Chapter 11 Chapter 09

Five years passed like a white horse. In Nie Shuang's view, it seemed that a whole century had passed. A century ago, she was still worrying about what clothes to wear tomorrow, feeling uneasy because the Chinese teacher gave her a distracted look in class, and tossing and turning for days because of the geometry test a week later... What gift should Bai Mushan give for her birthday, which is affordable and practical and makes her feel very considerate?Where do you go to find programs when you meet Ji Cheng on weekends?Don't bump into the teacher and the parents of both parties, otherwise you will die ugly.Zhou Qianyi received another dozen love letters this week, what's so bad about it?It would be best if his parents find out and lock him up for a week.Jiang Xiaoguang said that there are only three days before the summer vacation, so it is better to go to Mount Tai to play together, but the suitcase has not been bought yet...

Those small things that seemed bigger than the sky at that time, but only considered trivial at that time, bothered us all day long. When Nie Shuang finished a busy day's work many years later, she sat in the crowded subway in a daze, Seeing boys and girls wearing school uniforms talking loudly about their dissatisfaction with the teacher, the ugly hairstyle of the deskmate, what programs are arranged for the winter vacation, and how to spend the New Year's money; when she was sleeping soundly, she received a call from her boss at two o'clock in the morning When talking about her whimsical ideas; when she returned to the room where she lived alone and saw the tap water and electricity bills on the door...

He really realized that the brilliant youth and her youth were separated by hundreds of thousands of miles. Those ages when you were willing to devote yourself wholeheartedly and without distraction to one person, those times when you were the only one in my eyes without him for a moment of love, those times when you were desperate and stepped forward, are all gone forever. At the beginning, I decided to stay in Yancheng. Apart from spending four years in this city, I am more familiar with the environment and can easily find a job. It is also the meaning of Nie Shuang’s father: "No matter how good Lancheng is, Yancheng is the provincial capital after all, and it is close to the sea. It’s very suitable for the elderly.” Therefore, as early as before Nie Shuang graduated and the housing prices in Yancheng were very low, Nie Shuang’s father took out his savings for many years, borrowed money, and bought two sets in Yancheng. Real estate, a two-bedroom, a small one-bedroom, the two houses add up to less than 200,000 yuan. After Nie Shuang graduated and worked for a year, the price had already increased by five times.

When I bought a small apartment, Nie Shuang’s name was written on the real estate certificate. Although it’s a bit far away from the company, it takes 40 minutes by bus, which is better than Nie Shuang’s renting a house at a high price outside and worrying about the landlord’s rent increase all day long. In the other two-bedroom house, in Nie Shuang's first year of work, both of Nie Shuang's parents retired, simply sold the house at home, and moved the family to Yancheng.The distance between the two houses is only 20 minutes’ walk. Nie Shuang was worried that his parents would come to inspect them from time to time like they did when he was a student. However, after retirement, the two veterans arrange their spare time very full, and their daughter’s house is in chaos. What does the nest have to do with us?Out of sight out of mind.People play Tai Chi in the morning, play table tennis in the afternoon, and swim in the evening... The aunt of the neighborhood committee even found her mother to be a volunteer, patrolling the community two days a week.

When I don't want to cook, I stock up on the sofa at home, and bring out all the delicious and delicious food... Except for calling her every now and then to ask her to go on a blind date, which is intolerable, Nie Shuang is content with her life in Yancheng. Of course, Nie Shuang was not the only one who was troubled. Zhou Qianyi was also a little annoyed. The mother made several phone calls a day, asking her son to go back to Yancheng and reunite the whole family.My father even used all his connections to find a lot of people, and finally helped Zhou Qianyi find a fat job in the bank.At that time, Zhou Qianyi was still in his senior year, and one day he was tricked back home by an emergency call from his father who called "Mother is sick". When he left the station, he was escorted by his mother to go to the bank for an interview. Work, the interviewer in the personnel department is a middle-aged woman in her forties. Seeing the handsome Zhou Qianyi, she thinks she is very eye-catching. A top student from a famous university was introduced by an acquaintance, so she was happy to do favors. plate.

Nie Shuang thought that Zhou Qianyi would never let his parents arrange his life like this, but what he didn't expect was that Zhou Qianyi really came to Yancheng obediently after graduation. Nie Shuang had no choice but to attribute the reason to the truth that "people always succumb to reality". Just like when Zhou Qianyi learned that Boling had gone to Lanzhou, he actually contacted her for a while, but the cost of a long-distance relationship was too high, including time cost and money cost.Of course, there is one more thing, distance, which makes people suspicious. Everyone's requirements for love may not be high, but the sense of distance in space is lengthened by time, and when it accumulates to the highest point one day, it will be unbearable.

At that time, Zhou Qianyi quickly forgot about Boling and started his colorful university life in Nanjing. College has always been a hotbed of love, and it's easier to breed love than any other time and place for students who are just entering college.Zhou Qian is as easy as a fish in water. But after talking about love several times, there was no stable partner around me.In other words, there is no such person who will subdue Zhou Qianyi's ambition.For Zhou Qianyi, who has always been playful, it is very difficult to determine. Love is such an inexplicable thing that everyone may fall in love with anyone anytime, anywhere.What's more, his personality and behavior are a bit sloppy, except for Bai Ling, who has been in the group of girls since he was a child, and has always been the only one who pursues him. He is really completely spoiled by others.

