Chapter 20 Chapter 18 Respectively

Cheng Ji felt that what Li Momei said was right, Yu Ying must have someone outside.And who is that person, this is Cheng Ji's biggest concern.He decided to follow Yu Ying. Cheng Ji didn't know that there was another person secretly making up his mind to follow Yu Ying at this time.Perhaps it was the first time in Cheng Ji's lifetime that he and Yu Ranran wanted to go together. Yu Ying was immediately stared at by many eyes.However, she lives normally and is impeccable in life.Both Yu Ranran and Cheng Ji were in different places and saw different sides of her. Ran Ran saw that Yu Ying was exhausted every day, going to and from get off work to take care of the children, and had no time for herself.She followed and thought, what's the point of such a life?Not a bit of a life of its own.She used to envy her aunt for having a car, a house, and a career. Now she realizes that the world of adults is so boring. Apart from staying in the clinic every day, she just drives home and works as a full-time nanny.What about my aunt's life?Where was her own day?Look at her wearing high-end clothes and taking the most advanced skin care, but she doesn't smile at all.When she was at work, she was so strict, as if someone would pull her down from that seat; when she was holding the child, she always looked like she was afraid that others would snatch her.Why is she living like this?

Ran Ran's anger disappeared little by little during the stalking.She wanted to come back occasionally, she thought, maybe it was Lu Jie's fault, it was impossible for a woman like my aunt to be with Lu Jie, she was not a person from the same world at all.Maybe it was Lu Jie who took my aunt home drunk that day. Ran Ran followed Yu Ying with such a mood.Cheng Ji, on the other hand, seemed to be much more rational. Perhaps it was the first time in so many years that he looked at Yu Ying's life from the perspective of a bystander. In the past, he thought that Yu Ying should be a very happy woman, she had a lot of things that no one else had.Everything is perfect except no kids.However, when he jumped out of that circle to look at Yu Ying, he saw Yu Ying was exhausted.She is working every day, dealing with different patients. After work, she is not herself, but a mother, a wife, and a daughter-in-law.The world that belongs to her is so small that it doesn't seem to exist, but I used to think that this is the destination of women, and their fate should be like this. From the work unit to the family, their mission is to give, and waiting for them It is old age, the passage of time, youth that cannot be brought back, and the corners of the eyes that are finely wrinkled.If there is no love, what do they live on?

His anger also slowly disappeared in the stalking.Maybe it's not that women are tossing, but the world that belongs to them is too small, and they can get too little care and love, so they desperately want it. Yu Ying is wandering on her own life path, unable to understand the impact of her life on her stalker.Xiaobao's birthday is coming soon, these days she always goes to the best toy supermarket in the city to buy gifts, and spends there after work every day, maybe shopping can calm her down a bit.Buy the best gift for Xiaobao, if possible, Yu Ying is willing to give the best everything to that child.

Yu Ying walked to a corner of the toy supermarket, and suddenly heard a familiar voice from the front: "Can this kind of toy be used for newborns?" Yu Ying's brain didn't have time to react, she trembled a step ahead of her body, her scalp exploded all at once, and her face turned pale. This is the most immediate response.Of course, if Yu Ying could use her brain, she would naturally know how to adjust her emotions.Didn't she think that she could say hello naturally, just like meeting an ordinary patient?But, why can't she move?In fact, there is always a possibility of meeting him here. She is mentally prepared, but have those mental preparations been fed to the dogs?Why is her heart beating so fast?

Wu Borong was holding a rattle and asking the waiter, while Pan Yijia, whose belly was slightly visible, walked beside him.Holding a baby bottle in her hand, she looked at Wu Borong with a contented smile and said, "This one is made in Germany, it should be better than Japanese ones, why don't we buy one too." Wu Borong nodded. Yu Ying had recovered and was about to slip back, but Pan Yijia had already raised her head.She couldn't escape, and was destined to meet in such a place.There are tall toy shelves on both sides, and there is only one lane. Didn't Faye Wong sing: "We will meet each other on a narrow road in our lifetime, and we will not be spared in the end."

