Chapter 4 Chapter 3 Sincerity VS Falsehood

Who is the double-faced man? I was in a trance all afternoon. Not only did I sit in front of the computer without typing a single word, but even my favorite cartoons failed to arouse my interest. What is wrong with me?I've been thinking about this all afternoon.However, at the end of my thinking, I actually fell asleep! When I opened my eyes again, it was already late at night. How could you fall asleep again?When I opened my eyes, I finally didn't think about the question "what's wrong with me?", but fell into the abyss of another question. I stretched gloomily, then got out of bed.I just finished writing the manuscript recently, and I need enough sleep to supplement what I lost in the early stage... I answered my own questions by myself, and my mind automatically ignored the problems that bothered me in the afternoon.

If you are full of sleep, you should drink some water. What you eat at noon seems to be a little salty, so the inside of your mouth seems dry. I climbed out of bed and went into the living room. It seemed that those two people had gone out, and the living room didn't even turn on the light. Depressedly, I was about to turn on the light. At this moment, a voice suddenly rang in my ear, which shocked me a lot. what happened?Are you haunted? "How is it possible? I am also discerning, okay? How could I do anything to a nympho fat man?" A voice like this came faintly from the guest room.

This room... belongs to Min Xitai.I unconsciously walked to the door of that room.I know eavesdropping is a very bad thing, but I just can't move my feet.Then, I could only stand there stupidly. "Please, are you still in love with each other? Think about it, a spherical woman, sloppy, too exaggerated, okay? Isn't her name Qiuqiu? When I saw her, I really felt like her." Name!" A mocking voice came from inside the room again. Because of the words that voice said, I couldn't move my feet even more. so annoying?If it's so annoying, why do you want to please me?If it's so annoying, why do you still treat me so gently?If it's so annoying, why do you still show such a gentle smile to me?

I stood there in a daze, feeling extremely complicated. Actually, I should get used to it, right?Why is it still like this? "Hmph, do you think I'm willing to treat her well? It's not the director Ming Qizhe who said that she should decide the choice of the leading actor! If it wasn't for this, who would care about her?" Contempt continued to spread from the room Disdainful words. Every word in those words was like a sharp knife, cutting fiercely across my heart. For this kind of thing, I have actually heard it from time to time since I was a child.I thought I was used to words like "fat" and "ugly", but why am I so sad now?

Because he was too gentle before, because I thought he was different, because I thought he could be different, so now I am so sad, right? "Please! If I pretend to be gentle and be nice to which girl, which girl won't be tempted?" The people in the room continued to speak mockingly. Pretend?The corners of my mouth lifted slightly.I wanted to cry and kind of wanted to laugh at the same time.Why do you want to laugh?Am I laughing at myself?Yes, I am laughing at myself.In fact, I have already felt it, right?I just don't admit it.From the very beginning, I saw a lot of unreal and mocking elements in his smile, but I never admitted it myself.

I foolishly thought that as long as I pretended not to know, as long as I pretended not to find out, nothing really happened, and it wouldn't happen.But, am I wrong? I'm acting like a fool so I want to laugh.However, at the moment when the corner of my mouth was raised slightly, a icy coldness slid across my cheeks, leaving a crystal clear mark on my cheeks.The coldness finally stopped at the corner of my raised mouth. Tears, faint, and not as bitter as imagined. "That fat girl? She is so fascinated by me, she looks at me with that nympho face every day, she's so disgusting!" The people in the room obviously don't know my existence, and they are still chatting happily. .

The people in the room are happy, but I can't feel happy anymore. I just listened stupidly, listening to the people in the room laughing at me happily. I should do something right?Go in and scold him severely?Tell him I'm not what he says I am? I just stood there in a daze, motionless.I should be doing many things, but I can't.Because it is undeniable that I am the kind of fat man he said, just like what he said, I foolishly lost myself in his hypocritical tenderness. My tears kept streaming down my cheeks and sliding down fixed marks. "Ah! I really miss the beauties in the bar! Such a beautiful night, I actually want to read this stupid book at home! What about "Love is like a star", just hearing the title of the book makes me shudder, this is too nasty !"

I clenched my fists, not understanding why I was standing here.I should have turned around and left, why are you still acting like a fool, listening to these words that humiliate me? But why, I just can't leave?Perhaps, it's because I was so powerless standing there, I didn't even have the strength to move my steps... Just when I felt how powerless I was, when my tears kept streaming down, the living room Suddenly the lights came on. I turned around and saw Zheng Yaye who was expressionless.He looked at me steadfastly, with complicated eyes, a little hesitant to speak, but he seemed to have nothing to say.

My tears still kept flowing.I reached out to wipe away the tears that kept falling, but no matter how I tried to wipe it, it seemed a bit futile, because the tears kept gushing out of my eyes, and even my vision was blurred in the end.In the end, even Zheng Yaye was blurred. "Don't tempt me, okay? I really want to go out too! But there is no way, I have to finish reading this bad book today! That fat woman didn't know what was going on, so she asked me how her book was! I have to find a way to answer it! I can't always find an excuse to slip away, right?" The people in the room were still chatting leisurely and happily.

