Chapter 15 Chapter Thirteen Cold Night

When Lu Jie saw Yu Ying, she was half-drunk and collapsed on the backmost seat of the bar counter, with her whole head buried there, her hair disheveled, like a group of released night elves, looking for a way out. The table undulates. As soon as Lu Jie entered this bar, he was stopped by someone and said to him, "Boy, why haven't you come here to fool around for so long?" Lu Jie said indifferently: "I went on a trip once." "Where did you go?" "Snow Mountain." "You are so energetic, you went to the snow mountain to pick up girls."

While talking there, a familiar woman came up and said: "That woman, isn't that the one who looked for you last time? I just saw that she drank a lot, so she must be drunk now. " The light in the bar is very dim, and there is a candle pot on each table, which is a transparent crystal pot filled with water, and a candle is placed in the middle. petal.This bar is always full of poignancy and despair, as well as downfall and no return, that's why it became Lu Jie's favorite. Lu Jie looked over and saw only a bunch of candle flames, which were almost burning to the surface of the water.The waves swaying in the water are like living golden snakes, with their small bodies twisting.And surrounded by countless golden snakes and black hair is a hand, that hand is helplessly placed on the side of the candle pot, I don't know if it is the contrast of the black hair, that hand is particularly white.Lu Jie was shocked by that whiteness, he thought of the snow scene he saw on Meili Snow Mountain, the sky and the earth were all pure white, like the whole world was covered by white, that kind of whiteness can shock the soul.He immediately recognized that it was Yu Ying, there was no reason.

He walked over and pushed Yu Ying.Yu Ying was only half drunk, when she saw someone pushing her, she raised her head and glanced at Lu Jie. Just the moment he raised his head from the table, the candle finally couldn't hold back and was flooded by the water and went out.The whole world seemed to have fallen into the boundless darkness, but as long as that second was enough, Lu Jie had already seen Yu Ying's face clearly.That face was covered with tears, and those tears were like countless scars, slowly cutting the heart of the woman in front one by one.Her heart, as fragile as glass, was scarred by this poisonous liquid.

Lu Jie didn't know what to say, he saw the tears of this woman, the woman who always had a sneer and an expression of indifference, the woman who always thought that she was superior and disdained to look at her, the woman who would not even look at her in the most extreme situation Keep calm woman.However, she is crying without self now, she is crying like an abandoned dog, she is crying unconsciously, she is crying like herself.But the image of that face raised made Lu Jie unconsciously think of the sunrise he saw on Meili Snow Mountain. The sun was slowly lifted up in the snowy kingdom, and the whole world turned golden.At that time, Lu Jie, who was full of confusion, resentment, and anger, was calmed down by the miraculous nature at this moment.He looked at himself and felt that he was pitifully small. In the golden world, he was like a snowflake that would melt away at some point.He shed tears on the spot, the tears were to redeem himself, and finally, he decided to live his life well.

When he was in Meili Snow Mountain, he no longer believed in reincarnation, no longer believed in a next life, a previous life, nothing, all he had was this life in his hands.Therefore, he wants to live his life well, live well, and find the life he wants. This woman is also like this!Her face is like the sun when she sees the sunrise on the snow-capped mountains, fragile and desperate, looking at everything poignantly. Yu Ying wasn't surprised at all, and said in the dark, motionless: "Why? Why do you always appear at such times?" "If I say it's fate, you'll think I'm frivolous."

"I don't believe anything you say." Lu Jie nodded: "You have this understanding, which proves that you are not drunk yet." "I drank a lot, but I wasn't really drunk. It turned out that it was not easy to get drunk." Yu Ying thought about watching Pan Yijia walk out of the clinic during the day, with that calm and peaceful figure walking leisurely.Yu Ying continued to work until dinner, and she was very enthusiastic and careful with the patients. All the patients that day felt that Dr. Yu was very dedicated, asked about the condition very carefully, and administered the injections very carefully. Every injection was extremely accurate, and there was no pain nothing.

Yu Ying didn't feel her hands trembling until she closed the clinic door and got into the car.What a sane machine!This body knows that it cannot be distracted or collapsed during work, so even pain and gaffes have to wait until after get off work.She went straight to the bar.When people are in a panic, they will run to places they are familiar with, and the only bar she is familiar with is the one where Lu Jie was looking for. When people want to get drunk, they are always unable to get drunk. She drank one cup after another, and although her body couldn't control herself, her mind was extremely clear.She knows that the most precious things in her life are being peeled away bit by bit. The people she wants to protect, the love she wants to cherish, and the things she wants to exchange with her life, she can give up everything, fame and fortune. Love, status, ease, prosperity, all the possessions and things she wanted to keep no longer belonged to her.

