Chapter 8 Chapter 7 Hatred is the most poisonous medicine in the world

Later, I always felt that there were big red clouds floating across the sky, and those auspicious red clouds slowly drifted towards the western sky, and gradually condensed into a gorgeous sunset glow.Xiao Sanniang sat on the red cloud, her ugly face became dignified and beautiful, showing a loving smile, like a Bodhisattva, looking down at the earth and me, as if to tell that she has completely escaped the sea of ​​suffering. After graduating from university, he stayed in Shanghai and was assigned to work in the library of Xunan District.This made the students very surprised. Many students returned to their hometowns, and very few were able to stay and work in Shanghai.In the eyes of many people, I am lucky, who knows that this is a serious disaster for me!

Before starting work, I went back to Yezhuao Village.From the moment I stepped on the train, I felt a pair of eyes watching me from behind, and looking back, I saw the faces of strangers.Along the way, the weasel in the body and Wang Hairong's soul were restless. They were afraid of going back to Yezhuao Village and my witch mother.I comforted them, and promised that they would not suffer any harm, and promised not to abandon them.After getting off the train, it took more than two hours to get to the mountain town by car, and then it took more than three hours to walk on the mountain road to reach Yezhu'ao Village, which was not accessible by car at that time.Walking on the mountain road, the wild wind was messy, and I imagined what kind of expression Xiao Sanniang would have after seeing her.I kept looking back, afraid that someone was really following me.

Xiao Sanniang, dressed in black, was waiting for me in the valley at dusk, with the gorgeous sunset behind her.She faced the shadowy place where I came from. In the distance, Xiao Sanniang's thin body came into my eyes, and her white hair fluttered in the sunlight.I yelled, "Mom—" Run over!The weasel and Wang Hairong's souls in the body fell silent, and all I heard was my frantic heartbeat.Running in front of Xiao Sanniang, I stopped, suddenly at a loss.She was as old as a dead tree, with no expression on her face, she just said lightly: "Ah Hong, you're back." I couldn't say anything, and tears flowed down my face silently.Xiao Sanniang said softly again: "Don't cry, go home." After speaking, she snatched the bag from my hand, carried it on her shoulder, turned around and walked towards the village.I followed her silently, feeling extremely painful in my heart.

Our home is on the hillside at the east end of the village, keeping some distance from the village in the Wild Boar Valley.Seeing the old house with earthen walls and black tiles hidden in the bushes, a desolate song floated in my heart. The house is also alive. I always think so. It lives as hard as Xiao Sanniang, from young to old.When he was approaching the door of his house, he met Li Wenping who was returning to the village from the mountains with a load of dry firewood.He became thick and dark, and he completely became an authentic mountain man.He glared at me with fierce eyes, and left without looking back. His eyes would not be like this before.What would it have been like if he had been admitted to university like me?

Xiao Sanniang pushed open the door, and a strong fragrance came out. That is my favorite stewed chicken with angelica. Xiao Sanniang has worked so hard to welcome me with stewed chicken with angelica every time I go home.Only in Yezhuao Village can you eat the best Angelica stewed chicken, and only at home can you eat Angelica stewed chicken full of maternal love!After putting down the luggage, Xiao Sanniang fetched a basin of warm water and asked me to wash my face.After washing off the road dust, I sat at the dining table and began to enjoy the delicious stewed chicken with angelica.While I was feasting, Xiao Sanniang was sitting opposite, looking at me intently.That was her happiest moment, the more delicious I ate, the happier she was.

Before I finished eating, Xiao Sanniang said: "Ah Hong, you eat slowly, I will go to work at Li Laosi's house in the village first. Don't clean up after you finish eating. I will clean up when I get home. You have a good rest. After sitting in the car for so long and walking so far, I am very tired!" I said, "Mom, stop working for the villagers. I will have a job soon, and I can support you. You have worked hard all your life, and you should enjoy the blessing of a daughter." Xiao Sanniang said: "People in the village have something to do, we can't ignore it."

After finishing speaking, she carried a cloth bag on her back, walked out of the house with a mahogany sword in her hand, and disappeared into the darkness.After Xiao Sanniang left, I felt a little lost and panicked, and couldn't swallow any delicious food.As in past years, I worried that something unpredictable would happen to her.Since I was a child, I have never seen Xiao Sanniang do anything except that time when weasels surrounded her. She didn't allow me to go, maybe because she didn't want me to inherit her mantle when I grew up, or there were other wishes. I walked out of the house with a curiosity.

