Chapter 12 Chapter 12 The Past

A week later, Xiao Bai informed me that I could be discharged from the hospital and asked me to prepare.I told him I wanted to stay another day, and he smiled, "You're still hospitalized and addicted." I shook my head, "No, you don't understand, what have I experienced in these few months." Xiao Bai looked at me with that smirk on his lips, "How do you know I don't understand?" "You really understand?" I was slightly taken aback. "Because I understand, I can only pretend not to understand." He left such an inexplicable sentence, then turned and left, leaving me with a handsome white back.

After hearing this sentence, I understood. Even now, I still haven't been able to see through this lunatic. You guessed it, the first thing I'm looking for next is Yumo. When I arrived at Yumo's ward, she was watering the potted plants on the windowsill.There was a hint of a smile on the corner of her mouth, which smelled like sunshine. "I can leave the hospital tomorrow." I said. The smile on the corner of her mouth disappeared for a while, and then continued to bloom again, looking at me: "Congratulations!" Then the two of us fell silent together. After a while, "Thank you!" Yu Mo and I spoke at the same time, saying these three words.

"Thank me for what?" They spoke in unison again, word by word, even the tone of voice was the same, it was a terrible tacit understanding. We looked at each other and giggled together. "Hi, first time meeting, my name is Tang Ping." I said suddenly. "Hi, it's the first time we meet. My name is Yumo. You feel so familiar to me. Have we met somewhere?" Yumo asked me as he shook hands with me silently. I pretended to recall deeply, "Yeah, you look very familiar to me, you look like a person!" "Like who?" she asked. "Like my future girlfriend." I replied seriously.After saying this, my heart was already in my throat, and I was nervously waiting for her response.

She was slightly taken aback, then suddenly turned her back to me.After a while, she sighed, "Tang Ping, I'll tell you a secret, please don't tell anyone else?" "What secret?" I was stunned, did Yu Mo know what happened that night... this! Yumo took a deep breath, and then said with determination: "The secret is: Actually, I like you! You are not allowed to tell others! Swear, swear!" When she turned around, her face had already floated Charming shyness. At that moment, I was happy in my heart, but there was a wicked smile on the corner of my mouth.

"Swear, swear!" "I don't, I don't!" I was running around in the mental hospital, and Yu Mo was chasing after me with her mouth pouted. This is our new life, starting with our two sentences of "meeting for the first time".From that moment on, we have agreed to let go of the past and greet the future with a smile. My footsteps stopped suddenly, and Yu Mo, who was chasing behind, bumped into my arms head-on. "Ouch!" She snorted softly, patted my chest hard, and followed my gaze. "Look at that lunatic, he cured us, but he could never heal himself. He forgave everyone, but he couldn't forgive himself." I looked at Xiao Bai who was passing by the corridor of the male ward building.

Yu Mo sighed softly, "Doctor Xiao hides too deeply, no one can walk into his inner world." "In fact, he is the one who needs treatment most in this mental hospital." I said. "Can someone cure him?" Yu Mo asked. "I don't know, there should be." I replied blankly. I was discharged from the hospital the next day. I just asked my parents to wait for me at home. I wanted to go out alone. Bid farewell to the patients one by one, send a bunch of blessings, and reap a bunch of blessings.You see, life is more like a mirror, you smile at it, it also smiles at you.You complain to it, and it rewards you with more frustration.Attitude determines destiny, how big the heart is, how big the world is in the eyes.

Looking back at these patients, they all recovered very quickly. According to Xiao Bai, Heroin and Fatty should also be discharged from the hospital next month.When I walked out of the ward, the "zombie" came over and stretched out his right hand to me.Only he remained the same, not saying a word, but his behavior showed that he was indeed recovering more or less.I smiled and shook his hand goodbye. The thin man stood at the door of the ward, and I hugged them one by one, "I'll wait outside for you to come out, don't make me wait too long!" They all smiled and nodded.

