Chapter 10 Chapter Nine: All Men Who Fall in Love with Her Must Die

Jiguang was gone, and Su Xiaosan was not sent to see her off.Before boarding the plane during Jiguang, I called her and told her that I was leaving and hoped that she could live in Shangri-La for a while.Jiguang took an early flight, and when he called, Su Xiaosan was still lying in the warm blanket.After listening to Jiguang's words, she didn't say a word.Su Xiaosan suddenly felt that Jieguang was just an illusion, appearing and disappearing indistinctly, so unreal.Perhaps he had never been to Shanghai, and everything that happened was just a dream. Su Xiaosan's tears flowed out again.

With the disappearance of the phantom, she seemed to have returned to the cruel real life. Police officer Zhong Feiyang sat in front of Su Xiaosan, smiling all over his face, and he was completely different from when he was taking statements at the police station.Today, he is dressed in casual clothes, and his short hair looks particularly energetic.The Hefeng teahouse at noon was very quiet, there were not many customers, so Zhong Feiyang still chose a small private room, so that their conversation would be more confidential.Zhong Feiyang took the initiative to ask her out, but Su Xiaosan was still a little nervous.

Zhong Feiyang poured her a cup of tea, and Su Xiaosan found that his fingers were slender and fair, which was not commensurate with his identity. Zhong Feiyang said: "Miss Su, why doesn't your boyfriend come with you?" Su Xiaosan said: "He is not my boyfriend anymore." Zhong Feiyang looked into her eyes: "Why, did you blow it so soon?" Su Xiaosan said with flustered eyes, "Please don't talk about him, okay?" Zhong Feiyang said: "He is a cynical person, and sometimes he is very cute, but if it is too much, it will be boring. Well, let's not talk about him. Let's get down to business, I want to know something from you, and I won't take up too much of you. More time, I hope you can cooperate."

Su Xiaosan said: "I know you are talking about Xiang Hanlan. As long as I know the situation, I will tell you. I hope that the murderer can be caught as soon as possible, so that she can rest in peace." Then, Zhong Feiyang talked to Su Xiaosan about a strange thing. It was just after Su Xiaosan and the others discovered that late at night after Xiang Hanlan died, the Hongtai community was as quiet as the funeral parlor.At this time, a person in the building opposite Xiang Hanlan's house got up to go to the bathroom, and after finishing his work, he casually glanced out the window.He was surprised to find that there was light in the deceased Xiang Hanlan's home.Because of Xiang Hanlan's death, the residents of Hongtai Community were panicked. Wouldn't the light in her house in the middle of the night make people frightened!Trembling with fright, he quickly called the security guard.The two security guards on duty at night were also terrified and had no choice but to bite the bullet and rush to Xiang Hanlan's building.After they got on the elevator, they looked at each other without saying a word, each holding the batons in their hands tightly.The elevator stopped on the tenth floor.The elevator doors hadn't been opened for a long time, and sweat broke out on their foreheads. No one wanted to say the word "fear" first!Finally, the elevator door opened suddenly, and a black shadow swayed past the elevator door.They shouted in unison: "Who!" When they rushed out, the black shadow had disappeared without a trace.Under the dim light of the corridor, they shivered.Standing in front of Xiang Hanlan's house, they didn't know what to do, and were worried that something would suddenly come out of the suite behind.There was no movement at Xiang Hanlan's house.Security A tremblingly said: "Did that guy read it wrong? Who would go to a dead man's house to light a lamp in the middle of the night?" Security B said calmly: "It's impossible to read it wrong, we just saw it downstairs. Is there any light?" Security A said, "It's unlucky to be on duty tonight." Security B said, "Let me take a look first." Then, he aimed his right eye at the cat's eye.He suddenly jumped away like an electric shock, and exclaimed: "There is really a light, a white candle is lit on the ground!" Security A: "Ah—" Security B said, "Who will be in there?" Security A said : "Could it be her family?" Security B said: "Impossible, her parents came and then left, maybe they can come again after the case is solved!" Security A wiped the cold sweat on his forehead: "Forget it, let's go!" Security B said: "No, they will complain to us, but you didn't find out. Now the owners of the community have a lot of opinions on us, saying that we can't even find the dead, so what security is there?" "Security A said: "Well, what should I do then? If this continues, I don't want to do it anymore. I'm worried all day long, and I still get people's eyes. I might as well go back to my hometown to farm!" Security B said: "Why don't we call the police? Didn’t the policeman handling this case leave a phone number for us? I remember it’s stored in my phone!” Security A said, “Yes, yes, call the police quickly!” Suddenly there was a baby's shrill cry in that house.They were so frightened that they hurried into the elevator, went down to the bottom of the building, and waited for the police to arrive outside the building door.After they stood in the cold wind for more than ten minutes, the police came.After the police arrived, they were particularly enthusiastic, their sense of fear disappeared, and they excitedly led the police upstairs.Opening the door of Xiang Hanlan's house, they saw a white candle standing where the dead body lay down.They checked the house carefully, but found no one...

