Chapter 5 Chapter 5 I'm Not a Man

In the morning, Bie Qiong came a little early, and ran into Wang Linlin, the head teacher of the Golden Seed class. After chatting for a while, she dragged her to the office, saying that she had something to discuss. The two walked through the teaching area side by side. It was the time for parents to pick up and drop off in the morning. The sun was rising, and parents sent children into the kindergarten one after another.The sun shines through the dense and lush branches and leaves of the towering acacia tree, and casts mottled shadows on the ground. The children who have just entered the kindergarten bid farewell to their mothers and squat on the ground to watch curiously, stretching out their little hands to pick and stop.The young sanitation doctor sat in a wooden chair by the gate, using a medical flashlight to examine the children waiting in line in front of her one by one.

"Open your mouth wide and say 'ahh'—" Then spread out the child's tender little hands and look carefully, and said, "It's very healthy." The freshmen who have only been in the kindergarten for a few days know that crying is useless, so they lie in the arms of the teacher in despair, their cheeks are bulging, their brows are frowned, and their eyes are full of tears.Older babies hold the toys brought from home, trains, Transformers, airplanes... find good friends to play and play in the corner.Outside the floor-to-ceiling windows of the hall, Lele, a little girl in the middle class, is wearing an exaggerated performance costume, with more than a dozen braids on her head, braided together with colorful threads, red, green, yellow, purple, and blue, really beautiful.Qiqi from the preparatory class sat on the steps with her parents and a family of three. There were four or five beautifully bound children's picture books on the floor. Her mother was holding her in her arms, and her father chose one to decorate a few corners and read aloud.

Bie Qiong was in a daze, imagining that one day she would be one of them, find a beloved man to give birth to a beautiful cub, and walk hand in hand to a loving kindergarten when the weather is sunny or windy or rainy. I don't know if I will wait for such a person? There is no storyline of ups and downs in film and television dramas. It's just that the two of them looked at the baby running in front and smiled, which made her twitch her mouth. After entering the office, Wang Linlin kept complaining. "Ms. Niu's due date is ahead of schedule, and the new teacher will not be able to officially join the job until next week. I'm exhausted." She thumped her shoulder with her backhand, feeling weak.

There are 28 children in a class, each with 4 teachers, eating, drinking, playing and sleeping...Every day is like going to the battlefield, especially at meal time, that one spilled the rice, this one refused to eat tomatoes, Ermao wailed to find his mother, the big one Qi stretched his pants... in a hurry, he wished he could give birth to a few more hands. "You can ask the teachers in other classes for help." She didn't seem to hear it, and looked at Bie Qiong for a long time, feeling terrified of him, "Actually, I called you here to ask, don't you like children the most, and you have always wanted to be a teacher, do you want to try?"

"I?" "Yeah, a week." "Can I do it?" Bie Qiong was moved, "Otherwise, I'll apply to our leader for a try?" Just as they were chatting to a critical point, Mingyue, three and a half years old from the Golden Seed Class, stood in front of the two of them, with her lips pouted, her brows furrowed, and she was furious. "Teacher, Milan stole the Barbie doll that Dad bought for me." The two looked at each other, Wang Linlin walked to her side, knelt down and replied, "Okay, I will find her to understand the situation and help you solve the problem, please wait patiently?"

"Okay." Mingyue reluctantly turned her head and left. Bi Qiong thought it was funny, "Is it common for children to steal things now? Or is it unclear about the concept of belonging?" "Let's understand the situation first." She didn't answer directly. The two walked around the park for a while, and found Milan holding a Barbie doll in the doll house. "Milan, hello, what are you doing?" Milan's baby voice is so cute and serious, "I'm chatting with a new friend." Wang Linlin said: "Your new friend is so beautiful."

"Niubao gave it to me." "Then do you know where Niu Bao is?" "Go to the classroom and get paper clay to make clothes for dolls." Wang Linlin was sitting on the floor, playing with dolls with Milan, and Niu Bao ran over with paper clay, "Can we make a beautiful wedding dress together?" "Okay," Wang Linlin said, "do you want to make it white?" "No, I like green ones." Niubao's little hands squeezed the paper clay and pressed them on the white paper. "Niubao, did you give Milan the Barbie doll?" "Yes, Milan is my good friend."

