo Shuquan sighed, more disapprovingly, "Everyone has what he is good at and what he is not good at, what he is interested in and what he is not interested in. If you force yourself so much, what you are not good at What's the point of doing it?" "But only things that I'm not good at can bring me social status." "You write well, you can do the same." "Then let me ask you, can you name a few directors you know?" "That's a lot..." Undoubtedly, Luo Shuquan began to count with his fingers. "Then can you name a few screenwriters you know?" It was deathly silence again. This man named Luo Shuquan seemed to be suddenly in a forest of purple-red thick fog, looking around with his head down... All around, full of landmines. "Uh... Gu Xiaobai?" Landmine, still exploded... Accompanied by the sound of howling like ghosts and wolves. "Hate hate hate!" "Oh, good boy." Luo Shuquan thumped his back hard, "I'm sorry, I stepped on the thunder." "You think I want to..." Gu Xiaobai complained while crying, "This thing is not fun and boring... all day and night there is shouting 'start shooting, stop. Start shooting, stop. Start shooting, stop.' Make yourself confused It has to be like a repeater... But seeing Mo Xiaomin getting angry every day, if I don't work hard to climb to a new level, how can I hold her down?" "Why do you have to restrain her?" Luo Shuquan was puzzled, "Men and women stay together when they are happy, and separate when they are unhappy. It is about fate and love. What restrains her? You use this kind of Dongxi suppressed her, did you suppress her for a while? Do you think it is the pagoda suppressing the river demon?" Luo Shuquan disagreed with this statement from the bottom of his heart. "Besides, Mo Xiaomin is not such a person, is she? Although women are a little vain, she really likes you..." Luo Shuquan tried his best to comfort him, trying to think of new words... Turn your head... The people next to him have fallen asleep. fell asleep like a baby. Every baby who has just been born and is not aware of his gender would never have imagined that the life he will face in the future will be so different.They just sleep, sleep a lot, drink a little milk after waking up, and then go to a place like the end of the world to sleep a lot, as if all this sleep is to accumulate enough energy for the future. life is born to fight. Because times like this will never come back again. Gu Xiaobai only slept for two or three hours. Countless monsters and ghosts appeared in the dream, and the old lady who spread the omelette ("If you don't work hard, you will be fried like an egg." The old lady said kindly), math test…… Two or three hours later, Gu Xiaobai woke up as if being hit by an electric current, looked at his watch, and rushed out to work.Luo Shuquan didn't know when he was no longer in the room. At some point, Gu Xiaobai himself led a life of darkness. At this time, Mo Xiaomin was shopping happily with AMY.With an income of five or six thousand a day, Mo Xiaomin felt that it would be a crime not to spend the money.So, as if she was doing charity, she donated the money to luxury goods from all over the world, in exchange for things like bags and shoes. Since the man he loves cannot give him spiritual support, then letting himself give himself