Zhong Feiyang's narration is lifelike. Su Xiaosan felt chills all over her body. After Zhong Feiyang finished speaking, he said: "Can you recall, among the people Xiang Hanlan associates with, who looks more abnormal, that is to say, more perverted?" Su Xiaosan said tremblingly, "Let me think about it." Zhong Feiyang said with a smile: "Don't worry, think slowly. By the way, you don't mind if I smoke?" Su Xiaosan said: "I don't mind, you can smoke!" Zhong Feiyang lit a cigarette, and lightly exhaled a puff of smoke. In the smoke, Su Xiaosan's beautiful face was a little blurred.

Su Xiaosan said: "Officer Zhong, can I have a cigarette?" Zhong Feiyang said, "You smoke too?" Su Xiaosan nodded. Zhong Feiyang handed over a cigarette and pushed the lighter in front of her.Su Xiaosan lit a cigarette, took a puff, and let out a long breath. The cigarette made her mood a little more stable. Zhong Feiyang said: "You look good when you smoke, but it's better to smoke less, it's not good for your health, especially for beautiful girls." Su Xiaosan said softly: "I know. Many things, everyone knows that they will poison themselves, but people still flock to them, and they can't extricate themselves from them."

Zhong Feiyang said: "This is brilliant!" Su Xiaosan said: "Actually, I don't know much about Xiang Hanlan's friends. At the beginning, she often took me to bars to drink with her friends, and also to discos and some high-end clubs. Later, I didn’t go with her because I didn’t like the excitement. Most of the people I met at the time were acquaintances, and I didn’t continue to communicate. Based on my impression, those friends she played with were very gentlemanly. I can’t think of any What kind of perverted person. As for whether there are such people among her friends, only she knows, she never told me, and it is impossible for me to ask. Although we are best friends, we all have our own In life, there is no need to tell each other many things.”

Zhong Feiyang took a deep breath and said, "That's it!" Su Xiaosan said, "That's right." Zhong Feiyang said: "If we can find the person who sneaked into the deceased's house late at night, maybe many problems will be solved!" Su Xiaosan said, "I understand." Zhong Feiyang was silent, looking at her thoughtfully. Su Xiaosan paused and said, "I want to tell you a strange thing." Zhong Feiyang said: "Speak quickly!" Su Xiaosan smoothed out the lock of hair hanging on her forehead with her hands, put out the cigarette butt in her hand, and said nervously: "The scene you mentioned appeared in my dream. One night, I dreamed Seeing myself falling into a dark abyss, just when I was at a loss, I saw a little light. It was the light of a candle, a white candle. I found myself lying on the floor of Xiang Hanlan's house, and I saw To a person..."

