Chapter 3 Chapter 2 Actually We Are All Evil Seeds

Weasel really entered the girl's body?What happened next? Su Xiaosan was tormented by the contents of that mysterious letter, and she vaguely felt that something ominous was about to happen in reality.When the morning sun poured in through the window, Su Xiaosan's blood gradually warmed up.Sunshine often brought her comfort.She walked to the window and looked at the world outside the window. How many people were like her, whose lonely and fearful hearts were awakened by the sun. What kind of world would it be if there were no night to come, and no haze to cover the sky? Su Xiaosan sighed, sat at the desk, turned on the computer, and prepared for a new day of work.After graduating from university, she worked as an art editor for a tabloid for a period of time. Because a certain vice president of the newspaper coveted her beauty and often harassed her, she resigned and left the newspaper.For this matter, his girlfriend criticized Su Xiaosan to Hanlan for resigning too hastily, and should use the vice president to get greater benefits.Su Xiaosan retorted, is it disgusting to be so evil? Goose bumps all over her body when she saw his ghostly appearance.Said to Hanlan, what's so disgusting, everyone has what they need, these days, people still post up when they have nothing to do, you still take it so seriously, you are sick!Su Xiaosan said, what other people do has nothing to do with me, I am who I am, so I feel disgusting!

After leaving the newspaper office, she stayed at home and didn't bother looking for a job.Going around on the Internet every day is boring.It wasn't until her meager savings were spent that she panicked.She had few friends and no relatives, so she had to ask Xiang Hanlan for help.He sent some money to Hanlan and asked her to find something to do quickly.Su Xiaosan was extremely insecure and worried that she would encounter new troubles after finding a new job. Xiang Hanlan was very helpless. After thinking about it, she contacted several publishers and drew illustrations and designed covers for them.Su Xiaosan was very grateful, and said that she would give Xiang Hanlan a commission, Xiang Hanlan smiled and said, I still don't like this little money.Su Xiaosan knew that she was working in a foreign company and was well paid.

Su Xiaosan took over a few cover jobs from Wang Ba yesterday, so she had to read the manuscript before conceiving.She works seriously, and never designs without reading the manuscript. Only after thoroughly understanding the essence of the manuscript, can the cover she designed be of high quality. The cover is the face of the book, just like everyone's face, each with its own characteristics. She clicked on the file of a manuscript, and felt a headache after reading a few lines. This is a horror novel called "Dark Kiss".The beginning of the novel is not very attractive, not as good as the content of the mysterious letter.

She suddenly became irritable. Su Xiaosan picked up the letter and read it carefully. The weasel and the girl named Ahong occupied her heart. Work cannot continue. Su Xiaosan really hoped that someone would talk to her, even if it was about trivial matters.The first person she thought of was Xiang Hanlan.Su Xiaosan called her, and her phone was turned off.In fact, a few days ago, Su Xiaosan called her, but the phone was also turned off, and no one answered the landline at home.How could she have disappeared like Chen Huaiyuan?She was not like this before, if she went to other places, she would always talk to Su Xiaosan first, and her mobile phone was rarely turned off.

There are so many bad people in society now... Nothing will happen to Xiang Hanlan, right?Just like in her nightmares... Su Xiaosan didn't dare to think deeply, the more she thought about it, the more frightened she became.In order to divert her bad emotions, Su Xiaosan decided to listen to music.Turning on the record player, a sad song floated out: This is a song Su Xiaosan likes very much, "Sunshine Turns Light Blue" by Wang Zheng. In those days when Chen Huaiyuan disappeared, Su Xiaosan often held a cup of hot coffee in both hands in the afternoon, listening to the song played repeatedly on the record player, and tears fell silently.The coffee was cold, but she didn't take a sip, and the tears on her face were cold, but she didn't wipe it either.

Su Xiaosan's heart suddenly softened. She thought of Chen Huaiyuan. The singing continued sadly: Su Xiaosan turned off the record player. She no longer thought about the cruel Chen Huaiyuan. Su Xiaosan's eyes fell on the alarm clock on the table, and she whispered to herself: "It's already eleven o'clock, this morning is wasted like this, my precious time!" She didn't go back to the computer to read " Dark Kiss, but decided to go downstairs to see if there was a mysterious letter in the mailbox. Before opening the door, Su Xiaosan put her eyes on the cat's eye, and only went out after making sure that there was no one outside the door.She was afraid that the short man standing outside the door would rush in the moment the door opened.