"Then how did Barbie and you meet?" Niu Bao stopped what she was doing and said, "I picked it up under the piano." "That's it. The teacher saw Mingyue just now. Mingyue's father bought the Barbie doll for her. Therefore, Mingyue is the owner of the doll. Although you picked it up under the piano, you have no right to give her to Milan Oh." Milan was a little unhappy. Wang Linlin said again: "The teacher loves you very much. The teacher knows that you like this doll very much, but now we need to return her to Mingyue. You can choose to exchange toys with her, or play with Mingyue, okay?"

Niubao burst into tears with a "wow". Milan was infected and cried. Wang Linlin patted the backs of the two children respectively, comforting her, and said, "The teacher knows that you are sad and doesn't want to be separated from the doll. You can cry for a while, and please return it to Mingyue after crying." After a stalemate for about two minutes, Niubao and Milan stopped crying, and together with Wang Linlin returned the Barbie doll to Mingyue. In "Sunflower" Kindergarten, children will receive full love, respect, freedom and equality from the teachers. The kindergarten also pays special attention to the definition and management of children's emotions. The teachers will not force everyone to stay in the classroom. The place, including the dean's office, is absolutely open to the children, but the premise is to follow the rules of not disturbing others and not beating others.

Bie Qiong witnessed the whole process, and sighed: "When I was a child, the teacher would have searched the body and searched the desks, and then complained to the parents. A scolding would be light, and a few kicks in the ass would be necessary. How can I be so patient?" Inquire." "Before I fully understand the situation, I don't make any malicious speculations or draw any conclusions. This is also my biggest feeling after coming to this park. If such a pure and simple world of children is like this, what will happen to the adult world?" Wang Linlin seems to have unlimited ideas. emotion.

The teacher in charge interrupted their conversation, "Mr. Wang, you can go." Today is a social practice class. I am going to visit a pizza shop. The teacher has invited the children to gather in front of the kindergarten. Wang Linlin had no choice but to follow, "I'll wait for your news." Bie Qiong nodded, and when he went upstairs, he accidentally caught a glimpse of the time at 9 o'clock in the hall. Thinking of the possibility of going to Yasheng with Jiang Xiaoguang to deliver a new contract today, he ran back anxiously, panting to the door of Jiang Xiaoguang's office, looking through the spotless room. Through the frosted glass, he could be vaguely seen meditating on his forehead. In recent months, kindergartens established under the "Montessori" educational concept have suddenly sprung up, and more and more have been added one after another. It's a furry, but once you find a prosperous location and rent a house, do luxurious decoration, the playground is spacious, equipped with various high-quality game facilities imported from abroad, and the exterior walls are painted with brightly colored flowers and plants, oh of course you will invite three Five foreigners who don't care where they come from, foreign monks can chant scriptures.Even if the tuition fee is twice that of "Sunflower", there will still be nouveau riche and other parents who don't know why they are willing to pay for their children. Bie Qiong heard that other colleagues are already in contact with Yasheng Group, wanting to compete for this piece of venture capital fat.Everyone felt a sense of crisis, and held meetings for a week without knowing how many revisions, and finally finalized the final version yesterday.I called Amy, and the other party replied that Jiang Xiaoguang and Bie Qiong should go to the company for an interview tomorrow. Thinking of this, Bie Qiong knocked on the door, "Leader, can I come in?" "Enter." Jiang Xiaoguang told her the news he had just received—Amy said, "Mr. Qiao hopes that Miss Bie Qiong will send it over alone this afternoon." "Ah?" Bie Qiong's face burned rapidly, it was clear that the two were only enemies, Jiang Xiaoguang said that, it seemed that the relationship between the two was very ambiguous. Seeing that she was silent, Jiang Xiaoguang secretly thought about his thoughts.He thought he was fair and gentle to his subordinates, and firmly believed that if he successfully got the venture capital investment, it must be because of the comprehensive consideration of "Sunflower"'s high quality, and it definitely did not use the beauty of his subordinates.I wanted to tactfully refuse, but then I remembered the scene when the two met in Qiao Lei's office that day, and was unsure about Bie Qiong's attitude towards Qiao Lei. So he cut straight to the point and slashed straight down. "Have you been in touch with Qiao Lei in private recently?" "...sent