The voices of the people in the room should be very loud, right?At least, I believe that Zheng Yaye standing behind me can hear clearly. However, Zheng Yaye, who heard the people in the room talking, just stood there with her mouth tightly pressed, expressionless, without speaking, without comfort, just standing there. Then, I realized that I started foolishly looking forward again, hoping that Zheng Yaye, who was standing behind me, would react.I really am a fool.Zheng Yaye hates me, maybe even more than Min Xitai who was on the phone in the room, that's why he didn't even pretend to be friendly.How could a person who would make him hate me even if I approached him care about words that have nothing to do with him?

"Okay! Stop talking! Hmm! See you another day!" The people in the room seemed to have finished chatting.Without warning, the door in front of them was opened, and then the picture changed to three people standing in place and staring blankly at each other. "You..." The people in the house didn't seem to have thought that I would stand outside his door at all, and saw my tears again, so he seemed a little flustered.No, he shouldn't be flustered when he saw my tears, but because he guessed that I was flustered when I heard what he said just now. "I heard everything." I took a deep breath and said with a trembling voice. After hearing what I said, there was no more surprise on his face, but a little more stiffness. I heard everything, but in fact I wanted to choose to hear nothing.If I could choose, I would choose that nothing happened tonight at all; if I could choose, I should wake up the first time I felt his tenderness mixed with other things; In the beginning, they were never allowed to live in my home. "Well, I, I actually..." He wanted to explain, but he also found out that there is no explanation for this matter at all, because no matter what kind of explanation it is now, it will only make me appear more like a fool. "No need to explain, you are right. People like me still believe that there is a perfect person who treats me well. It is really stupid. You are right, there is nothing wrong with it, so there is no need Explain." I tried to keep my voice from shaking.I clenched my fist, and my not-so-long nails sank into my palm. It seemed to be painful, but it seemed that I couldn't feel any pain at all. "I want to go out for a walk, you...you can." I lowered my head and turned to walk towards the gate. How weak my steps are, only I know.I bowed my head, tears fell from my cheeks and fell to the ground. One step, two steps, three steps... For the first time, I felt that the living room of my house was so big, and it was so far from the guest room to the main door.However, when I was silently calculating the distance from the guest room to the door in my heart, a hand unexpectedly held me. I stopped in my tracks, stared blankly at the hand holding me, then looked up along that hand, and saw Zheng Yaye who was expressionless. Why do you want to hold me?Do you think I'm not enough of a fool? He looked at me, didn't say anything, just looked at me like that. "There's no need to go." His voice was low, flat, without any emotion. What does he mean by this sentence?What do you mean there is no need to go?From the beginning to the end, he only said these five insignificant words, which made me confused. "Min Xitai, you go." There was something undeniable in his voice. Hearing Zheng Yaye's words, Min Xitai was taken aback for a moment, then frowned. "Why do you? Who do you think you are?" Min Xitai's originally handsome face showed a ferocious expression.Is this the real him?This is his nature, right? "What do you think? Do you think it's possible for you to act in this play just based on your performance just now?" Zheng Yaye slightly bent his lips, his contempt was beyond words. Hearing Zheng Yaye's words, Min Xitai's ferocious expression froze instantly. "You, what do you mean?" For Zheng Yaye's words, it was obvious that Min Xitai was a little scared. "As a newcomer, I don't even have the basics of honesty. I am so eager for quick success and quick profit in order to become famous. Do you think that the director may keep you because of today's incident alone? I know, it is wise to leave as soon as possible." Zheng Yaye's tone was threatening and even more commanding. "You! Impossible, I just want to try my best to win the role, how could the director let me go because of this?" Min Xitai's voice became a little louder because he wanted to hide