Chapter 9 Chapter 8 A Faint Light in the Darkness

Facing the mysterious letters every day, Su Xiaosan became very interested. The fate of the woman named Xiao Ahong affected her heart. They were also abandoned just after birth, with different stories and differences. The same fate, but Xiao Ahong's fate seems to be much rougher than hers, Su Xiaosan is also very at a loss about the future, perhaps there are many difficulties waiting for her.She really wanted to find the person who sent the letter, but where to find it, there was no clue. There are many things she wants to do, such as designing the cover, which is the guarantee of her life and the most important thing!For example, Su Xiaosan wants to find her biological mother, and believes that she is still alive in this world. If she can be found, it has been a wish for many years.Xiao Sanniang is right, hatred is the most poisonous medicine in the world!Su Xiaosan felt that there was no need to hate her biological mother anymore, maybe her situation was more difficult than Mei Shan's at that time!This inner reconciliation came so quickly.In addition, Xiang Hanlan's death is still affecting Su Xiaosan's heart...

Su Xiaosan said to herself: "Forget about these things, let's happily participate in the festival's art exhibition today." Su Xiaosan hasn't done her makeup properly for a long time. She couldn't go to the Festival of Lights painting exhibition with her face up like this. Because she doesn't like heavy makeup, Su Xiaosan put on a little light makeup.The hair is neatly combed, a purple butterfly hair clip is pinned on the hair on the left side of the forehead, light eye shadow is applied, some mascara is applied, and a light layer of purple lipstick is applied.Facing the mirror, Su Xiaosan admired herself. In fact, she was still so young and so beautiful. The purple butterflies and purple lipstick on her hair made her look so mysterious and even charming. This was the effect she wanted.Su Xiaosan suddenly thought of something, and her heart trembled.She cursed softly: "Damn "Dark Kiss"!" Her eyes fell on her left cheek, and after making sure that there was no dark red hickey, she carried her bag and went out.

When Su Xiaosan went out, she glanced at Chen Huaiyuan. The bastard was still lying on the sofa with his eyes closed. He didn't know if he was awake or asleep.At this moment, Chen Huaiyuan is a ticking time bomb, if he doesn't leave, something will happen to Su Xiaosan sooner or later.Thinking of his eerie words at night, I was terrified. Fortunately, he didn't break into the door at night and hurt her.Su Xiaosan couldn't continue to think about it, it would destroy her mood, so she left in a hurry. Su Xiaosan came to Dongdaming Chuangku on Dongdaming Road, where Jiguang held an art exhibition.Su Xiaosan knows a thing or two about many old warehouses along the Suzhou Creek being transformed into studios and exhibition halls by some artists and painters, and has also been to some places.She once also hoped that she could rent an old warehouse, paint and sell paintings here, and communicate with painter friends who came here admiringly. Such a life is so free and comfortable.But she has no money, no fame, and no strength.She once discussed this idea with Xiang Hanlan. At that time, Xiang Hanlan smiled and said to her, "It's very simple. You break up with Chen Huaiyuan. You can just find a rich man. All problems will be solved. If you want, I'll be responsible for finding big money, hehe, I have a lot of big money on hand!Su Xiaosan didn't take her words seriously, but just laughed it off.Thinking about listening to Xiang Hanlan at that time, this wish might have come true.

The art exhibition was in the exhibition hall on the third floor of Dongda Ming Chuangku. Jieguang greeted the guests at the downstairs door with a smile on his face. There was a fat man with long hair standing beside him. Seeing Su Xiaosan, Jieguang was very happy, and quickly introduced her to the fat man beside him: "Brother Xiao, this is Su Xiaosan, my college classmate, talented and beautiful!" The fat man stretched out his hand to shake her hand: "My name is Xiao Su, and I'm a good friend of Jiguang. Brother Jie always mentions you to me, and I appreciate you a lot. When I saw you today, it was really amazing and refreshing!"

Jiguang said to her: "Xiao Shan, brother Xiao is the painter who helped me organize the art exhibition, he is a sincere person!" Su Xiaosan blushed and said with a smile: "Mr. Xiao, thank you for helping Jiguang!" Jiguang said: "Yes, brother Xiao is my nobleman." Xiao Su said frankly: "You guys are flattering me too much, I didn't do anything, it was just a little effort, the most important thing is that Brother Jie's paintings are good, and I admire him as a person." Jiguang said: "Brother Xiao, I am ashamed of what you said, no matter what aspect I have, I still have to work hard and strive to be the best!"