After talking for a few times, Zhou Qianyi gradually lost interest.He gradually discovered that although girls have their own cuteness, they have one thing in common: they have an infinite and unrealistic yearning for love, especially those girls who like to watch romantic movies and idol dramas. The love story was completely overturned, and she pursued frantically and even asked her boyfriend to accompany her to perform together, vowing to carry the romance to the end. The impatient Zhou Qianyi gradually felt a little tired of the gorgeous girls and the love that required his wholehearted devotion, and even became indifferent.Until one day, he realized that besides love, he can have higher pursuits in life: the school has countless clubs, and they organize activities in different ways every day. It's everyday food, and there are online games... From the second half of her sophomore year until graduation, Zhou Qianyi was actually single all the time.

Nie Shuang slowly figured it out. In fact, Zhou Qianyi is used to laziness, and his leisurely university life has long since honed him to perfection. For a while, Nie Shuang met him on QQ, full of complaints, and even declared that "getting something for nothing is my ultimate goal."At that time, Nie Shuang replied contemptuously, "Get out, you just go down."But when you log off at night, you snicker again, what is there to be contemptuous of, if you are given a chance to get something for nothing, you will definitely "will to degenerate" without even thinking about it.

——Getting something for nothing, to put it bluntly, is the dream of all mankind. It's just that no one can speak so confidently, openly, and frankly as Zhou Qianyi said. Of course, Zhou Qianyi also felt that it would be better to fight vigorously in Nanjing, but graduating from a prestigious university is no longer the golden sign of the year. In the early years, he was also the target of major companies. The future is so good that students from other schools feel inferior.In view of various reasons and the university's enrollment expansion policy, the benefits of prestigious university graduates are limited to getting more interview opportunities and ensuring that the interviewees are full of confidence, but that is only a flash in the pan, and there is no job Experience, all started from scratch, the monthly salary of 800 to 1600 yuan during the trial period made everyone dejected and speechless after meeting the interviewer.

So Zhou Qianyi's pride was also just a flash in the pan and disappeared without a trace. He chose to succumb to the leisurely reality. What's more, the job his parents found for him was indeed a lucrative job.It is enough to work three hours in the morning and two hours in the afternoon every day, but the salary is twice what Nie Shuang gets for working overtime every night.Where is the reasoning? The same parents complained about patriarchy, "Who told you that you are not a handsome man who graduated from a prestigious university?" Nie Shuang was speechless. There are two prerequisites here, one is to graduate from a prestigious university, and the other is to be a handsome man.Nie Shuang admitted that he hadn't been admitted to a prestigious university.However, the handsome man... really made her silent. She knows that some companies discriminate against women. At the job fairs where countless people gather, the gender conditions for recruitment are prominently marked with "male", which makes many girls stop.At that time, Nie Shuang didn't think much about it. After all, there are still many companies that do not require gender.Because she is young, she has enough self-confidence and drive to carry her flame-like pride, but right now, it has been completely extinguished by Zhou Qianyi who has been frightened after coming to Yancheng. Everyone has their own destiny, and there are some things that cannot be envied after all. Nie Shuang actually never thought that he would be with Jiang Xiaoguang. When the university admission letter was sent home, I learned that Nie Shuang and Jiang Xiaoguang were admitted to the same city. Whenever the two parents saw them walking or talking together, their eyes on the two became subtle, even in the air. It's an ambiguous taste. Even then, Nie Shuang never thought about what would happen between herself and Jiang Xiaoguang.If you can, you can do it in high school, why wait until college? She didn't know that most things in life were out of her control. In the four years of college life in Yancheng, besides Jiang Xiaoguang, Nie Shuang once fell in love.At that time, in order to completely forget about Ji Cheng, Nie Shuang chose a quiet boy from among his many suitors to date, but it ended without a problem within a month.In fact, people treat her pretty well, but she has always been indifferent, and she is neither salty nor cold with others. She has held hands a few times, like a wooden person, and her words are