his nervousness and fear. "Don't you think so? Then shall we give it a try? Call the director now, tell him what you did, and see what the director will say? See if he won't make you an actor in the future ?” He said it as if it was casual, but it was because of this casualness that made Min Xitae even more disturbed. "I...I...you..." Min Xitai stood there and hesitated, a little at a loss. "You still don't want to leave?" Zheng Yaye's words were more like a question than a question. Min Xitai froze on the spot, at a loss, as if he was deliberating whether he should leave or not.However, Zheng Yaye didn't give Min Xitai time to think about it. He took out his mobile phone from his pocket and prepared to dial a number skillfully. "I'm going...I'm going!" Seeing that Zheng Yaye was about to call the director, Min Xitai said hurriedly. "Let's go now." Zheng Yaye said coldly. Who is this person pulling me now? Suddenly, there was an unclear feeling in my head.Doesn't he hate me very much?So why is he still doing it?At a time like this, he should laugh at me with Min Hee Tae, right? "Then, then, the director and I voluntarily resign, and today's incident will be treated as if it didn't happen, okay?" Min Xitai's tone was full of pleading. His pleading words and deeds made me feel disgusted for a moment.I looked at Min Xitai, I don't know why, seeing his face at this moment, I don't have any other feelings except disgust.I imagined the gentle expression on that face in my mind, and I shuddered. "I don't care, but I can't guarantee what Han Xiaojie decides." Zheng Yaye said. In an instant, the decision was in my hands.Min Xitai looked at me with pleading eyes, and there was a sincerity in those eyes that I had never seen before. However, such sincerity only made me feel ridiculous.Wouldn't it be too late to beg for mercy at this time? "I, I know it's not good for me to say that, I'm sorry, please forgive me, please don't tell the director, okay?" His low begging voice made me feel a little sick, and made me feel ridiculous.There must be something wrong with my previous vision, right?Why do you have feelings for such a person?Even if the eyes are on the feet, one shouldn't have any delusions about such a person, right? I reached out to wipe away the remaining tears in the corner of my eyes, took a deep breath, and strode up to Min Xitai.After standing still, I stretched out my hand... "Crack!" A loud voice sounded in the living room.The tingling sensation spread from my palm, and a bright reddish palm print gradually became obvious on Min Xitai's face. "You..." Apparently, Min Xitai didn't expect that I would do this, so his expression at the moment was even more dull. "Let's go." I clenched my fists and said coldly. Hearing my words, Min Xitai seemed to have finally let go of his burden, and he ran out of my house as if he had escaped.I didn't look back, didn't want to, didn't dare, or some other reason... The moment the door closed, I fell to the ground as if I had lost my center of gravity. I seem to have put all my strength into that slap just now, that's why my feet are so soft now, and I don't even have the strength to stand up. I just sat there on the floor, just sitting like that.The cold floor should wake me up a bit, right?So, I didn't want to get up. Then, Zheng Yaye walked up to me, and his figure enveloped me.Instead of looking up, I buried my face between my knees. "I've only known someone for two days, is it worth your sorrow for him?" Zheng Yaye's voice sounded above my head.His voice is not loud, but it can still cause echoes in an empty room. yes!Is it worth it for someone you've only met for two days?I also asked myself questions in my heart.However, whether it is worth it or not is not measured by time! "You don't really have any feelings for him, it's just that kind of gentle attitude that gave you an illusion." Zheng Yaye commented simply. Illusion?It shouldn't be just a simple illusion, right? This should still be a kind of psychological dependence. Because you have been ignored and disliked for a long time, once you have that one person who treats you well, you will unconsciously develop psychological dependence. It is because of this kind of psychological dependence that I know it is a deception or I am willing to pretend that I don't know anything. "You just returned to the original point, so there should be nothing to be sad or sad about?" Zheng Yaye said without any tone. Back to square one? I looked up at Zheng Yaye.My face should be