Xiao Su said: "Okay, let's not say so many polite words, brother Jie, you can go upstairs with Miss Su, and I will take care of you here." Jiguang smiled and said, "Then I have to ask Brother Xiao." Then she said to Su Xiaosan: "Xiaosan, let's go!" Su Xiaosan felt a sense of happiness in her heart. This kind of happiness allowed her to regain her long-lost confidence and self-esteem. In comparison, how gloomy and bleak her life in the past few years was! They were about to go upstairs when suddenly there was a roar: "Su Xiaosan, you stinky bitch!"

They turned around in unison! Su Xiaosan felt a "thump" in her heart: "Why did he come? Isn't he lying on the sofa and sleeping?" The one who roared was Chen Huaiyuan. I saw Chen Huaiyuan leaping towards them like a furious leopard, holding a red plastic bucket in his right hand.He rushed in front of them, grabbed the plastic bucket with both hands, and poured the dirty water in it on the head and face of the suit and leather shoes. Su Xiaosan screamed. She was confused by Chen Huaiyuan's crazy behavior, and also smelled a strong stench, which was the smell of urine, and the plastic bucket was filled with urine.

Xiao Su was stunned. Festival light also stayed. The people present also stared blankly at Chen Huaiyuan who was trembling all over. Su Xiaosan's face was pale, trembling with anger. Chen Huaiyuan laughed wildly and pointed at Jieguang, who was covered in dirty water, and said, "Su Xiaosan, is that the man you love? Did you go to bed with him that night?" Su Xiaosan yelled, "You rascal!" After speaking, he rushed forward and slapped Chen Huaiyuan's thin and livid face twice. A fierce light flashed in Chen Huaiyuan's eyes, he gritted his teeth and said, "How dare you fucking hit me!"

At this moment, Xiao Su stood in front of them, grabbed Chen Huaiyuan's collar, and growled, "You dare to go to this place to act wildly in broad daylight, you are looking for death!" Xiao Su's strength was great, Chen Huaiyuan held his hand with both hands, but he couldn't do it. Chen Huaiyuan said out of breath, "Let me go, let me go!" Several security guards rushed over and grabbed Chen Huaiyuan, only then did Xiao Su let go. Xiao Su said to the security guard, "Call the police." Jieguang calmed down and asked Su Xiaosan calmly, "Is he Chen Huaiyuan?"

Su Xiaosan felt very sorry for him, and nodded with tears in her eyes. Jiguang said to the security: "Let him go, don't call the police, let him go!" Xiao Su said: "Brother Jie, let's forget it, look at him making you piss all over! This is too cheap for him!" Ji Guang smiled and said heartily: "It's nothing, anyway, I'm not used to wearing a suit, so I just took the opportunity to change it. Let him go, isn't it just splashing some urine, it's no big deal!" Xiao Su roared: "Hurry up and get out!" The muscles on Chen Huaiyuan's face trembled, he gave Su Xiaosan a vicious look, and ran away.