Going out, entering the elevator, exiting the elevator door, and coming to the mailbox, Su Xiaosan was always worried, even when she was opening the mailbox, she still glanced vigilantly out of the corner of her eye.A security guard from a community passed by outside and took a look at her. She caught his gaze accurately and felt that his gaze was a bit dark. Did he want to plot against her?Su Xiaosan shivered.She didn't understand why there was such an inexplicable idea. There was a letter lying quietly in the mailbox, the words on the envelope were still so pretty. Su Xiaosan's heart rose to her throat.

Her breathing became short of breath. Surprised and terrified. I am the first person in Yezhuao village to be admitted to university. People in the village looked at me strangely, as if I were a freak.I don't take it seriously, since I was a child, I have been bathed in their contemptuous and unpredictable eyes.Because my mother Xiao Sanniang is not a normal person, so I am also a monster, although I grew up from a delicate girl to a beautiful big girl.People in the village avoided us like ghosts, and even the children who went to school with me did not dare to approach me for fear of being poisoned by me.Li Wenping, the son of the village chief Li Da, is my classmate and the only person in the village who has a good impression of me, but he doesn't dare to approach me, but often peeks at me from a distance.I want to talk to him in the past and ask him, you obviously like me, why don't you dare to tell me?When I approached him, he panicked and ran away quickly.All that liking for him is gone, and I don't like a coward.

In fact, Li Wenping's academic performance was better than mine. He didn't get into university that year, but I did.There is a saying in the village that I was admitted to university because my mother cast a spell, and Li Wenping failed because my mother cast a spell.When I was taking the exam in the exam room, Xiao Sanniang, like many parents, waited anxiously outside the exam room.After the exam, I walked out of the exam room and looked for her in the crowd.Xiao Sanniang stayed away from the crowd and sat alone under a tree next to the playground, expressionless.Seeing me coming, she stood up, wanted to say something but didn't say anything, just took my hand and took me to a restaurant for dinner.Along the way, people avoided us because Xiao Sanniang was ugly.I don't know if my mother cast a spell during my exam, I just feel the weasel inside me calling.

I also disapproved of what the villagers said, just like they said I was a villain.While I was growing up like a weed, I would hear rumors.Those gossip spreaders always talk about things that are created out of nothing, and while they vilify me, they also try to vilify Xiao Sanniang as much as possible. They said that a painter who sketched from life once came to Yezhuao Village, and that painter lived in Xiao Sanniang's home.The painter fell in love with a little widow in the village. The little widow was pretty, and the painter regarded her as a fairy descended from the earth.The painter didn't dare to seduce her blatantly, but just painted her in the painting, and the room where he lived was covered with portraits of the little widow.Xiao Sanniang often heard the painter's sad cry late at night.One late night, Xiao Sanniang pushed open the door of the painter's room and said to him coldly: "Do you really like her?" The painter wiped away his tears and nodded.Xiao Sanniang's words were particularly evil: "I can help you get her, how do you repay me?" The painter said: "How do you need me to repay you?" Xiao Sanniang said coldly: "Money!" The painter reached an agreement with her. this deal.Xiao Sanniang drew a spell and gave it to the painter: "As long as you burn this thing to ashes and let her drink it, she will be yours forever, and you can't drive her away." While working in the garden, he quietly put the ashes of the spell into the bamboo tube that the little widow held herbal tea... That night, when the moon was shining and the old camphor tree at the head of the village heard the sound of an owl, Xiao Sanniang opened the door and stood. Chanting mantras at the door of the house.A fire gradually ignited inside the little widow lying on her sleeping bed.The fire was burning hotter and hotter, and the little widow kept rolling on the bed, moaning in pain.The raging fire made her dizzy. In the daze, the painter's face appeared in front of her eyes. She reached out to grab the painter's face, but she couldn't catch it.The painter's face gradually moved away, and the little widow heard the painter's call: "Come, come to me, come to me—" The little widow got up from the bed and walked out of the house.The painter's face is like a red lantern, guiding her to Xiao Sanniang's home.The little widow walked into Xiao Sanniang's house, turning a blind eye to the witch standing at the door.After Xiao Sanniang watched her enter the painter's bedroom, she closed the door... The little widow went to Xiao Sanniang's house to spend the night every night, until she was pregnant with the painter's child. Only her family knew about the adultery.The little widow's parents-in-law are all honest people, and they didn't want to make things big, so they found Xiao Sanniang, and as long as the painter agreed to marry the little widow, let her go with the painter, which was an explanation to her.The painter agreed to the little widow's parents-in-law, but left the village of Yezhuao on a misty morning.The little widow believed that he would come back to take her away, but when the child was born, the painter did not come back either.On the same foggy morning, someone found the little widow's body among the water plants by the river...