full of confusion, right?Because of Zheng Yaye's words, I seem to be even more confused. "You were fine when you didn't have that person before, so what is there to be sad about now? You just returned to your life without that person, so there is no need to be sad." His words seemed to be OK. Stopped the bleeding for my somewhat wounded heart.Although it will take time to heal, it was just his few words, such simple but profound words, that made my heart clear instantly. Like he said, I'm just back where I started. "Thank you today." I whispered. Looking at him standing in front of me like a god, I had a strange feeling: this person who exudes dazzling light just appeared in front of me, if the light receded, what would he be like? "Even if it wasn't you, I would still help." Inexplicably, after throwing this sentence at me, he turned and walked back to his room, leaving me in the same place foolishly lost in confusion. "Even if it's not you, I'll help"?What is he trying to explain?Is he right?Or do you want to tell me "don't think too much, I'm not interested in you"? For a moment, I began to wonder whether the person who had just helped me, enlightened me, and comforted me had never appeared at all. If it had appeared, it must not be the person who just returned to the room, right?Or, did he actually have a twin brother?Or, is he a two-faced person at all, one side is gentle and the other side is cold? The naked blackmail is probably because I cried too long the day before, so when I woke up and opened my eyes, it was already time for lunch. Because I didn't eat last night, I felt empty when I woke up. Eat, eat, eat... I walked out of the room slowly while muttering in my heart. Opening the door of the room, the glare of the sun made it hard for me to keep my eyes open. So I said that it is not suitable to have large light-transmitting objects such as floor-to-ceiling windows in the room, this is completely destroying my retina! One day, I will find a way to seal that piece of glass with cement! I finally got used to the bright light, but when I opened my eyes, I saw even more dazzling... people.Uh, even though he has lived in for three days, seeing the big star Zheng Yaye in my own home still makes me feel very unreal. He sat leisurely at the dining table and read a book. He seemed to hear me coming out of the room. He raised his head and glanced at me casually, then continued to read the book as if nothing had happened. At this moment, I suddenly couldn't figure out whose house it was. Why can he sit there and read a book so nonchalantly, but I am full of astonishment here?I feel weird anyway. Although I felt weird in my heart, before I had time to think about it, my eyes were already attracted by the food on the table. I swallowed hard in a hopeless manner, and then moved to the dining table looking like a villain. "That... cooking is hard, right?" I said obsequiously while looking at the dishes on the table. What do you mean if you don't see it, you don't know it, and you are shocked when you see it?Without looking at the dishes on the table, I just swallowed my saliva fiercely. After looking at the dishes on the table, my saliva flowed out like a waterfall, and I couldn't stop it. Sweet and sour pork tenderloin, deep-fried golden tenderloin paired with the red sweet and sour soup, my mouth salivates more when I think of the sweet and sour taste.Cold jellyfish skin, crystal clear jellyfish, paired with red pepper shreds and green cucumber shreds, thinking about the crunchy and cool taste makes my stomach scream more happily.Also, diced cashew nuts, raw stir-fried pork ribs, seaweed egg drop soup... "Gulu!" Because seeing these dishes, my stomach protested in good time, reminding me that it was still empty.Reminders are reminders, this sound is too loud, right? Such a loud voice directly caused one thing to happen, that is, Zheng Yaye looked up at me—with depression and helplessness written all over his face. "You can eat." After staring at me for more than N seconds, he said such a sentence that made me happy, but when I was about to sit down and eat happily, he added it slowly One sentence, "However, I have conditions." "Huh?" Is there a condition for a meal?My face was almost wrinkled together. Looking at me, whose face was almost wrinkled together, his expression didn't change at all. "After eating, you can wash the dishes." He said lightly. "Washing the dishes..." I was depressed when I heard this condition. Do you still have to wash the dishes?You