a few text messages." "I respect your opinion. If you don't want to go, I'll find a reason to go back." "I'll go." Unexpectedly, Bie Qiong readily agreed, pointing to the documents on the table, "Is this the one? I'll leave after lunch." "you do not mind?" "Principal Jiang, you once told me that men and women are different, and whether or not this matter will be successful will definitely not be because of me. If that's the case, what should I be taboo about? What's more, " Bit Qiong bit her lip, "I also have a question, I want to ask him." In the afternoon, Bie Qiong took a taxi with the documents and went straight to the Yasheng office building, entered the elevator and went straight to the 16th floor. When Amy saw her, she asked in surprise, "Hey, Bie Qiong, didn't you receive my text message?" Short message?I was worried about traffic jams and my phone was stuffed in my bag, so I didn’t pay attention at all. Only when I took it out did I find Amy’s text message—"Mr. Qiao has something to do temporarily, please don’t come here. I will contact you later." She remembered Qiao Lei's missed appointment that night. He did it on purpose. Maybe, he was very happy to see her flustered with anxiety because of his missed appointment. The staff of Yasheng Group walked back and forth in the office area, all in a hurry, and occasionally someone looked up and saw her, and strode away indifferently.The girl, who seemed to have just graduated, was answering the phone at her workstation, freeing her hands to rummage through piles of documents while chatting, while the boy sitting with his back to her was staring at the program code on the computer screen, drinking coffee leisurely. Don Qiong thought, she only blamed herself for asking for something from him. All the humiliation and pain she had given him was just because she knew he loved her, so she thought she had the right to treat him casually. If it were someone else, her attitude would never be that bad. ——Only now, this right has been reversed. Amy couldn't bear to see Bieqiong's blank look, "Miss Bieqiong, don't be upset, our Joe is always really busy, just now he hurried out and turned back, and told me to notify you as soon as possible." "It's okay," Bie Qiong forced a smile, "I'll leave the contract with you first, please help pass it on. If you have any questions, please feel free to contact me." "Okay, don't worry, I will hand it over as soon as possible." Coming out of the Yasheng Building, you have to walk across the overpass to the opposite side of the road before there is a direct bus to the park. She walked slowly up the steps and walked to the middle of the overpass when she suddenly heard someone calling her from behind. "Don't Joan!" Amy caught up panting. "Hey, did I forget something?" She subconsciously searched for her wallet and mobile phone in her pocket. "No, no, Mr. Qiao called just now, saying that he sent a driver to pick him up, and asked if you want to go." "Pick up? Go, go, where?" "They said they were going to Thirteen Middle School." "Thirteen... middle school?" Thirteen Middle School, more than 40 kilometers away from Maicheng, is the alma mater of her, Qiao Lei, and Wen Chenrui. What does he do there? Amy explained sincerely: "I heard that Mr. Qiao donated a library to the new school site of Thirteen Middle School today. Today I went to give a welcome speech at the new school completion and school relocation celebration. I have come back to see you, but then When the phone call said that the old principal had a heart attack, he rushed to the hospital." The old principal Li Kuan? Bie Qiong vaguely remembered that Qiao Lei's tuition and miscellaneous fees in high school were all paid by Principal Li in advance.When Qiao Lei's mother was seriously ill, Principal Li would take the head teacher to visit her.Stuffing delicious food into his schoolbag every now and then, and sometimes directly asking him to eat at home.Some students in the school who didn't know the truth and liked to make troubles even secretly discussed in private that Qiao Lei was the illegitimate son of Principal Li. For this reason, Qiao Lei fought with the other party, and was pressed on the playground by three boys. Therefore, like the three boys, he was recorded as a major demerit. "Is Principal Li okay?" "Sorry, I don't know," Amy said with a embarrassed expression, "Mr. Qiao just said that if you want, the driver will take you there." No room for thinking, "Oh, ok, I'll go." She followed Amy, returned to the front of the Yasheng Building, and got into the commercial vehicle waiting there. Thirteen Middle School. She had spent the happiest and most beautiful time there, and now thinking about it, it is also the most painful time. The third year of high school was the most stressful, the most intense study, and also the most uncertain year, because of the passionate love with Wen Shenrui, Bie Qiong's mood was so bright that it glowed every day. At that time Dai