As soon as I walked out of the gate of the male patient building, I turned around and went back, and I remembered something. I walked into Ward 102 where I was just admitted, and came to my previous bed.Sure enough, the words are still on the bedside: if we are as safe as death, we will not be sad anymore... Xiao Bai came over and handed me a piece of white chalk, "I've seen it a long time ago, and I'm just waiting for you to come back and erase it by yourself one day." I took the chalk and erased the words.I clapped my hands, turned around, thought for a while, and went back to the bed, took out a pen and wrote a new sentence: You can't close your eyes all the time, and then say that the world you see is only darkness.

Xiao Bai glanced at me sideways, "You might as well write: Tang Ping is here for a visit! Think me as a doctor, don't you dare to scribble in my ward!" I gave him a cheap smile, treated him as a man, and then turned around and went to the women's ward. When bidding farewell to Yu Mo, I made a small excessive request, and I asked her to kiss her. Yumo closed her eyes slightly, and handed me the left cheek. I kissed her little mouth very badly, and then got slapped... I don’t know if you will dislike my jumping records, this is life, it looks complicated, but it’s just a little bit when I remember it.If you don't believe me, try to write about the special things that happened today, I guess it won't exceed a few sentences.

Have you tried it?Is it this way?OK, now let's record something special that happened in the past year.Anyway, let's just say a few words.That's why people say that the ordinary is the truth. Our daily life goes round and round, and we seem to be repeating yesterday's story today, upside down and upside down.Occasionally there is a little surprise or setback, and then it will pass quickly and return to normal. This is life, and most of it passes in the ordinary time.Sometimes wonderful, sometimes dark, just occasionally, it will pass soon.Xiao Bai taught me how to be my own bystander. I often look at the me in my life and tell him softly when he gets carried away or frustrated: it will pass soon.