Zhong Feiyang took a breath: "Did you really have such a dream?" Su Xiaosan nodded. Zhong Feiyang said: "It's really weird. If you don't tell me, I really can't imagine such a thing happening. The question is, is the short man in your dream really a real person?" Su Xiaosan said in horror: "Yes, there is such a person!" Zhong Feiyang said, "Have you seen him?" Su Xiaosan nodded: "Yes!" Zhong Feiyang's eyes glowed like a falcon: "Quickly say it!" Su Xiaosan was obviously very restless, and her face was flushed: "That night, I went to the book company to deliver the design draft, and when I took the subway home, there was a short man behind me... After getting off the subway, he still followed me , If I didn’t see a policeman, I ran towards him, I don’t know what would have happened. However, the policeman didn’t believe what I said, because I turned around and couldn’t find the villain!”

After hearing this, Zhong Feiyang smiled: "No wonder you have such a nightmare. You overlapped two things in your dream. This is your psychological problem. You can't see that the short man who molested you and Xiang Han Lan's death has nothing to do with it." Su Xiaosan gritted her teeth and said firmly, "It does matter!" Gu Xin wanted to reach out and touch my face, but he didn't dare.I could see that he thought so.What would happen to me if he forcibly reached out and touched my face?I have no idea.He said in a desolate voice: "Ah Hong, you look haggard, have you encountered any difficulties?" What's the matter? I told you a long time ago, don't come to me again, you are not my father, really not! Do you know, facing you, I have a sense of disillusionment! You go, go quickly!" Gu Xin's deep-set eyes sparkled: "Ah Hong, I miss you all the time, miss you, I love you, and I want to use the rest of my life to make up for the suffering you have suffered in the past, even if it is for you You are a horse!" I said stubbornly: "I don't need your love, I don't need you to do anything for me, I have always been happy and never suffered! As long as you leave me far away, I am very grateful You." Gu Xin looked very excited: "Ah Hong, you have suffered, you have suffered a lot, I know, I know everything! Do you remember? Once, Xiao Sanniang was arrested in the village to criticize, You secretly ran to see. Xiao Sanniang was beaten by a Red Guard with a belt. You rushed over, hugged his leg, and cried, begging him to stop beating you. He kicked you away, and you fell on the ground. On the stone-paved road, there was a big black and black bump on your forehead. You didn’t flinch or get scared, but got up from the ground and rushed towards the person who beat Xiao Sanniang again, hugging his leg tightly, Bite him hard on the leg. He was so angry that he raised the belt in his hand and beat your young body hard. You cried and shouted: 'Don't hit me, don't hit my mother— "Many villagers present couldn't stand it anymore, and dragged the Red Guard away. After the criticism meeting, you helped Xiao Sanniang, who was covered in bruises, back home. Xiao Sanniang gently stroked the bruise on your forehead, what did you say? I can't tell..." I said coldly, "It's nothing, you made it up! You hurry up, I'm going to work!" Gu Xin murmured, "You can't do this, you can't do this, Thinking of your suffering, my heart is bleeding, Ah Hong—" He seemed to rush towards me.

