Chapter 17 first quarter

In 2006, Lao Xie sent off the third group of classmates in that dormitory, and welcomed the fourth group of students who were one round younger than himself. In 2007, Dr. Shang Qinghua graduated.While everyone was happy for him, they were also sad for his own age—he, who has a doctorate, has already called the master who was once called an uncle "those children".No one is surprised that Shang Qinghua is a Ph.D. student. He left school and many people were surprised: "You don't go to school, who will you learn from?" Postdoctoral fellow!" In 2008, the Olympic Games was held in Beijing as scheduled. When the bid was successful seven years ago, many students who celebrated together that night have lost contact.It has been six years since I left school, and the traces left on my body during my school days have disappeared after years of social baptism, and society branded new traces on everyone.

Zou Fei also changed jobs this year, leaving the car magazine and going to a travel magazine.The reason for leaving is the same as his predecessor. I am tired of taking pictures of cars every day. Although cars are changing with each passing day, they are cars after all. Looking at them from the camera, no matter how beautiful they are, they are just a mixture of steel and technology. If you use your imagination, you can at most see the ingenuity of human beings and the daily pursuit of comfort and luxury. Apart from this, this job really makes Zou Fei see nothing. The matter of changing jobs also made Zou Fei clearly realize that what he was walking was just the road walked by others. Although there were new scenery on the road, it was only new to him, and it was actually left over by others.

The new job is also to take pictures, but the camera faces not only the scenery, but also the society and people. This allows Zou Fei to make many new discoveries, which enriches his understanding of the world and helps him grow.This is his growth need, so he switched to his current job.Life has a self-correcting function, making everything develop in a more reasonable and people-oriented direction. In addition to taking photos at work, Zou Fei also took photos that he kept.Sometimes he would take out his photos over the years and compare them with the contents of the photos in the past few years. He found that he used to love to take photos of the suffering and edges of life, but now he only takes photos of the warm and moving moments in life.It's not that he has become numb and turned a blind eye to the sufferings in life. On the contrary, he is now more socially responsible. It's just that he feels that in addition to being responsible to society, people should also have the ability to appreciate and create beautiful things.Just like a class that is dissatisfied with the status quo and only knows how to uphold justice but does not know how to move people with beauty, even if it takes power and prevents the common people from feeling the beauty, it will not last long.

Taking advantage of his work, Zou Fei went to many places in China, especially the cities and towns that he had never had access to before, and found that China is like this. There are too many people who are different from himself and live completely different lives. This state, Let Zou Fei reflect more on life.Now he understands that some older people speak moderately, not because they are tight-lipped and afraid of offending people, but because they can consider all aspects of things; while those who do things in extreme ways are because of limited knowledge and a one-sided understanding of life , Talking and doing things are naturally extreme-this kind of extreme is actually mistaken for passion by more narrow-minded people.

When watching his classmates doing a variety of occupations, Zou Fei discovered that university is actually just an accident in life for them. Not everyone has the ideal of learning and doing scientific research. Get a diploma, find a better job, and start earning money to support your family. At this stage, Zou Fei’s view of the world—at least the world formed by the part of Chinese society that he can touch—is that everyone is making a living without a sense of mission. not easy.But can this be a reason to make do? The society's answer is precisely yes.Therefore, this social problem is full of problems, which is very unsatisfactory.

When a person's attention is completely on his own heart, or only pays attention to his own thoughts, he will ignore the growth of life, and he will not realize that he has grown up year by year.Zou Fei still thinks that he is the boy he was back then. He lowered his head and only looked at the path he was going to take, without noticing the changes of the times around him.Suddenly one day, when he raised his head and looked out from his heart, he caught a glimpse of himself in the image reflected by the outside world, and found that he was no longer the boy he was back then, but his mind was still at that time .