The mountain breeze in summer night is chilly and very pleasant.I hit the flashlight and walked to the village.After walking for a while, I felt that something was wrong, and there was always a slight rustling sound coming from behind.I stopped and took a picture with my flashlight, but there was nothing, and the sound disappeared.I suddenly shivered, as if I had been hit by something.Xiao Sanniang told me since I was a child, never look back when walking at night.If you look back, your soul will be easily hooked away by ghosts.There are many legends about ghosts in Yezhuao Mountain. According to the legend, at the location of my old house, a Red Army soldier was beheaded in this forest.On many dark and stormy nights, he would show up, wandering in the mountains and villages with his head in one hand, and screaming, "Give me back my life, give me my life back—" Later the village came An old Taoist built a house in this place, and he lived here alone, and the ghost was at peace.After the old Tao died, the ghosts began to appear again, and it was not until Xiao Sanniang lived in this house that the ghosts returned to tranquility.

Will the ghost wandering around in the dark with his own head reappear in this night?I had bouts of chills. Since I was a child, Xiao Sanniang never let me go out of the house alone at night, for fear that I would walk into the grave if I walked.Although I have studied in college for several years, I am still a spiritualist. I believe that there are weird things in this world, such as ghosts.I didn't dare to look back, and quickened my pace, and there was another slight rustling sound from behind. I was so frightened that the hairs on my body stood on end.At this time, a voice came from within: "Don't be afraid, don't be afraid—"

Instead of stopping my fear, the voice inside me made me more afraid. I actually ran up. The faster you run, the tighter the voice behind you will follow, like the wind.I didn't dare to look back at all until I ran into the village.After entering the village, I was still in shock and out of breath.People in the village gathered around the door of Mr. Li's house to watch the fun.Their expressions were solemn, and their eyes were full of horror.In this poor and backward village, after the "Cultural Revolution", the villagers' views on Xiao Sanniang have fundamentally changed, and her status has become as important as the village head Li Da, which is the folk.

The villagers were so absorbed that they didn't pay attention to me. I just stood in the crowd and, like them, watched what was going to happen in front of me.It turned out that Li's fourth daughter-in-law was suffering from hysteria and developed purpura every now and then. She went to the hospital in the county town but was not optimistic about it.Mr. Li's home and yard were brightly lit, as if it were daytime.There is a square table in the middle of the yard, on which are incense burners and offerings, and many yellow mounting papers with spells on them... The thin Xiao Sanniang has disheveled hair, a white mask, and a loose suit. Dressed in colorful cloth, holding a bell in one hand and a mahogany sword in the other... She stood in front of the altar, trembling all over, chanting incantations that people could not understand.The mahogany sword in her hand pointed at the censer, and Li Laosi next to him killed a big rooster, and sprinkled the chicken blood on the yellow mounting paper, and also on Xiao Sanniang. The white mask on her face It was also splattered with chicken blood, which looked very scary!After a while, Xiao Sanniang was ringing the bell, waving the mahogany sword, speaking hoarsely that no one could understand. Come out... It's hard to imagine, a haggard and thin old woman with such huge energy, is it really possessed by a god? ... Xiao Sanniang finished the practice, packed up her things and walked out of Li Laosi's courtyard gate, and saw me with tears all over her face.She sighed, took my hand, and walked out of the village under the eyes of everyone.Back home, Xiao Sanniang slumped on the chair and closed her tired eyes.I said anxiously: "Mom, are you okay?" She waved to me.I knelt in front of her, buried my head in her lap, and sobbed, "Mum, I'll never let you do this again, never—" She didn't speak, just stroked my hair gently with pine bark-like hands. I never thought that this was the last time she would caress my hair so lovingly. Chen Huaiyuan did not leave Su Xiaosan's house.Instead, he lay on the sofa and fell asleep, neither eating nor drinking.Su Xiaosan shouted loudly in front of him: "Chen