Suddenly a person stood in front of me and said sharply, "What do you want!" Gu Xin said to him: "I didn't do anything, I just talked to my daughter, you go away!" Standing in front of me was a young man with broad shoulders, I couldn't see his face, only his thick black hair.I said heartlessly: "He is not my father!" The young man said: "Did you hear that, she said that you are not her father, you are really disrespectful, molesting little girls and claiming to be her father, I have never seen such a shameless old pervert like you!" Gu Xin was trembling all over, staring into his sunken eyes and roaring: "Get out of here! She is my daughter, she is my daughter!" The young man said sternly: "You are the one who should get out, get out, if you keep messing around, I will call the police!" Gu Xin was so angry that his face was livid, and his beard was trembling wildly. He suddenly raised his palm and swung it fiercely at the young man's face.The young man received a heavy blow, screamed wildly, rushed over, and wrestled with Gu Xin.Immediately, many passers-by gathered around, laughing and watching.Some people still laughing and shouting: "Fight, hit hard—" Some people said: "Look, they, the old and the young, fought because of the jealousy of that beautiful girl, and the old one is really shameless! "I felt ashamed, and in the confusion, I withdrew and left this place of right and wrong. Back in the library, I felt a faint pain in my heart, could it be because of Gu Xin?I really can't find a reason to feel sorry for him. In my eyes, he is a stranger!So, my heart aches for that young man, because he was slapped by Gu Xin?There is no reason for this, I will not feel sorry for someone I don't know, no matter what he has done for me. I was so distracted and distracted, even if there were readers standing in front of me, holding books and library cards and asking me to register, I would turn a blind eye, so that there was a row of people waiting to borrow books in front of me.Standing in the front was a pale and thin man, his eyes were fixed on my face, and his thick Adam's apple kept sliding.Someone behind said: "What's wrong with Leng Meiren today, she's feeling springy!" As soon as he finished speaking, there was a burst of laughter.Another person said: "Look at her distraught appearance, is it because she has lost her love? She is such a poor cold beauty!" Everyone stopped laughing, as if they were sad and heartbroken with me. People in those days were so kind, so they I love reading.One of my colleagues couldn't stand it anymore, walked up to me, and said in my ear: "If you don't work, the queue of borrowers will be lined up on the street downstairs!" I said to the readers: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry!" After I finished the book-borrowing procedures for the white-faced man at the front, he bent down and asked softly: "Have you received the letter I wrote to you?" He said coldly: "Go ask the person at the post office! The next one—" The person blushed and left in a hurry.The dead Wang Xiaoyan was right. Many people came here for my beauty, some just came to see me, and many people wrote me courtship letters. I didn’t open any of those letters, and I returned them all at the post office. go back.In fact, I don't think I'm very good-looking. When I look in the mirror, I think I look like a weasel. When it comes to work, I am a quick-witted person.In the long line in front of me, there were only three or two people left in a short while.The last person to borrow the book was the young man standing between me and Gu Xin.He has thick eyebrows and big eyes, a square face, and a standard heroic image.Unfortunately, that half of his face was red and swollen, and his heroic image was undoubtedly compromised.The book he borrowed was.Through the library card, I know his name: Zhang Shusen.I finished the book borrowing procedures for him with a blank face, then buried my head and drew something on a piece of white paper with a pen.Zhang Shusen was still standing there, feeling his gaze fall on me like a thorn.After a long while, I raised my head and said to him coldly: "Do you have anything else to do?" He shook his head: "No!" I said: "Go if you have nothing to do, don't stand here and affect me work!" He paused for a while, then said slowly: "I like you!" After finishing speaking, he left. His words did not excite or move me, even though he had staged a heroic show of saving the beauty in front of me.I fell into a new fear, a subconscious feeling: Any man who loves me will die! Su Xiaosan thought that if one of her parents treated her like Gu Xin treated Xiao Ahong, she would forgive them for their