For some reason, Yu Ying smiled. She propped herself up on the shelf and smiled slightly at Wu Borong and Pan Yijia.What are you laughing at?Laugh at this love and hate, or laugh at that encounter?How many times did I laugh, I kissed him close to the skin in his arms, sinking in loneliness and despair, thinking that holding him was the only one, and I felt safe listening to his voice; it was laughing at myself and loving without fear There is no way out, and I don't know the way forward, making my life a mess; laughing at him is also laughing at my own innocence in the past, thinking that love is an invincible sword.Look, what is fate?It is at this time to meet that no one can escape from life anymore.

Pan Yijia spoke first, and she greeted: "Doctor Yu, what a coincidence, I met you here." "Yeah, what a coincidence." Yu Ying smiled freely, but her tongue was numb, and she spoke like a drunk, and she had to work hard not to show any strangeness. Wu Borong tilted his head slightly to look at her.It was as if a blunt knife was slowly tearing open the wound in his chest, and the pain came suddenly.In the past, he thought why he was so heartbroken that he couldn't speak was an exaggerated state described by literati. How could a person suddenly feel really distressed because of something when he was healthy and painless.But at this moment, he understood that this was not an exaggeration. The heart really hurts, and it hurts very much. That kind of pain is physical, not just spiritual.

He felt the lack of oxygen, and they hadn't contacted each other since they broke up. He returned to his own life, and knew that this was the life he should choose the most, and this life had his reality.If being with Yu Ying is like falling into heaven, then what is now is his real world.People can go to heaven once in a while, but they still have to live in reality after all. This is the helplessness of a man. He has his responsibilities in this world. No amount of responsibility can prevent him from feeling distressed when he saw Yu Ying.He didn't force a smile, he didn't bother to force a smile.Everyone, the whole world knows that he loves her!Love her body, love her hair, love her slightly plump waist, love her frown when she moans, love her cry, love her willfulness, love her caprice, love her dilemma, love her camouflage.

Everyone in this world knows it!But, why are people in this world not perfect, neither him nor her.Wu Borong frowned: "Is this world crazy, or am I crazy?" He could only ask himself this way. This is an affair at the beginning of the game!It's the same as countless affair affairs!But why, at this moment, separated by Pan Yijia's two people, a man and a woman, they were relatively silent.They couldn't say anything, not even "hello". Pan Yijia could feel the unbreakable air pressure, and she stood firmly in the middle without flinching at all. She can't let her retreat, even if her heart will be cut bloody by the pain behind this gaze, even if she will have no self-esteem from now on, even if she really understands that these two people are not for fun but for real, but, for The child in her stomach, she will not retreat, never will.

She stood firmly, standing in front of Wu Borong, and Yu Ying was pushed far away.Yu Ying can't go back, she can only go forward, this is the only thing she can do. "Being conquered by you like this, drinking the poison you hid, my plot is over, and my love and hatred are buried." Yu Ying listened to her footsteps resounding in this empty world, and she walked slowly past this couple with such a gesture.Walk past the man she loves most.She didn't know what passing by was, Wu Borong didn't change his figure from the beginning to the end.It's just that when you approach him, you can smell his familiar scent and hear his heartbeat.