Zou Fei thought that he was participating in life, but after many years, other students had their own children, but Zou Fei still felt that he was a child who needed to grow up and was still keeping a distance from the worldly life.It seems that it is others who actually participate in life, and he has always been just a bystander of life.No, he didn't regard himself as a bystander. He was devoted to life, and he worked overtime. He was unwilling to regard himself as a person who went to bed when he was full. His attitude towards life was definitely not a stand-by.It can only be said that this world has multiple dimensions. Although they all live in the air and sunlight, different people actually live in different dimensions. Each dimension has its own characteristics and affects each other. However, this kind of Impact can be denied.

Other people's lives can be judged by how many contracts they signed, how many things they sold, and how many affairs they dealt with. However, the quality of life that Zou Fei pursues is only known to the person concerned, and he can only rely on his heart. Feelings cannot be measured by anything else.And it is a little tiring to get real spiritual feelings every day and not be able to relax yourself, so Zou Fei has been living a little tired all the time. Only then did Zou Fei realize that he had been looking for something, but what he was waiting for was that he had nothing left in his heart except that he was getting old.Others have already put this society and era in their hearts, but he still shuts them out in his heart, only regards them as passers-by who pass by or knock on the wrong door, and never think about inviting them into the house Sit and talk.

He needs to exchange breath with the outside world.When Zou Fei opened the door of his heart to breathe, he found that the world is in motion, time will pass, and the heart should grow. Listening to the current music and watching the current movies, this is also the reason why the times have changed.It’s not that music makers can’t write the same kind of music anymore, it’s that no one listens to that kind of music anymore; it’s not that filmmakers can’t make the same kind of movies as before, it’s that no one will pay for such movies anymore.Times have changed, and everyone has changed along with it.

Wei Wei is also at odds with the times.One day Wei Wei called Zou Fei and said he would come over to talk to him. Zou Fei asked him what was wrong, and he said it was nothing, just wanted to talk. Not long after, Wei Wei arrived at Zou Fei's downstairs, and couldn't talk on the phone, so he asked Zou Fei to come down and talk. "Why do you have to go out?" Zou Fei went downstairs and got into Wei Wei's car and asked. "I want to go swimming at the beach." Wei Wei said. "Bohai Sea or South Sea?" Zou Fei asked. "Go closer." "Well, if you go far away, I have to go back and get some money."

Wei Wei and Zou Fei drove the car to the beach in Tanggu, it was already dark, and they were hungry, so they went into a bar by the sea. The bar was not occupied yet, only a few shirtless men were drinking draft beer around a table. There were finished draft beer mugs on the table. It's a tourist from the Northeast. Zou Fei and Wei Wei found a table by the window and sat down, each ordered a set meal and a bottle of beer.When we were about to finish eating, a man and a woman came in from outside, and sat down at a side table.The man wears a hat and is a rock star. Fifteen years ago, he was very famous. Now he is old and outdated, and his name can only be seen in the program lists of various commercial performances.Someone from the diners at that table recognized him, and sat down opposite him drunkenly holding a draft beer, without seeing anything else: "I know who you are, why don't you release a new album, and go to commercial performances all the time?" The rock star was still polite, and smiled: "No one will buy it, and the company is unwilling to sell it." "The company doesn't want to do it, so you have to figure out a way to do it yourself. This kind of life is meaningful, otherwise you are not a rock!" what. "I have to eat, and I have to live!" the rock veteran said helplessly. "Aren't you alive?" The drunk looked at him carefully and said, "I don't see where you are sub-healthy, and you are stronger than me." The old rock cannon smiled again: "Is it true that you bought it? I was waiting to download it for free online. I also have to get married and raise a child. When you downloaded it, did you think that you were actually robbing my son's milk powder money?" ?” "That can't be just for making money. If you have no money and can't afford imported milk powder, you can buy domestic milk powder. The poor can support their children, and rock children have to boycott foreign products!" "I didn't say that my child must drink good milk powder, but