Chuan always teased her, don't you have changed, Qiong. Xiaowei Shao chimed in, "A girl in love." He dragged her over and whispered, and dropped the bombshell, "Remember to use contraception." Bie Qiong was so frightened, please, even if it is a whisper, in the classroom, with Wen Chenrui and Dai Chuan present, is it really appropriate for you to say that? Moreover, it is far from developing to that point, okay? But Shao Xiaowei quickly threw a second bomb in her ear—— "I promise him that as long as he is willing to volunteer with me, I will not refuse any of his requests." Any request, even a fool would understand what she was talking about, Bie Qiong was dumbfounded. Although Dai Chuan's academic performance is far inferior to that of Wen Chenrui, a top student, it is better than Shao Xiaowei's. There is no problem with a major university.Shao Xiaowei was dying, her academic performance was extremely unstable, she hovered between the top ten and thirty in the class, with ups and downs, which was very similar to her own personality. "You have... already..." Xiaowei Shao squinted her eyes triumphantly. At this moment, her long hair flutters, her eyelashes are dazzling purple and long, she is full of femininity, "Not yet...I have to see the volunteer he filled out with my own eyes." It's her style not to scatter hawks when you don't see rabbits, Bie Qiong suppressed a smile and teased: "But his grades are so good...you must be holding back." What a bloody fact. Shao Xiaowei didn't think so, "University A is okay, save the point, I can't apply for two or three, it's a compromise." "His family also agrees?" "I don't care about that, it's his business." The era when parents make decisions is gone. I don’t know whether Chinese parents will feel happy or sad. Children who once obeyed them unconditionally have begun to be independent. They must respect, be equal, and strive for more right to speak, no matter what they paid before. How much time, energy and money, they would never have imagined that a strange girl suddenly broke into the expected territory, and the steering wheel of their precious son's life was decided by her. Bieqiong was exaggeratedly speechless. "You still have time to meddle in my business." Shao Xiaowei is really a person who likes to pick things up, "Your family is a top student, where is the ideal school, don't you know?" "XX Medical College, his ambition is to be a doctor with superb medical skills." "Well said. What about you? Can you go? With your miserable grades, you have been appointed to a long-distance relationship, and you have been staying for a few months. Just the suspicion and distance of living in two places can make you break up. And the mood is still there. It's silly." She has always been partial to subjects. No matter how good she is in the liberal arts test, she fails in one subject of mathematics, and she loses her score. "I really can't... I, I, I, just find a school that is close to his school, no matter if it has two or three books, it really can't, the private head office?" "Okay, of course. But they are all top students from prestigious universities. Why do you find a girlfriend from a trash university? You will walk on campuses with different scenery and eat in restaurants of different scales. There will be a difference. The circle of life of my classmates, the clearest thing is that you will have different lives." Bie Qiong's naive teenage dream is punctured by Shao Xiaowei, and she is deeply shocked.While she was eating love, Shao Xiaowei had already started planning her and Dai Chuan's married life. Everyone who is in love has felt like the happiest person in the world at one time or another, right? Nobody can treat him better than I do, nobody can love him as much as I do.Bie Qiong used to think so too, until she overheard that her parents were going to school to revise her college entrance examination wishes after the college entrance examination scores came out. They had heard a little bit about Bie Qiong's love affair, and they didn't interfere because they felt that the girl Huaichun could understand it, and it was just a trivial matter, and they were even more afraid that it would be too restrictive and self-defeating.Before, Bie Qiong told them that she had applied for University A, but the next day she unexpectedly received a call from the head teacher asking, "Why did you apply to a third-rate college in a certain place when you should be able to pass the grades for the sophomore year of A University?" They realized the problem. seriousness. Afraid to startle the snake, the two secretly discussed going to school to change their choice in the bedroom, and Bie Qiong, who came out to pour water, listened seriously.Her nerves of anger and grievance that were about to erupt just in an instant, suddenly died down—— Maybe the parents are right. Shao Xiaowei's words resounded in her ears, "Everyone is a top student from a famous university, why should I