not lukewarm, with too much perfunctory.At first the other party didn't mind, and persisted for a while, but even a fool could see that she was absent-minded, so she was not angry, and soon broke up peacefully. After breaking up with the quiet boy for about half a month, Nie Shuang went to the fruit shop outside the school to buy fruit as usual. As soon as he left the school gate, he saw Jiang Xiaoguang, who hadn't contacted him for three days, leaning against the school gate, looking at him pitifully. looking at her. Nie Shuang waved his hand, "What do you want to eat? I'll treat you tonight." "Barbecue." Jiang Xiaoguang was not polite, and silently followed Nie Shuang. ——Magnifying the people we know by thousands of times and tens of thousands of times, we have never seen a lucky person win five million. However, you will still continue to buy lottery tickets with the idea that if, if, if, the lucky one who wins five million will be your own. Therefore, although there is no legal provision stipulating that the person you like, they have the responsibility and obligation to definitely, affirm, and must like you the same-but we still hug us foolishly. Maybe we may or may not be able to hit you With the persistence of the five million lottery ticket, I will continue to love you. Looking forward to one day, he (she) can change his mind. After arriving in Yancheng, for the first month or so, Jiang Xiaoguang was close to the water, and the two universities were only a 20-minute drive away, so it was convenient for him to come to meet Nie Shuang every now and then.But at that time, the love between the two did not make any progress.After all, university life is colorful and varied, and everyone has their own pastimes. Perhaps, Jiang Xiaoguang is just not used to life in a foreign country. After a while, he will be fine after he gets used to it—of course, this is only Nie Shuang's understanding. Nie Shuang didn't know, Jiang Xiaoguang spent a month's living expenses to buy Nie Shuang's roommate Koukou to eat in order to understand Nie Shuang's movements. At first, the cheerful girl thought he was interested in her, but after finding out the reason, it was embarrassing for a while. The other party was also straightforward, seeing Jiang Xiaoguang's lovely face, he sighed and agreed. So when Nie Shuang fell in love with that boy, the information reached Jiang Xiaoguang almost at the same time.The infatuated little boy at that time was still hesitating about how to completely open Nie Shuang's heart. Hearing the news, it was like a bolt from the blue, and immediately hid in the bed and cried bitterly. Before, he felt that Nie Shuang rejected him only because of Ji Cheng's existence.But after going through this incident, he vaguely felt that even without Ji Cheng, Nie Shuang would not have chosen him. Thinking about this, there was another burst of wailing. The roommates have always regarded this handsome boy next door as their younger brother. After learning the reason, they persuaded him for a long time. The dorm boss even patted his chest and said: "There is no grass anywhere in the world. Brother, I can find it for you on campus." However, Jiang Xiaoguang poked his head out from under the quilt, kicked the quilt with both feet, showing his face smeared with tears, grabbed the facial tissue handed over by the third child, and said vaguely in a crying voice: "I just like her, I just like her and I just like her." like her……" "……Ok." The brothers in the dormitory sighed, exchanged glances with each other, and began to teach Jiang Xiaoguang his "cheats for chasing girls" one by one: "Jia Pingwa said that the secret of a boy's pursuit of a girl is: boldness, carefulness, and thick skin. Xiaoguang, you must stick to it to the end. A good girl is afraid of being messed with. Thick-skinned, it will definitely work out." The third child came out of the bathroom, Still holding a pair of socks full of soap scum. "Girls are more sympathetic, and they are the easiest to overflow with maternal love. You must show a pitiful look in front of her." The fourth child said while swallowing ice cream after playing football. The sixth child who was playing online games curled his lips: "If you want me to say, you can't do these things. The simplest and easiest way to succeed is to hug her directly and give her a boo..." The boss flicked the head of the sixth son with a clear head: "Bo'er, you think everyone is acting like a hooligan like you. If you want me to say, girls like romance the most, so you just go on the offensive with flowers, and then give it to you at every turn." It's a surprise for her, believe me, girls like to eat this set the most." ... No one can tell how much Jiang Xiaoguang can absorb after memorizing these so-called "cheats for chasing girls" from his roommates. Everyone only knows that Jiang Xiaoguang goes out early and returns late every day for more than 20 days. Maybe he is a little