material satisfaction, not only cannot be said to be excessive, it is simply a matter of course. She didn't expect that at this very moment, at the other end of the city, Gu Xiaobai was stabbing his ass on a beam, using various methods to block the tide of sleepiness.He used a Coke bottle to hold his chin to prevent himself from falling asleep suddenly; he used scotch tape to stick his upper and lower eyelids to prevent them from meeting; The chin, all of this, is to keep your eyes level with the manuscript on the computer screen. However, the focus is still gradually blurring... He... fell asleep again. In the dream, he was hunted down again... "Have you learned a new language recently?" The next day, in the production company, the producer looked at Gu Xiaobai's manuscript, raised his head, and asked with a smile.Gu Xiaobai, who already looked like a ghost, stood there with a stiff smile, anxiously waiting for the security check. Hearing this, he leaned over to look in confusion. Looking at it this way, it's like being out of your wits. I don’t know which page to start with the manuscript that I had finished writing last night, but all the gibberish characters like “%&￥%**%￥” appeared, like the language of aliens. Obviously finished writing, Gu Xiaobai was so confused that he was in a daze. Now that I think about it, I probably fell asleep and typed it with my face on the keyboard. It was a dream that I felt that I had finished writing. "Xiaobai...you can't go on like this." The producer threw the manuscript on the table, leaned on the chair, and said slowly, "The crew also reported it to me...saying you..." Suddenly, the person in front of him disappeared. looked down. Gu Xiaobai was already kneeling on the ground, clutching the legs of the table and his trouser legs, crying. "dont give up me!" "What are you doing?" I have never seen such a battle, and the reaction mechanism cannot be activated at all. "I don't care! I heard that people who do great things can be shameless at critical moments." Gu Xiaobai said bitterly, looking up at the fat man in front of him, there was pleading, even poignant eyes in his eyes.However, at some point, two green lights suddenly appeared faintly from the depths of his eyes. Then…… The green light became brighter, hotter, and transformed into two fierce lights. "Let me ask you a question..." "Uh...huh?" The man in front of him stood up slowly, and the projection behind him was getting bigger and bigger, black, thick and invisible... There are clearly two demon horns. "Tell me, how did you get to be a producer? How did you get into this position? Hmm?" Gu Xiaobai's eyes brightened, "Why did someone invest money in you to make this movie? Your ancestors Are you mining coal? Speculating on land? Or someone in your family selling drugs? Where did you get so much money? Tell me!!!” The sound of grief and anger echoed throughout the office building. "Is it really so crazy?" Zuo Yongbang asked Luo Shuquan worriedly in another office building in the city. "Yeah, I met him in the community this morning, and he crawled out again, and he didn't recognize me when he saw him. He hasn't slept much for almost a week." When Luo Shuquan found Zuo Yongbang, Zuo Yongbang in a meeting.After the meeting, the two were in the meeting