Chapter 9 Chapter 07

Regarding the odds of winning the first love, the famous psychologist Bi Jinyi once proposed a very interesting formula, namely J=KpH/G. It may seem complicated, but it's actually not that difficult.In this formula, J refers to the "intensity of desire to arouse first love", p is "the love value of both parties in love", G is "reproductive structure that varies from person to person", and H is "environmental factors that cannot be underestimated". Bi Jinyi believes that in this formula, "if G is a relatively stable factor, then both p and H are changing all the time. Among them, the change of H is independent of individual will, and people can only Only by conforming, adapting and making the best use of the situation can we achieve a harmonious interaction with the environment. P will be affected by factors such as maturing worldviews, values, mate selection, aesthetics, and desires, and will undergo radical changes, which will be unstoppable."

This text may seem a bit abstract. To put it more intuitively, three-dimensionally, and vividly: — do I love him?Love?maybe not. ——Do you need to start a beautiful love at this time?Maybe, yes.Maybe, no. ——At this moment, in front of me, there is someone worthy of my deep love, how should I start this beautiful relationship. ——Why did you fall in love with him?He is good at basketball.His eyes are bright.He likes to raise his eyebrows when he talks, which I love.Or, often meet unexpectedly?Just like this, did you fall in love with him?Or because, he is just him, at least in my eyes, unique him?

—He spits everywhere, it's disgusting. ——It's not easy to be embarrassed to hear him swearing loudly in the corridor. ——The red suit jacket is actually paired with a pair of dark green slacks. Is this really the person I have always liked... ——Dad's job has been transferred, and he is about to transfer schools. Will we meet again?The hard work of a long-distance relationship, only those who are deeply involved in it will understand, right? ——The exam is coming soon, how much remaining energy can I squeeze out to continue loving him? ——If we don’t have time to date for a few weeks, will the relationship between us slowly cool down until we lose each other?

——Is he worth giving up my current studies to ensure the continuation of this sweet love? ——If I sacrifice too much and he doesn't appreciate it and changes his mind, so what about me? ——I'm about to graduate, I'm looking for a job, and life is a bit embarrassing. Will he continue to love me who has such low self-esteem? ——I changed jobs, and now I have better material conditions, maybe I can find a better one... To judge whether a person is worthy of our deep friendship, you will probably experience from unfamiliarity to gradual acquaintance. When there is a conflict of interest between the two, and when you need each other the most, you still have not let you down. You will be rational and sober immediately I can assure you that this person is my friend.

But love, alone is not like this. Most people's first love occurs in ignorant adolescence. And the vast majority of first loves that begin in adolescence rely on first impressions. Maybe it's just a one-sided relationship, a meeting, a gentle glance when you turn around, those little details with inexplicable affection hit your heart, just like that preconceived, and "love" him (her). so sorry.I am so sorry.I throw out so much annoying, mundane stuff. Some situations may never be experienced by you (but maybe there will be other more helpless and powerless things on the way), some situations may be experienced by you with great distress, and some situations may be exactly what you have always disdained. Some situations may hit your fatal wound...

We didn't understand it then. The vast majority of factors that affect a relationship are changing all the time regardless of our subjective will. Everyone's first love, the factors that can be absolutely subjectively controlled by oneself are very small. So, if you see a survey on the Internet about the chances of first love being successful, and the results show that the success rate of first love is 3‰, don't be shocked. First love itself is such a cruel and realistic thing. Even at that time, we just want to simply sink into it, greedy like a child, and only want to steal the beauty of it.

When Miao Yandong and Zhou Qianyi were looking for Jiang Xiaoguang to play football at the end of the month, they were stopped by him to go to the bar for a drink. Zhou Qianyi was a little surprised, Zhou Qianyi also knew Jiang Xiaoguang.The two grew up together. Although it was under his influence that Jiang Xiaoguang learned to smoke and drink for the first time, but it was the first time that he took the initiative to organize a drinking game. When he was meeting with his friends, he would throw the whole glass of wine into his stomach in a very manly manner, and then vomit all over the ground in a spineless way. Every time Zhou Qianyi carried him home, he was unconscious; He will help Zhou Qianyi stop drinking when Zhou Qianyi is not able to drink and is about to collapse, and of course Zhou Qianyi will carry him home in the end; "Prison" (this is no wonder Jiang Xiaoguang, when beards appeared around the mouths of the peers around him, even when he went to college and started shaving, and there were already blue beards on his chin, Jiang Xiaoguang's mouth was always clean, slow No beard popping out), manly holding a cigarette in his mouth, exhaling smoke rings skillfully, or knocking the beer bottle on the corner of the table, pressing the cap on the bottle skillfully with the palm of his hand, and exerting great force, the cap will fall off with just one click On the ground, he pretended to be a mature man like "I'm no worse than you, I've seen the world".