I don't believe it, I really don't believe that poor little widow is my mother, my mother is Xiao Sanniang, even though I don't know who my father is, it doesn't matter to me whether I have a father or not, the important thing is that no one She will treat me as well as Xiao Sanniang did.Sometimes, I would believe a certain detail in the rumors, hoping that I could have Xiao Sanniang’s witchcraft, draw a spell and burn it to ashes for Li Wenping to eat, so that he could speak to me bravely. It didn't come to my mind either. Because of rumors that Xiao Sanniang cast a spell on me to be admitted to university, the village head Li Da was very angry. According to his idea, the first college student in Yezhuao Village should be his son Li Wenping.Just a few nights before I left Yezhuao Village, Li Da, who was drunk, led a group of villagers to surround our house with torches.It's very funny to think about it, the village head Li Da actually asked me to give up the college admission letter to Li Wenping, and let him go to college instead of me.Those villagers also yelled, forcing me to hand over my admission letter.Don't say I disagree, even if Xiao Sanniang is killed, she will not agree.Xiao Sanniang opened the door of the house with bare hands and walked out without hesitation, exposing herself to the eyes of angry villagers.Xiao Sanniang said calmly: "Da Li, what do you want?" "Otherwise what?" Li Da stared and said, "Otherwise, your house will be ordered!" Xiao Sanniang said coldly, "How dare you! Do you think you can do whatever you want during the 'Cultural Revolution'? Give it a try!" At this time, I walked out of the house and stood in front of Xiao Sanniang. I also said coldly: "Go home quickly, your chickens are all dead, if you don't leave, people will die too!" I was amazed, it wasn't what I was going to say, it was what the weasel inside me was saying. At this moment, someone came up and said, "It's not good, it's not good, all the chickens in the village are dead, and they were fine just now—" People were shocked, they came to their senses, Xiao Sanniang is a witch!The villagers retreated like a tide. Xiao Sanniang said to me: "Son, you can go to school with peace of mind, everything will be borne by the retribution mother." I don't understand what she means. In fact, what happened this night has already planted the seeds of disaster for Xiao Sanniang. Yezhuao dilapidated village fell silent, like a huge grave. I was admitted by a university in Shanghai. When I filled out my application form, I asked Xiao Sanniang for her opinion.She said: "You can go wherever you like. Mother can't control your future. Mother only wants you to leave this place far away." In fact, my longing for that place in Shanghai is related to a Shanghai educated youth in my early years.That Shanghai educated youth was called Wang Hairong. He was neither tall nor short, wearing glasses, with a rosy baby face, lively and lively.He lives in Li Wenping's house, but he likes to run to my house. Other educated youths are afraid of my mother, but he is not. He always curiously asks Xiao Sanniang about the secrets of witchcraft.Xiao Sanniang would never tell him, but he still came to my house tirelessly, but Xiao Sanniang ignored him, so he told me about things in Shanghai.He first learned about the Bund, Waibaidu Bridge, Nanjing Road and small alleys. When Wang Hairong told me about Shanghai, his eyes shone with charming color. From his eyes, I could feel his love for Shanghai, and I could also feel the water of tenderness overflowing my heart.Never has a man talked to me so patiently.No matter what he says, it can make my heart beat.I would often stare into his eyes and feel that he is the closest person to me besides Xiao Sanniang.After he finished talking to me, I didn't want him to leave. He would talk to me all the time. How happy that should be. You must know how lacking language is in my life. Xiao Sanniang seldom talks to me. People don't talk to me either, and a lot of the time, I feel like I'm dumb.After he left, I would have a heavy sense of loss in my heart, looking forward to his coming again.It was Wang Hairong who let me know the wonder of language and how boring life without language is. In those years, I longed for him to talk to me all the time, day and night. In that way, I Young minds bloom. He would also take me to the river on some beautiful sunset evenings, sit on the grass and tell me stories, and then send me home, holding my little hand.At that time, I felt that I was the happiest person in Yezhuao Village, even though the villagers all cast unpredictable glances at me.There