slow. It takes one to absorb these things. After a month, you still dare not take action?Nobody knows.But being slow also has its benefits. A month later, Nie Shuang just happened to be single again.What the boys in room 602 could see with their eyes was that two months later, Nie Shuang and Jiang Xiaoguang really walked together. The reason, I am afraid that even Jiang Xiaoguang can't explain clearly. After six o'clock in the morning, Jiang Xiaoguang called Nie Shuang's dormitory: "Is Nie Shuang there? Oh, still sleeping? Please tell her for me that there is no need to buy breakfast in the morning. I will wait for her downstairs in your dormitory at seven o'clock." The auntie at the gate saw Nie Shuang: "Hey, your boyfriend went to buy some fruit, and the roses I bought for you are stored with me, so hurry up and get them." Finally, she looked at her with meaningful eyes, "It's quite nice." good match." During class, someone knocked on the door, the lecturer walked out, and then walked in again. The well-mannered lecturer smiled and said, "A boy asked me to bring this note to Nie Shuang." He raised his head, " May I ask who is classmate Nie Shuang?" Nie Shuang had no choice but to stand up, and the lecturer smiled and said, "They are all young people, who hasn't been in a relationship yet, right? There's nothing to be shy about. In that case, I'll read it directly——Nie Shuang, are you skipping next class? If you run away, I will accompany you; if you don’t run away, then I’ll go back to class. I’ll come back after lunch.” Nie Shuang: ... There were too many things like this, but the last straw that broke the camel's back was when Nie Shuang went to take a shower, and the lady in charge of the bathroom charges shouted: "Who is Nie Shuang? Your boyfriend said that he went to your dormitory last time. Seeing that the shower gel was gone, he brought you a bottle, and asked me to bring it in for you in case you didn't have to wash it..." Nie Shuang: ... After taking a shower, Nie Shuang lashed out at Jiang Xiaoguang. At that time, Jiang Xiaoguang didn't know what to do when a girl got angry, so he ran back to his school timidly, and didn't dare to appear in front of Nie Shuang for three days. . Nie Shuang decided to have a good talk with Jiang Xiaoguang. Entering the private room of "Cooking Bars", Nie Shuang calmly ordered a few barbecues, raised his eyebrows, and saw Jiang Xiaoguang who was sitting opposite him with tears in his eyes, staring at him pitifully with a look of grievance. Lost temper. She hesitated, thinking in her heart what method to use to make Jiang Xiaoguang understand that the possibility of the two of them being together was almost zero, but she didn't expect to be interrupted by him as soon as she opened her mouth. "Nie Shuang, let me speak first, I beg you, let me speak first." Although a little surprised, Nie Shuang nodded, "Okay, let's talk first." Jiang Xiaoguang raised his head, his eyes were firm, "Let's go!" The wooden shelf set up in the private room was covered with green vines, adding a different look to him for no reason. For a while, Nie Shuang was actually a little absent-minded. "Nie Shuang, do you know? In fact, in my eyes, you are not a beauty, at least not at first glance. At most, you can be regarded as a clean and refreshing girl. But after all these years, I like you smiling with your head up and your eyes squinting, or Silently walking around the campus alone with a schoolbag on your back. I remember that many times, you are alone. I know that it takes courage and strength to be alone. It makes people think of being isolated. But you don’t feel like this. In my eyes, where you are, the people or the scenery, all become the background of your existence. Once you leave, all of them will no longer exist. significance." He tightly grasped the coffee-colored ceramic cup filled with barley tea, and his fingers were slightly white, "Maybe you never knew that in G, every Thursday, when it was your turn to broadcast, I would rush to pick it up at home." After a few bites of food, I ran to the school’s big tree with loudspeakers, stared at the only way your class must pass to the studio, and looked forward to your figure. You know me and third brother... No, brother Qianyi was playing with you since childhood When I grow up, I spend more time in and out of your home than in my own home." When he was in school, he called Zhou Qianyi the third brother. Since he arrived in Yancheng, he seemed to deliberately call Zhou Qianyi "Brother Qianyi".Is it because you want to deliberately avoid mentioning Ji Cheng? "Over the past ten years, Brother Qianyi and Brother Qianyi have traveled hundreds of miles around the community. Whether good or bad, Brother Qianyi took me with him. That's when I started to pay special attention to you." silence. Nie Shuang thought he had finished speaking, and was about to speak when he heard him continue: "At first I didn't understand that