That's right, that voice and rhythm are calling for her, he loves her, maybe this answer is not important at all, even if Wu Borong never loved her, it doesn't matter, at this time, he loves her or he doesn't love her, It doesn't matter at all.If you have to pay back to love, then love is limited.Based on the basis of interests, if you can't get it, you will be out of balance. It's just a kind of monopoly. She may forget that when she was gray-haired, she forgot how deeply she loved someone, what that person looked like, the palpitation when that person met her, and how sincere she was. Maybe she would really forget, but she knew that no matter what, she would never forget the color of Wu Borong's voice when it rang in her ears.If you can hug him, maybe you won't be afraid of no dawn.Only Wu Borong told her that she was loved and appreciated, whether it was true or not, only this man knew her breathing. A voice in my heart shouted frantically: "This is the man, this is the man you want." Yu Ying touched her other hand and asked herself strangely: "What kind of monster lives in my heart? Why did I find such an irrational voice?" Yu Ying suddenly felt that there was still someone living in her body, maybe that person was the weak, sentimental, fragile, and dependent girl she had abandoned before, and that girl was her true face, but she was growing up. In the process, the reality was slowly weeding out that girl, and Yu Ying was forced to adopt the face of a successful person, rational, realistic, calculating, and flexible. If I hadn't met Wu Borong, I might never have heard my own voice, and I would never have known that there was another girl who was abandoned by me.No wonder I have to be happy, because I have been living in a mask all the time.The girl hidden in her heart has been abandoned for too long, so long that Yu Ying also misunderstood that she was like this at all, but he woke her up. It's just that waking up won't help, the girl's voice is too weak. Wu Borong turned around suddenly, instinctively pounced on his prey like an animal. "It's not every day that you can meet what you want. If you miss it this time, you may have to wait a thousand years to meet it." Wu Borong said to himself in a low voice.He opened his hands and hugged Yu Ying in his arms, such a hug that no one can separate.Wu Borong felt Yu Ying's departure, and the hug scene only happened in his imagination.In fact, he remained motionless, smelling the familiar aroma coming closer, the footsteps he had been waiting for thousands of times, getting closer and further away. He finally didn't have the courage to reach out and hug him. She finally still didn't have the guts to listen to the voice of the girl in her heart. Both of these two people live in the real world, they are not the protagonists of the novel, nor can they hold hands for eternity. Life has always been like this, we can never do whatever we want. "Sometimes, sometimes, I will believe that everything has an end, when we get together and leave, sometimes, nothing lasts forever." Yu Ying walked on the road with a pale face, the night had already changed the color of the city.She didn't drive, she just walked alone with a bag of toys, wandering aimlessly in the city.The air and the crowd have nothing to do with me, red light, green light, red light, green light again.No one will see the wound, no one will hear the cry, no one will know the cry, no one will see her. One street after another, she stumbled.Finally, at a street corner, a pair of hands reached out from behind and held her. "No matter how unbearable it is, you have to live on. If you walk around like this, you won't even have a chance of pain." The voice was very flat, it was Lu Jie's voice. Yu Ying's fingers looked like they had just been taken out of the freezer.Lu Jie had already followed her all the way, watching her helplessly and confusedly walk through the streets, even though he knew that the misery had nothing to do with him, he still couldn't help stretching out his hand. It's his choice, he wants to. Not far away, Ran Ran and Cheng Ji both pressed the photo button of the camera and mobile phone in their hands. Lu Jie sent Yu Ying home, and before he had time to catch his breath, he saw Ran Ran standing beside his car door. Lu Jie kept a cold face, at this moment he didn't want to talk to this wayward girl at all. Ran Ran came over with her mobile phone and said to Lu Jie, "It's my aunt, right! That woman is my aunt, right!" Lu Jie couldn't bear it anymore and turned his head: "What do you know? Can't you have anything else in your mind?" "Lu Jie, you bastard, you still lie to me at this time? I saw it all, and I even took a picture of it. Do you know what will happen after I show this picture to my uncle? I Auntie will definitely get a divorce as she wishes, and she won't get any money." Ran Ran yelled at Lu Jie through gritted teeth. Lu Jie stretched out his hand, snatched the phone, and dropped it violently, the phone was torn apart.Lu Jie looked at the mobile phone fragments all over the place, and said word by word: "You still think your aunt is not messy