When he needs to cope, when he needs to smoke and drink, he never loses the chain.But in fact, he doesn't like drinking, and of course he doesn't like smoking. At that time, in A, in order to ensure sufficient study time for senior high school students, all senior high school students were required to live in the school collectively, and a fully closed management was implemented. Except for the weekend at the end of each month, they could go home for free activities, and all other time they were not allowed to travel. Step out the door. When the day came to go home, Miao Yandong and Zhou Qianyi did not return directly, but called a few friends to play football in G, including Ji Cheng and Jiang Xiaoguang, of course.

Since Ji Cheng and Nie Shuang broke up, Nie Shuang seemed to be a minefield for the four brothers, and no one could mention it.Zhou Qianyi didn't mention it because he didn't want to hurt the brotherhood because of his younger sister. He is Nie Shuang's twin brother, and he is almost a witness of their relationship. He knows Ji Cheng's position in Nie Shuang's heart best. I don't know why the two broke up; Jiang Xiaoguang didn't mention it, because he hated Ji Cheng for getting Nie Shuang's love but didn't cherish it, and was worried that he would fight Ji Cheng if he mentioned it, so he simply became a boring gourd; Miao Yandong I didn't mention it, because among the few people, only he knew the reason why Ji Cheng proposed to break up. He was afraid that he would mention it, and accidentally violated his promise to keep Ji Cheng's secret, so he simply pretended not to know... The four brothers each have their own differences Little abacus, when playing football, everyone is out of shape, especially Jiang Xiaoguang, wishing to regard football as an enemy, this emotion has infected everyone.

After the scene was over, the four of them walked out of the school silently.It was at this time that Jiang Xiaoguang proposed to go to the bar for a drink. Zhou Qianyi exchanged looks with Miao Yandong and Ji Cheng, and then went to a bar not far from G Zhong.It was still early, and there were not many people in the bar. There were a few student couples sitting in the corner, and they couldn't be seen clearly under the dim light. After three cups of draft beer, Jiang Xiaoguang's mouth began to chatter. "I heard people say that the odds of first love are very low, so I never expected that Nie Shuang would choose me. But, just like you often laugh at my childishness, saying that if you can't have a relationship in high school, it's quite Yu Bai messed up. So...Ji Cheng, what the hell are you, why did you break up with Nie Shuang..."

"Xiaoguang, you drank too much, don't talk nonsense." Miao Yandong snatched the beer from Jiang Xiaoguang's hand, half angry and half comforted. "I didn't drink too much. Haha, just be together when you are together. It's not that no one likes me, and I can be with others. That Qin Dongdong, how nice it was when he confessed to me, 'You are like the morning I wake up The first ray of sunshine that shines from time to time...'When I looked at me, my eyes were red...I didn't dare to refuse her. But as soon as the head teacher talked to her, I immediately became a stinky girl who actively pursued her. Shit, you can’t even shake it off... Seeing me now, I can’t wait to wear a gas mask..." Ji Cheng didn't say a word, holding the draft beer in his hand, he drank it in big gulps. "Since people have clearly drawn the boundaries with me now, it's nothing special. Ji Cheng, you bastard, why do you think I'm so sad today? For Qin Dongdong? Haha, she can't do me any harm, just like You, if you don't love someone, no matter how she treats you, you will be indifferent, because you don't love, so you don't care what she does... "I'm not worth it for Nie Shuang. Haven't you seen her cry? I have. Sometimes I can feel her crying when I look at her back in class. Sometimes it's in the bicycle shed. When opening the bicycle lock, her hands were trembling, and she had to open the lock several times before she could unlock it. I stood beside me, wanting to help but not daring to step forward. Suddenly, tears fell from her eyes. You know that Nie Shuang was such a cheerful girl before, but now, after class, she just lies on her seat and doesn't talk to anyone. How can she talk to people? Her eyes are so swollen that she can't explain to anyone... " Zhou Qianyi actually drank too much. He leaned against Miao Yandong, squinted his eyes, and suddenly became envious of Jiang Xiaoguang.Why didn't he want to burst out his dissatisfaction with Ji Cheng?Even many times when