don't you think that your children drink imported milk powder, and my child has to drink cheap milk powder because he has a rock and roll father, and he has to drink milk powder with melamine. Is the child fair?" The drunk man couldn't think of a reason to refute, so he glanced at the Toyota Jeep parked outside and said: "That car is yours, it's better than mine, you have been corrupted by money, and it's a Japanese car, you already There is no principle!" The veteran rock cannon finally lost his temper: "Why do you download our songs for free and not let us perform commercially! Why do you think we shouldn't have our own song now because we started rock 'n' roll 20 years ago? Houses and cars! You have to see us living in poverty to think it’s right? Haven’t you secretly thought about making yourself more money? The principle is only for us, so you can have no principles?” "We are us, you are you!" "We're human too." "You let me down so much!" The drunk gulped down the draft beer in his glass in a fit of anger. The rock veteran smiled helplessly again, and asked, "What else do you want to drink, and I'll give you another shot?" "I can't drink with you anymore, I'm leaving!" The drunk returned to his table. The old rocker ordered food and juice, and the woman sitting next to him looked like his legal wife.Wei Wei walked over with a draft beer and stood in front of him: "No other intention, just drink a glass of wine with you." Lao Pao picked up the cup, and the two touched each other. "Sit!" Lao Pao gave way to Wei Wei. "Stop sitting, just say a few more words and I'll leave. The new album won't come out until it's released. Now listening to rock has become a popular behavior. Many people listen to it because of the need to pretend, and it's a kind of flaunting. I used to listen to The needs of the soul. I didn’t take the initiative to tell others that I like rock music. It’s my own business. They listen to rock to let people know that he is listening, not his heart is listening, so there is no need to write songs for most people now." After finishing speaking, Wei Wei left the bar. It was completely dark.Wei Wei drove the car to an unmanaged beach and stopped. The two got out of the car and walked to the sand soaked by the waves. "I miss Dodo." Wei Wei said facing the sea. On the way here, Wei Wei had already told Zou Fei about breaking up with Dodo.In the past six months, he and Dodo had many problems.These incidents seem to have no logic, but they can reflect the problem: when eating apples, Wei Wei always throws more apples than he eats. Every time he finishes eating, Dodo takes two bites before throwing away. Wei Wei never cared about something broken at home, and Duoduo always went to the property or repaired it by himself. Wei Wei still doesn't know how to use the washing machine, where are the mops and brooms. He always thought that there were no such things at home. When Dodo was selling things in the online store, the shoppers yelled at each other, even though it was just typing, Wei Wei couldn't stand it.Wei Wei couldn't bear it even more when Duo Duo called Wei Wei her dear. The relationship between Dodo and Wei Wei's family is closer than Wei Wei and them. The above things let Wei Wei know clearly: "I have a problem." Knowing that he has a problem, but not knowing how to solve it, Wei Wei is very distressed. Now when he is with Duo Duo, he is always very annoying for some reason.For example, Wei Wei often suffers from insomnia, and when she finally feels sleepy, she needs to be quiet, but Duo Duo is not sleepy, so she looks for something to eat. Among the piles of food, she just picked a cucumber, and ate it with a creak after washing. Get up and bring Wei Wei, who is about to fall asleep, back to reality.Wei Wei asked Duo Duo why she chose a cucumber instead of so many things that tasted silent.Duoduo's answer is, because Wei Wei likes to eat those things, leave them for him.Wei Wei had nothing to say about this answer, but this incident really bothered Wei Wei, making him sleepy and extremely unhappy. Sometimes, Wei Wei would not talk while eating, and Duo Duo would talk by herself, and when Wei Wei couldn't take it anymore, Wei Wei would ask her, are you tired?Dodo said, tired.Wei Wei said, if you are tired and still talk so much, what will you do if you are not tired!Dodo said, you treat me as a talker, I'm afraid you'll be bored, talking so much will delay my meal, and I'll let you eat all the delicious food.Wei Wei said, I didn't feel excited when you said it, and it affected my eating. I didn't want to use my brain while eating.Duoduo's kindness was difficult to be accepted by Wei Wei. "Extreme things will turn against each other. It seems that the two of us are getting along well. If we go on, we can only hate each other." Wei Wei had this feeling.But when he was separated from Dodo, he could