enough? Can't you see? She is already sad like that." Ran Ran was frightened by Lu Jie's berserk behavior, she just stood aside and sobbed blankly. Lu Jie looked at the terrified girl, sighed and said: "It's not me, it's really not me. I like your aunt. If she is sad for me, I will be very happy. But, Ran Ran, really It's not me, I don't have that blessing." His tone is very sincere, which shows that the blow he has suffered is not trivial.Lu Jie was not afraid of Ran Ran's so-called evidence, but that he was really tired.I don't know if it's the tiredness of loving someone, or the tiredness of watching the one I love love others, but Lu Jie has a very strong sense of frustration.The ambition and desire to conquer when he met Yu Ying has disappeared at this time.He seems to vaguely understand that in his life, there are some things that are destined to be impossible to obtain through hard work. Ran Ran has never seen such a tired Lu Jie, but from his expression, it can be seen that he is not lying.She asked tentatively, "Is it the person we met last time?" "En." Lu Jie nodded. Ran Ran was also stunned, and sighed after a while: "My aunt is so romantic! So infatuated." A smile appeared on Lu Jie's face, which was the first time he had smiled in so many days.He finally felt something in Yu Ranran that neither he nor Yu Ying had, that was youth.This kind of youth can be ignorant, ignorant enough to be forgiven, and also not annoying. Lu Jie knew that he couldn't fall in love with this girl, but in his heart, this child was already like a little sister, who lost his temper that way, got into trouble and stuck out his tongue, and started fantasizing about love movies when he knew the truth.Such a girl is brave and foolish, and she should be cared for.One day, she will lose her enthusiasm in life, become mature and sensible, and maybe become another Yu Ying, but Lu Jie is not willing to live like Yu Ying at this moment. Before he stepped out of the room, he heard Pan Yijia turning over with difficulty in his sleep.Because she is pregnant with a child, she always sleeps very restlessly, and even turning over requires a lot of movement.Wu Borong stepped back to his wife's side, gently checked if she was uncomfortable, and then left the room barefoot, stepping on the white pure sheepskin rug, until he was sure that there was nothing wrong with her. The car drove out of the garage, the two bright white headlights illuminated the front, the car slid out of the yard and disappeared into the night, only the red light behind the car was still flashing. In the small building of this high-end residence, Pan Yijia was standing behind thick curtains. She watched the car go away, knowing that her heart was not with her.However, that time when he looked back when he left, he must have been worried and worried. She didn't know what Wu Borong wanted in his life, maybe she didn't want to understand either.She only needs to know what kind of life she wants and what kind of life she wants to defend, that's enough. The more sober and uncompromising a person is, the easier it is to get scars.Behind Pan Yijia's gentle temperament like water, she has a smooth policy of life like water, so she is destined not to be so easily hurt and not so easily lost. Pan Yijia lowered the curtains, and the expression on his face was as calm as water in the darkness.She went back to bed and continued to sleep.She knew that she didn't have to push too hard, the man would definitely drive back. Wu Borong rolled up the window of the car, and drove very fast in the city at night, and stepped on the accelerator when he went up the mountain, as if he wanted to leave all the troubles of this world behind. His face also melted into the darkness, and it was hard to see whether he was crying or not.Perhaps the tears could not flow at all at this time.Only at this time did he know that being able to cry is also a kind of happiness. Wu Borong held the steering wheel, feeling as if he had been hit by the Seven Injuries Fist. As time went by, the internal organs and meridians would be cut off, and the pain would hit a certain place on his body from a small wound like a sandstorm. He didn't want to believe that at this age, there would be a woman who would become his fatal wound.He thought he was strong enough, even if he wasn't strong, at least he was rational enough, even if he was irrational, he could still act like he was accepting his fate. Didn't it be said that after the age of thirty, the chemical substance that secretes love in the brain will decrease, so love will also grow old?But why, why was he so uncomfortable at that time?He felt that there was something in his world, like sand sculptures built on the beach, beautiful and magnificent, but washed away by the sea water little by little, and could no longer flow. His fantasy castle has been taken away so clean by time. When Wu Borong felt the mountain wind blowing, there was a wet cry.He finally knew that he was indeed not a god, that being forty was not an excuse, and that it was not impossible to meet love. He drove to the middle of the mountain, and stopped at