find a girlfriend from a trash university?" She didn't have the courage to confront her parents head-on, and she didn't have the confidence to firmly believe that Wen Chenrui's infatuation with her would never change. Especially, perhaps in the deepest part of her heart that she didn't even realize subconsciously, she was not ready to make love early. Make such a big sacrifice. In short, on this night, she chose to pretend not to know about it. Dad and the class teacher are brothers for many years, and this matter was handled very smoothly without anyone noticing. In August, Dai Chuan and Shao Xiaowei successively received admission notices from University A as they wished. When Bie Qiong got the admission notice, Wen Chenrui had already reported to the medical school in advance.On the third day of enrollment, he still sent her a text message saying, "Military training is so hard. Fortunately, it's our class's turn to have a physical examination tomorrow morning, and I can be lazy for a long time." However, news spread that he had dropped out of school and transferred to Nanjing N University in a few days. Regarding this matter, it has always been a mystery. No one, including the teachers and students of No. 13 Middle School, knew about it. Wen Chenrui himself did not mention this matter, nor did he turn a blind eye to her being admitted to University A.His temperament has also changed drastically. Long-distance relationships are hard work. At this time, there is almost no difference between whether to say or not to say. , just a little humble, wishing to bend down and become a slave. But soon, Wen Chenrui seldom took the initiative to contact Bie Qiong, and gradually talked about breaking up. She struggled alone for more than a year, and it dragged on until her sophomore year, when she finally broke up completely. For things that cannot be changed, human beings often turn to the gods for help, but when they fail, they say: "It's all fate." Or, "The fate is not here." But what is fate, and what is fate? Those who like to say this are actually the successors of the "Ah Q spirit".Always find a reason, at least mentally, so that you don't appear so incompetent and failed, maybe you will feel better. During the countless nights when Joan lay on the pillow in the dormitory and cried secretly, she always thought, Wen Chenrui, do you know that after we separated from you, I became the Ah Q whom I had ridiculed countless times. Fate didn't come. Thinking about it this way, it really doesn't seem so sad. But every time she sees sweet couples on campus, it seems like a sharp dagger cuts through the strong smiles piled up with layers of lies, forcing her to look directly at the naked truth—— She didn't fall in love with Wen Chenrui desperately like she thought. Everyone says that the love of youth, regardless of cost, regardless of gains and losses, wholeheartedly, without distractions, and even perseverance... At that time, it was restricted by various conditions: immature mind, less contact with the opposite sex, shallow understanding of love, childish ignorance, and ignorance. It will be strictly prohibited by parents and severely rectified by the school... But every youth who is ignorant and yearns for the love of the opposite sex will always have his own way, which is clumsy, pure, stubborn, sneaky, cautious and soul-stirring. For example, Shao Xiaowei. For example, Dai Chuan. But maybe, it was never Bejeong. I love you, but I love myself more who can have a good vision and is worthy of your love. The car drove along the outer ring road for more than an hour, and five consecutive car collisions occurred on the way, causing serious traffic jams, and it took more than half an hour to return to normal.When the traffic jam was boring, Dai Chuan called and asked her hesitantly if she knew who Shao Xiaowei's new boyfriend was. Bie Qiong only knew that Shao Xiaowei went to a headhunting company, and he left early and returned late every day. When she came home from get off work, Shao Xiaowei was not there, and when she got up early to go to work, she slept all the time. When did you get a new boyfriend? Dai Chuan's tone sounded sour. "Do you really not know, or are you hiding it for her? I've seen it all." Where did you start with this? Didn't you already hug all the beauties from all walks of life? "Where did you meet? Who do I know? Is it good-looking? What do you do?" In normal times, Bie Qiong would definitely reprimand him, saying that you two are my good friends, and I have never been biased towards anything.For so many years, she has been saying that, although her balance has always been biased towards Shao Xiaowei.But being willing to say that verbally has already given him enough face. Seeing that Bie Qiong did not pursue the issue of concealment, Dai Chuan seemed a little hesitant when speaking. "You really don't know? He's tall and handsome. He looks like a male model." "real or fake?" "Yesterday afternoon