Then he quickly regained his composure, face life with a pious smile, and welcome the undetermined future. Everyone's path is different, and everyone's destiny is also different.There is no absolute thing in this world, and even the most stable time can be slowed down or speeded up in the theory of relativity.So don't take the word "fairness" seriously. Not all efforts will pay off, but if you want to get something, you must pay first.With less complaining and more patience, you can find the fairness you want.In fact, most of the efforts are rewarded, even if it is a failure, you have also learned a lesson, at least you will not fall in the same place next time. Who is it that pays but gets nothing at all?Well, those are the kind of people who blame everyone and everyone after a setback, and feel that the whole world is sorry for him.I just lost my temper and complained a few words, but in the end I was hurt and hid in my inner world, deeply trapped in the "pain" I created and couldn't extricate myself.Most of these people end up in the same place - a mental hospital.Not only did they get nothing after paying, but they also lost themselves. Do you think they are stupid?Huh, you think they're stupid?Well, I think so too.What about you, which category do you belong to? After half a year, Yumo and I got married. I don't know if it's because of a good attitude, but everything went surprisingly smoothly in the past six months, and I was hired at the first interview.My boss appreciated my work ethic and promoted me to his side very much.Once after drinking, he smiled and told me that he was about to be promoted, and he would fully recommend me to his superiors to take over his position. Yumo didn't take a single portion of Tao Yao's inheritance, and gave it all to his relatives, leaving only the things Tao Yao gave her in the past as souvenirs.We pooled our money and paid a down payment for a single, small apartment, and became happy house slaves.Together with Yumo, I arranged this small nest beautifully and tried my best to fill the new house with joy. Xiao Bai attended my wedding with Yu Mo, and his blessing was sincere, but I also saw a trace of hidden concern in his eyes. It would be great for the story to end here. I really want the story to end here, to draw a full stop, and then Yumo and Yumo will be happy forever. But life goes on, and no one knows what the final outcome will be. The knock of fate came one month after Yumo and I got married. It was Sunday, and Yumo was preparing a sumptuous dinner in the kitchen, and I was helping and making trouble. I shouldn't have opened that door, but I know that one day it will, sooner or later. I went to open the door, and it was Xiao Bai, holding a stack of documents in his hands. There was a trace of panic in his expression, it was the first time I saw Xiao Bai's eyes like this. "Doctor Xiao is here, just in time, let's have dinner together later!" Seeing Xiao Bai, Yu Mo shouted happily. Xiao Bai glanced at Yu Mo, nodded with a forced smile, and then dragged me into the master bedroom. He hesitated for a long time, "Tang Ping, I...I don't know how to tell you all this." I took a deep breath and nodded, "I'm ready, let's talk." Yes, I am ready. From the moment I met Yumo, I was ready. Xiao Bai took out a piece of paper from those documents and handed it to me, "This is what Yu Mo wrote during hypnotherapy at that time, and it was written under hypnosis." I took it, and there was only one sentence on it: No one wants to hurt Yumo!I will always protect her! "What...what does this mean?" I was stunned. Xiao Bai pondered for a while, and replied: "I won't talk about the complicated ones. You must have heard of multiple personalities, right? It often appears in novels and film and television works. But in fact, multiple personalities are extremely rare in clinical practice. Even our foreign teachers Neither I nor my colleagues have encountered it. I never dreamed that in my medical career, I would encounter a case of multiple personality." "You mean Yumo has multiple personalities? Impossible! I have never seen her have any other personalities since I met her." I retorted hastily. "Don't worry, listen to me. Multiple personalities are not the kind of impermanent switching in your impression. On the contrary, the personality switching of multiple personalities is reactive. Just like a chameleon, under any circumstances, it will become What color to adapt to the environment. The duration of the converted personality is also different, ranging from a few minutes to several years. Yumo should belong to the former. Such multiple personalities are very difficult to detect and diagnose, which is why I missed the diagnosis. But coincidentally The most important thing is that multiple personalities will be manifested due to the activation of the subconscious mind under hypnosis, and the words on this piece of paper are written by Yu Mo's other personality." Xiao Bai said in a breath. I looked at the piece of paper and shook my head, "You can't make a diagnosis based on this. What does this sentence mean? This sentence has many meanings, and everyone will protect themselves!" "Of course I didn't make a diagnosis based on this sentence." Xiao Bai looked at me and continued seriously: "Since I read this sentence, I have been studying various literatures about multiple personality for the past six months. I can find a cure. I also secretly interviewed Yu Mo’s teachers and classmates when he was a child. After the interview, I realized that Yu Mo’s stories about shadows were true. It was not delusional generalization. These things really happened. And it was Yu Mo who did it herself! Her family concealed all this for her