he saw Ji Cheng in A, his fists would be clenched unconsciously. He imagined countless times that he would beat Ji Cheng to the ground to vent his anger—but it was just imagination. Under Nie Shuang's coercion and pleading, he had no choice but to help Nie Shuang pursue Ji Cheng, but deep down, he didn't want Nie Shuang and Ji Cheng to really be together.He knows Ji Cheng too well, this guy is too wise, Nie Shuang is obviously not his opponent, and when getting along, he is always worried that this silly sister will suffer.Breaking up now, in terms of the selfish psychology of being an older brother, has fulfilled his wish.Secondly, Nie Shuang is now in the most critical moment of his life, the third year of high school. After breaking up, he can concentrate on the college entrance examination. In the tangled mood of thinking that it would be better for the two to break up but worried that Nie Shuang would be too sad, Zhou Qianyi is not unhappy that his wish has been fulfilled.But when he thought that Ji Cheng actually broke up with Nie Shuang, his mood was the same as that of "I am only allowed to bully Nie Shuang, and no one else is allowed to touch her". I still want to punch this kid. If you drink more wine, maybe you can take advantage of the strength of the wine... Thinking of this, no one was on guard, Jiang Xiaoguang suddenly threw away the draft beer glass in his hand, rushed over and shook Ji Cheng's face, maybe It was because he drank a little too much, maybe because he couldn't do anything to his good brother, Jiang Xiaoguang didn't choose to slap Ji Cheng in the face, and he didn't punch Ji Cheng directly. Instead, he held Ji Cheng's head in both hands and shook it vigorously, like It's trying to shake something out, and it's completely out of order. Ji Cheng, who didn't have any precautions, was suddenly tossed by him, and the beer mug fell to the ground with a bang, lest the guests who were in chaos thought someone was fighting, and kept looking sideways and looking around. Zhou Qianyi and Miao Yandong hurriedly pulled them apart, and Miao Yandong waved his hands around, "It's okay, it's okay, we brothers are just playing around." Ji Cheng had a good temper, so he sat down without saying a word.On the other hand, Jiang Xiaoguang, the more people pulled him, the more he struggled, he resisted like a lion irritated by a hunter, thumping desperately, was held down by Zhou Qianyi and stuffed behind him, where did Jiang Xiaoguang's hand come from unexpectedly? Pull it out and wave it back and forth. Zhou Qianyi hurriedly dealt with it, and suddenly heard a familiar voice, "Brother, why are you here?" Nie Shuang looked at Zhou Qianyi in amazement. Obviously, today's situation was completely out of his surprise. Before he could react, he saw Nie Shuang's face suddenly pale, and followed her gaze, obviously catching a glimpse of Ji Cheng. , but it was only for a moment, Nie Shuang quickly looked away, "Are you all right?" "Why are you here?" Zhou Qianyi put on airs like an older brother, "A girl from every family, is this where you came from?" Jiang Xiaoguang suddenly woke up from the wine, as if he was just pretending to be crazy. Seeing Nie Shuang, he suddenly sat upright, even coughed twice to cover up his gaffe just now, and then stammered to explain, "Well, I... am here to take care of your brother Yes, I'm afraid he drank too much." Zhou Qianyi rolled his eyes at him. Ji Cheng was still sitting, as if he saw Nie Shuang, but also didn't. No one noticed that Miao Yandong, who was sitting next to Ji Cheng, patted Ji Cheng's back lightly. "Are you asking me?" Nie Shuang lowered his eyes, trying to be calm, "Next Monday is my birthday, so I called a few friends to come here to celebrate ahead of time." "Oh. Find a quiet place next time. The bar is too chaotic. Hurry up and go home in a while, don't hang around all the time. All right, go back to your seat." Nie Shuang moved his steps, hesitated, and wanted to ask "Ji Cheng, are you okay?" Or did he pretend not to see it?Among the four people, apart from Jiang Xiaoguang, Miao Yandong and Zhou Qianyi looked like "we know what happened to you", and felt that maybe everyone was gloating, so they opened their mouths and closed them again. At this time, Bai Mushan, who came out of the bathroom, saw that her friend was not in the seat, and saw her through the dim light in the bar, worried about what happened, so she walked over, "Nie Shuang, what's wrong?" At that moment, Bai Mushan and Zhou Qianyi looked at each other, and their expressions changed. Bai Mushan was flustered, Zhou Qianyi was surprised. Nie Shuangzheng was