Huaiyuan, do you know where I went last night? Let me tell you, I went to sleep with a man! You should get out!" She just used such vicious words to provoke him , he was still indifferent, Chen Huaiyuan's indifference made Su Xiaosan stand on the verge of collapse. Su Xiaosan is full of hatred for him! But he was terrified of this sleeping man. He posed a great threat to her. She tried to calm herself down, facing everything, she had to be like this, there was no way out. Su Xiaosan even thought this way: Did Chen Huaiyuan kill Xiang Hanlan?The cruelty of the thought made her dizzy.In her world, everyone she could trust was dead, and Chen Huaiyuan who was lying in her home was the person she feared the most!He was also her favorite person ever! Su Xiaosan doesn't want to provoke him anymore, he can sleep as long as he likes, maybe one day, after he wakes up, he will bury this dead love and leave her home happily.Or one day he was arrested by the police and sentenced to death or something, and he would never bother her again.Su Xiaosan moved the computer into the bedroom, locked the bedroom door, and went about her own business here. Life must go on and she must work hard.In order to prevent Chen Huaiyuan from breaking the door and invading her, Su Xiaosan took a kitchen knife and put it within her reach. As long as he dared to come in, she would chop his head with the kitchen knife. Putting a knife in the room gave Su Xiaosan some psychological comfort. If something came out of the closet, she could also use a kitchen knife to deal with it, but she was still worried that the dark red hickey would reappear on her left cheek, causing her hair to grow. Itchy and rotten.She didn't dare to turn off the lights when she went to sleep at night. It was safer to turn on the lights, as many mysterious things happened in the dark. At noon, Su Xiaosan remembered the portrait of herself hanging on the wall in the outer hall.Thinking of that portrait naturally reminds me of the person who painted it.She patted her head and said to herself, "Why can't I remember his name?" His appearance was also blurred.Su Xiaosan sighed: "Am I getting old? Have I become dull?" Thinking of that classmate who forgot his name, Su Xiaosan felt desolate. Su Xiaosan didn't understand why he suddenly thought of this person, whether there was any hint.She has a strong desire to call him and ask him if he still remembers himself, is it also at this moment that he suddenly thinks of the little girl who once painted her portrait? Just then, her cell phone rang. It can't be Wangba, right? An unfamiliar number was displayed on the phone screen.Wang Ba told her that Guiguzi, the author of "Dark Kiss", had a strong crush on her. Could it be that he told Guiguzi Su Xiaosan's cell phone number? In any case, Su Xiaosan felt very special, as if someone was calling in her heart.This is a very strange feeling, uneasy and excited. She took the phone in her hand and pressed the answer button. "Are you Su Xiaosan?" A thick man's voice. "Are you—" Su Xiaosan asked. "Haha, I'm your old classmate, guess who I am?" the man said with a smile. Could it be a liar? Some liars often call you and deliberately ask you to guess who he is. If you say your name, he will take advantage of the situation and say that he is the person you said, and then start cheating , such as finding some excuse to borrow money from you.Today's liars are all-pervasive, hard to guard against, and extremely hateful. Su Xiaosan hesitated for a moment and said, "I can't guess, sorry! If you don't tell me, I'll die!" The man said anxiously: "Su Xiaosan, don't hang up first, I said, I'm Jiguang!" "Jiguang?" Su Xiaosan murmured, "How is that possible?" Jiguang is the male classmate who painted her portrait, Su Xiaosan couldn't believe it, she was still thinking about him just now, and tried hard to remember his name, how did she call in the blink of an eye, it's really amazing. Jiguang said: "Su Xiaosan, I am really Jiguang! I came to Shanghai to hold an art exhibition. When I was shopping in a bookstore, I saw a book with a very strange cover. When I picked it up, it turned out to be designed by you. Thinking of you If you are from Shanghai, I assume you are in Shanghai. I called the publishing house on the copyright page of the book, and they said they didn’t know, saying that you were not an American editor in their agency. I asked how I could find you. To be polite, he gave me the phone number of Century Dynasty Book Company, saying that they might know about it. Fortunately, the people from the book company asked me