future, and told me that these were all Yu Mo's delusions." "No..." I crumpled the piece of paper, "It's not like that." Xiao Bai sighed, "Yu Mo was very lonely when she was a child, and she hoped to have a little friend to accompany her. In this way, a strong psychological will made her split a 'shadow' friend from her personality! Until Yu Mo got on In middle school, after having close friends, the shadow gradually disappeared from Yu Mo's life. Before Yu Mo gave all his pain and loneliness to the shadow, the split personality was not complete, and this personality would only rely on Instinctive desires and preferences to act. But there is a key point, this "shadow personality" takes care of Yu Mo wholeheartedly and protects Yu Mo. Just like protecting Yu Mo's brother or sister, but this personality has no reason, no Any concept of law and morality is bound. As long as she senses that something is about to hurt Yu Mo, she will respond in response and take all actions to prevent Yu Mo from being hurt, including...killing someone!" Hearing this, I calmed down, "You mean, Yu Mo's ex-husband Tao Yao..." Xiao Bai nodded, "Before I thought it was the gangsters in black that made Yu Mo delusional, but after I investigated all this, I understood. It is very likely that Yu Mo killed Tao Yao that night Another personality of hers, her family also thought of this, so they have been hiding it from me, telling me that all this is just Yu Mo's delusion. Coincidentally, all her symptoms are in line with post-traumatic stress disorder, so I Just believe it." I tried to calm down and asked, "Don't Yumo know these things?" Xiao Bai shook his head, "There are two types of multiple personalities. One is that each personality has its own memory. After each switch, it will completely lose the memory of the previous personality. People who don’t know each other. The other type is like Yu Mo, who hides a synergy personality behind her main personality. This synergy personality can perceive everything about Yu Mo, and when Yu Mo is in danger, he will Instantly switched out to take action to protect her. Yumo's main personality has no memory of this co-conscious personality at all, and Yumo doesn't know the other self living in the body." Xiao Bai took a deep breath, pointed to his head and said: "But no matter what personality they are, they all have the same brain. Yu Mo has no memory of the synergistic personality, but the subconscious mind of the brain can be transformed into a shadow. Tell her everything that happened. Yumo herself can't tell whether these are delusions or what really happened, so my treatment convinced her that all this is just her own delusions." "Can multiple personality be treated?" I asked. Xiao Bai shook his head, "I checked all the literature, and there is no exact treatment for multiple personalities. It only mentions that multiple personalities may devour each other and snatch the master personality under certain circumstances. When only the last personality is left It is the final outcome of multiple personality. It is also possible that these personalities coexist until old age and death. Multiple personality is a legendary case in psychiatry. Many doctors do not believe that there is such a disease. Most of them think it is just because of schizophrenia. A personality change produced by the disease." "How should the punishment be for multiple personality murder?" I continued to ask. Xiao Bai rubbed his temples with a headache, "This will be the first case of multiple personality homicide in China. According to the traditional Chinese law, I am afraid that Yumo will be sentenced as an ordinary murderer. This is actually unreasonable, because Yumo is both There are two kinds of personalities, and one of them should not be implicated in punishing the other if he commits a mistake. And multiple personalities do not belong to the category of ignorant mental illness, so mental illness cannot reduce the sentence..." Xiao Baixu babbled, he didn't notice that my gaze was getting more and more confused, but a certain idea in my heart was becoming more and more firm. "Have you notified the police?" I asked one last question. Xiao Bai shook his head, "No, I will inform you first. Let you stay away from Yu Mo first, so as not to be hurt by her synergistic personality, and then consider calling the police." I nodded, and glanced around the meticulously decorated new house, and looked at the decorative flowers in the corner that I was reluctant to take off.Finally, my eyes stopped on the small hammer under the bookcase. It was the small hammer I used to smash walnuts for Yumo... After half an hour, I straightened up, turned and walked towards the door of the room.The moment I opened the door, a cold knife pierced my abdomen instantly. It was Yumo, she was glaring at me.This is the first time... no, it's the third time I've seen her look like this.As Xiao Bai said, this is another Yu Mo, the "shadow" that has been lurking in Yu Mo's body!This is like a defense mechanism of Yumo. When Yumo senses danger, the "shadow" will be awakened instantly to protect himself instead of Yumo. Xiao Bai's expression was too nervous when he entered the door, "Shadow" must have noticed all this, so he stood outside the door and eavesdropped.In fact, this "shadow" has been protecting Yu Mo, and it is completely unscrupulous in protecting Yu Mo.She was afraid that we would report it to the police, so she killed us. When I fell down, the door was also fully opened, and Yu Mo was stunned.Whichever she was, she was stunned.She saw Xiao Bai lying on the bed, his head had been smashed, and the bed sheet was covered with blood.The hammer we usually use to crack walnuts is still