puzzled when she saw Miao Yandong stand up suddenly from her seat. It was the first time she saw Miao Yandong angry. Before, she only thought that he often had a dull face and had already "stayed away" from him.Seeing the veins on his neck protruding, and staring at Bai Mushan like fire, before she could think about it, she dragged Bai Mushan behind her, "You guys drink, we will leave soon." Unexpectedly, Miao Yandong pushed aside the crowd and blocked the way first, "You bitch, you are thinking about something tricky again, who are you trying to provoke this time?" "Hey," Nie Shuang couldn't bear it any longer, "Miao Yandong, because my brother respects you, I don't want to turn against you. My friend, why do you want to spoil me here?" "Your friend? I never knew you had such a slut friend who picks other people up." "Miao Yandong," Zhou Qianyi grabbed Miao Yandong's arm, "Enough is enough, that's enough." Turning his head to Nie Shuang, "Hurry up, don't make trouble here. I'll talk to you later." He looked at it He got off Bai Mushan, glanced at Nie Shuang again, and asked meaningfully, "Is she your friend?" Seeing that Nie Shuang didn't nod or shake his head, he shouted again, "Can't you understand human language?" Nie Shuang turned his head to look at Bai Mushan behind him, clenching his teeth to prevent the tears from falling down, with a look of grievance, anger, shame, hesitant to speak, no matter how many doubts he had in his heart, he still held back Bai Mushan's hand left quickly. Just the moment she turned around, she felt that the long-familiar gaze, the scorching, almost scalding gaze that she hadn't felt for a long, long time, returned to her body. Her back stiffened, and she turned her head to confirm, but saw that Ji Cheng just lowered his head and sipped his wine, and didn't look at her, as if what happened just now had nothing to do with him. Stumbling on his feet, he quickened his pace as if fleeing and returned to his seat. By this time, Bai Mushan had already returned to her normal state, and she was noisy with the other girls, saying that the birthday boy had been away for so long, so she had to punish herself with three cups.Nie Shuang was not in the mood to continue, so she found an excuse to send away the unsatisfied sisters, and called the waiter to pay the bill, but was told that someone had already settled the bill.Nie Shuang shook his head, feeling that it was at this moment that he could realize the benefits of having an older brother.She laughed at herself, taking it for granted that Zhou Qianyi paid the bill.Turning his head away, he saw that Zhou Qianyi and the others had already left first, so no matter what Bai Mushan said, he dragged her out. Miao Yandong watched Ji Cheng carefully fold the bar's invoices and put them in the middle of the wallet, and couldn't help persuading: "Since you care so much, why don't you just tell her clearly, maybe there are other ways." "Any other way?" Ji Cheng stopped what he was doing, and was stunned for a while, "Yan Dong, I know my old man, there are some things I can insist on, and some things are a matter of principle, there can be no resistance, there can be no more A good way. Actually... I am doing this now to fulfill the dignity of our love." Miao Yandong didn't quite understand and looked at him suspiciously. "If I told Nie Shuang the truth, what would you do if you were her?" "...I'm a boy, so I don't know what girls think." "I don't know, but the situation is in front of us. For Nie Shuang, there are no more than two ways... One is not to agree to break up, and twist my father's way, risking being expelled from school, continue Falling in love. Is it worth it? If my dad gets real, where will Nie Shuang go? It’s not like a boy. A boy is fired. At most, it’s a fight, or something else, and he can’t improve his reputation or character. But, Nie Shuang is a girl, I can't imagine how much pressure she is under... Besides, if she leaves, where will she go and how will she explain to her family?" "Otherwise, you just agree to break up on the surface, and continue to be together secretly, as long as your father doesn't find out." "It's not that simple. Even so, there are risks. I don't care, but I can't let Nie Shuang take this risk so selfishly." Miao Yandong patted Ji Cheng's shoulder, as if I understood.Suddenly, Miao Yandong remembered something, and suddenly asked, "But, what does this have to do with fulfilling the dignity of your love?" Ji Cheng lowered his head, and said what he was most unwilling to say, "Take a step back and say, if Nie Shuang realizes that this is not going to work, he can