think of all kinds of good things about Dodo.When Dodo went out to buy goods, she no longer dangled in front of his eyes. He could always think of Dodo, but it was impossible for Dodo to go out to buy goods all the time, so Wei Wei decided to separate first and let things take their course. But after being with Dodo for so many years, Wei Wei didn't know what to say if they broke up, so he could only let Dodo leave voluntarily.So Wei Wei guessed that when Duo Duo went out to buy goods and was about to come back, he found a door-to-door service lady. After the lady came, Wei Wei dawdled for a while, thinking that Duo Duo should come back, so he took off his clothes and went to bed. After a while, Duo Duo really came back, opened the door with a key, stood at the door and saw this scene, left Wei Wei a sentence "I treated you like that, you treat me like that!" and left. After Duo Duo left, Wei Wei also dismissed the young lady. He let out a sigh of relief and accomplished a great event. "Duoduo is a good girl, I don't have the heart to hurt her anymore, that's all I can do." Wei Wei said, "In a different environment, she might be happier than following me." "Did you ever think that you would miss Dodo and long to be with her after we separated?" Zou Fei sat on the ground and asked. "I thought about it, but if we are really together, I will get annoyed again. It's better to separate, so that every time I think of it, it's her good." Wei Wei also sat on the beach, paused and said, "It's been so many years, Dodo is always the same as when I first met her, she seems to have stayed at the age of sixteen." "Isn't that great!" Zou Fei said. "It's good, but I feel like I'm already sixty years old." Wei Wei said. Both of them stopped talking, looking at the dark sea in front of them, the lighthouses in the distance were dotted with stars, and the waves were beating against the beach. After a moment of silence, Wei Wei suddenly said: "Cobain and Morrison, when they died, one was twenty-seven and the other was twenty-eight. They have guided us and accompanied us in the dark period of life—even if they didn't help us. We found the light. Now, compared with them, we are too old to know whether we have seen more than they, or found light that they did not see, or are more likely to live in dirty air than they, even if The light has not yet appeared, and it still won't affect us to rely on the power of nature to complete our life?" "Various reasons." Zou Fei replied in the dark. "We all hope that the society can change, but it can't change. Why?" "The problem of people is that there are always fuckers who do shitty things and form a fucking society." "Why do people fuck?" "It's human nature." "It's not human nature." "But that's all." "A person who simply does a good deed, such as helping out-of-school children or beggars, will always be said to have something in mind when people find out about it. I don't know why people would think so." "Habits of thinking, people who think this way may be because they are such a person, or society has cultivated their thinking like this." "When a person does something bad, such as taking drugs, there will always be a group of moralists standing up and pointing fingers, with a dignified look. Why doesn't anyone experience and analyze the loneliness and pain of drug addicts? Of course, no matter what the reason It’s better not to touch drugs, and I don’t object to individual supervision of society, but how many of those criticizing voices are secretly doing bad things, and I have to let the police take care of me, are you embarrassed? " "That's right, take care of yourself first, the police will take care of others." "Yeah, let's forget about others, let's go swimming!" "Walk!" The two took off their clothes, lit a cigarette each, and walked into the sea step by step.The sun has been setting for several hours, the air on the beach is already cool, and the sea water is still warm, which makes people want to go in. The two little red dots gradually moved away from the coastline.Zou Fei walked in front, and Wei Wei stopped behind, above his knees exposed, peeing standing up, with one hand on his hips, and a cigarette in the other hand, the cigarette butts flickering and dimming, saying, "Tianjin people, I'm sorry. Now, add some flavor to your seafood." Zou Fei swam up ahead, with his head exposed and a cigarette still in his mouth. He didn't go deep, but just swam sideways. This was a wild sea without shark nets.Swimming on his belly was unable to smoke, so Zou Fei changed to backstroke again, lying on his back on the sea, holding a cigarette in his hand, looking at the night sky, and letting the waves swing him back and forth. After floating for a while, suddenly a wave came over, and the sea water flooded over Zou Fei's face, choking him.Zou Fei stood up, blew out the seawater in his nostrils, looked