Su Xiaosan was very embarrassed, and said to Jiguang in a low voice: "Jingguang, I'm sorry! I didn't expect him to follow me, I didn't expect him to do such a thing! Jiguang, I'm going back first!" Jiguang smiled and said: "Xiaosan, I really understand you now, your life is more difficult and painful than I imagined! It doesn't matter to me, I will go back and change clothes, the place I live is not far away, it will not affect anything! Don't go, you haven't seen my painting yet! How about this, you go up first, and I'll come back to accompany you after changing clothes. To be honest, it doesn't matter who comes or doesn't come today, the most important thing is that you can come! Promise me, don't leave, wait for me here!" Su Xiaosan nodded: "I'll wait for you." Watching Jieguang leave, Su Xiaosan was very worried, worried whether Chen Huaiyuan would pose any threat to him, but for Chen Huaiyuan, there was only one word left: Hate!She couldn't forgive Chen Huaiyuan, no matter what!After Su Xiaosan went upstairs, she didn't have the heart to look at those paintings of Jiguang, she was just worried about him!She sat silently in a corner, watching the people who watched the exhibition comment on the painting, feeling uneasy and ashamed. The festival comes while Su Xiaosan waits anxiously. When he entered the exhibition hall, there was a commotion, people's eyes were cast on him, and words of praise were said.Jieguang wore a black jacket, looking casual and spirited, without any pretentious elements.Su Xiaosan watched him surrounded by many people, and they were all talking with him enthusiastically.Su Xiaosan suddenly felt that she was very small, so small that she felt ashamed, and at this time, Jie Guang was like a prince, so radiant.Su Xiaosan had an idea: this is not her own place, so let's leave quietly!She stood up, lowered her head, and slipped towards the door like a thief who didn't want others to see her face.A strong body stood in front of her, and when Su Xiaosan looked up, he saw a sunny smiling face, and said in a thick voice: "Xiaosan, I kept you waiting, from now on, I will accompany you One person! In fact, it doesn’t matter to me whether to hold an art exhibition or not. Nowadays, many painters regard painting as a business and always hope that their paintings can be sold at a good price. I don’t think so. When I come to Shanghai, the most important thing is to see It's up to you!" Su Xiaosan's heart was sore, her eyes became hot, and two lines of tears rolled down quietly. That may be Su Xiaosan's happiest day in these years. As if nothing had happened, Jiguang took her cold hand and looked at every painting he exhibited.Before each painting, they would pause for a while, and Jiguang would tell her the time, place and mood of painting the painting, with many interesting stories interspersed.It was winter, and when I was painting a picture, it was already dark.When he turned on the light and returned to the easel, he found that the brush was missing. He searched for it for a long time, but couldn't find it.At this time, he smelled a scent, which was the scent wafting from the Chengdu girl's bar next door. Jiguang suddenly remembered that the Chengdu girl invited those who hadn't left Shangri-La to go home for the New Year to eat hot pot tonight.When he came to the bar, everyone was already gathered around the hot pot. The Chengdu girl laughed when she saw him, and said, "Can't you find the brush?" Jiguang looked at the yellow dog squatting beside her, and felt I understand, it took the paintbrush away, and it listens to the girls from Chengdu the most... Su Xiaosan asked, "Did that girl from Chengdu fall in love with you?" Jiguang smiled and said, "No, she Love every one of us who call Shangri-La home, she treats us as good brothers no matter male or female. She hasn't been back to Chengdu for several years. By the way, she has never worn a skirt, asking her to wear a skirt is simply It will kill her; she doesn't have a boyfriend, so asking her to talk about a boyfriend seems to kill her." Su Xiaosan said, "What a personality!" Ji Guang said, "Yes, we all like it very much. She." Su Xiaosan said again: "Then have you fallen in love with her?" After asking this, Su Xiaosan's face became hot.Jiguang said: "No, but we all regard her as our own sister! By the way, if you have the opportunity to come to Shangri-La in the future and meet her, you will definitely like her too!" Su Xiaosan has already started yearning for Shangri-La. On the way home, she kept thinking in her heart when she could make up her mind to go to that magical place, to see the Festival Light Inn and the clouds in the sky in his painting. It was like a distant dream. After all, Su Xiaosan has a dream, and those who have dreams will have a precious happiness. Su Xiaosan's sense of happiness quickly burst like soap bubbles. Back home, she saw this scene: the portrait Jiguang painted for Su Xiaosan on the wall was placed on the ground, and Chen Huaiyuan, with a livid face and fierce eyes, was holding a sharp dagger, spitting out vague words. With unclear words, he cut the portrait with the dagger in his hand, and the portrait was cut into pieces. Su Xiaosan opened her mouth wide and did not close it for a long time. The sharp blade in Chen Huaiyuan's hand was cutting her heart, and Su Xiaosan was in so much pain that she was about to suffocate. Chen Huaiyuan glanced at her, stood