It turns out that man will conquer nature, but it is just a nonsense. Lu Jie looked directly at her in the darkness and said, "Are you broken in love? With that person?" "Well, his wife is pregnant, and he came to my place today to prescribe fetal medicine." Yu Ying said calmly. "Yo!" Lu Jie was also a little surprised, "You drove?" "No, she is in good health. There is no need to take medicine indiscriminately, which is not good for the fetus. As a doctor, I will not treat my patients so irresponsibly." "But..." Lu Jie stopped talking, paused for a while and said, "What are you going to do?"

"I want to keep Xiaobao by my side, and I can exchange it with anything." This is the only thought in Yu Ying's mind now. "The child you brought back?" Lu Jie had already figured out Yu Ying's bottom from Ran Ran's place. "Yes, her mother came back to take her away. I can't think of a reason to refuse." "But, are you willing?" Lu Jie felt that it was cruel and stupid for him to ask this question. Sure enough, the person in the dark moved a bit, and then said: "I don't want to, if I can get this child back by smashing my body, I am willing to smash my body; if I can give up everything to get Wu Borong, I am also willing... But, it is no longer What I can do if I am willing, I am nothing, 'I am willing' cannot change the facts, nor can it change the world."

"However, Wu Borong might not give up on you for the sake of a child. A child might not be able to keep him." Lu Jie knew very well that if Wu Borong really wanted a divorce, the result would be the same whether he had children or not. Someone dragged eight girls with him, and the man would leave that woman just the same. Yu Ying shook her head and said: "I understand him, he also understands me, I know he won't, he won't give up his own flesh and blood, just like he understands me, he also knows that I won't base my happiness on one The pain of the child. We started because of our understanding of each other, and now we end because of the same reason."