about my situation and gave me your mobile phone number. It’s really tortuous!" Su Xiaosan felt very emotional in her heart, feeling inexplicably moved. What does it mean that the festival of light appears at this time? He was like a ray of sunshine shining in Su Xiaosan's gloomy heart. Su Xiaosan knocked over the five-flavor bottle in her heart, and she had all the sweet, sour, bitter and spicy tastes: "Thank you for remembering me." Jiguang said brightly: "I will never forget it! By the way, are you free this afternoon? Can we meet up?" Su Xiaosan said without hesitation: "I'm free, I'm free!" When Su Xiaosan walked into the Sapphire Cafe, Jiguang was already sitting there.He still recognized her at a glance, stood up, and waved to her.Su Xiaosan smiled and walked over quickly.Jiguang left his seat, walked over, and shook hands with her. Her soft hand was cold, and Jiguang's heart trembled.They said almost at the same time; "You haven't changed much!" However, Su Xiaosan said one more sentence: "You are darker than before, much stronger, and more masculine!" Jiguang pulled out the chair and let her take a seat, then returned to his seat and said with a smile: "Xiaosan, you are still so charming!" Su Xiaosan blushed, looking shy: "Where—" Jiguang's eyes were burning: "Really, it's still the same as it was three years ago, it's heart-wrenching." Su Xiaosan said: "Yes, it has been three years since we graduated, how time flies! By the way, tell me what you have done in the past three years." Jiguang said: "After graduation, I worked for a period of time in the mass art museum in our province, and then left soon. The reason is that there is such a Qingshui yamen, and it is very boring. I like a free life. Later, I went to help a friend copy oil paintings of famous foreign masters and sell them to some hotels for decoration. It’s no problem to dawdle like this, but I just feel that it’s boring, no matter how good the copying is, it’s not my own thing, so I gave up. Later, I went to many places, Inner Mongolia, Xinjiang, Tibet, Sichuan... Finally settled in Shangri-La in Yunnan, rented a residence in the ancient city, and opened a small inn, which has been up to now." Su Xiaosan's eyes shone with longing: "This kind of life is really desirable! By the way, does the small inn you run make money?" Jiguang smiled and said: "If you tell me, maybe you won't believe it. You can't make a lot of money by opening that inn. There is only a few months of business in a year. In winter, no one comes. In that place, what you are looking for is a A state of life, not money. The people who live in my inn are all people who have a relationship with me. We drink together and go to Tiaoguozhuang on Sifang Street in the ancient city. Sunshine, low-hanging white clouds, prayer flags, undulating hillsides... Do you know, a friend said that the clouds there will emit a dazzling light in the blue sky; the hillsides full of wild flowers are like a woman's plump and round body , is fascinating." Su Xiaosan said: "It's so beautiful. I wanted to go there several times, but I didn't make it. I thought, if I go to that place, I might live in your inn. It would be so interesting to meet there!" Jiguang said: "Yes, then I will take you to see Meili Snow Mountain. Every time I take my friends to see Meili Snow Mountain, I will make a wish on the main peak of the sacred mountain." Su Xiaosan said, "What wish did you make?" Jiguang said: "I can't tell you, and I can't tell anyone else, otherwise it won't work." Su Xiaosan said: "Okay, I'll let you keep this a secret. Jiguang, you said you're here for an art exhibition?" Jiguang said: "Yes. I live in Shangri-La and have painted a lot of oil paintings. All of my paintings are clouds in the plateau sky. Every cloud gives me endless imagination, and I feel that those clouds have souls. The walls of the inn are covered with my paintings, and the guests who live in the inn like them very much. Foreign friends often buy my paintings. In summer, a Shanghai painter came to Shangri-La to sketch and lived in my inn. I really liked my paintings, so I asked me if I wanted to hold a painting exhibition. After hearing what he said, I smiled and said, painting exhibitions are a fantasy for me. I have never thought about this question. He took it very seriously. Tell me, do you really want to? I said, don’t make fun of me! He said seriously, I’m not making fun of you, do you know how good your paintings are, I can touch the plateau from your paintings I touched your soul! I was stunned to hear it, he spoke too highly of me. A girl from