know, if you were to make a list of the chores I hate doing the most, washing dishes would be at the top of the list. "Yes." He nodded with certainty. Seeing his answer in the affirmative, then looking at the tempting dishes on the table, then turning my head to look at him, and then looking at the table full of dishes, then I made a decision, that is... "I wash the dishes. "I finished speaking depressingly, and then sat down. But just when I was about to feast, he actually spoke again. "You have to wash your face and rinse your mouth before eating." He said without even looking up. Wash your face and mouth?Do you want to wash your face and rinse your mouth?You don't go out, why do you have to wash your face and mouth?Even if you want to go out, as long as you don't go far, there should be no need to wash your face and mouth! "Do you want to go out?" I said confusedly. "No." He still answered me without looking up. Is that book that good?I rolled a big white eye at him.Although you are reading my book, you can't ignore others like this, right? "Then why do you do that?" I asked confusedly. Because of my question, he put down the book while he was reading seriously, and looked at me with black lines all over his face. Is there anything wrong with what I said?Why did he look at me so strangely that it made me shudder? Inexplicably, the air in the living room became abnormally cold because of his somewhat gloomy face. "Who told you that you don't need to wash if you don't go out?" He almost squeezed the words out from between his teeth. Looking at his excited face, I was confused.Does anyone need to tell me this kind of thing?Isn't everyone like this?I responded to his anger with a confused look. "Isn't everyone like this?" I asked confusedly. After hearing my words, Zheng Yaye's complexion seemed to be worse than before.I'm just wondering, what did I say wrong?Why is this guy getting more and more scary? "Should you be the only one like this?" He looked at me fiercely and said. Is it just me?no? "How can you be sure that I'm the only one like this? What evidence is there?" I mustered up the courage to look at his handsome face with a bad look. "You can choose not to eat." He looked at me, and the moment my eyes collided with his, my heart skipped a beat involuntarily. Because of the reaction of my heart, I turned around abruptly, I was afraid that he would see me flustered. "Well, I'm going to wash my face and rinse my mouth." I ran into the bathroom as if fleeing. I leaned against the bathroom door and kept pressing on my chest. What is wrong with me?It's just eye contact with Zheng Yaye, why is the heartbeat disordered?Zheng Yaye, this bad guy, did something trick to me, right?Otherwise, how could my normal heartbeat become abnormal? While thinking about this question, I did a simple wash. Tell me, you don't have to go out to meet people, why do you need to wash up?Really depressed to death.With such a depressed mood, I walked out of the bathroom after washing.Pushing open the door, Zheng Yaye was still bathing in the sun and reading a book, as beautiful as an angel who fell into the mortal world.My heart was beating uncontrollably again, alas, when will I get used to such a picture? I walked slowly to the dining table and sat opposite Zheng Yaye.When did Zheng Yaye even set the tableware?Looking at the neatly arranged tableware on the table, I suddenly felt that Zheng Yaye, a cold person, was actually very careful. After I gave Zheng Yaye a grateful glance, I started to wipe out the dishes on the table, but because he was reading a book, I think he probably didn't receive my admiring eyes.However, just when I was about to withdraw my adoring gaze, he raised his head unexpectedly. Accidentally, my eyes met his.Then he closed the book again. What is he going to do again?This should be the first thought in my head. "There is something that I think needs to be said." He whispered. "Huh?" Because my mouth was full of things, I only uttered such a monosyllabic interjection. "During my stay here, I will cook all the food." He said lightly. "Ahem!" However, his simple words made me choke heavily. What's wrong with this guy?Am I hallucinating, or is this guy's multiple personality and intermittent psychosis kicking in again?How dare you take the initiative to say you want to cook?My gut tells me there must be something wrong with this.He actually wants to use sugar-coated bullets to deal with me, right?Behind the fact that he wants to cook for me, there must be