only break up with me - this is of course the most sensible Choice, if she chooses this way, I will be gratified, but at the same time, she will also be disappointed..." He raised his head, his eyes were a little blurred, "When love encounters the cruelty of reality, why not make each other perfect, and also this love?" Sighing slightly, Ji Cheng continued, "Perhaps, what I'm more afraid of is that Nie Shuang doesn't love me as much as I imagined." Miao Yandong looked at Ji Cheng silently, and suddenly felt faintly that something between him and Ji Cheng had begun to change, but he couldn't say what it was.Among the four brothers, I am the eldest, Zhou Qianyi, Jiang Xiaoguang, including Ji Cheng, have always respected his opinion and are quite convinced of everything he does.But what no one knows is that among the three brothers, Miao Yandong trusts and admires Ji Cheng the most, who is more than six months younger than him.His speech and manner, conduct, and even eloquence skills are not like those of his peers in this age group.So most of the time, especially after Ji Cheng transferred to A, apart from the brotherhood, Miao Yandong almost deliberately pulled Zhou Qianyi, and Ji Cheng was almost inseparable. He is willing to listen to Ji Cheng.Moreover, every time I am surprised by the rigorous logic and calm and careful thinking in Ji Cheng's words. On the other side, Nie Shuang and Bai Mushan came out of the bar, and the night wind blew across their bodies and cheeks, as if someone had sprayed sobriety on their face. Just now, Nie Shuang's teeth were itchy with hatred, wishing to become a knight Miao Yandong, who insulted Bai Mushan for no reason, was torn to pieces. Now, he suddenly calmed down completely. After holding back for a long time, Nie Shuang finally had the opportunity to ask Bai Mushan: "Do you know Miao Yandong? How could you be so stiff with him? Why did you scold you so harshly? Also, do you know my brother too? You two Why did you look so ugly after meeting?" Seeing that Bai Mushan gritted her teeth and said nothing, she went on to say: "Mushan, are we the most trusted friends of each other? I know that everyone has their own privacy, no matter how good a friend is. I also have my own independent space. But, you know me, I just thought, maybe I can help you." "Nie Shuang." "Well, tell me, I'm listening." "Zhou Qianyi, is that your twin brother?" "Yeah, did you know?" "...Hehe, now I know, it is indeed very late." "Mushan, what is today..." "Don't ask, at least I won't say it now. I will tell you one day, but not today." Bai Mushan suddenly turned around and took two steps back, "I have to blame for everything now, I deserve it. You don't have to feel sorry for me. Don't worry, my self-healing system is fine and I'll be fine." "Hey..." Nie Shuang became angry, "I won't take someone like you..." She kicked the stones under her feet, thinking about how to pry Bai Mushan's mouth open, but when she looked up, she saw that Bai Mushan had already stopped her. A taxi quickly got in.She stomped her feet anxiously, and heard Bai Mushan wave her hands in a begging tone, "Nie Shuang, please, don't ask." Suddenly, Nie Shuang had an epiphany: "Could it be that the boy Y you often mention in your letters is Miao Yandong?" "Nie Shuang..." "Ah, I see, it's my brother!" "..." Seeing Bai Mushan's forbearing and painful expression, Nie Shuang knew that he had guessed right this time: "You guys already know each other?" "Nie Shuang, for the last time, don't ask. After the college entrance examination, I will tell you everything. That's it. Nie Shuang, study hard, try...try to get us into the same university." Ignoring Nie Shuang, facing the inside of the taxi, "Master, go to Wanxia Road." With a bang, Bai Mushan closed the taxi door, and the taxi sped away, disappearing in the tide of traffic. Nie Shuang stood there, stunned for a while. The sky suddenly began to rain lightly. Like a dreamer who was awakened, she looked around and finally stopped a taxi and got in it. It's autumn already. The light rain was not heavy, and the rustling rain fell straight down, like a vent ball made of soft rubber that was often hawked by roadside stalls, and someone threw it hard, bang!Splash water, spread it on the glass, and then slide down the glass, sliding across the night and noise of the whole city. Outside the car window, pedestrians were rushing home. The branches on both sides of the road were swaying. It was already autumn. The leaves that turned from green to yellow were swept away by the autumn rain and autumn wind, and fell quickly, which made Nie Shuang feel cold. Indeed, it is