room. Luo Shuquan explained the matter, "According to his schedule, he basically won't need to sleep for the next three months." "How did this happen? Did Mo Xiaomin force him?" Zuo Yongbang was also incredulous. "No one forced him, he forced himself." "How did that happen?" "It's useless for me to persuade him. He thinks I'm a failure compared to him. In comparison, he will listen to you. You have to persuade him, otherwise he can do anything if this continues. He is really going crazy It's..." Luo Shuquan looked at Zuo Yongbang very seriously. Friendships between men—compared to women—in ordinary times seem less intimate, and even seem colder.A pair of close friends may appear to be more ignorant than strangers on the surface.They don't communicate often, and they don't care about each other's lives.Women can go shopping hand in hand in the street, and even go to the bathroom together, but doing this between men is simply perverted.But when the critical moment comes, take action to save the other party from fire and water, and even lose all your belongings.Men are often such creatures. Zuo Yongbang didn't hold the meeting, and drove Luo Shuquan to the set of Gu Xiaobai's "work".On the way, the two of them were silent, both thinking how they could be so idle and unlucky to meet such an inexplicable and weird-thinking friend.But since we have become friends, it is like money in your pocket, there is no reason to take it out again. They also didn't expect that at this time, on the set, Gu Xiaobai was going through a life-and-death test. After yelling at the producer in the morning and being escorted out by the security guards of the office building... He ran to the set, and the director was holding a script signed by "Gu Xiaobai", and called a screenwriter named "Gu Xiaobai" everywhere, because he had never seen such a poorly written script. The script, the director is out of anger. The task of finding the enemy falls to the "assistant director" who has just arrived by his side. Gu Xiaobai took the contact phone list, took out his mobile phone, and in front of the whole crew, Junzi dialed his number frankly, and handed it to the director—"The user you dialed is busy" . "I can't get through." Gu Xiaobai spread his hands innocently. What a sweaty moment. But now that Gu Xiaobai, who has tried his best and tried his best, intends to make a "great cause" that will shake the world and weep ghosts and gods, has already put his life and death at risk. "Hey...then let's shoot whatever episode we can." The director could only say helplessly. On the set, Gu Xiaobai looked for a script that could be filmed like a running rabbit. People who have never seen a studio can't imagine that the beautiful and exquisite scenes presented in front of the silver screen are all constructed sets. The surrounding area called "subject" is more empty and messy, full of various wires, boards, sundries, and xenon lamps. Compared with the central place, it is like the difference between heaven and hell. The issue is…… That is fake. And the messy, dark and damp area, where people could trip over at any time, was the real world. Gu Xiaobai was in such a "real" world, flipping through a "script" that at least seemed to be filmable. At least TV content that makes viewers look like