in Sunshine Plaza, the two walked side by side hand in hand." The commercial vehicle moved forward, and the surrounding cars were blocked. All of them had no good temper and honked their horns, which made people even more manic. "Isn't it good? You two are divorced people, you go back to your own homes, find your own mothers, go your separate ways, and make appointments with your own new lovers." Worried that Dai Chuan hadn't been stimulated enough, she made up her heart. With a knife, "Aren't you afraid that others will live happier lives than you?" The aggressive method is very useful. "Me? I wish she could find a good man to marry as soon as possible, so that you don't have to worry about us being inseparable." Dai Chuan was anxious, "I just happened to be a little curious, and I was afraid that she would be deceived." "No, no, you don't have to worry about your ex-wife. It's good that she doesn't lie to others." The result of exposing the truth of others is of course that the conversation stopped, and Dai Chuan could only say, "Oh. Well, then I have nothing to hang up." She quickly dialed Shao Xiaowei, but the line was busy all the time, the more she couldn't get through, the more curious she became, she repeatedly dialed, and when she reached the gate of No. 13 Middle School, the phone was turned off for the last time. Thirteen Middle School is still the way she remembers it.The mottled iron gate is wide open, the dark red rose flowers in the center of the flower bed are in full bloom, and the bottom is full of noon flowers with needle-shaped leaves, like infighting watercolors competing for splendor, white, yellow, red, deep purple, pink, white flowers red Dots, color patterns...it's gorgeous.Once when she was looking at the flower bed, Wen Chenrui also acted as a narrator, praising the tenacious vitality of the midday flower, breaking off any stem and leaf, even if it was exposed to the sun, it would lose moisture and become shriveled, and put it in a flower pot and water it Water, the next day full of blood revives and blooms gorgeous flowers, so it is also known as "can't die". At that time, she asked naively: "Then let's make our love flower the afternoon flower?" Wen Chenrui asked knowingly, "Why?" Why?Of course, I hope that if one day, the two of us have to separate for some reason, no matter how many years we have been apart, as long as we can meet, it will be like a broken afternoon flower finally reunited with the soil, and we will be revived instantly and our old love will rekindle. As long as we can meet each other, never worry, you and I will never fall in love with each other again. Undying noon flower. The undying love between you and me. Of course she would not say these things foolishly, she just smiled at him and didn't speak, thinking in her heart that he must understand. ... The teaching building behind the flower bed is as quiet as an abandoned construction site, empty.Taking a shortcut and walking through the long corridor full of lilacs, entering through the small moon gate, the empty playground is overgrown with uneven weeds, and Qiao Lei is facing her back to the rest seat next to the wall in the northernmost section Sitting on the ground, with a tall and handsome back, who would believe that he was such a thin and timid boy back then. She silently sat down beside him, the air was filled with the faint scent of his perfume, refreshing. "Do you remember Principal Li?" He still bowed his head, but his voice was hoarse, and for a moment she thought he was talking to himself. A hint of ominous premonition made Bi Qiong tremble, she remembered Principal Li's forehead was a bit bald, but not to the point of baldness, and most of the gray hair liked to be combed forward.He is medium-sized and slightly fat. He likes to laugh. He often walks around the campus with his hands behind his back. When he sees a student who greets him, he will agree loudly. Occasionally, he will hold the other party to chat. Food, teachers, homework... He has great prestige in the school Gao, no matter how stubborn the students are, they will politely call out "Principal Li" when they see him. "I remember." She replied, "Is he... in good health?" Qiao Lei shrugged his shoulders, "Just now, he passed away." Seeing a boy cry in front of her for the first time, Bie Qiong was in a state of confusion, "I, I, what can I do?" "Not long after I entered school, I took the physics test for the first time. The paper was handed out with 36 points. I pretended to be innocent. After school, I secretly cried in an empty classroom. What happened, I thought you were broken in love', made me smile through tears. He said: Don't cry, child, go home, otherwise the family will worry." Bi Qiong could imagine Principal Li's tone at that time, he was such a kind person. "Later, I was rejected by you. I hid here and cried, and was hit by him again. I cried and said that this time I was broken in love. Do I have the qualifications