autumn. Life always goes by. Everyone has their own troubles, no matter how good a friend or confidant is, you can't demand that the other party open the door of their heart to you without reservation.Friendship, after all, is not an exchange of equal value. It is not that you have shared the most precious private life with me, and I must return the same thorough privacy in return.What's more, everyone has a different understanding of friendship. When you share your secrets and solve problems, you also take the risk of keeping the secrets so that they cannot be leaked to the outside world. She); at the same time, not everyone expects your secret, arsenic, honey, and keeping a secret is so painful, lonely, and lonely, it will make people suffocate. Nie Shuang didn't blame Bai Mushan, since she couldn't say it, she must have a reason. Looking for an opportunity to ask Zhou Qianyi, his complexion was not very good-looking, he just muttered "Bai Mushan's character is not very good, so I will not associate with her in the future", and then changed the subject resentfully, no matter how Nie Shuang asked, he would not ask more questions. Say something. When Nie Shuang was admitted to university half a year later and received a magazine from Bai Mushan in which she published an article titled "Who Gives Him the Right to Hurt You", she finally figured out what happened. .Even then, after such a long time, she could still clearly feel Bai Mushan's pain. That is already a story. On the front and back blackboards of the classroom, the words "Countdown to the College Entrance Examination" change every day. The bright red oversized font is like two sharp arrows equipped with electronic eyes. Seeing someone slack off, they seem to activate their arrows. The radar device shoots over with lightning speed and penetrates into the deepest part of the heart, penetrating people's lazy thinking and all distracted and trance behaviors that have nothing to do with learning, and instantly awakens everyone. "Get over it, and it will be our sunny day." Bai Mushan comforted Nie Shuang in her recent letter. It's hard to bear, but doesn't everyone come here like that?Everyone knows how to rein in the past sloppy days in a timely manner, bury their heads and devote themselves to the years of hard study, maybe everything has been seen, and there is no demand or expectation in their hearts. Nie Shuang's heart is like still water, and she is really calm. Knowing what you want and what you don't want. study hard, improve every day. Admitted to a general undergraduate college. It must be from another place. --study hard, improve every day? Who would be the first to say this?I'm afraid there is no way to study it?Sometimes when Nie Shuang thinks of this question, he can't help but smile bitterly. In fact, the most difficult thing in the world is to go up. up, up.But there are always all kinds of temptations and excuses to stop you and prevent you from making progress. During the more than half a year of preparing to go to the big battlefield of the college entrance examination, something happened that greatly shocked Nie Shuang. This matter was about her precious brother Zhou Qianyi. As the only national key middle school in Lancheng, Middle School A ranks third in the province in terms of annual enrollment rate, and has the qualifications for admission to ordinary colleges and universities stipulated by the Ministry of Education. Therefore, among the five key universities in the country, ten to ten Five guaranteed spots. Even though Zhou Qianyi spent two years in the first and second years of high school, and the results of the midterm and final exams were not satisfactory, but at the critical moment of representing the school to participate in the competition, he never lost the chain, so of course he has the possibility of being recommended. Qualifications: He has won the first prize in the Chinese Mathematical Olympiad, the National Physics Competition for Middle School Students, and the second prize in the National Youth Informatics Olympiad. In the eyes of Nie Shuang, Zhou Qianyi didn't even need to review those things that were almost blind spots in his knowledge. Participating on behalf of the school is like playing, and every time I return with a rewarding experience, I live up to my expectations. Because of winning many awards, the principal of the neighboring city invited Zhou Qianyi to transfer to his middle school many times, and he did not hesitate to promise 50,000 yuan in cash as a reward, and the other party was solely responsible for all the transfer procedures... Perhaps it was because A felt the