they don't vomit. This is already very, very rare. What's even more rare is that he has just escaped a catastrophe. Once his true identity is exposed, he may never be able to recover. In front of his immediate boss, he used his "undercover identity" to find himself, and spread his hands and said "I can't find it"... In the underworld, after three stabs and six holes, the corpse was hung on the wall and flogged. Just like this, Gu Xiaobai patted his small chest to calm down, while reciting the mantra "Heaven will send a great responsibility to everyone", looking for the script. Then, as if the spell "open sesame" worked... The door of the studio... slowly opened. Looking back, two familiar figures - Zuo Yongbang and Luo Shuquan were walking towards him anxiously. At that moment, Gu Xiaobai was so frightened that his heart could barely beat, he wanted to turn around, cover his face, and run. "Gu Xiaobai!!!" Zuo Yongbang shouted behind him. Everyone in the studio turned their heads and looked at him in unison. As if to confirm their doubts. "Gu Xiaobai!!!" Luo Shuquan behind him added loudly. Gu Xiaobai looked at all the people, then turned his head to look at Zuo Yongbang and Luo Shuquan, his mind went blank. Another set of reaction mechanisms kicks in. He... fainted. Slowly opening his eyes, he found that he was in a hospital ward with a needle on his arm.Gu Xiaobai turned his head again, Luo Shuquan looked at him with concern, and Zuo Yongbang was walking around the room. "Did I make a fool of myself?" He asked Luo Shuquan weakly. "It's okay, it's okay, you should have a good rest first." "You didn't tell Mo Xiaomin, did you?" Zuo Yongbang was walking around in annoyance, when he heard this, he slammed the wall and yelled at Gu Xiaobai: "You fucking wake up! If this continues, we will directly tell Mo Xiaomin to participate Your funeral is ready." "Don't get angry first, don't get angry." Luo Shuquan came up to persuade the fight. "It's time to wake him up." Zuo Yongbang pointed at Gu Xiaobai and scolded, "What the hell do you think you're doing? Don't do a good job, let's live a good life! Do hard work ! Still playing Infernal Affairs! Are you really out of your mind?!" Is it... my brain is broken... Gu Xiaobai is also thinking. But...it was too dizzy. "Oh, he's still a patient." Luo Shuquan said. "Patient? He's about to become a mental patient!" Zuo Yongbang turned his head and shouted at Gu Xiaobai again, "Do you really think it's interesting to do this? Is it worth it for you to torture yourself like this for a woman?" does it worth?not worth it.does it worth?not worth it…… 这好像是恋爱中出现频率最高的词汇了吧，搜一搜情歌，以“值得”为关键词的歌实在也太多了吧。 问题是，这是值得不值得的问题吗？ 感情……是能够用值不值得来衡量的吗？ 爱上一个人，希望对方也用同样的爱意来回报自己。如果不，就是不值得。如果是，就是值得。这是一种多么粗暴的衡量啊。 相较于这个，还是“我爱你，但与你无关”这样的话听起来更酷一点。 “不是为了她。”顾小白摇摇头，虚弱地说。 "what?" “我以前不知道上进……”顾小白抬头，对着左永邦虚弱地笑起来，“不知道努力，觉得自己做好本职工作就好了。其实这个世界变化很快的，每个人都在进步，我一直没有意识到这一点，小闵只是让我意识到了这一点……所以……我真的不是为了她。” “那你为什么不让我们告诉她呢？” “这样……她会骄傲的。”顾小白又……笑了起来。 时尚杂志的鸡尾酒会上，莫小闵一身低胸晚礼服，和AMY两人在吧台喝酒。 “怎么？还没联系上顾小白啊？” “是啊，也不知道怎么回事，怪了。”莫小闵苦恼地说，“最近和他就联系不上，要不打过去他不接，要不就是他打过来，我正在忙，没法接。再打过去，他又不接了。不知道在搞什么？” “那你上他家去找他啊？” “我也想啊……可是……你不觉得，现在应该是他越来越珍惜我才对，为什么反而我要比以前更巴结他呢？” 姿态——已静悄悄地在改变了啊…… “他是不是看你好了，开始自暴自弃啊？”AMY问道。 “现在追我的男人比以前更多了。”莫小闵疲倦地笑了笑，“我已经一个个回绝他们了，我已经对他够好了。喔，还想我怎么样啊？跪在地上求他不要离开我啊？” 越说越气恼，还有一种不可思议的悲哀感。