to cry loudly? But he said, boy, after graduation, there are far more things than this." There are more things worth crying and worrying about, go home now." He could not utter another word, and buried his head in his elbow.But she remembered the indifferent expression on his face when he fell to the ground with his head in his arms when he was severely beaten by his classmates in elementary school. "Qiao Lei, I know the position of Principal Li in your heart, but I'm sorry, I feel very sad to see you like this." It seems like a century has passed. He stood up slowly, "You, will you feel uncomfortable?" He looked at her with incredible eyes, "I thought that you would only feel uncomfortable if you knew that I was planning to give up the venture capital project." "……What's the meaning?" "What you heard just now is what it is. Aren't your Chinese scores always good, that's what you understand literally." What a funny joke. "So you asked me to come..." Bie Qiong gritted her teeth and let herself ask, "Just trying to play tricks on me?" "It's a bit ugly to say it's a joke, but it's just a notice." His eyes met Biqiong, and he didn't even bother to hide the pleasure of the successful plot. What should come will always come, and she didn't want to fight the charade for a long time, "So you asked me out, backed down, including the contract, just because of my attitude towards you, and now you are here to retaliate?" "I just want you to taste what it's like to be rejected." He pointed at his chest, "What is pain and what is heartbreak, you...you have to experience it all." The sun was gradually sinking to the west, and the campus at dusk suddenly picked up a wind, and the fallen leaves swirled, brushed their trousers, and fell down again.Maybe it's really because of the demolition, everything looks so depressed.I remember that the annual Spring and Autumn Sports Meeting is the busiest time for the playground. All the classes in the school sit around the oval playground. The announcer on the rostrum will always collect contributions from each class, choose excellent content to recite passionately, and the class that is read Cheers and jumps will always cause quite a commotion. 100-meter sprint, 4×100-meter, 3000-meter long-distance race, triathlon... The athletes changed their clothes and warmed up, and cheers for the ongoing events resounded throughout the playground. Things are different. Don Qiong thought, perhaps, there is no power in this world that is stronger and more durable than hatred?I don't know how long he waited for this moment.two years?three years?or more? "Qiao Lei," she looked at him with a very sincere expression, "I think you should be able to understand that love is never a causal relationship—it's not that I love you because you say you love me." "Do you think that I hate you because you rejected me?" He sneered, grabbed her shoulders, looked straight at her eyes, burning with great disdain and anger, "I hate you because you are just words and deeds No, a disgusting gold digger who is hypocritical! When I was in middle school, I rejected me, and I was merciful everywhere. How dare you say that you haven’t searched for my back, and haven’t found my name in the grade list? Seeing me, I pretended to be indifferent, I thought that maybe you didn't know your true heart, you were cold on the outside and hot on the inside, that's why you rejected me again and again. I always fantasized that maybe one day you can see your heart clearly. I will never forget when I was in junior year, you were How did you refuse me?" Her face was pale, and her mouth was opened wide in shock, trembling uncontrollably. This effect satisfied him very much, but it was not enough.He smiled, and his mouth was almost close to her face, "But I'm back, how did you do it if you knew my real identity? Aren't you posting it cheaply? Who do you think you are?" There must be a downpour pouring overhead, it must be.She only felt that her whole body was cold, and her body suddenly lost its center of gravity, shaking back and forth uncontrollably. "And between you and Wen Chenrui, the love you once thought was so sacred—" He decided to throw the last straw that broke the camel's back, "Do you really think I don't know?" "You, you... know what?" "Why did you end up going to University A instead of the same city you agreed with him? Why, are you going to say that your parents forcibly revised it? I'm so sorry, your parents went to school to revise your college entrance examination that day When volunteering, I just came back from Principal Li’s house and walked behind them. I still remember what your father said, ‘I thought the girl overheard our chat last night and would make trouble with us, but I didn’t expect She chose to pretend not to know.' Your mother continued, 'Yes, don't look at the little girl's film on the surface, she knows what is the most important at critical moments'." Neither of them noticed that the figure