pressure, Perhaps to appease Zhou Qianyi, he won the provincial outstanding student qualification for him when he was a sophomore in high school. Of course, there will be Zhou Qianyi in the college recommendation this time. Before the winter vacation, Middle A had submitted the recommended list of 15 recommended students including Zhou Qianyi to the Provincial Admissions Office, and at the same time sent the students' information to the relevant colleges and universities.Then there was the intense written test and interview. Zhou Qianyi passed all the tests. When the results were announced at the end of March, Nie Shuang's parents almost laughed out loud and went out to the street, wishing to stick the words "my son was recommended to a certain key university" on their faces. Printed on and printed on clothes, I can't wait to broadcast in the streets and alleys with a tweeter. When I meet people, I can't talk more than a few words, and I will talk about this aspect. They also went to Lancheng TV station to order songs on the "on-demand station" program broadcast at 8 o'clock every night. When the songs were playing, they played a family photo specially requested by Nie Shuang's father. It was the day when Zhou Qianyi's exam results came out. , Dad pulled the family to take pictures together.He greeted Nie Shuang in advance and went to the photo studio to take a family portrait.Nie Shuang promised, but slipped out early the next day and turned off her phone secretly—it is true that she was happier than anyone else, but she was also sadder than anyone else, exactly what she said, " Comparing people to people is damned, and comparing things to goods should be thrown away.” The joy that Zhou Qianyi brought to his family when he was admitted to a key university was directly proportional to the worry and pain that Nie Shuang worried that he would embarrass the whole family if he failed to pass an ordinary undergraduate course. Of course she can't go no matter what, not to mention showing her face on TV... Please forgive her. In fact, Zhou Qianyi didn't bother to go.However, the parents on the side were very excited about their preparations, and refused again and again. Zhou Qianyi's father repeatedly lobbied, and even brought up his own life of doing nothing. The most beautiful thing in this life is this. At the end, he burst into tears and almost died. Forced, Zhou Qianyi nodded. The father in the photo is wearing a half-worn suit, triumphant, as if he was the one who was admitted to the university, not his son; Zhou Qianyi is staring straight ahead, a little absent-minded, but the mother next to him looks very reserved and quite Excuse me. This photo is interspersed three times during each song, each for about ten seconds.Nie Shuang's father ordered three days in a row, two songs a day, and each song cost 500 yuan, which cost a total of 3,000 yuan, which was his monthly salary.If Nie Shuang's mother didn't stop him, he would have ordered it for a week.At the same time, he sent the daily broadcast time to all his relatives, friends, colleagues, former colleagues, and even elementary school and high school classmates... ——He felt that the money was well spent, and it was quite worth it. At the end of April, the Provincial Admissions and Examinations Office published the list of the first batch of qualified candidates recommended by general colleges and universities in newspapers. At the end of May, I received the admission notice from the university by courier. All of this is so enviable to others. But except for Zhou Qianyi's family, no one knew that there was actually a small episode in the process. In the admission procedure of recommended students, there is a procedure. After the grades of recommended students come out, you can log on to the website of the university and see the departments you are pre-admitted to. If you want to become a recommended student of the school, you need to follow the The program replies to admissions-related forms and receipts. The school’s admissions office will finalize the preliminary list of recommended students based on the receipt, and finally check it with the list of recommended students announced by the Ministry of Education to determine the final list of recommended students for the school and submit it to the Ministry of Education for publicity. At that time, Zhou Qianyi was ranked eleventh in the country.When Nie Shuang's parents were immersed in incomparable joy, no one knew, but Zhou Qianyi was hesitating whether to send a receipt to the university. The starting point of his hesitation is in Berlin. Of course, Bai Ling's academic