crimes, because she was a helpless person, not like Xiao Ahong. Hong is so decisive that she can reject all love. She still wants to find her mother. Su Xiaosan suddenly thought, in the place where she was abandoned, would anyone know the truth and remember the scene more than 20 years ago?So, Su Xiaosan decided to go to her adoptive father, Su Guoqing, and ask her exactly where she was abandoned. The small alley on Jiatian Road still smelled of urine. Su Xiaosan tried not to let it out. On the walls on both sides of the alley, there were many words "demolition" written in disorder. It seems that this old street The area is really going to be demolished soon.Su Guoqing still closed his eyes, sitting alone in the wheelchair and basking in the sun.Su Xiaosan stood in front of him and said softly: "Dad, are you awake?" Su Guoqing opened his eyes full of gum: "Are you Xiaosan?" Su Xiaosan said: "It's me, I can't be wrong!" Su Guoqing suddenly became very nervous: "What are you doing here again? Didn't I tell you that I really don't know who your biological parents are!" Su Xiaosan said coldly: "Apart from this matter, can I not come to you?" Su Guoqing looked at her vigilantly, his lips trembling. She knew what he was thinking and thought it was funny: "It's ridiculous, you think I will share your demolition fee? You don't even want to give it to me! Isn't it just a few stinky money! Why are you so afraid?" Su Guoqing said, "Then, what are you doing here?" Su Xiaosan said: "I want to ask you one more thing, can you tell me where I picked it up?" Su Guoqing tapped his bulging forehead with his fingers as thin as chicken feet, and said, "I'll think about it." Su Xiaosan said: "Think about it, I have plenty of time." At this time, Su Xiaosan saw a fleshy and pale face in the window on the second floor of the old house behind Su Guoqing. She had never seen this young man with red hair like a maggot.Why did he show up at Su Guoqing's house and look at her with vicious eyes.Could it be that he is Su Guoqing's son?Moved back in order to seize the demolition fee for his house? Su Xiaosan looked away from his moldy face, thinking, whoever he is, it has nothing to do with her anyway. Su Guoqing faced Su Xiaosan, but didn't see that moldy pork belly face. He tapped his forehead again with his fingers, raised his face and said, "I remember, I remember Yang Xueli said that she picked you up on the Suzhou River near Zhapu Road Bridge on Huqiu Road." Su Xiaosan asked again: "What time is it?" Su Guoqing blinked and said: "It happened on the third night after the National Day in 1983, yes, it was that day, when Yang Xueli was passing by there on the night shift, she saw a baby girl crying under a small paper umbrella. Just took her back, the baby girl is you. It's all your fault, if it weren't for you, I wouldn't have left her, and she wouldn't have died so early, she died because of you! If we didn't have you, Now we will still live in love, and I will not suffer such a crime!" Su Xiaosan was speechless. It's pointless to argue with him. Just as Su Xiaosan was about to leave, the red-haired young man walked out of the door and blocked her. Su Guoqing was very nervous: "Xiaosan, hurry up, this white-eyed wolf can do anything, he even dared to hit me, and he can spare you! Su Guang, don't mess around, let her go !" Su Xiaosan understood that this guy was indeed Su Guoqing's biological son. Su Guang pointed her nose with his finger, and said in a strange way: "You are Su Xiaosan, you really are a beauty! Why are you looking for my dad? Do you also want to get ideas about this house? If so, your Wishful thinking is wrong! Which green onion are you? Have you raised my dad and fulfilled the responsibility of children? You think you can split the money by giving my dad 100 yuan, but there is no such thing! Su Xiaosan If you are sensible, go away, don't make fun of yourself! Besides, you are not my father's biological daughter, I don't know where you picked it up! Hehe, it's not easy for a beauty like you to make money, pants If you bring Songsong, you will get a lot of money, and you come to us to grab food, aren’t you just asking for fun! Get out, and don’t let me see you again! If you let me see you again, don’t blame me for being rude!” Su Xiaosan's face turned red from holding back, and two words popped out between her teeth: "The bastard!" Su Guang stared: "You, you dare to scold me? Little slut!" Su Xiaosan was so angry that he stretched out his hand and slapped him across the face: "I'll teach you a lesson for your father! Bastard!" She wasn't like this before, life forced her to be like this! The slap stunned him. Su Xiaosan pushed him away: "Good