at the place where he just went into the sea, and found that the red spot was gone.Looking at the cigarette in my hand, there is still a small piece left, and it is not time to throw it away.Zou Fei looked over there again, but couldn't see clearly, he could only see that the sea was flat. Zou Fei called Wei Wei, but no one answered, and he called again, but still no one answered, only the sound of the waves.Zou Fei quickly threw away the cigarette butt in his hand, and jumped over there.We didn't see Wei Wei until we got to the shore. Zou Fei realized that something might be wrong, so he quickly called 110 and 120.After making the phone call, Zou Fei got into the car and found that Wei Wei hadn't pulled out the key. He started the car, turned on the high beams, and leaned against the beach, letting the car draw "8" to look for Wei Wei's figure. He couldn't see clearly in the car, so Zou Fei got out of the car again and waded into the sea to look for it.Finally he could see the sea water clearly, it was turbid, covered with sand, stones and broken shells, and there were some small crabs who didn't know whether they were going to go ashore or go into the sea. Apart from these, Zou Fei couldn't see anything. The department that had called finally came. Facing the vast sea, they were also helpless. They used search and rescue boats and drove a long distance, but they still couldn't find Wei Wei. "If you can't find it, you have to look for it. If you can't, just ignore it!" Zou Fei said. "This is the sea, not a lake or a river. If you look at the world map, the blue area is the sea, and they are all connected." The other party's Tianjin accent sounded like a stand-up comic, "There is an idiom called finding a needle in a haystack. Well, that’s what it’s about.” The sea reflects the night, and it is darker than the night. I don't know where Wei Wei is hidden. The sky gradually became brighter, and the world changed from black to blue, and then gradually to white.The sky was cloudy, the sun jumped out of the sea level, but it didn't come out, hiding behind the clouds, it seemed that because of his departure, Wei Wei disappeared in the darkness and was ashamed to see others. The sea tide has receded, but Wei Wei still doesn't appear, only the clothes he left on the shore. Zou Fei picked up Wei Wei's clothes, took out his mobile phone, and planned to notify his family and Duo Duo, but found a piece of white paper folded in two, opened it, and there was a word: If one day, you will die because I disappeared. Don't be surprised to find this letter. Don't be surprised if you still see me when you read this letter, reading it may help you understand me. Some things, I don't know where to start, so I just think of where to say. I'm sleepy and want to sleep well. These years, I haven't had a good night's sleep, and I always feel that something is wrong, but I can't tell exactly what it is. If I ask you how a person can do one thing well, I believe that you and I have the same attitude, that is, to be interested in this matter first.But now I have lost interest in life. It is undeniable that I have had a strong interest in this world, so I want to be a writer and describe it, but in the process of my preparation, I found too much I don't want to see it... It makes me sick, it disgusts me, it makes me lose interest in life, I can't do life well anymore, so I want to end it. I met an old intellectual who was over seventy years old. He said that he lived to read more books, and every now and then he would buy some books and carry them upstairs. "As long as the building doesn't collapse, I'll keep reading. Living in the book, I'm at ease. It's fine to eat less, wear less." These are his exact words, but I can't find them. Things that can make me devote myself so wholeheartedly, no matter what I do, I feel meaningless. No matter how hard I try, life makes me unable to like it. Going upstream with all your strength is still in the water, a self-deceptive struggle, no matter how muddy the water is, you have to live on it, and I can't stand the muddy water. I often see middle school students in school uniforms on the street. The school uniforms are fat and baggy, but they cannot conceal the unique charm of boys or girls.I used to be like this too, but my youth and vigor have long since left me. Now I only have a rotten smell left on me. Life makes me more and more discouraged. The more I live, the more I find its ugliness. Those good things did not go with me Go ahead, they always love the young.So, I was abandoned by beauty. Many years ago, before I was polluted by life, I took everything seriously, paid my heart to people and things, and was full of enthusiasm. The memories are full, and even if the result is not good, it is still sweet.Now I am indifferent to everything, and there is nothing worth reminiscing about. Since this is