my timid little emotion that could not see the light of day was love. When I finally understood, it was like a badly injured striker. Watching the opponent's football enter your gate, and watching Ji Cheng shoot his fiery heart into your heart. I have tried, I have tried every means to pursue you, with the help of Brother Qianyi Excuse me, but at the moment when I saw you and Ji Cheng holding hands, I completely lost my confidence. In fact, I didn't think it was Ji Cheng who was so good. It made me suddenly feel inferior and quit silently. No, it's not like that " His voice was choked with sobs, "I was the one who completely gave up when I saw the way you looked at Ji Cheng." Yes, although the campus romance is secret, the look of the lovers looking at each other is the most impossible to hide.Nie Shuang couldn't help but tremble when she thought of the loving, hot, and tender gaze she had when she looked at Ji Cheng. "I want to tell Ji Cheng countless times, Ji Cheng, although we are sworn brothers, you don't know that I didn't lose to you, but I lost to the eyes of Nie Shuang looking at you. You broke up with Ji Cheng Finally, I thought that you refused to accept me because you could never forget him. But, Nie Shuang, when I found out that you were in love in college, I always wanted to ask, the stupid me who loves you deeply, has always been I want to ask, why you can fall in love with others, but you still refuse to accept me?" Jiang Xiaoguang looked at Nie Shuang and said word by word: "Nie Shuang, my roommate told me that to pursue a girl should be bold, careful, and thick-skinned. I think I have really tried my best. Can you understand? I I have always liked you very passionately, many times more than you think." There are different emotions colliding in the nose, and the soreness seems to burst. Nie Shuang was not unmoved by these words. She remembered that many years ago, Jiang Xiaoguang followed Zhou Qianyi's buttocks, crying with a dirty nose and complaining about being bullied by someone, watching him stubbornly like a brother next door asking for candy. Looking at himself, he yelled "Nie Shuang, Nie Shuang" emotionally... As if it was just a look back, the child who was not grown up in everyone's eyes was already sitting in front of him, expressing his passionate love bravely and persistently. Time forces you to grow up, and you can't help but say no. "Xiao Guang, actually I..." Jiang Xiaoguang, who was sitting in front of her, suddenly panicked, and tears flowed down the tail of his eyes like a burst bank, as if he had been suppressed for too long, accumulated too much, and his eyes could not bear so many tears. He thought he had found a breakthrough, so he wanted to Get rid of them all in an instant like a burden. "Nie Shuang, I beg you," she saw Jiang Xiaoguang's desperate eyes, "Nie Shuang, are you going to reject me?" He grabbed Nie Shuang's hand in a state of desperation, "Is this good? Try it and give it to me." A chance, maybe I am more suitable for you than Ji Cheng. Nie Shuang, I will treat you well. You try dating me, if you think it’s good, we will continue; if you think it’s not good, we will break up, Please, give me a chance for a trial period?" "Little Light..." "Nie Shuang, I beg you, don't talk, please..." The boy in front of her was crying so much, Nie Shuang suppressed the urge to wipe his tears away, she didn't know if there would be other boys who would be so sad or shed tears for her in the future.She bit her lip tightly, not daring to act rashly, so she patted his hand comfortingly. Jiang Xiaoguang seemed to be frightened by this comforting gesture, and he tightened his grip on Nie Shuang, "Is this good, Nie Shuang, if Ji Cheng comes back, no matter when he comes back, as long as he comes back, I will quit, I will Guarantee that I will walk cleanly and thoroughly, without hesitation or procrastination, and I will fulfill you, okay?" The door of the private room was pushed open by the waiter, and several large plates of grilled skewers were served.The young girl looked at Jiang Xiaoguang silently. She might have seen too many similar scenes. She guessed that the two boys and girls in front of her were couples who were about to break up. There was a bit of disdain in Jiang Xiaoguang's expression. Perhaps because he was too nervous and sweated too much, Jiang Xiaoguang's forehead wetly stuck to his forehead, and the hand holding Nie Shuang was almost trembling. Nie Shuang glanced at his other hand holding the table base, Tightly exert force, it seems that all the focus points of the whole body are there. His expression was gloomy, depressed and desperate, but his amber eyes were bright. Nie Shuang remembered that night a few years ago, when she stood in front of Ji Cheng in the same humble way, she remembered what she said to Ji Cheng at that time: "Ji Cheng, I have seen a movie made in the United States called "Escape from Clone Island". There is a