approaching them not far away stopped suddenly. "Don't you want to know why Wen Chenrui broke up with you the most? Then let me tell you. Because that day, Wen Chenrui and I were called by Principal Li to his house to talk about college entrance examination applications. He, like me, heard you Parents' words are exact." "It's not like this, it's not like this, it's not like this..." Bi Qiong covered her face and shook her head frantically, almost collapsed. He grabbed her hand, "Want to deny? Escape? I haven't finished my sentence yet. The second reason why he broke up with you is because..." "Bie Qiong, Qiao Lei!" The deep and powerful voice came so suddenly that the two of them were caught off guard and were startled. Looking back, I saw a tall and straight boy approaching them with quick steps, with a gentle and indifferent smile on his face that both of them were very familiar with. A thin, clear and fair face with distinct features, standing under the red sky of the sunset glow, at first glance already makes people feel that he is sharp and has a sense of distance. Bie Qiong's high pain just now was washed away by the shock at the moment, she subconsciously shook off Qiao Lei's hand, and took two steps back. Qiao Lei's complexion changed drastically. He was sensitive to the distance Bie Qiong deliberately kept from him, but he quickly adjusted his expression and greeted him with a smile—— "Wen Chenrui, when did you arrive?" Principal Li's funeral committee has just been established, and the high-achieving student that everyone envied back then naturally has his name on the notification list. Wen Chenrui's gaze stayed on Bie Qiong's face, she seemed to never learn to keep calm in front of him, she was as flustered as she was when she was reading in Mai Mai last time, ready to run away at any time. Afterwards, he went to the "Sunflower" Kindergarten to talk about cooperation twice, but he didn't see her, and he deliberately looked for her for fear of appearing deliberate, worried that she would not be ready, and would be questioned and joked by colleagues, which would only increase his troubles for no reason. He approached her slowly, "Bie Qiong, okay?" Did he hear what Qiao Lei said to her just now? He knew that she deliberately broke her promise back then, how did he manage to treat her the same and pretended not to know during the next few days of getting along with her? Isn’t that how love should be when you are young? Everyone can’t wait to throw their hearts out, dig open their chests to show to their lovers, see my enthusiasm that has no place to fill, see my firm and vigorous sincerity, see my bang bang Beat a strong heart, watch my healthy blood gushing and flowing... My dear lover, please take a look. Why did she and Wen Chenrui wear a thin mask that no one can see through, talking love words that all lovers would say, all lovers would do love things, both of them were so moved by everything they gave each other, it would take many years Suddenly woke up. It turned out that everyone was just acting. You play your part. I play mine. After many years of reunion, the good show begins again. Bie Qiong rushed forward, seeing through his hypocrisy that he was in control of everything, anyway, she had made enough ugly things today, and she didn't care about doing it again. "Wen Chenrui, after so many years, you have to die to understand why you broke up with me?" Qiao Lei shook his head mockingly, "I think it's better that you don't know." "Go away! Shut up!" Bieqiong's hoarse shouts shocked him, and he shut his mouth wisely. Wen Chenrui saw everything in his eyes, still with that indifferent expression, "I didn't plan to tell you four years ago, do you think it's appropriate for me to tell you now?" He has the ability to ignite her explosive points anytime and anywhere, dig out the worst and worst side of her human nature, like a magnet sweeping the iron powder falling on the ground, absorbing them one by one, uniting them in the same place ，集体爆发。 “滚你妈的，少来这套。”只差对他拳打脚踢，别琼失去理智发疯般大叫，“四年前你欠我一个解释，现在当然要给。一个男人，同女友分手时，最起码的诚意，要给对方一个交代。你连给交代的勇气都没有，还算得上是个男人吗？” 可惜这种激将法对他是没用的。 他不为所动，默默站了一会儿，就在乔磊都觉得他会一直沉默下去时，突然听到他缓慢而低低的声音，“你说得对，我不算男人。” 一心想要和仇人斗个你死我活，决战到底的人，最怕什么？最怕不论你使出什么招数，动用什么武器，如同凡间小国家的卫士想要拿闪着耀耀光芒的大刀砍向孙猴子的脑袋，连个火星都冒不出。 别琼颓然坐在地上，今天一定是她的倒霉日，出来时应该看看今日星座运势的。分手那么多年，还在执拗地问对方是什么原因，够不够傻，够不够丢人？ 乔磊将她的动作尽收眼底，目光中愤怒且嫉妒的火苗已经等不及想要蹿出来点燃外面这团火。 “既然你不说，那就让我来说吧。”他慢慢蹲下来，并不理会温沈锐诧异的神情，“小别，温沈锐考入医学院后，是被校方劝退的。” “劝……劝退？” “不然，你以为是什么原因，让他放弃梦寐以求的理想大学，莫名其妙跑到南京读个二流学校？大家都说，他家里一定在政府有人脉，居然能改志愿。” 别琼看着他，脸色发白，“原因到底是什么？” “这就需要你自己问他了。” 同归于尽好了。 乔磊冷笑着继续发问，“问问他这个全市第六名的高材生到底干了什么好事，会被校方强制退学？” 温沈锐依然站在原地，目光扫过蹲坐在地上的两人，淡淡回应道：“你说什么，就是什么。” ... 跨过整个世界的喧嚣与繁华，只有三个人的操场上，仿佛时间停止，定格在这一刻。 不知道哪里有人点燃了爆竹，“砰”的一声巨响震耳欲聋，等人们调集敏感的神经竖起耳朵做好防止时，却又无声无息消失迅疾。 正如它爆发时的突如其来。 我们常讨厌别人动辄说自己变了，多少人自以为是以为他们有多了解，了解我的容貌，我的内心？我的性情，我的思想，我的穿衣打扮，我的喜好？还是我对你对他人的态度？更或者，是我曾经或者将来本该拥有的生活？ 我们一面这样讨厌着如此说我们的人，可同时，又一面轻易对他人下着同样的结论—— 你变了。 如果常有人这样对我们说，最佳回复是什么？ 很遗憾没能给出一个机智让人拍案叫绝的答案，也许对于别琼这样的人来说，只是一句——“干你屁事”就够了。