performance is not as good as his. Although he can squeeze into the top 100 in every exam, there is still a difference between Zhou Qianyi, a bastard who easily got into the top 5.What Boling has always yearned for is the picturesque S University, which is as beautiful as a fairyland, and the N University that Zhou Qianyi has always dreamed of. Bo Ling is such a girl with strong will and character, of course she would not make any sacrifices for Zhou Qianyi, let alone ask Zhou Qianyi to make sacrifices for her. She was too lucid and too sensible. Knowing Zhou Qianyi's grades, she went to the hotel with Zhou Qianyi to celebrate. The celebration gift and the breakup gift were given together.Zhou Qianyi couldn't help but watch Bo Ling doing all this calmly. In front of him, he smiled as before. When they parted, he kissed him lightly on the left cheek the same way as before. Then he smiled lightly, stood where he was, and asked Zhou Qianyi to go first. Zhou Qianyi returned home in a daze. He thought about the scene of the two meeting after the results came out many times. In the future, give up recommendation and directly take the college entrance examination to go to S University with him. Or throw away all dignity, express your heart to Zhou Qianyi, and apply for the university in the city where N University is located instead. No matter what, the two of you must be together... Or, even if she didn't change any decision, she just told him firmly, "Even if the two places are separated, no matter how far the space distance is, but it will never be - what can't be far away is our heart" and so on. No. nothing. If that's the case, I'm afraid she is not the Bai Ling who has always fascinated Zhou Qianyi. ——Bai Ling was happy for him, Zhou Qian could see that happy expression came from his heart. ——Bai Ling also proposed to break up at the same time, and Zhou Qianyi knew the attitude of breaking up, of course he was not joking. At that moment, Zhou Qianyi suddenly felt that he was actually a very cowardly person. He always thought that he loved Berlin very much, so much that he had no reservations, so much that he was willing to make any sacrifices, so much that he would go through fire and water for her. Love words are so nice. But looking at those couples of men and women who are deeply in the long river of love, where are there so many opportunities and opportunities that require you to go through fire and water? In many cases, many promises are made. The reason why I dare to promise is because I know in my heart that I will never have a chance to fulfill them. Zhou Qianyi had imagined many times that if Bo Ling didn't want to make any retreat, he could wave his hand, his blood boiled, all the blood rushed to the top of his head, rumbling, bei'er manly, bei'er passionately, beier passionately Regardless of any consequences, Beier affectionately and persistently said to Bo Ling: "For you, I decided to give up the admission qualification of N University and apply for S University together with you." What an arrogance that is!How touching!what a... That sentence crawled to Zhou Qianyi's throat countless times during the two hours of meeting Bo Ling, but was suppressed. Zhou Qianyi defended himself because Bo Ling kept talking and he had no chance. This excuse is too weak. It's not that there is no chance, if you want to say, there is always a chance. The so-called no chance to say, in fact, do not want to say. 代价太大，未知的事情又太多。 或者说，他远没有自己以为的那样爱柏灵。 因为就算是为了爱情，他亦不敢拿整个人生前途这么大的赌注，来冒这个险。 之后，所有保送生被学校特批，放假三天。 周浅易有机会回到家，心有不甘，选择了全家人在客厅看电视的时候，试探性地说了一句：我想放弃保送生资格，改为报考S大。 接下来的场景是可想而知的。 聂双第一次见到爸爸妈妈那么愤怒和失态。爸爸气得鼻孔都张开了，脖子上的青筋一道道凸起，像是燃着的导火索，随时要爆炸。他用手不停地戳着周浅易的脑袋，魔怔般重复着“你傻了吧”，说了无数遍，接着是在客厅里来回走，看到什么都不顺眼，顺手一胡噜，茶几上的杯子，沙发上的抱枕，一个个滚到地上，接连踢翻了三盆盆栽……急得妈妈在后面追着收拾，又是生气又是心疼，却不敢和自己的老公发火，只是骂周浅易：“你个小兔崽子，还不赶紧向你爸爸认错。” 周浅易的确没想到自己的父母会有这么过激的反应。他有些犹豫，一来想彻底试探父母到底会有什么样更出格的反应，二来也存在着一丝侥幸，从小到大他一直是父母的骄傲，或许他同父母讲讲道理，他们会顺从自己的意思。 这样想着，他的底气又足了一些，继而说道：“反正我有我的理由。” 接下来，爸爸做了一个让所有人都没有想到的举动，这举动，当场吓得周浅易闭了嘴，吓得聂双偷偷拽着周浅易的胳膊回了自己的房间，吓得聂双的妈妈扑过去抱住自己的老公，从来没有骂过周浅易的爸爸第一次爆了粗口： 爸爸突然两只手扇自己的嘴巴，嘴里愤愤地骂着：“是我傻逼，所以生了个傻逼儿子……” 不停地，用力地，扇。 ... 那天晚上，周浅易的父母连周浅易为什么会想要改变想法都没有问，他们只需要确定，最后儿子坚定了信念，无论如何都会去N大就好了。在他们眼中，儿子不去保送的学校，是大逆不道的，是让全家人丢脸的，是让自己走出去无法跟任何人交代和解释的。 本来周浅易还想闹闹绝食什么的，结果被父亲这么激烈的自残行为吓到，自此再不敢提半句放弃保送资格的事情。 倒是聂双，心里明镜似的，猜周浅易如此折腾，定是为了柏灵。 周浅易倒也不否认，闷声说了一句“嗯”。 在那一刻，聂双是羡慕柏灵的。纵然周浅易眼里的他自己是懦弱的，但在聂双看来，至少他曾经争取过，尝试过，反抗过。 进入了N大，是所有关于大好前景的大学生活，以及可以大展身手的大好前途的代名词——人人都知道，进了N大，就意味着一只脚跨入了全球500强公司的大门，同S大，真的不是一个档次。 聂双认为，至少周浅易用行动表示了，说了，做了，虽然最后并没有如愿，却是周浅易深深爱着的女生给他的勇气和动力，她觉得，那个女生，是幸福的。 哪怕只是，幸福了那么一小会儿。 毕竟，他尝试着努力过了。 其实，那时的聂双并不懂得，很多时候的很多人，做出了一定的努力和牺牲，其实不过是为了反抗。 有时候，甚至连反抗都不是，只是为了做出一个反抗的姿势罢了。 同爱情无关。