莫小闵转过头，边上不知何时突然出现一个男人，衣冠楚楚地拿着酒杯，看着她。 “小姐，有没有荣幸请你喝杯酒？” 有荣幸的人从不珍惜，没荣幸的人苦苦上赶着…… 那瞬间，莫小闵脑子里冒出这句话。 左永邦开着车，载着从医院归来的顾小白和罗书全，到了顾小白家楼下。转头一看，顾小白已经在后座上虚弱地睡着了…… 这个人……究竟是缺了多少睡眠啊？ “我这就把他送上去了。”边上的罗书全对左永邦点点头。 左永邦也点点头。 罗书全刚要推车门。 “他做的是对的。”左永邦突然没头没脑地说。 “什么？”罗书全没听懂，回过头呆呆地看着他。 “我有没有告诉过你们，我为什么会和潇潇的妈妈离婚？”永邦握着方向盘，视线看着风挡玻璃前不知什么地方，突然笑了笑，自顾自说起来……“我们很早就结了婚，大学一毕业就结婚了。大概是觉得这个世界太混乱，我们又太喜欢对方，所以想一毕业就结婚，来固定住对方，然后又糊里糊涂有了潇潇。那时候，我们大学刚刚毕业，接下来就可想而知了。我在一个小公司做实习生，一个月也没几百块钱。我还觉得没什么，大家都一样嘛。就算有了潇潇，也是多一张嘴吃饭而已。想想那个时候真幼稚啊。” 左永邦拍了拍方向盘，嘲弄般地笑起来。 “五年以后，潇潇四岁的时候，她跟一个有钱的男人跑了——是他们公司的老板，她还把潇潇带走了，说跟着我她会吃苦的。临走的时候，她哭了……说，左永邦，我们生活在一个现实的世界里，跟着你，我哪里也到不了。” “那她不爱你吗？”罗书全小心翼翼地问。 “爱我啊，爱我才坚持了五年啊。” "Then now..." “现在……”左永邦再度微笑起来，“现在我们只是朋友，但是我很感激她告诉了我这个道理。在我三十岁不到的时候，她用她的实际行动告诉我，男人，一定要有他的事业。不然，我到现在可能还是个公司的小职员。她用她的实际行动告诉我，一个男人，是没权利要求他爱的女人陪她一起吃苦的。” 说着，左永邦回头看了看熟睡的顾小白。 “小白比我们都聪明，他意识得比我们早，所以他失去的会比我们少……”转过头，左永邦看着罗书全笑了笑，“扶他上去吧。” 罗书全扶着熟睡中的顾小白，站在门楼口，看着左永邦的车子静静地匍匐在那里。突然，车子像惊醒过来似的，猛地发动起来，转了个弯，飞快地开出了小区。罗书全眼中最后剩下的是左永邦消失前打下的双闪灯。 那闪耀的红色的两下灯光好像某种警醒，好似某种悼念，映在罗书全眼中，久久不散。 他，对往日那个人留下的固然有深深的感激，但是何尝没有深深的遗憾。 很多天以后…… 莫小闵作为友情客串，在一部正在拍摄的情景剧里演新锐模特。 在一辆面包车里，莫小闵带着妆，跟AMY通电话。边上那个要饭星探正在絮絮叨叨地跟莫小闵介绍，“我跟你说啊，小闵，这次虽然我们是作为客串就演一场戏，几分钟，但这对于拓宽你的领域来说，是很重要的一步，千万要把握住啊……”莫小闵点点头，继续对着手机里的AMY说起来。 “是啊，我现在就在去片场的路上呢。我也没听说过，我干吗要问他？他都几乎不理我了，我还要巴着他？而且，他整天这么神神叨叨，谁知道他在干吗？” 一路坎坷崎岖地颠簸着，车开进了市郊外的一家大型摄影棚。莫小闵被经纪人和工作人员牵引着，但是灵魂仿佛已经离开了这块黑暗的厂棚。 因为就在刚才…… AMY终于在电话里告诉她，顾小白这一阵到底是在干吗，以及为什么总是接不到电话，以及为什么连AMY也才刚刚听说。 “顾小白一直不让我们告诉她，但是他忘了提醒我不要告诉你。这样，你就可以转告小闵了。小白不是不爱她，不是不在乎她，他从来没有这样恐惧失去谁，不要误会他。” 听到罗书全在电话里认真地说着，AMY自己也忍不住眼睛湿了起来。 莫小闵就这样在片场里走着，目光搜寻着。 片场另一处角落里，顾小白在搬着很重的东西，灰头土脸的。突然，他似乎感应到什么似的，转过头，莫小闵在面前五米的地方，光彩照人，静静地看着他。 慢慢直起身，顾小白看着莫小闵。 “原来你在这里。”莫小闵笑笑。 “你怎么会跑到这里来？” “我经纪公司安排的，我来这里串一场戏，没几句台词……我刚刚拿到剧本，是你写的吧？” “这上面不是有名字吗……”顾小白撇撇嘴。 “那你在这里干吗？”莫小闵静静看着他。 “我写的戏，我不能来看看啊？”尽管灰头土脸，顾小白还是笑笑，佯装随意地要走开。 “顾小白！！！” “无所谓啦！”顾小白笑嘻嘻地转身，“他们都已经知道我真名了。” 然而，不知何时，莫小闵的眼眶已经湿了。 “我已经知道了，我已经知道这段时间发生了什么事……” “这帮……叛徒……” “小白，你真的觉得这才是办法吗？你难道不知道我到底在乎什么吗？” 莫小闵气急败坏地叫喊。顾小白叹了口气，转身要走开。 “你如果真的那么害怕，那么没自信，我可以回去啊，回到原来你碰到我的地方。” 后面的声音再次响起，顾小白转过身，叹气。 “卖化妆品啊？你在想什么呢？” “我只是不想你这么拼命。”莫小闵苦苦忍住泪水，“不想你这么辛苦，我只是想我们都能回到最初的地方，一切都没有变，也不会变。” “你最初的地方并不是在我身边。”顾小白摇了摇头，“是在另一个男人身边，你从那里到了这里，我不知道……”顾小白抬起头，认真地望着她，“你接下去还会去哪里？不要告诉我你哪里都不会去，我想相信，但是我不敢相信。” “你是对我没信心，还是对自己没信心？” 他安静地站着。 好像自从到了这个地方，他从来没有像现在这样，可以静静地站上一会儿。似乎永远不断地在忙碌，在灰尘与木屑中忙碌，在每一声此起彼伏的叫喊中忙碌，在每一秒朝不保夕的焦虑中忙碌…… 好久没有这样安静地站着了。 那些一天只需要工作两三个小时，剩余的时光都用来在阳光中看书，听唱片，或者在街上百无聊赖地闲逛，看看路过的哪个美女的腿更长更白，那些让顾小白觉得“人生就是应该用来挥霍和享受”的时光，不知何时已经翻天覆地地改变了。 因为不知何时，他想紧紧地抓住一个人，因为这个人——任何一个人——都是会随时走开的。等到这一天发生了，就来不及了。 每一个人，当自己伴侣的世界越来越宽的时候，想着“终于可以坐享其成地享受TA带来的胜利成果了”的念头，都会慢慢忘记，在享受的时候，对方的脚步正越来越快。 所谓并肩而行，该是以同样的步伐吧？ “我不是对你没信心，我也不是对自己没信心。”顾小白终于笑起来，“我是……对除了我们之外的一切都没有信心，但那个一切太厉害了，那是——一个世界。我想你好，因为你好了，你才会开心。我也因为你，才知道自己应该变得更好，也可以变得更好。我们都有还没有发挥出来的东西。”顾小白望着她，“如果我们因为对方，发现自己身上还有更多没有发挥的东西，还有更多的潜力，这不是件好事吗？” 看着眼泪终于流下的莫小闵，顾小白走上去，摸了摸她的头发。 “好好拍戏吧……要好好拍……我可是用脸写的……” 莫小闵哭着笑出来。 站在搭景内，一切准备就绪。旁边工作人员忙碌地奔跑着，莫小闵迎着四面八方的灯光抬起头。 自己在乎的人正在不断地奔忙着。 突然，那个之前大发脾气的导演走过去，拦住顾小白。 “这场戏你来拍。” “啊？”呆呆地看着他，顾小白不知道是什么意思。 “不都是你写的吗？”导演突然狡猾地笑起来，“而且你老看，老看，光看怎么行，要上手的嘛。” 原来……他也知道了…… “而且，你不就是为了这个来的吗？”导演望着他，“但是你记住啊，剧本再像上次写得像狗屎一样，你就再也不要过来了啊！” 顾小白还愣在那里。听说过一句话，当一个人全力以赴想做一件事，那么全世界都会帮他的。顾小白转头看了看周围，每一个人，每一个部门，都在向顾小白做出一个OK的姿势，表示随时可以开拍。 再转过头，莫小闵也静静地望着他。 这一切……是什么时候开始的啊…… 顾小白终于深深地吸了口气，看着导演，点了点头，走到导演椅前，坐下。 监视器的屏幕里，是他不惜一切也要留住的人。 这个人……正在慢慢地，以越来越快的加速度变好。 而自己，也要不断地努力才行啊！ “开拍！” 凝视着监视器许久的顾小白，终于喊出了那一句话。 此刻，摄影棚外，是一个明亮的都市……