up with a smirk, and approached her. Will he kill himself?This thought flashed through Su Xiaosan's mind.She wanted to escape, but her feet seemed to be rooted, and she couldn't move; she wanted to shout, but something blocked her throat, and she couldn't shout! Chen Huaiyuan stroked her face lightly with the tip of the knife, and said sinisterly: "What a beautiful face, exuding a charming aura, which man would not be tempted to see it? It's a pity, no matter how beautiful it is, it can't be with you." I don't care anymore! This is really a shitty society, some people are rich and surrounded by beautiful women, while others are penniless and lonely! Xiaosan, do you think it's fair?" Su Xiaosan held her breath, really afraid that the tip of the knife would cut her face and then stab her chest. Chen Huaiyuan sighed suddenly, threw the dagger on the portrait, and said, "Xiao Shan, I won't kill you, no! I won't kill someone I love! Even if she doesn't love me anymore , even if she slept with many men! I won't kill you, no!" After speaking, he threw himself on the sofa, lay there, and closed his eyes. Su Xiaosan's tears flowed down. Looking at the fragmented portraits on the ground, he twitched all over and murmured: "How could you do this, how could you do this! You villain!" The more she thought about it, the angrier she became, Su Xiaosan suddenly bent down and picked up the dagger from the portrait. The dagger shone coldly. Holding the dagger tightly in her hand, she stood in front of Chen Huaiyuan, her chest heaving and falling.There are two voices shouting in my heart.A voice said: "Kill him, he is a demon, if you don't kill him, he will kill you sooner or later! Hurry up, what a chance, kill him, and you will be completely free! Kill him!" He, kill him—" Another voice said: "Xiao Shan, put down the knife in your hand, you can't do stupid things, can you live if you kill him? Killing people will pay for their lives! Put down the knife in your hand, Go back to your bedroom! Xiaosan, you have to remember that hatred is the most vicious drug, it will poison you and others! Put down the knife, give up the hatred in your heart, there will be a vast sea and sky in front of you -" Chen Huaiyuan opened his eyes, a sneer appeared on the corner of his mouth. He said in a hoarse voice: "Xiaosan, I don't want to live for a long time. To live is a walking dead, without dignity, without personality, without love, and I can't write poetry! To tell you the truth, I have wanted to end myself countless times. But I can't do it, I can't kill myself! I have long been looking forward to this day, to die by your hands! Do you know how happy it is to die by the hands of someone you love deeply, Happier than having sex with you! Kill me, Xiaosan, please kill me! Stab my heart, can you see clearly, this is the place, I will show you, this is the place, you As long as you stab this place with a little force, I will die and leave you forever. Hurry up, Xiaosan, hurry up, kill me—” Su Xiaosan's hands were shaking! The dagger in her hand fell to the ground. Su Xiaosan murmured: "You deserve to say love! Killing you dirty my hands!" She turned around, bent down, picked up the dilapidated portrait with both hands, walked into the bedroom, put the portrait on the bed, and then closed the door tightly and locked it.For safety's sake, she put the bedside table behind the door, she believed that Chen Huaiyuan was crazy, a crazy person could do anything. Chen Huaiyuan destroyed the most beautiful thing in her heart. Why did Su Xiaosan keep this portrait?Only now did I understand that she was saving a precious memory, a lost love.Everyone will keep such a precious thing in the bottom of their hearts. On many ordinary days, they will live tenaciously because of the love in their hearts. And what is Chen Huaiyuan keeping in his heart? Does he have love in his heart? Su Xiaosan remembered that when he was with him just now, his eyes were always wandering, and he felt that there were many things hidden in his heart.Su Xiaosan wanted to know some secrets in his heart, but soon, she gave up this idea, because Chen Huaiyuan would never tell her those things.Sometimes in the middle of the night, Chen Huaiyuan would have nightmares, and after waking up from the nightmares, he would sit on the bed and smoke in panic and bewilderment.Su Xiaosan asked him what nightmare he had, but he didn't say anything; Su Xiaosan wanted to comfort him, but he would push her away. With tears in her eyes, Su Xiaosan faced the portrait, stretched out her trembling hands, gently stroked the torn canvas, and couldn't help but think of the bronze-colored face exuding the smell of sunshine. Just then, Jiguang called. Jieguang's thick voice is like a ray of light shining through the darkness. Su Xiaosan saw a glimmer of hope. But how long can this hope last? Jiguang will soon leave this materialistic city and return to the distant Shangri-La.After he left, could Su Xiaosan still hear his thick voice?or…… Every morning when I wake up, I hope to hear Xiao Sanniang's hoarse calling. "Ah Hong, don't stay in bed, get up and have breakfast—" The words that are plain but full of maternal love echoed over and over again in the wilderness of my heart.My eyes could no longer see that ugly face.It was a lonely day, as if everything had left me, I was like dust floating in the air, without any support.Yes, I became a helpless person