Chengdu who runs a bar next door to me always said that my paintings were not as vivid as real clouds, but he put my paintings I boasted to the sky. I said to him, if possible, let’s do it! He asked me to wait and do it for me when I returned to Shanghai. Unexpectedly, he really did it for me, so I came here !" Su Xiaosan said: "I really envy you, Jiguang, you still make me admire!" Jiguang smiled heartily: "Hahaha, if you really admired me, you wouldn't have rejected me then." Su Xiaosan blushed again: "At that time, I really didn't admire you, and even hated you a little. You secretly drew my portrait, and even said you loved me in front of so many classmates. At that time, I thought you were crazy." Jiguang sighed and said: "Yeah, I was crazy at the time. I didn't expect that after a few years, I still miss you. However, it is a great comfort that you agreed to come out to see me today. I am very satisfied." ! You are still so shy, so melancholy. Well, I have told you what should be said, tell me about yourself! How have you lived all these years?" Su Xiaosan's face darkened. Jiguang said with concern: "Xiaosan, what's the matter? If you don't want to talk about it, then don't talk about it. Let's talk about something happy!" Su Xiaosan calmed down, and said with a wry smile: "Let's talk about it, maybe it's more comfortable to say it, now it's even harder to find someone to talk to! Besides, if I don't say it, it's unfair to you, and you won't So much has been said." Jiguang said: "It's not fair, don't force yourself." Su Xiaosan said: "Actually, there is nothing special about it. After graduation, I worked for a newspaper office for a while, and I quit like you. Later, I drew illustrations and designed covers for book companies at home. I am a quiet person. People, don't like to be busy, it's good to be able to do something at home. However, I made a boyfriend and lived with me... He didn't give me anything, but made me scarred! I hate myself , I really hate myself, why am I so stupid!" Seeing the tears in Su Xiaosan's eyes, Jiguang picked up a tissue and handed it to her. Su Xiaosan took the facial tissue, wiped her eyes, and said softly, "You won't laugh at me, will you?" Jiguang shook his head and said, "How could it be!" There was also a sparkle in his eyes. Su Xiaosan said sadly: "Now I feel very incompetent, very scared!" Jiguang stretched out his hand, held her cold hand on the table, and said in a low voice: "You are the best woman, believe in yourself! I can really understand your mood!" Su Xiaosan felt that his hands were particularly warm, the warmth she had not seen for a long time: "Thank you, your sudden appearance surprised me and gave me some hope. I am not someone who no one cares about. Do you know that I The one and only best girlfriend is also dead, just a few days ago, we found her body in her home...the case is still unsolved. Her death hit me so hard, I don't know what will happen to me Not like her. She is such a beautiful woman, cheerful and generous, caring for me in every possible way. She is not from Shanghai, but she loves Shanghai more than Shanghainese. She said that she is very energetic in Shanghai and likes the way of life here , is such a person who loves life and loves Shanghai, but died in this place inexplicably. I can't accept it. Really, I still don't believe that she has passed away, as if she is coming towards us. If you see her, you will like her too!" Jiguang still held her hand tightly, as if melting a piece of ice. He said: "Don't be sad, living well is the greatest respect for the dead! Your state is indeed very bad. If you continue like this, you will collapse! If possible, you should go to Shangri-La to live for a while. In that place, your heart will become pure, like the sky, white clouds, and air there. The sacred mountain will give you strength and make you forget all pain!" Su Xiaosan smiled and said, "I will definitely go if I have the chance!" ... As they talked, a pair of burning eyes watched them with anger and hatred from behind the plane trees outside the window. Su Xiaosan had dinner with Jieguang, and then took him to a bar on Hengshan Road for a drink, before returning home very late.Jiguang was worried that she would go home alone, so she sent Su Xiaosan to the gate of the community, watched her enter the community, and then took a taxi back to the hotel. When Su Xiaosan entered the community, he found that weird and weird person again.In the corner on the left of the gate of the community, he was still dressed in black, unkempt, leaning on a stick, staring