dogs don't get in the way!" Then he walked away, Su Xiaosan felt sad for her adoptive father! In the place Su Guoqing mentioned, Su Xiaosan faced the turbid Suzhou Creek, and his heart was full of sadness.She asked many old residents nearby, none of them knew that a baby girl was abandoned here.Su Guoqing was right, who would remember those things.The life of oil, salt, firewood and rice does make people forget a lot, and they can't even feel the mutation of their own hearts. Where should Su Xiaosan go? She was dazed and helpless. I often suffer from insomnia. Those were lonely nights, and the wind outside the window was so helpless and desolate.I curled up on the bed, listening to the whimpering wind, the souls of the dead crying.I hold my silky long hair in both hands, like grasping a handful of straws.I wish I was saved!My soul has fallen into the boundless darkness. The young man named Zhang Shusen came to return and borrow books every few days, and sometimes brought a bouquet of roses. Every time he left, he would firmly say to me: "I like you!" He didn't read the book at all, he came to borrow the book just to get close to me and say that sentence to me.I was not moved by his words, but filled with fear in my heart, because I couldn't stop him from coming, and I couldn't control what vicious words the weasel in my body would say. Before, he should not appear in front of me again.He doesn't feel the danger, but I know the danger is approaching him, and I can't tell others the secrets in my heart, the pain tortures me all the time. My life is boring and monotonous. Apart from going to work, I spend most of my time in the single dormitory, in a daze or thinking about some past events and what the future will be like. I dare not think about it.On rare occasions, I will convince myself to go to a movie and sit in the theater as if I were alone and no one else existed.I also watched "Shaolin Temple", which was released that year, and I really liked the shepherdess and the beautiful song in the movie.I imagined how great it would be if I were that shepherdess, grazing her splendid youth carefree in Yezhuao Mountain, and her moving singing filled the whole mountain, covering up the poverty and desolation there.The short-lived beautiful imagination did not bring me peace of mind, but a deeper fear, my real world is so cruel! The night after watching the movie "Shaolin Temple", the air was extremely dull, with no wind.The movie theater is only two stops away from where I live, and I didn't want to take the bus, so I went back on foot.The street lamps, the flow of people and the constant flow of vehicles on the road made my heart feel even more desolate. I felt an inexplicable sense of loneliness, and I sighed desolately.Is the night in Wild Boar Pass still so dead?Did that ghost wander around the countryside with its own head in its hands?And Xiao Sanniang's grave, isn't it covered with luxuriant weeds? ... I seem to hear someone calling my name, the voice is very faint, maybe it is Xiao Sanniang, maybe it is Wang Hairong... I can't answer them, I think I will meet them one day, they are on another road waiting for me. Someone really is calling me. I stopped and turned around.It's him, Zhang Shusen!He ran up to me and said uneasily: "Xiao Ahong, I, I—" He should not be the sticky kind of person who stammers his speech.I said coldly: "What do you want to do?" Zhang Shusen made a gesture: "Don't be nervous, I, I won't hurt you!" I stared at him vigilantly: "If you have anything to say, quickly say it, I will return it to you." I want to go home!" Zhang Shusen rubbed his hands together, smiled and said: "Xiao Ahong, let me just say it straight! Actually, I didn't like you at first, and there are many beautiful girls. A buddy said, there is a beautiful woman in the district library, very cold and arrogant, not easy to get close to. I bet with them, put down the harsh words, and say that half a month can fix you. As a result, half a month has passed, you I don't care about me at all, but I found that I really like you. You know, when I think of your melancholy eyes, I will be very sad, so sad that I can't sleep or eat, I really want to share something for you, even You are hugged in my arms, let you sleep peacefully. Xiao Ahong, do you understand what I said?" I was terrified, afraid that some terrible thought would pop up in my mind. I didn't want to hurt him, and I didn't want to hurt anyone again.I tremblingly said: "Please, let's go! I don't like you, I don't have any feelings for you. Really, it's impossible for us! It's absolutely impossible, don't waste your efforts!" Zhang Shusen said: "I won't give up, no! All I pretend