classic line in it: When you like something, close your eyes and pray - the person who ignores you is God. " The one who ignores you is God. It turns out that whoever you fall in love with first is your God. Her humble appearance is still unforgettable even when she thinks about it now, just as Jiang Xiaoguang is facing herself with the same humility at this moment, she can't help but hold Jiang Xiaoguang's hand tightly. I said to Jiang Xiaoguang: "Student Jiang Xiaoguang, don't cry. Also, when I take a bath in the future, I am not allowed to go to the bathhouse to mess with the aunt at the toll booth." In the four years of university life, the love between Nie Shuang and Jiang Xiaoguang developed fairly smoothly, and there was almost no quarrel. Jiang Xiaoguang treated her like a lost treasure, obedient and obedient, which made her roommates think it was a legend. Except for the day when the postcard Ji Cheng sent to Nie Shuang arrived every year——after the two got together, Jiang Xiaoguang skipped most of the classes and was almost inseparable from Nie Shuang. The letter sent by the mail room to the class mailbox, and then distributed to individuals by the monitor. Every time the small squad leader with a crew cut saw Nie Shuang, he would shout, "Nie Shuang! A postcard from Australia!" Even if Jiang Xiaoguang was a little more demented, he knew it was Ji Cheng, he wanted to ask but dared not ask, so he simply pretended to be generous and pretended not to know. Nie Shuang didn't hide it in front of him, she took it and put it in the book, he didn't ask, she didn't answer. Four full years, four postcards. Like four sharp knives, inserted into Jiang Xiaoguang's heart, as if it was just a negligence, they would all be pulled out, bleeding to death, cutting off everything he and Nie Shuang had. After being so uneasy for a while, I saw that Nie Shuang hadn't changed in any way.He thought, fortunately, he was by Nie Shuang's side. Fortunately, Nie Shuang is with him now. This comforted myself, and soon graduated from college. Nie Shuang stayed in Yancheng.Jiang Xiaoguang made the same choice without hesitation and without any suspense. If it wasn't for Jiang Xiaoguang's phone call by chance, Nie Shuang didn't feel that Jiang Xiaoguang made such a great sacrifice for himself.Once at a restaurant, Jiang Xiaoguang went to the bathroom, and the phone on the table kept ringing. Nie Shuang saw that it was the area code of Shenzhen. Worried about something urgent, he picked it up and answered it for him.Little did he know that the call was from the HR manager of a portal website in Shenzhen, asking why Jiang Xiaoguang gave up the opportunity to work in their company. "Actually, we seldom recruit in Yancheng. We happened to go there on a business trip, so we participated in the campus job fair. After the interview, we had a good impression of him, but what we didn't expect was that when the job offer letter was sent to him, he got a Refuse. I am really puzzled, so..." It was a well-known portal in the whole country.It was at that moment that Nie Shuang knew that Jiang Xiaoguang had rejected such a good job opportunity for himself.But he never said it. It turns out that some people are only good at doing, not good at speaking.His love for himself is really much more than he imagined. After graduating from university, Bai Mushan joined a well-known newspaper in Beijing as an entertainment reporter. She left early and returned late every day. In order to get first-hand news from her competitors, she spent countless nights squatting outside the residences of celebrities with photographers. I dare not take a nap with my eyes closed for a while, and I need to hold my breath all the time, for fear that I will miss it if I neglect it. After nearly ten months of tossing like this, my body couldn’t take it anymore, but I made myself an expert in bad tastes. I kept my mouth shut about who a certain singer had a private meeting with in the middle of the night, and a certain actress went out without makeup like an aunt... until one day a certain artist’s At the press conference, she rushed to the front of the court, and before she had time to wipe the sweat off her face, when she reported that she was about to ask a question, the artist suddenly showed a look of extreme disgust. Although it was only for a moment, it still deeply stimulated she. After returning home, I talked to the leader in charge. I found a friend to clear up the relationship, gritted my teeth and spent more than half a year's salary, gave me a big gift, and was finally transferred to the Ministry of Culture a month later.Since then, I have devoted myself to culture. Although writing press releases is hard work, especially the cultural intensity and depth of excavation are very demanding. I don’t know how many brain cells are wasted when a manuscript comes out, but Bai Mushan likes it after all. Working at work, not to mention staying up