again.That man named Gu Xin, he kept coming to see me, and even asked me to move to live in his house, saying that his house was very big and he lived alone, so that I didn’t need to live in the unit’s dormitory .Why should I listen to him?I don't hate him anymore, but I don't recognize him as my father, so I can't accept this reality.Gu Xin is ready to fight a protracted war, and every time he leaves, he will say: "I will not give up, Ah Hong, you are my daughter, and you will always be!" I looked at him indifferently, feeling that his words were very False, from childhood to adulthood, he has never taken care of her for a day, and he has not fulfilled the responsibility of a father, so what kind of feelings can he have?Even if there is, that kind of feeling is also fabricated by him. Since I worked in the library of Xunan District, the library has become much more lively.In fact, there have always been many people in the library. It was an era when all people read books.One day, my colleague Wang Xiaoyan pulled me to a corner mysteriously, and asked mysteriously: "Ah Hong, do you know why there are so many people here recently, and they are all young men?" I shook my head.I just do what I should do silently and rarely think about other issues.Wang Xiaoyan smiled and said: "Ah Hong, it's all because of you!" I said blankly, "Because of me?" Wang Xiaoyan nodded: "Yes, it's because of you! Who made you look so beautiful, those young people I came to borrow books just to see you and get close to you, don’t you feel it yourself?” My face was hot: “No way——” Wang Xiaoyan twitched her lips and said, “Are you pretending to be stupid? They will return it to you I have a nickname!" I said softly, "What nickname?" Wang Xiaoyan smiled and said, "Leng Meiren!" I murmured, "Leng Meiren——" Wang Xiaoyan touched my hand: "Hey , I think you can find someone among these young boys!" I was speechless. Wang Xiaoyan is a few years older than me and has a three-year-old daughter.She is not ugly, with some freckles on her round face.In the library, I seldom talk to my colleagues, and the one who talks to me the most is Wang Xiaoyan.She likes to talk, she likes to talk to anyone, even people who come to borrow books, sometimes she will talk a lot.When her lips kept moving, I would think, how can she talk so much, isn't she tired of talking so much?Talking may be the happiest thing in her life, and I understand her.The problem is I don't like her talking to me.I feel inexplicably irritable when I hear people talking too much. This may be related to my growth experience. During those difficult years, people in the village did not talk to me, and Xiao Sanniang was also reticent. My life was basically Life without language.The shadow of this life has always affected me, and sometimes, I even think that words are superfluous. The reason why I don't like Wang Xiaoyan talking to me is that he endlessly mentions the matter of marriage to me.She always said to me quietly: "Ah Hong, hurry up and find a man to marry. Now the unit has built a new house. As long as you get married, you can get a two-bedroom suite. What a beautiful thing! If so You don’t want to live in the dormitory, think about it, how inconvenient it is to live in the dormitory, the kitchen is shared, the toilet is also shared, how inconvenient, I don’t have any private space.” I don’t know how to answer her, I It's impossible to just find someone to marry just for that house. Besides, I don't think there's anything wrong with living in a single dormitory, and I don't want to get married. Regardless of whether I agree or not, Wang Xiaoyan will introduce a partner to me. She showed me pictures of those men, and described every man as a prince charming who had to be married.I rejected it several times, but she still continued to show me pictures of some men.I was forced to have no choice, so I picked a photo at random, and said lightly, "This is the one!" Wang Xiaoyan's eyes lit up, "Oh, Ah Hong, you really have vision! His name is Luo Zhen, but he is one in a million. He is a technician from the Red Star Factory, and he is also a new Long March Assaulter in the factory, and he often goes to Beijing to attend the commendation meeting!" I don’t care what he is as an Assaulter, just deal with Wang Xiaoyan. But Wang Xiaoyan took it seriously and arranged for us to meet. It was a Sunday, and we made an appointment to meet in Liuzhou Park.It was agreed at ten o'clock in the morning, and I would arrive at nine fifty. Wang Xiaoyan and Luo Zhen arrived earlier and waited for me at the gate of the park.After we met, after Wang Xiaoyan introduced us to each other, the matchmaker evaded and slipped away.When Wang Xiaoyan was present, I wasn't so embarrassed, but when she left, I felt uncomfortable.Luo Zhen is tall, a little thin, with parted hair, a pair of glasses with deep myopia, and a dark gray Chinese tunic suit, looking elegant.To be honest, I don't like this kind of man. He is not lively and lifeless. In my impression, Wang Hairong is the most energetic man.Still, I didn't leave right away.I walked into the park with him.Luo Zhen didn't dare to look at me directly, his face was very red, as if he was being scorched by a fire, and beads of sweat appeared on his forehead.Seeing that he was so nervous, I was not so nervous. It was a routine meeting anyway, so why did I make myself so uncomfortable.We walked halfway through the park