are also some people who pretend to be kind and persuade him not to associate with us, but he always laughs it off and still comes to our house... The good times don’t last long, I didn’t expect him to be struck to death by lightning that summer.He was cutting rice in the field with the villagers, when suddenly there was lightning and thunder in the sky, and it began to rain heavily. He quickly ran under a tree, and before the villagers had time to say anything to him, a strong bolt of lightning landed on the tree. On the tree, he burned into coke with the tree... I will always remember the way he spoke, and the scene of his warm hand holding mine. Long after he died, I would cry secretly, hoping that he Being able to come back... The Shanghai he described has also become a place I yearn for. When I arrived in Shanghai, I realized that I was an ominous person... Su Xiaosan's heart ached inexplicably. It was like a knife had been stabbed in the heart. Is this mysterious sender A Hong, the protagonist in the letter?If the account in the letter is true, why did you tell me her story?Su Xiaosan thought. Ah Hong is also an abandoned girl, but she firmly does not believe that she is an evil. She didn't doubt that Xiao Sanniang was her adoptive mother. Su Xiaosan murmured: "Actually, we are all evil." She is not like Ah Hong, who faced it calmly after knowing that she was an abandoned illegitimate daughter. Su Xiaosan clearly remembered that the night when her adoptive father and adoptive mother were arguing about her affairs, she quietly shed tears all night.One morning after her adoptive father Su Guoqing left home, she sneaked out of the house, walked through the narrow alley, and ran to the street.Along the way, Su Xiaosan asked everyone she met, "Do you know where my biological mother is? Tell me, where is she? I want to find her." No one could answer the girl's question.The kind aunt said to her: "Poor child, go home quickly, you will be anxious if your family can't find you!" She said: "I won't go home, I want to find my biological mother—" Yang Xueli found out Su Xiaosan was gone, she was really anxious, she looked around, and finally found her sitting there in a daze on the steps by the Suzhou River.Later, when she grew up, she never stopped thinking about finding her biological mother. It was impossible to find out the whereabouts of her biological mother from Yang Xueli's mouth, and she would not open her mouth to Yang Xueli, because she did not want to hurt her adoptive mother's loving heart.Su Xiaosan firmly believes that her biological mother is still alive, maybe in a corner of the city, and she doesn't know her even if she meets her.Su Xiaosan was eager to find her, not for anything else, but just wanted to see what kind of mother she was, and wanted to ask her why she ruthlessly abandoned herself in the first place. She once talked about this with Chen Huaiyuan. Chen Huaiyuan promised to search with her, but whenever she made up her mind to find her biological mother, he left without saying goodbye.Because there was no clue about her biological mother, she dismissed the idea.Today, after reading this mysterious letter, Su Xiaosan's desire to find her biological mother inexplicably became stronger. Su Xiaosan thought of her adoptive father, Su Guoqing. It didn't take much effort to find Su Guoqing. Su Xiaosan knew where he lived.Yang Xueli took her to see Su Guoqing before she died. Because Su Guoqing's lower body was paralyzed.The woman with freckles on his face also ran away with others, and the son who was born to the woman with freckles didn't care about his life at all. He moved out a long time ago, and being able to come back to see him once a year is a high incense.Facing Yang Xueli and Su Xiaosan who came to visit him, Su Guoqing put on a condescending air.The words were not speculative, and without saying a few words, Yang Xueli left him two hundred dollars, and then led Su Xiaosan away.Su Guoqing held the two hundred-yuan bills tightly in his hand, but said in his mouth: "I don't want your charity, I live well!" Su Xiaosan said: "Mom, he is like this, why do you give him back the money?" !" Yang Xueli sighed and said: "Don't listen to him, he is pitiful, I don't know how regretful he is, he is a person who wants to save face and suffer!" Su Xiaosan occasionally turned her head and found that Su Guoqing was sitting in a wheelchair with the back of his hand. Wipe his eyes, maybe sand got in his eyes. Su Xiaosan didn't take the subway or squeeze the bus, but hailed a taxi and came to Jiatian Road.After getting out of the car, she turned into a small alley.The