tilted on the floor. "This...why is this, why?" The knife in Yu Mo's hand fell to the ground. I leaned on the edge of the bed and half-lyed on the floor, waved to Yumo feebly, "Honey, come here... come here and let me tell you a story." Yu Mo stared at me blankly and said, "You know, I'm not the Yu Mo you know." I smiled with difficulty, "Actually, I have known you for a long time, even before I knew Yu Mo, come here. To me...you are all Yu Mo." Yu Mo walked to my side and half knelt on the ground.I took her in my arms, as I always do, and put her face against my heart so she could hear me.Yumo is very docile, she knows that I don't have much time, she can hear my heartbeat is getting weaker and weaker little by little. I stroked Yu Mo's hair and asked, "Do you know why I got depression a year ago?" A year ago, I also had a girlfriend named Qianqian.I still have a good job, working in a state-owned enterprise, and my immediate boss is Tao Yao.Suddenly one day, I was dismissed by my boss with a bunch of excuses, and even more suddenly, Qianqian wanted to break up with me. These two things happened almost at the same time, and I don't know how to make sense of it.But I know what kind of person Tao Yao is. This person is double-faced and a cunning villain in the business field. The company is also looking at him for this.As a boss, he is also known to be mean to his subordinates. It can be said that Luo Qi's murderous maniac was created by him. The biggest advantage of Tao Yao is that he is very good at acting, and his acting skills are really superb.It can be seen from his smooth sailing in the workplace. Even the company's co-investors often praise him for being realistic and pragmatic, and the boss is full of praise for his work attitude.Actually?All his achievements are obtained by squeezing his subordinates, and I even helped write those planning documents.All he has to do is take over our achievements and sign his name. Not only work, but even his life is like this.Tao Yao has a relatively handsome face, and the women around him probably can't count on ten fingers, not to mention the right and wrong, he even performed to his own wife. Yumo only called the company every time, because he was afraid of disturbing his work, so he never came to the company to look for him.Yumo kept saying that I felt very familiar to her, because we had called countless times and I had lied to her countless times.Yumo is a very kind girl, she never doubted my words, let alone her husband.Every time I finished the phone call, I told me to help her keep an eye on Tao Yao and not make him too tired.But she didn't know that when she said these words, Tao Yao was having fun with other women outside. Qianqian met Tao Yao, and Qianqian came to the company to look for me not long before I was fired.The moment their eyes collided, there was already a taste of a story. Thinking of all this, I realized something.So after Qianqian broke up with me, I followed her all the way, and the more I followed her, the more obvious the answer became.She came all the way to my company, she made a phone call, and Tao Yao came out.Qianqian got into Tao Yao's car and sped away. I followed them all the way to the hotel, and then they took the key cards and went upstairs. After following here, do I still need to follow?There is no other answer to this story. Just as I was about to leave the hotel, a woman passed me and walked in the door, her expression was cold and terrifying.There is his wedding photo on Tao Yao's desk, and I know that woman is Yu Mo.It's just that I didn't expect Yumo with such a gentle voice to have such a cold face. The moment I passed by, I could feel the slightest chill coming from her body. It was just an episode, I didn't care about it at the time, my heart was already filled with humiliation and anger.What does a man do when he is faced with both humiliations?I don't know what other people will do, I just remember that after I left the hotel, it was almost like it was planned.I calmly walked into a clothing store and bought a black suit, a pair of gloves, and a black cotton mask.In the end, I bought a new pair of shoes that were two sizes larger than the ones I was wearing. I did it on purpose because I knew the police could use the shoe prints to infer height and shape. Then I went to a small hardware store and bought screwdrivers, diamonds, and pry hands.The villa that Tao Yao bought was the interior decoration design drawing that I helped to make, and I knew exactly where the weakness of that villa was.I didn't think about it on the gate of the villa, that is the latest anti-theft door, even a violent breakthrough would take hours.But the glass door in the backyard of his house has only a small brass lock, which can be easily pried open in ten minutes.The villa is located on the outskirts of the city, which is a villa residential area.Not only are the houses far apart, but there are also many villas around that are completely uninhabited, which provides great convenience for what I want to do. When a person is extremely angry, he can ignore everything.I didn't hesitate at the time, the only thing I wanted was for the night to come so I could do what I wanted to do.I can feel the adrenaline being secreted in a large amount, and I have an irrepressible desire to destroy. At eleven o'clock that night, I came to the villa, and I was going to wait and see the surroundings first, and then go over the wall and enter the backyard to pry the glass door when no one was looking.Just as I walked to the door of the villa, a black figure fled in panic from the door.I was taken aback, and took a closer look. Although he was also wearing a mask, I still recognized him from his