some bigger conspiracy hidden? "You, what do you want to do? If you have anything to say, you can actually say it directly." I swallowed hard the food in my mouth, and opened my mouth nervously. He was taken aback when he heard my words, as if he didn't think that I would be smart enough to guess that he had a purpose.After being stunned for a few seconds, he returned to his usual calm expression. It's that calm and breezy expression that makes me feel like I can't look away.Every expression of Zheng Yaye will make people have infinite fantasies.However, at this time, it is obviously not suitable for fantasy. "Actually, it's nothing, I just hope you can promise, during the time we live together, you can abide by these." He said, and handed an A4 paper in front of me. Co-living Agreement Party A: Han Xiaojie Party B: Zheng Yaye 1. During the co-living period, Party B promises to provide three meals for Party A in the absence of activities. 2. During the co-living period, Party A must ensure that the tableware is cleaned as soon as the three meals are over. 3. During the co-living period, Party A must ensure personal hygiene. (Note: Take a bath at least once every two days, and wash every day when you wake up and before going to bed.) 4. During the co-living period, Party A shall not have any physical contact with Party B. (Note: Especially when not cleaning.) 5. During the co-living period, Party A and Party B must clean the room regularly. (Note: at least once a week.) The above five clauses can be modified after both parties agree and agree, and cannot be modified unilaterally. Looking at the five items on this paper, I came to the conclusion that I was not wrong about what I thought.How could a cold man like Zheng Yaye be so nice? It’s okay to wash the tableware, but there can’t be skin contact?This is probably the last time I hugged him too excitedly, so I left a deep impression on him, thinking that I really want to have some skin-to-skin contact with him?Really, why can he be so narcissistic?Isn't it just that he is a little more handsome and famous, and he feels that the whole world thinks of him unreasonably?Besides, even if you have unreasonable thoughts about him, if you let me touch him, you won't lose a piece of meat, will you? Take a bath every two days?Wake up and shower before bed?What kind of weird request is this? House cleaning every week?Wouldn't it be faster to kill me? But, do you want to refuse?If you refuse, there will be no such delicious meals to eat!Speaking of food, the food he cooks is really delicious!However, inexplicably, I feel that the taste of this meal is very familiar, and I always feel as if I have eaten it before.It seems, just like yesterday... Suddenly, I remembered, this taste is the same as the dish I ate at noon yesterday! Could it be that he also cooked the meal that was eaten at noon yesterday?But yesterday he obviously scolded me very angrily?Why are you still making lunch for me today? Just when I was about to ask, Zheng Yaye spoke before I was about to speak. "If there is no problem, just sign it!" He said lightly. "Why is there no problem? The problem is big." I said excitedly. "What's the problem?" He looked at me, and his bright eyes instantly suppressed my excited eyes.For a while, I thought, why do I feel a little soft in my feet? "That's right, you know, water is very expensive, and people in many places can't drink water. It's not suitable for us to use water in places like bathing, it's not environmentally friendly." Inexplicably, I said There was such a paragraph that even I felt weird. Hearing my words, he who was sitting across from me suddenly smiled.Smile so bright, smile so moving.The bright eyes narrowed slightly, and the long eyelashes glowed with a faint yellow light under the sunlight.The ruddy thin lips curved perfectly, and there was a small dimple on the edge of the mouth. For a moment, I looked a little dull.Such a perfect smile should be the first time I saw him during the period when he actually appeared in my life, right? Just when I was completely stunned, he put away his smile, and then spoke very formally. "It's the first time I've heard such a creative reason." Although there was no smile on his face, there was still a smile in his voice that couldn't be concealed. Of course I am creative, but I am good at writing novels, if I am not creative, it is not my style. "Okay! Since you are so considerate of those who don't have water, then I won't force you. However, I will trouble you to