small alley was filled with the smell of urine, Su Xiaosan covered her mouth while walking.This is an old neighborhood that is said to be demolished soon.Turning a corner, she saw Su Guoqing.With his eyes closed, he sat alone in a wheelchair and basked in the sun. People are lonely. That's why groups are needed. Only the family is needed. You need friends, you need parties. Only then do we need to form cliques and yell together. Only the invisible and intangible love is needed. Still, man is alone, and lives or dies alone. Su Xiaosan stood quietly in front of Su Guoqing, looking down at this pale and skinny old man.The corners of his eyes were covered with yellow gum, which showed his loneliness and loneliness, and he was completely different from the man who beat and scolded her ferociously.At that time, Su Guoqing hated her deeply, and when he came home from get off work, he would look furious when he saw her, and never gave her a good look.When the young Su Xiaosan saw him, she was terrified and couldn't hide in time.If Yang Xueli wasn't around, Su Guoqing would grab her cursingly, spank her little butt with a big slap, and sometimes pull her ears hard... No matter how he tortured Su Xiaosan, she would have a life It's not as good as death, and I dare not cry out loud, because it will arouse Su Guoqing's anger even more, and it will aggravate her torture.If Yang Xueli was at home, Su Guoqing would not dare to torture her unscrupulously, but when she saw him, she would hide behind Yang Xueli's ass.Yang Xueli said softly: "Don't be afraid, Xiaosan, he is your father!" Su Xiaosan thought, he is not her father, and her father would not abuse her like this.Su Xiaosan's fear of men began because of Su Guoqing.In her eyes, Su Guoqing was once the incarnation of the devil.So, when Su Guoqing left home, Su Xiaosan was secretly happy, but she still avoided men, as long as a man appeared at home, Su Xiaosan would panic for no reason. Su Xiaosan felt sad. Su Guoqing opened his eyes, rubbed his yellow eyes and said, "You, are you Xiaosan?" Su Xiaosan nodded. Su Guoqing didn't have the strength to put on a show anymore, so he smacked his lips and said, "Are you here to ask for child support?" Su Xiaosan sighed and said, "When did you pay child support?" Su Guoqing smiled awkwardly: "Yes, yes, you are not my daughter, so why should I pay you child support. Besides, you have grown up and started working, right?" Su Xiaosan remembered what her adoptive mother said before her death, and she calmed down a lot: "No matter what, I have to call you Dad. You must be thinking in your heart, why should I come to you?" Su Guoqing nodded: "You won't be like that white-eyed wolf, come to make an idea of ​​this old house, it will indeed be demolished soon, and you can get a demolition fee." Su Xiaosan knew that Baiyanlang was his son with the freckled woman. She said: "Why should I want to hit your old house? I'm not your biological daughter!" Su Guoqing said curiously: "Then what are you doing here? Treat me to dinner?" Su Xiaosan smiled: "It's a beautiful idea. I just want to ask you, who is my biological mother? You just need to tell me her name." The smile on Su Guoqing's face disappeared, and he opened his eyes wide, trying to remember. Su Xiaosan was waiting, filled with some kind of longing, but also uneasy. After a long time, Su Guoqing said: "I can't remember, I really can't remember, Shirley seems to have told me... no, she didn't say your biological mother's name, it seems that she didn't I know who it is. It’s just that you were placed by the Suzhou River. Because it was drizzling that day, a small umbrella was covered over you. Yes, that’s right, because of that small umbrella, your name is Umbrella, your name was chosen by Shirley. The name sounds good, but your life is cheap! At that time, I wanted to throw away the little umbrella, but Shirley refused, and she said I would keep it for you. Shirley died, You should get the little umbrella, right? That's all I know, really, I've told a lot of lies in my life, and what I told you today are all true." Finding the birth mother was already a slim possibility. Su Xiaosan was still very disappointed. She took out 200 yuan from her bag and put it in Su Guoqing's chicken paw-like hands: "I don't make much money now, so it's interesting. If you have any difficulties, you can come to me. I will definitely do it if I can." manage." Su Guoqing did not speak. He just stared at Su Xiaosan blankly, his eyes moistened. Su Xiaosan turned around and left without looking back. A long sigh accompanied by crying came from behind. The sun was falling like rain.