late, going to the newspaper office regularly a few times a week, attending various press conferences at Wenhuakou, and getting red envelopes every now and then, finally settled down. For several years, Bai Mushan has been single. Since she is single, there must be no ties. Nie Shuang has invited Bai Mushan to Yancheng many times. With so many friends, everyone can take care of each other.Beijing is under so much pressure, housing prices are high, and the pace of life and work is fast, where is it suitable for survival?In particular, the air is not as good as in Yancheng. The vast majority of office workers cannot afford housing and suffer from various occupational diseases. Many people even rent bungalows in extremely harsh environments, feeling very insecure.Isn't it often reported in the newspapers?There are many young people who choose the provincial capital city or secondary city where their hometown is located to work hard. The most important thing is that it's very close to her parents... There were a lot of good things to say, and she didn't refuse, but she didn't respond either. Nie Shuang used to be worried about her. Was it because Zhou Qianyi was there, embarrassing each other?Afterwards, I blamed myself for my overthinking. After so many years, Bai Mushan stayed in Beijing for so long. Even though she was single all the time, she might not have told the truth to herself. Maybe her boyfriend had talked countless times, but she had never been stable. That's all, how could she always remember her crush Zhou Qianyi in her ignorant youth? After talking a few times, Nie Shuang gave up. That weekend, Nie Shuang was inexplicably dragged by her colleague Ding Ding to the "Festival Night", and it was only when she arrived that she realized that it was a bar for making friends.Not only did he meet Li Weiqi, a high school classmate, and chat about his past campus life, but unexpectedly, he ran into Ji Cheng. "...Nie Shuang, Nie Shuang, have you forgotten?" That night, Ji Cheng murmured in his ear, looked at him with anger mixed with a little bit of sadness, and the scene of passionate love in the past roared head-on, as if Nie Shuang abandoned him back then and took the initiative to break up with him hand. Nie Shuang sighed heavily. That day, Ji Cheng sent Nie Shuang downstairs without expressing too much, but just stored Nie Shuang's number in the mobile phone, and when Nie Shuang pressed the access code of the unit building, the door opened with a "ding", and suddenly Hearing Ji Cheng behind him shout: "Nie Shuang." She froze, turned her head, and whispered "hmm". "...I, I have decided to stay in Yancheng." He took a few steps forward, saw Nie Shuang's nervous and slightly wary expression, and stopped awkwardly, "Good night." It was almost a reflexive numb response: "Oh, good night." Hastily went upstairs, opened the door, threw himself on the single bed in the bedroom, buried his head deeply in the quilt, and his heart was still beating rapidly, from the moment he saw him until now.Yes, as Gu Long said, love is like a master's move, whoever is tempted first will lose everything. She has been losing until now, even though he broke up with her so resolutely at the beginning without any reason, she knew that the moment she saw him, no matter how the seasons changed and time passed, she still loved him. Really spineless. But, is that really the Ji Cheng that I have dreamed of for the past five years? Touching my real heartbeat, Nie Shuang, are you still the Nie Shuang who put love above all else and completely put down his self-esteem for the one he loves? As for Ji Cheng, after so many years, even though I haven't changed, after experiencing an independent life in a foreign country that is completely different from mine, are you still the same you? If we are really far away from those ages when we are willing to devote ourselves wholeheartedly and undividedly to one person, away from those times when "I only see you without him" for a moment of love, reckless and step forward, even if we meet again now, Can we still find the once crystal clear and pure love? Nie Shuang, have you forgotten that Jiang Xiaoguang still exists? Yes, Jiang Xiaoguang. This night, it was destined not to be able to sleep. When the alarm clock rang in the morning, Nie Shuang, who was tossing and turning herself on the bed, just fell asleep. Without thinking, she stretched out a hand and pressed the alarm. When the second alarm rang ten minutes later, she took the same measures. . three hours later... Nie Shuang jumped up from the bed and found very sadly that it was already half past ten in the morning. I didn't even care about wearing slippers, and ran to the living room barefoot, took out the phone from the bag, found that it was out of power, ran back to the bedroom, took out the charger, and pressed the power button.Three text messages popped up, and I didn't bother to read them, so I searched out the