blankly at her. The dim streetlights made his face ghastly and terrifying.Su Xiaosan took a special look at his eyes, both eyeballs were intact.Tonight, because of the festival, she didn't feel how scary this mysterious man was, but she was a little uneasy.Thinking of the healthy sunshine-like breath exuding from Jieguang's body, Su Xiaosan thought that this was the most secure day in her life, and she had a subconscious desire that such days could last for a long time, instead of being like a A movie, it will be over soon. Back home, Su Xiaosan glanced at the sofa, Chen Huaiyuan was still lying there like a dead man, motionless.A sense of extreme disgust suddenly rose in her heart. Compared with the generous and cheerful Jieguang, Chen Huaiyuan is a wretched trash!Before entering the door, she still hoped that he would have disappeared knowingly after returning home, Su Xiaosan was very disappointed, Chen Huaiyuan ruined a lot of the good mood she got from Jieguang.Su Xiaosan dismissed him and walked into the bedroom alone. She thought that she should have a good sleep tonight, and go to the Festival of Lights tomorrow full of energy. Su Xiaosan lay on the bed after taking a shower, imagining the sunshine and white clouds in Shangri-La... and fell asleep very quickly. Su Xiaosan has been sleepy since she was a child, as long as there is a little sound, she will wake up.After sleeping for an unknown amount of time, she was awakened by some sound. She sat up from the bed in a jiggle, and reached out to grab the kitchen knife on the bedside table. Because she didn't turn off the lights before going to bed, she could see the scene in the bedroom at a glance.There was nothing in the bedroom, and there was no movement in the wardrobe. The sound came from the hall outside. Su Xiaosan got off the bed gently, holding a kitchen knife in her hand, tiptoed to the door, put her ear on the door, held her breath, and listened to the voices in the hall outside. It was Chen Huaiyuan who was crying. He was crying and saying something in a hoarse voice. "I want you to die!...Death, you must die!...You, how can you treat me like this!...What's the point of living!...I've lived enough, I've lived enough!...This is a Fucking society! Fucking people!...You are really shameless! Make me angry...I want you to die! You must die!...The price, you have to pay a heavy price..." Listening to his words, Su Xiaosan trembled all over! Accidentally, the kitchen knife in her hand fell to the ground with a bang. The sound outside stopped abruptly. Su Xiaosan's heart rose to her throat, and she felt that Chen Huaiyuan was walking towards the bedroom. Would he break down the door, rush in and kill himself? Xiang Hanlan's rotting corpse lying on the ground came to her mind, Su Xiaosan opened her eyes wide in horror, the reality is more frightening than the novel "Dark Kiss"! The Wild Boar River flows quietly, leaving a deep pool at the corner at the foot of the mountain. The green and black pool water seems to hide many secrets.People in the village call it Black Dragon Pool.When I was young, Xiao Sanniang often warned me not to play by the edge of the Black Dragon Pool, if I fell, I would die.One or two swimmers are drowned here every summer, and the dead are basically bold teenagers who think they are good at water.Sometimes, I would look at the Black Dragon Pool from a distance and wonder why Li Wenping, who dared to swim in the Black Dragon Pool since he was a child, did not drown.It's a vicious and cruel thought, but I did. It was a quiet afternoon, I walked out of the house alone, and looked towards the Black Dragon Pool.The Black Dragon Pool under the sun is like a huge mirror, shining brightly. There are no swimmers in the Black Dragon Pool.I suddenly wanted to be close to it, growing up in the wild boar col country, but never being close to it.In an instant, I was tempted by Heilongtan, and walked towards Heilongtan in a strange way.When I was approaching the Black Dragon Pool, a handsome young man suddenly appeared in front of my eyes.The boy was pale and dressed in purple, sitting on the sand by the pool and smiling at me.That smile warms my heart.I walk over to him.Near him, he stood up and faced me with a green light in his eyes.I was surprised to find that he was wearing paper clothes, which were the ghost clothes given to the dead by the villagers.He stretched out his hand towards me and said softly: "Ah Hong, come on, I'll take you to play in the water, I'm too lonely by myself, they don't want to play with me." I stretched out my hand to him in confusion