to be is you!" I said in my heart: "Is this what you want to tell me? After you finish talking, it's time to go. I don't care if you like me or not; you don't care if I like you or not. You don't go." If so, then I'm leaving!" Zhang Shusen stretched out his hands to stop me, hugged me suddenly, kissed me on the cheek, then moved away immediately, and waved to the opposite side of the road.Several young men on the opposite side of the road yelled, and one of them said loudly, "Zhang Shusen, I've convinced you, you've won, go drink!" Zhang Shusen said softly to me: "Xiao Ahong, I'm sorry, I really like you, please be friends with me!" At this point, I'm an insulted person.My body was trembling, and two words popped out between my teeth: "Rogue!" After I finished speaking, I ran away.Zhang Shusen said loudly behind me: "Xiao Ahong, I will come to you again!" I said in my heart, "Zhang Shusen, go to hell!" There was a cold voice in my ear saying: "He really deserves to die!" Is it the weasel or Wang Hairong's ghost speaking?I don't know, but besides them, who else?After I finished the sentence in my heart, I regretted it, and couldn't help worrying about Zhang Shusen's fate.That night, I suffered from insomnia again. Throughout the night, with my eyes wide open in horror, I always saw such a scene in front of my eyes: Zhang Shusen’s body was lying in a cold and dirty place, his eyes were closed, his whole body was stiff... I His hearty words kept ringing in my ears: "Xiao Ahong, I really like you—" Zhang Shusen really died, on that dreary night when I was watching the movie "Shaolin Temple".Several days later, someone found his decomposing body in the sewer of a small alley.Early in the morning, those who got up early found that the iron cover of the sewer in the small alley had been stolen, and then found that the sewer was emitting an unpleasant stench.The unpleasant stench attracted people's attention, and someone called the police, and the police took Zhang Shusen's body out of the sewer... Zhang Shusen's death finally became an unsolved mystery.The police also came to question me, trying to get some clues from me.In front of the police, I was very calm and told them everything I knew.After the police left, I hid in an unoccupied corner, trembling, and kept saying in my heart: "Xiao Ahong, you are a murderer! Zhang Shusen was killed by you! You can't escape the responsibility!" The fear in my heart tortured me mercilessly. I am alone, sometimes, I really wish the police would take me away and shoot me, so I would be completely free.I can no longer communicate with the weasel inside me, which hides deep, deep, in a dark cave that will never be restored.We refused to communicate with each other, and we were all wary of something, but when I didn't want it to appear, it would always appear, and it became a nightmare of my life. I felt world-weary and guilty like never before. This terrible world-weariness and guilt have accumulated bit by bit since I came to Shanghai, like a malignant tumor, which gradually grew in my body. After Zhang Shusen died, this huge malignant tumor exploded in my body, making me feel sick. I collapse! It was also a dull night, and I came to the Bund alone. The night on the Bund is still so beautiful, the brilliant lights, crowds of tourists, and the sound of steamship whistles, covering up death and misfortune, poverty and pain, struggle and disappointment, and... tonight, it will be me return date.I stood by the river, my heart of fear and haze gradually cleared up, and I heard a voice saying to me: "Ah Hong, come on, I am waiting for you here! Have you seen me, I am standing On the river in front of you, come quickly, I will take you away! Ah Hong, I will take you to a beautiful place where there is no fear, no pain and worry, where flowers are blooming and birds are singing non-stop …Come on, Ah Hong, you shouldn’t have come into this world, and you shouldn’t have endured so much suffering! Come on, you just need to jump down lightly, and I’ll catch you and fly you to that place An incomparably pure place, that is your paradise..." Yes, I saw it, right on the river in front of me, a person was standing on a white cloud, I couldn’t see the person’s real face clearly, it was blurry, I couldn’t hear who he was from the voice, I couldn’t tell Is male or female.Maybe it's Xiao Sanniang, maybe Wang Hairong, maybe it's an angel... No matter who it is, his call fascinates me and makes me go out of my body. I believe that as long as I jump down, I will be completely liberated! In an instant, happiness filled my mind and body, and I jumped into the turbid and cold Huangpu River, leaving a scream behind me...