Maybe Yu Ying never had Xiaobao, so she wouldn't understand the pain of being taken away from her child.However, she is already a mother, so she understands that that kind of feeling cannot be taken away easily.If Wu Borong is really a man who can even hurt children, then what does she want from such a man?He can hurt his own flesh and blood, so naturally he will hurt her one day.A person who doesn't even love his own flesh and blood, who else will he love? "Then go back to your own home and live a good life!" Lu Jie looked at the woman, she was too sober, so much alcohol can't make her confused, is it a good thing or a bad thing to have such a rational spirit? "Live a good life?" Yu Ying repeated word by word.She smiled wryly, and her voice was tinged with astringency. Yu Ying stopped talking, but hummed a song in her mouth: "I loved yesterday to death, I swore to cut your face, and everything will never return to those beautiful pictures of the past." Her voice was very pleasant , like plump water droplets rolling on the green leaves, it sounds very comfortable in the dark night, and Lu Jie doesn't bother her. After she sang a few words, she laughed again: "I used to never sing this kind of popular songs. I think all love songs are written by fools. They talk about love, hate, and the lyrics are disgusting." Dead, it seems that a person can't live without someone." Yu Ying continued: "I don't know when it started, but I found myself falling in love with him. I struggled for a long time, and I didn't believe it. How could I fall in love with such a person? When did I start to change from lust to love? When did I start to move from absurdity and promiscuity to pure love, when did I start to fall, when did I really become a fool, I don’t know these things, and I don’t understand what’s going on.” Lu Jie wanted to say something, but was interrupted by Yu Ying: "Yeah, you want to say that I am actually stupid! Every adult has his own principles and restraint, but I ignore the rules of the game. So , even if I was injured, even if I killed myself, I asked for it. Are you qualified to say whether you like it or not?" The whole bar was haunted by a gentle old song, and a rustling female voice was singing an unknown French song. Yu Ying listened for a while, and said to Lu Jie: "Listen, she sang so sadly. Although I don't know the meaning, I can hear that she is broken because of love. In this world, there are always a group of people who are passionate and passionate." Life is out of place, this group of people can't grow up, don't understand, don't understand, this group of people will always fall in love with people again and again, although they get hurt again and again, but nothing can scare them away, because of that kind of love My heart cannot be soothed by anything but love." Lu Jie said softly: "A group of vampires won't drink anything but blood." "You can't ask vampires from a worldly perspective, and you can't use a frame to frame this group of people. Their souls are free and nothing can bind them." Lu Jie stretched out his hand, wanting to hold the hand in the darkness, but the hand retracted.Lu Jie said disappointedly: "Yes, I have always known that you are such a woman. What attracted me has always been your soul, your free and unrestrained soul." Lu Jie lit a cigarette: "When I saw you for the first time, I felt that you were unhappy. I couldn't say why you were unhappy. In fact, you should be happy. However, you were not happy at all. At that time you were laughing, and you answered fluently. , but you at that time were not as happy as you who are crying now." Yu Ying said: "You said, with me like this, can I go back home and live a good life without him? If I didn't meet him, I would always think that I am living well, I have material things, and I also have peace I would think that I am a happy woman, even if I am not in love, I am a happy and successful woman. No one said that love is necessary in the adult world." Yu Ying felt the tears come down again, crawling on her face: "But, I still met him, he came, made me love, awakened all the emotions and desires in my heart, all the love songs are because of his color, even the vulgar ones The sentences in romance magazines have become so intimate. I have been enriched by him, and I have been liberated from all shackles by him. Can I go back? After I go back, I will still think that it is a happy life I have changed, my free soul has come out. Standing in the sun, I feel myself breaking free little by little, how can I deceive myself now?" Yu Ying pointed to her heart and said: "There is a person living here, and that person is the real me. For so many years, that person has been suppressed, I can't hear her voice, I only hear what other people say. Slowly, I spoke better than others. I thought that I was familiar with the rules of adults, and I could already be a good adult. I didn’t know until I met him. I have been looking for the same as myself all my life. People, I just want to find someone who really understands me. The secular rules are bullshit to me, I don’t care at all, and I never intend to care, I just didn’t understand it before.” Lu Jie asked, "Are you planning to divorce?" "Yes, I'm going to divorce. Whether I'm with Wu Borong or not, I can't live like this anymore." Yu Ying said, "I only have one life, and I don't believe in an afterlife at all. I can only live this life well." , let yourself die with less regret.” Lu Jie felt that his heart had really fallen.The woman in front of him was the woman he was really looking for.Although the former Yu Ying faintly attracted him, it was not like now that the whole body was burning with raging flames, that kind of light was what he longed for.That's right, if there is such a group of sincere and sexual people, then he is one of them, so he will become a prodigal and a freak in the eyes of others.He didn't want to give up the woman he had been looking for for many years, no matter whether she had him in her heart now. Always fight for yourself, all love requires courage. Lu Jie dismissed the idea of ​​going to Tibet for the next stop, and his intuition told him that he should stay by this woman's side at this time. Yu Ranran has already reached her sophomore year.Because she participated in the TV station's star selection activities, she was also noticed by some people, and she took on a lot of commercials, big and small, and she seemed to feel that she was already a big star. Life is full, but her heart has never been enriched.She is as stubborn as a child who can't get candy, the boys around her are so boring and meaningless, still only Lu Jie is her favorite. Lu Jie was not her favorite, it was only because Lu Jie didn't put her in his eyes that she felt a different kind of emotion.Maybe it's unwillingness, maybe it's conquest, maybe it's aggressiveness, but such feelings are all classified as love, because when she was young, as long as she used the name of love to do whatever she wanted, she would be forgiven anyway. The child who willfully wears colorful rubber bands is invincible in youth and never gives up.Ran Ran carries a small bag every day and goes to the bar where Lu Jie often goes to guard. Although Lu Jie does not know