His hands were so cold and wet that water oozed from his palms.He took my hand and walked towards the pool.The cool water covered my ankles, calves, and knees... The weasel and Wang Hairong's soul in me were screaming, trying to prevent me from being submerged in the pool, but they couldn't do anything!I didn't feel any danger, but a special joy filled my body and mind, and I was willing to be dragged into the water by the purple-clothed boy.When the pool of water was about to overflow my nose, I heard a shout: "Ah Hong, it's dangerous! Go ashore—" A man rushed over, jumped off the Black Dragon Pond desperately, and fished me up when I was about to drown.I stood wet in the midday sun, staring at the calm water surface of the Black Dragon Pool. The boy's pale face floated on the water surface, and his sad eyes touched my heartstrings.The person who saved me was Li Wenping. He stood in front of me and stared at me blankly.He seemed to understand something, looked back towards the water, but saw nothing.He yelled towards the surface of the water: "What a lonely ghost, come out to harm people in broad daylight!" Then, he turned his head, stretched out his hand, shook my shoulder vigorously, and said anxiously: "Ah Hong, wake up!" ——" I was indifferent, I couldn't feel his existence, I only heard the purple-clothed boy in the water call me mournfully.I'm going to go to the water again.Li Wenping caught it and shouted: "Ah Hong, wake up, you can't go into the water anymore, you will be drowned!" I was still indifferent and insisted on going into the water.Li Wenping's face became fierce, and he slapped me heavily...he tried to wake me up.At this moment, Xiao Sanniang ran over and shouted loudly: "Li Wenping, stop, don't hit my daughter—" Xiao Sanniang pushed Li Wenping away with all her strength: "Don't touch my daughter, get away!" Li Wenping didn't say anything, and left silently, gritting his teeth.Xiao Sanniang touched my red and swollen face with heartache, and murmured, "He is so ruthless! Look at how he beat my daughter like this!" Then, she put her dry hand on my forehead , Close your eyes, muttering something.After a while, I shivered all over and woke up, not knowing what happened, and looked at her blankly: "Mom, what's the matter?" Xiao Sanniang took her hand: "It's nothing, We go home." That night, Xiao Sanniang burned a lot of paper money by the Black Dragon Pool. After returning home, she calmly said to me: "Ah Hong, you should go. Leave at dawn tomorrow, don't stay here anymore, this is no longer your place to stay. Remember, you will never stay here again. Don't come back." "Why?" I was very puzzled. Xiao Sanniang said, "Don't ask why, just remember what I said." I said stubbornly: "I won't go, I want to stay with mom for a few more days, I still have time!" Xiao Sanniang's voice became stern: "No, you have to leave tomorrow morning! If you are my daughter, just listen to me. I won't talk to you anymore. I have packed your things for you. I will call you tomorrow morning. Go to sleep now!" After finishing speaking, he walked into her bedroom and closed the door.I sat alone under the lonely lamp, feeling very sad.There was thunder and lightning outside the house, and the wind was blowing everywhere, and it rained violently after a while.I suddenly had an ominous premonition, as if something big was about to happen.Throughout the night, I was restless and had trouble falling asleep. Early the next morning, Xiao Sanniang made breakfast.She was still so calm, watching me eat.My heart is turbulent.After breakfast, she put my luggage on her shoulders and beckoned me on my way.How unwilling I was to leave her like this, and I walked out of the old house with a sigh of relief.The mountain road washed by the night rain was wet, and the air was also wet. The clouds in the sky gradually receded, revealing a clear blue sky.It should be a beautiful morning, but my heart is full of sadness.When I turned over the valley, I saw Li Wenping, squatting on the side of the road smoking a cigarette, his dark face expressionless.Seeing him, I felt a strange feeling, especially nervous and uneasy, and even a little bit of fear.Xiao Sanniang glanced at him, wanted to say something but didn't say it.After walking for a while, I looked back and found him standing in the middle of the road, looking at me from afar.A vicious thought suddenly appeared in my heart: you will die in the water!I didn't believe that I would have such vicious thoughts, it must be the weasel in my body again.I said in my heart: "No, no! Weasel, don't talk nonsense, don't