the case, there is no need to continue to have a relationship with this world, it is better to go to sleep. Laughter is usually when a person is receptive to something or appreciates something. When the person who loves to laugh stops laughing, it is a denial of the world. Have I not laughed for a long time, please help me think about it. Also, I don't want to be woken up by pee while I'm sleeping, so, wherever I put this pee, please forgive me, this is my last pee, and I won't be creating crap and crap for the world ,Sorry. Finally, I want to say that Dodo is an incomparable woman and I owe her that.My things, no matter what, as long as she wants, please leave it to her. Goodbye, all the people I love and don't love, all the things I love and don't love, I'm going to sleep, good night! The letter was typed out, and Wei Wei's handwriting could not be seen, so he couldn't guess his emotions at the time.The regular imitation Song font is printed on A4 paper, which looks calm and decisive.The paper is no longer so milky, with natural frayed edges. It should have been written at least three months ago. After seeing the letter, Dodo burst into tears.Thinking about the enviable good times of the two of them in the past, Zou Fei could only feel regret. All the classmates felt that the two of them being together was a rare fate, and they would be happy for a lifetime, but the life just started and ended soon. What Wei Wei and Dodo failed to achieve, Zou Fei is determined to achieve, but with whom? In the past few years, Zou Fei has come into contact with another girl, who was introduced by her family through several detours. She is about to turn 30, and her parents are worried for him.Under the pressure of his parents, Zou Fei went to see the girl, forgetting that she said he was born in 1986 or 1987, but he felt quite young anyway. The first time they met, the two made an appointment at a restaurant. The girl had just got off work and was hungry, and she ate like nothing.Zou Fei didn't understand why she had to emphasize this matter when they met for the first time. If you don't know how to use it, you can't use it. You don't need to show it off. Could it be capital? If so, Zou Fei felt that he would already be a capitalist . After a while, the waiter will wash the dishes after eating, but the girl keeps emphasizing this matter, and Zou Fei has to wonder if she has done too much, and Luoxia is sick. Zou Fei really wants to ask her if she works in a restaurant. Pass. Zou Fei felt that he didn't need to do the dishes, and he didn't like to do the dishes, but he couldn't bear the way girls treated him as a born noble, as a treasure, and as a people who had to serve him.According to the intermediary, the girl is just from an ordinary family, and it is not clear where her non-ordinary temperament comes from.At that time, Zou Fei just wanted to say to her: "Then you can just buy a bag of steamed buns and eat them every day. There are no bowls to wash. Just remember to wash your hands after eating." After meeting for the first time, Zou Fei felt that the two were not suitable after returning home, but news came from the other side that Zou Fei was "mature, stable, progressive, and trustworthy" and looked forward to the second meeting.After Zou Fei heard the evaluation of himself, he felt that he was short of adding a sentence of "provincial high-quality and high-quality products, national inspection-free products", and then stamped him with a blue stamp like stamping qualified pork, even if he confessed himself up. "One person, one style, the first meeting is bound to be discordant, and it is impossible to be perfect, everything has a running-in period, let's talk about it!" This is what persuaded Zou Fei to meet for the second time.Zou Fei thought that maybe after a long time, he would be able to get used to the girl's way of speaking, maybe she didn't mean anything else, she was just used to talking like that. They met several times, and the results were better than the first time, so the two started dating.A deep contact, the problem appeared again. When Zou Fei went to the girl's house for the first time, the girl didn't make the quilt.Zou Fei doesn't fold the quilt either, but people at home can still fold the quilts, especially when the people who come are not very familiar, they should be folded, but the girl doesn't mind it at all.This made Zou Fei unacceptable, and felt that it would be fine even if they didn't fold the quilt together in the future, but it doesn't look good to spread a quilt in front of his eyes at the moment. Could it be that the girl no longer regards herself as an outsider? The second time I went to the girl's house was a month later, and it was already winter. There was a problem with the heating in the girl's community, and there was no heating.When changing shoes, the girl actually gave Zou Fei a