cook by yourself in the future!" He said indifferently. No one cooks. In fact, I can buy takeaway food, although the food outside is really not very good.Of course, I can also cook it myself, although no one dares to eat the dishes I cook except myself. "Well, in fact, we can discuss it again!" I said with a smile on my face. However, she didn't waver in the slightest in the face of me who was flattering me. "There is nothing to discuss! If you agree, you agree. If you disagree, you have nothing to say!" Inexplicably, I felt that there was obvious confidence in his tone.Then, he picked up the book on the table and was about to get up and go back to his room. His self-confidence made me feel a very ominous feeling.The confidence on his face clearly means that I will definitely agree if I am determined.But why can he be so sure? "Well, give me some time to think about it?" I said gloomily. "You..." He stood beside me, lowered his head, and slowly approached me. Then, his face became bigger and bigger before my eyes, and when he was only 5cm away from my face, he stopped: "Do you think I have a lot of time?" The corner of his mouth was raised slightly, revealing a shining expression. Looking at this magnified handsome face, I suddenly couldn't say anything.Even though I've read a lot of comics, even watched a lot of idol dramas, even if I've seen a lot of handsome guys, but I've never seen such a handsome face at such a close distance! "No, no..." I didn't know what to say incoherently. "So, make a decision now!" he said with a smile. It's obviously a smile, why do I suddenly feel so cold after watching it?The fine hairs stood up one by one. "I...I..." I stammered, my mind went blank. "Since I'm unwilling, I won't force it." He smiled and turned around. "I sign!" However, the moment he turned around, I blurted out. I just said, Zheng Yaye must know Gu skills or something like that, otherwise how could I have made a decision out of nowhere? "Very good. Then, this agreement will take effect from today!" After watching me write my name on the A4 paper, he took the paper back to his room with a satisfied face. And I just stood there in a daze, not knowing what happened. I signed it?I just signed it?Inexplicably, why should I sign?I didn't receive any threats, so why did I sign it?It seems that this is really a question worth looking into. All afternoon, I used Japanese comics to soothe my depressed mind, and at the same time, I was thinking about why I signed that ghost agreement. "Dingling... Dingling!" Suddenly my phone rang, interrupting my thinking. Pick up the phone and look for incoming calls.Is it a number you haven't seen before? "Hello?" I made a sound tentatively. "Dear... my dear!" There were three chilling voices on the other end of the phone. This voice is so familiar!This name is also very familiar!Could it be... this... this is the legendary one, my dear editor? "Did you make a mistake? There is no one named Han Xiaojie here!" After saying this, I really wanted to slap myself.How many times a day do I have to say something like this without asking myself? "Han Xiaojie, do you want to die?" After hearing my lame lie, a furious roar came from the phone. "Ah! Ah! Well, dear editor, why do you keep calling me?" In order to avoid being yelled at, I changed the subject very wisely. It is said that every time my dear editor calls me, it is nothing more than two things.One is to urge me to submit the manuscript, and the other is to ask me to write the manuscript.In fact, there is no difference between the two things in essence. "Hahaha! This! It's nothing serious! I just wanted to say, how is your new manuscript going?" The editor on the other side of the phone instantly put away his anger and put on a flattering voice. 所以说，我会时不时地露出很谄媚的表情也不是没有原因的。这一切都要归咎于我这位亲爱的编辑大人，怎么说也是近朱者赤，近墨者黑啊！ “新稿子？”我怎么觉得我好像是才交过稿啊？怎么就有新稿子了啊？ “啊哈哈！不要这样嘛！我们是响应上头的号召，要你写《爱如星辰》的姐妹篇啦！也可以说是《爱如星辰》的续集。”电话那头，编辑大人很是兴奋地说着。 “可是，那本书我已经大团圆结局了啊！”我疑惑地说。 难道，要更悲情的，在大团圆结局之后，我再接着写，就在男女主人公要结婚的时候，男主角或者是女主角得了什么不治之症，然后男主角和女主角就再次纠缠到了一起？这样会不会太悲情了一点儿啊？怎么都感觉好像是午后“泡沫”剧才会出现的情节啊！ “所以才说是姐妹篇啊！题目我都帮你想好了，就叫《爱如阳光》。”电话那头，编辑大人很明显地兴奋了。 《爱如阳光》？怎么都感觉是个很傻的题目。如果写了这个之后，会不会再出一个兄弟篇，叫《爱如月亮》之类的啊？ “我能不能不要……”就在我想要开口拒绝的时候，编辑大人发狂了。 “怎么可以不要？怎么能够不要？为什么不要？你想想看，我平常是怎么对你的？我对你那么好，你怎么可以拒绝？从你还是个小作者，我就开始对你好，你一点儿一点儿地成长，一点儿一点儿地有了名气，现在就开始耍大牌了是不是？以为有人要把你的书拍成电视剧，你从此以后就平步青云，所以就看不起我这个编辑了是不是？我就知道，人怕出名猪怕壮。你一出名就开始……”编辑大人在电话那边滔滔不绝地喷着口水，电话这边的我，很无奈地揉着已经发疼的太阳穴。 “我写。”我很小声地开口。 就是我这么一个微小的声音，就让电话那边的声音戛然而止。 “哈哈哈……早这么说不就好了吗？那么，本周大纲交给我，我还有事，就这样喽！”