hurt people anymore!" On the way to the town, I said to Xiao Sanniang: "Mom, don't help others anymore, I will pick you up when my job is settled, live with me, and let me do my part." Filial piety!" Xiao Sanniang didn't speak, and she didn't speak all the way, until I got on the car, she held my hand under the window and said: "Ah Hong, remember, never come back again! Promise me, never come back again!" Don't come back either—" With tears in my eyes, something choked my throat, and I couldn't say anything.After the car started, I saw Xiao Sanniang cry for the first time in my life.She stood in the golden sunshine, waving her withered hands, trembling all over, crying... I didn't know at the time that it was the last farewell between her and me!If I had known, I would have taken her away then! A few days after returning to Shanghai, the news of Xiao Sanniang's death was sent to me by telegram.Immediately after receiving the telegram, I passed out.How cruel this news is, and it makes me unbelievable!How could Xiao Sanniang die without illness or disaster!It was only after I returned to Yezhuao Village that I believed that Xiao Sanniang had really left me forever! Xiao Sanniang's death was related to Li Wenping. On the second night after I left, Li Wenping, who was as strong as an ox, drowned in the Black Dragon Pool.He has always been a very courageous person, and he often goes swimming in the Black Dragon Pool alone, not afraid of the ghosts of those who drowned.This summer was very hot, Li Wenping went swimming in the Black Dragon Pool alone every night, only the water in the Black Dragon Pool was cool because it was deep.That night, Li Wenping did not come ashore alive after entering the water. It was not until dawn that an early fisherman discovered his swollen corpse floating in the water.There is a custom in Yezhuao village that a young man who dies outside the village cannot be carried back to the village. His body was put into a fir coffin on the sand beside Heilongtan, carried to the mountain and buried. Village head Li Da was heartbroken over the death of his son. He was an only seedling, and died before he got married and had children.After burying his son, he walked into his son's bedroom. Normally, Li Wenping always locked his own bedroom to prevent anyone from entering.The son's bedroom is tidy and tidy, not as messy and dirty as the guy in the single mountain.To Li Da's surprise, there were many photo frames hanging on the wall of his son's bedroom, all of which were my photos.他打开了儿子的抽屉，发现满满一抽屉的信，那都是写给我的信，从来也没有邮寄出来的信。看着那些信，李大老泪纵横，喃喃自语：“文平，怪不得你不愿意结婚，给你介绍了那么多好姑娘，你都不要！老巫婆，肖阿红，我儿子是被你们害死的呀！肖阿红那个孽种到底有什么好的呀，你鬼迷心窍了呀。那天中午你回家，脸色那么难看，后来才知道你为了救肖阿红，打了她！一定是老巫婆看你打了肖阿红，怀恨在心，在你身上下了恶咒，害死了你！想当初，你的学习成绩比肖阿红好，可你没有考上大学，她却考上了，还不是老巫婆下了毒咒！可恨的老巫婆，我和你不共戴天！” 那个晚上，没有星星也没有月亮，还刮着南风。有人趁肖三娘睡着了，在我家老屋的四周堆满了干柴和干草，而且堆得很高。那人点燃了干柴和干草，大火在风中熊熊燃烧，我家老屋被无情烧毁，肖三娘也被烧成焦炭，就连老屋后面的那片树林子也被烧掉了，留下遍地的灰烬和残根。纵火者就是村长李大。在我回到野猪坳乡村的那天，他被镇上的公安铐走了，他面无表情，口口声声地说他无罪，他是为民除害。李文平的母亲在家里呼天抢地地哭喊，让人伤怀。 想起了肖三娘送我走的那个早上，看到李文平时，心里那个恶毒的想法，我内心充满了恐惧和悔恨！是我害死了李文平，也是我害死了肖三娘，如果李文平不死，李大就不会烧死她的！原来我是罪魁祸首。想起这些年来因我而死而残的人，我的脑袋要爆炸！我不能再让黄鼠狼住在身体里了，这样下去，还不知道会发生什么骇人的事情！ 我回来前，乡亲们就把肖三娘烧成焦炭的尸体埋了，就埋在老屋后面烧毁的树林子里，乡亲们说，只有肖三娘才能镇住提着头在黑夜里到处游走的厉鬼，所以就把她埋在了这里。我跪在肖三娘的坟前，泣不成声，心如刀割。我无法形容我的悲伤和悔恨。我痛苦地说：“妈姆，女儿对不起你，是我害死了你呀，你这一生为了我含辛茹苦，没有享过一天清福，女儿有罪呀！妈姆，女儿再也不想害人了，那些被害的人，都不是坏人，我有罪呀！妈姆，请你的在天之灵最后帮我一次吧，让我身体里的黄鼠狼离开，让它永远不要缠着我了，我不能再害人了，否则我会疯掉的！妈姆，我知道你在看着我，你就帮我最后一次吧！” 我仿佛听到一声长长的叹息。 体内的黄鼠狼骚动不安，它在我肚子里上蹿下跳，悲凄地央求我不要让它离开。可我已经彻底下了决心，它要不离开，我将永无宁日。不一会，狂风大作，肖三娘坟前纸钱灰纷飞，顿时暗无天日。我感觉到肖三娘显灵了，黄鼠狼在我肚子里发出绝望的哀叫！我也晕了过去。醒过来后，天地之间恢复了平静，我觉得身体空空的，黄鼠狼一定是离开了我的身体！ 离开野猪坳乡村的时候，很多乡亲来送我，这是我没有想到的事情。他们一直把我送到那个山坳，叮咛我往后一定要抽时间回来，尽管肖三娘不在了，这里还是你的根！我含泪点点头，说：“我一定会回来的！” 回到上海，我收到了一封信。 那是肖三娘写给我的，就在那天她送我离开后，就把写好的信拿到小镇的邮局寄了。信的内容是这样的：阿红，不要怪我赶你走，你要不走，会出大事的！所以我不得不让你走！其实我哪舍得你离开哪！阿红，妈姆隐瞒了一件事情，隐瞒了二十来年，从我把哭叫着饿得快断气了的你抱过来，就想隐瞒你一辈子的。可我现在想通了，做人不能那么自私，应该替别人着想。也许你早就听说了，你不是我的亲生女儿，他们说的是正确的，我确实不是你的生身母亲，我这一生从来没有结过婚，哪里会有孩子！你的母亲叫梅姗，她是野猪坳最漂亮的女子，和你一样漂亮，你长得也像她。你父亲叫顾新，他来信告诉我，已经和你见过面了，也详细地讲了你的身世，他说得没错，我也不在这里多说了。说实话，顾新不是个好男人，我曾经也很仇恨他，为他的绝情！可他一直在忏悔，希望能够和你相认。我也一直在想，该不该让你和他相认，我也知道，就是相认了，你也很难会接受这个父亲。我想了很多，想想，世上有什么疙瘩是解不开的呢？况且，他也受尽了折磨，为自己的行为付出了代价，从他的来信中，可以看出他的良心并没有泯灭！所以，我现在对你说，接受他吧。不要恨他，仇恨是最恶毒的药，伤人也伤己。我知道你有一片孝心，希望以后能够接我到上海，和你一起生活。我明确对你说，我不会和你去的，可我心里十分安慰，你是个有良心的人。为什么我不会和你去，有两个原因。第一，我已经习惯了野猪坳的生活，到上海那个大地方，我会不习惯，会很失落，我这个又老又丑的老巫婆，会给你的生活带来很大的麻烦！第二，我也活不了几天了，冥冥之中，有种特别的感应，我该离开这个世界了。我也许会死得很惨，那是我的命，没有人能够改变！我只想告诉你，我死后，你也不要回来，好好过你的日子！如果我的死是别人加害的，你也不要去恨别人，那是天意！我走了后，你就再不要回来了，对你父亲好点，他很快也老了，没有他也就没有你，那是不能改变的父女情！最后还是那句话，仇恨是最恶毒的药！心里千万不要有恨，那样你会活得平静，活得有滋味！你好好活着，是对我最大的报答！阿红，永别了！ 我伤心欲绝！ 未来会怎么样，我不知道。 我总是觉得还有什么事情会发生，我的生活不可能像肖三娘说的那样平静。