without saying a word, and he kept wiping the sweat from his forehead with a small handkerchief.I broke the silence between us and said to him: "Let's sit for a while, it's too tiring to walk like this." Luo Zhen was flattered and said: "Okay, okay, let's sit, sit!" He sat down on the bench under the camphor tree.He is still panicked, this is not a blind date, he is here to be tortured, I can't help feeling a little sympathetic to this honest man.So I said: "How old are you?" He said: "28." I asked: "Are you a native of Shanghai?" He said: "Yes." I asked: "How many people are there in the family?" He said: " Four members, parents, and a younger sister." I asked, "Where do you work?" He said, "Red Star Factory." I asked, "What do you do in the factory?" He said, "Technician." I asked : "Do you like reading?" He said: "Yes." I asked: "What book do you like to read?" He said: "." I said: "I haven't read it." Q: "Are you surprised?" He said: "No, no—" I asked: "Then why are you 'ah'?" He wiped his sweat and pointed to the other side, and I saw a man and a woman hugging each other Kissing together, my face suddenly became hot, I didn't want to say anything, I only had one thought, to leave this dull man.He suddenly said: "I, I'm going to buy popsicles for you to eat!" Then he left quickly.After waiting for a long time, I saw him walking towards me with several popsicles in his hands.When he passed by the pond, I suddenly thought: Will he fall into the pond.Before my thoughts disappeared from my mind, Rozen staggered and fell into the pond.I was startled in my heart, didn't the weasel leave my body?When Luo Zhen was thumping up in the pond, I stood up and walked out of the park quickly.I thought to myself, I am an ominous person who will bring harm to the men who approach me!If Luo Zhen fell into the sea and he couldn't swim, wouldn't I owe another life.Maybe I have been lonely all my life, and it is impossible to live a happy married life with any man! The next day, I went to work with anxiety.Wang Xiaoyan pulled me aside and asked with a smile: "Ah Hong, how did you talk yesterday?" I blushed and said, "Not very good." Satisfy it! It doesn't matter, sister will introduce you to a better one!" I took her hand and begged: "Sister Xiaoyan, please don't introduce me to someone again, okay? I beg you! Really, Miss Xiaoyan, I don’t want to meet anyone, and I don’t want to share the house, please don’t introduce me to someone! Okay?” Wang Xiaoyan stared at me blankly: “Did you have one by yourself? Boyfriend, have you kept it a secret?" I shook my head.She was puzzled and said: "Then why?" I said: "It's nothing, it's just that I don't want to talk about friends so early." Wang Xiaoyan smiled and said: "Well, I don't worry about it anymore." I still haven't gotten rid of Wang Xiaoyan's entanglement, she still introduces me to someone again and again, and arranges for me to go on a blind date.Every time I go on a blind date, there will always be problems with the man I'm on a blind date with. I'm always afraid that some kind of power in the dark will take their lives.I lived in fear again, the weasel must have never left me, it just hid silently in my body, and there was Wang Hairong's soul.Until now, I haven't found a place for him to put his soul, this is my sin!My life is a crime.When I was born, my mother Mei Shan died, and later Zhu Nanhai also died because of me, poor Zhao Yan, innocent Li Wenping, and even Xiao Sanniang who raised me up, her death was also related to me ...I really don't want to see people continue to suffer for me, I am a disaster! I don't want to hurt anyone, but I actually hated Wang Xiaoyan. I think if she disappears from the library, she won't bother me anymore.I just hope that her husband will become a high-ranking official and let her go home to take care of her husband and raise her children, or transfer her away from the Qingshui yamen of the library... I never thought that she would really leave the library and this world.Not long after, Wang Xiaoyan was hit by a car and died not far from my dormitory on a rainy night. According to her husband, she went out that rainy night to introduce a partner to a colleague. She found a very good guy, and she didn't have time to wait until tomorrow to go to work, so she went out excitedly that night. Unexpectedly, she went out again after going out. Did not go home either.I know, she should come to me!I fell into darkness again, and the tide of fear submerged me again! I didn't see Wang Xiaoyan's bloody body lying in the cold rain, and I didn't dare to attend her memorial service.During that time, every night, I would dream that she stretched out her blood-stained hands, twisted that broken face, threw herself in front of me, and said sadly: "Ah Hong, I will introduce you to someone. I won’t let you down.” I saw a row of gloomy men in black standing behind her, their faces were ashen, and they said grimly: “We are all outstanding young people——” Every time I woke up from the nightmare, I would go to the window and look at the place where Wang Xiaoyan had an accident. I seemed to see her standing on the street wet all over, calling out to me.My heart twitched coldly, and I said tremblingly: "Sister Xiaoyan, please forgive me, please forgive me—" I drew the curtains. Sitting there, gasping for breath. Who will light a lamp for me in such a dark and terrifying night? Even if it is a light like a bean.