supervisor's cell phone number, anyway, if I am late, I will deduct 50 yuan for an hour, so I would lie about being sick and ask for a day off. Nie Shuang tried to slow down her speech as much as possible, and controlled her voice so weakly that she looked like she had gone to the toilet more than a dozen times at night and had diarrhea to the point of collapse. She easily won the trust of the leader, and after expressing her concern, she told her to go to the hospital in time . Then I remembered to read the text message. The first one was posted by Ding Ding, about half an hour after she and Ji Cheng left. For my good colleague, this "post-85" with unique taste, smelling gossip, is like having no food for two weeks cat smells fishy. The hungry, fish-smelling cat couldn't wait to express two meanings through text messages: "First, Li Weiqi, who I met at the bar today, has been secretly in love with you since you were in high school. But you already have Boyfriend, it’s best to kill him in the cradle now. Auntie, I have my eyes on him. Second, the handsome guy who took you away, including what happened before, and what happens from now on, will be recruited quickly tomorrow, without saying a word fool." Nie Shuang smiled helplessly, unable to think of anything to reply, and pressed "..." to send it. The second one was sent by Jiang Xiaoguang: "Nie Shuang, I'm working overtime today, so let's have breakfast by myself." She replied "yes". The third is Ji Cheng's, with only three words: "Are you asleep?" She held the phone in her hand, playing with it carelessly, hesitating how to reply.At this time, Ding Ding was obviously very dissatisfied with the few points Nie Shuang replied, and couldn't hold back anymore, so he called directly. "My dear sister, you didn't come to work today? Ah, my God, could it be yesterday, you..." The voice suddenly lowered, "Wait a minute, someone came out of the corridor, I'll go outside and talk." 周围嘈杂的声音安静下来，手机那端丁丁的声音已经不能用兴奋来形容：“真不愧是新时代女性，难道你们昨天就直接春风一度啦？哎，蒋小光肯定会伤心的，他对你那么好……” “喂，你想多了。昨天季橙只是送我回家，我不过是晚上没睡好，睡过头罢了。”聂双有些哭笑不得。 “这样啊……”丁丁有些失望，“哎，你老了你老了，新时代的女性，怎么可以这么迟钝，看你见到他，一副小龙女跳崖多年后与杨过再度重逢的样子，就差泪眼婆娑扑上去拥抱了，居然只是简单地送你回家？”叹了一口气，“你迟钝也就罢了，怎么他也那么迟钝啊？” "..." “你更喜欢谁一点？是旧情人季橙，还是蒋小光？我个人觉得呢，好像还是季橙更帅一些，就是太酷了，哎，可能不太好打交道。可是这样说，似乎对蒋小光不太公平。不过呢，你也不要急，对于旧情人，不要一腔热血毫无保留地就陷进去，青少年时期的恋爱，多半是凭借外表以及对爱情的一腔热血，谁真正了解过谁？过了这么多年，大家早就不是当年的那根葱了。或许变得势利、肤浅、虚荣……哪天把你卖了都不知道，一定要严加审核。” 丁丁一副爱情专家的架势：“对于蒋小光嘛，你也不要觉得这辈子就是他了，否则男人，会骄傲的。你要给季橙表现的机会，全方面、多方位考验……总之一句话，你要广泛撒网，重点选拔！” “呃，丁丁，你知道，”聂双停顿了下，“我牙还没刷呢……” “你又不用牙谈恋爱，”丁丁不理她，“不管不管，你明天来公司，要好好交代，以后有任何进展，都要详细一一向我汇报。还有，怎么着也要请我吃一顿大餐吧，要是没我昨天死拉硬拖你去酒吧，你能有这么好的桃花运？” 已经是虚弱的声音：“好……” 丁丁在电话里继续唠唠叨叨，足足有十分钟。聂双硬着头皮不断“嗯嗯”，她才意犹未尽地挂断电话。 放下手机，聂双在客厅里呆坐了一会儿，推开窗，竟然是难得的好天气。蓝得纯粹的天空，只有靠近东北角的位置突兀地有一大片云朵，层层叠叠地蔓延着，像是花期到了的花，肆虐地炸开，有种让人想要摘下来的冲动。 真请了假，闲下来，反倒不知要做些什么。 干脆打开电视，卡酷动画卫视正雷打不动地播《喜羊羊与灰太狼》，于是懒懒倒在沙发上看。 最开始看这部号称“老少皆宜”的国产动画片，并不是真觉得它有多么好，而是相比较其他电视台没完没了的广告，以及恶俗的电视剧和娱乐节目，它更纯粹些。尤其是，广告非常之少，聂双懒得来回换频道，静下来看了一阵，居然慢慢迷上了。 电视中的红太狼甩出去几个平底锅，纷纷打在不断求饶的灰太狼的头上、身上，红太狼毫不留情，嘴里愤愤骂着：“还不快去抓羊！” 灰太狼鼻涕眼泪齐流，无比可怜又无比愤怒地说：“我讨厌卖平底锅的！” 聂双大笑。 The phone rang again. 是周浅易。 “干吗？”聂双发觉自己对自己的哥哥，说话越来越没好气了。 “一大早的，干吗啊？谁又招你了。” “没事。快点说，我忙着呢。” “你今天中午有时间吗？出来吃个饭。” “吃饭？”聂双将电视的声音调低，“好端端没事，吃什么饭。” “苗言东从济南来燕城出差，想聚聚。” “我跟他又不熟，就不去了。你们吃吧，玩得开心点。” “切，你以为我那么想要你去啊，还不是苗言东千叮万嘱要我叫你过来。”周浅易被惹恼了，同样的没好气。 “他，请我？没搞错吧。”聂双把脚伸在茶几上，“你确认你没听错吗？” “得了得了，别废话了，你到底来不来吧？” “行，”打定主意，反正在家里没什么事，她倒要看看他葫芦里卖的什么药，“去就去，有什么大不了的。” “行。中午十二点，在火锅城，别忘了。” 聂双痛快答应：“知道了。” “哦，对了，我得跟你说一声……”周浅易有些犹豫，拿不定主意到底是说，还是保持沉默。 "Huh? Tell me." “季橙……回来了，你……知道吧？” 昨晚两人相聚时的场景在脑海里突然闪现，聂双的脸火辣辣地烧起来，明知周浅易看不到，还是心虚地捂了捂脸：“呃，是……是吗？” “不知道他晚上来不来，要是来了，你表现得好些，千万别丢人。季橙在的话，叫小光来，就不太方便了，所以我的意思……” “就按你说的办好了。” “好，就这样，一会儿见面聊。” 挂了电话，聂双看下时间，十一点。急匆匆地去洗手间洗漱，拿出面膜开始敷脸，再把衣柜的衣服一股脑扔出来，一件件在身上反复比试，“衣到用时方恨少”，谁说女人的衣柜里永远少一件衣服？ 少的何止一件。 比来比去，没有一件让人满意。 看着镜子中被面膜覆盖住的脸，聂双有些恍惚，时光仿佛倒退十几年，她仍站在那年他们曾经深深相爱的时间荒野里，为了见深爱的少年，为了穿什么衣服而焦躁不安、急得团团转。 当日清爽的短发已经留长，清汤挂面式的长发，斜斜刘海遮住半边眉。眼睛因为多年戴隐形眼镜的缘故，得了慢性结膜炎，再塞不进任何隐形眼镜，只得戴上黑色的镜框镶银边眼镜。翻出抽屉里的隐形眼镜，想起若干年前季橙夸自己的眼睛大，强忍着疼，不甘心地把隐形眼镜塞进去，待了几秒，涩涩的疼迟迟不见消失，只得作罢。 什么让人彻底、瞬间丧失自信？ ——当你不能确定，你深爱的人，是否同你一样满腔热血地一门心思地奋不顾身地爱着你。 保湿水、保湿乳液、隔离霜、淡粉……脸上涂抹了好几层，再刷上加黑拉长卷翘睫毛膏，散上淡淡咖啡色眼影。在鼻翼两侧、沿着脸颊扫上阴影粉，整个脸部的轮廓突然立体、鲜明起来。最后，涂上流光闪耀的唇彩。 聂双满意地看着自己，犹豫再三，挑了那件飘逸、大裙摆的波希米亚长裙穿上，白底、青色碎花点缀其间，淡咖啡色的裙底，雪纺料子显得整件裙子飘逸又不失优雅。 ……会不会有点过于隆重？ 太随意了，担心体现不了自己的好。 过于隆重，又疑心会假借衣服遮掩自己的露怯。 看着散乱地摊在床上的衣服，聂双翻了半天，找出一件黑色的西服领小披肩，嗯，效果好像好多了，左看右看，抬头再看表，还有一刻钟十二点，这才急匆匆地提上挎包冲出了家门。 路上堵车，司机在聂双的催促下带着她横穿了几个小胡同，停在火锅城的时候已经十二点二十。聂双大步走进去，闪身进了火锅城的洗手间，对着镜子照了半天，重新刷上唇彩，这才故作轻松地进了订好的包间。 包间里只有周浅易和苗言东，两人点了密密麻麻一桌子菜，火锅腾腾地冒着热气，映得两人满面红光。 他俩正兴高采烈地聊着什么，见到聂双进来，苗言东一愣，掐了手中的烟，“聂双，女大十八变啊，你可越来越漂亮了。” 周浅易还是一如当年，瞧不出自己妹妹一点儿好，不以为然地撇撇嘴，“哪儿好看啊，你呀，准是见到的女人少了，现在随便逮一个就夸人漂亮。” “去你的！”没见到季橙，聂双有些失望，不过，不来也好，适才绷紧的神经此时有些放松，不免心中嘲笑自己，是不是过于如临大敌了？ 苗言东温和地笑：“聂双，喜欢吃什么，你现在点。今天我做东，千万别客气。” 这几年过去，苗言东倒是变得平易近人了。 “随便，我啊，有肉就行。” 周浅易不满：“什么你做东，骂我呢吧，跑到我们的地盘上，说你做东。少废话，别逼我跟你急。” “成成成，你做东就你做东，你小子准是发财了，瞧这财大气粗的劲儿！” 聂双研究着手里的菜谱。 “聂双。”苗言东看了看周浅易，神情有些尴尬。 “嗯，你说。” “那个……我就直来直去吧。那个，你现在同白木珊……还有联系吗？” “白木珊……”聂双心里一惊，千想万想，没想到他是为白木珊而来。 想起白木珊之前寄给自己的杂志，想起周浅易、苗言东对白木珊所做的种种，对他俩的不满袭上心头，当下冷冷回道：“你问她做什么？”