the return journey during his trip, she believes that as long as she is waiting, she will always be able to wait for this man.She is getting more and more beautiful and charming every day, and this man will be fascinated by himself one day.She believed in such confidence, so although it was a bit late to shoot a toothpaste commercial this night, she still came to the bar. When I first entered the bar, someone said, "Lu Jie is back." "Really?" Ran Ran was so happy that she almost jumped up.The people behind the bar looked dazed, why is such a young and beautiful girl pestering Lu Jie?What kind of magical power does Lu Jie have? Is it because he is handsome and rich?But I have never heard how rich Lu Jie is! "Don't be happy, he just left, and helped a half-drunk woman go away." A woman next to her couldn't help but came up to beat her. "What, how long have you been away?" The man behind the bar likes Ran Ran: "Not long ago, just left for a few minutes." Ran Ran chased it out like a rabbit. No matter how fast she ran, she couldn't catch up with Lu Jie's speed.But as soon as she went out, she just saw Lu Jie's car passing by her.She ran after the car and shouted, but Lu Jie was so focused on Yu Ying that he really didn't notice that someone was waving at him by the side of the road.As soon as he accelerated, the car drove away. Due to the short time, Ran Ran didn't see clearly who the woman half-lying in Lu Jie's arms was, but she still felt that she was very familiar.Reluctantly, Ran Ran chased out of a street, then flagged a taxi with her hand, and went straight to Lu Jie's house.Love means that she will not let go of any chance to get a man. If we talk about courage, Ran Ran is the real courage. Lu Jie was driving the car on the way home, Yu Ying raised her head vigorously while half drunk, and said to Lu Jie, "Take me home!" Lu Jie didn't want to do anything while Yu Ying was drunk, but felt that she might be irrational when she went home at this time, so he wanted to take her to his home to rest first.Since he really fell in love with Yu Ying, he would respect Yu Ying even more. If he just wanted to have sex, Lu Jie wouldn't have to bother to find Yu Ying. "But, do you want to sober up first?" "No need, I'm really not drunk." Yu Ying was indeed not drunk, and she would not be so clear-headed when she was drunk, even more sober than when she was not drinking.Her mind was running at high speed, and with this bit of alcohol, she was able to examine herself more truly, and the thoughts that she didn't dare to think about before were all clear at this moment. She insisted on going home, so Lu Jie had no choice but to send her back. Yu Ying half leaned against the car window, thought about it but smiled, and said to Lu Jie: "Why do you always send me home drunk!" "What can I do? I'm also waiting for Wu Borong's opportunity, but I showed up too late!" When Wu Borong was mentioned, Yu Ying's expression changed, and she fell silent again. When they arrived at the community, Yu Ying got out of the car and said to Lu Jie, "Thank you." "You always say thank you, when can you say something else to me?" Lu Jie asked seriously. How could someone as smart as Yu Ying not know what Lu Jie wanted to say?Pointing to her chest, she said: "There is only so much love, and I really can't give it casually. I am not the sun, and I cannot shine on the earth." "It's okay, I'm not a small tree, I don't need photosynthesis." Lu Jie smiled, and the car drove away. He doesn't know if Yu Ying will fall in love with him and accept him, maybe he used to think that this kind of unsure love is a waste, this kind of feeling may not even count as love, it's just unrequited love.However, now he only listens to his own inner voice. It is the calculation of the world whether to waste or not. As long as he is willing and enjoys it, then what does this formula do? First of all, you must please yourself and understand yourself before you can love and understand others. When Yu Ying entered the room, Cheng Ji was already waiting on the sofa.Cheng Ji was startled when he saw her half-drunk, because Yu Ying in his mind didn't have this side at all.The half-drunk woman was like a strange woman wearing Yu Ying's skin, her eyes and flushed face were so strange. Cheng Ji hurriedly helped her into the room, and said softly, "Why do you drink so much?" Yu Ying got up, looked around, saw that there was no baby, and immediately asked Cheng Ji soberly, "Where is the baby? Where did Xiaobao go? Did someone take her away? You gave her to me?" Who is it? Quickly bring the child back to me!" A series of questioning, the tone is getting higher and higher. Cheng Ji hurriedly coaxed: "No, no, Mom is afraid that you will be in a bad mood these days, so she took the child to live for a few days." "Why should I be in a bad mood? I'm in a very good mood! Look, my husband is amazing, and he won the outstanding youth award in this city. My small clinic was rated as the most popular private clinic on the Internet. I have many patients. It's terrible, I'm going to change to a bigger house soon." Yu Ying really couldn't control her mouth anymore, and she didn't want to. "It's really good, I'm really good, better than anyone else! You don't need to beg for food, you don't need to look at people, you don't need to live on the street, you don't need to worry about food and clothing. What's wrong with me? I don't give it to anyone, Xiaobao. Not even! She is my child, born by me, born by me, no one can take it away!" Yu Ying took several steps back as she spoke.The kind of red wine she drank had great stamina, and Lu Jie could still hold on when he sent her off, but it didn't come up until home, and she started to feel a little confused. Cheng Ji came over with a wet towel and comforted her: "It's okay, I asked the lawyer, we have a chance to get Xiaobao's custody. Even if we don't, we can have a good talk with Li Lan, we have more A little money, and we will raise it together. Don’t be like this, don’t drink and hurt your body.” Yu Ying looked at Cheng Ji with her eyes open and said, "Why are you so nice to me?" Cheng Ji looked at Yu Ying who was about to lose her mind, and couldn't laugh or cry: "You are my wife! If I don't treat you well, who should I treat?" Yu Ying nodded, seemed to agree, shook her head again, pointed at the tip of Cheng Ji's nose and said, "Yes, I am your wife, but you don't love me, Cheng Ji, you don't love me at all!" "Nonsense, where is it going?" Cheng Ji didn't know how to respond. Yu Ying rushed forward and lay on his chest: "Tell me, ask yourself, do you love me? I'm listening, you can't lie at all!" Cheng Ji pushed her away with a half smile: "You women, you love and hate all day long, are you tired! Isn't this how you live your life so well, what are you fussing about?" Yu Ying suddenly raised her head, a rare light appeared in her eyes.She looked at Cheng Ji very carefully, and then said to him: "Listen, some people can live without love, but I can't. I used to think I could, but now I know I can't, I can't without love. Those days are just for you I think it's okay, it has nothing to do with me." Cheng Ji heard Yu Ying's last words before pulling up the quilt: "Cheng Ji, I want to divorce you."