sluggish back——Luo Qi! coincidence?Yes, it's a coincidence!Not only was I trying to kill Tao Yao that night, even Luo Qi, who was fired by him a few months ago, wanted to do the same thing.I walked carefully to the gate of the villa, only to find a pile of door picking tools that were too late to take away, and a lock that had already been picked.It seems that Luo Qi arrived a few hours earlier than me, and just now he ran away when he heard my footsteps. When I saw Luo Qi again afterwards, I couldn't help but think about one thing.If I hadn't appeared that night and Luo Qi had successfully killed Tao Yao, what would have happened?Luo Qi's anger has always been Tao Yao, he failed to kill Tao Yao.Let others go first, so he later transferred his anger to others and became a murderous maniac.Not only that, but now we will also have another ending. I helped Luo Qi put away those tools, and then carefully opened the door to go in. There was no one in the living room. Although I came in through the door, I still hid behind the glass door and the big curtain as originally planned, waiting for the opportunity to get off the phone. As soon as I hid, there was the sound of the bathroom door opening. Yu Mo came out wearing a bathrobe and turned on the TV.The only one I want to kill is Tao Yao, I don't want to hurt Yu Mo, so I continue to wait for Tao Yao to appear. Sure enough, after a while, Tao Yao also came down from the second floor. "Why isn't my wife sleeping?" "Well, go to bed when your hair is dry, husband, go to bed first if you're sleepy." "No, I'll wait for you." I felt sick for a while behind the curtain, he is indeed a good actor, and these few words were spoken tenderly.It's true that the colorful flags are fluttering outside, but the red flags at home are not falling. Then Tao Yao sat next to Yu Mo, and thoughtfully picked up a knife to peel an apple. The two kept talking sweetly, and suddenly Yu Mo's expression changed, as if he had changed in an instant. "You and that woman outside are very sweet today. Room 202 in the hotel was almost collapsed by her moans." Yu Mo said with a sneer. Tao Yao's hand to peel the apple froze, "Wife, you... Who did you listen to, it's nothing!" Yu Mo's next move was not as fast as a woman's. She grabbed the knife from Tao Yao's hand in an instant, and wiped his neck with her hand back.Before Tao Yao could even react, the carotid artery had been cut open, and he stared at Yu Mo with wide eyes in disbelief. Yu Mo looked at him coldly: "You can fool Yu Mo, but you can't fool me. I've heard the rumors a long time ago. Today I rented a car and followed you quietly, only to find out that you were really dating that woman! Who Don't try to deceive Yu Mo, and no one wants to hurt her!" In this way, Tao Yao slowly leaned to the side of the sofa, and a lot of blood dripped from the sofa to the ground.Yu Mo calmly wiped the handle of the fruit knife on the bathrobe, then returned it to Tao Yao's hand for fingerprinting, and finally threw it on the floor aside. I was stunned behind the curtain, I didn't even know how to react.Who would have thought that things in this world would be so coincidental, that on this night, Tao Yao, whom Luo Qi and I both wanted to kill, died at the hands of his wife in the end.What's happening is beyond my ability to react. But what happened next surprised me even more. Yu Mo took a deep breath and closed his eyes.When she opened her eyes and saw everything in front of her, she let out a scream, and ran like crazy to a nearby villa to call for help.I saw this momentary transformation, it wasn't fake, it was real.Yumo has just turned into another person, that person I met when I was in the hotel today. When I reacted, I thought of running away.But when I fled back home, I realized I had nothing left.The job is gone, the girlfriend is gone, and even the person who wants to kill is gone, it seems that life has been emptied in one fell swoop.I locked myself in the house all that time, and I wanted to kill myself, kill that incompetent wretch. Coincidentally, what happened that night made Yu Mo no longer suspicious.And the police have never been able to find me, so this matter has become an unsolved case.Coincidentally?It's a coincidence, but if you have to watch the story again from beginning to end, you will find that these things actually happened sooner or later, but it just happened to happen on the same night. Then I went back to the beginning of the story. I was sent to a mental hospital by my family, and it was there that I met Yu Mo again.I was stunned at the time, why did fate arrange it like this?Is it really destined?I don't even know what kind of mood I approached Yu Mo, was it curiosity?fear?or something else? I just remember that in that restraint room, there was a girl who moved me with the most innocent smile and tears, and her kindness and helplessness were branded in my heart.I am grateful to those fictional novels and movies, which made me understand that there is such a disease as multiple personality in this world. I know I'm in love with a dangerous girl, and it's a bomb that's going to explode at some point and blow me to pieces.But from the moment I fell in love with Yumo, I had no other choice. I made a decision for Yumo, I will keep this secret secret and bring it to the grave.As for Yu Mo, I will not tell her everything that happened that night, including Tao Yao's betrayal.I just want her to be happy, even if I lie to her for the rest of my life, I'm willing to keep it from her for the rest of my life. I didn't expect Xiao Bai to finally dig out this secret, I didn't want to... Xiao Bai is right, love cannot be defined, and this story does not have a reasonable ending.