电话那边，亲爱的编辑大人愉悦地说着，然后在我还没有什么反应的情况之下，她就挂上了电话。 你说，一天被人这样敲诈两次，是什么感想呢？我心情复杂地感叹着。然而，我也只能是感叹。 同居战争夜渐渐深了，然而我却一点儿困意都没有，看来我还是比较习惯于夜生活啊！ 虽然习惯于夜生活，但是像现在这样郁闷的夜生活还真的是让人郁闷啊！《爱如阳光》，想起这个名字我就觉得提不起精神来。怎么说我都是个见不得光的人，居然要我写阳光……唉，在这样美好的夜晚，居然这么郁闷！想到这里，对着电脑屏幕的我不由得长长地出了一口气，然后将音乐开到了最大。这种郁闷的时候，只有听一些震撼人心的东西才能缓解郁闷的心情啊！ “冲破极限，超越自我，看谁是最完美的街客……” 音乐声震耳欲聋，这感觉真好。在这种感觉好的时候，如果来一杯冰可乐，那一定感觉更加不错吧？ 我就说，我的行动力永远超越于我的思维能力吧！所以在我想到可乐这种物质的时候，我就已经站在房间的门口处了。 转动门把手，慢慢打开门。就在我打开门的那一瞬间，我被定格了，时间被定格了，一切的一切都被定格了。我就那么愣愣地张大嘴巴，看着我打开房门时眼前出现的这个画面。 在这样一个夜黑风高的夜晚，一个披头散发，犹如加高美化版贞子的男人出现在我的面前，怎么看都是有一些诡异的吧？ 不是说鬼杀人都是为了寻仇吗？我一没杀人放火，二没奸淫掳掠，三没吃喝嫖赌，贞子这种高等生物为什么会出现在我家呢？而且还是深夜拜访？ 虽然有一点儿后知后觉，但是因为突然想到是深夜，所以，我才刚刚有了那么一点儿毛骨悚然的感觉。 “那个，不知道您老人家深夜莅临寒舍，有何指教？”莫名地，我对眼前的贞子说了这么一句客气异常的话。这个时候虽然不是开玩笑的时候，但是这个时候，我的脑袋里完全一片空白，除了这句废话，我真的想不到别的话了。 “你开演唱会吗？”眼前披头散发的贞子开口说着。 说起来，这个贞子的声音，为何如此纯净呢？我怎么觉得原来在看《午夜凶铃》的时候，贞子的声音应该是沙哑的，带有那么一点儿颤抖的呢？而这个声音，虽然是在诉说着平铺直叙的东西，但是就是让人能往“天籁”这个词上面联想。 而且，他说的什么啊？concert?What does it have to do with me? “你想开吗？”就因为觉得贞子的声音实在太像天籁，所以让我莫名地居然说出了这么一句话。 天籁？等一等，我突然下意识地打量起眼前的这个人。 从身高来看……嗯，是那个人没错！从长相来看的话，因为头发遮住脸了，再加上现在的灯光实在算不上明亮，无奈的我根本就看不到他的长相嘛！不过这个头发的长度，应该就是那个人没有错。综合身高和头发长度，加上最初那如天籁般的声音，我可以确定了……“我说郑亚夜，这深更半夜，夜黑风高的，你装鬼是要干吗啊？这么大的人了，居然还这么幼稚？”我郁闷地皱着眉头看着眼前的这个家伙。 这深更半夜的，亏了是我胆大加上平常对神鬼有偏爱。要是碰上了个胆子小的，怕鬼的，这会儿说不定就昏倒在地上了。 “原来你也知道是深更半夜啊！”也不能怪我把他当成贞子，听听他声音……虽然是天籁没错，可是，语气里的幽怨也太多了吧。 “是啊是啊！不知道您深更半夜造访我的房间，有什么指示？”他干吗突然跟我提深更半夜这个词啊？这让我脑中的小剧场瞬间幻想到我这个花季少女不应该幻想的东西啊！ 就在我想要停止自己脑部小剧场的演出的时候，他突然用他那修长的手指拨开了他额前的头发，露出他那张惊天地泣鬼神的帅气的脸颊。 我明白他的目的了，在我面前露出他那张帅气的脸，他这明明就是赤裸裸的诱惑嘛！不过，他诱惑我干吗啊？难道，他对我……嘿嘿，看来，像我这样的胖子还是很有行情的嘛！等一等……好像不太对啊！如果他对我真的有那什么，那么白天的时候就应该，起码应该对我好一点点的啊！ “既然知道是深更半夜的，就应该好好睡觉！开这么大声的音乐，你是想谋财害命吗？”他慢悠悠地张开双唇，吐出了这么两句话，明明没有很大的动作，可是这声音却完全覆盖住了我电脑里面的音乐。 原来他刚才说我开演唱会，是说我音乐开得太大声了呀。真是的，有话就直说嘛。不过，音乐大声和谋财害命有什么必然的关系吗？我满脸迷茫地看着眼前这个明显有着微薄怒气的郑亚夜。 这个家伙实在是让人难以理解啊！为什么他生的气总是这么莫名其妙呢？让人完全摸不着头脑。 “那个，我想请问一下啊！开大声的音乐和谋财害命有什么必然的联系吗？”我露出了最最迷茫的神色，用自己最最纯真无邪的眼睛看着眼前的他。 他整个人带着慵懒的感觉，因为我的话，嘴角有点不耐烦地抽搐那股怒气更加明显了。他的头发因为刚刚用手指拨动过的关系，所以显得有些凌乱，这和他平时那一尘不染如天神般不可靠近的感觉有些不同。现在，他离我好像没有那么遥远的距离了。他的眼睛处于半闭状态，这让他那拒人于千里之外的眼神收敛了不少。虽然他现在在生气，可是，我就是觉得现在的他和我靠得好近哦！ 真是太奇怪了，明明郑亚夜这个家伙一副愤怒的模样，和他平时的感觉完全不同，为什么我却偏偏觉得此刻他才是真实的呢？而平时他面无表情地坐在我的客厅里面悠闲地一边喝着下午茶一边看着书的时候，应该更容易接近才对，我却觉得那样的他和我的距离好远。我看我一定是有严重的受虐倾向吧！不然怎么会在这个人生气的时候才会觉得他和我没什么距离呢？ what!韩筱洁！我看你一定是脑袋出了什么问题了吧！ “你自己半夜不睡觉就算了，居然还放这么大声的音乐，你难道不知道这样会吵到我睡觉吗？你难道不知道我没有睡好的话，第二天就没有办法正常工作吗？”他的声音让我感觉到，他的愤怒已经从轻量级晋级到了中量级了。 看着出现在他眉间那三条深深的痕迹，我突然觉得自己刚刚的想法都是错的，这家伙跟我的距离从来就没有接近过！ “其实吧！这些事情，就比如你说你睡不好第二天没有办法工作和我音乐开很大声你不能睡觉这些事情，你不说，我怎么可能会知道呢？”我一脸无辜地看着他额头的三道痕迹不断加深。 不知道为什么，看着他眉间的那三道不断加深的痕迹，我突然有了一种冲动——让他更加愤怒。嘿嘿，很恶趣味吧！我之前说过我的行动力永远超越于我的思维能力吧？所以，此刻，就在我因为他的愤怒而想要逗逗他的时候，我已经开口了。 “有些事情，你不说，我怎么会知道呢？就好像你不跟我说你听到我的音乐会睡着和你没有睡好就没有办法工作这些事情，你不说我就一定不知道了！所以凡事你一定要说，你不说，我也不可能那么闲到去自己瞎猜想，我不猜想肯定就不知道你在想什么，即便是我猜想了，我其实也不一定就能和你想的一样了，就算我是好死不死和你想的一样了，但是如果我没有跟你证实，我也不能证明我的猜想就是成立的。不能证明我的猜想是成立的话，就说明其实你还是应该跟我证实这件事。” 有的时候，我真的很佩服我自己的逻辑能力，我就是有这样的本领，在我胡编乱造绕了这么大一圈之后，我居然还能绕回来，这简直就是惊天地泣鬼神啊！就算《大话西游》里的唐僧现在站在我面前也只能甘拜下风！ 看着眼前因为我的话而显得有些痴呆，险些口吐白沫的郑亚夜，我突然就有了一种不亚于登上了珠穆朗玛峰的成就感。一般人应该是没有办法体会到我此刻为什么会有这样的情绪的。毕竟，一般人也没有如此近距离地和一个超级冰山级别的冷酷帅哥在同一屋檐下生活，更没有体会过，在深更半夜还要感受帅哥临门的郁闷感觉。 “那么，我现在算是跟你说了吧？”就在我很是幸灾乐祸的时候，郑亚夜竟然不带任何感情地说出了这么一句话，瞬间让我哑口无言。 这个家伙为什么没有愤怒到极限？为什么没有愤怒到跳脚？为什么就是这么简单的一个反问句？为什么感觉好像只是一句事不关己的问话。一瞬间，我的心从珠穆朗玛峰的峰顶跌落，瞬间碎成了无数的小碎片。 look!什么叫做冷酷？就是能够用一个“冷”字杀人于无形，而且绝对是能在一秒钟内杀死对方的级别，简称“秒杀”！ 看着他由盛怒转为淡定的表情，我瞬间就有了发狂的冲动。这个家伙究竟是从什么地方冒出来的生物啊？为什么那么轻易就挑起我那亢奋的神经啊？ “我……”面对他过于淡定的表情，我还真不知道应该说些什么，来回应他的话。所谓偷鸡不成蚀把米，应该就是在描述我此刻的境地吧？明明就是想要捉弄他，结果变成了自己不知所措。 给自己一个忠告，千万不要招惹郑亚夜这种BOSS级别的面瘫冷酷男。 “既然听到了别人的拜托，你是不是也应该有所行动了呢？”他声音里面带有些许强制的意味。 很莫名地，在我听到他带有强制语调的话的同时，我竟然很听话地跑去关掉了我的音乐。 在我关掉了播放器，整个房间瞬间安静下来之时，我才突然意识到，我为什么要关了播放器，关了音乐啊？ 那个讨人厌的洁癖冷酷男拜托我我就要关啊？再说了，那个家伙明明就是命令我关音乐，根本就没有半点拜托的意思。我又不是他的奴隶，有必要那么听他的话吗？ 我满脸幽怨地转过身，准备把我这种悲愤幽怨的情绪传达给站在门口处的郑亚夜的时候。我发现，郑亚夜消失了？ 郑亚夜刚刚站着的地方变得空荡荡地，我那酝酿了好久的悲愤情绪找不到对象发泄了。真没礼貌，居然连招呼都不打就走掉了！ 这个家伙是猫科动物吧？脚下是有肉垫还是怎样？走路都完全不用发出声音的，简直是来无影去无踪。面对着无人的门口，我觉得刚刚发生的一切好像是我的幻觉，所有的事情都只是我自己的假想而已。 我愣愣地傻站在原地，猜想着，郑亚夜刚刚究竟是否出现过。然后最终发现，好像没有什么结果。 然后，在思索了半天之后，我深呼吸，下了一个关键性的决定。那就是……我要听音乐，越大声越好。我生命中，第一次燃起了这样的冲动。我一定要和那个洁癖冷酷男郑亚夜抗战到底。 我相当淡定地走到门口，伸手把门关上，同时按下锁门按钮。然后我一边往耳朵里面塞着卫生纸，一边将我电脑的音乐调到无限大。 什么叫做震耳欲聋？你只要站在距离我房间一公尺以内的范围，你绝对可以充分地理解。 不知道什么时候开始，房间外不断传来愤怒的拍门声。从我房间门板的剧烈震动情况来看，郑亚夜应该是用上了200%的力气。看到那晃动的、颤动的门板，我不自觉地心花怒放。这是我韩筱洁这么多年以来最值得兴奋狂喜的一天了。 哼哼哼，谁要你自以为是，谁叫你不懂礼貌，我偏不听你的话！ 我在我那张大大的床上，一边打滚，一边兴奋地等待着看郑亚夜到底会有多么的执着，完全忽视自己的行动也有够变态的事实。 巨大的音乐声和郑亚夜拍门的声音渐渐融合在了一起，不一会，我突然觉得，郑亚夜像是在为这巨大的音乐声伴奏。而我，就乐在其中地欣赏着这美妙的音乐。 在和洁癖冷酷男郑亚夜抗战了整整一夜之后，我最终取得了阶段性的胜利。反正只要我不开门，那个家伙就是拿我没办法！只是，在经历了一夜的抗战之后，我有一个问题，那就是，郑亚夜到底是什么时候开始不敲门的啊？ 那震耳欲聋的音乐我是开了一夜的，而那拍门声我是什么时候没听到的呢？我在脑袋里面仔细回想，却始终想不到答案。 话说，昨晚的音乐虽然是震耳欲聋，但是我的耳朵里面塞着一定量的卫生纸，还有我平常雷打不醒的超级大条神经，加上我习惯与音乐相拥入眠的习惯，于是我就在那样震撼人心的音乐之中沉沉地睡去。而在房间之外的洁癖冷酷男郑亚夜是如何度过这漫漫长夜的，就不得而知了。