the edge of the pavilion where he and Yu Ying hugged for the last time.The car stopped, leaning his head against the cold glass window, looking at the empty pavilion.He had stood side by side with that woman countless times before, and when he lost this woman, he finally felt how afraid he was of that place. How happy are those who are soaked in love!It's a pity that at that time he didn't know how to cherish, and he didn't even realize that he was deeply loved.He used to laugh at love like that, thinking that it was something a fool would do, and he didn't believe that such a thing would happen to him.However, even today, he did not know that he was also deeply in love.Only now at this time, the pain is manifested since the last parting, like the sudden burst of pain after the anesthetic wears off. He had no tears, just retched silently in the car, hitting the back of the seat. If he can be a little more sincere, even a little bit, without playing games; if he can believe in her true love and not doubt the world; if he can be less self-righteous and less confident; then, this Sometimes, he may feel less pain. At this moment, Wu Borong finally knew that he could live without wind or waves.However, at some point, like a toxic attack, he will suddenly feel distressed, think of a woman, think of that woman's voice, think of her text messages, think of her laughing and crying, think of how she used to be stayed in his life. At that time, he may be on a cross street, may be shopping with his family, may be at the wine table, may be talking with friends, may look up from his desk, but no matter what, he will feel pain, and the emptiness will be like a missile Attacking from a long distance, Missing blasted him to pieces like a missile, smashing him to pieces, knowing that he was meaningless. Of course, such an attack will not last long, and it will not affect life. Wu Borong is still Wu Borong, and nothing has changed on the outside.He is the leader of a company, a good husband to his wife, a good father to his children, a good son to his parents, and a good buddy to his friends. Perhaps, there will be new lovers who will appear at that time. However, his life has been deformed, just like that, because of her, because of love, it has completely changed. Cheng Ji stood in front of the sofa, watching Yu Ying go away.As the door slammed, he felt a ringing in his ears.After the noise subsided, he felt that the room was eerily quiet.Only then did he realize that the child was not in the room, and even the mother who usually took the child was not at home.He called his mother, who told him that Yu Ying sent the child back to his biological mother.She spoke flatly, without wind or waves.Although this incident is sad, but after the injury is over, life still has to live.The old man has already seen through these days. Cheng Ji's mother used the wisdom of an old man to make her life less difficult. There is not much time left in this world, so why bother to trouble yourself?Besides, how can the troubles in this world be bothered.On the other side of the phone, the old man persuaded his son calmly, without any demands in his tone.I just hope that both he and his daughter-in-law are safe and sound. If not, she can no longer interfere, because the child's affairs have caused chaos in the world. Cheng Ji put down the phone, suddenly feeling confused.The world is like a glass house, which is also slowly collapsing. With the crisp sound of the glass house, he knows that the balance in his heart has been broken. When the anger passed, he felt a heart-pounding tiredness, which made him powerless.He leaned back on the sofa, closed his eyes, and the scene with Yu Ying appeared in front of his eyes.She always stood behind so quietly and steadily, as if she was a part of his life.The part he didn't pay attention to, but fell in love with someone else one day, and had the courage and breakup to break through.So, he really asked himself, is this really the only way to live?Is he too selfish, or is she too crazy?Is this world out of his grasp, or is she really not suitable for him? Cheng Ji didn't have an answer, he couldn't give an answer in his heart, his life changed in an instant, it wasn't like this at all before.Life is not beautiful, and he can't change it. He took out his mobile phone and typed a line, but did not send it. Is it really irreparable, or unforgivable, even he feels the coldness and helplessness in marriage?Cheng Ji knew what it meant to send that line, which meant that he had to start his life again and break all his habits. Cheng Ji shook his head, thinking: No, I must be able to think of a way to solve it. So, he closed his eyes and habitually entered the escape.When there is no solution, he can only ask himself to regain his rationality.Cheng Ji tried his best to keep his life on track. This was his bottom line. Even if he didn't understand what feelings were, he understood what life was.This is actually enough. Feelings are not food. You have to eat. If you don’t eat, you will die. Cheng Ji fell asleep holding the phone. The words on the phone were: "Let's get a divorce!"