pair of summer slippers, which didn't matter, but she was wearing cotton slippers and cotton socks on her feet. Turning a blind eye to the state is a bit unreasonable. The third time I went to the girl’s house, the two had already gotten to know each other, the girl was sitting on the sofa eating junk food and watching junk TV dramas, Zou Fei didn’t want to use garbage to describe her, but at this moment, I couldn’t find it Words can describe her. Zou Fei said to the girl: "If you want to read, just read something useful." The girl asked: "What is a useful thing?" "Something that makes you think about it." "I've been thinking about this TV series, and I've been wondering how close Brother Six can be!" The girl stared at the TV. "Think about what I said, it can arouse your thinking about life." Zou Fei felt that it is necessary to speak thoroughly with this kind of person. "Watching that kind of stuff is too tiring, and it's actually useless. It's all on paper." The girl said disdainfully, then turned up the volume, and continued to focus on the TV. At this time, Zou Fei thought of Tong Yue. When they were together, when they discussed some topics that the girl would feel tired now, not only did they not feel tired, but they could also understand each other better and let the other party understand themselves. People are one kind of people, which further deepens the possibility of two people being together.But the little girl felt that such a life was tiring, which only showed that Zou Fei and she didn't have the foundation to get together. After these days of contact, Zou Fei feels that he and this post-85 girl are completely different types of people. She likes to play tricks, has no team spirit, and fights on her own. Zou Fei is also self-sufficient, but she will not make others hate or hurt others. In matters of profit, she would rather suffer a little loss herself, and she can ignore other people's feelings and follow her own temperament.Sometimes Zou Fei wondered if he was old and indeed matured, maybe he was like this when he was young, but he didn't feel it at that time. Although Zou Fei can feel youth from this girl, he can't feel passion, but there is passion when he is with Tong Yue.This kind of passion is not the freshness of each other, but the two people can grow together and feel the changes towards the better. Unlike some people who have been together for half a year, when they are tired, they think that the passion is gone without the freshness. The life with this person is like this, I don't believe that I can have the patience to stay with this person for the rest of my life.If we talk about freshness, Zou Fei and Tong Yue also have it when they are together, that is, they discover new cognitions from the world together, which is something that others cannot do when they are together with Zou Fei. In order not to delay the girl, let alone himself, Zou Fei did not go to the girl's house for the fourth time, but called her to a showdown: "Let's break up!" "Why?" The girl's reaction was not like the reaction when Gege and elder brother had a relationship problem in the TV series. "You do not know me." "I understand!" "Impossible, I don't even know myself." "But I know you!" "Then you should agree to separate." "What if I don't know?" "Actually, you also think it should be divided, but you don't want me to bring this up first." Zou Fei knew clearly that it wasn't that he was so important to the girl, but that the girl didn't want to be "dumped by him", but should "Dump him". "I don't think so. This is the reason you made up to get rid of me. I think we should try again." The girl remained stubborn. "You should find someone who is compatible with you." Zou Fei said. "You and I get along pretty well. We haven't had a fight yet, right?" "But you don't get along with me. I've been putting up with you, but I can't take it any longer." "I thought you were a good person, but you're not at all, hypocrisy!" "As long as you are happy, you can say anything about me." "I don't care to talk about you, the TV series is about to start, I'm going home!" The girl got up and left. "When two people are young enough, they can have it desperately. The person you like also likes you. How nice it would be to dance together in the sun and then hug." This is what Zou Fei read elsewhere In other words, when Hua was old, he couldn't get the above-mentioned relationship, so he could only desperately try to restore this relationship. Zou Fei often misses the love with Tong Yue at that time, where the two went together, secretly kissing in the crowded bus, simple, beautiful and happy.He knew that he could no longer return to love in that situation. Even if he deliberately imitated and followed suit, he still felt fake no matter what, and he missed that time even more.So, I still want to marry the person who spent that time with me.